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Elliot Stabler awoke to a ceiling he hadn’t seen in years. It wasn’t just any ceiling—it was one he knew intimately. His ceiling. The ceiling from his old bedroom in Queens. He blinked, trying to clear the haze from his mind.
With a groan, he turned his head to the left—and froze.
There was someone in his bed.
A blonde woman lay beside him, peacefully asleep. His mind raced. What the hell? How could he have ended up here, in bed with a stranger, after everything with Olivia? Her compass speech echoed in his mind, that promise of finding happiness—and the unspoken hope that happiness might lead to him. He had silently vowed to do better. Be better. And now this?
Slowly, he shifted onto his knees, bracing himself. No pain. His body moved easily, like it hadn’t in years. That threw him. He scanned the room—it was exactly as he remembered from decades ago.
His gaze drifted back to the woman. She stirred, her face coming into view.
Kathy.
His breath caught. She looked young. Healthy. Like she had before the explosion. Before the hospital.
"Elliot?" she asked groggily, her voice warm and familiar. "Are you okay?"
Elliot couldn’t speak. His mouth opened and closed as he stared, paralyzed by the impossibility of it all. His mind scrambled to explain—maybe it was a hallucination. That had happened before. Memories, guilt, and pressure bleeding into vivid dreams. But this was too real. He saw the concern in her eyes, heard the gentle lilt in her voice that he had once taken for granted.
She sat up, brushing a hand through her hair, then moved closer. One hand rested on his shoulder, the other on his leg.
"Elliot? You're scaring me. Should I call a doctor?"
Her touch was real. Warm. Steady.
He swallowed, eyes shutting for a moment. This couldn’t be real... could it?
"I'm... I'm okay," he finally said, opening his eyes. "Just… had a nightmare."
Her expression softened. "Jenna again?"
He blinked. "Jenna?"
"Yeah, you’ve been dreaming about her a lot lately," she said, studying him.
He hesitated. "Maybe."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"No," he replied quickly. "No, it's fine. I just... need a minute."
Kathy nodded, still watching him with worry. "Okay. If you need me, I’ll be right here."
He nodded and got out of bed. His body moved too easily. He walked to the bathroom, closed the door, and stared at the mirror.
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The man looking back was one he no longer was used to. The lines and gray were gone. He looked younger.
He ran a hand along his jaw, then down to his chest. Some scars were missing. His hairline was fuller. His muscles, though, had thinned. He frowned at his leaner frame.
"I didn’t fight to get all those muscles just to lose them overnight…" He sighed, shaking his head. "At least I still have my hair. Well... sort of."
He chuckled softly at himself, trying to stay calm.
Five minutes passed as he scanned his face and body, still trying to make sense of things, before Kathy’s voice broke the silence.
"Elliot? Everything okay in there? I don’t hear the water running."
"I'm fine," he called out, embarrassed by the excuse he blurted next. "Just a bit... constipated."
There was a pause. Then she laughed. "After all that chili you ate yesterday? I thought we'd be calling the plumber today!"
He chuckled, glancing toward the door as if he could see her on the other side. "Nothing's coming out yet, but I’m good. Just gonna brush my teeth."
"Alright. I’ll get the kids moving."
Her words hit him like ice water. His kids. If he was this young again, his children would be, too. But how young?
What year is it?
At least he knew it had to be after Jenna’s death but before Rome; so somewhere between May 2011 and July 2013. It was cold outside, so probably winter or early spring.
Elliot splashed water on his face, trying to steady himself. He took a quick shower, letting the warmth wake him up fully. This wasn’t a dream.
When he returned to the bedroom, he opened the closet. The clothes inside were nothing like what he wore now. No tailored suits or Rome-inspired styles. Just practical, casual clothes—t-shirts, jerseys, and jeans.
He pulled on a jersey and jeans, deciding to keep it simple. He wasn’t sure he could handle anything more formal right now.
Dressed, he headed downstairs.
Voices and laughter reached him before he even saw the kitchen. He stopped at the doorway, watching the scene unfold before him like a long-forgotten dream. His children were all here—or at least, those who still lived at home.
Dickie and Lizzie sat at the table, bickering over something trivial. Kathleen, who was staying home to save money during her final year of university, scrolled on her phone, sipping coffee. And little Eli—now so much younger—ate cereal, his feet swinging under the table.
Kathy, standing at the stove, served breakfast while keeping the kids in line. Her presence hit Elliot again. So real. So alive. She looked up and smiled when she saw him.
"There you are," she said. "Thought you got lost in there."
Elliot didn’t respond right away. He stood in the doorway, taking it all in. His family—whole, together, young.
“Dad?” Lizzie asked, glancing up from her plate. "You okay?"
Elliot blinked and snapped out of his daze. "Yeah. Just... morning fog." He walked to the table and sat down.
He watched the organized chaos around him—kids teasing, plates clattering, Kathy reminding them to hurry up. It was noise, but not the kind that grated on him. It was life. Something he hadn’t experienced in years.
One by one, the kids finished their breakfast and left. Kathleen grabbed her bag and called out, "Bye, Dad," as she headed out the door. Lizzie and Dickie followed.
In minutes, the house grew quiet again. Elliot stayed at the table, staring at the door they had just closed.
Kathy returned, wiping her hands on a dish towel. She gave him a curious look.
"You're quiet this morning," she said, sitting beside him. "Is it still that nightmare?"
"Maybe," he murmured. "It’s just… a lot on my mind."
She reached for his hand, giving it a light squeeze. "But you’re here now. That’s what matters."
Elliot nodded slowly, his mind still racing.
Here. Now. But when... and how?