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A breathy sigh, smoke filling the air as I take another drag. Bitterly cold air piercing my skin drowned out by the warm haze brought by a cigarette.
Attempts to drown out the thoughts that continue to linger, eventually replaced by thoughts of him. How foolish could I be to fall for someone like that? It feels as if everything fades away when were together.
My face feels warm just thinking about him, it's frustrating.. even with all the upsetting thoughts gone, the fact that he's taken their place drives me mad. I wonder if he plans on staying. It feels as if he may disappear forever if I let him stray too far away.
Putting out the cigarette, I remain stagnant in my bedroom. The silence weighs heavy on my conscious. It's cold once more but the warmth of the thoughts he invades is faint. I pick up my phone and dial.
It rings..
And rings...
And— ..I'm starting to feel desperate.
I was practically holding my breath till he picked up. Feeling goosebumps on my skin hearing his groggy voice saying my name in a puzzled tone. The warmth begins to spread across my chest. A fuzzy, suffocating feeling.
' Hello? '
Right. The phone.
' Everything alright, Meds? '
'.. I... I think so. '
' Y'Sure? I wouldn't expect you to call me at one in th' morning if it weren't important.. '
Is it really that late already? SFOTH, I'm an idiot.
' ... Apologies.. I hadn't realized the time.. '
Silence.. then a grumble.
' It's fine, Meds. Y'Need anything? '
' I just wanted to talk to you... if. That's alright with you of course.. '
' I'd love to chat with you but I honestly might fall asleep on ya 'nd the last thing I'd want to do is that. '
Right.
' Ah.. right. Sorry. Um... '
' Why don't you just come over? Y'Don't live that far away.. '
What?
' Are you sure? '
' Yeah I wouldn't mind.. I'd offer to come to your place but I don't feel like getting up.. Now hurry up 'nd get over here.. '
' Right.. '
Then the line went silent.
Obviously I got up and put shoes and a jacket on, locking up my apartment before nearly sprinting to the nearest station. ..That far, he said.. although he's a good train ride away from where I live. Whatever.. It'll be worth it.
The screech of tires against the tracks and the chime over the PA system waking me up, now quickly stepping off the train, trying to rack my brain for which direction to go in again..
Quickly making my way to his home, I nearly knocked before remembering how late it was.. it was probably unlocked.. and of course, it was. I was a bit too eager to enter, quickly locking the door and removing my shoes and coat.
Looking around at the photos and things hung on the wall.. he was everywhere... although that would be obvious it was his house after all.. even the air holds his scent.. and it only grew as I neared his bedroom.
I dont know why I'm so hesitant to open the door, I was invited, after all... maybe I just don't want to seem too eager.. gods, I'm pathetic.. Slowly turning the doornob and pushing the door open, being met with a sight that makes my heart nearly stop, as cheesy as it is.
Banhammer sleepily looked up at me, a mix of shock and happiness on his face as I approached the bed.
' Meds.. m'getting cold again.. c'mere already.. '
I nod, awkwardly slipping into the unoccupied part in the bed, near immediately being slipped into an embrace by the warden. It was warm.. I couldn't help but return the hug.. the slight charcoal scent mixed with lavender filling my lungs, as intoxicating as it was I couldn't help but cling tighter.
' You're all cold.. yeesh. Now I'm glad I wasn't the one out there.. haha. '
Gods his laugh just made me feel even warmer.. I couldn't help but bury my face into him. Clearly he didn't seem opposed to the affection.. he simply let out a yawn.
' Mmm.. It's late, Med. '
' Mhm.. '
' Let's go to bed... too cozy to even think about getting up right now.. '
' Of course.. '
I would be lying if I said I wasn't slowly passing out from all of this.. it was too comfortable not to fall asleep.. I never want to let go of such a feeling.
' Goodnight, Banhammer.. '
' Mmm.. 'Night, Meds. '
Sleep slowly overcame us both, a constant warmth pressed up against me, a comforting warmth. Such a small world, I wouldn't mind if this was all it was. Just me and him.. and the air in between. Mm.
This seems like it's everything to me.