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Mick had assigned Po to film content at the Mars dorm today and at this very moment Po was standing right outside the groups house. Po is supposed to film the boys for a whole day. As a result, he will be spending the night with them too. He took a deep breath, preparing himself to go in. Po had been excited to see them, he loved the boys. All of them were very kind and caring towards each other, and towards Po too. Especially Thame, he seemed to be fond of Po the most, and Po was the fondest of him too. However, Thame is very reason Po is dreading this filming. He has come to accept the fact that he has caught feeling for Thame. Sometimes he believes that Thame might like him too, but he also thinks he might just be delusional. Po is not the only one seems to like Thame, and Thame also seems fonder of this person than he is of the other members. Perhaps it was just their close friendship, and Po was making it all up in his head or perhaps there really is more than friendship, but Po hated that thought. He wanted Thame for himself. He didn’t want another person to be close to Thame the way he wanted to be. After taking another deep breath, he finally decided to enter the house. Po hoped he would be able to keep his feeling under control. A full 24 hours with Thame might just make him insane.
Entering the house, Po was first greeted by a very excited Nano. This was followed by everyone else greeting him too before going back to what they were doing, other than Nano who got up from his bean bag chair to help Po with all his bags. Pepper was standing at the whiteboard writing a list of potential activities for the next 24 hours. Dylan was sitting in a bean bag chair; he had his arms crossed and headphones on. Judging by his facial expression it seemed that Dylan had something on his mind, it didn’t look to a very pleasant thought. On the couch were Jun and Thame. They were laughing at something on Jun’s phone. Po could see all the glances Jun was giving to Thame, the way he looked at Thame like he was the only person in the whole universe. He noticed the way Jun had tried to sneak ways to touch Thame. It made his chest hurt, although Po knew how close Jun and Thame are, he thought they were a little too close to just be friends. Although he found Jun’s feelings easy to read, he knew Jun liked Thame in a way that isn’t just platonic, he struggled to understand how Thame felt. Thame had treated Po so gently and caringly, as if Po was fragile glass that could break at any moment. No one has treated Po this way, and Po enjoyed this treatment. He wanted to be taken care of by Thame, he also wanted to care for Thame in return too. Other time however, Thame was more focused in Jun, ignoring Po and his presence in the place. Just like now. Thame had only briefly acknowledged Po before returning his attention to Jun. It was almost like Po was only special whenever Jun wasn’t there.
“Wow, Po!” Nano exclaimed. “You bought so many snacks!” This made Po snap out of his thoughts. He looked at Nano whose eyes seem to sparkle with excitement looking at all the snacks.
“I didn’t want to come empty handed” Po stated.
“You’re so kind Po! I could kiss you right now!” said Nano right before he turned around and made his way to the kitchen. Po was left a little startled and frozen after such a statement. Po also didn’t miss the way Thame had glanced over at them the moment Nano said that. The way his smile dropped a bit, the way his eyes almost showed some jealousy. Po was actually glad Nano had said that, he got Thames’ attention on him. At least for a little while.
“Thame, this is the best part of the video.” Jun whined as soon as soon he noticed Thame was not paying attention.
“Oh, sorry.” Thame apologized and moved his attention back to the video Jun was showing. Seconds later he was laughing at the video. Once more Po was sad, he had wished Thame kept his attention on him longer. Po had decided to push his feelings aside and follow Nano into the kitchen. The first filming was taking place in the kitchen. They had agreed that Nano would prepare lunch for the other members as a way of showcasing to the fans that even though he is the youngest and is usually the one being taken care of by the others, he too can care for other members.
While Po was busy observing Thame and Jun, he didn’t notice that he wasn’t the only one who paid such close attention to them. There was also Dylan. He kept sneaking glances at them. His eyes were a mixed of annoyance and love. He tried so hard to ignore them and pretend that they are not there. Opening apps and closing them immediately, nothing had his attention the way Jun did. He wanted Jun to pay attention to him too, to show him funny videos, to look at him the way he looks at Thame, to try and touch him the way he tries to touch Thame. He had tried to get Juns’ attention many times, tried to catch his eye, make Jun fall for him but in the end, Jun fell for Thame. He was so confused and upset. What did he do wrong? All his attempts have led to nothing. Meanwhile, Thame never flirted with Jun, never tried to get his attention the way Dylan did. Dylan was frustrated and angry. Years of love he poured into Jun, and he got nothing in return. Thame got it all, everything Dylan wanted was given to Thame instead. He wasn’t mad at Thame. He adored him even if he didn’t show it openly. Thame was a great leader and cared for all the members and their career. Dylan could see why it would be so easy to fall for Thame, in a way Thame was perfect on the other hand Dylan felt like he was broken, like something in him was broke that made him unlovable. He felt like he didn’t belong in the world. He for sure didn’t think he would belong in Juns’ arms. Jun was not his and was never meant to be. That has always been his mindset. Dylan tried to stay composed, after all he didn’t think he had the right to feel like this when Jun wasn’t even his.
After some time passed Nano had called the members over for lunch. When the members had walked in, they were greeted with the most delicious looking pad see ew. All the members started thanking Nano, praising him and saying how excited they are to eat. Thame sat down first, and Jun ran to sit next to him. This did not go unnoticed by Po or Dylan. Dylan sat opposite Jun and Pepper went next to Dylan. Nano chose to sit at the head of the table, facing the camera. Po stood behind the camera; he made sure all the members were in the shot. Po did not take his eyes of Thame. Jun even fed Thame a couple of times. It hurt Po. That should be him he thought. He should be the one feeding Thame.
Meanwhile, Dylan kept stealing glances at Jun. The jealousy was eating him up. He was desperate to be close to Jun. Looking at Jun was not enough, he wanted to touch him, hug him, kiss him and even more then that. He wanted everything. Jun didn’t want that with Dylan. He knew that fact, told himself he would stop feeling this way but the second he looks at Jun all the feeling come rushing back to him. It made him sick. He was sick of himself. “Sorry Nano, I don’t feel too good.” He said as he got up and left the table. He needed to be alone.
Once the four members finished eating Thame offered to clean up, rejecting any help. The other three made their way into the living room. Thame gathered the empty dishes and moved them all to the sink ready to be cleaned up. “Po, you should take a break and eat something too.” Said Thame who was getting a clean plate from the cupboard. He dished up a portion of pad see ew and placed it on the table. He gestured for Po to sit down. The way Thame was smiling at him made his heart skip a few beats. He wanted Thame to smile at him like that forever. Po took out the SD card from his camera and bought his laptop to the table. He wanted to look at the footage he got so far. This time however, Po did not miss the way Dylan looked at Jun. Po realised he was not the only jealous one in the house right now. For the first time ever, Po did not steal glances at Thame, nor did he notice the glances Thame was giving him and the way he was smiling at Po.
In evening the four members have decided to play board games. Dylan still has not come out and no one wanted to bother him. Po continued to film them. Capturing every laugh and every little moment. He wished to make the fans feel the warmth and love through the screen. Even with the constant banter the members very obviously cared for each other. They played for hours until they could not keep their eyes open.
At the end of the night Po set the camera down on the tripod and went to the kitchen for his laptop, he also wanted to grab snacks and something to drink. He would be spending the night on the couch, but he wanted to review more footage before sleeping. Nano and Pepper were right behind Po, wishing him good night before going upstairs to sleep.
Thame and Jun remained on the couch a few extra minutes. Thame was ready to get up, but Jun held him. He didn’t want Thame to leave just yet. “Thame, I need to tell you something.” Jun said so quietly it was almost a whisper. Thame hummed in response. “I really like you, Thame. Will you please give me a chance?” He asked, almost begged. Thame froze. His mind was a mess trying to process the situation. Before he could even comprehend anything, Jun had placed his lips on Thames. Now his mind was running places, trying to figure out how to solve this awkward situation he is in. He did not like Jun romantically. Jun as his boyfriend had never crossed his mind. He snapped out of his thoughts and pushed Jun away.
“Jun, I’m so sorry but I don’t feel that way about you.” He said, his voice cracking. He never wanted to hurt his best friend but, in this moment, he did not have a choice. Thame got up and left Jun alone on the couch.
By the time Po came back to the living room, no one was there. He took the SD card from the camera, noticing his camera was dead. He sat on the couch and started to watch the footage. Eventually making it all the way until they stopped playing games. Po thought he had turned off the recording there, but the footage kept going. He watched Jun and Thame on the couch. He heard the confession, followed by the kiss. He wanted to turn it off so bad, but he couldn’t bring himself to. He wanted to see whether Thame accepted Jun. Before he could do that, the video ended. That was the moment his camera died. He saw his own reflection in the black screen. The tears were forming in his eyes and this time he let them flow. He broke down on the couch. Seeing them kiss, it felt like someone had ripped his heart out of his chest and stomped on it multiple times.