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I feel his eyes on me all the time
I know it’s wrong, but without them there,
I almost feel naked
He thinks that I don’t realize
Just what I do to him
I see it in his face
His eyes
And I feel it in his energy
But to let go, to be myself
To be Kakarott
Is something I am afraid of
I can’t go home
Or rather, I lost my feeling of home
Chi-Chi knows there is something wrong
But she’s too stubborn to end this
Too controlling to let me go
I can’t be with her anymore
When I returned to Earth after 7 years
And she pulled me towards our bedroom
Telling me she wanted to show me how much she missed me
And loved me
I almost laughed
She doesn’t realize that I knew what she was doing
That I could see what she really thought
I was forgotten, I was cursed
I was torn apart, piece by piece
But not by the one I loved
Vegeta
He mourned me, every night
In the light of day, my name was like poison on his lips
But
At night, he dreamed of me and called out that same name
Only then it was with love
And sadness
I watch him pace around me when we spar
His dark onyx eyes, so like mine
Follow my movements
They betray his heart, showing me
Everything he wanted to hide
He wants Kakarott
There are times I yearn to be free
When I wish that I could be the one that he wants
But it scares me
The few times that I have let him go
I feel emotions inside of me that are foreign
But
I embrace them
I embrace the lust that I feel as I look upon my Prince
We are the last of our kind and I feel a yearning to take him
To make him mine forever
And I feel anger
Anger of being stuck in a loveless marriage for almost all of my life
But it gave me my sons
And for that alone
I’m grateful
But as I look upon the woman that has held me here
The same woman that made me give up my life to get away from her control
When I am Kakarott
I see her blood on my hands
And Kakarott almost purrs in approval
I am in love
With the one person I cannot give myself to
He would let the monster free
And all of them
All of the ones that betrayed me
I would have their blood on my hands
I feel my heart break every time he is near me
Because I know he feels the same
I know he cares for me
Or rather
He cares for Kakarott.
To be continued...