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Buck was hastily turning on the stove, apron tied around his waist and a concentrated look on his face. He's cooking Eddies farewell meal. Trying to be silent as Eddie doesn't know he was there. Well Eddie doesn't know that YET they have both just come off a 48 hour turned 54 hour shift thanks to a bakery fire so Eddie was exhausted but Buck he was restless.
Buck's already a total of 6 hours behind schedule but he's in luck Eddie was asleep in bed he had time his plan was in action with Chappel Roan is playing from his phone Buck was ready to go. It was Spaghetti Bolognese with garlic bread but obviously Buck pre made the sauce at the loft just needing to make the spaghetti and put the garlic bread in to warm through easy enough right no distractions he's got this.
Except the surprise is ruined when Eddie walks to the kitchen Buck's half way through cooking the pasta flour all over is apron. Eddie doesn't make a noise Buck's humming along singing a line every now and then changing the words to suit him and his story. Buck doesn't notice he's in the kitchen and Eddie was wondering why he was here after the shift they had.
"I stretched myself across most states, New lands, west coast, where my dreams lay, i chose to leave to see all the Sea foam and the endless sun rays"
Eddie stood in the door way listening not wanting to be noticed to break this precious bubble the one thing thats kept him in LA.
"But people always say, "If it hasn't happened yet ,Then maybe I should go" Bucks taking a breath stirring the sauce on the hob to heat it up.
"Is it too hard to find reasons to stay, even my love could not persuade" the oven chims say the garlic bread is ready Buck takes it out to rest on the side the smell of fresh cooked garlic and tomato sauce fills the room he's waiting on the pasta to finish cooking
"′Maddie never said that I wasn't gonna get, The things I want the most"
" Please come back to california" Buck keeps signing to himself Eddie is just admiring the view until that line he knows it was about him.
"I miss the laughing in the hallway" and Christopher
"sorry i let you down" Buck set the plates platin the Spaghetti first then cutting in to the bread. Eddie makes himself known at this point with a cough.
"Oh hey Eddie try this" Buck turns towards him with a spoon of sauce for Eddie to try no questions asked he takes a bite.
"This is really good Buck" Eddies smiling but it doesn't reach his eyes after hearing Buck how can it he's really gonna miss his best friend and he now knows thats mutual.
"How long was you there?" Buck remembers to ask this time round whilst he turns around to the stove to plate the food blushing slightly.
" Long enough to know that every lyric you sang was wrong" Eddie quips and regrets it when he see's Bucks smile falter slightly.
"oh. Well you could of started getting the table ready" Bucks embarrassed Eddie had heard him singing and changing the words.
Eddie starts setting the table quickly not saying a word he lights a candle knowing Buck likes the smell of this one. He turns around to grab the plates from Bucks hands and places them down being mindful to be gentle of the plates. He goes to turn around again only to find Buck stood still he reaches a hand out to hold on to Bucks arm waking him from his staring. Eddie steps forward.
"I'm coming back. Chris is coming back. Thank you for everything Let's eat " Eddie turns to the table taking a seat and patting the seat next to him for Buck to sit in. He Buck grabs the bread off the side and places it on the table for them both taking a seat next to Eddie knocking shoulders as he sits down.
Once they finish Eddie starts clearing away the plates and pans Buck is hovering around Eddie but saying nothing it's beginning to be annoying. Eddie has two options one ask Buck what his problems or two ignore it he choses one.
"Come on man what's up? You've been off since i found you here yet you seemed pretty relaxed when i didn't know you were here?" Eddie tried to hold the annoyance in his voice but it came out before he could even think to shove his words back down
"Nothing" Bucks now defencive but he starts drying the plates Eddie sighs he knew he messed up but for Buck to still be there after his word vomit it meant a lot. Once Eddie is done with washing up he turns his back to Buck walking backwards until there backs touch and leans gently on him it's a thing they do when Eddie wants to talk about his feeling but can't have Buck looking at him.
"I'm sorry for going off on you like that, i am worried about you Buck"
"you don't need to worry about me Eds you need to focus on Chris "
"I can also focus on you. You both arm my people my family no matter where we are i will always worry about you" Buck stops moving as Eddie turns around facing Bucks back.
"I'm sorry im going but i need my son I need him here Buck, i need my family under one roof not 8 states away" Bucks heart hurts.
" of course i know this Eddie i'm not asking you to choose i never could i will always lose to him and i want to keep losing to him and i miss him too i want him back too" Buck turns around Eddie blocks him in a hand either side of Bucks hips locking him in against the kitchen side .
"i'm going to miss you as much as i miss Christopher"
"Eddie thats impossible" Buck is wondering where to put his hands and Eddie see's this he take Bucks hand's and places them on his own shoulders Pulling himself in to Buck's arms waiting to see his reaction. Buck just relaxes and holds Eddie tight for a while.
"We should really move im gonna cramp up soon" Eddie says hating his body slightly. Buck looks Eddie in the eyes bring his hands to his face holding him still and kisses his cheek leaning back in shock at his own actions. Eddies face redding by the second he grabs Bucks face in turn and kisses him hesitantly worried he's stepping on a boundary Buck sighs in to the kiss pulling Eddie closer holding him as if he'd die. Eddie breaks the kiss first and Buck goes to apologies but Eddie is quicker and puts a finger on Bucks lips.
"I chose to do this you didn't force me and it's not because of anything you did or didn't do i wanted this. I never want to stop kissing you holding you i want you as mine if you'll have me" All Buck can muster is a nod in response.
"Buck i need a full answer please"
"Yes, yes to everything Eddie i don't ever want to lose you its always been you but i want to wait for Chris to be here we cant start anything till he's here.
" i know but kissing you is addictive you are like the sun i need you but i can wait im going to bring him home. I promise. Wait for me Buckley?"
"Always"
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