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For the first time it happened probably around 3 months after he went ‘missing’. Or more accurately, after Izuku Midoriya, The Number 1 Hero in Japan, went vigilante. Rogue. Use whatever word you want.
I know exactly the day count. 3 months and 4 days. I could probably count the hours as well.
You may ask yourself now ‘What happened?’ and I will tell you.
For the first time after all those months Izuku Midoriya appeared in my flat. In the middle of the night.
I heard it and knew exactly who it is. I always know. I would recognize him by the touch alone. By the way he moves and breathes.
Izuku, without a single word, entered my apartment through the balcony. He went to the hall and I could hear him putting down his suit. The heavy armor made noise in the still, silent night. I could hear the shower next. It was a long shower I had to admit but as I could imagine he really needed it. Shower stopped and for a second I thought I would hear the armor again. Him getting geared up again. But after a little while the door to my bedroom opened. I pretended to be asleep but hells, was that a challenge. I had millions of questions. I wanted to shout at him. I wanted him to explain himself and tell him I was worried sick but.. I could not. I was nothing to him. Just a friend, at least I hoped.
I felt the bed to dip with his weight. Izuku just lied next to me. Saying nothing, just breathing and after a while I could hear the soft snore and deep breaths. He fell asleep like a baby. Like someone was not sleeping for a while and my heart clenched since I knew it was for sure true.
I was not sleeping that night. After not so many hours Izuku awoke and left the bed. Putting on his armor again and leaving. All of that without a single fucking word.
Now you must also think ‘Why did Bakugou Katsuki not search for his best friend?! Why?!’ and well.. I can tell you that as well..but damn is that complicated…
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Two nights later it happened again. All the same moves. Not a single word.
Those days I was strung tight as a rope. I could not make heads or tails around it.
So what happened anyway?
3 months, 6 days and around 9 hours ago I got a message that Izuku went away for a mission. As someone who worked quite closely to him thanks to our agency it made sense I got a message but it felt really weird. Why did Deku not inform me himself? Why did I got message from his assistant? Well safe to say, we were not talking much besides Hero work these days. Izuku always seemed very busy and as Number 2, I was quite busy myself but we still found time to chat from time to time. He never mentioned weird mission that was apparently top fucking secret and noone felt like telling me much about it. So I started to dig. And I found.. nothing. Exactly fucking nothing about some mission.
I started to ask. Noone in our agency knew where Izuku went. I went to other agencies which we worked with a lot and still.. zero fucking nada.
So I went to Hawks. It was already around 2 days by that time since Deku ‘left’. And Hawks.. well we have been all through war so at least he felt like telling me something.
“Hey Hawks!”
“OH my.. Dynamight himself. What can I do for ya’?” For a moment I could see the slight panic upon seeing me.
“I heard Deku got himself some top secret mission. I feel quite hurt you know. We kinda.. always fucking work together so..” I smirked and hoped my frustration won't be visible.
Hawks smiled. A bit too tight.
“Well.. Okay. I guess it won't do any good beating around the bush so here we go.” Keigo’s face was serious now. “Don't yell at me for not telling you straight away. We had to handle the situation and get our head around it first as well. “
“What the hell happened?” Panic started to rise in me. I could feel my heart started to beat a bit too fast.
“He.. Deku. He went rogue. We have no idea where he is at the moment or why he did that. We..Katsuki. We really do not know much.”
“D-Deku.. He went rogue?” My mouth was dry. I felt like that day when I was reading the letter. The day he went away and I was not sure if we will find him ever again.
I felt angry. I felt like drowning. Alone. Mad. Mad at him. What has happened? Was it some big bad villain again? Was it some secret problem he told no one about? Hawks were saying something.. something about them trying to locate him. I was not listening, already just spinning around and going to the rooftop.
Setting off.
Flying.
Not thinking.
Just..looking.
Without a doubt Deku does know how to hide. I searched and searched. I went through the whole city, undercity, every filthy hidden street. Of course HSPC was losing their shit the whole time before my phone died after about a day when I was restlessly searching for N.1 Hero.
Surprisingly they didn’t send anyone after me. It would probably cause too much commotion and for sure they desperately tried to hide that their Number 1 Hero went missing or worse, people will learn he went rogue.
So they let me at it for a few days. Then they sent Kirishima with Sero to get me home after I almost collapsed on some fucking building. Fuckers were checking on me if they knew that. But they were right. I was exhausted, I needed to shower and sleep.
Kirishima was furious and asked me what happened. I lied. Told him I was having some important mission and overdid it. They got me home and I recharged. But I was not giving up. I went to work the day after and after work I started to search again. And this was basically my whole first month. Going to work, searching for Deku, back home to sleep, eat and cuddle my cat.
Work. Search. Sleep. Work. Search. Sleep.
I never stopped looking but after the first month I started to have this feeling like someone is watching me all the time. I knew it was him and it put weridly me at ease.
Hawks had some new info for me. Sometimes someone saw him. Publicly they said that Hero Deku is away for an unspecified number of months for the mission. People believed that. They could have seen him, sure why not. Noone knew what kind of mission it was.
The feeling was still there any time I worked. When I went searching it was scorching. The feeling..it was like he was standing right next to me but I could not see him. It was frustrating to say the least. But I knew he is here.
I started to get my normal life a bit more…normal. Normal sleeping, normal work, not searching every day like crazy. I was visiting friends and whenever I was, I felt the presence. It was comforting in some ways.
The months shifted and here I am now. Izuku sleeps next to me and in the morning, before I would get up, he slips away.
This started to be quite a weird routine and I did not understand it in the slightest. Why not Round-cheeks? Or Half-n-Half bastard? Why me.. like don't get me wrong, somehow this is all I wish for but not like..this.
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