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Angela leans against the edge of the table, arms crossed, watching the woman across from her pick at a frayed thread on her sweatshirt like it’s the only thing keeping her from unravelling.
The holding room is cold, lit too brightly by fluorescent light. It's a sterile, over-lit space that makes people fold in on themselves. Marisol hasn’t folded yet, but she’s close. Too many hours in too small a space, too many questions and not enough comfort.
Angela knows that look. It’s not fear, exactly. Not panic. It’s something quieter, sharper. Resignation with a thread of fire running through it. A woman who’s run out of options and is about to do the hardest thing of her life because it’s the only thing left.
“I’ll do it,” Marisol says, voice low. “I’ll testify. I’ll give them everything I know.”
Angela doesn’t let herself react. Doesn’t shift or nod or exhale. She just holds the moment. Let’s it settle.
“That’s the right call,” she says. And it is. But it doesn’t feel like victory. It feels like walking a wire, “We’ll set it up.”
Marisol’s eyes flick toward the mirrored glass. “I have one condition.”
Angela already knows. She’s known since the first time she saw the girl.
Since that day at the station when Lena sat curled into her mother’s side, silent and staring. Since Angela, half on autopilot, had crouched beside her, no uniform, just a blazer and boots, badge clipped to her belt loop, and held out the badge like it might help.
“It’s heavy,” she’d said. “Want to hold it for a second?”
Lena hadn’t said a word. Just took it, small fingers curling tight around the metal. Angela remembered thinking she looked like a kid trying not to disappear.
Now, in the holding room, Marisol’s voice drops to a whisper. “I can’t do this if she’s not okay.”
Angela’s already tense, but something in her spine goes rigid. “Lena?”
“She’s five. She doesn’t know anyone else.” She says it like she expects judgment. “She doesn’t have anyone. Her dad’s not… He can’t be near her. And if I go into protection, she…” Her voice catches. “They said she’ll be placed with a temporary carer.”
Angela keeps her face still, professional. “There are good carers. Good homes. We’ll make sure she’s placed somewhere safe.”
“No,” Marisol says, fierce now. “Not somewhere. With someone. With you.”
Angela straightens. “Marisol…”
“She’s not scared of you. You looked at her like she mattered. She hasn’t had that from anyone but me.”
Angela wants to argue. Wants to say she’s not that person. That she’s not equipped for this. That she carries a firearm and works long hours and hasn’t had a meal at her own kitchen table in a week.
But the words won’t come.
“I’m not a foster parent,” she says instead, voice flat. “I’m not even home enough to water a plant.”
“She needs somewhere stable. Someone she’s seen before. Just for a while.” Marisol leans forward; eyes glassy but determined. “Please. I’ll go into protection, I’ll testify, I’ll give you everything I know. Just promise me she won’t end up with strangers.”
Angela doesn’t answer.
Because saying no feels like betrayal and saying yes feels like a lie.
Angela drops her keys into the bowl by the door, nudging aside a half-finished grocery list and an unopened electricity bill. There’s a jacket tossed over the back of the couch, shoes kicked under the coffee table, and a plate with two crusts of pizza sitting on the kitchen counter. She steps around it without blinking.
She tells people it’s organised chaos, but really, it’s comfort. It’s hers. After twelve hours of structure, policy, and procedural red tape, the last thing she wants is to come home to hospital corners and alphabetised spice racks.
The apartment smells faintly like takeout and whatever candle she lit two nights ago and forgot to blow out. She shrugs off her coat and drops it on a chair, then sinks onto the couch with a groan that starts in her bones.
She shouldn’t be thinking about this. Not seriously. She’s not a foster parent. She’s not even the friend people call to babysit. She’s the one who forgets to buy toilet paper until the last roll’s gone.
But still, she pulls out her phone.
She hesitates. Her finger hovers.
Then, against every instinct for self-preservation, she types: emergency foster care LAPD eligibility
Dozens of results fill the screen, background checks, forms, training hours, support services. She scrolls, slowly.
Then locks the phone and sets it face down beside her.
The apartment is quiet, cluttered, a little chaotic. But it’s hers. And tonight, for reasons she’s not ready to name, it suddenly feels a little too empty.
After a long pause, she picks the phone back up. She taps the call button, not a CPS hotline, not the number from the website. This one’s in her contacts: Hall, Rachel – CPS Liaison. Someone she’s worked with on more than a few cases. Someone she’s known personally from when she was still dating Bradford. Someone who won’t ask too many questions if Angela asks the wrong ones.
It goes to voicemail.
She waits for the beep, then says, “Hey, it’s Lopez. I need to talk through a potential placement… short-term, emergency. It’s about the Cortez case. Marisol’s going into protection, and her daughter, Lena, might be moved into care. I just…”
A pause. She presses her fingers to her eyes.
“I met the kid. If it comes to it, I need to know what the options are. Give me a call.”
She hangs up before she can say something stupid. Before she can say I met a kid who looked at me like I mattered for five seconds and now I can't sleep.
She doesn’t sleep.
It’s past midnight. Angela lies on the couch, one arm over her eyes, trying not to think. But she does.
She sees Marisol, shaking and angry and still somehow unbroken. She sees Lena, tucked into her mother’s side like a secret, like something too fragile for the world.
She remembers Lena holding the badge. The way she’d tested the weight of it in her palm. Like she’d known it meant something.
Angela shifts, stares at the ceiling, and thinks… People think this job makes you hard. That it kills the part of you that cares. Sometimes it just makes you lonely in new ways.
She doesn’t know if she wants kids. Has never been the kind of person who could picture a future with juice boxes and glitter-covered sneakers by the door.
But she can’t stop picturing this kid.
Angela blinks awake, neck stiff, phone buzzing against her thigh, one arm flung across her face to block the morning light.
She answers without looking.
“Lopez.”
“It’s Rachel,” says the voice on the other end. “Got your message. Marisol’s going into protection this afternoon. We need to place Lena by end of day.”
Angela exhales slowly. “Right.”
“I know this isn’t your usual gig, but it sounded like you were leaning in. If you’re even halfway serious, I can start the emergency paperwork.”
Angela looks around the room, like it might offer her a way out. Like the dishes in the sink or the clutter on the table might somehow disqualify her. But all she sees is space. Lived-in. Loud with quiet.
“I’m not a parent,” she says quietly.
“Didn’t ask if you were,” Rachel replies. “Just need to know if you’re in.”
Angela closes her eyes.
Temporary, she tells herself. Just until it’s safe again. Just until someone else can take over.
“Yeah,” she says. “I’m in.”
The courthouse smells like institutional cleaning products and nerves. Angela steps out of the elevator and immediately regrets not bringing coffee. Or armour. It’s not how she expected to spend her day off but here she is.
She’s wearing blue jeans and a blazer, something halfway between cop and civilian, but it still feels like a costume in this wing. The walls are too pale, the chairs too soft. No one's in cuffs here, but everyone looks like they're bracing for something.
She signs in at the front desk and waits near a plastic ficus, feeling awkward and underqualified. There’s a clipboard in her hand she hasn’t looked at. Emergency foster placement forms. Her name, Lena’s, the date. A blank space where it says anticipated duration of stay.
Angela hates blank spaces. They never stay blank for long.
She hears her name before she sees him.
“Detective Lopez?”
Angela turns. The man walking toward her is all clean lines and courtroom calm, grey suit, tailored, purposeful. He’s holding a file and the look on his face says I’ve already made three judgments about you, and none of them are favourable.
“I’m Wesley Evers,” he says, offering a hand. “Guardian ad litem assigned to Lena Cortez.”
Angela shakes it, but only barely. “Lopez. I know the case.”
“Yes,” he says smoothly. “That’s what concerns me.”
Her eyebrows lift. “Excuse me?”
“You’re emotionally involved.”
Angela snorts, lets go of his hand. “She’s a five-year-old, not a felony charge.”
“And that’s exactly why emotional involvement can be dangerous,” he replies, unbothered. “The system doesn’t need well-meaning chaos. It needs consistency.”
Angela bristles. “So does Lena. And I’m the only one she’s seen more than once this week who wasn’t holding a clipboard or a warrant.”
Wesley doesn’t flinch. “And yet, here you are. Holding a clipboard.”
Angela looks down at the forms in her hand. “I didn’t say I was perfect.”
Across the waiting room, a caseworker approaches, gently steering Lena by the hand. She’s wearing the same hoodie from yesterday, sleeves too long, clinging to a stuffed raccoon that’s clearly seen better days.
Angela softens without meaning to.
“Hey, kid,” she says quietly.
Lena doesn’t speak. Just looks up at her, eyes wide, cautious. Angela crouches, not all the way down, not yet, but enough to feel less like a cop and more like a person.
“I’ve got some cereal at home,” she offers. “The kind with the cartoon tiger on the box.”
Lena’s grip tightens on the raccoon, but she doesn’t pull away. It’s not a yes. But it’s not a no.
Angela glances sideways and sees Wesley watching her, brows drawn in something halfway between curiosity and scepticism. Then he crouches down fully beside Lena, at eye level, careful and practiced.
“Lena,” he says gently. “Do you remember me? I’m Mr. Wesley. We talked this morning.”
She nods, barely.
He smiles. “Angela is going to look after you for a little while. Just like we talked about.”
Angela watches the way he speaks, soft voice, open hands, no rush. There’s something unexpectedly tender about it. No performance. Just presence.
It throws her for a second. She watches him kneel next to Lena like it’s second nature. There’s a softness there she hadn’t expected, not weakness, just… care. Quiet, practiced care. The kind that doesn’t announce itself.
She hates that it surprises her. And hates even more that it almost puts her at ease.
She straightens, shakes it off. Not the time. Not the guy.
The caseworker hands over the backpack first.
It’s small, faded pink, one strap nearly torn. Angela takes it without thinking, then hesitates. It’s heavier than she expects.
“There’s a change of clothes in there,” the caseworker says. “Some snacks, a few of her things. We’ll follow up with the full placement packet by end of day.”
Angela nods, adjusting the strap over her shoulder. It feels weird. She’s carried duffel bags full of gear, evidence boxes, hell, even suspects who couldn’t walk. But this feels different. More fragile. Like it means something she doesn’t know how to name.
“Anything medical I should know about?” she asks.
“Nothing flagged,” the caseworker says, already scanning her clipboard. “But she’s had a lot of disruption. Try to keep the routine simple. Familiar things, gentle tone, limited pressure.”
Angela glances at Lena, still half-tucked behind Wesley’s leg like a shadow. The raccoon’s button eye stares up at her like it knows how this’ll go better than she does.
Wesley clears his throat and steps forward.
“I’ve compiled some guidance notes,” he says, handing over a neatly clipped packet. “Court contact schedule, emergency numbers, a few suggestions for easing the transition. I included a list of therapeutic resources in case she exhibits signs of regression.”
Angela stares at the packet, then at him. “You think I don’t know how to handle trauma?”
“I think handling trauma in the field and parenting through it are different skill sets.”
Angela takes the packet. Doesn’t open it. “Thanks for the vote of confidence.”
Wesley’s expression doesn’t change, but something in his voice softens. “It’s not about confidence. It’s about Lena.”
That lands harder than it should.
Angela presses her lips together and crouches in front of Lena again, this time slower.
“Hey,” she says, quieter now. “We’re gonna go. Just you and me, alright?”
Lena doesn’t speak, but she steps forward on her own.
She keeps her hand in Wesley’s for another second or so before letting go.
Angela reaches out, carefully, and Lena takes her hand.
Tiny fingers. Tight grip.
She stands with Lena’s hand in hers and a stranger’s backpack slung over her shoulder and realises this is the moment. The one she can’t walk back from.
She doesn’t know what happens tomorrow, or next week, or what she’ll do if Lena cries in the middle of the night and asks for a mom Angela can’t be.
But she knows how to walk out the door. So, she does.
The booster seat in the back is too big for Lena. Not unsafe, just oversized, like most of the world probably feels to her right now.
Angela adjusts the belt with more care than she wants to admit, checking the fit, tugging gently at the strap across Lena’s chest.
“You okay?” she asks.
Lena nods, clutching the raccoon tighter. She hasn’t let go of it since they left the courthouse.
Angela closes the door gently and rounds to the driver’s side. She slides behind the wheel, starts the engine, and immediately turns down the radio. Too much noise.
She pulls out of the lot, glancing at Lena in the rearview mirror.
“You like music?” she asks after a minute.
No answer.
Angela taps the screen and scrolls through her presets. Classic rock, NPR, whatever playlist she used to get through her last workout. Nothing kid-friendly. She settles on something instrumental and low and hopes it sounds vaguely safe.
She’s transported suspects, witnesses, entire tactical teams but never a kid. Not like this. Not who she has to bring home.
Lena stays quiet. Her eyes stay on the window. The raccoon’s head bobs gently with every turn.
Angela tries again. “I’ve got some snacks in my bag. Granola bars. Not the gross kind.”
Still no response. She lets the silence sit after that. It’s not hostile. Just... there.
The house hits differently when Angela opens the door with a kid behind her. The pile of mail on the kitchen counter, the shoes by the door, the jacket half-off the hook. It all looks messier. Like it’s being judged by tiny, silent eyes.
“Watch your step,” she mutters, then glances back. “You’ve got a room. Second door on the left.”
Lena pauses in the doorway, taking everything in without a word.
Angela continues, half-apologetic. “It’s mostly where I dump laundry and stuff I keep meaning to donate, but there’s a bed. Sheets are clean. I think.”
No response. Just Lena’s death grip on the raccoon and a quiet kind of stillness Angela can’t quite read.
She points vaguely. “That’s the kitchen. Couch is there. Bathroom’s down the hall. You can hang wherever.”
Angela heads for the kitchen. There’s half a rotisserie chicken in the fridge. She nukes some nuggets instead; Lena doesn’t need to be introduced to real life via leftover protein. She slices up an apple, pours some juice in a coffee mug.
She carries the plate into the living room and sets it on the coffee table.
“Dinner of champions,” she offers. “I can do better tomorrow. Probably.”
Lena eats two bites of the nuggets, one slice of apple, then curls onto her side and pulls her knees up to her chest.
The raccoon stays tucked under her chin. Her eyes flutter, but she doesn’t sleep yet.
Angela turns off the TV that no one was watching and sits across from her on the floor.
No sirens. No dispatch. Just a heartbeat she’s suddenly responsible for.
A kid on her couch like it’s the most natural thing in the world. Like Angela won’t forget to set an alarm or burn the toast tomorrow morning. Like she’s someone you can land with.
She covers Lena gently with a blanket from the back of the couch. It smells like fabric softener and faint smoke from the time she burned popcorn in it last month.
Lena doesn’t stir.
Angela watches her for a long minute.
“Just until your mom comes back,” she whispers. “That’s the deal.”
She tells herself she believes it. But it already doesn’t feel that simple.
The apartment is quiet again. Lena’s tucked into the second bedroom now, sound asleep, the raccoon curled under her arm like a sentinel.
Angela leans against the kitchen counter with a glass of water in one hand and her phone in the other. There’s a pile of paperwork on the table she should start, a case file open on her laptop she’s supposed to review, but her brain’s too loud and too tired to cooperate.
Her phone buzzes.
Wesley Evers 9:47 PM
She stares at the name for a second before answering.
“Lopez.”
“Evening,” Wesley says, sounding as formal as ever. “Apologies for the hour. I wanted to follow up, briefly.”
Angela leans her hip against the counter. “You always call after dark or is this a special occasion?”
“I’m aware this isn’t ideal,” he says smoothly. “But I wanted to flag that your home still needs to be formally vetted.”
Angela straightens. “Seriously? Now?”
“Tomorrow. It should’ve happened earlier,” he says. “But given the emergency placement, it was pushed forward on a provisional basis. Paperwork first. Walkthrough second.”
“So what, you’re doing a pop quiz on my cleaning skills?”
There’s a pause. “You’d be surprised what those walkthroughs uncover.”
Angela rolls her eyes. “You planning to do it yourself, or is that someone else’s job?”
“I’m technically eligible,” he replies, too casually.
She doesn’t like how that lands. Doesn’t like imagining Wesley standing in her doorway, quietly judging her coffee table clutter and whether or not she owns any child-safe outlets.
“She’s fine, by the way,” Angela says, shifting the conversation. “Ate a little, didn’t cry, knocked out cold. So you can relax.”
“I’m not worried,” he says. “I’m glad.”
Angela lifts an eyebrow, even though he can’t see it. “You sure? That almost sounded like approval.”
“I said I’m glad. That’s not the same thing.”
She smirks into her water glass. “You keep this up, I might start thinking you care.”
There’s a pause. Not long. Just long enough to register.
“She deserves people who do,” Wesley says, voice even. Careful. Maybe too careful.
Angela’s hand stills around the glass.
She doesn’t know what kind of answer she expected. Something snarky, maybe. Something easy to push against. But not that.
“Well,” she says, pushing off the counter, “I’ll try not to ruin the good impression.”
“You’ll hear from my office tomorrow to schedule the walkthrough,” he replies, brisk again.
Angela nods. “Looking forward to it.”
“Goodnight, Lopez.”
“Night, Evers.”
She hangs up, sets the phone down, and stares at the dark window over the sink.
Then she checks the time, exhales, and heads down the hall toward Lena’s door.