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It was too damn late.Toga could only stare at the only one who accepted her,made her feel loved and helped her realise how to love without harming others.As her consciousness slipped and the helicopters were starting to locate the 2 love struck girls,muffled yelling of Ochaco's name could be heard from..Tsu was it?It was warming and comforting to be reassured that Ochaco's friends can take great care of her,especially after this whole fiasco.One final look at the love of their life's would be enough to spiral anyone out of control,but Himiko Toga was always different,she wasn't just anyone.Examinig the one who called her the cutest in the whole world was difficult,seeing the aftermath of their chat was devasting,why coudnt they have talked about it sooner?Or atleast not in this tragic way..I mean,they did have the chance,just someone didnt want to trust a filthy,untrusty hero.If no hero ever saved her before,why would she assume a cute hero that wanted to talk to her was any different?It was only natural that she didnt trust anyone under that slimy title.Or was it?Now she knows that she could have trusted her sooner,but it was too damn late now.Toga did always belive it was too late for her to be normal anyway,its only natural that its too late to be with the one who understands her needs and desire's.
As the musky,dull clouds shielded the young girls,it was her chance to finally leave this life behind,to leave behind her hideous past that always suppressed her truest desires,those horrible,grizzly people that hated how she loved,that never let her be truly happy.The only good thing in her small heinous life that lighted the path was going to be gone from her new one.It was going to be all over when she leaves,no more chats about love,no more of trusting hero's,it was all going to be gone now.It was time to live a new life,a fulfilling one,a fresh start.But then why was it so devasting?Maybe in another life they could have been together,intertwined sewn together,but if Toga wanted even a chance of that,she coudnt die now.No,not now with this life changing revelation.She coudnt let that chat go to waste.
"Thank you Ochaco",her voice trembled,holding back tears,if she dared say anything else who knows what kind of devasted mourning algamation of words would be released.Kneeling down to look at her one final time was really a punch to the gut.The sewn together stab wound,dried crimson coloured blood,the tathered suit,it all became a sudden realisation,like a hit to the head,of what she had done to her gorgeous girl.Even whilst dying she still looked heavenly,almost like an angel,her gorgeous round puppy dog eyes that could persuade anyone,her slightly un even bangs that she most likely cut herself one day and decided she liked them,her short wavy almost milk chocolate like hair;she was just so beautiful and draw droppingly gorgeous,inside and out,and Toga always heard its whats inside that counts.Her cherry lips left a mark on Ochaco's forehead,it was a rosy pink colour that suited Ochaco,so now she would look extra cute when shes finally found.
Getting up after losing all that blood was tremendously hard,it seemed the whole world was spinning,almost collapsing on itself,keeping her chin up was even harder figuratively and physically.Slowly but surely she was getting away from her past,leaving it all behind her.But at what cost?Small steps at a time was still progress,she could only limp her way out the battlefield,barely any blood was going through her system,it was a miracle she was still standing,afterall her feelings were genuine so she promised every last drop..Now she had to pay the price of that.She could only thank but hate the heavens that her quirk quickly regenerated her blood;all that blood was going to come back sooner rather than later,but is it what she really wanted now?
The walk down that mountain was trechorous,her bloodied body was still hobbing down that steep area,the only motivation the young girl had was not dissapointing her love.Why would she dare not take her advice and love in this lovely new way?The weather certainly didnt improver her down in the slumps mood either,the fog was blinding the already love blind girl,and the atmosphere was so thick you could cut it with a knife;even breathing became a struggle in this cruel dark world,which she was all alone in again.After what felt like hours,in her peripheral she could make out a small wooden hut.It reeked from where she was standing,it would be wise for her to take some much deserved rest.The cabin was filled with spider's and some old abandoned webs,there were too many dead animal heads for her liking in the hut but who was she to judge?The deathly smell seemed to absorb her nostrils no matter what she did,but the smell was almost comforting now.The smell was almost nostalgic from when she killed that pretty boy she liked,the horrified looks of everyone and her bloodied hands that cluld never be washed away now struck her lightning;I supposed not everything that makes you nostalgic is meant to make you feel good.Turning to look beside her was only one small thing.It seemed to be an animal;more specifically a bird.It hadnt decayed,it still seemed rather fresh.As the curiosity got the better of the girl,it soon turned to a grim realisation of what it was,it really did seem that the heaven's were sending her signs to die as Himiko Toga.
A young dead sparrow layed on the table.