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You brushed a beetle off your parchment, its shell glinting the same glossy black as the ink drying on your fingers. Your tongue poked out in concentration as you added the final strokes to your latest masterpiece: a hand-drawn map of the valleys and riverlands that hemmed your world in green.
Well, world was generous. And home was diplomatic. You lived in the beautiful capital city of Mirellan, in its castle. As its princess.
Built on a river’s crescent bend and guarded by steep hills and a northern mountain ridge, Mirellan shimmered with the lacquered confidence of a capital long unchallenged. Its spires rose like stained quill-tips against the sky, cathedral domes and clock towers chiming in poetic dissonance. Bridges laced the river like ribbons, linking the marble piazzas of the noble quarter to the narrower, livelier lanes where bakers’ shutters swung open at dawn and street performers painted the air with fiddles and flame.
You recalled it all effortlessly, of course. You had charted it by hand more times than you could count.
But today you were far from its bustle. There were only so many times you could redraw Mirellan, annotating its alleys and courtyards with careful flourishes. You hadn’t come out here to map the city. You’d come to escape it.
The wilderness made you ache with a very specific pleasure: the pleasure of being free. Free from being watched, free from duty, free from every courtly simper.
Your brow furrowed at the thought of the obligations that had so troubled you this morning. You sprinkled setting powder over the parchment, dreading smears, and sat back with a sigh, remembering the hours you had spent in the castle earlier in the day.
-
Preparations for the summer solstice festival had been accelerating into chaos. Your back still ached from the stiff-laced dress fittings, and you'd barely finished approving the royal menu—several courses for each of the seven feast days—when you began to feel that unmistakable tightening in your chest. The palace was too much: too warm, too reverberating, too perfectly perfumed with beeswax and lavender and fatherly expectations.
You’d needed air.
So, you’d clutched at the excuse of a headache. “A real beast,” you’d said dramatically to the chamberlain. “I may not be seen for days.”
You'd offered the guards outside your chamber doors a faint smile and a low curtsy, waiting until the heavy oaken panels shut behind you before darting to the far wardrobe. Inside, beneath a hanging row of velvet gowns, was a notch in the wall, easily overlooked. With a practiced push and twist, the panel gave way to a narrow opening behind the wardrobe, just wide enough for someone your size and just secret enough to be omitted from most architectural plans.
The stairwell inside was steep, carved into the thick inner wall of the castle. The air smelled of dust, old stone, and the faintest echo of hay. You shut the panel behind you, adjusting the strap of your leather map case—a gift from your tutor, fashioned like the quivers the knights wore—and began the descent.
You knew the way well. The spiral passage wound downward in tight, dark loops, emptying out after several turns into the stables’ storage hallway, just behind the tack room. A perfect exit. The stablehands rarely paid attention to a creaky door in the shadows, and fewer still dared ask questions of a cloaked figure who moved with confidence and carried a seal-ring on her finger.
So you slipped out on foot, your map case slung at your side, hair pinned under a hood, and heart already lighter with each step away from your chambers.
Or, at least, that was what would’ve happened—had you not slammed directly into a wall of armor who also held a certain penchant for shadows.
A startled oof escaped your throat before you could stifle it. You slapped a hand over your mouth, muffling the sound too late.
The figure before you turned with the slow, unyielding grace of someone unstartled by much of anything. Steel-clad, broad-shouldered, and unmistakably immovable.
Though you didn’t know it, his heartbeat had stuttered the moment you stepped through the door behind him, the scent you carried like the memory of something he’d only ever longed for in the halls. Vetiver, honeycomb, parchment warmed by your hands.
He was your father’s favorite knight. The one who was never meant to see you sneaking out, let alone collided with in a stable corridor.
Of course he’d be here. Of all days.
You stepped back instinctively, heart thudding loud enough to echo down the stones. For a long moment, he said nothing. Just stood there like an accusation shaped in steel.
In truth, he was maddeningly silent because his thoughts were spiraling. Scrambling. Searching for the right words, or any words at all.
What should he say to you? What could he say to you? You, you, you?
He tilted his head, ever so slightly. The visor gave away nothing. Neither did his posture. No gasp of alarm, no gesture of report, just silence.
If the cathedral bells hadn't tolled at that exact moment, you would have heard it. The catch in his breath, quick and shallow.
You straightened your spine, clutching your map case like a shield.
“Well,” you muttered, chin tipping up in defiance. “We both know I shouldn't be out here. I suppose you’ll be turning me in now.”
Still nothing. Not even the faintest twitch of a gauntlet.
Then, very softly, he shifted to the side. Just enough to clear the way.
Your eyes widened. A thrill passed down your spine, too sharp to name. You hesitated for only a second, then slipped past him.
Then, a low, gravelly voice—echoed faintly by the helm—gently called after you.
“You shouldn’t go alone, Your Royal Highness.”
You froze.
It wasn’t the words that made your heart skip a beat. It was the way they sounded. Careful. As if pried loose from a chest sealed too long shut. You hadn’t known his voice at all, really—just the dull clink of armor, the hollow hush of his footsteps on tiled floors. His story, carried to you by rumors. And now this: a voice like a half-lit lantern, hidden beneath heavy iron.
“I am not,” you said without turning. “I have my maps.”
A pause. You didn’t move. Neither did he.
Then, the soft shuffle of boots. You dared a glance over your shoulder.
“Allow me to accompany you, Princess.”
You flushed and furrowed your brows, lips pressed together in a stubborn line. Your embarrassment at being caught only fortified your willfulness.
“These are bold assumptions, knight,” you said, arms crossing as your voice dropped to a pointed hush. “Firstly, that I need your company. And secondly, that I would want it.”
A beat. His helm tilted slightly, unreadable. You imagined a slight narrowing of the eyes beneath it, or perhaps the smallest twitch of... hurt? But you couldn’t be sure.
“You are unguarded,” he replied evenly, voice low and metallic, “and the wilderness is less loyal than these walls.”
“Even the walls poke their noses into places they shouldn’t,” your voice lilted with an air of distaste.
You spun on your heel, the boots you’d swapped in place of slippers crunching softly against the gravel as you headed toward the bramble-split path leading to the western gate. You made sure your map case swung with practiced confidence, hoping it masked your nervousness.
But just as you rounded the corner, an echoing sigh drifted behind you. Without hesitation, you broke into a light jog, determined to be long gone before he could change his mind.
-
That was how you’d ended up here, blissfully unbothered, your work from the past few hours carefully rolled and tucked into your leather case.
A pang of regret tugged at you for the way you’d scolded Hector. You hadn’t always been so touchy, so desperate for silence and stillness. But ever since your mother’s death—five years past, lost on a diplomatic mission gone disastrously wrong—everything had changed. Your father had never truly returned from that grief. And the freedoms you once took for granted, the lightness of life in a peaceful kingdom, had narrowed to a single, stifling point. It was like trying to breathe through a needle’s eye.
The distant rumble of thunder shattered your quiet. You quickened your pace, rain suddenly a pressing concern.
You rose, brushing the damp grass from your knees, when a heavy droplet struck the crown of your head. Fingers fumbling, you pulled your hood back up just as the skies opened in earnest.
A prickling panic tightened in your throat. The walk back was well beyond half an hour. Showing up soaked to the bone—that would be difficult to explain.
But as you retraced your steps toward the paths you knew so well, a new worry crept in. These valleys were notorious for sudden floods during the summer months, when skies could unleash torrents without warning. The rain fell harder now, blurring your vision and turning the earthen paths into slippery, treacherous trails carved into the hillsides.
You struggled to find firm footing, each step a careful negotiation with the slick stones and loose soil beneath your boots.
When you reached a narrow stretch of the path, you grasped desperately at the hillside for support—
But a loose section of earth gave way beneath your boot.
There was no time for a cry. Your ankle twisted sharply beneath you, and you tumbled down the steep slope, the world spinning in a blur of mud, roots, and cold, heavy rain.
When you opened your eyes, the world was sideways. Cold riverwater surged around your hips, the current stronger than before. You groaned, half-submerged and aching all over. Mud clung to your cloak. Your ankle pulsed with raw, biting pain.
You hinged yourself upright with a hiss and reached for your boot. The moment you touched it, your vision blurred—swelling was already setting in beneath the skin, angry and tight. You could practically feel the angry bruise spreading. Testing your weight on the foot, you felt hot lightning shoot up your leg.
You bit back a cry, knuckles white where they gripped the silt of the wet bank. No. You would not call out.
Thankfully, you didn't need to. A low whinny cracked through the drum of rain. Your head snapped up toward the hill.
There, barely visible through the mist, was a rider dismounting in a rush. You recognized him even before the mud reached his greaves.
“Princess!” you heard him shout, his voice raw with thinly veiled panic. The great knight half-skidded down the slope.
You groaned, dragging your cloak over your face like it could make you invisible. “Of course you followed me.”
His shadow stretched over you. He dropped to his knees with shocking ease, the weight of his armor hitting the earth in a clank unsuppressed by urgency.
“I’m sorry,” he said, low and hoarse. “I tried to give you as long as I could. But once the king gave the order—” He cut off. “You're injured. I... I should have come sooner.”
You peeled your cloak back, meeting the dark slit of his visor with a light scowl. “You weren’t supposed to find me at all.”
Rain traced along the rim of his helm. He said nothing, only reached to examine your ankle with careful, practiced hands. “May I?” he intoned delicately.
You looked away, cheeks hot despite the cold. You weren’t sure if it was pain or something else that made your chest ache. You nodded.
His touch was gentle despite the heavy leather gloves. Your pride screamed at you to push him away. But your ankle throbbed with worse insistence. So you let him steady you as he examined your injury.
Silence stretched between you, tension pounding louder than the rain.
Finally, you muttered, “Not broken.”
“No,” Hector said softly, his voice almost lost beneath the downpour. “But it’ll be worse if you try to walk, Princess. I’ll have to carry you.”
You bit the inside of your lip, heat prickling across your face. Still, you didn’t protest when he shrugged off his heavier riding cloak and draped it around your shoulders with careful hands. The fabric was warm, damp, and smelled faintly of leather and rosemary oil.
He scooped you up without a word more, cradling you against his chest like you weighed nothing. His armor was slick with rain, and the hill had become more sludge than soil, but Hector climbed steadily, never faltering. Not once.
At the top, his chestnut destrier waited, ears flicking a bit anxiously. He hoisted you onto the saddle with care, settling you to sit with your legs thrown over the same side of the beast. Your soaked dress left no other choice. Then, with just a bit of hesitation, he mounted behind you, one strong arm circling your waist to anchor you.
“Forgive my impiety, princess,” he murmured near your ear. “This way, you won’t fall.”
You shook your head, the motion small beneath the hood. “N-no. I… I am sorry for the trouble. You have my regret, Sir.” Your voice cracked, quieter than you meant. Your eyes were as wet as the rest of you, only some of it from the storm.
He didn’t answer right away, but his arm around you tightened. Just slightly, just enough.
Then, in a hoarse voice, he replied, “This... this is my purpose. To keep you safe. Today... I failed.” He paused, breath shallow against your shoulder. “I am the sorry one. Please. Allow me to do what I can now—by getting you home.”
The rain did not let up. If anything, it thickened, curtains of silver lashing the woods, turning bramble-lined paths into brown torrents. Each hoofbeat sent water splashing, the huge destrier surefooted despite the slick terrain.
You were all but swallowed by Hector’s cloak and the press of his body behind you, the steady rise and fall of his breathing beneath layers of armor the only rhythm to anchor your shivers. His arm, firm and unmoving, stayed wrapped securely around your waist, the metal of his gauntlet strangely warm against your soaked bodice while the other gripped the reins.
You felt dizzy. Probably from the fall. Yes. That had to be it.
For a long while, neither of you spoke.
Then, barely louder than the rain, you asked, “How did you know where to find me?”
He paused, and it sounded—just barely—like a smile had touched his voice. “You aren’t difficult to track.”
You might have laughed if it didn’t make your ankle throb. “I—Are you serious?”
“It’s my job to be serious. But I do know a few jokes, if that would please the princess.”
You rolled your eyes. “Maybe next time.”
Since when was Hector the Veiled sort of funny? His apparent eagerness to tease you left your chest feeling strange and fuzzy.
You turned your head slightly, the hood rustling with the motion. Though you couldn’t see his face, his presence was all around you. Armor and leather and breath. It was impossibly grounding. Impossibly... unbearable. You hoped that dismounting this horse would still the anxious gnawing in your stomach.
The castle emerged from the cliffside like something out of an old tale, its stone bones braided with ivy, towers silvered by centuries of rain and wind. From a distance, it looked as though it had grown from the mountain itself, carved from the earth and crowned in mist. As you neared, the turrets caught the torchlight like chalices.
“I’ll take you through the servants’ path,” Hector said softly. “No one will see you like this.”
You nodded once, the words catching in your throat at how protective he sounded.
The destrier slipped through the narrow gate, rain coursing down the stone like meltwater. As the doors creaked closed behind you in the stable, Hector dismounted and lifted you again with practiced ease. His arms never faltered.
“Will you bring me closer to your horse’s face?” you asked softly.
Hector did as you asked. Leaning forward, you pressed a gentle kiss to the horse’s velvety snout, then looked up into its eyes, your voice barely more than a breath. “Thank you… for bearing the rain and mud, all because of my foolishness.”
Your eyes flickered to Hector, silently hoping he understood the apology was meant just as much for him.
A quiet warmth blossomed within him, as if forgiveness for you were woven into his very being, when he replied, “His name is Sorrell.”
At the sound, Sorrell twitched his ears and snorted softly. Your laughter mingled with Hector’s, light and tender, echoing softly amid the damp stones and hay that surrounded you.
“Next time you feel the need to flee,” he said, velvet voice near your ear as he carried you to a stool, “please don’t go without a chaperone.”
Your breath caught. “That would defeat the point, wouldn’t it?”
There was only silence as he set you down to perch. He kneeled in front of you.
“Yes,” he said simply, reaching behind him. “But it would spare me the fear I felt when I saw this half-submerged on the path.”
Your gaze dropped in surprise. Hector was holding out your leather map case. Spattered with mud, the strap frayed, but miraculously intact.
You stared at it for a moment, your throat tightening.
“…Thank you,” you whispered, reaching to take it. Your fingers brushed against the leather of his glove.
Neither of you moved right away.
Your hand stayed just barely atop his, his fingers curled faintly beneath yours as though reluctant to let go. Rain dripped from your lashes, the silence pressing close.
Hector’s gaze didn’t waver. You were soaked, scraped, your braid undone, but he looked at you like nothing in the world could rival the sight.
“Always,” he said, softly and threatening to waver. You saw the barest suggestion of warm eyes through the slit in his helm.
He stood suddenly—too fast, too stiff—as if only just realizing how long he’d been staring.
“I—” he began, then cleared his throat, voice dropping into a mumble. “I’ll have the sentries alert the king, the healers. And your handmaids. They’ll need to be ready. At once.”
You nodded, clutching the map case to your chest, but he was already stepping away into the rain, issuing quiet orders.
A moment later, he returned without a word, stooping to gather you into his arms again. You didn’t protest this time.
His hold was steady, careful, but you could feel the tension in him now. Not just from the weight of your body, but something more tightly wound, like restraint.
As he strode through the archways and up the stone steps, the staff along the halls hurried to clear a path. No one dared meet your eyes. The castle, for all its size, had never felt so close, so breathless.
You nestled your face slightly into Hector’s cloak—not out of any fragileness of feeling, you told yourself, but to hide the sting in your eyes, the storm still clinging in your chest.
He didn’t speak. He only carried you like you were made of porcelain, and set his jaw inside of his helm like he’d never once forgive himself for letting you fall.
Hector stood motionless outside your door.
The moment your handmaids had torn you from his arms, he’d relinquished you without a word, though his hands had flexed once at his sides, instinct rebelling against reason. He heard the rustle of activity behind the thick oak now—orders barked, boots scraping, steam rushing from freshly drawn baths.
Then, your voice, clear and indignant:
“I said I can bathe myself! I’ve done so since I could recite my letters, thank you very much!”
A small smile twitched beneath his helm.
Of course. Unyielding, even in injury, that fierce spark had always burned within you. From across courtyards, behind battlements, posted at thresholds, he had witnessed every flicker of your fiery kindness, your boundless creativity, your effortless charm, your sharp wit. Quietly. Faithfully. Without expectation of thanks, of course, gratitude was unnecessary. The very joy of your presence was reward enough. He had long since made peace with loving you in silence. You would make a strong queen someday, and he, content to serve from the shadows, would watch you claim your kingdom, savoring the simple blessing of sharing in the world you ruled.
Or so he thought.
Because today, you'd spoken to him.
And now, having tasted the weight of your gaze and the brush of your hand, he realized the depth of the illusion he had lived under: that his affection could survive unnoticed. That he could endure loving you and never having you.
He could not.
Which is why, even as warmth lingered on his cloak from where you’d leaned against him, even as your voice echoed sweet and sharp behind the door... he steeled himself.
He had to speak to the king before he spoke to you. Had to request reassignment.
Far away. Somewhere out of reach—from your quarters, your voice, your eyes. From temptation. From hope.
At last, the measured echo of the king’s footsteps drifted down the corridor, less heard than sensed, heralded by the clink of the guards that flanked him like shadows cast in iron.
Hector straightened, hands at his sides, posture carved from restraint. He bowed only when addressed, his expression behind the mask a study in discipline.
“Sir Hector! Hector, Hector, Hector,” the king began, voice already rattling with vexation, “you are just the man I desperately need to speak to.”
There was a grimness twisting the king’s features. A look Hector knew all too well. It meant something to do with you.
“Your Majesty,” Hector replied evenly. Controlled. “I was hoping to speak to you as well.”
The king waved a hand, brushing the thought aside. “That will have to wait. This nonsense with my daughter has gone on long enough. It is the final straw. She’s a woman grown, deep into her marrying years, and still she gallivants like a maid avoiding the spindle.”
He exhaled harshly, raking a hand through his hair, holding his crown up with the other. “I’m assigning you to her directly, indefinitely. You’ll shadow her through the solstice, through whatever chaos she stirs up next. I want her watched like a hawk. You’re my best man and, conveniently, the only one I can spare.”
He clapped a hand to Hector’s shoulder, as though the decree were a favor.
Hector’s throat closed. It felt like trying to breathe through the river silt he had just plucked you from.
“Y–Your Majesty. I…” His voice caught, fragile in his mouth.
He had faced blades, beasts, the bloodied field. But never this torment. Never you.
The king was already waving away his hesitation with a flippant gesture. “Yes, yes. You’ll do what’s asked of you, just as you always do. Spare me the knightly conscience, the noble assurances that you can handle something more treacherous. I haven’t the time.”
Still, Hector pressed on, voice sanded low with the effort. “I was going to request a post on the Eastern Wall. Away from the court.”
The king turned, one brow arching with lazy interest. “Oh?” he drawled. “Since when have you flinched from serving the court?”
“It’s not ability I doubt,” Hector murmured. “It’s proximity.”
His gaze dropped. “She’s… not fond of it.”
The king barked a laugh, loud and hollow as the corridor. “Fondness! I care not for her fondness. I care that she lives. That she shows up to her duty whole and in one piece. Not half-drowned and limping, with wildflowers in her hair and excuses in her mouth. I care that my line continues, that her impulses don’t crack it like a dropped heirloom.”
Hector didn’t move. But something inside him twisted, sharp and slow. Rage from the way he was speaking about you, maybe. Or love in its most helpless form.
The king stepped forward, his voice lowering, almost confessional. “I’ve indulged her whims for too long. What is a widower to do, hm? Her mother... She knew how to deal with this better.”
He paused, then turned his gaze to Hector. “As for you… I do not trust you for your blade, nor necessarily for your cunning. I trust you because you are different.”
His tone softened, touched with something like admiration. “Your vow has always set you apart. The others chase glory and forget themselves. But you—” he smiled, quietly— “you have never forgotten who you serve. For a man who does not show his face, I cannot help but trust you more than the entire council.”
The words struck him not like a sword’s edge, but its flat, bruising side. Hector did know who he served. But the king, clearly, did not.
Still, what could he do?
He bowed his head. “As you command, Your Majesty,” he said, and it came out hoarse.
“Good lad,” the king said, giving him a hard pat. “Now go. Clean up. Guard rotation soon, and I want you posted outside her chambers before the next hour strikes. I’ll deliver the news to her myself.”
And with that, the king swept away, his cloak whispering behind him cluelessly, guards following suit.
Hector stood motionless in the corridor. The torches cast uneasy shadows over the stone, flickering across the planes of his face where they hid beneath the visor.
Something inside him ached deep, buried in the breastbone. An ache so tight it threatened to crack him open.
He had tried to leave you. For your sake. For his own.
And now, cruelly, he was bound closer than ever.