Work Text:
Why do i exist?
You ask yourself staring at the ceiling
All i do is take up space
And never bring anything to this world
I’ve seen so many smart people and what they bring to this world
And I just exist to be a dumbass and nothing else
People who supposedly care about me joke about it
All because I can’t do simple math
Why do I exist?
I bring nothing to this world
I try I really do try to be smarter
But I fail in the end
At this point I’m more worthless than a dead tree
Because at least it brought something to this world when it was alive
My existence is pointless
But I’m to selfish to take myself out of this life
And I’m sorry for that
Why do I exist?
When I can’t do anything to help this world
I try to get better at things I do
But it never works
I guess I’m just cursed to be a disappointment
I’ll try harder
You tell yourself
Not caring if you break in the process
Why do I exist?
When I’m just your local disappointment
I’ll try harder this year will be different
You tell yourself
And yet you still fail
And when you start to break you don’t stop
You just take the razor to your skin to quite your brain
Why do I exist?
When I just make people pretend to worry for me
I shouldn’t exist
You tell yourself
But I’m selfish
So I won’t take the pills to get rid of me
And I’m sorry for being a selfish bitch
So until I can swallow the pills
I’ll take the razor to my skin and cut
After all it’s what I should do
Until I’m ready to not be selfish