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September 2015
It all began in early fall, just as the leaves were beginning to turn.
Kurt had started his final year at NYADA, but was also still working part-time at Vogue.com and because of that his interest in design had grown to the point where he’d ended up drifting into a Costuming major. Blaine was in his third year, but still in Performance, which meant they didn’t actually see each other that often, on campus. So, Kurt was kind of surprised when Blaine tracked him down one day, and even more surprised when Blaine breathlessly announced that he’d run into Sebastian Smythe in Time’s Square.
“Really, Blaine, why on earth did you talk to him?” Kurt asked, unable to keep the sarcasm out of his voice, even as he smiled to reassure Blaine that he was only teasing. True, Sebastian wasn’t Kurt’s favorite person in the world but he prided himself on the fact that he’d managed to let go of any grudges against him quite a while ago.
“And how did the long streak of sleaze end up in New York anyway?” he continued, as Blaine laughed.
“Well I had to talk to him because I practically tripped over him,” Blaine said, his eyes twinkling. “And he was there with a bunch of Parsons students. He’s doing an Architecture degree there and they were on some sort of field trip thing, I think.”
“Oh?” Again Kurt was surprised. Somehow he’d always thought that Sebastian would end up at Yale or Harvard doing law or something equally contentious. That was when he’d bothered to think of him at all, of course.
Blaine nodded. “Yeah, he’s in third year, like me. He’s been here all this time, can’t believe it’s taken this long for one of us to run into him.”
“Well, New York is pretty big, Blaine,” Kurt pointed out, with a smile, and Blaine laughed again.
“Yeah, I forget sometimes,” he said, and Kurt gave him the incredulous but fond look he always gave Blaine when he said something completely ridiculous. He sometimes suspected that Blaine did it deliberately, just to provoke that look from Kurt, a suspicion that didn’t lessen when Blaine winked and then planted a quick kiss on Kurt’s lips.
“Anyway,” Blaine continued. “What do you think about meeting up with him sometime? He lives in the Village and you know how much you love going there.”
“Hmmm,” Kurt hummed, trying to suppress the little stab of envy he felt at the thought of Sebastian living somewhere that Kurt coveted. He and Blaine were still living in the loft at Bushwick that Kurt had once shared with Rachel, and although they were comfortable there, Kurt still didn’t like the area that much.
“Yeah, well, I do love going there,” he agreed, ignoring Blaine’s amused expression. “And I guess we can meet up with Sebastian if you really want to.”
“Well, I think I would, actually,” Blaine said thoughtfully. “Sebastian seemed different. More relaxed. Happier. I think he likes what he’s doing.”
Kurt had to admit his interest was piqued. “Okay then,” he agreed. “Why don’t you arrange it then?”
“Well… actually…” Blaine was blushing and Kurt knew that look on his face. He crossed his arms and rolled his eyes at Blaine.
“You already have, haven’t you?”
“Yup,” Blaine said, with a grin. “Friday night. He said he usually meets up with some of his friends at a bar in Greenwich Village. I said we’d try to get there but we don’t have to if you really don’t want to.”
“No, it’s fine,” Kurt replied, deciding that getting it over with sooner than later would be a good idea. But he also decided he’d need some back-up, and so that was how Kurt had found himself following Blaine into a bar in the Village, with Rachel and Brody by his side and ending up face-to-face with someone he’d really never expected to see again.
Sebastian didn’t look that different, Kurt thought, maybe a little taller, just as Kurt was himself, but also maybe a little broader in the chest – he looked more solid and less gawky than he had before. His legs were as long as ever but his thighs looked more muscular in his fitted dark jeans.
But Blaine had been right. There was something different in the way he held himself. He seemed more settled, and less cocky, and the sense of entitlement that had turned his natural confidence into arrogance seemed to be gone.
He was devastatingly attractive… and the smirk he gave Kurt when he caught Kurt looking him over showed that he knew it.
“Well, well, well, Kurt Hummel,” he said, shaking Kurt’s hand with a firm grip. “Still got a bad case of the gay-face, I see.”
For a moment Kurt bristled, but then he saw the good humour in Sebastian’s eyes. There was no sign of malice in them, in fact his gaze was actually more admiring as his eyes scanned over Kurt in the same way that Kurt had done to him, and Kurt found himself feeling more amused than anything else.
“Hello Sebastian,” Kurt replied coolly. “I must say I was surprised to find that you weren’t working in New York as a stripper.”
Sebastian’s smirk widened into a grin and he raised an eyebrow. “Why goodness, Kurt,” he said. “Are you implying that I have the smoking hot body that’s a requirement of the job? Thank you, I’m flattered.”
Brody, who was still standing beside them, laughed and Kurt joined in, even as his face heated. He should have known that Sebastian would never have lost his ability to flirt outrageously, and Kurt, who’d never had it directed at him before from Sebastian, and who’d never really flirted that much anyway, couldn’t ignore that he felt a little at a loss for words. So, he figured he should quit while he could and quickly took a seat beside Rachel at the table where Sebastian’s friends were gathered.
Introductions were made and it turned out that Sebastian’s friends were interesting, funny and friendly. Sebastian was too, and he seemed to be in his element, relaxed and smiling in a way that Kurt had never seen from him before. He was attentive to whoever was talking to him and he kept the laughter and jokes (as well as the alcohol) flowing. Kurt found himself impressed with Sebastian’s social skills and he was finally forced to admit to himself that he was enjoying the company of Sebastian Smythe.
And that didn’t change even when Sebastian took a seat next to him, jabbed an elbow into his side and smirked.
“So,” he said. “I think I owe you an apology.”
Kurt frowned, confused. “You do?”
“Yep,” Sebastian replied. The smirk was gone, replaced with an uncertain smile, and the way he shifted in his seat actually made Kurt think he might even be nervous. “It’s long overdue.”
“Oh,” Kurt said, and his brow cleared, as he finally understood. Still, he hadn’t expected this from Sebastian after so much time had gone by and he had to admit that he was sort of touched that Sebastian had even thought about it.
“Yeah,” Sebastian continued. “I mean, I remember apologizing to Blaine back then, but I don’t think I ever said sorry to you, and I should have. I was really a jerk to you. So, I’m saying sorry now, and that I hope we can be friends.”
Underneath the sincerity, there was a slight, questioning note to Sebastian’s voice – a hint of vulnerability that made Kurt’s heart melt just a little bit and caused a little flutter in his stomach… and that flutter made the smile he gave Sebastian feel a little shy.
“Thank you,” he said, in a soft voice. “I guess I should apologize as well. I really should never have commented on your odour. Although, I must say, it’s improved,” he leaned closer, with a mischievous smile, and sniffed delicately. “Armani Diamonds. Very nice.”
Sebastian’s eyes sparkled with amusement. “I’m glad you approve,” he said. “You really are full of compliments tonight.”
“Oh well,” Kurt huffed, but he was still smiling at Sebastian. “Don’t get used to it.”
“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Sebastian replied. “I don’t think I’d survive it.”
Their eyes held and Kurt felt the tension between them rising, and he knew that it was attraction. His stomach fluttered again and he could feel his cheeks beginning to flush. He was surprised, not about the fact that he was feeling an attraction to someone other than Blaine – they were both realistic enough to know that it sometimes happened and was perfectly normal – but he was surprised that his reaction to Sebastian was so immediate. And that Sebastian seemed to be feeling it too.
Then Brody started talking to Sebastian, and the moment broke. Kurt looked along the table and met Blaine’s eyes, the look in them was fond and amused… and above all, knowing. But it was a knowledge that was shared, and Kurt wasn’t at all surprised that Blaine was feeling Sebastian’s attraction as well.
He returned Blaine’s amused smile with one of his own, and took a sip of his drink. It seemed clear that neither of them would object to seeing Sebastian again.
October 2015
The next time they did see Sebastian was at their usual Halloween costume party. They’d both agreed to invite him and neither of them regretted it when he turned up dressed as a pirate. The look suited him and Kurt realized that the moment of attraction in the club hadn’t been a fluke because he found it almost impossible to keep his eyes off Sebastian. When he did finally manage to look away it was only to find that Blaine seemed to have the same problem.
The look Blaine returned seemed to have the touch of embarrassment in it that Kurt himself was feeling, and Kurt had learned long ago not to let things like that fester, so he slipped over to Blaine’s side and gave him a rueful smile.
“He looks pretty good, doesn’t he?” he whispered.
Blaine grinned and then pressed a slow kiss to Kurt’s mouth.
“Yeah, he does,” he practically breathed into Kurt’s ear, once the kiss had ended, “but it makes me want to sneak away with you somewhere and now I regret wearing such a complicated costume.”
“Oh, I think I could find my way into it,” Kurt said, sliding a hand down Blaine’s thigh. “I’m a Costume expert, remember?”
Blaine laughed and kissed him again, his tongue hot and lazy in Kurt’s mouth, and when they broke apart and Kurt looked up, he found Sebastian watching them, heat in his eyes… and desire twisted hard in his stomach.
Still, that night as Kurt gasped whilst Blaine took him hard and fast, Kurt’s thoughts were only of Blaine.
But over the next few months it got harder to ignore the tension they both seemed to feel whenever Sebastian was around, particularly because he was around a lot. They’d all become good friends, and there were more nights where the Parsons and NYADA groups met up for drinking or clubbing, and Sebastian had even sung at Callbacks a couple of times. There were dinner parties at Kurt and Blaine’s, or Rachel and Brody’s, and at the small house that Sebastian surprisingly shared with two girls… and it turned out that Sebastian was almost as good a cook as Kurt, which had been another surprise for Kurt. He’d never imagined a domesticated Sebastian, wearing an apron and holding a wooden spoon but it was a sight he’d thoroughly enjoyed seeing.
The friendship grew between the three of them, and they often spent time without the others, sometimes going out to movies, or theatre nights, or sometimes just hanging out at the loft, and underneath it all, the little hum of attraction was always there, a buzz of tension that they never acknowledged.
Kurt wondered sometimes why they didn’t. He and Blaine had never looked for a threesome, that was true, but there had been times before that they’d felt an attraction to someone and although they’d never acted on it, they had usually talked about it. Particularly as Blaine had learned, after the terrible time he’d cheated on Kurt, that if he didn’t talk about what he was feeling he might do something he’d regret.
Kurt figured that this was something a little different though, because for his own part, it wasn’t just an attraction, he really liked Sebastian as well, and he was reluctant to mess with what was turning out to be a surprisingly good friendship. He had a feeling that Blaine was feeling the same way about it.
So, the reluctance was there perhaps also fuelled by the fact that, deep down, he couldn’t help sometimes thinking back to that time when Sebastian had pursued Blaine, and even though he could see the interest in Sebastian’s eyes when he looked at Kurt, he found it hard to measure it to be the same as the desire that he felt that Sebastian had for Blaine.
The odd thing was though, that it would probably have been Blaine who would have struggled to be sexually compatible with Sebastian if anything had happened. Sebastian’s flatmates’ teasing had made it clear that Sebastian had experience in threesomes, but Kurt had also got the clear impression that Sebastian only preferred to top, and Blaine had pretty much turned into an exclusive top, himself. And Kurt was perfectly happy with that, he loved the feeling of penetration, of being fucked thoroughly and Blaine certainly knew how to fuck… thoroughly. But as much as blowjobs were fun, sometimes you just wanted more, and Blaine was definitely a ‘want more’ type of guy, so Kurt figured that Blaine had probably realized that he wasn’t going to get that with Sebastian.
But in the end, talking about it or not talking about it didn’t matter, because the tension built up and they ended up just falling into it without much thought, anyway.
May 2016
It happened the night of Kurt and Rachel’s graduation party. They’d done well at NYADA and Rachel already had a minor chorus part on Broadway, whilst Kurt had joined a small theatre company as an assistant costumer. So they had a lot to celebrate. The party had gone long and loud, until finally in the early hours of the morning it had wound down and there was only Kurt, Blaine and Sebastian left at the loft.
They were all coming down from being fairly drunk, but Sebastian had offered to help them clean up, and all three of them were sprawled on the couch trying to summon up the energy to begin. Even though Kurt wanted a tidy apartment to sleep in, he was also feeling pretty relaxed and pleasantly tired, so he’d sort of zoned out for a while, when suddenly Blaine was in his lap, kissing him deep, hot and wet.
Kurt was thoroughly enjoying it, but he started in surprise when he felt movement on the couch beside him and he turned to see Sebastian still sitting there. Focussed on Blaine, he’d somehow lost track of the fact that Sebastian was still there, and he flushed with embarrassment, even whilst Blaine’s lips were sliding along his throat. But Sebastian’s gaze was heavy as he watched them and it made the heat that had been uncurling in Kurt’s stomach flare brightly, and the flush in his face turned from embarrassment into desire.
Blaine pulled away suddenly and gave Kurt a searching look, and Kurt knew what he was asking because he was asking himself the same question.
“Do you want this?”
Blaine’s voice was low and rough, full of need, and it made Kurt’s already hardening dick, stiffen against the front of his jeans.
“What do you want to do?” Kurt asked in a whisper, and Blaine smiled slowly. Kurt knew that look – it meant that Blaine knew he was going to get what he wanted. And it was true, whilst Kurt still had some doubts niggling in the back of his mind, the way Sebastian was looking at them made his body sing, and Kurt wanted this… wanted Sebastian.
“I want to fuck you while he watches,” Blaine said, his voice still low. “And he wants to watch, don’t you Sebastian?”
“Yeah,” Sebastian agreed, and when Kurt turned to look at him again his smile was eager but still held a question. “But I might want a bit more than that.”
“I think we can sort that out,” Blaine said, and Kurt didn’t really get much of a chance to ask about how exactly they were going to do that, because Blaine suddenly leaned sideways and kissed Sebastian.
A strange little pang of pain went through Kurt as he watched his boyfriend kiss another guy but the lingering haze of alcohol numbed it, and he had to admit that it was also kind of hot. He was caught up in it for a few minutes, watching the way their mouths moved together, until he noticed that Blaine had unfastened Sebastian’s jeans and had his cock in his hand.
Kurt couldn’t take his eyes off it. It was cut, like Kurt’s, longer and thicker than either Kurt or Blaine, and flushed with arousal, and it made him want to taste it, so, knowing how much Blaine loved giving blow jobs, he wasn’t surprised when Blaine slid down to kneel on the floor between Sebastian’s legs, and took it into his mouth.
He sensed the shudder that went through Sebastian’s body and his eyes shot up to find Sebastian looking at him, leaning closer.
“May I kiss you?”
Kurt’s stomach swooped at those words, and the intent look in Sebastian’s eyes. He could see that Sebastian was completely serious about asking, that he had no intention of doing anything that Kurt might be uncomfortable with, and the sensation in his stomach flowed up into his chest in a clench of emotion that pushed him forward across the couch to meet Sebastian halfway. Their lips met, bruising and hard, but quickly gentled into a sensual slide of tongues and Kurt was surprised at how easy it was to kiss someone other than Blaine. And how good it was to kiss Sebastian and the thought tumbled through his mind that it might be his downfall.
Sebastian’s mouth was at times soft, at times demanding, and always skilled. It was easy for Kurt to lose himself in the sensation, to lose track of time, to even forget about Blaine, so it was a shock when arms slid around his waist and dragged him off the couch and onto the floor. The low whine of confusion and loss he made was slightly embarrassing but thankfully neither Blaine or Sebastian seemed to notice – Blaine was, for one thing, too busy manoeuvring Kurt into a position kneeling between Sebastian’s long legs.
Kurt gripped the edge of the sofa, on either side of Sebastian’s thighs, as Blaine tugged down Kurt’s jeans and boxers and pressed up close behind him. Blaine’s slick finger pushed inside, making him gasp a little, even as he wondered just when Blaine had got the lube out of their bedroom.
Sebastian leaned forward, looking over Kurt’s shoulder, and then he slid off the couch onto the floor in front of Kurt, and Kurt moaned as Sebastian’s lips found his throat. It felt like a double onslaught of pleasure, hands all over his body, Blaine’s fingers inside him, a mouth on the sensitive skin of his throat, and another on the back of his shoulder. It was almost overwhelming and Kurt shivered and closed his eyes, and felt a kind of relief when the lips left his body and he sensed that Blaine and Sebastian were now kissing each other over Kurt’s shoulder. He could feel their occasional breaths against the side of his face, and he could hear the way their mouths moved together, obscenely loud right next to his ear, and it made him feel hot. He began to undo the buttons on his shirt, trying to slip it off, and suddenly someone’s hands were there, helping him.
At the same time, Sebastian tugged his own sweater off over his head, underneath was all bare smooth skin and lean tight muscle, and it made Kurt drop his head forward and lick Sebastian’s shoulder, to taste and nip delicately.
“Blaine,” Kurt whispered against Sebastian’s skin, a plea in his voice. He never needed much stretching these days, he knew how to relax and take it, and he wanted Blaine in him, now.
Blaine moaned in agreement and pushed inside quickly, stealing the breath from Kurt’s lungs, in a delicious slide and burn. Sebastian’s mouth found Kurt’s again, swallowing Kurt’s moans of pleasure, even as his hand slid around Kurt’s hip until his fingers were pressing around where Kurt was stretched so tight around Blaine’s thrusting cock. The sensation shot straight to Kurt’s own cock, and it must have felt just as good for Blaine because his thrusts became longer and more deliberate and his fingers clenched Kurt’s hips tightly.
“That looks so hot,” Blaine said in a low voice. “But how about we give you a little more now, Sebastian? Why don’t you sit back up on the couch and Kurt can suck your cock? You’d like to do that, wouldn’t you Kurt?”
Blaine was already moving, shuffling them backwards on their knees a little, to give Sebastian room to move. Before he’d even really had time to think about it, Kurt was leaning over Sebastian’s lap with Sebastian’s erection right in front of him.
“Come on baby, suck his cock,” Blaine whispered. “I want to see it.”
And even as his stomach tightened with heat, Kurt knew that Blaine knew exactly what he was doing – that Blaine knew just exactly how much Kurt liked it when Blaine talked dirty to him, just exactly what it did to him – but it didn’t really matter because Kurt really wanted to taste Sebastian’s cock.
Sebastian’s hand had slipped into Kurt’s hair, tentative in its silent encouragement, and Kurt knew the choice was his. He gave Sebastian’s cock one long lick, and then quickly took it into his mouth, swirling his tongue around the head to taste the pre-come leaking there, before sliding down the shaft. He tasted different from Blaine, slightly saltier, where Blaine was musky, but after that thought Kurt just lost himself in the whole thing. The taste of Sebastian as he thrust shallowly into Kurt’s mouth, the satin skin of his stomach under Kurt’s hands, and the way he could feel Sebastian’s hard abdomen quivering with tension. That, mixed with the steady pressure of Blaine thrusting into him, and the grip of his tight fingers on Kurt’s hips was so overwhelmingly good that Kurt could feel his balls tightening up as his orgasm started to build.
Sebastian came first though, suddenly and with little warning, as he yanked on Kurt’s hair to pull him away. His come shot onto Kurt’s face and then dripped down into Sebastian’s lap, and Blaine obviously saw it because he groaned loudly, his hips sped up and Kurt was shoved forward against Sebastian’s chest by Blaine’s final deep thrust. Blaine pressed against his back, moaning with satisfaction and Kurt couldn’t help letting out a whimper of frustration. He was still hard as a rock and he needed release.
“Hey, I’ve got you,” Sebastian whispered, and then his hand was right there, right where Kurt needed it, large and firm, stroking smoothly, tight and fast, and Kurt groaned his gratitude into Sebastian’s chest and came hard all over Sebastian’s hand and his own belly.
Blaine withdrew and collapsed backwards onto the floor and Kurt followed him. He felt fucked out, almost dizzy with it, and sort of disgusting as well – there was come on his face, and his stomach, and he could feel it sliding out of his ass as well, for he and Blaine hadn’t used condoms for years.
“More freakin’ mess to clean up,” he grumbled, and Blaine laughed, and then they were all laughing, loud and breathless, and then Kurt must have passed out, because the next thing he’d known he was waking up in bed, with Blaine sitting next to him, watching him, his eyes bright and his hair curling riotously.
Kurt couldn’t imagine how he could look so fresh when Kurt felt like his head might explode.
“Hey,” Kurt rasped, after clearing his throat. “What are you doing, creeper?”
Blaine laughed. “Do you know I had to get Sebastian to help me carry you into bed last night? You were an immovable object, I couldn’t even get you to stand up.”
“Oh,” Kurt murmured, and flushed, because that was kind of embarrassing really. “And where is Sebastian anyway?”
“He went home after we got you to bed. I said he could stay if he wanted to but he thought it was better if he went.”
“Okay,” Kurt said, slowly, frowning a little at the discomfort he could feel in his stomach over the idea that Sebastian felt he should leave. “Was he… um… okay?”
“Yeah,” Blaine said, grinning. “He seemed pretty happy to me.”
He handed Kurt a large glass of water, and Kurt gave him a grateful smile as he drank it, watching the grin that still broadened Blaine’s mouth.
“Well, you look pleased,” he said, handing the glass back to Blaine.
Blaine’s cheeks flushed. “Well, yeah,” he said. “That was pretty fantastic last night. I have to confess I’d been thinking about something like that now and then, but I didn’t seriously think it would happen. But I did think we should talk about it? Just make sure we’re both on the same page with what happened?”
And this was the Blaine that Kurt loved so much, the one that was fearless and clear about what he wanted and still careful about their relationship. He gave Blaine a smile that he knew must look absolutely adoring.
“Oh, I’m good,” Kurt sighed, leaning back against the pillows and stretching muscles that felt sore and well-used, but in a good way. “And yeah, I’d thought about it too, because it was pretty obvious that the attraction was there, for all of us. But what about Sebastian? Shouldn’t we talk to him?”
“Already have,” Blaine told him. “He called early this morning to say he had no regrets, and also if we ever felt like doing something like that again, he’d be… ah… totally up for it.”
“Yes, that does sound like something he’d say,” Kurt said with a smile, as Blaine gave a little snort of laughter. “And so… do you… I mean, would you want to do it again?”
For some reason it was a struggle to get the words out, and Kurt’s heart was beating hard, whether from excitement or some sort of trepidation, he couldn’t be sure. At that moment, it felt like he was on the cusp of something, that he wasn’t sure what his own answer would be, or what he wanted Blaine’s answer to be, or whether whatever those answers were would take him to a place he wanted to be.
“Well, I wouldn’t mind,” Blaine admitted, and something in Kurt’s heart tightened, and again he didn’t really know what it meant. “But I don’t think we should plan it or anything. If it happens on the spur of the moment like it did last night, then it happens. If it doesn’t, then that’s okay too.”
There was a bit of relief in Kurt now, even though it felt like they were just postponing something.
“Okay,” he said, nodding in agreement. “If it happens, it happens.”
And, of course, it did happen again just as, deep down, Kurt had known it would.
October 2016
By the time their annual Halloween party rolled around again, Sebastian was a kind of fixture in their relationship, and somehow they’d ended up having sex with him regularly. It hadn’t gone much further than it had the first time; they’d only exchanged blowjobs and handjobs, and Blaine had been the only one to actually take Kurt, but Kurt often found himself wondering how long that restriction would last.
He suspected that Blaine wanted to watch it happen, in the same way that Sebastian watched them, and there was a big part of Kurt that wanted that too. He’d got used to Sebastian’s heated gaze on them, but it would be so much more to actually have Sebastian… to not just have his eyes, or his hand or his mouth, but to have all of him… in the way he had Blaine. Whenever he thought about it, desire unfurled inside him, hot and urgent, different from the slow build he had with Blaine. He wondered if it made him greedy to want both.
But aside from the sex, Sebastian seemed to be sinking into their relationship as well. He would stay with them a couple of nights in the week, and now when they went shopping, they’d shop for him as well. Sebastian had clothes in their closet, and a toothbrush in the bathroom, and sometimes one of his projects would be spread out on their table. When they made plans they’d consult him and he was often included in things that once they would have done by themselves.
But it had happened naturally, and organically, and it was obvious that they were all happy, so there was no real discussion about it, until one day, not long after the Halloween Party, Sebastian told them that the house he’d been sharing had been sold and that he had to move. And then Kurt saw the words forming in Blaine’s head, in the same way they were forming in his, until finally the words were out there, in the air, hovering between them.
“Do you think we should ask Sebastian to move in with us?”
It had been a busy day at work, and Kurt was tired, but he sat down beside Blaine and took in his earnest expression. There was a hint of confusion in Blaine’s eyes, as if he wasn’t entirely sure what he was asking for, and Kurt could completely understand that, because he was just as confused.
“I don’t know,” he said. “I mean, you do realize what it will mean if he does, don’t you? We’re already so close. If he’s here all the time, this won’t just be a relationship between the two of us anymore. It will be between the three of us. I love you Blaine, so much. Are you sure you want to bring Sebastian into this? Do you want more from him than we already have? I mean, this won’t just be about sex anymore.”
“It hasn’t been just about sex for a while though, has it? For either of us,” Blaine countered, and for some reason Kurt began to blush.
“And it hasn’t been just about sex for Sebastian either,” Blaine continued. “You know that he’s stopped seeing other people in the last few months. He hasn’t said anything but I have a feeling that he’d really like to be with us. In a relationship.”
“Okay,” Kurt replied thoughtfully. He knew how Blaine’s mind sometimes worked, that sometimes he leapt ahead without really thinking about how what he was doing might mean for himself or other people, and Kurt knew that it was something he couldn’t let happen here. “But it will mean a lot of changes. More than you might think, Blaine. Are you sure you that you could handle those changes?”
“What exactly do you mean?” Blaine asked, a slight frown on his face. “He’s already practically living here, we already do nearly everything with him. This would just be an extension of that.”
“That’s true,” Kurt agreed. “But okay, even if we just look at the physical side… and you know that’s going to be a big part of this.”
He paused for a moment, cleared his throat, and willed himself not to blush again, because he was going to have to be very blunt here, and even now, he still sometimes felt the embarrassment that he’d felt as a teenager.
“If we do this, it won’t just be blowjobs anymore, Blaine. He’ll want more, we’ll want more, and you know that he doesn’t bottom, and neither do you. Are you, um, sure that you’re going to get enough out of this?”
By the time he finished, Blaine was grinning, and Kurt rolled his eyes.
“Well, if you think you can handle both of us, I’ll be fine,” Blaine said, and he actually leered, which made Kurt want to slap him and laugh at the same time.
“I’m being serious, Blaine,” he said firmly.
“So am I,” Blaine said, and now he was starting to flush a little. “I’ve thought about it, and I have no problem with him fucking you, as long as I get to watch. No problem at all.”
Kurt wondered if he should actually be a little concerned about that. After all, in the past Blaine had often displayed some jealousy if any other guy showed an interest in Kurt… but in the end, he figured that as they’d been doing stuff with Sebastian for a while now, Blaine had gotten over whatever slight pangs of jealousy he might have felt initially, just as Kurt, himself, had. And besides, there was a lot more to talk about.
“Well, that’s the other thing,” Kurt said. “You’d always have to be there, and so would he, and so would I. I mean you do realize that we wouldn’t be able to do stuff alone anymore, don’t you? It wouldn’t be fair.”
Blaine blinked. “What are you talking about?”
“Well, think about it. You wouldn’t really like me to do anything with Sebastian when you’re not there, would you? And that’s the same for all of us. If we’re going to do this, then it will have to be a relationship, a commitment, between the three of us. We’d have to do it properly. We’d have to really be together.”
Blaine stared at him blankly, and Kurt could tell he was lost in thought, so he waited, patiently and, he had to admit, a bit nervously. Finally Blaine smiled.
“I guess it’s like any relationship,” he said. “There’s going to have to be sacrifices and compromises, but you know, usually the gain is worth it. I love you, Kurt, and a part of me doesn’t want to change what we have, but relationships grow and change all the time. They should, otherwise it gets stagnant. And I really think this change could give us so much.”
“I guess,” Kurt agreed, somewhat reluctantly, because a part of him wondered if Blaine was really as comfortable giving up their private moments as he said he was. And it was a part that hurt a little, because Kurt wasn’t so sure that he was so comfortable with it. He wondered if Blaine guessed that, because he suddenly leaned over and pressed a quick, soft kiss to Kurt’s mouth.
“You mentioned love just now,” Kurt continued, “and we haven’t really talked about that either. I’m attracted to Sebastian, you know that, and I really do like him. A lot. But I don’t know that I feel about him the same way that I do about you. I can’t help wondering if that’s fair to him… if he’s going to be a part of this.”
“Maybe you feel more for him than you think if you’re so concerned for him in all of this,” Blaine said with a smile. “Baby, I don’t know exactly how this is going to work. How can I, until we try it? I do know that, like you, I have strong feelings for Sebastian and that I really like the way the three of us are together. I think it could be great, and I kind of want to give it a go, but only if you and Sebastian want that as well.”
Blaine looked adorably earnest, just the way he always did when he wanted something, and that was a look that Kurt always found difficult to resist. He knew how single-minded Blaine could be when he was going after what he wanted and, at the moment, he wanted Sebastian. And even though Kurt thought that Blaine was probably right about it all, and the only way to really find out was to try it, he still felt anxious about the idea.
But he knew he was tired, he could feel the heaviness of it in his body, and his head wasn’t as clear as he’d like it to be… and maybe that was making him more anxious about it than he should be.
“I need a little time to think about it,” he finally said. “Can we talk about it again tomorrow?”
Blaine nodded and gave him another gentle kiss. Kurt could feel how much reassurance Blaine was trying to put into it, and he smiled against Blaine’s mouth, his heart filling with warmth.
The next day Kurt had a day off and Blaine was in classes, so he had plenty of time to try and work out how he felt about the situation. It was difficult; on the one hand he had to admit he was scared about making such a huge change to his relationship with Blaine, particularly considering some of their past history. He loved Blaine, and they’d both worked hard to get where they were now, and Kurt liked where they were. But on the other hand, Kurt could see how Sebastian was already a big part of what they were now, anyway. He could see how they’d just fallen into something with Sebastian, and in a way the ease with which it had happened obviously meant that it worked at some level already.
In the end, Kurt had to bring it down to the way he felt about Sebastian and that was when he got a bit of a shock. Because he made the discovery that he really didn’t like the idea of giving Sebastian up – and he figured that was what they’d have to do if they decided not to take the next step. And that realization made it easier to think about the idea that Blaine obviously didn’t want to give up Sebastian either, and the jealousy that Kurt might have expected to feel at that thought, particularly given their early history with Sebastian, just didn’t come. He suspected that it was because he knew that, this time, Sebastian was attracted to Kurt, as well as Blaine… and that made a big difference.
He found himself dwelling on images of the three of them together and the way those images made his heart beat harder until it seemed like he could feel it everywhere. And it wasn’t just the sex, and it wasn’t just because Blaine was there – when he thought about Sebastian’s golden skin, the sparkle of his green eyes, and the sound of his laugh, the feeling was still there, strong and vivid.
He thought about some of the conversations he’d had with Sebastian that had surprised him – about art and music and architecture – where he’d realized they had similar tastes. He thought about the way that Sebastian teased him, his wit sharp and quick, and the way it seemed to bring out Kurt’s own fire, so that they’d bounce off each other in a way that was completely exhilarating.
Eventually Kurt found himself having to acknowledge that he just might be falling a little in love with Sebastian Smythe.
Maybe more than a little.
And it was startling that the idea didn’t really seem to worry him very much… but considering his boyfriend was probably feeling the same way about Sebastian, made Kurt think that this was probably a good thing. He’d worked hard, as had Blaine, to bring trust back into their relationship and he felt like the fact that they were thinking about doing this with Sebastian meant that they had a solid foundation – they trusted each other, and it seemed they also trusted Sebastian, which was a good beginning point for what they were going to do. And that thought told Kurt that he’d made his decision. True, it might not work out, but if they didn’t try they’d never know, and it could turn out to be amazing.
Blaine obviously skipped his final class because he got home early and Kurt figured that he wanted to talk to Kurt before Sebastian, who they’d already invited over for dinner, got there.
Kurt prepared a simple pasta sauce, while Blaine bounced around the kitchen and generally got in the way, until Kurt finally gripped him by the shoulders and pushed him into a chair.
For a moment he wasn’t sure how to say what he wanted to say. Blaine stared up at him, his eyes big with curiosity and growing anxiety, so Kurt took a deep breath and nodded.
“Okay,” he said. “It’s obvious we both want this, so if you want to talk to Sebastian about it tonight, we can do that.”
Blaine’s reaction was immediate. He surged up out of the chair and flung his arms around Kurt’s waist and pressed his lips to Kurt’s in a hard kiss. A moment later he pulled away and grinned at Kurt, full of happiness, and Kurt could feel that same happiness welling up inside himself as he returned the smile.
“Right we will then,” Blaine said, and gave Kurt another quick kiss.
The odd thing was though, that once Sebastian got there, Blaine went shy in way that Kurt hadn’t seen for years… and it had the odd effect of making Kurt act in the same way.
It was obvious that Sebastian noticed it too, because he got more cautious and wary throughout the evening until, just as they were sitting down to eat, he finally asked them if there was anything wrong, and they both looked at each other, blushed, and then laughed.
“No, really,” Sebastian said, frowning. “You’re making me really nervous.”
“We didn’t mean to do that,” Blaine managed to say, and then he launched into a faltering speech that Sebastian listened to in tense silence.
Once Blaine had finished presenting their proposition, Sebastian sat for a moment with a look in his eyes that seemed to be a mixture of surprise and restrained excitement. Then he looked at Kurt.
“And you? You’ve been pretty quiet.”
“I think it could be good,” Kurt said simply, and something in his heart warmed when a slow smile spread across Sebastian’s face.
“I have to admit I’ve thought about it too,” Sebastian said. “But you guys have such a tight relationship that I didn’t really think you’d be interested. So, I have to ask, are you really sure you want to include someone else in all that? This won’t be like what we’ve been doing so far.”
Kurt couldn’t help smiling because this maturity that Sebastian had now, where he thought about his actions and how they affected others, was something that he’d noticed a few times, and every time he had it had made him like Sebastian even more. And maybe now that he’d admitted the way he felt, he could say that it made him fall in love with Sebastian a little more, too.
And maybe it was the same for Blaine as well, Kurt thought, when he felt Blaine practically vibrating in his seat beside him.
“We’ve talked about it a lot,” Kurt said. “And I think we’re at the point now where we’re more concerned about how you feel about it. It’s a big deal for you too, coming into an already established relationship. It’ll be a huge adjustment for all of us, but it might actually be even more of an adjustment for you. Are you sure you want to take that on?”
Kurt could see the way that Sebastian was watching them carefully, as if he was looking for something he needed to see, and he must have seen it because eventually that slow smile bloomed on his face once more.
“Look,” Sebastian said. “You know I’ve had a couple of boyfriends since high school but I can honestly say that I’ve not felt about them, the way I feel about you two. I know that we can’t really say this is love yet, but I really feel like it could turn into that, for all of us. So, if you’re both really up for this, then my answer is yes.”
Blaine practically erupted with excitement and launched himself at Sebastian, and Kurt couldn’t help laughing. Over Blaine’s shoulder, Sebastian gave him a wry look.
“I think he’s pleased,” he said, winking at Kurt. “Who would have thought, back when we first met, that this would happen, right?”
Kurt laughed again. “I think if someone had told me back then I would have stabbed myself in the head,” he said, and he leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss to Sebastian’s smiling lips.
They’d already planned for Sebastian to stay with them that night, and all through the rest of the meal Kurt’s stomach was wound tight with tension and excitement because he was pretty sure he knew what was about to happen. He was also sure that Blaine knew it too because he now seemed to have recovered from his momentary shyness and the heated looks he kept giving Kurt and Sebastian could only be described as lustful anticipation.
Sebastian had seemed affected as well, his face was slightly flushed and his eyes glittered whenever he met either Blaine or Kurt’s gaze, so in the end they gave up on cleaning the dishes and left everything spread out on the table as they tumbled into the bedroom.
It was a tangle of long limbs, discarded clothing, and heated skin until Kurt finally found himself on his back with Sebastian kneeling between his spread legs, fingers pressed deep inside Kurt. It was a sight that Kurt could admit he’d wanted to see for quite a while, but it was kind of overwhelming now that it was actually happening and so he had to close his eyes, and lie still, listening to Blaine’s heavy, excited breathing against his ear.
Kurt had only ever done this with two people - Blaine, and the eight months that he was with Adam, during the time when he and Blaine had been broken up. He was surprised at feeling nervous about it, and he could tell from the tight grip that Blaine had on his hand, that maybe Blaine was a little nervous about it as well.
Sebastian seemed to sense it though because his other hand was very gentle as it slid along Kurt’s thigh in a soothing caress.
“Do you want me to use a condom?” he asked in a low voice, and Kurt’s eyes flew open to find them both watching him, and he melted a little as he realized that they were both giving him this decision.
He hadn’t used condoms with Blaine for a long time, but after they’d started fooling around with Sebastian they’d both gone for testing, and Sebastian had done the same. They knew they were all safe, so Kurt had a feeling that this was about something else, and the cautious, slightly shuttered look in Sebastian’s eyes confirmed it. Some sort of instinct told him that Sebastian was waiting to see if Kurt trusted him in the same way he trusted Blaine, and when he realized that Sebastian obviously already trusted Kurt, his heart leapt and seemed to flutter in his throat.
“No, it’s fine,” he said, with a slightly choked voice, and Sebastian smiled and reached for the lube.
Blaine shifted at Kurt’s side, leaned over him and kissed him, so Kurt could only hear the wet sounds of Sebastian slicking up his cock, and his stomach tightened with anticipation. He forced himself to relax when Sebastian’s hands gripped his hips, and then it was happening… Sebastian was pushing inside him. Kurt spread his thighs wide around Sebastian and gasped into Blaine’s mouth until Blaine pulled away, gave him an excited grin and then turned to watch, his hand working over his own hard cock. A wave of heat flooded through Kurt and he couldn’t contain a low moan of pleasure.
There was a bit more of a stretch because Sebastian was a little thicker than Blaine, but otherwise it was the same sensation of tight fullness that Kurt loved. But even so, it was also different, the way Sebastian slid all the way inside, and when Sebastian started to thrust it was different again. There was more force behind it, Kurt thought, and even the movement of his hips was not like Blaine’s. Then Sebastian shifted slightly and he was suddenly right there, pressing and sliding against Kurt’s sensitive prostate and Kurt’s eyes almost rolled back into his head, and he couldn’t analyze this anymore, he could only feel.
“Oh, god, yes, there, right there,” he moaned, and he lifted his hips, pushing back against Sebastian and trying to take as much of him as he could. He heard Blaine’s excited groan and answered it by tugging him down into a messy kiss.
“Fuck, you feel so good,” Sebastian whispered, and Blaine pulled away from Kurt to kneel up beside Sebastian and kiss him. Kurt watched them, awash with sensation, excitement rising, as Sebastian’s hand curled around Blaine’s erection and stroked it.
Kurt mirrored the action with his own hand on his own cock but Sebastian was so deep and hard inside him that Kurt wondered if he really needed it, he was already so close. As it was, he only stroked a couple of times and he was coming in thick stripes that laced over his stomach, shaking and shivering with it. His back arched as Sebastian pressed deeper, and then after a few quick, hard thrusts, Sebastian was coming too, his eyes closed tight and Kurt’s name on his lips. One last aftershock went through Kurt as he heard it.
“Fuck, fuck, so hot,” Blaine groaned loudly. “Someone suck me. Please.”
Kurt was too strung out to move when Sebastian finally pulled out of him so he could only watch as Sebastian pushed Blaine back onto the bed and took his cock into his mouth. He couldn’t remember having had an orgasm so intense before and he was kind of dumbfounded by it, and he could only wonder if it was from the nervous excitement of being with Sebastian for the first time.
He stretched luxuriously and rolled onto his side, found Blaine’s mouth and kissed him deeply as Blaine panted through his own orgasm. A moment later Sebastian slumped beside them, and they wriggled around a bit, trying to get comfortable.
Suddenly Blaine laughed. “I’ll tell you something,” he said, still snorting. “We’re going to have to get a bigger bed. Tomorrow, if possible.”
Sebastian burst out laughing, and Kurt smiled at them both fondly.
Sebastian moved in the next day. They made space for him in their closet; he filled up their half-empty bookcases with books, added to their collection of china and cookware and installed his very complicated coffee machine. Kurt liked it, liked the way everywhere he looked now in the loft he could see a bit of Sebastian, and he could tell that Blaine liked it too.
A couple of nights later they met up with Rachel and Brody for a little celebration. They hadn’t yet actually told anyone exactly what Sebastian moving in with them meant, but Kurt could tell by the speculative way that Rachel looked at him, that it wouldn’t be that way for long.
Finally he found her waiting for him as he came out of the restroom, and she took him by the hand and tugged him into a dim corner of the bar they were in.
“What on earth are you doing, Kurt?” she asked, her eyes full of concern. “And don’t pretend you don’t know what I’m talking about.”
“Why would I pretend?” Kurt asked, bristling a little. “Sebastian’s moved in with us and, yes, as you’ve guessed, he’s a part of our relationship. It’s been going on for quite some time now and we’ve made it official, that’s all.”
Rachel narrowed her eyes. “Are you sure you know what you’re doing, Kurt? You know what Sebastian was like about Blaine when we were in high school.”
“God, Rachel,” Kurt said. “That was years ago. And don’t talk about Sebastian like that. I thought you liked him now.”
“I do. And I’m worried about him too,” Rachel said earnestly, and this was why Kurt loved her so much. She could be so annoying sometimes but when she did really care about the people she knew, she wasn’t afraid to show it.
“You and Blaine love each other so much,” she continued, before Kurt could say anything. “I just don’t understand why you’re doing this.”
“Yeah, we love each other,” Kurt told her. “But Sebastian is a part of that now. We both have really strong feelings for him, and he does for us as well, so this just kind of happened. And really, after what went down with you and Finn and Brody, I thought you’d get that you can have feelings for two people at once.”
Rachel flushed and looked embarrassed but her eyes were still anxious. “I’m really worried that one of you will get hurt,” she said, softly. “And I’m scared it will be you, Kurt.”
Kurt stared at her for a moment, his brow furrowed with uncertainty about what to say to her to put her fears at rest. He could see how worried she was and he couldn’t ignore that. Sometimes the same worry still drifted through his mind, he had to admit that, but whenever he looked at Blaine and Sebastian his heart felt full, and he knew that he wanted to do this.
Later, when he looked back on this conversation, he would wonder if he’d been naïve; he would wonder if he should have really listened to her, that maybe the fact that he hadn’t was his downfall. But as it was, in that moment, he simply gave her a comforting pat on the shoulder and said:
“It will be fine, Rachel.”