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The soju is cheap and burns.

Jisung’s sprawled across Minho’s couch like he pays rent here. He doesn’t. He’s just been coming over since they were nineteen and stupid, and now they’re twenty-four and arguably stupider.

Seoul hums outside the window—all neon bleeding into night, the perpetual sound of traffic that Jisung’s learned to sleep through. Minho’s apartment is in Mapo, fourth floor of a building that’s seen better decades, where the elevator works half the time and the ajumma downstairs sells the best tteokbokki Jisung’s ever had.

“I’m bad at dating,” Jisung announces to the ceiling. The lights are off except for the blue glow of Minho’s phone screen.

“I know.”

“Like, catastrophically bad.”

“You’ve mentioned.” Minho’s scrolling through something, probably those cat videos he pretends he doesn’t watch obsessively. “Twice tonight. And you showed me the texts from the last guy.”

Jisung rolls onto his side. Minho’s sitting on the floor, back against the couch, and Jisung can see the sharp line of his jaw in the phone light. He’s known Minho for five years, and he still sometimes forgets how to breathe around certain angles of him.

“Why are you so good at being single?” Jisung asks.

“I’m not good at it. I’ve just never tried anything else.”

And that’s when the idea hits him—drunk brilliant, the kind that seems genius at 2am and insane in the morning. Except Jisung’s going to say it anyway because he’s never been good at keeping things in his head where they belong.

“We should date each other.”

Minho’s scrolling stops. “What?”

Outside, someone’s singing off-key. A dog barks. The world continues being noisy and alive and completely unaware that Jisung’s about to ruin everything.

“Not for real,” he clarifies, sitting up too fast. The room tilts. “Practice. Like—like research. You figure out what you actually like, I figure out how to not be a disaster. Thirty dates. Then we’re done.”

Minho turns to look at him, and his expression is unreadable in the dark. “That’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever said to me.”

“Is it though?” Jisung’s warming to the idea now, leaning forward. “We already know each other. No pressure because it’s not real. We can be honest. It’s controlled experimentation.”

“You failed science class.”

“I passed eventually.”

“Because I did your homework.”

“See?” Jisung grins. “We’re already good at collaboration.”

Minho stares at him for a long moment. The refrigerator hums in the kitchen. Someone upstairs is moving furniture at 2am like a psychopath. Seoul never sleeps and neither do they, apparently.

“This will ruin our friendship,” Minho says finally.

“No it won’t. We’re too stubborn for that.”

“Jisung.”

“What do you have to lose?” Jisung offers his hand. “Thirty dates. Then everything goes back to normal.”

Minho looks at Jisung’s outstretched hand like it might bite him. Then he takes it, his palm warm and calloused from the guitar he plays when he thinks no one’s listening.

“Fine. Thirty dates.”

They shake on it, and Jisung tells himself the flutter in his stomach is just the soju. Just the thrill of a new project. Just anything except what it actually is.

Minho doesn’t let go right away, and Jisung doesn’t either. Outside, Seoul glitters and sprawls, eight million people making eight million mistakes, and Jisung’s about to become one of them.

“Rules?” Minho asks.

“Wing it. We’re good at that.”

“We’re terrible at that.”

“Then we’ll be terrible together.” Jisung finally pulls his hand back. His palm feels cold now. “First date this weekend?”

“Okay.”

“Okay.”

Later, after Jisung’s claimed the spare room (he does that a lot—Minho’s place is closer to the studio where Jisung works on music that might go nowhere), he lies awake and listens to the building settle. Pipes groan. Someone’s television mutters through thin walls. Minho moves around in his room, probably doing his nighttime routine with the precision of someone who’s never spontaneous about anything except agreeing to fake date their best friend.

Jisung pulls out his phone, makes a new note titled “The Experiment.” Types “Date 1:” and stares at the blinking cursor.

This is fine, he tells himself. This is manageable. It’s just Minho.

He’s been lying to himself about Minho for five years. What’s thirty more dates?

They meet at the café in Hongdae where Jisung practically lives, the one with the succulents in the windows and the barista who knows his order by heart. It’s Saturday afternoon and the place is packed with college students studying and couples on actual dates, and Jisung feels like an imposter among them.

Minho shows up exactly on time because he’s never been late to anything in his life. He’s wearing the black jacket Jisung likes, the one that makes his shoulders look good, and Jisung has to remind himself that noticing is allowed. It’s observational data. It’s research.

“Hey,” Jisung says, and it comes out weird because he’s suddenly aware of how to say hey, which is insane because he’s said hey to Minho approximately ten thousand times.

“Hey.” Minho sits across from him. “So. Date one.”

“Date one,” Jisung echoes.

The café is warm and smells like espresso and cinnamon. Sunlight slants through the windows, catching dust motes in lazy spirals. Someone’s playing acoustic guitar in the corner, something soft that gets lost under conversation. Jisung focuses on these details because looking at Minho directly feels dangerous today.

“I got you an iced americano,” Jisung pushes the cup across. “Extra shot.”

“You didn’t have to—”

“It’s a date. I’m supposed to do things.”

Minho takes the coffee, and his fingers brush Jisung’s. It’s nothing. They’ve touched a million times. Jisung needs to get his shit together.

“So,” Jisung pulls out his phone, opens his notes. “We should establish parameters. What makes a date successful versus unsuccessful.”

“You made a spreadsheet.”

“It’s notes. Very casual notes.”

“There are color-coded categories.”

“I contain multitudes.” Jisung takes a sip of his own coffee. “Okay, so. Physical affection levels. Communication style. Activity enjoyment. Post-date feelings. We rate each category after every date.”

“You’re approaching this like a science project. I thought we’d wing it?”

“You said that would ruin the friendship. I’m proving it won’t.”

Minho leans back in his chair, studying Jisung with that look he gets sometimes—like he’s seeing through to the messy parts Jisung tries to keep hidden. 

Outside the window, Hongdae streams past in its usual chaos. Street performers. Students. People selling things from blankets on the sidewalk. The neighborhood has an energy that Jisung’s always loved, young and loud and trying too hard.

“What?” Jisung asks when the silence stretches.

“Nothing. Just thinking.”

“About?”

“About how this is either going to be brilliant or a complete disaster.”

“Why not both?” Jisung grins.

They spend two hours in the café. Talking about nothing, about everything. Minho tells him about the cat he’s been feeding in the alley behind his building. Jisung rambles about a melody that’s been stuck in his head for weeks. The conversation flows easy like it always does, and maybe that’s the problem. 

There’s no difference between this and every other time they’ve gotten coffee.

When they leave, the sun’s starting to set, painting Hongdae in gold and pink. The streets are even more packed now, the night crowd emerging. Someone’s selling roasted chestnuts and the smell makes Jisung’s stomach growl even though he’s not hungry.

“So,” Minho says as they walk toward the subway. “How do we rate date one?”

Jisung considers. “Physical affection: minimal. Communication: excellent as always. Activity enjoyment: high. Post-date feelings...”

He trails off because he doesn’t know how to quantify the weird flutter in his chest. The way he kept noticing things about Minho he’s somehow never noticed before—the way he tears his napkin into tiny pieces when he’s thinking, the small scar on his hand from when they tried to make friendship bracelets drunk at 3am and Minho stabbed himself with the needle.

“Confused,” Jisung finishes. “Post-date feelings are confused.”

“Same,” Minho says quietly.

They reach the subway entrance. This is where they’d normally split—Minho back to Mapo, Jisung to his shoebox in Sinchon. But Jisung finds himself not wanting to go yet.

“Twenty-nine more,” he says instead.

“Twenty-nine more,” Minho agrees.

On the subway ride home, Jisung updates his notes. Types “Date 1: Baseline established. No different from regular hangout. This is fine.” Then he stares at those last three words until they stop looking like letters.

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: made it home. same time next week?

Jisung: its a date. literally

Minho: terrible joke

Jisung: you love my terrible jokes

Minho: debatable

Jisung smiles at his phone like an idiot. Across from him, an old woman is watching him with the kind of knowing expression that makes Jisung lock his screen and stare at his shoes for the rest of the ride.

This is fine. This is research. This is twenty-nine more dates and then everything goes back to normal.

He’s never been good at believing his own lies.

Minho picks the film—some art house thing in a tiny theater in Gwanghwamun that shows cult classics. The theater has maybe thirty seats, velvet that’s worn shiny, and smells like old popcorn and time. Jisung loves it immediately.

They’re early, so they wander the neighborhood first. It’s different here—less chaotic than Hongdae, more refined. Historic buildings nestled between modern offices. The spring air is warm enough that Jisung doesn’t need a jacket, and the city feels softer in the early evening light.

“I’ve never been to this part of Seoul much,” Jisung admits as they walk past Gyeongbokgung. The palace walls glow in the sunset.

“Really?” Minho looks surprised. “You’ve lived here for five years.”

“I don’t get out of my usual radius much. Studio to apartment to Hongdae. Sometimes Gangnam if I’m feeling adventurous.”

“That’s sad.”

“That’s routine.” But Jisung looks around with new interest. “Maybe that’s my problem. I get comfortable and stop exploring.”

“Is that a metaphor?”

“Everything’s a metaphor if you’re pretentious enough.”

Minho laughs, and Jisung feels accomplished. Making Minho laugh is its own reward—he’s stingy with them, so each one feels earned.

The theater is even better inside. They buy overpriced popcorn because it’s what you do, climb the narrow stairs to the screening room. There are maybe ten other people scattered in the seats. Minho leads them to the back row.

“Back row?” Jisung raises an eyebrow. “Bold choice.”

“Better view of the screen.”

“Sure. That’s why.”

The lights dim before Minho can respond. The film is in French with Korean subtitles, something black and white and devastating. Jisung tries to focus but he’s too aware of Minho next to him. The armrest between them feels like a border neither of them is willing to cross.

Twenty minutes in, Jisung shifts and their knees bump. Minho doesn’t move away.

Forty minutes in, Minho offers the popcorn and their fingers tangle briefly in the bucket. Jisung’s heart does something stupid.

An hour in, Jisung realizes he hasn’t processed a single line of dialogue. On screen, people are having intense conversations in a language he doesn’t speak, with subtitles he’s not reading. Next to him, Minho is perfectly still, face illuminated by the flickering screen light.

Jisung lets himself look. Studies the line of Minho’s profile, the way he’s completely absorbed in the film. There’s something about watching someone when they don’t know they’re being watched—it feels intimate and invasive all at once.

Minho turns, catches him staring.

They look at each other in the dark. The film plays on, forgotten. Someone on screen is crying or confessing or maybe both.

“You’re not watching,” Minho whispers.

“Neither are you now.”

“I was. You distracted me.”

“I didn’t do anything.”

“That’s the problem.”

Jisung doesn’t know what to do with that, so he turns back to the screen. His heart is loud enough that he’s sure Minho can hear it. After a moment, he feels Minho’s pinky brush against his on the armrest. Casual. Maybe accidental.

Jisung hooks their pinkies together.

For the rest of the film, they stay like that. Connected by the smallest possible point of contact. When the credits roll and the lights come up, they separate naturally, but Jisung can still feel the ghost of touch.

Outside, Gwanghwamun has transformed into night. The palace is lit up, dramatic against the dark sky. Office workers stream from buildings. Street vendors sell hotteok and eomuk. The city’s nighttime version of itself.

“So,” Minho says as they walk. “Date two.”

“Physical affection: minimal but present. Communication: mostly silent which was weird. Activity enjoyment: medium. Post-date feelings: complicated.”

“Complicated how?”

Jisung stops walking. They’re near the subway, bodies streaming around them like water around stones. “I don’t know. I kept thinking about the rules. About what’s allowed. We held pinkies and I spent twenty minutes wondering if that was too much or not enough or what it meant.”

“It’s practice,” Minho says, but he doesn’t sound convinced. “That’s what it means.”

“Right. Practice.”

They’re standing too close for friends, not close enough for whatever this is becoming. Seoul moves around them—oblivious, busy, alive with its eight million stories that have nothing to do with two idiots trying to practice something that’s starting to feel less like pretend.

“Twenty-eight more,” Jisung says.

“Twenty-eight more,” Minho confirms.

On the subway home, Jisung adds to his notes: “Date 2: Lines are blurring. Hand-holding (pinky version) achieved. Film choice excellent but didn’t watch most of it. This might be a problem.”

His phone stays silent. No goodnight text from Minho. Jisung tells himself that means nothing. That the absence of a text isn’t the same as the presence of doubt.

He falls asleep with his phone in his hand anyway, just in case.

Date three is Jisung’s choice, and he goes for classic: Han River at sunset, convenience store picnic, sitting on the wall with their feet dangling over the bike path below.

The river is busy this time of evening—cyclists zipping past, couples on rented bikes, families with kids. The water reflects the city back at itself in rippling fragments. Across the way, the Gangnam skyline glitters. Seoul from this angle looks almost romantic, if you ignore the traffic noise and the occasional smell from the water.

“Very traditional first date energy,” Minho says, unwrapping kimbap.

“It’s our third date.”

“I’m aware.”

“And it’s nice. Classic for a reason.” Jisung cracks open a beer. It’s cheap, from the GS25 down the block, and tastes like most cheap beer—vaguely like regret and college. “Plus, I wanted to talk properly. Movie theater wasn’t great for that.”

“So this is the talking date.”

“This is the let’s-figure-out-what-we’re-doing date.”

A cyclist rings their bell as they pass. The breeze off the river is cool, carrying the smell of water and exhaust and something frying from a pojangmacha nearby. It’s distinctly Seoul—nothing about this city smells clean, but Jisung’s grown to love it anyway.

“Okay,” Minho takes a sip of his own beer. “What are we doing?”

“Well. Two dates in. We’ve established baseline comfort, minimal physical contact, easy conversation. Standard metrics are all positive.” Jisung pauses. “But I think we need to establish what we’re actually trying to learn here.”

“You mean besides how to date?”

“Like—what’s the end goal? After thirty dates, what do we want to have figured out?”

Minho considers this, looking out over the river. The sunset is doing something dramatic behind them, painting everything in orange and pink. His profile is sharp against the soft light, and Jisung has to physically stop himself from staring.

“I guess I want to know what I actually like,” Minho says finally. “Not what I think I’m supposed to like. What makes me feel something.”

“And how will you know?”

“I don’t know. That’s why we’re doing this.”

It’s honest in a way that makes Jisung’s chest tight. Minho’s not usually this open, this willing to admit uncertainty. The beers are probably helping.

“What about you?” Minho asks. “What do you want to learn?”

Jisung thinks about his string of failed relationships. The guy who said he was too intense. The girl who got tired of his anxiety. The person who loved him exactly until they didn’t. All the ways he’s been too much or not enough, never quite right.

“I want to know how to be with someone without fucking it up,” he admits. “How to not be so in my head that I ruin things before they start. How to just... be present.”

“You’re present now.”

“This is different. This isn’t real.”

“Isn’t it?”

The question sits between them. On the river, a cruise boat passes, covered in lights and playing tinny music. A group of friends on bikes ride past, laughing about something. The world continues spinning, indifferent to Jisung’s small crisis.

“It’s practice,” Jisung says firmly. “That’s the whole point.”

“Right.”

But Minho’s looking at him with that expression again—the one that sees too much. And Jisung realizes with horrible clarity that Minho’s been looking at him like that for longer than two dates. Maybe longer than he wants to count.

“Can I try something?” Minho asks.

“What?”

“Just—” Minho shifts closer. They’re already sitting close but now their thighs are pressed together, shoulders touching. “This. Is this okay?”

Jisung’s mouth is dry. “Yeah. It’s—yeah.”

They sit like that as the sun finishes setting. As the river darkens and the city lights grow brighter. As the temperature drops and Jisung shivers once, and Minho wordlessly shrugs out of his jacket and drapes it over Jisung’s shoulders.

“Date three,” Minho says quietly. “How do we rate it?”

Jisung pulls the jacket tighter. It smells like Minho’s detergent and something else, something that’s just him. “Physical affection: increasing. Communication: too honest. Activity: perfect. Post-date feelings...”

“Yeah?”

“Scared,” Jisung admits. “I’m starting to feel scared.”

“Of what?”

“That this is working too well.”

Minho’s quiet for a long moment. Then: “Yeah. Me too.”

They stay until the convenience store closes and a security guard tells them politely that they can’t sit on the wall after midnight. On the subway home, Minho’s jacket is still around Jisung’s shoulders. Neither of them mentions it.

That night, Jisung doesn’t update his notes. Just stares at the screen until his eyes blur, then puts his phone away without writing anything at all.

Some things don’t fit in neat categories. Some things are too big for bullet points.

Jisung picks noraebang because it’s safe territory—they’ve done this a hundred times, cramming into tiny rooms in Hongdae or Sinchon, destroying ballads at 4am. It’s familiar. It’s comfortable.

It’s a mistake.

The room is small, barely big enough for the couch and the table and the two of them. It’s in a building in Gangnam, one of those fancy places with good sound systems and tablets instead of the old books. Everything’s purple and blue neon, and the bass from the room next door thumps through the walls.

Minho queues up songs with the confidence of someone who’s done this a thousand times. Jisung orders beer and fried chicken because what else do you do in noraebang?

Three songs in, they’re loose and laughing. Minho’s doing a ballad with complete sincerity, which should be funny but instead is just captivating. He’s not a great singer but he commits, and there’s something about watching someone be unselfconscious that makes Jisung’s heart do weird things.

“Your turn,” Minho says, thrusting the mic at him.

Jisung picks something upbeat, something he can hide behind. Dances badly on purpose. Makes Minho laugh. That’s the goal—keep it light, keep it fun, don’t think about how Minho’s looking at him.

But then Minho queues up a duet.

“Really?” Jisung asks.

“It’s research. Couples do karaoke duets.”

“Couples who hate each other, maybe.”

“Just sing.”

It’s one of those dramatic OST songs, the kind with ridiculous high notes and emotions that don’t fit in normal conversations. They’re both terrible at it. They’re both trying anyway. And somewhere in the second chorus, when they’re facing each other and sort of dancing and completely butchering the vocals, Jisung forgets this is practice.

Forgets they’re doing this for research. Forgets everything except the way Minho’s smiling at him, completely unguarded, like Jisung is the only person in the world.

The song ends. They’re standing too close, both breathing hard from the exertion and the laughter. The next song auto-queues but neither of them moves.

“Jisung,” Minho says.

“Yeah?”

“Can I—” He stops. Starts again. “Would it be okay if I kissed you?”

The room is suddenly too hot, too small. The music is too loud. Jisung’s heart is definitely too loud.

“That’s very polite of you to ask,” Jisung says, aiming for light and missing. “Very boyfriend.”

“That’s not an answer.”

“Yes. Yeah. It would be—that would be okay.”

Minho steps closer. Cups Jisung’s face with both hands. His palms are warm and a little sweaty from holding the mic. There’s leftover eyeliner smudged under his eyes from practice earlier. He’s so close that Jisung can count his eyelashes.

“This is still practice,” Minho says, but he sounds like he’s trying to convince himself.

“Obviously.”

“Just so we’re clear.”

“Crystal clear.”

Minho kisses him.

It’s soft at first. Careful. Then Jisung makes a sound he’ll be embarrassed about later and Minho presses closer and careful dissolves into something else entirely. Jisung’s hands find Minho’s hips, pulling him in. Minho’s fingers thread through his hair. The music plays on, forgotten.

When they break apart, they’re both breathing hard. Minho’s lips are red. His eyes are dark. He looks at Jisung like he’s something precious, something fragile.

“So,” Jisung manages. “Physical affection: significant increase.”

Minho laughs, breathless. “You’re really doing notes right now?”

“I’m always doing notes. It’s my process.”

“Your process is insane.”

“And yet.” Jisung grins. “You’re still here.”

They order more beer. Sing more songs. Don’t talk about the kiss even though it’s taking up all the air in the room. When they leave, the Gangnam streets are bright and busy with Saturday night crowds. Young people in clothes too expensive for Jisung’s budget. Fancy cars. Everything shiny and aspirational.

At the subway, Minho pulls Jisung into a hug. It’s brief but tight, and Jisung lets himself sink into it. Minho’s heartbeat is fast against his chest.

“Twenty-six more,” Minho says into his shoulder.

“Twenty-six more,” Jisung echoes.

On the train home, Jisung touches his lips. They still feel warm. He opens his notes app, types “Date 4: First kiss. Everything is different now. Everything is terrifying now.” Then deletes it. Types instead: “Date 4: Physical affection successfully practiced. Proceeding as planned.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: that was

Jisung waits but no more message comes. Finally he types: that was what?

Minho: i dont know

Minho: ask me in 26 dates

Jisung smiles at his phone like an idiot for the second time in a week. Across from him, a couple is asleep on each other’s shoulders. Jisung wonders if they practiced first or just jumped in. Wonders if practice ever stops feeling like the real thing.

Wonders if he’s already in too deep to find his way back.

They meet at the Kyobo Bookstore in Gwanghwamun, the massive one that sprawls across multiple floors and has every book ever printed, probably. 

It’s Minho’s choice, and Jisung should have seen this coming—Minho with unlimited time in a bookstore is dangerous. Minho with unlimited time in a bookstore on a date is catastrophic.

Seoul is grey today, threatening rain. The bookstore is warm and smells like paper and coffee from the café on the first floor. It’s Sunday afternoon and the place is packed—students studying, people browsing, the quiet murmur of a thousand private worlds.

“So what’s the plan?” Jisung asks as they ride the escalator up. The reflection on the wall makes their face look funny.

“We each pick books for the other person. Things we think they’d like.”

“That’s actually kind of sweet.”

“You sound surprised.”

“You’re not usually the sentimental type.”

Minho gives him a look. “You literally watched me cry at the end of Coco.”

“Everyone cries at Coco. That’s science.”

They split up on the third floor—fiction and literature. Jisung wanders through the aisles, running his fingers along spines. He’s not much of a reader, never has been. Too impatient. Too much sitting still. But he knows Minho is, knows he reads before bed every night, serious literary stuff that Jisung can’t pronounce.

He finds a book of poetry first—modern, Korean, the kind that reads like song lyrics. Takes a picture of a page to save for later, maybe turn into music. Then a book about cats because Minho’s obsessed. Then, after twenty minutes of searching, a collection of essays about loneliness in cities.

He’s not sure why that one calls to him. Just knows Minho will get it. Will understand what Jisung can’t quite articulate about living in Seoul—surrounded by millions and still feeling alone sometimes. Until he doesn’t. Until someone makes it feel less vast.

They meet back at the café. Minho has a stack of books that makes Jisung laugh.

“I said one or two, not a full library.”

“I narrowed it down.” Minho spreads them on the table. “Okay, so. This one’s about music theory but written for normal people. This one’s poetry but it’s funny, not depressing. And this one—” He hesitates. “This one just made me think of you.”

Jisung picks it up. It’s small, leather-bound. “The Art of Noticing Things.”

“You’re always noticing things other people miss. Writing them down. I thought—” Minho stops, ears going pink. “Never mind. It’s stupid.”

“It’s not stupid.” Jisung flips through the pages. It’s full of small observations, tiny moments captured. “It’s perfect.”

He shows Minho his picks. Watches Minho’s face soften at the poetry, smile at the cat book, pause at the essays.

“Loneliness in cities,” Minho reads the title.

“Yeah. I don’t know. It seemed like something you’d—”

“I will.” Minho looks at him over the book. “Thank you.”

They buy their books (Jisung winces at the total but doesn’t comment) and find a corner on the fourth floor, in the English section where no one ever goes. Sit on the floor between shelves and take turns reading passages aloud.

Minho’s voice is soft when he reads, careful with each word. Jisung listens and watches and tries to memorize this moment—the grey light through the windows, the smell of books, the way Minho’s hair falls in his eyes and he doesn’t brush it back.

“Date five,” Jisung says when they’ve been there so long his legs have gone numb. “This might be my favorite so far.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. It’s—” Jisung gestures vaguely. “This. Just this.”

“Talking less than noraebang. Touching less than the river. Just sitting.”

“But it’s good. It’s really good.”

Minho reaches over, takes Jisung’s hand. They’ve held hands properly now—after the kiss, after everything. But it still makes Jisung’s breath catch.

“Twenty-five more,” Minho says.

“Twenty-five more.”

Outside, it starts to rain. They watch it through the window, Seoul disappearing behind curtains of water. The bookstore stays warm and dry and separate from the world. Jisung thinks about the essay on loneliness, about how cities can feel isolating until suddenly they don’t. 

Until one person makes eight million feel like just two.

“We should go,” Minho says, but neither of them moves.

“Five more minutes.”

“Okay.”

They sit there for thirty more minutes, hands linked, watching Seoul wash itself clean. When they finally leave, the rain has stopped but the streets are slick and reflecting neon. The city smells different after rain—less exhaust, more earth. Cleaner.

“I’m going to read all of these,” Jisung says, holding up his bag.

“You don’t have to.”

“I want to. You picked them for me.”

At the subway, Minho kisses his cheek. Quick. Casual. The kind of thing people do when they’ve been together longer than five dates.

Jisung thinks about that all the way home. About how they’re building a language with just their bodies. About how five dates in and he already knows what certain gestures mean. The way Minho touches his lower back to guide him through crowds. The way he brings Jisung coffee without asking. The way he looks at him when he thinks Jisung isn’t paying attention.

That night, Jisung lies in bed and reads the poetry book. Finds a poem about falling in love slowly, like seasons changing. Doesn’t notice until it’s already happened.

He bookmarks the page.

Updates his notes: “Date 5: Bookstore. Realized we’re building something without naming it. Realized I might not want to name it. Realized I’m in trouble.”

Then deletes that last line.

Leaves it: “Date 5: Perfect. That’s all.”

His phone stays silent. Jisung tells himself he’s not waiting for a message. Falls asleep with his phone in his hand anyway, the poetry book open on his chest, Seoul humming outside his window like a lullaby.

Date six is a cooking class in Itaewon where they make dumplings and Jisung realizes Minho’s patient in ways he never noticed before.

The way he shows Jisung how to fold the dough without making him feel stupid, the way he laughs when Jisung’s dumplings look like sad little aliens. They eat their creations after, sitting on the floor of the classroom with cheap wine, and Minho’s knee is pressed against his the whole time.

Date seven is a Sunday morning coffee crawl through Mangwon Market, trying every café they can find. 

By café number five, they’re jittery with caffeine and laughing at nothing. Minho buys Jisung a plant from a street vendor—a tiny succulent in a ceramic pot. “So you have something living at your place besides instant noodles,” he says. 

Jisung names it Lee Know Junior and sends Minho a photo of it every day for a week.

Date eight is the aquarium at COEX Mall. 

They go on a Wednesday when it’s less crowded, walk through blue-lit tunnels with fish swimming overhead. Jisung knows random facts about sea creatures and Minho pretends to be annoyed but actually loves it. They stand in front of the jellyfish tank for twenty minutes, neither of them speaking, just watching them pulse and drift. 

Minho’s hand finds Jisung’s in the dark and doesn’t let go until they’re back in the blinding light of the mall.

Date nine is a concert—some indie band at a small venue in Hongdae that’s all sweat and noise and bodies pressed together. 

They’re separated in the crowd for most of it, but Jisung keeps catching glimpses of Minho across the room, backlit by stage lights, and every time their eyes meet his chest does something complicated. After, they’re both deaf and hoarse, eating ramyeon at a pojangmacha at 2am. 

Minho has a bruise on his arm from the crowd. Jisung traces it with his thumb and doesn’t stop even when he realizes what he’s doing.

Date ten is supposed to be a museum but it’s pouring rain, so they end up at Minho’s apartment instead, ordering pizza and watching bad movies. 

It’s the least date-like date they’ve had, but somehow it’s the most intimate. They end up lying on the couch together, Jisung’s head on Minho’s chest, half-watching some action movie neither of them cares about. Minho plays with Jisung’s hair absently. Jisung falls asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.

When he wakes up, it’s dark except for the TV and Minho’s still there, still playing with his hair.

“Sorry,” Jisung mumbles. “I fell asleep.”

“I know.”

“You should’ve moved me.”

“Didn’t want to.”

They’re quiet. On screen, things are exploding. Outside, rain hammers against the windows. The apartment smells like pizza and laundry detergent and something indefinably Minho.

“We’re a third of the way through,” Jisung says.

“Yeah.”

“How do you feel about it?”

Minho’s hand stills in his hair. “Terrified. You?”

“Same.”

“Want to stop?”

Jisung lifts his head to look at him. Minho’s face is soft in the TV light, unguarded in a way he rarely is. “Do you?”

“No.”

“Then we don’t stop.”

“Twenty more dates.”

“Twenty more dates,” Jisung agrees, and settles back down on Minho’s chest.

They fall asleep there. Jisung wakes up at 5am with a crick in his neck and Minho drooling slightly on his head and thinks: this is what I want. This exact thing. This person. This quiet. This easy.

He doesn’t update his notes that night. Just lies there listening to Minho breathe and Seoul wake up outside the window, and lets himself want without quantifying it.

The gallery is in Samcheong-dong, one of those small independent places that shows local artists. 

It’s a Saturday afternoon and the neighborhood is busy with tourists and couples walking the narrow streets. The area is beautiful in that specific Seoul way—traditional hanok houses next to modern cafés, old and new existing in the same breath.

Inside, the gallery is quiet and white-walled. The exhibition is photography—black and white images of Seoul at night. Empty subway platforms. Rain-slicked streets. The city captured in moments of stillness.

They move through the space slowly. Jisung’s not great with visual art—he thinks in sound, in rhythm—but there’s something about these photos that makes him stop and look. The loneliness of them. The beauty in the emptiness.

“This one,” Minho says, standing in front of a photograph of Hangang Bridge at 4am. No cars. No people. Just the bridge and the water and the city lights reflected in pieces.

“What about it?”

“I’ve been there at that time. Coming home from practice. It looks exactly like this—like the world emptied out and you’re the only one left.”

Jisung studies the photo. Studies Minho’s reflection in the glass covering it. “Is that lonely or peaceful?”

“Both. At the same time.”

They move to the next image—a convenience store, fluorescent bright, an old man asleep at the counter. Jisung thinks about all the convenience stores he’s been to at 3am, 4am, 5am. How they’re sanctuaries. How the city never really sleeps, just shifts.

“I want to make music that sounds like these look,” Jisung says suddenly.

“What does that sound like?”

“Quiet but not silent. Like—like there’s space between the notes. Room to breathe.”

Minho nods like he understands. He probably does. After eleven dates, Jisung’s starting to realize Minho understands him in ways he doesn’t fully understand himself. That’s funny. They’ve been friends for years.

They end up in the gallery’s small café, drinking overpriced coffee and splitting a piece of chocolate cake. Through the window, Samcheong-dong does its thing—people browsing art shops, taking photos of the hanok houses, living their Seoul lives.

“Can I ask you something?” Minho says.

“Always.”

“Why did you really suggest this? The thirty dates thing?”

Jisung considers lying. Considers deflecting. Does neither. “Because I wanted to know what it would be like. With you. Without the risk of ruining us.”

“And has it worked? Are we not ruined?”

“I don’t know yet. Ask me in nineteen dates.”

Minho smiles, but it’s sad around the edges. “What if we’re already ruined? What if we can’t go back?”

“Would that be so bad?”

“I don’t know. That’s what scares me.”

A child at the next table drops a spoon. It clatters loudly in the quiet café. Outside, clouds are rolling in, grey and heavy with the promise of rain. Seoul’s weather is like this—changes fast, gives no warning.

“Date eleven,” Jisung says, pulling out his phone. Opens his notes. “Rate it with me?”

“Physical affection: minimal today. Communication: too honest again. Activity: thought-provoking. Post-date feelings—”

“Conflicted,” Jisung finishes. “But good conflicted. The kind that means something’s happening.”

“Something’s definitely happening.”

They leave when the rain starts. 

Samcheong-dong in the rain is even more beautiful—the hanok roofs dark and wet, the streets emptying, everything softer. They don’t have an umbrella so they run, laughing, to the subway entrance.

Soaked and breathless at the bottom of the stairs, Minho pushes Jisung’s wet hair out of his eyes. The gesture is casual and devastating all at once.

“Nineteen more,” Minho says.

“Nineteen more,” Jisung agrees.

On the train home, Jisung thinks about those photographs. About Seoul at 4am when you’re the only one left. About how sometimes being alone is different than being lonely. 

About how Minho makes eight million people feel like two.

He updates his notes: “Date 11: Gallery. Talked about loneliness. Realized I’m not lonely anymore. Realized that’s because of him. Realized I’m fucked.”

Leaves it. Doesn’t delete. The truth sitting there in Times New Roman, size 12, undeniable.

Date twelve is Jisung’s choice, and he picks something he’s never shared with anyone—his practice room at the studio. 

It’s tiny, barely bigger than a closet, with a keyboard and a computer and walls covered in soundproofing foam. It’s where he disappears for hours, for days, chasing melodies that might become something.

Minho’s never been here before. Jisung’s never brought anyone here before.

“This is it,” Jisung says, suddenly self-conscious. “It’s not much.”

But Minho’s looking around like it’s a museum. Touching the keyboard gently. Reading the lyrics Jisung’s got taped to the walls, half-finished thoughts and phrases that don’t mean anything yet.

“You work here?” Minho asks.

“Mostly. When I can’t think at home. Or when home is too quiet.”

“Can I hear something?”

“Like what?”

“Anything. Something you’re working on.”

Jisung sits at the keyboard. His hands hover over the keys. He’s nervous, which is stupid—he’s played for Minho before. But this is different. This is his space, his process, his heart spread out in chord progressions.

He plays something new. Something he started after date five. It’s gentle and melancholic, building slowly. No lyrics yet, just the melody that’s been haunting him for weeks.

When he finishes, the silence feels loud.

“What’s it about?” Minho asks quietly. He’s sitting on the floor now, back against the wall, watching Jisung with that expression he’s been wearing more lately—soft and a little sad.

“I don’t know yet. Still figuring it out.”

“It sounds like longing.”

“Yeah. Maybe.”

“Play it again.”

So Jisung does. This time, Minho closes his eyes, and Jisung lets himself look. Really look. At the line of his throat. The way his fingers tap the rhythm against his knee. The small smile playing at his lips.

Halfway through, Minho opens his eyes, catches Jisung staring. Doesn’t look away.

Jisung finishes the song with Minho watching him. His fingers stumble over the last chord but he pushes through. When the final note fades, they sit in the heavy silence.

“It’s about you,” Jisung says. “The song. It’s—I’ve been writing it about you.”

Minho doesn’t say anything for a long moment. Then he stands, crosses the small space, and kisses Jisung like he’s the answer to a question Minho’s been asking for years.

It’s different than the noraebang kiss. Less tentative. More certain. Jisung’s hands find Minho’s waist, pulling him closer between his knees. Minho’s fingers thread through his hair. The keyboard is digging into Jisung’s back and he doesn’t care.

When they break apart, they’re both breathing hard.

“Date twelve,” Minho manages.

“Physical affection: significant.”

“Communication: non-verbal.”

“Activity: personal.”

“Post-date feelings—”

“Overwhelming,” Jisung finishes. “Everything’s overwhelming.”

Minho rests his forehead against Jisung’s. “Eighteen more.”

“Feels like too many and not enough at the same time.”

“I know.”

They stay in the practice room for hours. Jisung plays more songs. Minho listens and offers feedback and at some point they order chicken and eat it sitting on the floor, backs against the wall, shoulders pressed together.

“I’m glad you brought me here,” Minho says.

“Yeah?”

“It makes sense now. Why you disappear sometimes. This is where you go.”

“This is where I go,” Jisung agrees.

When they leave, it’s past midnight. The studio building is empty, their footsteps echoing in the stairwell. Outside, Gangnam is still awake—clubs thumping, people stumbling between bars, the night crowd in full swing.

At the subway, Minho kisses him again. Slower this time. Sweet.

“See you for date thirteen?”

“Friday,” Jisung confirms.

“Friday.”

On the train home, Jisung thinks about the song. About how he’s been writing Minho into his music without realizing it. About how art imitates life until life imitates art until you can’t tell the difference.

Updates his notes: “Date 12: Studio. Played him the song. Kissed in the practice room. Everything is blurring together now. The lines are gone. Not sure they were ever really there.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: the song is beautiful. you’re beautiful.

Jisung stares at the message for ten stops. Types and deletes five different responses. Finally settles on: eighteen more dates and then what

Minho: i dont know

Minho: but im not ready to find out yet

Jisung: me neither

He falls asleep that night with the melody still in his head, Minho’s voice saying “it sounds like longing,” and the terrifying certainty that he’s past the point of pretending this is just practice.

Even though it’s only October, there’s a winter market in Dongdaemun Design Plaza—one of those pop-up things with fairy lights and hot chocolate and overpriced crafts. 

Minho suggests it and Jisung says yes without thinking, which is how he ends up in the cold evening air, hands wrapped around a paper cup of mulled wine, watching Minho browse through handmade ceramics.

The plaza is beautiful at night—all curves and metallic surfaces, futuristic against the traditional markets nearby. The winter market sprawls across the lawn, tents and stalls and people bundled in coats even though it’s not that cold yet. Seoul jumping the gun on seasons like it always does.

“You need new mugs,” Minho says, holding up something lopsided and charming.

“I have mugs.”

“You have one mug. That’s chipped. I’ve seen your kitchen.”

“The chip adds character.”

Minho buys the mug anyway. “Early birthday present.”

“My birthday’s just last month.”

“Late birthday present from a month ago, then.”

Jisung takes the mug, wrapped in newspaper. “You didn’t get me anything a month ago.”

“I’m retroactively correcting that.”

They wander through the market. Jisung buys roasted chestnuts that burn his fingers. Minho stops at every stall, chatting with vendors, asking about their work. He’s good with people in a way Jisung isn’t—easy, charming, genuinely interested.

“You’re doing that thing again,” Jisung says.

“What thing?”

“Where you make everyone fall a little bit in love with you.”

Minho looks at him. “Everyone?”

“Yeah. The ajumma selling scarves. That college student with the jewelry. Me.”

It slips out before Jisung can stop it. He freezes, waiting for Minho to laugh it off or ignore it or do anything except what he does, which is stop walking and turn to face Jisung fully.

“You’re falling in love with me?” Minho asks quietly.

Around them, the market continues. People haggling. Children laughing. Music playing from tinny speakers. The world indifferent to Jisung’s heart breaking open.

“I don’t know,” Jisung says, which is a lie. “Maybe. Is that allowed?”

“I don’t know what’s allowed anymore.”

“That’s not really an answer.”

“I don’t have good answers right now, Jisung.”

They stand there, two people in a crowded market, having a conversation that feels too big for the space. Someone bumps into Jisung. Apologizes. Keeps walking.

“Seventeen more dates,” Jisung says finally.

“Do you want to keep going?”

“Do you?”

“I asked first.”

“Yes,” Jisung says. “I want to keep going. Even if it’s stupid. Even if we’re just making it worse.”

“It’s not stupid.”

“It feels stupid. It feels like we’re dragging out the inevitable.”

“What’s inevitable?”

“I don’t know. That’s the problem.”

Minho reaches out, adjusts Jisung’s scarf. It’s a casual gesture but it makes Jisung’s throat tight. “Let’s finish what we started. All thirty dates. Then we’ll figure out the inevitable.”

“Promise?”

“Promise.”

They leave the market soon after. Take the subway in relative silence, the comfortable kind, shoulders pressed together as the train rocks through tunnels. At Jisung’s stop, Minho gets off too even though he needs to go further.

“You don’t have to walk me,” Jisung says.

“I want to.”

Sinchon at night is college students and bars and the kind of chaos that Jisung’s neighborhood specializes in. His building is down a narrow alley, fourth floor of a walk-up that’s definitely seen better decades.

At his door, Minho hands him the wrapped mug.

“Don’t drop it.”

“I won’t.”

“And water your plant.”

“Lee Know Junior is thriving, thanks.”

Minho smiles. “Good night, Jisung.”

He turns to leave but Jisung catches his wrist.

“Wait.”

Minho waits.

“I’m not sorry,” Jisung says. “For saying the thing. About falling in love. I’m not taking it back.”

“I’m not asking you to.”

“But you’re not saying it back.”

“Not yet. But ask me in seventeen dates.”

“That’s not fair.”

“None of this is fair.” Minho steps closer. “But I’m here anyway. Doesn’t that count for something?”

It does. It counts for everything.

Jisung kisses him there in the hallway, with the flickering fluorescent light and the smell of someone’s dinner cooking and the sound of his neighbor’s TV through thin walls. Kisses him like he’s trying to say all the things he can’t quite articulate yet.

When they break apart, Minho touches his face gently.

“Seventeen more,” he says.

“Seventeen more,” Jisung agrees.

He watches Minho walk back down the alley. Watches until he turns the corner and disappears. Then Jisung lets himself into his small apartment, unwraps the mug, and sets it on his counter next to the chipped one.

Two mugs now. Like he’s preparing for someone to stay.

Updates his notes: “Date 13: Told him I’m falling in love with him. He didn’t run away. Not sure if that’s good or terrifying. Both, probably. Everything’s both these days.”

Date fourteen is a movie at Minho’s place—they make it through twenty minutes before they’re kissing instead.

The movie is some action thing neither of them picked—Netflix’s autoplay chose for them. Jisung’s not even pretending to watch. He’s too aware of Minho next to him on the couch, the space between them feeling both too much and not enough.

The apartment is warm, almost stifling. Minho’s old building doesn’t have great ventilation, and the radiator clanks and hisses in the corner. Outside, Mapo on a Friday night is alive—voices floating up from the street, someone’s music bleeding through the walls, the perpetual hum of Seoul that never quite stops.

“You’re not watching,” Minho says, not looking away from the screen.

“Neither are you.”

“I was. You’re distracting.”

“I’m literally just sitting here.”

“I know.” Minho finally turns to look at him, and there’s something in his expression—dark eyes, pupils blown wide, the way his tongue darts out to wet his lips. “That’s the problem.”

Jisung’s mouth goes dry. The air between them shifts, charges with something electric. On screen, something explodes in a burst of CGI fire and dramatic music. Neither of them flinches.

“We could turn off the movie,” Jisung suggests quietly. His voice comes out rougher than intended.

“We could.”

Neither of them moves for the remote. The light from the TV flickers across Minho’s face—blue, then orange, then shadow. Jisung can see his chest rising and falling, breathing slightly faster than normal. Can smell his deodorant mixing with something else, something warm and distinctly Minho.

“Jisung,” Minho says, and his voice has dropped lower.

“Yeah?”

“Can I—” He stops. His hand is on the couch between them, fingers flexing like he’s stopping himself from reaching out. “Is it okay if I—”

“Yes.” Jisung doesn’t even know what he’s agreeing to. “Whatever you’re asking. Yes.”

Minho kisses him.

It starts soft, careful, like every other kiss they’ve shared—gentle pressure, closed mouths, the chaste kind of kiss you give someone when you’re still figuring out the rules. But then Jisung makes a sound, something between a sigh and a plea, something desperate, and careful shatters.

Minho’s hand comes up to cup his jaw, thumb brushing his cheekbone, and he deepens the kiss. His tongue traces Jisung’s bottom lip and Jisung opens for him immediately, eagerly. The first touch of tongue against tongue makes Jisung’s whole body shiver.

Minho tastes like the beer they’d been drinking, something cheap and slightly bitter, and underneath that something sweet—the chocolate they’d shared earlier. Jisung chases the taste, licking into Minho’s mouth, swallowing the small sound Minho makes.

“Come here,” Minho breathes against his lips, and then his hands are on Jisung’s waist, pulling him closer.

Jisung goes willingly, scrambling into his lap, straddling him. His knees hit the couch on either side of Minho’s thighs. The new angle presses them together completely—chest to chest, Jisung taller like this, having to tilt his head down to keep kissing him.

Minho’s hands slide from his waist to his hips, gripping tight enough to bruise. The pressure makes Jisung gasp into his mouth. He can feel the heat of Minho’s palms through his thin t-shirt, feel the way his fingers dig in, holding him in place.

“Fuck,” Jisung breathes when they break apart for air.

Minho’s lips are red, swollen, wet with spit. His eyes are almost black in the dim light. His chest is heaving. “Bed?” he asks, voice wrecked. “We should—bed?”

“Yeah. Yes. Bed.”

They stumble up, still kissing, not wanting to separate even for the few steps it takes to get to the bedroom. Jisung walks backwards, trusting Minho to guide him. 

They bump into the wall and Minho presses him against it for a moment, kissing him harder, one hand braced by his head, the other still gripping his hip.

The wall is cool against Jisung’s back through his shirt, a contrast to the heat of Minho pressed against his front. He can feel everything—the solid weight of him, the hard line of his body, the way their hips align perfectly at this height. Can feel that Minho’s hard, pressing against his thigh, and the knowledge makes his own cock twitch in his jeans.

“Minho,” he gasps. “Bed. Now.”

They make it to the bedroom finally. 

The bedroom is darker, just the ambient light from Seoul filtering through the curtains—neon signs and streetlights painting everything in shades of blue and orange.

They collapse onto the bed. Minho’s mattress is soft, giving under their weight. The sheets smell like his laundry detergent—something fresh and clean—and underneath that, the smell of him. Jisung’s surrounded by it, drowning in it.

Minho hovers over him, one knee between his legs, hands braced on either side of his head. For a moment they just look at each other, both breathing hard.

“Wait,” Jisung says. His heart is hammering so hard he can feel it in his throat. “Are we—is this—”

“Do you want to?” Minho’s hands are gentle on his hips now, thumbs rubbing small circles through his shirt. The touch is soothing and maddening at the same time.

“Yeah. God, yes. I just—” Jisung struggles for words. His brain is offline, all blood redirected south. “We said thirty dates. We’re on fourteen. Is this—does this change things?”

“This doesn’t change anything,” Minho says firmly. He shifts his weight, settling more fully between Jisung’s legs. The pressure makes them both gasp. “We’re still doing all thirty dates. This is just—”

“Practice?” Jisung grins despite the nerves, despite the want thrumming under his skin.

“No. Not practice.” Minho leans down, kisses him soft and sweet. “This is real. All of it’s been real.”

“Then yeah. I want to. I really want to.”

Minho kisses him again, deeper this time. His tongue maps the inside of Jisung’s mouth—tracing his teeth, the roof of his mouth, tangling with his tongue in a rhythm that makes Jisung think of other things, other rhythms. His hips buck up involuntarily, seeking friction.

Minho makes a sound low in his throat and presses down, grinding their hips together. Even through layers of denim, the pressure is intense. Jisung can feel the hard length of him, can feel how much Minho wants this too.

“Shirt,” Minho breathes against his mouth. “Can I—”

“Yes. Yeah. Off.”

Minho sits back on his heels, and the loss of contact makes Jisung whimper. But then Minho’s hands are on the hem of his shirt, pushing it up. Jisung sits up enough to help, raising his arms. 

The shirt catches on his chin for a moment—they both laugh, breathless and nervous—and then it’s off, tossed somewhere into the dark room.

The air is cool on his bare skin. Jisung’s suddenly hyperaware of himself—his chest rising and falling rapidly, his nipples already hard, the way his stomach tenses under Minho’s gaze. He’s not built, not like some guys. He’s slim, soft in places, and for a moment the insecurity flares.

“You’re beautiful,” Minho says, and his voice is reverent. His hands hover over Jisung’s chest like he’s afraid to touch, like Jisung might disappear. “Can I—”

“Touch me. Please.”

Minho’s hands are warm when they finally make contact, sliding up his ribs, thumbs brushing over his nipples. The touch sends sparks of pleasure straight down Jisung’s spine. He arches up into it, needing more.

“Sensitive,” Minho murmurs, doing it again. Watching Jisung’s face as he touches him, cataloging every reaction.

“Yeah. Fuck. Yes.”

Minho leans down, replacing his thumb with his mouth. The wet heat makes Jisung cry out, one hand flying to tangle in Minho’s hair. Minho’s tongue circles the hardened bud, then his teeth graze it gently, and Jisung’s hips jerk up hard.

“Minho—fuck—”

“Good?” Minho asks against his skin, moving to the other nipple.

“So good. Don’t stop.”

Minho doesn’t stop. He lavishes attention on Jisung’s chest—kissing, licking, biting gently—while his hands explore everywhere else. Tracing the lines of his ribs, the soft skin of his sides, the slight pudge of his stomach that Jisung’s always been self-conscious about but Minho touches like it’s precious.

Jisung’s brain is short-circuiting. Every nerve ending is on fire. The combination of Minho’s mouth on his chest and his hands everywhere is almost too much. His cock is painfully hard in his jeans, straining against the zipper, and he needs more friction, needs something.

“Minho,” he gasps, tugging at his hair. “Your shirt. I want—I need to see you.”

Minho sits back and pulls his shirt off in one smooth motion. The movement makes his stomach muscles contract, and Jisung’s mouth waters. He’s seen Minho shirtless before—at the gym, changing, swimming—but this is different. This is Minho above him, skin flushed and gleaming slightly with sweat, looking at him like he wants to devour him.

Jisung reaches up, hands shaking slightly. Minho’s skin is warm under his palms, smooth except for the slight roughness where sweat has dried. He traces the lines of his chest, his stomach, feeling the muscles twitch under his touch.

“You’re so hot,” Jisung says, and immediately cringes. “Sorry. That was—”

“Don’t.” Minho catches his hands, laces their fingers together, pins them gently to the bed on either side of Jisung’s head. “Don’t apologize. I like it. Like hearing what you’re thinking.”

“I’m thinking I want you to kiss me again.”

So Minho does. This time when their chests press together, it’s skin on skin. The contact makes them both moan into the kiss. 

Jisung can feel Minho’s heart racing, matching his own frantic rhythm. Can feel the heat of him, the weight of him, every point where their bodies touch singing with sensation.

They kiss for long minutes, grinding against each other slowly. The friction through their jeans is maddening—enough to feel good, not enough to get off. Jisung’s dripping in his boxers, can feel the wet spot spreading. His thighs are shaking with the effort of not just rutting up desperately.

“Can we—” Jisung breaks the kiss, panting. “Jeans. Can we lose the jeans?”

“Yeah. Yes. Fuck, yes.”

They separate to fumble with their jeans. Jisung’s hands are shaking so bad he can barely get the button undone. Minho has to help him, batting his hands away gently and popping the button open, dragging the zipper down carefully over the obvious bulge.

The relief of pressure makes Jisung gasp. Minho hooks his fingers in the waistband and tugs, and Jisung lifts his hips to help. The jeans stick slightly—they always do, skinny jeans are hell—but finally they’re off, kicked somewhere into the dark room.

Jisung’s left in just his boxers—black, tight, doing nothing to hide how hard he is. The wet spot is obvious, darker fabric where he’s leaked. He should be embarrassed but Minho’s looking at him like he’s a feast, eyes dragging down his body slowly, and embarrassment is the furthest thing from his mind.

“Your turn,” Jisung manages.

Minho stands—just for a moment, just long enough to shuck his jeans off. He’s wearing dark grey boxer-briefs that cling to him, outlining everything. 

He’s big, Jisung can see that even in the dim light, and his mouth goes dry thinking about—

No. Not tonight. Tonight is—this is enough. This is more than enough.

Minho climbs back onto the bed, settles between Jisung’s legs again. This time when they press together, there’s only thin cotton between them. The feeling makes them both groan.

“Fuck,” Minho breathes. “You feel so good.”

“You too. So good. Minho—”

They find a rhythm, grinding together slowly at first, then faster as the desperation builds. Jisung wraps his legs around Minho’s waist, using the leverage to pull him closer, grind harder. The friction on his cock is incredible—not enough to get him off quickly, but enough to keep him riding the edge.

Minho buries his face in Jisung’s neck, mouthing at the sensitive skin there. His breath is hot and damp, his lips soft. When he sucks gently at the junction of neck and shoulder, Jisung nearly comes right then.

“Mark me,” Jisung gasps. “I want—leave marks. Want to see them tomorrow.”

Minho groans and sucks harder, definitely hard enough to bruise. The slight pain mixed with pleasure makes Jisung’s cock pulse, leaking more. He can feel the wetness spreading, soaking through his boxers, probably soaking through Minho’s too where they’re pressed together.

“You’re so wet,” Minho murmurs against his neck. “Can feel it. Are you always like this?”

“I don’t—not usually. Just with you. You make me—fuck—”

Minho moves to his other side, sucking another mark into the tender skin. His hips never stop moving, grinding down in steady rhythm. Jisung matches him, meeting each thrust, chasing the friction.

“Touch me,” Jisung pleads. “Please. I need—”

“Where? How?”

“Anywhere. Everywhere. Just—your hands. I want your hands on me.”

Minho shifts his weight to one arm, freeing his other hand. It slides down Jisung’s side, over his hip, grips his thigh and pulls it higher, changing the angle. The new position lets them grind together even more directly, cock to cock with just two thin layers of fabric between them.

“Like this?” Minho asks, moving his hand to Jisung’s ass, squeezing.

“Yes. Fuck. Yes.”

“You’re so responsive.” Minho’s hand kneads the muscle, fingers digging in. “Every time I touch you, you make these sounds. Do you know that? These little gasps and moans. It’s driving me crazy.”

“Can’t help it. Feels too good.”

“Good. Don’t stop. Want to hear everything.”

Minho’s hand slides between them, palming Jisung through his boxers. The direct pressure on his cock makes Jisung cry out, back arching off the bed. He’s so hard it almost hurts, so sensitive that even this touch through fabric feels like too much.

“Minho—I’m close—I’m really close—”

“Yeah? Already?”

“Shut up.” But there’s no heat in it. “You’re—this is—I can’t—”

“It’s okay.” Minho kisses him, soft and sweet, contrasting with the filthy grind of their hips. “You can come. Want to see you come.”

“You too. Want you to come with me.”

“I will. So close. You feel so good, Jisung. So fucking good.”

Minho’s hand wraps around him through the fabric, stroking in time with their grinding. It’s messy, uncoordinated, but it’s perfect. The pressure, the friction, the heat—it all builds until Jisung can’t think, can only feel.

“Minho—I’m—fuck, I’m coming—”

It hits him hard, pleasure crashing through his body in waves. He comes in his boxers, feeling the wet warmth spread, soaking through the fabric. Minho strokes him through it, prolonging it, until Jisung’s shaking and oversensitive and pushing at his hand weakly.

“Your turn,” Jisung manages, voice wrecked. 

He reaches between them, finds Minho through his boxers. He’s soaked too, wet with precome and now Jisung’s come that’s leaked through. Jisung wraps his hand around him, squeezes.

“Jisung—fuck—”

Minho comes with Jisung’s name on his lips, hips stuttering, grinding down into his hand. Jisung feels him pulse, feels the warmth as he comes, adding to the mess between them. Works him through it until Minho collapses on top of him, breathing hard.

They lie there for long moments, hearts racing, skin sticky with sweat and come. The room smells like sex now—musky and warm and definitely human. The sheets are probably ruined. Jisung’s never been happier.

“That was—” Minho starts.

“Yeah.”

“We didn’t even—”

“I know.”

“But it was—”

“Perfect. It was perfect.”

Minho lifts his head to look at him. His hair is a mess, sticking up in all directions where Jisung grabbed it. His lips are swollen, red. There’s a flush high on his cheeks. He’s beautiful.

“We should probably clean up,” Minho says, but makes no move to get up.

“In a minute.”

“The sheets—”

“Don’t care.”

“We’re going to stick together.”

“Good.”

Minho laughs, surprised and delighted. “You’re ridiculous.”

“You love it.”

Minho doesn’t answer. It’s enough. For now.

They lie there until the mess becomes actually uncomfortable, until they can’t ignore it anymore. Finally drag themselves up, stumbling to the bathroom. Share the shower for the second time that evening—this one actually for cleaning up, though there’s still plenty of kissing involved.

After, wrapped in Minho’s sheets (fresh ones, because the others really were ruined), Jisung feels boneless and satisfied in a way he hasn’t felt in years. Maybe ever.

“Date fourteen,” Minho says sleepily, curled around him.

“Mm?”

“Physical affection: significantly increased.”

Jisung laughs into the pillow. “Post-date feelings: overwhelmed in the best way.”

“Activity rating: five stars. Would recommend.”

“You’re ridiculous.”

“You love me.”

“Yeah,” Jisung says softly. “I really do.”

They fall asleep like that—tangled together, the window open slightly letting in cool air and the sounds of Seoul at night. Sixteen more dates. Jisung can’t wait.

Date fifteen is an actual movie theater this time.

A late showing in Yongsan where they share popcorn and Minho falls asleep on Jisung’s shoulder. Jisung doesn’t move for the entire second half, just sits there with pins and needles in his arm, grateful.

Date sixteen is a walk through Bukchon Hanok Village, tourist-heavy but beautiful. 

They get lost in the narrow streets, traditional houses pressing close on either side. Find a tiny café tucked away where they’re the only customers. 

The owner is an old woman who calls them “lovely couple” and Jisung doesn’t correct her. Neither does Minho.

Date seventeen is ice skating at Seoul Plaza, even though neither of them can skate. 

They spend more time falling than anything else, laughing and bruised. Minho holds Jisung’s hand the entire time, supposedly for balance, but they both know that’s not why. 

Afterward they get hotteok from a street vendor, the sweet filling burning their tongues, and Jisung thinks: I could do this forever.

Date eighteen is supposed to be dinner at a nice restaurant in Gangnam but they end up at a pojangmacha instead, sitting on plastic stools and drinking soju, talking about the future in vague terms that don’t include each other because they’re both too scared to say it out loud.

“What happens after thirty?” Jisung asks. It’s the first time either of them has directly asked in a long while.

Minho pours more soju. “I don’t know.”

“That’s not an answer.”

“It’s the only one I have right now.”

“Minho—”

“Twelve more dates,” Minho says. “Let me have twelve more dates before we talk about after.”

So Jisung lets it go. Lets them exist in this bubble where thirty is far away and after doesn’t exist yet.

They drink too much soju. Stumble back to Minho’s place. Fall asleep tangled together, and Jisung dreams about endings and beginnings and how sometimes they’re the same thing.

In the morning, he updates his notes: “Date 18: The blur continues. We’re running out of time. I don’t know how to stop this and I don’t know how to make it permanent. Twelve more dates. Then what?”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho from the kitchen: coffee?

Jisung: yes please

Minho: good because i already made it

Jisung: you know me too well

Minho: yeah i do

And that’s the problem, Jisung thinks. That’s exactly the problem.

Date nineteen is when everything shifts.

They’re supposed to go to an art installation in Hongdae, something interactive and Instagram-worthy. Instead, the sky opens up.

Seoul rain is aggressive—it doesn’t drizzle, it attacks. Within minutes, the streets are rivers. Everyone’s running for cover. Jisung and Minho end up under an awning outside a closed shop, pressed together with a dozen other people trying to stay dry.

“So much for the installation,” Jisung shouts over the noise of the rain.

“We could wait it out.”

“Seoul rain doesn’t wait. It commits.”

They’re soaked already—jeans heavy, hair plastered to their heads. Minho’s eyeliner is running slightly, making him look like some kind of beautiful disaster. Jisung’s sneakers squelch when he moves.

“We could make a run for the subway,” Minho suggests.

“Or?”

“Or we could just—” Minho gestures vaguely at the rain.

“Walk in it?”

“Why not? We’re already wet.”

It’s stupid. It’s the kind of thing people do in movies, not real life. But Jisung’s been doing stupid things for nineteen dates now, so what’s one more?

“Okay. Let’s go.”

They step out from under the awning into the full force of the storm. It’s immediately worse—rain hammering down, soaking through to skin within seconds. But Minho’s laughing, pulling Jisung along, and suddenly it’s not awful, it’s exhilarating.

They walk through Hongdae with no destination. Past the clubs and the street performers packing up their equipment. Past the university students huddled in convenience stores. Past all of Seoul trying to stay dry while they’re choosing to get wetter.

“This is insane,” Jisung yells.

“You love it!”

“I do not!”

But he’s grinning, can’t stop grinning, and Minho’s hand is firm in his and everything is cold and wet and perfect.

Five years. Jisung’s been missing this feeling for five years.

They end up at a park, empty except for them. There’s a covered pavilion and they collapse onto the bench, breathless and dripping.

“That was so stupid,” Jisung says.

“You suggested it.”

“You suggested it!”

“I suggested walking. You agreed.”

“Details.”

They’re both shivering now. The adrenaline is wearing off and the reality of being soaked in October is setting in. Minho pulls Jisung closer, trying to share warmth.

“Eleven more dates,” Minho says softly.

Jisung’s quiet for a moment, watching the rain. “Can I ask you something real?”

“Always.”

“Are you scared?”

“Of what?”

“Of after. Of what happens when we run out of dates.”

Minho doesn’t answer right away. Around them, Seoul drums itself clean. The rain’s starting to ease up, going from aggressive to merely determined.

“Terrified,” Minho finally admits. “I’m terrified that this ends and we lose what we had before. I’m terrified that it doesn’t end and I don’t know how to do this for real. I’m terrified—”

He stops. Breathes.

“I’m terrified that I’m in love with you and you’re going to realize I’m not good at this. That practice was all I could handle.”

Jisung turns to look at him. Minho’s staring straight ahead, jaw tight, vulnerable in a way Jisung’s never seen.

“You said it,” Jisung whispers.

“Said what?”

“That you’re in love with me.”

Minho finally looks at him. “Yeah. I did.”

“You weren’t supposed to say it yet. You said to ask you in seventeen dates. That was date thirteen. We’re on date nineteen now, which means—”

“I know. I’m early.”

“Why?”

“Because we’re sitting in the rain like idiots and you’re shivering and your lips are turning blue and I just—I couldn’t keep it in anymore.”

Jisung kisses him. Tastes rain and honesty and something that feels like a beginning. When they break apart, they’re both breathless.

“I’m in love with you too,” Jisung says. “Obviously. I told you on date thirteen. I’ve probably been in love with you since before we started this stupid experiment.”

“It was your idea.”

“Worst idea I ever had.”

“Best idea you ever had.”

“Both,” Jisung says. “It’s both.”

They sit there until the rain stops completely. Until the clouds break up and reveal bits of sky. Until Seoul starts to emerge from its hiding places, people venturing back out, the city resuming its noise.

“Eleven more dates,” Minho says eventually.

“Do we need them?”

“I think so. We made a promise. Thirty dates.”

“And then?”

“And then we figure out how to do this without the safety net of pretending it’s practice.”

“Scarier that way.”

“Yeah. But better.”

They walk back through Hongdae as it comes alive again. Street vendors emerging. Music starting up. The neighborhood shaking off the rain like a dog shaking off water.

At the subway, Minho kisses Jisung’s forehead.

“Go home. Change. Don’t get sick.”

“You too.”

“I will.”

“Minho?”

“Yeah?”

“I’m glad we walked in the rain.”

“Me too.”

That night, Jisung updates his notes: “Date 19: Walked in the rain. He told me he loves me. I told him back. Everything’s different now. Everything’s exactly the same. Eleven more dates until we figure out what this becomes.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: i meant it. what i said

Jisung: i know

Jisung: i meant it too

Minho: good

Minho: see you on date twenty

Jisung falls asleep that night with wet hair and a full heart and the certainty that he’s exactly where he’s supposed to be.

Date twenty is quiet—they cook dinner at Minho’s place, attempting pasta and succeeding mostly. 

They eat on the couch with bad TV playing and Minho’s cat (when did he get a cat?) weaving between their legs. It’s so normal it makes Jisung ache.

Date twenty-one is a concert again, different band, same energy. 

This time they don’t get separated. This time Minho’s arms are around Jisung from behind the whole show, and Jisung leans back into him and lets the music wash over them both.

Date twenty-two is a Saturday morning hike up Bukhansan. 

They’re both terrible at hiking but determined. Make it halfway up before giving up and sitting on a rock, eating kimbap and watching Seoul spread out below them. Minho takes a photo of Jisung against the cityscape. 

Jisung doesn’t ask to see it, doesn’t need to. Just wants to exist in the moment.

Date twenty-three is the spa in Gangnam, the fancy one that tourists go to. 

They spend hours in different temperature pools, in the sauna, in the jade room, barely talking but always aware of where the other is. Afterward, eating boiled eggs and drinking sikhye, Minho says: “Seven more.”

Just that. Seven more.

Date twenty-four is a local festival. They don’t dress up but they go to Itaewon anyway, watch the chaos of foreigners and Koreans in elaborate costumes. Get caught up in a crowd and separated for twenty terrifying minutes before finding each other again. Minho grabs Jisung’s hand so tight it almost hurts.

“Don’t lose me again,” he says.

“I won’t.”

“Promise.”

“I promise.”

They leave Itaewon early, take the subway back to Minho’s in relative silence. In his apartment, Minho makes tea even though neither of them drinks it. They sit on the couch, close but not touching.

“Six more,” Minho says.

“I know.”

“Are you ready?”

“For what?”

“For this to be over. The countdown. The excuse.”

Jisung sets his mug down. “I don’t know. Are you?”

“No. But it has to end. We can’t practice forever.”

“Why not?”

“Because that’s not living. That’s just... existing in a hold pattern.”

“And if I want to exist in the holding pattern?”

“You don’t. Neither do I. We’re both just scared.”

Jisung knows he’s right. Has known it for weeks. They’ve been using the thirty dates as a shield, a way to be together without committing to what it means. But shields don’t last. Eventually you have to lower them and face what’s waiting.

“Six more dates,” Jisung says. “And then we talk about this for real. About what it means.”

“Okay.”

“Okay.”

Minho pulls him close. They sit like that for a long time, tea going cold, Seoul humming outside, both of them on the edge of something they can’t quite name yet.

Later, walking home through Mapo’s quiet streets, Jisung thinks about endings. About how they’re scared of the same thing—that naming this, making it official, giving it weight, will somehow break the spell. That the magic only works when they’re pretending.

But deep down, Jisung knows the truth: they stopped pretending around date five. Everything since then has been real. The realest thing in his life.

Updates his notes: “Date 24: The countdown is getting louder. Six more and then we have to be brave. I don’t know if I know how.”

His phone buzzes immediately. 

Minho: youre the bravest person i know

Jisung: im terrified

Minho: me too

Minho: lets be terrified together

Jisung: for six more dates

Minho: and then forever if you want

Jisung stares at that message for five blocks. Types and deletes ten different responses. Finally settles on: yeah. i want

Minho: good

Minho: me too

It’s raining again for date twenty-five.

Not the aggressive Seoul downpour from date nineteen—this is softer, steadier, the kind of rain that settles in for hours. They meet at a café in Yeonnam-dong, one of those trendy places with plants hanging from the ceiling and overpriced lattes.

“Five more after this,” is the first thing Minho says.

“I know.”

“I had a dream about date thirty.”

“Yeah? What happened?”

“I woke up before the end.”

Jisung wraps his hands around his coffee. The café is warm and smells like cinnamon and wet pavement from people tracking rain inside. “That’s inconvenient timing.”

“Very.”

“We could just... skip to the end. We don’t have to do all thirty.”

Minho shakes his head. “We started this with a promise. Thirty dates. We finish what we started.”

“Even if we already know how it ends?”

“Do we?”

“Don’t we?”

Minho’s quiet for a moment, watching the rain pattern the windows. “I think so. But I want to do it right. Want us to cross the finish line together.”

They spend the afternoon in the café, watching Seoul wash itself clean for the second time this month. Talk about everything except the countdown. Talk about Minho’s cat (his name is Soonie and he’s perfect, apparently). Talk about Jisung’s music (he’s been working on that song, the one about longing, trying to find lyrics that fit). Talk about nothing important because the important things feel too big for a rainy afternoon.

“Want to walk?” Minho asks when they’ve exhausted three coffee drinks each.

“In the rain? Again?”

“Why not? It worked last time.”

So they walk. Through Yeonnam-dong’s narrow streets, past cafés and shops and residential buildings. The rain soaks through their clothes but slower this time, gentle. Everything’s grey and soft, the city muted.

They end up at Gyeongui Line Forest Park, walking the path that used to be a railroad. Trees overhead make a canopy that barely keeps the rain off. The park is empty—just them and the sound of water on leaves.

“I’ve been thinking about date thirty,” Jisung says.

“What about it?”

“About what I want it to be. How I want it to end.”

“How’s that?”

Jisung stops walking. Minho stops too, turning to face him. Rain drips from his hair, runs down his face. He looks like something from a movie, backlit by grey Seoul afternoon light.

“I want it to be simple,” Jisung says. “No big gestures. No dramatic moments. Just us. Being honest about what this is.”

“And what is it?”

“You know what it is.”

“Say it anyway.”

“It’s us falling in love slowly over thirty dates. It’s realizing we were probably already in love before we started. It’s the scariest and best thing I’ve ever done.”

Minho steps closer. “Five more dates.”

“I don’t want to wait five more dates.”

“We promised.”

“I’m breaking the promise.”

“Jisung—”

“I love you,” Jisung says. “Not practice love. Not fake dating love. Real love. The kind that doesn’t need a countdown or a safety net or an excuse. I love you and I want to keep loving you after date thirty and I don’t want to wait five more dates to tell you that.”

The rain continues. Somewhere, a car horn honks. The city breathes around them.

“Okay,” Minho says.

“Okay?”

“Okay, we don’t wait. But we still do the five dates. We still finish what we started. We just do it knowing where it’s going.”

“Where’s it going?”

“You and me. For real. After date thirty.”

Jisung kisses him there in the rain, in the empty park, in the middle of Seoul on a Tuesday afternoon. Kisses him like he’s been wanting to since date one, without holding back, without pretending it’s practice.

When they break apart, they’re both breathless and soaked and grinning like idiots.

“Five more dates,” Jisung says.

“Five more dates,” Minho agrees. “And then everything.”

They walk back through Yeonnam-dong holding hands. The rain starts to let up. By the time they reach the subway, it’s stopped completely, leaving everything clean and new.

Updates his notes that night: “Date 25: Stopped pretending. Told him I don’t want to wait. Five more dates and then we’re real. Five more dates and then everything begins.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: thank you

Jisung: for what

Minho: for being brave first

Jisung: i learned it from you

Minho: liar

Minho: but i love you anyway

Jisung: i love you too

Jisung: see you on date twenty-six

Date twenty-six feels different. They both know it now—this isn’t practice anymore. This is the real thing with a countdown attached.

Minho suggests N Seoul Tower even though it’s touristy and cliché. They take the cable car up Namsan, Seoul spreading out below them in every direction. The city in daylight is different—less romantic, more real. You can see the pollution, the construction, the organized chaos that makes Seoul what it is.

At the top, they skip the love locks (too on the nose) and find a quiet spot on the observation deck. November is cold, the wind sharp this high up. Jisung wraps his scarf tighter.

“Four more after this,” Minho says, leaning against the railing.

“I know.”

“Nervous?”

“A little. You?”

“Yeah.”

They watch Seoul for a while. From up here, you can see everything—Gangnam’s skyscrapers, the Han River snaking through, the mountains in the distance. Eight million people down there, living their lives, having their own love stories and heartbreaks and ordinary moments.

“Can I tell you something?” Jisung asks.

“Always.”

“I’m glad we did this. The thirty dates thing. Even though it was stupid and complicated and probably the most inefficient way to fall in love.”

“You think we would’ve figured it out without it?”

“Maybe. Eventually. But this way—” Jisung gestures vaguely. “This way we got to choose it. Every date, we chose to show up. Chose to try. That means something.”

“It means everything.”

An announcement plays in Korean and English—the tower will be closing soon. They’ve been up here longer than Jisung realized. The sun is starting to set, painting the city in gold.

“Come on,” Minho says. “I want to show you something before we go.”

He leads Jisung to a different side of the observation deck, facing west. The sunset is spectacular from here—the sky on fire, clouds lit from below, Seoul silhouetted against it all.

“I came up here once,” Minho says quietly. “Before we started this. Before date one. I was trying to figure out if I should say yes to your insane idea.”

“What made you decide?”

“This view. I thought—if I’m going to take a risk, it might as well be a beautiful one.”

Jisung’s throat feels tight. “Was it? Beautiful?”

Minho looks at him. “The most beautiful thing I’ve ever done.”

They kiss as the sun sets over Seoul. As the city lights start to flicker on. As everything shifts from day to night, one moment bleeding into the next.

On the cable car down, Jisung leans against Minho’s shoulder. “Four more.”

“Four more,” Minho confirms. “Then what?”

“Then we figure out how to be us without the structure. Without the countdown.”

“Scary.”

“Terrifying.”

“But good.”

“Yeah. Good.”

That night, Jisung doesn’t update his notes immediately. Just lies in bed, thinking about the view from the tower. About how Seoul looked small from up there, manageable. About how some risks are worth taking even when you can’t see where they’ll land.

Finally types: “Date 26: N Seoul Tower. He said this is the most beautiful thing he’s ever done. Four more dates until I get to keep him.”

His phone buzzes almost immediately. 

Minho: you already have me

Jisung: four more dates

Minho: formality at this point

Jisung: important formality

Minho: yeah

Minho: see you tomorrow. date twenty-seven.

Jisung: cant wait

And he means it. Four more dates, and every one of them feels like counting down to Christmas.

Date twenty-seven is a Sunday. They don’t go anywhere.

Minho comes over to Jisung’s apartment in Sinchon with grocery bags and a determined expression. “We’re cooking,” he announces.

“We almost burned down your kitchen last time.”

“That was months ago. We’re older and wiser now.”

“We’re like three weeks older.”

“Wisdom knows no timeline.”

They make kimchi jjigae from scratch, following a recipe on Minho’s phone. It’s messy and chaotic—Jisung cuts the vegetables wrong, Minho puts in too much gochugaru, they both forget about the rice until it’s almost burning. But somehow it comes together.

They eat sitting on Jisung’s floor because his table is covered in music equipment. The jjigae is too spicy and perfect. The rice is a little crispy at the bottom. It’s the best meal Jisung’s ever had.

“Three more after this,” Jisung says around a mouthful of kimchi.

“Stop counting down.”

“You’ve been counting down since date one.”

“That’s different. I’m allowed to be nervous.”

“And I’m not?”

Minho sets his bowl down. “Are you? Nervous?”

Jisung considers this. The apartment is warm, filled with the smell of their cooking. Outside, Sinchon does its Sunday thing—quieter than usual, recovering from Saturday night. Lee Know Junior (the succulent) sits on the windowsill, somehow still alive despite Jisung’s best efforts.

“Not nervous, exactly,” Jisung says finally. “More like... aware. Like I’m standing at the edge of something and I can see what’s on the other side and it’s good, it’s really good, but I still have to take the step.”

“Three more steps.”

“Three more dates.”

Minho reaches across the space between them, takes Jisung’s hand. His palm is warm, slightly rough from guitar strings and cooking. Familiar now. Home.

“I don’t think there’s been a difference since date five,” Minho says.

“Earlier than that.”

“Yeah?”

“Date two. In the movie theater. When you caught me watching you instead of the film. That’s when I knew.”

“Knew what?”

“That I was in trouble. That this wasn’t going to be practice for long.”

They clean up together after, washing dishes in Jisung’s tiny kitchen. Minho washes, Jisung dries. They don’t talk, just exist in the quiet comfort of routine. This is what it could be like, Jisung thinks. This is what they could have.

When the dishes are done, they end up on the couch. Minho puts on music—something soft and instrumental. They lie there, Jisung’s head on Minho’s chest, listening to his heartbeat underneath the melody.

“This is my favorite date so far,” Jisung says.

“We didn’t do anything.”

“Exactly.”

“You’re easy to please.”

“Only with you.”

Minho’s hand finds Jisung’s hair, playing with it absently. “Two more after this.”

“I know.”

“Are you ready?”

“Are you?”

“I asked first.”

“Then yes. I’m ready. I’ve been ready since you agreed to this stupid idea.”

“It was a good idea.”

“It was a terrible idea that somehow worked out.”

“Best terrible idea you ever had.”

Jisung tilts his head up to look at Minho. From this angle, he can see the soft curve of his jaw, the way his eyes crinkle at the corners when he smiles. He’s memorized this face over twenty-seven dates, but it still makes his heart stutter.

“I love you,” Jisung says. Simple. True.

“I love you too,” Minho replies. Just as simple. Just as true.

They stay like that until the music stops and starts over. Until the sun sets and the room goes dark. Until Minho has to leave to make it home at a reasonable hour.

At the door, Minho kisses him goodbye. “Date twenty-eight is yours to plan.”

“I know exactly what I want to do.”

“Tell me.”

“Surprise.”

“I hate surprises.”

“You’ll like this one.”

After Minho leaves, Jisung sits in his quiet apartment and updates his notes: “Date 27: Stayed in. Cooked together. It felt like a preview of forever. Two more dates and then forever becomes real.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: made it home

Jisung: good

Minho: thank you for today

Jisung: thank you for every day

Minho: sappy

Jisung: you love it

Minho: i love you

Jisung: two more dates

Minho: two more dates

Jisung falls asleep that night with a full stomach and a fuller heart, thinking about the edge of something and how sometimes the step is easier than you think.

Jisung takes Minho back to the practice room. His studio space where they had date twelve. Where he played the unfinished song. Where everything shifted.

“We’re doing this again?” Minho asks, but he’s smiling.

“Not exactly.”

The room looks the same—still tiny, still covered in soundproofing foam, still smelling like coffee and ambition. But Jisung’s set up candles (a fire hazard, probably, but worth it) and there’s takeout waiting on the floor.

“Fancy,” Minho says.

“Shut up. I’m trying to be romantic.”

“You’re succeeding.”

They eat first—Chinese food from the place down the street that knows Jisung’s order by heart. Talk about nothing important. Let the anticipation build.

After, Jisung sits at the keyboard. Minho sits on the floor, same spot as last time, watching.

“Remember the song I played you on date twelve?” Jisung asks.

“The one about longing.”

“Yeah. I finished it.”

“Can I hear?”

“That’s why we’re here.”

Jisung plays. It’s changed since last time—fuller, more complete. The longing is still there but there’s resolution now too. Hope. The melody builds to something that feels like an answer.

When he finishes, the silence sits heavy.

“The lyrics are in my phone,” Jisung says. “I can send them to you. But the basic idea is—” He stops. Starts again. “It’s about two people who take the long way around to finding each other. Who practice loving each other until they forget they’re practicing. It’s about—”

“It’s about us,” Minho finishes.

“Yeah.”

Minho stands. Crosses the small space. Turns Jisung on the keyboard bench so they’re face to face.

“It’s beautiful.”

“You haven’t even heard the lyrics.”

“Don’t need to. I know what you’re trying to say.”

“What am I trying to say?”

“That we took thirty dates to figure out what we probably knew from the start. That the practice was just an excuse to be brave. That you love me in ways you’re still learning to articulate but the music says it perfectly.”

Jisung’s eyes feel hot. “Yeah. That’s exactly what I’m trying to say.”

Minho kisses him. Soft and sweet and full of promise. When they break apart, he rests his forehead against Jisung’s.

“One more date,” he whispers.

“One more.”

“And then?”

“And then we do this for real. No countdown. No structure. Just us.”

“Just us,” Minho agrees.

They stay in the practice room for hours. Jisung plays more songs—works in progress, things he’s been tinkering with. Minho listens and offers feedback and at some point they end up lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, hands linked between them.

“What do you want date thirty to be?” Minho asks.

“I don’t know. Something simple. Something that feels like us.”

“Not a big romantic gesture?”

“We’ve had twenty-eight dates of romantic gestures. I think for date thirty we should just... exist. Be together without trying so hard.”

“I like that.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

The building is quiet around them. Late enough that everyone else has gone home. It’s just them and the Seoul night and one more date between them and the rest of their lives.

“Minho?”

“Mm?”

“Thank you for saying yes. Back at the beginning. When I suggested this ridiculous idea.”

“Thank you for suggesting it.”

“Even though it was stupid?”

“Especially because it was stupid. The best things usually are.”

They leave eventually, when Jisung’s phone shows 2am and they both have work in the morning. Walk through quiet Gangnam streets to the subway. Everything’s closed except convenience stores and the occasional club still thumping with bass.

At the platform, waiting for trains going opposite directions, Minho pulls Jisung close.

“Tomorrow,” he says. “Date thirty.”

“Tomorrow,” Jisung agrees. “The last first date.”

“Terrible wordplay.”

“You love my terrible wordplay.”

“I love everything about you.”

“I love everything about you too.”

Minho’s train comes first. He kisses Jisung once more, quick and sweet, then boards. Jisung watches through the window as the train pulls away, Minho looking back until he disappears into the tunnel.

Updates his notes on the platform, waiting for his own train: “Date 29: Played him the finished song. One more date and then we’re real. One more date and then everything begins. I’m ready. I think he’s ready. We’re ready.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: the song is perfect

Minho: you’re perfect

Jisung: sappy

Minho: you started it

Jisung: see you tomorrow

Minho: date thirty

Jisung: the last one

Minho: the first one

Minho: of the rest

Jisung falls asleep that night thinking about lasts and firsts and how sometimes they’re the exact same thing.

Wait.

Jisung wakes up on Tuesday morning and realizes with horrible clarity that he miscounted.

He pulls up his notes app, scrolls back through all the dates. Counts again. And again.

Twenty-nine. They’re at twenty-nine dates.

Not thirty. Twenty-nine.

He texts Minho immediately: we have one more date

Minho: i know. tonight

Jisung: no i mean

Jisung: we miscounted. last night was twenty-eight. tonight is twenty-nine

Jisung: we have one more after tonight

The reply takes a full minute: what

Jisung: i counted. three times. were at twenty-nine

Minho: how did we miscount

Jisung: i dont know. i think we counted date zero as a date? or double counted one? but we have two dates left

Minho: two dates

Jisung: yeah

Another long pause. Then: okay

Jisung: okay?

Minho: okay. two more dates. we can do two more dates

But Jisung can feel the shift through the phone. They’d psyched themselves up for date thirty. They’d prepared for the end. Now they have to recalibrate, extend the countdown, exist in the limbo for two more dates instead of one.

They meet that evening at the Han River—a callback to date three. Sit on the same wall with convenience store snacks, feet dangling over the bike path. It’s colder now, late November wind coming off the water.

“This is funny,” Minho says, but he doesn’t sound like he thinks it’s funny.

“Hilarious.”

“Two more dates.”

“Two more dates.”

“Do you think—” Minho stops. “Do you think we built it up too much? Date thirty? And now we have this anticlimax?”

“I don’t know. Maybe.”

They’re quiet for a while. On the water, lights reflect in rippling fragments. Across the river, Gangnam glitters. Seoul doing its thing, indifferent to their small crisis.

“I had a whole thing planned for tomorrow,” Jisung admits. “For what I thought was date thirty.”

“What kind of thing?”

“Just—words I wanted to say. A speech, kind of. About what this meant. What you mean.”

“You can still say them.”

“On date twenty-nine? That feels weird.”

“Jisung.” Minho turns to look at him. “It doesn’t matter if it’s date twenty-nine or thirty or three hundred. If you have something to say, say it.”

But Jisung shakes his head. “No. I want to wait. I want it to be the right moment.”

“And that’s not now?”

“I don’t know. Nothing feels right suddenly. We were supposed to be done. We were supposed to cross the finish line. Now it feels like—like we got up to the tape and someone said actually, two more laps.”

Minho’s quiet. Then: “Do you want to stop? We could just say date thirty is whenever we want it to be. Declare tomorrow the last date and be done with it.”

“No. That feels like cheating.”

“We made the rules. We can break them.”

“But I don’t want to. I want to do this right.”

“Then we do two more dates.”

“Two more dates,” Jisung echoes, and it feels heavier than it should.

They stay at the river until it’s too cold to stand it. Walk to the subway in silence that’s not quite comfortable but not quite uncomfortable either. Just the silence of two people trying to recalibrate expectations.

At Jisung’s stop, Minho kisses him goodbye. It’s brief, almost perfunctory.

“Tomorrow,” Minho says. “Date twenty-nine, for real this time.”

“Tomorrow.”

That night, Jisung lies in bed and stares at his notes. All the dates laid out. All the counted moments. He finds where they miscounted—they’d counted date zero, the night they made the agreement, as date one. Which means every date after was off by one.

Such a small mistake. Such a big impact.

Updates his notes: “Pre-Date 29: (actually 29). Miscounted. Have two more dates instead of one. Everything feels off now. Like we were running toward a finish line that moved. Two more dates to figure out how to end this right.”

His phone stays silent. No goodnight text from Minho. Jisung tells himself it means nothing. Falls asleep anyway with a weird hollow feeling in his chest.

They don’t call it date twenty-nine take two, but they both know that’s what it is.

Minho suggests the bookstore again—Kyobo, where they had date five. Full circle. Jisung agrees because he doesn’t have a better idea and also because that date was perfect, maybe they can recapture some of that magic.

But it’s different this time. They browse the shelves separately, meet up after thirty minutes with books they picked for themselves instead of each other. Sit in the café and read in silence.

“This is weird, right?” Jisung says finally. “This feels weird.”

“A little.”

“Why?”

Minho sets his book down. “I think we psyched ourselves out. We were so focused on date thirty being the end that now we don’t know what to do with the extra time.”

“Like someone gave us extra innings but we already played our best game.”

“Exactly.”

“So what do we do?”

“I don’t know. Figure it out as we go?”

They try. They really try. They get lunch at a restaurant nearby—Italian, overpriced, not very good. Walk through Gwanghwamun in the afternoon cold. Go to a museum neither of them really wants to see. Everything feels forced. Like they’re going through the motions of a date without the heart of one.

By evening, they’re both exhausted from pretending everything’s fine.

“This was a terrible date,” Jisung says as they’re walking to the subway.

“Yeah.”

“Want to start over? Do date twenty-nine again tomorrow?”

“We can’t keep doing dates over until we get them right.”

“Why not?”

“Because that’s not how this works. The dates aren’t supposed to be perfect. They’re just supposed to be us.”

“Then why does this one feel so wrong?”

Minho stops walking. They’re in the middle of Gwanghwamun’s wide sidewalk, people streaming around them. The palace is lit up behind them, dramatic against the dark sky.

“I think I know why,” Minho says.

“Tell me.”

“We’ve been treating the dates like a shield. Like as long as we’re in the structure of the thirty dates, we don’t have to deal with the real question.”

“Which is?”

“What happens after. What we become. How we make this work in real life without the excuse of practice.”

Jisung’s chest feels tight. “I thought we figured that out. I thought we decided we’re doing this for real.”

“We did. But saying it and doing it are different. And I think—” Minho stops. Breathes. “I think we’re both scared that the magic only works inside the structure. That once we’re just... us, regular us, dating for real, it won’t feel the same.”

“That’s not true.”

“Isn’t it? Today felt wrong because we were trying to force it. Because we’re exhausted from performing ‘date’ for each other. What if that’s what the real thing is like? What if we’re better at the idea of us than the reality?”

“That’s not—” Jisung stops. Because he can feel the truth in it. The fear that they’ve built something beautiful in a greenhouse and now they have to plant it in the real world and hope it survives.

“One more date,” Minho says quietly. “Let’s do one more date for real. No pressure. No trying to make it perfect. Just us. And then after, we talk. Honest talk about what this becomes.”

“Okay.”

“Okay.”

They part ways at the subway. No kiss goodbye. Just a brief hug that feels more like ending than beginning.

Updates his notes that night: “Date 29: (real one). Terrible. Everything felt forced. Minho thinks we’re scared the magic won’t translate to real life. He might be right. One more date to figure this out.”

His phone buzzes. 

Minho: im sorry about today

Jisung: not your fault

Minho: still. i want tomorrow to be better

Jisung: it will be

Jisung: it has to be

Minho: yeah

Minho: one more date and then we figure out the rest

Jisung: one more date

He falls asleep with his phone in his hand, the notes app still open, all twenty-nine dates laid out like evidence of something. He’s just not sure what yet.

Jisung wakes up on Thursday morning and knows exactly what date thirty should be.

He texts Minho: meet me at the place where we had date zero

Minho: your place or mine

Jisung: yours. where we started

Minho: what time

Jisung: whenever. im coming over now if thats ok

Minho: doors unlocked

Jisung takes the subway to Mapo in morning light. Seoul is rushing to work, everyone in a hurry except him. He’s got all the time in the world. This is the last date. After this, time moves different.

Minho’s apartment looks the same as it did that first night—fourth floor walk-up, slightly shabby, perfect. Minho’s in sweatpants and a t-shirt, hair messy, clearly just woke up.

“Hi,” Jisung says.

“Hi.”

“Can we just—” Jisung gestures vaguely. “Can we just exist today? No planned activity. No trying to make it perfect. Just us.”

“Yeah. Okay.”

They make breakfast together. Scrambled eggs and toast, coffee that’s too strong. Eat sitting on the couch with bad morning TV playing. Minho’s cat (Soonie, Jisung’s learned her name now) winds between their legs, purring.

“This is nice,” Minho says.

“Yeah.”

“Is this date thirty?”

“I think so. I think it started when I walked in.”

“Okay.”

They spend the morning doing nothing. Jisung works on music on his laptop while Minho reads. They don’t talk much. Don’t need to. The silence is comfortable now, lived-in.

Around noon, it starts to rain.

“Again?” Jisung says, looking out the window.

“Seoul’s a dramatic city.”

“We should go out in it.”

“We’ve done the rain thing twice already.”

“Third time’s the charm.”

So they go out. No destination, no plan. Just walking through Mapo in the rain, getting soaked like idiots for the third time this experiment. But this time feels different. Lighter. Like they’re not trying to prove anything, just existing in the moment.

They end up at a pojangmacha, eating tteokbokki and fish cakes, drinking makgeolli even though it’s only 2pm. The rain drums on the plastic tarp overhead. Other customers come and go. The ajumma running the place keeps refilling their cups without asking.

“Remember date three?” Minho says. “At the Han River?”

“When you asked me how I felt and I said scared.”

“Are you still scared?”

Jisung considers this. The makgeolli is warm in his stomach. The rain is steady on the tarp. Minho is across from him, hair wet, cheeks flushed from the alcohol, looking at him like he’s the only thing that matters.

“No,” Jisung says. “I’m not scared anymore.”

“What changed?”

“I did. We did. I think—I think I was scared of losing you. Scared that making this real would break what we had. But yesterday, when everything felt wrong, I realized something.”

“What?”

“That the magic isn’t in the structure. It’s not in the dates or the countdown or the excuse. It’s just us. It’s always been just us.”

Minho reaches across the small table, takes Jisung’s hand. “Say more.”

“We had a terrible date yesterday. Everything was forced and weird and wrong. But I still wanted to be with you. Still wanted to figure it out. That’s when I knew—we’re going to have bad days. Days where nothing works and everything feels off. But I’ll still choose you. Every time.”

“Jisung—”

“I’m not done. I need to say this. I need you to know.” Jisung takes a breath. “You asked me on date thirteen what I wanted to learn from this experiment. I said I wanted to learn how to be with someone without fucking it up. But that was wrong. I didn’t need to learn how to be with someone. I needed to learn that being with the right person, fucking up is okay. That you don’t have to be perfect. You just have to be present.”

Minho’s eyes are bright. “You’re going to make me cry in a pojangmacha.”

“I have more.”

“Of course you do.”

“Thirty dates. We did thirty dates. And every single one taught me something about you. About me. About us. Even the terrible ones. Especially the terrible ones. And now we’re at the end and I’m supposed to have some big revelation, some conclusion to the experiment. But all I know is that I love you. That I want to keep doing this with you, without the structure, without the countdown. Just us, figuring it out as we go.”

The rain is letting up outside. The ajumma is watching Korean drama on a tiny TV, not even pretending not to listen to them. Minho’s hand is warm in Jisung’s.

“I love you too,” Minho says. “And I want the same thing. But I need you to know—it’s going to be messy. We’re going to fight. We’re going to have more days like yesterday. We’re going to fuck up in ways we can’t even imagine yet.”

“I know.”

“And you still want to do this?”

“I still want to do this. Do you?”

“Yeah. God, yeah.”

They kiss across the table, tasting like makgeolli and tteokbokki. The ajumma claps. Other customers smile. Seoul continues being Seoul around them—loud and messy and alive.

When they leave the pojangmacha, the rain has stopped completely. The streets are clean and wet, reflecting the afternoon sky. They walk through Mapo with no destination, just walking, hands linked.

“So,” Minho says. “Date thirty.”

“Date thirty.”

“How do we rate it?”

Jisung thinks about his notes. About all the categories he’s been tracking—physical affection, communication, activity enjoyment, post-date feelings. About how he tried to quantify something that was never meant to fit in neat categories.

“I’m not rating it,” he says.

“What?”

“I’m done rating. Done quantifying. This isn’t data. It’s just life.”

“What about your notes? Your documentation?”

“I’ll keep them. As a record. But I’m not analyzing them anymore. Some things don’t need analysis.”

They peel off wet clothes in Minho’s entryway, leaving a trail to the bathroom. Jisung’s jeans hit the floor with a wet slap. His shirt clings to his skin, cold and uncomfortable. Minho’s struggling with his own clothes, fingers clumsy with cold and something else—anticipation, maybe. Want.

The apartment is warm compared to outside, but they’re both shivering. Goosebumps rise on Jisung’s arms as he kicks off his shoes, nearly tripping in the process. Minho catches him, steadying hand on his elbow, and the touch sends heat through him despite the cold.

“Shower?” Minho suggests, voice slightly rough.

“Together?”

“We’ve done it before.”

“That was different. That was practical. Conserving water.” But Jisung’s already moving toward the bathroom, pulling Minho with him.

“And this isn’t practical?” Minho’s smiling though, following willingly.

The bathroom is small, tiles slightly yellowed with age. Minho’s building is old, the kind where the pipes groan and the hot water takes a minute to kick in. The fluorescent light flickers once before staying on, casting everything in harsh white light.

Minho turns on the shower, adjusting the temperature. Steam starts to rise, fogging up the small mirror above the sink. While they wait for it to warm up, they finish undressing. Jisung’s boxers are soaked through from the rain, clinging uncomfortably. He peels them off, adds them to the pile of wet clothes.

When he looks up, Minho’s staring.

“What?” Jisung asks, suddenly self-conscious. They’ve seen each other naked before—they’ve been sleeping together for months now—but something about tonight feels different. Weighted.

“Nothing. Just—” Minho steps closer. His hand comes up to cup Jisung’s face, thumb brushing his cheekbone. “You’re beautiful. That’s all.”

“You can’t say things like that.”

“Why not? It’s true.”

“Because—” Jisung doesn’t finish. Just pulls Minho into a kiss instead.

The shower is small, barely big enough for two. They crowd together under the spray, water sluicing away the rain and the cold. It’s too hot at first, almost scalding, but Jisung welcomes it. Lets the heat seep back into his bones.

Minho’s hands are gentle, reaching for the shampoo. “Turn around.”

Jisung obeys, turning his back to Minho. Feels his hands in his hair, working shampoo through it. The touch is intimate in a way that makes Jisung’s chest tight. They’ve done this before—shared this shower, this space—but tonight feels different. Weighted with the knowledge that this is date thirty. The last one. After this, everything changes.

Minho’s fingers massage his scalp, scratching lightly. It feels incredible. Jisung lets his head fall back, eyes closing, a soft sound escaping him.

“Feel good?” Minho asks, voice low. His breath is warm against Jisung’s ear.

“Really good. Don’t stop.”

Minho doesn’t stop. He works the shampoo through thoroughly, then guides Jisung under the spray to rinse. Water cascades over Jisung’s face, his shoulders. He keeps his eyes closed, trusting Minho to keep the soap out.

When his hair is clean, Minho’s hands slide down to his shoulders, kneading the muscles there. Jisung’s been tense without realizing it—the countdown, the weight of date thirty, all of it sitting in his shoulders. Minho works at the knots patiently, and slowly Jisung feels himself relaxing.

“What are you thinking?” Minho asks, hands still working.

“That I don’t want this to end.”

“The shower?”

“Tonight. Date thirty. This—” Jisung gestures vaguely, then realizes Minho can’t see it. “This feeling. Like we’re on the edge of something.”

Minho’s hands still for a moment. Then he turns Jisung around to face him, water streaming between them. His hair is plastered to his forehead, eyeliner smudged into shadows under his eyes, making them look darker, more intense.

“We are on the edge of something,” Minho says seriously. “We’re about to fall into the rest of our lives.”

“That’s terrifying.”

“Yeah.” Minho’s hands come up to frame his face, thumbs brushing his cheekbones. Water runs between their bodies, over skin, making everything slick. “But good terrifying.”

Jisung surges forward, kissing him. Water gets in their mouths, their noses, making it messy and awkward, but neither of them cares. Minho’s back hits the tile wall with a soft thud and Jisung presses against him, needing to be closer, needing to feel all of him.

“I love you,” Jisung says against his mouth. Simple. True.

“I love you too.” Minho’s hands slide down his back, over the curve of his ass, pulling him closer. “So much. You have no idea.”

“Show me.”

“Here?”

“Bed. Now. Please.”

They barely dry off, stumbling out of the shower still dripping. Jisung grabs a towel, runs it quickly over himself, but gives up halfway through. Minho does the same. They’re leaving wet footprints on the floor, water dripping from their hair, but neither of them cares.

The bedroom is dark except for the ambient light from Seoul filtering through the curtains—neon signs and streetlights painting everything in shades of blue and orange. The window is open slightly, letting in cool air that raises goosebumps on Jisung’s damp skin.

They fall onto the bed in a tangle of limbs. The sheets are cool against Jisung’s back, soft and smelling like Minho’s laundry detergent. Minho hovers over him, water dripping from his hair onto Jisung’s chest.

“Date thirty,” Minho says.

“Date thirty,” Jisung agrees, reaching up to push wet hair out of Minho’s eyes.

“Last one.”

“First one. Of the rest.”

“You’re so fucking sappy.”

“You love it.”

“I love you.” Minho leans down, kisses him slow and deep. His tongue slides against Jisung’s, tasting like toothpaste and want. “I love you and I want you and I want to do this right.”

“We’ve done this before.”

“I know. But this time—” Minho stops, sitting back on his heels between Jisung’s legs. “This time it’s not practice. This time it counts.”

“It’s always counted.”

“I know. But let me—just let me do this properly.”

So Jisung lets him. Lets Minho take his time, kissing down his body with reverence. His lips are soft, wet from the shower, leaving trails of sensation. He kisses Jisung’s jaw, his throat, pausing to suck a mark into the sensitive skin. Jisung gasps, hands coming up to tangle in Minho’s wet hair.

Minho continues down—collarbones, chest, pausing to tongue at Jisung’s nipples until they’re hard and over-sensitive. Jisung’s back arches off the bed, a whimper escaping him. He’s already half-hard, cock filling where it rests against his thigh.

“Sensitive,” Minho murmurs against his skin, moving lower. His hands spread Jisung’s thighs wider, settling between them. “I love how responsive you are. Every touch, every kiss—you react.”

“Can’t help it. You make me—fuck—”

Minho’s mouth is on his hip bone now, biting gently. The sharp pleasure-pain makes Jisung’s hips jerk. He’s fully hard now, cock leaking against his stomach. Can feel Minho’s breath ghosting over it, so close but not touching yet.

“Minho, please—”

“Please what?”

“Touch me. Stop teasing.”

“Not teasing. Savoring.” But Minho’s hand wraps around him finally, and the touch is electric.

Jisung cries out, hips bucking up into the grip. Minho’s hand is warm, slightly rough from guitar calluses, and the friction is perfect. He strokes slowly, base to tip, thumb swiping over the head to gather the precome beading there.

“So wet already,” Minho says, almost wonderingly. He brings his thumb to his mouth, sucks it clean. The sight makes Jisung’s cock pulse in his grip. “Taste good too.”

“Fuck. You can’t—you can’t just say things like that.”

“Why not? It’s true.”

Then Minho leans down and takes him into his mouth.

The heat, the wet, the suction—it’s overwhelming. Jisung’s hands fly to Minho’s hair, gripping tight, trying not to thrust up even though his hips are trembling with the effort. Minho’s good at this, has had months to learn exactly what Jisung likes, and he uses all that knowledge now.

His tongue swirls around the head, dips into the slit. His hand works what doesn’t fit in his mouth, stroking in counterpoint to the bob of his head. The other hand grips Jisung’s hip, holding him down, not letting him thrust.

“Minho—god—your mouth—”

Minho hums in response and the vibration travels up Jisung’s spine. He takes him deeper, relaxing his throat, until Jisung can feel himself hit the back of it. The sensation makes his thighs shake, makes his fingers tighten in Minho’s hair.

But before Jisung can get too close, Minho pulls off with an obscene pop. Jisung whines at the loss, hips chasing his mouth.

“Not yet,” Minho says. His lips are red, swollen, shiny with spit and precome. “Want you to come when I’m inside you.”

The words send a bolt of heat straight through Jisung. “Yeah. Yes. Please.”

“You sure? We don’t have to—”

“I want to. Want you inside me. Want to feel you tomorrow.”

Minho groans, low and desperate. “You’re going to kill me.”

“Not if you don’t hurry up.”

Minho laughs, surprised and delighted, and reaches for the nightstand. Fumbles with the drawer, pulling out lube and condoms. His hands are shaking slightly—nerves or arousal or both.

“Come here,” Jisung says, pulling him down into a kiss. Can taste himself on Minho’s tongue, bitter and salt. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” Minho settles between his legs again, one hand reaching for the lube. “Tell me if anything doesn’t feel good, okay?”

“I will. I promise.”

The first touch of slick fingers makes Jisung gasp. Minho’s circling his rim, not pushing in yet, just teasing. The sensation is maddening—almost enough, not quite what he needs.

“In,” Jisung pleads. “Stop teasing.”

“Patience.”

But Minho pushes one finger in slowly, and Jisung’s body accepts it easily. They’ve done this enough that his body knows what’s coming, relaxes into it. Minho works the finger in and out, stretching him open, before adding a second.

The stretch burns slightly, pleasure edging into discomfort. Jisung breathes through it, focusing on Minho’s face—the concentration there, the care. After a moment the discomfort fades and it’s just good, Minho’s fingers moving inside him, searching.

When he finds Jisung’s prostate, Jisung nearly comes off the bed.

“There—fuck—right there—”

“I know. I’ve got you.”

Minho works that spot mercilessly, fingers crooking to hit it with every thrust. Jisung’s a mess, writhing on the bed, cock leaking steadily onto his stomach. His thighs are trembling, spread obscenely wide. He’s making sounds he’d be embarrassed by if he could think, but thinking is beyond him right now.

“More,” he gasps. “Need more. Need you.”

Minho adds a third finger and Jisung feels it—the stretch, the fullness, the slight burn that means more preparation. He rocks down onto the fingers, fucking himself, chasing the pleasure.

“Look at you,” Minho murmurs, and his voice is wrecked. “So desperate. So beautiful. You have no idea what you do to me.”

“Show me. Please. I’m ready. I need you inside me.”

Minho pulls his fingers out slowly, and the loss makes Jisung whimper. He watches as Minho reaches for a condom, tearing the packet with his teeth. Watches as he rolls it on, hissing at the touch on his oversensitive cock. Watches as he slicks himself up, hand moving slowly, spreading the lube.

Then Minho’s lining up, the blunt head of his cock pressing against Jisung’s rim. Their eyes meet—this moment of connection, of checking in, of making sure.

“Ready?” Minho asks.

“So ready. Please.”

Minho pushes in slowly.

The stretch is intense—always is, no matter how prepared Jisung is. There’s that moment of resistance, of his body saying wait, and then he relaxes and Minho slides in deeper. Inch by inch, slowly, giving Jisung time to adjust.

When he’s fully seated, they both stop, breathing hard. Jisung feels impossibly full, stretched around Minho’s cock. Can feel him pulsing inside, hot even through the condom. His hands grip Minho’s shoulders, nails digging in slightly.

“Okay?” Minho asks through gritted teeth. He’s holding perfectly still, muscles trembling with the effort.

“Yeah. Just—give me a second.”

They stay like that, connected completely. Minho leans down, kisses him soft and sweet. The angle shifts him inside and Jisung gasps into his mouth.

“Move,” Jisung says. “Please move.”

Minho pulls out slowly, until just the tip is inside, then pushes back in just as slowly. The drag against Jisung’s walls is incredible. He can feel every ridge, every vein, every inch as Minho fills him again.

They find their rhythm—slow at first, deep rolls of Minho’s hips that make Jisung’s breath catch. Minho’s forearms are braced on either side of Jisung’s head, their faces close enough that they’re breathing the same air. Sweat beads on Minho’s forehead, drips down onto Jisung’s chest.

“Harder,” Jisung gasps. “You won’t break me.”

Minho laughs breathlessly. “You sure?”

“Positive. Want to feel this tomorrow. Want to know you were here.”

Something in Minho’s eyes darkens. He shifts, hooking one of Jisung’s legs over his shoulder, and the new angle lets him go deeper. The next thrust hits Jisung’s prostate dead-on and he cries out, back arching.

“There?”

“Yes—fuck—there—don’t stop—”

Minho doesn’t stop. He sets a harder pace now, driving into that spot with precision. Each thrust punches sounds out of Jisung—moans, gasps, Minho’s name over and over like a prayer.

The pleasure builds, coiling tight in Jisung’s belly. His cock is trapped between their bodies, getting friction on every thrust. It’s slick with precome, making the slide easier. He’s going to come, can feel it building, racing up his spine.

“Close,” he manages. “I’m so close.”

“Me too. Where—where do you want me?”

“Inside. Want to feel you come inside me.”

Minho groans, hips stuttering. “Jisung—fuck—you can’t say things like that—”

“Why not? It’s true. Want you to come in me. Want to feel it.”

“Touch yourself,” Minho commands, and his voice has dropped even lower, gone rough and desperate. “Want to watch you come on my cock.”

Jisung’s hand flies to his cock, wrapping around it. He’s so worked up it only takes a few strokes—he comes hard, striping his chest and stomach with white. The orgasm seems to go on forever, pleasure rolling through him in waves. His ass clenches around Minho’s cock, milking it.

“Fuck—Jisung—I’m—”

Minho comes with a broken sound, burying himself deep. Jisung can feel him pulsing, can imagine the feeling of him filling the condom. 

Wishes they could do this without it, wishes he could feel Minho’s come inside him, but they’re safe and careful and that’s okay too.

Minho collapses on top of him, both of them breathing hard. Jisung can feel his heart racing against his chest, matching his own frantic rhythm. They’re both covered in sweat and come, sticky and gross, but Jisung has never felt better.

“Holy shit,” Minho manages after a moment.

“Yeah.”

“That was—”

“Perfect. That was perfect.”

Minho lifts his head to look at him. His hair is a disaster, sticking up in every direction from Jisung’s hands. His eyes are soft, satisfied, full of love.

“Date thirty,” he says.

“Date thirty,” Jisung agrees.

“Last one.”

“First one. Of forever.”

“Forever,” Minho echoes. He leans down, kisses Jisung soft and sweet. “I like the sound of that.”

Eventually they have to separate. Minho pulls out carefully—Jisung winces at the drag, already feeling sore—and deals with the condom. Jisung lies there boneless, thoroughly fucked, watching Minho move around the room.

When Minho comes back with a warm washcloth, Jisung protests weakly. “I can do it.”

“Let me. Want to take care of you.”

So Jisung lets him. Lets Minho clean him up gently, wiping away the come and sweat. The cloth is warm and soothing. When Minho reaches between his legs, Jisung hisses at the sensitivity.

“Sorry,” Minho murmurs. “Almost done.”

After, they crawl under the sheets. They’re both exhausted, wrung out, satisfied in every way. Jisung curls against Minho’s side, head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat slowly return to normal.

Outside, Seoul continues. Car horns. Distant music. The building settling. Inside, they’re in their own world.

“You know what the best part is?” Jisung asks quietly into the dark.

“What?”

“We get to do this again. Tomorrow. And the next day. And the next. No countdown. No practice. Just us.”

“Just us,” Minho confirms. His hand finds Jisung’s hair, playing with it absently. “Forever.”

“Forever.”

“Date thirty-one tomorrow.”

“The first of infinity.”

“So sappy.”

“You love it.”

“I love you.” Minho presses a kiss to his forehead. “So much. More than I thought I could love anyone.”

Jisung’s throat feels tight. “I love you too. Thank you for—for all of this. For saying yes to my stupid idea. For thirty dates. For forever.”

“Thank you for asking.”

They fall asleep like that—tangled together, the sheets damp with sweat, Seoul humming outside the window. Date thirty officially over. Everything else just beginning.

In the morning, Jisung will wake up sore and satisfied. Will feel Minho wrapped around him, still sleeping. Will look at his phone and see the reminder he set months ago: “Date 31.”

Will smile and delete it.