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If you’re reading this then I’m dead.
I know you’ll all blame yourself’s but please don’t it was none of you guys faults.
I’ve had the greatest life since meeting you all so don’t blame yourself it was my fault. I know you guys would say otherwise but it’s true.
I just want to apologize I’m sorry for not being able to keep living.
Dazai-san I’m sorry for not being able to be your student any longer but it’s for the best. I know it might be hard but it will get better so keep living don’t be like me. You were the first person to see something other than a monster in me and you have become an amazing person in my life that I care for deeply. I’m sorry Dazai
I’m sorry Kyoka-chan for leaving you I’ve always seen you as a younger sister I don’t know if you feel the same, but if you do I want to know about how sorry I am for taking your big brother from you. I never meant to hurt you and I’m sorry if this does. I’m sorry Kyoka.
Ranpo-san I know you’ll blame yourself, for not seeing the signs but don’t please I purposely avoided you because nobody needs to worry about me. I’m sorry for that I want you to know I missed talking with you… about books or whatever kind of candy you had really everything. I’m sorry Ranpo.
Yosano-sensei I won’t lie you did intimidate me when we first met and i only had others to go off of on what you were like, with that being said you are a really kind and caring person that I care about a lot. I enjoyed shopping with you and when you were so kind explaining things I didn’t understand. I’m sorry if I didn’t show it well but you matter a lot to me, I. Sorry if what I’ve done hurts you. I’m sorry Yosano
Kunikida-san it was hard at first to see past your abrasiveness, but once I did all I could see was a kind and caring person even behind all of the yelling you did. I know death isn’t apart of your ideals with how much you blame yourself when someone dies it’s not hard to see, and I’m sorry for doing this to you. I’m sorry Kunikida
Kenji-kun I know we didn’t talk that often but when we did I had so much fun, I really liked you Kenji-kun I enjoyed hanging out with you whether it be eating talking about your cow or family back home. And hey Kenji-kun I’m sorry if this is to big of a request but could you look out for Kyoka-chan for me I know that this will be hard for her and I want someone here for her. I’m sorry Kenji
Tanizaki-san you were a great friend to me and I cherish that friendship we had. You were really kind to me and apologized for scaring the shit out of me during my entry exam every thought you didn’t have to. I enjoyed your company a lot and I’m sad we didn’t hang out more often. I’m sorry Tanizaki
Naomi-san i really loved the way we would hang out and just talk about anything, I really enjoyed the gossip you shared with me it made me feel like I actually got to do some thing most kids experience. I think fondly about the times where we were on break in the cafe and just talked nothing ever in particular except gossip. I’m sorry Naomi
Fukuzawa-san I know I avoided you at first and I’m sorry for that you just reminded me a little too much of my old orphanage director before I got to know you. I’m sorry for making assumptions before actually getting to know you cause you’re an amazing person and very caring. I know we don’t interact much but I admire the way you show love for the people in the agency it may not be obvious to people not here in the ADA but it’s there. And I know you care a lot about your people so please take care of everyone, and that includes yourself. I’m sorry Fukuzawa