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Year 2010, High School First Year

Ling had memorized the layout of her new school before she ever set foot inside it. Floor plans downloaded from the website. The student handbook read cover to cover. Even the bus routes are color-coded in her notebook. It was what she did—prepared, controlled, stayed three steps ahead of the world so it could never catch her off guard.

But no amount of preparation could have readied her for Orm.

The morning air hung thick with Bangkok humidity as Ling adjusted her backpack straps for the third time. The prestigious all-girls school rose before her like a palace with its gleaming windows, manicured lawns, and groups of students who moved with the easy confidence of people who belonged.

I don't belong here.

The thought came unbidden as she climbed the entrance steps. Around her, girls chatted in rapid Thai, their laughter bright and effortless. Ling's Thai was decent as her mother had made sure of that but Hong Kong Cantonese still lived in her bones. Everything here felt just slightly off-key, like a song she'd heard but never learned to sing.

"New student?" A hall monitor with a bright smile stopped her in the main corridor. "First day?"

Ling nodded, handing over her paperwork with steady hands that betrayed none of her nerves.

"Third floor, east wing. Room 3-B." The girl's eyes flickered over her with curiosity. "Good luck! And hey, welcome to Bangkok."

The halls were wider than Ling expected, polished to a mirror shine. Small clusters of students dotted the corridor, leaning against lockers, comparing homework, fixing each other's hair. The scent of perfume and youth hung in the air—something floral she couldn't name.

Ling kept her eyes forward, posture straight, steps measured. She'd learned young that if you looked like you knew where you were going, people rarely questioned you.

She was halfway down the corridor when she heard it.

"ORM! STOP! YOU'RE GOING TO SLIP!"

The shout came from behind her. Ling's head turned instinctively,

A blur of motion. Brown ponytail. Cheerleading jacket slipping off one shoulder. A girl running full speed down the polished hallway, sneakers squeaking, bag stuffed with pom-poms bouncing wildly.

She was laughing. Actually laughing as she ran.

And then,

Her foot caught the floor wrong.

Time fractured.

Ling saw it in slow motion: the exact moment the girl's sneaker lost traction. The way her eyes went wide. Arms pinwheeling. Body pitching forward. The split second before impact.

Ling didn't think.

Her backpack hit the floor. Her feet moved. Three long strides and she was there, arms outstretched, catching the girl just as gravity claimed her.

The impact drove them both backward.

Ling's brain calculated the trajectory in a flash that if they fell like this, the girl would take the worst of it. So she twisted, wrapped her arms tighter around the girl's waist, and let herself become the cushion.

Her back slammed into the polished floor. Pain exploded up her spine. The breath left her lungs in a sharp gasp.

But the girl was safe.

For a moment, neither of them moved.

Then Ling opened her eyes.

And found herself staring into the most beautiful eyes she'd ever seen.

Not brown. Not quite amber. Something in between just like honey in sunlight, or whiskey held up to a window. Golden and warm and impossibly deep.

The girl blinked down at her, stunned. Her palm rested flat against Ling's chest, and Ling knew she could feel the wild hammering of her heart.

"You..." The girl's voice was breathless. "You okay?"

Ling's throat had gone dry. "I—yeah. You?"

"I think so." But the girl didn't move. Neither did Ling.

The hallway had gone quiet. Ling was dimly aware of other students staring, whispers starting up, but none of it mattered.

All she could see were those eyes.

I'm in trouble, Ling thought distantly. I'm in so much trouble.

"You totally just saved my face from kissing the floor," the girl said finally, a half-laugh escaping her. She sat up slowly, brushing her hair back, still looking dazed. "Are you secretly a superhero or something?"

Ling found her voice. "Just lucky timing."

"Lucky?" The girl's lips curved into a smile and Ling felt something in her chest shift permanently out of place. "You basically launched yourself across the hallway like an action movie hero."

"I..." Ling had no response to that.

The girl stood first, brushing off her skirt, then extended a hand down to Ling. "I'm Orm. Cheer captain. First year."

Ling took her hand, and tried to ignore the spark that shot up her arm at the contact. "Ling. Transfer student. First day."

Orm's eyes widened. "Your first day? Oh my god, what a way to make an entrance." She pulled Ling to her feet with surprising strength. "Nice reflexes, Ling."

The way she said her name—soft and warm, like tasting something sweet made Ling's chest tighten.

"Thanks," Ling managed. She bent to retrieve her backpack, using the moment to collect herself.

Get it together. You just met her. You don't even know her.

But when she straightened, Orm was still watching her with those impossible eyes, and Ling knew with sudden, terrifying certainty that she was going to fall in love with this girl.

She already had.

"Hey." Orm's voice was gentler now. "You're really okay? You hit the ground pretty hard."

"I'm fine." The lie came easily. Her back throbbed, but she'd endure worse. Much worse.

Orm studied her for another moment, then smiled again but smaller this time, more genuine. "Well, Transfer Student Ling... thanks for saving me from a very embarrassing first day story."

"It's still pretty embarrassing," Ling said before she could stop herself.

Orm laughed and the sound lodged itself somewhere in Ling's ribs. "Fair point. Guess we're both making memorable first impressions."

Someone called Orm's name from down the hall. She glanced back, waved, then turned to Ling one more time.

"I'll see you around, yeah?"

Ling nodded, not trusting her voice.

Orm jogged off, ponytail bouncing, leaving nothing behind but the faint scent of jasmine and the imprint of her hand on Ling's chest.

Ling stood frozen in the middle of the hallway, backpack hanging from one hand, heart still racing like she'd just run a marathon.

Around her, students were already moving on, the moment forgotten by everyone except her.

What just happened?

She touched her chest where Orm's hand had been, feeling her heartbeat slowly return to normal.

Nothing would ever be normal again.

By lunch, the story had spread.

‘The transfer girl and the cheer captain’ became the whispered headline of the day. Ling heard it in passing—in the bathroom, in the lunch line, during her third-period class when two girls in front of her couldn't stop giggling about it.

She kept her head down and tried to ignore it.

But she couldn't ignore Orm.

Because Orm was everywhere.

In the cafeteria, surrounded by friends, her laughter carried across the room. In the hallway between classes, stopping to help a first-year find her classroom. On the practice field visible from Ling's classroom window, leading the cheer squad through routines with effortless grace.

She was magnetic. Radiant. The kind of person who seemed to glow with life wherever she went.

And Ling... Ling couldn't stop watching.

Stop, she told herself firmly. This is ridiculous. You don't even know her.

But her eyes found Orm anyway during lunch, tracking her movements across the cafeteria like she was the sun and Ling was a planet caught in her orbit.

That's when she noticed.

Orm was picking at her salad, face scrunched in distaste. She'd push the cucumbers to the side of her plate. Ignore the tomatoes completely. Every time someone offered her a bite of something with vegetables, she'd smile politely and decline.

She hates them, Ling realized. Tomatoes and cucumbers.

She filed the information away without thinking about why.

Three days later, they ended up at the same lunch table.

It wasn't planned. Orm's usual table was full, and Ling's corner spot happened to have an empty chair. When Orm appeared with her tray, looking around for a place to sit, their eyes met across the cafeteria.

Orm's face lit up. "Hey! Transfer Student!"

Ling's heart did something complicated. "Hi."

"Mind if I sit?"

Yes. No. I don't know. "Go ahead."

Orm dropped into the chair across from her with easy grace, setting down her tray. "So how's your first week treating you?"

"Fine." Ling kept her voice neutral, even as her pulse quickened. "Still learning where everything is."

"That's the worst part." Orm speared a piece of lettuce, made a face at it. "The school's like a maze. Took me three weeks to figure out where the music room was."

"East wing, second floor, next to the art studio."

Orm blinked. "You've already found it?"

"I memorized the floor plan before I started."

"Of course you did." Orm's smile was fond, like Ling had just done something endearing instead of mildly obsessive. "You seem like the type."

"What type is that?"

"The type who has color-coded notes and never misses a deadline." Orm leaned forward conspiratorially. "Am I right?"

Ling's notes were, in fact, color-coded. "Maybe."

"I knew it." Orm looked delighted. "Meanwhile, I'm over here forgetting my homework exists until five minutes before class."

"That seems stressful."

"You have no idea." Orm sighed dramatically, then pushed at her salad again. Her nose wrinkled at the sight of the cucumbers.

Ling watched her for another moment then before she could overthink it, she reached across the table.

"What are you—" Orm started.

Ling plucked the cucumber slices from Orm's plate and transferred them to her own. Then the tomatoes. Quick and efficient, like it was the most natural thing in the world.

She looked up to find Orm staring at her, eyes wide.

"You don't like them," Ling said simply. "I do."

Something soft crossed Orm's face. "You noticed that?"

"You've been avoiding them all week."

Orm was quiet for a moment, still watching her with those honey-gold eyes. Then, slowly, she smiled and this smile was different from the others. Warmer. More real.

"Thanks, Ling."

"It's nothing."

"It's not." Orm picked up her fork again, this time actually eating. "But okay. We'll pretend it's nothing."

They ate in comfortable silence after that. And when Orm's friends came by to drag her away, she glanced back over her shoulder at Ling with a look that made Ling's chest feel too tight.

From that day on, it became their routine.

Ling never asked. Never made a big deal of it.

She just quietly removed the vegetables Orm hated and ate them herself.

And Orm never said thank you—just bumped her shoulder against Ling's with a grin that said I see you, I see what you're doing, and Ling would smile to herself for the rest of the day.

Small gestures. Quiet moments. The beginning of something neither of them had words for yet.

***

"You don't have to wait for me, you know."

Ling looked up from her book. She sat on the bench at the edge of the practice field, earbuds in even though the music wasn't playing. She'd been watching cheer practice for the past hour, same as she had every day for three weeks.

Orm stood in front of her, a gym bag slung over her shoulder, ponytail disheveled from practice. Her cheeks were flushed, a sheen of sweat on her skin. She looked beautiful.

"I'm not waiting," Ling said automatically.

"You're here every day."

"I like this spot. Good lighting."

"For reading." Orm's tone was skeptical. "Even though you haven't turned a page in twenty minutes."

Busted.

Ling closed her book. "Maybe I like watching cheer practice."

"Or maybe," Orm said, dropping onto the bench beside her close enough that their thighs almost touched—"you're waiting so we can walk home together."

Ling's heart skipped. "Would that be okay?"

"Ling." Orm turned to look at her fully, and the softness in her expression made Ling forget how to breathe. "It's more than okay. I look forward to it every day."

Oh.

"I just..." Orm tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, suddenly looking shy. "I didn't want you to feel like you had to. I know I kind of adopted you as my friend without asking."

"I don't mind being adopted."

"Good." Orm's smile returned, brilliant and warm. "Because you're stuck with me now."

I want to be stuck with you forever, Ling thought but didn't say.

They walked home together that day, taking the long route through the park. Orm talked about everything. From her teammates, her annoying economics teacher, the new café that opened near her house. Ling mostly listened, content to watch the way Orm's hands moved when she talked, the way her eyes lit up when something excited her.

"You're quiet," Orm observed as they reached the intersection where they'd parted ways. "Is that just how you are? Or am I talking too much?"

"You're not talking too much." Ling met her eyes. "I like listening to you."

Orm's expression softened. "Yeah?"

"Yeah."

They stood there for a moment, the evening sun casting long shadows across the sidewalk. Around them, the city buzzed with life with cars honking, vendors calling out, the distant sound of construction. But in their bubble, everything was still.

"Same time tomorrow?" Orm asked finally.

"I'll be there."

"Even though you're not waiting for me?"

Ling's lips twitched. "Even though I'm not waiting for you."

Orm laughed, bright and genuine, and bumped Ling's shoulder with hers before heading toward her street. "See you tomorrow, Ling!"

Ling watched her go, that familiar ache settling in her chest. The one that had taken up permanent residence the day Orm fell into her arms.

She touched her shoulder where Orm had bumped it, still feeling the warmth.

I'm in so deep, she thought.

And she wouldn't have it any other way.

Two months later

The steak arrived perfectly cooked, pink in the middle, seared on the outside.

Orm stared at it like it had personally offended her.

"What's wrong?" Ling asked from across the table. They were at a casual restaurant near school—not quite a date, but not quite not a date either.

"Nothing." Orm picked up her knife and fork, attempted to saw through the meat, and immediately struggled.

Ling watched for approximately five seconds before reaching across the table.

"Let me."

"You don't have to—"

But Ling had already taken Orm's plate, efficiently cutting the steak into neat, bite-sized pieces. She slid it back across the table without a word.

Orm stared at her plate, then at Ling, something unreadable crossing her face.

"You're going to spoil me," she said quietly.

"Good."

"Ling…”

"What?" Ling picked up her own fork, determinedly not making eye contact. "It's just cutting meat."

"It's not just anything." Orm's voice was soft, almost wondering. "You do this kind of thing all the time. The vegetables. Carrying my bag when it's heavy. Waiting after practice. The chocolate you leave on my desk when you think I'm having a bad day."

Ling's cheeks warmed. "You noticed that?"

"I notice everything about you."

The words hung between them, heavy with meaning.

Ling finally looked up, and the expression on Orm's face made her breath catch—soft and vulnerable and something that looked dangerously close to…

No. She couldn't let herself think that.

"I just..." Ling struggled for words. "I want to. That's all."

"Why?"

Because I'm falling in love with you. Because I'd do anything to see you smile. Because taking care of you feels like the most natural thing in the world.

"Because you're my friend," Ling said instead. "And friends take care of each other."

Something flickered in Orm's eyes.

Disappointment? Hope?

before she smiled. "Right. Friends."

They finished their meal in companionable silence, but Ling couldn't shake the feeling that something had shifted. That Orm had been looking for a different answer.

She just wasn't brave enough to give it yet.

That night, lying in bed, Ling pulled out her phone and opened her notes app. She'd started keeping a list, though she'd never admit it to anyone.

Things Orm Hates:

• Tomatoes

• Cucumbers

• Tough meat

• Getting up early

• Horror movies

• Being cold

Things Orm Loves:

• Chocolate (especially milk chocolate)

• Chewy candies

• Late-night conversations

• Stargazing

• The smell of jasmine

• Dancing in the rain

The list had grown to three pages. Every little detail, every passing comment, every expression that crossed her face. Ling cataloged it all like she was studying for the most important exam of her life.

Because maybe she was.

Maybe learning Orm was the only thing that mattered.

She closed her phone and stared at the ceiling, thinking about the look on Orm's face at dinner. The way she'd said "friends" like it tasted wrong in her mouth.

One day, Ling promised herself. One day I'll be brave enough to tell you the truth.

But not today.

Today, she'd keep falling. Keep watching. Keep taking care of her from the sidelines.

And maybe… Just maybe… Orm was falling too.

***

Year 2012, High School Third Year

Practice had been running long.

The sun hung low over the field, painting everything in shades of amber and rose. Ling sat in her usual spot on the bench, chemistry textbook open in her lap, but her eyes kept drifting to the practice mat where Orm was being lifted into the air.

She'd seen this routine a hundred times. The build, the extension, Orm's perfect form as she balanced on her teammates' hands, arms stretched toward the sky like she could touch it.

It was beautiful.

She's beautiful.

Ling had long since stopped pretending she was here for any other reason. Three years of waiting after practice. Three years of walking Orm home. Three years of falling deeper and deeper into feelings she couldn't name out loud.

The afternoon was perfect. Warm but not too hot, with a gentle breeze carrying the scent of cut grass and jasmine from somewhere nearby. The cheer squad was working on their nationals routine, and Orm was calling out counts, her voice clear and confident.

"Five, six, seven, eight! Tighter formation, girls! Pim, lock your arms! Ready for the basket toss—"

The lift started normally. The bases positioned themselves. Orm stepped into their linked hands, rising up, up, up. Steady and graceful, like she'd done a thousand times before.

From her spot on the bench, Ling watched with the same mix of admiration and anxiety she always felt during these moments. She knew the statistics—cheerleading had one of the highest injury rates of any sport. She'd researched it obsessively after the first time she'd watched Orm fly through the air, heart in her throat.

But Orm was good. The best. She'd never fallen before.

Until today.

It happened so fast and yet Ling saw it in excruciating slow motion.

One of the bases, Megan, a second-year who was still learning shifted her weight wrong. Just a fraction, barely noticeable. But at that height, with that much force, it was enough.

The balance tipped.

Orm's eyes went wide, arms pinwheeling. She tried to correct, to shift her weight back, but gravity had already claimed her.

"ORM!" someone screamed.

She fell.

Not gracefully. Not into the waiting arms of her spotters. She fell hard and wrong, her body twisting in the air, and Ling saw with perfect, horrible clarity the exact moment her ankle bent at an impossible angle as she hit the ground.

The sound of impact made Ling's stomach drop.

Then came the scream.

High and sharp and full of pain—a sound Ling had never heard Orm make before. A sound that shattered something in her chest.

The chemistry textbook hit the ground.

Her bag tumbled off the bench.

And Ling ran.

She didn't think. Didn't plan. Didn't calculate the fastest route or consider the chain-link fence separating the bleachers from the field.

She just moved.

Her hands hit the top of the fence, and she vaulted over it in one fluid motion, feet hitting the grass on the other side. She ran faster than she'd ever run in her life, faster than during PE tests or emergency drills or any other moment that had required speed.

Because Orm was hurt.

Orm was on the ground.

Orm was screaming.

"ORM!" Ling's voice cracked as she sprinted across the field.

The other girls stood frozen, shocked into immobility. Some were crying. Megan had her hands over her mouth, face pale with horror. The coach was fumbling for her phone, trying to call for help.

But none of them were moving toward Orm.

None of them were doing anything.

Ling dropped to her knees beside her, the impact jarring but ignored. Her hands hovered over Orm's body, shaking so badly she couldn't control them. She wanted to touch, to comfort, to check for injuries, but she was terrified of making it worse.

"Orm—Orm, look at me—" Her voice was ragged, desperate. "Are you okay? Where does it hurt? Don't move, just—"

"My ankle—" Orm gasped out between sobs, tears streaming down her face. "God, it really hurts—Ling, it hurts so much—"

"I know, I know, baby, I know—" The endearment slipped out without thought. Ling's whole body was trembling, adrenaline and fear making her movements jerky. She'd never seen Orm cry before. Never seen her in pain. The sight of it made something wild and protective surge through her chest, threatening to tear her apart from the inside.

Orm's face was twisted in agony, skin pale except for the red blotches from crying. Her right ankle was already swelling, the skin discoloring in a way that made Ling feel sick.

"We need to get you to the nurse," Ling said, trying to keep her voice steady even as panic clawed at her throat. "We need to—the hospital, we need to call an ambulance—"

"No ambulance," Orm whimpered. "Just—I can't—I can't walk—"

"You don't need to walk."

Ling didn't hesitate. Didn't pause to consider. She simply stood and then bent down, sliding one arm under Orm's knees and the other behind her back, lifting her in one smooth motion.

Bridal style.

Like Orm weighed nothing.

Around them, gasps echoed across the field.

Ling had a reputation at school—the quiet transfer student who kept to herself. Cold, some called her. Intimidating. She never raised her voice, never showed emotion, never let anyone close except for Orm. She was known for her perfect grades and her perfect posture and her perfectly controlled everything.

No one had ever seen her look like this.

Her face was pale, eyes wild with fear. Her jaw was clenched so tight it looked painful. Every muscle in her body was taut with tension, and her hands—her careful, steady hands were shaking where they held Orm.

"I've got you," Ling murmured, adjusting her grip to make sure Orm's injured ankle wasn't jostled. "I've got you, I've got you—"

Orm wrapped her arms around Ling's neck instinctively, burying her face in her shoulder. "It hurts—"

"I know. I'm going to get you help. Just hold on tight, okay? Hold onto me."

Ling started moving, and then she was running.

Not jogging. Not walking quickly.

Running.

Full sprint, Orm cradled in her arms, across the field toward the main building. Her PE sneakers pounded against the grass, her breathing coming hard and fast, but she didn't slow down. Couldn't slow down.

Every second Orm was in pain was a second too long.

She could feel Orm's tears soaking through her shirt. Could feel the way Orm's hands clutched at her shoulders, holding on like Ling was the only solid thing in a world of pain.

They crossed the field in record time. Ling barely registered the other students, stopping to stare as she barreled past the tennis courts, past the gardens, straight toward the nurse's office in the main building.

Her legs burned. Her arms ached from Orm's weight. But she didn't care.

She would carry Orm to the ends of the earth if she had to.

"Ling—" Orm's voice was muffled against her neck. "You're—how are you running so fast—"

"Don't talk," Ling gasped out. "Save your energy."

"You're like—" Orm let out a pained laugh that turned into a whimper. "You're like a superhero or something—"

The words hit Ling in the chest, and she remembered another day, another hallway, the first time they'd met.

Are you secretly a superhero or something?

"I'm not a superhero," Ling managed, taking the stairs to the second floor two at a time despite Orm in her arms. "I'm just—I'm just me."

"You're always there," Orm whispered, and there was something in her voice beyond pain. Something soft and wondering. "Every time I fall, you're there to catch me."

Ling's throat closed up. She couldn't respond, couldn't find words that wouldn't give everything away.

They burst through the door to the nurse's office so forcefully it slammed against the wall.

"Help!" Ling's voice came out desperate, almost breaking. "Please, she's hurt—she fell—"

The school nurse, Ajarn Suda, jumped to her feet immediately. "What happened?"

"Cheerleading accident. She fell from a basket toss, landed on her ankle wrong—" Ling was moving toward the examination bed, carefully, so carefully lowering Orm onto it. "It's swelling badly, she can't put weight on it—"

"Let me see." Ajarn Suda was already pulling on gloves, moving to examine Orm's ankle. "Sweetie, I need you to tell me where the pain is—"

But Orm's hand shot out, grabbing Ling's wrist before she could step back. "Don't leave—"

"I'm not leaving." Ling immediately moved closer, letting Orm grip her hand so tightly it hurt. "I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere."

As Ajarn Suda carefully probed the injury, Orm squeezed Ling's hand harder with each wave of pain. Ling stood frozen beside the bed, watching every wince, every grimace, every tear that rolled down Orm's cheeks.

She'd never felt so helpless in her life.

"It's a bad sprain," Ajarn Suda said finally. "Possibly worse. We need to get you to the hospital for X-rays to rule out a fracture."

"No—" Orm started to protest.

"Yes," Ling cut in firmly. "Whatever it takes. Call an ambulance. Call her parents. Just… Please help her."

Ajarn Suda studied Ling's face for a moment, something like understanding crossing her features. "I'll call for an ambulance. In the meantime, ice and elevation. You—" She pointed at Ling. "Keep her calm. And maybe sit down before you collapse."

Ling realized distantly that she was shaking all over, the adrenaline crash hitting her hard. But she didn't sit. Instead, she pulled a chair close to the bed and perched on the edge of it, never letting go of Orm's hand.

"You ran so fast," Orm said quietly, eyes red-rimmed but fixed on Ling's face. "I've never seen anyone run that fast while carrying someone."

"You're not that heavy," Ling muttered, brushing Orm's hair back from her sweaty forehead with her free hand.

"That's not—" Orm winced as Ajarn Suda adjusted the ice pack. "You were terrified. I could feel it. Your hands were shaking the whole time."

Ling couldn't deny it. Her hands were still shaking. "Of course I was terrified. You fell. You were hurt."

"But you still moved so fast. Jumped that fence, ran across the field, carried me all the way here without stopping—" Orm's voice cracked. "Why?"

Because I love you. Because seeing you in pain destroys me. Because I would do anything, be anything, sacrifice anything to keep you safe.

"Because you needed help," Ling said instead, the words inadequate but all she could manage. "And I was there."

"You're always there," Orm repeated, echoing her earlier words. Her thumb traced circles on Ling's palm. "Every time something happens, you're there. Like you're watching over me."

"Someone has to," Ling tried to joke, but her voice came out too raw. "You're kind of accident-prone."

"Only around you, apparently." Orm managed a weak smile. "Maybe you're bad luck."

"Maybe I am."

"Or maybe—" Orm's eyes were too knowing, too soft. "Maybe I feel safe enough to fall because I know you'll catch me."

Ling's breath caught. She stared at Orm, at this girl who'd crashed into her life three years ago and never left, at the person who'd become the center of her entire universe without even trying.

"I'll always catch you," Ling whispered. "Always."

The moment stretched between them, heavy with meaning, with three years of unspoken feelings finally pressing against the surface.

Then Ajarn Suda cleared her throat. "The ambulance will be here in fifteen minutes. Orm, I called your parents as well. They're meeting you at the hospital."

The spell broke. Orm pulled her hand away to wipe at her tears. Ling sat back, creating distance, trying to rebuild the walls that had crumbled the moment she'd seen Orm fall.

But something had shifted.

Something had changed.

And they both knew it.

***

Outside the Nurse's Office

While they waited for the ambulance, word spread through the school like wildfire.

"Did you see Ling?"

"She jumped the fence like it was nothing!"

"And the way she was holding Orm—"

"I've never seen her look like that. She was freaking out."

"Didn't know the Ice Queen had emotions."

"She's not an Ice Queen. Did you see her face? She looked like her world was ending."

"Because her friend got hurt?"

"That wasn't a 'friend got hurt' face. That was—"

Students clustered in the hallway, whispering. Some of the cheer squad had followed, sitting on the floor outside the nurse's office, crying and waiting for news.

Inside, Ling heard none of it. She was focused entirely on Orm.

"Tell me something," Orm said suddenly, voice groggy from the pain medication Ajarn Suda had given her. "Distract me."

"Tell you what?"

"Anything. A story. A fact. One of your random bits of knowledge." Orm managed a small smile. "You always know the most random things."

Ling thought for a moment, then said, "Did you know that the human heart beats about 100,000 times per day?"

"That many?"

"That many. And it never stops, never rests. Just keep on going, pumping blood, keeping you alive." Ling's voice dropped. "It's the most important muscle in your body. If it stops, everything stops."

Orm studied her face. "Why are you telling me about hearts?"

Because mine stopped when you fell. Because it only beats for you now. Because if something happened to you, I don't think mine could keep going.

"Because you asked for a fact," Ling said lightly. "And I thought you should know how strong you are. Your heart keeps going even when things hurt. Even when you fall. It just keeps beating."

"Like you," Orm said softly. "You keep going. Keep showing up. Keep being there."

"That's different—"

"Is it?" Orm's eyes were starting to droop from the medication, but she fought to keep them open. "You're the strongest person I know, Ling. Even when you're scared, and especially when you're scared… You still act. You still run toward the danger instead of away.

"You'd do the same for me."

"I would. But I'm wondering—" Orm's words were slurring slightly now. "I'm wondering if you'd ever let me. If you'd ever let yourself be the one who needs catching."

The question hit too close to home. Ling had spent her entire life making sure she never needed catching, never needed saving. Being self-sufficient was survival.

"The ambulance should be here soon," Ling deflected.

"You always do that," Orm mumbled, eyes falling shut. "Change the subject when things get too real."

"Orm—"

"But that's okay." A soft smile curved Orm's lips even as sleep pulled at her. "I can wait. I'm patient."

"Patient? You?" Ling couldn't help a small laugh.

"Only for you, baobao."

And just like that, drugged and half-asleep and in pain, Orm had given her a nickname.

Baobao.

Ling's heart stuttered in her chest.

She sat very still, watching Orm drift off, that word echoing in her mind like a promise.

The ambulance arrived. Paramedics loaded Orm onto a stretcher. Through it all, Orm refused to let go of Ling's hand until the last possible second, when they had to close the ambulance doors.

"I'll visit," Ling promised. "As soon as they let me."

"You better," Orm called back, words slurred but sincere. "You're my superhero. Gotta make sure you didn't hurt yourself carrying me."

The doors closed. The ambulance pulled away.

And Ling stood in the parking lot, suddenly alone, the adrenaline finally wearing off and leaving her shaking and weak.

Her legs gave out. She sank onto the curb, head in her hands, and let herself fall apart for just a moment.

I could have lost her. If she'd landed differently, hit her head, broken her neck—

The thoughts spiraled, each one worse than the last, until she felt like she couldn't breathe.

"Ling?"

She looked up to find the cheer coach, Ajarn Som, standing over her with a concerned expression.

"Are you alright?"

Was she alright? She'd just watched the person she loved most in the world fall and hurt herself. She'd run across a field carrying her, terrified out of her mind. She stood helpless while Orm cried from pain.

"I'm fine," Ling said automatically.

"You don't look fine. You look like you're about to pass out." Ajarn Som sat beside her on the curb. "That was quite something you did. The way you moved… It’s something. I've never seen anyone react that fast."

Ling said nothing.

"You care about her a lot," the coach observed quietly.

"She's my friend."

"I've coached cheer for fifteen years. I know what friendship looks like." A pause. "And I know what it looks like when it's more than that."

Ling's head snapped up, but Ajarn Som's expression was kind, not judgmental.

"I'm not going to say anything," the coach continued. "But Ling… what you did today? That was more than friendship. And everyone saw it."

"I just—" Ling's voice cracked. "I couldn't let her be hurt. I couldn't—"

"I know." Ajarn Som patted her shoulder. "Love makes us do brave things. Terrifying things. You jumped a fence and sprinted across that field like an Olympic athlete. All for her."

"I'm not—we're not—"

"Whatever you are or aren't, that's between you two." The coach stood. "But for what it's worth? The way she looks at you? She feels the same way."

Ajarn Som walked away, leaving Ling sitting on the curb, mind spinning.

She feels the same way.

Could it be true?

Ling thought about Orm's hand gripping hers. The way she'd said "baobao" like it meant something. The way she'd refused to let Ling leave her side.

You're always there. Every time I fall, you're there to catch me.

Hope, dangerous and terrifying, bloomed in Ling's chest.

That Night, 2 AM

Ling couldn't sleep.

She'd spent hours researching ankle injuries, treatment protocols, and recovery timelines. She'd sent a dozen texts asking how Orm was doing (the response: mild sprain, no fracture, home with crutches and pain meds). She'd tried to do homework, read, organize her room. Literally anything to stop thinking about the fear that had consumed her when Orm fell.

Her phone buzzed.

Orm: hey you awake?

Ling grabbed her phone so fast she nearly dropped it.

Ling: Yeah. Can't sleep. How's your ankle?

Orm: throbbing but the painkillers help

Orm: that's not why i'm texting tho

Ling: Oh?

Orm: i wanted to say thank you

Orm: for today. for running to me like that. for carrying me.

Orm: for being my superhero

Ling's heart squeezed.

Ling: I'm not a superhero. I just did what anyone would do.

Orm: no

Orm: most people froze. they just stood there.

Orm: but you moved. you didn't even think about it.

Orm: you just came for me

Ling stared at her phone screen, fingers hovering over the keyboard.

Ling: Of course I did. You were hurt.

Orm: you were terrified

Orm: weren't you?

Orm: i could feel it. your hands were shaking the whole time

Ling could lie. Should lie. Keep everything safe and buried where it belonged.

But Orm had called her baobao.

Orm had held her hand like a lifeline.

Orm deserved the truth, even if it terrified Ling to give it.

Ling: Yes.

Ling: I was terrified.

Ling: I've never been that scared in my life.

There was a long pause. Ling watched the typing indicator appear and disappear three times.

Orm: why?

Because I love you. Because seeing you hurt made me want to tear the world apart. Because I'd do anything, be anything, sacrifice anything just to keep you safe. Because you're not just my friend, you're everything.

Ling's fingers trembled as she typed.

Ling: Because you're important to me.

Ling: More important than anything.

Orm: ling...

Orm: you're important to me too

Orm: more than anyone else actually

Orm: is that weird to say?

Ling: No. It's not weird.

Orm: good because

Orm: i think about you all the time

Orm: like all the time

Orm: is that weird? to tell you that?

Ling's hands shook so badly she had to set the phone down and take a breath.

Ling: No. It's not weird.

Ling: I think about you too.

Orm: yeah?

Ling: All the time.

Ling: Constantly.

Ling: From the moment I wake up until I fall asleep.

The words were out before she could stop them, more honest than she'd meant to be.

Orm: really?

Orm: because sometimes i wonder

Orm: if we're still just friends

Orm: or if we stopped being just friends a long time ago and neither of us wanted to say it

Ling's breath caught. Her finger hovered over the screen, heart hammering.

This was it. The moment. The opening she'd been waiting for three years to have.

Tell her. Tell her tell her tell her—

But fear gripped her throat. What if she was wrong? What if this was just the pain medication talking? What if she confessed and Orm laughed it off as a misunderstanding?

What if she lost her?

Ling: Get some rest. Your ankle needs to heal.

Ling: We can talk tomorrow.

Ling: When you're not on pain meds.

She watched the dots appear again. Disappear. Appear. Disappear.

Finally:

Orm: okay

Orm: yeah you're probably right

Orm: painkillers make me say weird things

Ling's heart sank. See? She didn't mean it—

Orm: but ling?

Ling: Yes?

Orm: i meant what i said

Orm: all of it

Orm: even the weird parts

Orm: especially the weird parts

Hope sparked in Ling's chest again, fragile and terrifying.

Orm: also

Orm: i decided to give you a nickname

Orm: because you're always so formal

Orm: calling me by my name all proper-like

Orm: so from now on you're baobao

Ling: Baobao?

Orm: it means little bun

Orm: because you act all tough and serious

Orm: like you have this hard shell

Orm: but inside you're soft and warm

Orm: also because you're so cute when you're flustered

Orm: and i wanted a special name just for you

Orm: baby felt too obvious

Orm: is it okay?

Ling read the message five times, then ten, a smile spreading across her face so wide her cheeks hurt.

Ling: It's perfect.

Ling: I love it.

Orm: good

Orm: because i'm never calling you anything else

Orm: you're my baobao

Orm: my soft little bun who pretends to be tough

Orm: but who runs faster than the wind when i need you

Orm: who carries me like i weigh nothing

Orm: who holds my hand when i'm scared

Orm: who's always always always there

Ling pressed her phone to her chest, tears streaming down her face, heart so full it felt like it might burst.

Ling: Goodnight, Orm.

Orm: goodnight baobao

Orm: see you tomorrow

Orm: my superhero ❤️

The heart emoji sat there on her screen, small and pink and impossibly significant.

Ling held her phone to her chest and stared at the ceiling, that name echoing in her mind like a song, like a promise, like everything she'd ever wanted to hear.

Baobao. She called me baobao.

My baobao.

My superhero.

She fell asleep with her phone still clutched in her hand, a smile on her face, and the knowledge that tomorrow, when they saw each other at school, everything might be different.

Everything might finally, finally be starting.

The Next Morning

Ling arrived at school an hour early, waiting by the entrance where she knew Orm's mother would drop her off.

When the car pulled up, Ling was there immediately, opening the door before Orm could struggle with it herself.

"Good morning," Ling said, reaching to help Orm out.

Orm looked up at her, eyes bright despite the crutches and the visible exhaustion, and smiled so widely it made Ling's heart skip.

"Morning, baobao," she said, loud enough for several passing students to hear.

Ling felt her ears burn red. "You're really using that, huh?"

"Forever and ever." Orm accepted Ling's help, balancing on her good leg while adjusting her crutches. "It's mine now. I claimed it."

"Like a territory?"

"Exactly like a territory." Orm started hobbling forward, Ling hovering close in case she stumbled. "You're my territory. My baobao. No one else gets to call you that."

"I think I can live with that," Ling said softly.

They made it three steps before a crowd of students surrounded them, all asking about Orm's ankle, expressing concern, offering to carry her bag.

But Orm waved them all off, her eyes never leaving Ling's face.

"I'm good," she said. "I've got my superhero. I don't need anyone else."

And when their eyes met, when Orm smiled that soft, knowing smile, Ling knew with absolute certainty that they'd crossed a line last night.

There was no going back.

And she didn't want to.

For the rest of the day, Ling carried Orm's bag. She walked slowly beside her between classes. Helped her navigate stairs. Brought her lunch. Made sure she elevated her ankle during breaks.

And every time someone asked if they were dating, they both just smiled and didn't answer.

Because the truth was too new, too precious, too fragile to share yet.

But it was there.

In the way Orm called her "baobao."

In the way Ling's hand would find Orm's without thought.

In the way they looked at each other like the rest of the world had faded away.

It was there.

And that was enough.

For now.

***

Year 2015, University First Year

"This is stupid."

Ling looked up from her tourism marketing textbook to find Orm sprawled across her dorm bed, economics notes scattered around her like confetti.

"What's stupid?" Ling asked, even though she could already see Orm's frustrated expression, the way she was chewing on her pen cap. A habit she only had when she was stressed.

"This." Orm gestured vaguely at her laptop. "This entire assignment. I'm supposed to write about supply and demand equilibrium but all I can think about is how much I'd rather be in your class learning about... I don't know, resort management or whatever."

"Sustainable tourism development," Ling corrected automatically.

"See? Even that sounds more interesting than economic models."

Ling closed her textbook and moved to sit beside Orm on the bed, careful not to disturb the nest of papers. "Want help?"

"From the Tourism major?" Orm raised an eyebrow. "What do you know about economics?"

"Enough." Ling pulled the laptop toward her, scanning Orm's half-finished essay. "Besides, you helped me with my Thai language assignment last week. Fair's fair."

"That was different. I'm actually good at Thai."

"And I'm actually good at making you focus when you're spiraling." Ling poked Orm's forehead gently. "Come on. Show me what you've got so far."

They worked for two hours, Ling helping Orm organize her thoughts while Orm complained dramatically about every other sentence. But by the time the sun started setting outside Ling's window, the essay was done.

"You're a lifesaver," Orm sighed, closing her laptop with relief. "I swear, I don't know how I'd survive university without you."

"You'd be fine."

"I really wouldn't." Orm shifted closer, until their shoulders pressed together. "You keep me sane, baobao."

The nickname still made Ling's heart skip, even after three years.

"Your friends must be wondering where you are," Ling said, trying to ignore the warmth of Orm pressed against her side. "Prig texted you like five times."

"Let her wonder." Orm pulled out her phone, scrolled through messages, then made a face. "Ugh, they're teasing me again."

"About what?"

Orm hesitated, thumb hovering over her screen. Then she turned the phone so Ling could see.

Prig: so when are you gonna ask her out properly?

Prig: its been YEARS

Prig: everyone knows you two are basically dating except apparently you two

Gina: Prig's right you know

Gina: that girl in Ling's tourism class has been flirting with her

Gina: the pretty one with the long hair? saw them at the coffee shop yesterday

Gina:  you better stake your claim before someone else does 😏

Ling's chest tightened as she read. "They're just joking around."

"Are they though?" Orm's voice was quiet, careful. She pulled her phone back, not meeting Ling's eyes. "The girls in your major... They are pretty. And you're—" She gestured at Ling vaguely. "You're you. Smart and tall and mysterious. Of course they notice you."

"I don't notice them."

Orm finally looked at her. "No?"

"No." Ling held her gaze, steady and sure. "I don't."

Something shifted in Orm's expression. Her tongue darted out to wet her lips—nervous to tell, Ling had cataloged that one years ago and she opened her mouth like she wanted to say something important.

Then Ling's roommate burst through the door, chattering loudly on her phone, and the moment shattered.

Orm pulled back, gathering her things. "I should go. Late already."

"Orm—"

"Thanks for the help, baobao." She flashed a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes. "See you tomorrow?"

"Yeah. Tomorrow."

Ling watched her leave, frustration churning in her gut. They'd been dancing around this for years and she still couldn't find the courage to just say it.

I don't notice other girls because the only person I see is you.

I've been in love with you since the day you fell into my arms.

You're not just my best friend, you're everything.

But the words stayed locked in her chest, unspoken and aching.

Six months later

"I brought you coffee."

Ling looked up from her laptop to find Orm standing in the campus library, holding two cups from their favorite café.

"You have class in ten minutes," Ling pointed out.

"Worth it." Orm slid into the seat beside her, pushing one cup across the table. "Matcha latte, extra ice, light on the sweetness."

Ling's lips curved. "You memorized my order."

"Obviously." Orm took a sip of her own drink—some sugary monstrosity with whipped cream and grinned. "I memorize everything about you, baobao."

And I memorize everything about you, Ling thought, watching the way Orm licked whipped cream off her upper lip. Like how you always order the sweetest drink on the menu. How you study better with background noise. How you twist your ring when you're nervous.

"You're staring," Orm said, but she didn't sound bothered. If anything, she looked pleased.

"Sorry."

"Don't be." Orm leaned her chin on her hand, studying Ling right back. "I like when you look at me."

The library suddenly felt too warm. Ling took a long sip of her coffee to buy herself time, mind racing.

This is it. Say something. Anything.

"Orm—"

"Hey, I was thinking," Orm interrupted, eyes bright. "There's this new restaurant that opened downtown. Thai fusion place. Want to check it out this weekend? Just us?"

"Just us?" Ling's heart hammered.

"Yeah." Orm's cheeks turned pink. "Like... a date. If you want. We don't have to call it that if you don't—"

"Yes."

Orm blinked. "Yes?"

"Yes, I want to go. Yes, we can call it a date." Ling met her eyes, gathering every ounce of courage she possessed. "I'd really like that."

The smile that spread across Orm's face was like sunrise, slow and radiant and absolutely beautiful.

"Saturday night?" Orm asked, voice soft.

"Saturday night," Ling confirmed.

They grinned at each other like idiots until Orm's phone alarm went off, reminding her about class.

"Crap, I really have to go." She jumped up, grabbing her bag. "But Saturday, okay? It's a date. An actual date."

"I'll be there."

"I know you will." Orm paused, leaning down to press a quick kiss to Ling's cheek. The first time she'd ever done that and whispered, "See you soon, baobao."

Then she was gone, leaving Ling touching her cheek where Orm's lips had been, heart soaring.

Finally, she thought. Finally we're taking a step forward.

She couldn't wait for Saturday.

***

Year 2017, University Graduation

They had slipped away from the chaos without anyone noticing.

While their classmates posed for photos and hugged tearfully and promised to stay in touch forever, Ling and Orm walked quietly away from campus, graduation robes folded neatly in their bags, toward the small park where everything had always felt easier.

The sakura tree was in full bloom. Petals drifted down like pink snow, catching in Orm's hair, landing on Ling's shoulders. The late afternoon light turned everything golden from the grass, the wooden bench to Orm's skin.

Ling thought she had never seen anything so heartbreakingly beautiful.

"Can you believe we're done?" Orm asked, sitting down on their bench. Their bench. They'd claimed it years ago, spent countless afternoons here talking about everything and nothing.

"Four years went fast," Ling said, settling beside her.

"Too fast." Orm tilted her head back, watching the petals fall. "Remember when we were freshmen and everything felt impossible? Like we'd never make it through?"

"You thought you'd fail economics."

"I would have failed economics if you hadn't basically tutored me through every class." Orm bumped Ling's shoulder affectionately. "You saved my GPA."

"You saved my sanity," Ling countered quietly.

Orm turned to look at her, something soft in her expression. "Did I?"

You saved everything. You made me feel like I belonged somewhere. Like I was worth knowing.

"Yeah," Ling said simply. "You did."

They sat in comfortable silence, watching the cherry blossoms dance in the breeze. Around them, the park hummed with life with children playing, couples walking hand in hand, an old man feeding the ducks at the pond.

But in their bubble, everything was still.

Ling's hands were clammy. Her heart pounded against her ribs like it was trying to escape. She'd rehearsed this moment in her head for weeks. Months. Years, really. She'd imagined grand gestures—rooftop dinners, roses, maybe even fireworks if she was feeling dramatic.

But sitting here under falling petals with the girl she'd loved for seven years, all that seemed unnecessary.

She just needed to say it.

Now. Say it now before you lose your nerve.

"Orm," she started, voice rougher than intended.

"Mm?"

"I need to tell you something. Before we graduate, everything changes."

Orm went very still. "Okay."

Ling took a breath. Then another. Her hands trembled slightly as she laced them together.

"I like you," she said, the words falling into the space between them like stones. "I have for a long time."

Silence.

Ling forced herself to continue, even as panic clawed at her throat. "I know we're friends. Best friends. And maybe I'm about to ruin that completely, but I can't—I couldn't graduate without telling you. Without you knowing that when I look at you, I don't just see my friend. I see—"

She stopped, swallowing hard. "I see everything. My whole future. Every good thing I've ever wanted."

The silence stretched. One second. Two. Five.

Ling couldn't look at Orm. Couldn't bear to see rejection or pity or worse, awkward kindness.

"Ling." Orm's voice was careful, measured. "Look at me."

Ling's eyes closed briefly. Then she turned.

Orm was watching her with an expression Ling couldn't quite read. Surprise, yes, but something else underneath. Something that looked almost like...

"You're serious?" Orm asked quietly. "This isn't some joke or—"

"I'm completely serious." Ling met her gaze steadily, even as her heart tried to beat out of her chest. "I've been serious since the day you crashed into me in the hallway."

Orm's lips parted slightly. Her eyes were wide, searching Ling's face like she was seeing her for the first time.

"Seven years," Orm whispered. "You've—seven years?"

"Give or take." Ling tried for a smile and failed. "I know the timing is terrible. We're graduating, starting new jobs, everything's changing. You don't have to say anything back. I just needed you to know before we—"

"I know," Orm interrupted.

Ling blinked. "What?"

"I know. I've known for a while."

The world tilted sideways.

"You... knew?"

Orm nodded slowly, a small smile playing at her lips. "Ling, you're not exactly subtle. The way you look at me, the things you do—carrying my bag, remembering every little detail, waiting after every practice even when you're exhausted." She reached out, gently taking Ling's hand. "I noticed."

Ling stared at their joined hands, then back at Orm's face. "Then why didn't you say anything?"

"Because I was waiting for you to say it." Orm's thumb traced circles on Ling's palm. "I wanted to hear it from you. In your words. Your timing."

"And now?"

Orm shifted closer on the bench, until their knees touched, until Ling could count every one of her eyelashes.

"Now," Orm said softly, "I get to tell you something I've been too scared to admit."

Ling's breath caught.

"I like you too," Orm whispered. "Maybe I didn't realize it at first. Or maybe I did and I was just terrified of what it meant. But every time you picked tomatoes off my plate, every time you cut my steak without being asked, every time you showed up and stayed even when I was being difficult—" Her voice cracked slightly. "I fell a little more in love with you."

"You—" Ling couldn't breathe. "You love me?"

"I think I have for years." Orm's free hand came up to cup Ling's cheek. "I just didn't have the courage to say it."

A petal landed on Orm's shoulder. Then another in her hair. The whole world seemed to be celebrating around them, nature itself conspiring to make this moment perfect.

"Can I kiss you?" Ling asked, voice barely above a whisper.

Orm's smile was answer enough, but she said it anyway: "I thought you'd never ask."

Ling leaned in slowly, giving Orm every chance to pull away. But Orm met her halfway, and when their lips finally touched, it felt like coming home.

Soft. Gentle. Perfect.

Seven years of longing, of careful friendship, of unspoken feelings. All of it condensed into this single moment under falling cherry blossoms.

When they pulled back, both breathless, Orm laughed brightly and joyfully.

"What?" Ling asked, unable to stop smiling.

"I was so nervous you'd friend-zone me. That you'd say all that stuff about liking me but mean it platonically somehow."

"Orm." Ling couldn't help it, she laughed too. "I've been in love with you since high school. There's nothing platonic about it."

"Good." Orm leaned in again, pressing a quick kiss to Ling's jaw. "Because I'm not letting you go now."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

They stayed under the sakura tree until the sun set, hands clasped, foreheads touching, making quiet promises about a future that finally, finally felt within reach.

Six months later

"You're doing it again."

Ling looked up from where she was arranging books on the shelf. "Doing what?"

"Reorganizing my stuff." Orm stood in the doorway of their now-shared apartment, hip cocked, arms crossed, but her expression was fond. "Those books were fine where they were."

"They were stacked randomly. Now they're alphabetized."

"Baobao." Orm walked over, gently taking the book from Ling's hands and tossing it back onto the pile. "I love you. But if you alphabetize one more thing in this apartment, I'm staging an intervention."

"An intervention for what? Having organizational skills?"

"For being an adorable control freak." Orm wrapped her arms around Ling's waist from behind, chin resting on her shoulder. "Besides, I kind of like the chaos. Makes it feel lived-in."

Ling softened, turning in Orm's embrace. Six months of dating and she still wasn't used to this—being allowed to touch freely, to kiss whenever she wanted, to wake up next to this woman every morning.

"I'm just trying to make our space nice," she murmured.

"It's already nice. You're here."

Ling's cheeks warmed. "That was smooth."

"I have my moments." Orm grinned, reaching up to straighten Ling's collar. "Now, what do you want for dinner? I was thinking we could try that new—"

"Actually," Ling interrupted, her voice suddenly uncertain. "Can we talk about something?"

Orm pulled back slightly, studying her face with concern. "Of course. What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong, I just..." Ling took a breath, fingers fidgeting with the hem of her shirt—a nervous habit Orm had come to recognize. "I want to ask you something."

They moved to the couch, settling close together. Orm took Ling's hand, thumb tracing gentle circles on her palm. "You're making me nervous, baobao. What is it?"

Ling stared at their joined hands for a long moment. When she finally spoke, her voice was barely above a whisper. "Would you... would you want to meet my family?"

Orm blinked, surprised. In all their time together, Ling had rarely spoken about her past. Orm knew she'd grown up in Thailand but had Hong Kong connections somehow—it explained her flawless Cantonese and the way she moved between cultures so easily. But the details had always been vague, and Orm had learned not to push.

"Of course I would," Orm said gently. "I'd love to meet them. But only if you're ready to introduce me."

"I am. I think." Ling looked up, and Orm was startled to see vulnerability in those usually steady eyes. "It's just... My family isn't like yours." She stopped herself. "It's different."

"Different how?"

Ling took another breath, steeling herself. "I grew up in an orphanage. In Kalasin. Mae Niran… She runs the place. She's the closest thing to a mother I've ever had."

Orm's eyes widened. "You... you grew up in an orphanage?"

"Yes." Ling's voice was steady now, matter-of-fact, like she was reciting information rather than sharing something deeply personal. "They found me when I was about two years old. Left at a temple in Kalasin. The only things they knew were that my father was from Hong Kong and my mother was Thai. Just me, a blanket and a note with my name."

"Ling..." Orm's heart ached. She squeezed Ling's hand tighter.

"Mae Niran took me in. Raised me. She's the one who made sure I learned both Thai and Cantonese—said it was important to know where I came from, even if I didn't know who I came from." A small smile crossed Ling's face. "She's strict but kind. She taught me to be independent, to never rely on anyone, to always have a plan."

"That explains so much about you," Orm said softly.

"Does it?" Ling looked uncertain again. "I know it's not the traditional family meet-the-parents situation. There won't be aunts and uncles and cousins. Just Mae Niran and the other kids at the orphanage. Some of them I grew up with, some are new. It's loud and chaotic and nothing like your family's estate."

Orm cupped Ling's face with both hands, forcing her to meet her eyes. "Baobao, do you really think I care about any of that?"

"I don't know. I just—" Ling's voice cracked slightly. "You came from this perfect family. Money, status, everything. And I came from nowhere. From nothing."

"Stop." Orm's voice was firm but loving. "You didn't come from nothing. You came from a woman who chose to raise you when she didn't have to. Who gave you everything she could. Who taught you to be the amazing person you are." She pressed her forehead to Ling's. "That's not nothing, Ling. That's everything."

Ling's eyes glistened with unshed tears. "You really want to meet her?"

"I really do. When can we go?"

"This weekend? If you're free?"

"I'll make myself free." Orm kissed her softly. "Thank you for telling me. For trusting me with this."

"I was scared," Ling admitted quietly. "Scared you'd see where I came from and think less of me."

"Never." Orm pulled her into a tight embrace. "I could never think less of you. If anything, I'm in awe of you even more than before."

They held each other in the quiet of their apartment, Orm's mind already racing with questions she wanted to ask but knew she should wait to voice. Ling had shared something deeply personal, something she clearly kept hidden from the world.

And Orm would honor that trust with everything she had.

The bus ride from Bangkok to Kalasin took six hours.

Orm had offered to rent a car, but Ling insisted on taking the bus—"It's what I always do," she'd said simply. So they sat side by side on the worn seats, Orm's head resting on Ling's shoulder as the city gradually gave way to countryside.

"Tell me about Kalasin," Orm said as they passed rice fields stretching toward the horizon.

Ling's expression softened. "It's quiet. Not like Bangkok. There's a market every weekend where Mae Niran would take us to sell vegetables from the orphanage garden. And there's this silk weaving village nearby called Ban Tha Sawan, where they make the most beautiful pha khao ma."

"Did you learn to weave?"

"A little. I wasn't very good at it." Ling smiled at the memory. "Mae Niran said I didn't have the patience. I was always too focused on planning the next thing to enjoy the process."

"Some things never change," Orm teased gently.

As they got closer, Ling pointed out landmarks through the window. "That's where I used to catch frogs with the other kids. And that temple…  The one with the golden chedi? That's where they found me."

Orm studied the temple as they passed. It looked ancient and peaceful, surrounded by trees. She tried to imagine a two-year-old Ling there, alone and abandoned, and her chest tightened with emotion.

"Do you ever wonder about them?" Orm asked quietly. "Your birth parents?"

"Sometimes." Ling's voice was distant. "Mostly I wonder why. Why they left me. If they regretted it. If they ever thought about me." She shrugged. "But Mae Niran always said those questions would drive me crazy if I let them. Better to focus on the family I have than the one I don't."

"She sounds wise."

"She is."

The bus finally pulled into Kalasin's small station. As they stepped off, Orm noticed the difference immediately—the air was cleaner, less humid than Bangkok. The pace was slower. People walked instead of rushed.

"It's beautiful," Orm said, taking it all in.

"Wait until you see the sunset over Phu Phan. Best view in Thailand." Ling grabbed their bags, then held out her hand. "Come on. The orphanage is about twenty minutes from here."

They hired a songthaew, a red pickup truck taxi that took them through winding roads lined with tamarind trees. Orm watched Ling's face transform as they drove, tension melting away, replaced by something peaceful. This was home for her in a way Bangkok never would be.

The orphanage appeared suddenly around a bend. It is a modest compound with a main house painted cheerful yellow, surrounded by smaller buildings and a large garden. Children's laughter echoed across the yard, and Orm could see laundry hanging on lines, toys scattered in the grass, and a vegetable patch that looked lovingly tended.

It looked lived-in. Loved.

Before they even reached the gate, a woman emerged from the main house.

She was in her sixties, Orm guessed, with silver-streaked hair pulled back in a neat bun and wearing a simple cotton shirt and pha sin. Her face was lined but kind, her posture straight and commanding. When she saw Ling, her entire expression transformed.

"Ling!" She called out in rapid Thai. "You didn't tell me you were bringing someone!"

"Mae Niran," Ling called back, breaking into a smile that Orm had never seen before, completely unguarded, childlike in its joy. "I wanted to surprise you."

They reached the gate, and Mae Niran immediately pulled Ling into a tight embrace, muttering half-scolding, half-loving words in Thai too fast for Orm to follow. Then she turned her sharp gaze on Orm.

"And who is this pretty girl?"

"This is Orm," Ling said, slipping back into formal Thai. "My girlfriend."

If Mae Niran was surprised by the word ‘girlfriend’ she didn't show it. She simply looked Orm up and down with an assessing gaze that made Orm feel like she was being evaluated for worthiness.

"Orm," Mae Niran repeated. "From Bangkok?"

"Yes, Khun Mae." Orm gave a respectful wai, hands pressed together. "Thank you for allowing me to visit."

"Hmm." Mae Niran's lips twitched. "Well, you're polite at least. That's something." She turned back to Ling. "Come inside, both of you. The children are doing homework but they'll want to see you."

As they entered the main house, Orm took in everything. The worn but clean furniture, the photographs covering nearly every wall, the smell of jasmine rice cooking somewhere. It was modest but full of warmth.

Children began appearing from doorways. Some were young, barely school-age. Others were teenagers. They all lit up when they saw Ling.

"Phi Ling!"

"You're back!"

"Did you bring us anything from Bangkok?"

Ling laughed as she was swarmed, ruffling hair and accepting hugs. "Yes, I brought things. But homework first, presents later."

A chorus of groans followed.

Orm watched, transfixed. This was a side of Ling she'd never seen—playful, completely at ease, switching effortlessly between stern older sister and gentle caretaker. With one of the younger children, a girl who couldn't be more than six, Ling crouched down to her level and listened intently as the girl chattered about her drawing class.

"She was always good with the young ones," Mae Niran said quietly beside Orm. "Even when she was small herself, she'd look after the others. Make sure they finished their homework, that they ate their vegetables." A pause. "She never needed looking after herself though. From the day I brought her here, she was independent. Stubborn. Determined to need no one."

Orm glanced at the older woman. "She mentioned you taught her Cantonese."

"Her father's language, we assumed. I had a friend in Bangkok who spoke it and he would visit once a month to teach her. I didn't want her to lose that connection, even if she never found her family." Mae Niran's expression grew distant. "She was always so serious, even as a child. Like she carried the weight of the world. I tried to get her to play more, to be carefree. But Ling—" She shook her head fondly. "Ling always had a plan. Always thinking three steps ahead."

"She still does," Orm said softly.

"And now she has you." Mae Niran turned her full attention on Orm, those sharp eyes missing nothing. "Tell me, girl from Bangkok, what are your intentions with my daughter?"

Orm's eyes widened. "I—I love her. Very much."

"That's not what I asked."

Orm swallowed. Mae Niran was intimidating in a way that had nothing to do with wealth or status and everything to do with quiet authority. "I intend to make her happy. To support her. To be worthy of the trust she's placed in me."

"Hmm." Mae Niran studied her for another long moment. Then, surprisingly, she smiled. "Good answer. If you'd said something flowery about forever or destiny, I would have known you were lying."

Before Orm could respond, Ling returned, having successfully redirected the children back to their homework.

"Mae, stop interrogating her," Ling said, though there was affection in her voice.

"I'm not interrogating. I'm getting to know her." Mae Niran patted Orm's hand. "She'll do, Ling. She has a good heart."

Ling's cheeks colored slightly. "I know she does."

"Now, both of you must be hungry from your journey. Come, I made gaeng om—Ling's favorite."

As they sat down to dinner in the modest dining room, surrounded by children of all ages, Orm felt something shift in her understanding of Ling. This place, these people… They had shaped the woman she loved. The careful planning, the independence, the quiet strength… All of it made sense now.

After dinner, as the children dispersed to finish evening chores, Mae Niran pulled out photo albums.

"Oh no," Ling muttered, but she was smiling.

"Oh yes," Mae Niran countered. "Your girlfriend should see what you were like as a child."

Orm scooted closer as Mae Niran opened the first album. The photos were old, some slightly faded, but each one was labeled with careful handwriting.

There was young Ling, maybe five years old, scowling at the camera with arms crossed. "She hated pictures," Mae Niran explained.

Another photo showed Ling at seven or eight, helping a smaller child tie their shoes, her face serious and focused.

"That's Nong Som," Ling said quietly. "She got adopted by a family in Khon Kaen when she was nine."

"You cried for three days," Mae Niran added. "You were so happy for her but so sad to lose your friend."

More photos followed; Ling at ten, standing proud next to a science fair project. At twelve, performing in a school play, looking uncomfortable in a costume. At fifteen, accepting some kind of academic award with that same serious expression.

"You were always so accomplished," Orm said softly. "Even then."

"I had to be." Ling's voice was quiet. "Mae Niran always said education was the only way out. That if I worked hard enough, I could make something of myself despite where I came from."

"And you did." Mae Niran closed the album, her hand resting on top. "You made yourself into someone I'm very proud of."

Ling's eyes glistened. "Mae..."

"I mean it. You could have been angry, bitter about being left here. Instead, you took every opportunity and turned it into something beautiful." She glanced at Orm. "And now you have love too. That's all I ever wanted for you, child. To be happy."

Orm reached over and squeezed Ling's hand under the table.

That night, they stayed in Ling's old room, a  small space that now housed two younger children but had once been hers alone. The children had been temporarily moved to another room, much to their excitement about the ‘adventure.’

As they lay together on the narrow bed, squeezed close by necessity, Orm traced patterns on Ling's arm.

"Thank you for bringing me here," she whispered.

"Thank you for wanting to come."

"She's wonderful. Mae Niran."

"She is." Ling was quiet for a moment. "I never told you before because I didn't know how you'd react. Growing up in an orphanage… It's not exactly the glamorous background you'd expect from someone dating a girl from a wealthy family."

Orm propped herself up on one elbow, looking down at Ling in the darkness. "Is that what you think? That I care about backgrounds and money and status?"

"I don't know. Maybe? Your parents certainly will."

"My parents are—" Orm stopped, pain flickering across her face. "They're not here. You are. And Ling, seeing where you came from, meeting Mae Niran, watching you with those kids—" Her voice grew thick with emotion. "It makes me love you even more. You built yourself from nothing. You created your own strength, your own path. That's incredible."

"I wasn't alone," Ling said softly. "Mae Niran helped. All the other kids helped. We were a family, even if we weren't related by blood."

"Exactly." Orm lay back down, curling into Ling's side. "Family isn't about DNA or money or any of that. It's about choosing to love people. Choosing to stay. Mae Niran chose you. Those kids chose you. And I—" She pressed a kiss to Ling's shoulder. "I choose you too."

Ling's arms tightened around her. "I choose you too."

They fell asleep like that, wrapped around each other in the narrow bed, while outside crickets chirped and the night air carried the scent of jasmine through the open window.

***

Morning came early at the orphanage. Orm woke to the sound of children laughing, pots clanging in the kitchen, and Mae Niran's voice calling out instructions. Beside her, Ling was already awake, watching her with soft eyes.

"Morning," Orm mumbled.

"Morning." Ling brushed a strand of hair from Orm's face. "Ready for the grand tour?"

After breakfast was served, rice porridge with eggs and pickled vegetables, shared at a long table with a dozen children, Ling borrowed Mae Niran's old motorcycle.

"You know how to ride this?" Orm asked, eyeing the vehicle dubiously.

"Learned when I was fourteen. Mae Niran needed someone to run errands in town." Ling patted the seat behind her. "Come on, I'll show you my Kalasin."

Orm climbed on behind her, wrapping her arms around Ling's waist. As they pulled out of the orphanage gates, she rested her cheek against Ling's back and smiled.

Their first stop was Kalasin town market, a sprawling maze of stalls selling everything from fresh produce to handmade crafts. Ling navigated the crowds with ease, greeting vendors by name.

"Phi Ling! You're back!" A woman selling silk called out.

"Just visiting, Auntie Nam," Ling called back with a grin.

"Is this your girlfriend?" The woman switched to a stage whisper that everyone could hear. "She's beautiful! About time you found someone!"

Ling's ears turned red as Orm laughed. They wandered through the market, Ling pointing out stalls where she used to help Mae Niran sell vegetables, the corner where she'd first learned to bargain for prices, the dessert stand that made the best kanom krok in all of Thailand.

"We have to try some," Ling insisted, pulling Orm toward the stand.

They sat on plastic stools, eating the coconut-rice pancakes hot off the griddle. Orm watched Ling's face transform with nostalgia.

"This was my favorite treat," Ling explained. "Mae Niran would bring us here once a month if we'd all been good. I'd always try to save mine for later, make it last."

"You? Delaying gratification? Shocking," Orm teased.

"I was a very disciplined child."

"You're a very disciplined adult."

Ling bumped her shoulder. "You love it."

"I do," Orm agreed softly, and the look they shared made the market vendor coo at them.

Next, Ling took them to Phu Kao-Phu Phan Kham National Park. They hiked up to a viewpoint, the trail winding through dry forest until suddenly they emerged onto a rocky outcrop overlooking endless green.

"This is where I'd come," Ling said quietly, sitting on a boulder. "When the orphanage felt too crowded, when I needed to think. I'd hike up here and just... breathe."

Orm sat beside her, taking in the view. "Did you come here often?"

"Every few weeks, at least. Sometimes I'd bring a book, sometimes just my thoughts." Ling picked up a small rock, turning it over in her hands. "I used to imagine my birth parents… About where they might be, what they might be doing. I'd make up stories about why they left me. Some days they were heroes who had no choice. Other days they were villains."

"And now?"

"Now I think they were probably just people. Scared people who made a hard choice." Ling tossed the rock over the edge, watching it disappear into the valley below. "I used to be so angry about it. Angry that I didn't have what other kids had. A mother who tucked me in, a father who taught me to ride a bike. But Mae Niran taught me that family isn't about biology. It's about who shows up."

Orm took her hand. "She showed up for you."

"Every single day." Ling's voice was thick. "She didn't have to. She could have just run the orphanage, kept it professional. But she made sure we knew we were loved. That we mattered."

"You do matter," Orm said firmly. "To her, to those kids, to me. You matter so much, Ling."

Ling turned to look at her, eyes bright with unshed tears. "How did I get so lucky? To have Mae Niran, to have this place, and now to have you?"

"I'm the lucky one," Orm whispered, leaning in to kiss her softly. 

They sat on that outcrop for an hour, wrapped in each other's arms, watching clouds drift across the sky. When they finally hiked back down, Ling seemed lighter, like she'd shed some weight she'd been carrying.

Their last stop was the temple where Ling had been found.

Orm hadn't expected Ling to bring her there, and when they pulled up on the motorcycle, she felt Ling's entire body tense.

"You don't have to—" Orm started.

"I want to." Ling climbed off the bike, helping Orm down. "I haven't been back here in years. But I think... I think I need to show you."

The temple was quiet in the afternoon heat. A few monks moved about their duties, and an elderly woman was sweeping the courtyard. Ling led Orm to a specific spot—a covered area near the main hall with stone benches.

"Here," Ling said simply. "This is where they found me."

Orm looked around. It was peaceful, shaded by a large bodhi tree. She tried to imagine someone leaving a toddler here, walking away, and her heart broke a little.

"The abbot told Mae Niran that I was sleeping when he found me in the morning. Wrapped in a blanket with a stuffed rabbit." Ling's voice was carefully neutral. "Mae Niran kept the rabbit. It's still in her room."

"Do you remember any of it?"

"No. I was too young." Ling sat on one of the stone benches. "Sometimes I wonder if that's better. Not remembering the before."

Orm sat beside her. "What do you want to do while we're here?"

"I don't know." Ling looked up at the temple, at the Buddha statue visible through the open doors. "Make peace with it, maybe? Stop wondering about the what-ifs?"

"You don't have to do that today. Or ever, if you don't want to."

"I know." Ling took a deep breath. "But maybe it's time. I spent so much of my life trying to control everything, plan everything, because I couldn't control or plan where I came from. But you—" She turned to Orm. "You've taught me that it's okay to let go sometimes. That not everything needs to be figured out."

Orm rested her head on Ling's shoulder. "You've taught me things too. About strength, resilience. About building yourself up from nothing."

They sat in comfortable silence for a while. Eventually, Ling stood and walked to the main hall. Orm watched as she knelt, lit incense sticks, and pressed her hands together in prayer. She stayed like that for several minutes, and when she finally stood, her eyes were red but her expression was peaceful.

"Ready?" Ling asked when she returned.

"Ready," Orm confirmed.

As they rode back to the orphanage, the sun beginning to set, Orm held Ling a little tighter. She understood now—why Ling was so careful, so controlled, so determined to never be vulnerable. She'd built those walls to survive.

And somehow, Orm had been allowed inside them.

Dinner at the orphanage that night was a celebration. Mae Niran had cooked Ling’s favorite dishes, and the children were in high spirits, performing songs and skits they’d prepared as a surprise.

Orm sat beside Ling, watching her laugh freely at the children’s antics. Mae Niran caught her eye from across the table and smiled knowingly.

After the younger children were put to bed, Orm found herself alone with Mae Niran on the front porch while Ling helped the older kids with homework inside.

“She’s different with you,” Mae Niran said without preamble.

Orm glanced at her. “Different how?”

“Softer. Less guarded.” The older woman rocked slowly in her chair. “When Ling was young, she built walls so high I worried no one would ever get through them. She thought if she didn’t need anyone, she couldn’t be hurt again.”

“But she let you in,” Orm pointed out.

“That took years. And even then, she never fully let herself depend on me. Always had a backup plan, always kept part of herself locked away.” Mae Niran turned to look at Orm directly. “But with you, I see her walls coming down. That terrifies her, I think. But she’s doing it anyway.”

Orm’s throat tightened. “I would never hurt her.”

“Not intentionally, no. But loving someone… Truly loving them means you have the power to hurt them. That’s what makes it brave.” Mae Niran’s voice was gentle. “You’re brave too, child. I saw it in your eyes yesterday. You come from a different world than Ling, but you chose to see her.”

Orm looked away, thinking about her own family back in Bangkok. Her father’s rigid expectations. The weight of tradition and reputation that hung over everything. The secret she was keeping from everyone.

“Love isn’t always easy,” Mae Niran continued, as if sensing Orm’s thoughts. “Sometimes it requires sacrifices we never imagined we’d have to make. But the question is always—is the person worth it?”

Orm turned back to look through the window at Ling, who was patiently helping a young boy with his homework, her face soft with concentration and care.

“She is,” Orm said quietly. “She’s worth everything.”

“Good.” Mae Niran reached over and patted her hand. “Then you’ll understand something important. Ling has spent her whole life believing she had to earn love. That she had to be perfect, accomplished, useful to be worthy of it. You need to teach her that she’s enough just as she is.”

“I’m trying,” Orm whispered.

“I know. And it’s working.” Mae Niran smiled. “The fact that she brought you here, showed you where she came from—that’s not something she’s ever done before. She’s never brought anyone home, not in all these years. You’re the first.”

“Really?”

“Really.” Mae Niran’s expression grew serious. “So don’t take that lightly, girl from Bangkok. My daughter and yes, she’s my daughter in every way that matters has given you her heart. That’s the most precious thing she has to give.”

“I know,” Orm said, voice thick. “I’ll take care of it. I promise.”

“See that you do.”

They sat in companionable silence until Ling emerged from inside, looking between them suspiciously.

“What are you two talking about?”

“Nothing,” Mae Niran said innocently. “Just getting to know your girlfriend better.”

Ling’s eyes narrowed. “Mae…”

“Don’t Mae me. Come here, child.” When Ling approached, Mae Niran pulled her down to press a kiss to her forehead. “I’m proud of you. For building the life you have. For finding love. For being brave enough to bring her here.”

Ling’s eyes glistened. “Thank you. For everything. For raising me, for loving me when I wasn’t easy to love—”

“Hush. You were always easy to love. You just didn’t believe it.” Mae Niran shooed them both away. “Now go. Enjoy your last evening. Tomorrow you’ll go back to Bangkok and your busy lives. Tonight, just be young and in love.”

They walked hand in hand through the orphanage grounds. Most of the lights were out, just a few solar lamps illuminating the paths. Above them, stars glittered in a way they never did in Bangkok.

“Your Mae Niran is incredible,” Orm said as they reached the garden.

“She is.” Ling pulled Orm down to sit on a wooden bench beneath a jasmine tree. “I wouldn’t be who I am without her.”

“I’m grateful to her. For raising you, for making you into the woman I love.”

They kissed softly, sweetly, surrounded by the scent of jasmine and the sounds of the countryside at night.

“Thank you,” Ling whispered against Orm’s lips. “For not running away when you found out about my past. For meeting Mae Niran and the kids. For seeing where I came from and not loving me less for it.”

“Ling.” Orm cupped her face. “I could never love you less. If anything, knowing your story makes me love you more. You’re the strongest person I’ve ever met.”

“I don’t feel strong right now,” Ling admitted. “I feel scared. Scared that this is too good to be true. That I’ll wake up and you’ll be gone.”

“I’m not going anywhere.” Orm pressed their foreheads together, even as guilt twisted in her stomach—guilt for the secret she was keeping, for the family back home who didn’t know about Ling, who could never know. “I’m here. I’m real. And I’m yours for as long as you’ll have me.”

“Forever then,” Ling said, only half-joking.

“Forever sounds perfect.”

They stayed in the garden until late, talking about everything and nothing, making plans for the future, dreaming out loud. When they finally went inside, Orm pushed away thoughts of her father’s expectations, her family’s traditions, the life she was supposed to be living.

For tonight, she could just be here. With Ling. And that would be enough.

***

The next morning, as they prepared to leave, Mae Niran pressed a package into Ling’s hands.

“Kanom krok from the market,” she explained. “And some of the chili paste you love. Don’t forget to eat properly in Bangkok.”

“I won’t, Mae.”

“And you.” Mae Niran turned to Orm. “Take care of her. She acts tough but she’s soft inside. Like a coconut—hard shell, sweet center.”

Orm laughed, fighting back unexpected tears. “I will. I promise.”

Mae Niran pulled them both into a hug. “Come back soon. Both of you. The children already adore you, Orm. They want you to teach them that cheerleading routine you mentioned.”

“I’d love to,” Orm managed.

As they rode away on the songthaew, Orm watched Ling wave until the orphanage disappeared from view. When Ling turned back around, there were tears streaming down her face, but she was smiling.

“Thank you,” she said again. “For coming with me. For understanding.”

Orm kissed her temple, ignoring the weight settling in her chest. The knowledge that her own family would never understand this, could never accept it. “Thank you for letting me in.”

On the bus ride back to Bangkok, Orm thought about everything she’d learned. About Ling’s past, her fears, her strength. About Mae Niran’s quiet wisdom and the children’s unconditional love. About what family really meant.

She looked at Ling, who had fallen asleep against her shoulder, and felt a surge of love so powerful it almost hurt.

This woman… This incredible, strong, vulnerable woman had chosen to love her. Had brought her into the most precious, sacred parts of her life.

And Orm would spend the rest of her life trying to be worthy of that trust.

Even if it meant living a double life. Even if it meant keeping Ling a secret from her own family.

Even if it meant choosing between the two halves of her heart.

***

Year 2019

Orm had been staring at her phone for twenty minutes.

Ling noticed from the kitchen, where she was making coffee. It wasn’t unusual as Orm often got lost scrolling through social media but something about her posture was wrong. Too still. Too rigid.

“Baby, coffee’s ready,” Ling called.

No response.

Ling walked over, setting the mug on the table. “Orm?”

Orm’s hands were trembling. On the screen was a message from her brother: 

Att: Dad knows. He saw you two together at the mall. He’s furious. Mom and I tried to calm him down but he wouldn't listen. I’m sorry, Phi. I’m so sorry.

“He knows,” Orm whispered. “My father knows about us.”

Orm sat in her childhood home’s living room, feeling like a stranger.

Her father stood by the window, back rigid, refusing to look at her. Her mother sat beside her on the couch, holding her hand tightly. Her younger brother hovered in the doorway, face drawn with worry.

“Two years,” her father finally spoke, voice cold. “Two years you’ve been lying to us. Sneaking around. Bringing shame to this family.”

“I wasn’t bringing shame—”

“You were!” He whirled around, face red with anger. “Do you know what people will say? What they’re already saying? I saw you with that woman at the mall. Holding hands. Laughing. Like you weren’t destroying everything I’ve built for this family!”

“Sunan,” her mother interjected softly. “Please, let her explain—”

“Explain what? That our daughter has been deceiving us? That she’s been living a life we don’t even recognize?”

“I’m still your daughter,” Orm said, voice shaking. “I’m still the same person—”

“No, you’re not.” His words cut like glass. “The daughter I raised would never have done this. Would never have chosen… that… over her family.”

“That is Ling,” Orm said, standing up, anger finally breaking through her fear. “Her name is Ling. And I love her.”

“Love.” Her father spat the word like poison. “You don’t know what love is. This is a phase. A rebellion. And it ends now.”

“It’s not a phase!”

“Then you leave me no choice.” He straightened his shoulders, and Orm saw it. Saw him building the wall, brick by brick. “If you continue this relationship, you are no longer my daughter. You will leave this house. You will change your name. You will have nothing to do with this family.”

“Sunan, no—” Her mother stood, tears streaming down her face. “You can’t mean that—”

“I do.” He didn’t waver. “She chooses. Her family or that woman.”

The room fell silent.

Orm looked at her mother, at her brother. Both of them crying now, both of them shaking their heads. Her brother mouthed I’m sorry, his face twisted with guilt and helplessness.

“I love you both,” Orm said to them, voice breaking. “Mom, Att—I love you so much. But I can’t—” She turned back to her father. “I can’t live a lie. I can’t pretend to be someone I’m not just to make you comfortable.”

“Then you’ve made your choice.”

“No, you made it for me!” The words burst out of her, two years of secrets and fear and shame finally erupting. “I didn’t want to choose! I wanted my family and the woman I love! But you’re forcing me to pick!”

Her father’s expression didn’t change. “Then pick.”

Orm looked at her mother one more time. Her mother who had held her through nightmares as a child, who had taught her to cook, who had braided her hair before school every morning. Her mother who was now crying so hard she could barely breathe.

“I’m sorry,” Orm whispered. “I’m so, so sorry.”

She walked out of the house, her mother’s sobs following her down the driveway.

Orm came home late.

Ling was reading on the couch, trying not to watch the clock, trying not to worry. When the door finally opened, she looked up with relief.

“Hey, I was starting to—”

The words died in her throat.

Orm stood in the doorway, face blotchy and red, eyes swollen from crying. She looked devastated. Broken in a way Ling had never seen before.

“Orm.” Ling was on her feet instantly. “What happened? Are you hurt?”

“He found out.” Orm’s voice was barely a whisper. “My father. He saw us at the mall last week. He… he found out about us.”

Ling’s stomach dropped. “Your father? But I thought—you never told me—”

“I didn’t tell anyone.” Orm’s laugh was bitter, broken. “I kept you a secret for two years. I lied to my family every single day because I was too scared to tell them the truth.”

“Orm—”

“He said I was bringing shame to the family. That I was destroying everything he’d built.” Fresh tears spilled over. “He said if I don’t leave you, I’m no longer his daughter.”

“No.” Ling crossed the room in three strides, pulling Orm into her arms. “No, he can’t—”

“He did.” Orm clung to her, shaking. “He cut me off. Told me to leave the house. To change my name. Like I never existed.”

“What about your mother? Your brother?”

“They were crying. My mom—” Orm’s voice broke completely. “My mom tried to stop him but he wouldn’t listen. And my brother, he was so sorry, so helpless. They don’t agree with my father but they can’t go against him. He’s too… he’s too powerful in our family.”

Ling held her tighter, her own eyes burning with tears. “I’m so sorry. God, Orm, I’m so sorry.”

“It’s not your fault.”

“Isn’t it?” Guilt crushed Ling’s chest. “If you weren’t with me, you’d still have your family. You’d still—”

“Don’t.” Orm pulled back, meeting Ling’s eyes with fierce determination despite her tears. “Don’t you dare blame yourself. I chose this. I chose you. Even knowing what it might cost.”

“You kept me a secret for two years.”

“Because I was scared!” Orm’s hands fisted in Ling’s shirt. “I was terrified of losing you and terrified of losing them. I thought if I could just keep the two parts of my life separate, I wouldn’t have to choose. But I was wrong. I was so wrong.”

“Orm…”

“I love you.” The words came out desperate, raw. “I love you more than anything. And I’m not giving that up for a father who can’t see past his own pride.”

Ling cupped Orm’s face in both hands. “You don’t have to make this decision right now. We can… We can figure something out. Talk to your father again when he’s calmed down—”

“There’s nothing to figure out. I already made my choice.” Orm’s eyes were red but resolute. “I chose you. The moment I walked out of that house, I chose you.”

“Even if it means never seeing your mother again? Your brother?”

Orm’s face crumpled. “My mother said she’ll find a way to contact me. She whispered it when she hugged me goodbye. And Att promised to call when father isn’t around. They don’t agree with this. They want me in their lives.”

“But your father—”

“My father is a stubborn man who values reputation over his own daughter’s happiness.” Bitterness crept into Orm’s voice. “Maybe one day he’ll change. Maybe he’ll realize what he’s losing. But I can’t wait for that day. I can’t put my life on hold hoping he’ll accept me.”

They sank onto the couch together, Orm crying into Ling’s shoulder while Ling held her, whispering promises and reassurances, even as dread settled in her stomach like lead.

Because she could see it already, the weight was already settling onto Orm’s shoulders. The grief that would come in waves. The moments when Orm would wake up reaching for a family that was no longer fully there.

“You still have your mother and brother,” Ling said quietly. “It’s not the same as before, but you haven’t lost them completely.”

“I know.” Orm’s voice was muffled against Ling’s neck. “But I lost my father. And that—” A sob caught in her throat. “That hurts more than I thought it would.”

They held each other for a long time, Orm’s tears soaking through Ling’s shirt, Ling’s own tears falling into Orm’s hair.

“I’ll make this right,” Ling promised silently. “Whatever it takes, I’ll make sure you never regret choosing me.”

But even as she made the promise, she wondered if such a thing was possible.

***

Three weeks later

The apartment felt different now.

Ling couldn't pinpoint exactly when it changed. Maybe after the first time Orm snapped at her over nothing. Or after the third sleepless night when Orm woke up crying and wouldn't say why. Or maybe it was the morning Ling woke up and Orm was already awake, staring at the ceiling with hollow eyes.

The grief was eating her alive.

And Ling didn't know how to help.

"Did you eat?" Ling asked carefully one evening, watching Orm push food around her plate.

"Not hungry."

"You need to eat something. You've barely touched anything all day."

"I said I'm not hungry." Orm's tone was sharp, defensive.

Ling bit back her response. She tried again. "I made your favorite—"

"Why do you keep doing that?" Orm set down her fork with more force than necessary. "Making my favorite things, hovering, asking if I'm okay every five seconds? I'm fine."

"You're not fine."

"So now you're telling me how I feel?"

"I'm worried about you."

"Well, don't be." Orm stood abruptly, chair scraping against the floor. "I don't need you to fix me, Ling."

"I'm not trying to fix you, I'm trying to—"

"To what? Make yourself feel better? Make yourself feel less guilty?"

Ling recoiled like she'd been slapped. "That's not fair."

"Isn't it?" Orm's eyes flashed with something Ling had never seen before. resentment. "You get to have your perfect family who loves and accepts you no matter what. Meanwhile, I lost mine. So excuse me if I'm not doing a great job of pretending everything's okay."

"I never asked you to pretend—"

"You didn't have to ask! It's written all over your face every time you look at me. You feel sorry for me. You pity me."

"That's not true."

"Then what is it?" Orm's voice cracked. "Because some days I can feel you looking at me like I'm going to break. And maybe I am breaking, Ling. Maybe I'm fucking broken. But I don't need you to save me!"

The silence that followed was deafening.

Ling stood frozen, her carefully prepared dinner growing cold between them, her heart hammering against her ribs.

"I don't think you're broken," she said quietly. "I think you're hurting. And I think you won't let me help because you're scared that if you lean on me, you'll fall apart completely."

Orm's face crumpled. "I can't—I can't fall apart. If I do, I might not come back together."

"Then I'll hold the pieces," Ling whispered. "Until you're ready."

But Orm just shook her head, grabbing her jacket from the back of her chair. "I need air."

She left.

The door clicked shut softly and somehow worse than if she'd slammed it.

Ling sank into her chair, staring at the untouched dinner, and finally let herself cry.

That Night, 2 AM

Orm came home to find Ling asleep on the couch, still dressed, tear tracks dried on her cheeks.

Guilt crashed over her in waves.

She'd been cruel. Lashing out at the one person who'd never hurt her, who'd only ever loved her with everything she had.

I'm destroying us, Orm realized with sudden, terrible clarity. I'm pushing her away because I don't know how to deal with losing them.

She knelt beside the couch, gently brushing hair from Ling's face.

"I'm sorry," she whispered, even though Ling couldn't hear. "I'm so sorry, baobao. You don't deserve this."

Ling stirred slightly, eyes fluttering open. "You came back."

"Of course I came back." Orm's voice broke. "Where else would I go?"

"I don't know anymore." Ling sat up slowly, rubbing her eyes. "You've been somewhere else for weeks. Somewhere I can't reach."

"I know." Orm took Ling's hands in hers. "I know I've been awful. I've been taking my pain out on you and that's not fair. You've only ever tried to help and I just keep—"

"Pushing me away," Ling finished softly.

"Yeah."

They sat in silence for a moment, hands clasped, the weight of everything unsaid pressing down on them.

"I miss them," Orm finally admitted. "I miss my mother's voice. My father's stupid jokes. I miss family dinners and holidays and—" Her voice cracked. "I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere."

"You belong here. With me."

"I know. Logically, I know that. But sometimes—" Orm swallowed hard. "Sometimes I wake up and for a second I forget. I reach for my phone to call my dad about something stupid and then I remember. He’s not there anymore. He chose his pride over me."

Ling pulled her close, and this time Orm didn't resist. She collapsed into Ling's arms, finally letting herself break.

"I've got you," Ling murmured, holding her tight. "I've got you."

They stayed like that until sunrise, two broken girls clinging to each other, hoping love would be enough to put the pieces back together.

***

Late 2019, The promise

The jewelry store felt too bright, too clean, too full of promises Ling wasn't sure she could keep.

She stood in front of the display case, hands shoved deep in her pockets, staring at rows of rings that all looked the same. Too expensive, too flashy, too much.

None of them were right.

None of them were Orm.

"Can I help you find something?" The saleswoman approached with a professional smile. "Engagement ring?"

"No. Not exactly." Ling's throat felt tight. "Something simpler. A promise."

The woman's expression softened with understanding. She moved to a different case, pulling out a velvet tray of simpler bands.

"What kind of promise?"

That I'll never leave. That I'll love her through the hard parts. That even when she's drowning in grief and lashing out and pushing me away, I'll stay.

"That I'm not going anywhere," Ling said quietly.

The woman studied her for a moment, then reached for a ring at the end of the display. Simple silver band. Delicate. A tiny heart engraved on the inside, barely visible.

"This one," she said, placing it in Ling's palm. "It's called 'Always.'"

Ling's fingers closed around the ring. It was perfect. It was completely understated but meaningful, exactly like the love she wanted to give Orm.

"I'll take it."

Later, sitting in her car with the small velvet box in her hands, Ling let herself imagine the moment. Orm's face when she saw it. The way she'd cry (because Orm always cried at meaningful things, even when she tried to hide it). The promise they'd make together.

This isn't forever, she told herself. This is just us holding on. Until the storm passes.

But as she drove home through Bangkok's chaotic traffic, the box felt heavier than it should.

Because she could feel it. The relationship is fraying at the edges. The distance growing between them despite sharing the same bed. The way Orm flinched sometimes when Ling touched her, like even love hurt too much.

Please, Ling thought desperately. Please let this be enough.

The Beach,  Sunset

"Why are we here?"

Orm stood at the railing overlooking the beach, wind whipping her hair around her face. The sun was setting in violent streaks of orange and pink, the ocean churning below.

Ling had driven them here without explanation, just grabbed Orm's hand and said, "Come with me."

"I needed to talk to you," Ling said, moving to stand beside her. "Away from the apartment. Away from everything."

Orm's expression was wary. "Are you breaking up with me?"

"What? No!" Ling turned to her, horrified. "God, no. The opposite, actually."

"Then what?"

Ling took a breath. Her hands were shaking. She'd rehearsed this a hundred times in her head, but now all the words felt wrong, inadequate.

"Things have been hard," she started. "Really hard. I know you're still hurting. I know you're angry at your father and sometimes you're angry at me too, even though you don't mean to be."

Orm looked away, shame flickering across her face. "Ling—"

"Wait. Let me finish." Ling gently took both of Orm's hands. "I know you think you're pushing me away. That you're being difficult and I'm going to get tired of fighting for us. But I need you to understand something."

She reached into her pocket, pulling out the small velvet box.

Orm's eyes went wide. "What is that?"

"It's not an engagement ring," Ling said quickly, opening the box to reveal the simple silver band. "Not yet. I know you're not ready for that, and that's okay. I don't want to pressure you into anything."

"Then what—"

"It's a promise ring." Ling's voice wavered. "A promise that I'm not giving up on us. That no matter how hard things get, no matter how much you push, I'm staying. I'm choosing you, Orm. Every single day."

Tears welled in Orm's eyes. "Why?"

"Because you chose me first." Ling's own eyes burned. "You gave up your family for me. You walked away from everything you knew because you loved me that much. And I—" Her voice broke. "I will never stop being grateful for that. I will never stop trying to be worthy of that choice."

"You don't owe me—"

"It's not about owing." Ling lifted the ring from the box. "It's about love. Real, messy, complicated love. The kind that doesn't run away when things get hard."

She took Orm's left hand, holding the ring poised at her finger.

"This is a promise that someday… When you're ready, when it feels right… I want to marry you. I want to build a life with you. I want to be your family, Orm. The one that doesn't walk away."

A sob escaped Orm's throat. "Baobao—"

"You sacrificed everything for us," Ling whispered, voice thick with emotion. "Your family, your comfort, the life they had planned for you. You gave it all up for a love the world still questions. And I see that. I see you. Every day, I see how brave you are."

She slid the ring onto Orm's finger slowly, reverently.

"So this ring is a promise. That I'll carry the weight with you. That you're not alone. That even on the days you hate yourself or hate me or hate everything—I'm still here. I'll always be here."

Ling lifted Orm's hand and pressed a kiss to her knuckles, right above the ring.

"For every time you feel alone," she murmured against Orm's skin, "look at this and remember that my heart is with you. Always."

Orm was openly crying now, tears streaming down her face as she stared at the ring. "I don't deserve you."

"You do," Ling said fiercely, cupping Orm's face and forcing her to meet her eyes. "You always have."

"I've been awful to you. I've said terrible things—"

"You've been in pain. There's a difference."

"But—"

"Orm." Ling rested her forehead against hers, their breath mingling in the salt air. "I know you. The real you. Not just the bright, shiny version everyone else sees. I know you're stubborn and you hate asking for help. I know you cry during sad commercials and you're terrified of being a burden. I know you think you have to be strong all the time."

She pulled back just enough to look into Orm's eyes.

"But you don't have to be strong with me. You can fall apart. You can be angry and sad and scared. And I'll still be here when the storm passes."

Orm launched herself at Ling, wrapping her arms around her neck so tightly Ling almost couldn't breathe. "I love you," she sobbed into Ling's shoulder. "I love you so much it terrifies me."

"I love you too." Ling held her close, one hand stroking her hair, the other pressed against her back. "More than anything."

They stood there as the sun dipped below the horizon, waves crashing below them, two souls clinging to each other against the tide.

When Orm finally pulled back, she looked at the ring on her finger, turning her hand to catch the last rays of sunlight.

"It's beautiful," she whispered.

"You're beautiful."

Orm laughed wetly, wiping her eyes. "I'm a mess."

"You're my mess." Ling kissed her forehead, then her nose, then her lips—soft and sweet and full of promise. "And I wouldn't have it any other way."

"Someday," Orm said quietly, staring at the ring. "When I'm better—when I've healed from all this—I'm going to say yes. To the real question."

Ling's heart soared. "Yeah?"

"Yeah." Orm met her eyes, and for the first time in months, there was light there. Hope. "Because you're right. You're my family now. And I want to make that official."

"I'll wait," Ling promised. "As long as it takes."

"I know you will." Orm took her hand, lacing their fingers together. "That's why I love you."

They walked back to the car hand in hand, Orm's new ring catching the moonlight, both of them feeling like maybe, just maybe… They could survive anything together.

***

Year 2020, Tenth year anniversary

"Where are we going?"

Orm looked beautiful in the passenger seat, dressed in the powder blue dress Ling had left on her side of the bed that morning with a note: Wear this tonight. Trust me.

"It's a surprise," Ling said, unable to stop smiling.

"You're being very mysterious, baobao."

"You'll see."

When they pulled up to the restaurant, Orm's expression shifted from confusion to shock to something that looked like she might cry.

"Ling... is this—"

"The same restaurant from our first unofficial date? Yeah." Ling got out, rounding the car to open Orm's door for her. "Ten years ago today, you fell into my arms in the hallway. I've never forgotten."

Orm stared at her. "You remembered the exact date?"

"I remember everything about you."

The restaurant was exactly as Ling remembered. The dim lighting, soft jazz playing, the scent of lemongrass and spices in the air. Their table was by the window, overlooking the ocean, with white lilies in a simple vase.

"Happy ten years," Ling said as they sat down.

"Ten years of what, exactly?" Orm asked, though she was smiling now, eyes bright with unshed tears.

"Since the day you literally crashed into my life and changed everything."

Orm reached across the table, taking Ling's hand. "You're such a secret romantic."

"Only with you."

Dinner was perfect. They shared pasta and seafood, fed each other bites of tiramisu, laughed about everything and nothing. Ling couldn't remember the last time Orm had looked this light, this happy.

The grief was still there, She could see it in the shadows behind Orm's eyes but tonight, love was louder.

After dinner, they walked barefoot on the beach, hand in hand, letting the waves wash over their feet.

"I wish we could stay like this forever," Orm said softly, leaning her head on Ling's shoulder.

Ling said nothing. Just squeezed her hand tighter and pressed a kiss to her temple.

They found an old bench facing the ocean and sat close, Orm curled against Ling's side.

"Dance with me," Ling said suddenly.

Orm lifted her head. "There's no music."

"There's enough." Ling stood, offering her hand.

So they danced. Slow and swaying, arms wrapped around each other, bare feet in the sand. The only music was the waves and their heartbeats and Orm's soft humming of a song Ling didn't recognize.

It was perfect.

It was everything.

***

They showered together, washing away salt and sand with gentle touches and soft kisses. Changed into their matching pajamas. The ridiculous ones Orm had insisted on buying months ago. Ling's with golden retrievers, Orm's with fluffy bunnies.

"I can't believe you still wear these," Orm giggled, tugging at Ling's shirt.

"You love them."

"I love you in them."

They fell into bed together, limbs tangling, hands exploring familiar territory with new reverence. They made love slowly, unhurried, every touch a promise, every kiss a prayer.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

Afterward, Orm fell asleep curled against Ling's chest, one hand splayed over her heart, the promise ring glinting in the moonlight streaming through their window.

Ling stayed awake, memorizing.

The way Orm's lashes rested against her cheeks. The tiny scar on her eyebrow from a childhood accident. The rhythm of her breathing. The warmth of her body pressed against Ling's.

This, Ling thought. This is what happiness feels like.

She pressed a kiss to Orm's forehead and whispered into the darkness: "Please don't ever leave me."

The words felt like a talisman. A prayer. A desperate plea to whatever force governed the universe.

Let me keep her. Just let me keep her.

She didn't know then how soon she'd lose her.

Didn't know that in two weeks, everything would fall apart.

Didn't know that this perfect night would become the memory she'd cling to in the darkness.

All she knew was this: Orm in her arms, safe and loved and hers.

For now, it was enough.

It had to be.

A month later

Ling was in the middle of a client presentation when her phone rang.

She ignored it. She never answered personal calls during work.

It rang again.

Then again.

Her colleague slipped into the room, face pale. "Sirilak, it's urgent."

Ling's stomach dropped. She excused herself, stepping into the hallway with shaking hands.

"Hello?"

"Miss Kwong?" A calm, professional voice. "This is Ramathibodi Hospital. Your partner, Orm Sethratanapong, has been admitted to the emergency department."

The world stopped.

"What? What happened?"

"She collapsed at work. Lost consciousness. She's stable now, but you should come immediately."

Ling didn't remember leaving the building. Didn't remember the taxi ride. Her mind was blank with terror, the nurse's words echoing endlessly:

Collapsed. Lost consciousness. Come immediately.

When she burst through the ER doors, a nurse directed her to the ICU. Through the glass partition, she saw Orm.

Hooked to monitors. IV lines snaking from her arms. Oxygen mask over her face. Skin pale as death.

She looked so small.

Ling's knees nearly gave out.

"Miss Kwong?"

She turned to find a doctor in a white coat, expression grave.

"What happened?" Her voice came out strangled. "Is she—is she going to be okay?"

"Let's sit down."

"I don't want to sit down!" Ling's voice cracked. "I want you to tell me what's wrong with her!"

The doctor's expression softened. "She has a cardiac myxoma. It's a rare tumor in her heart. Non-cancerous, but extremely dangerous."

The words didn't make sense. Tumor. Heart. Dangerous.

"I don't understand."

"The tumor has been growing, likely for years, without symptoms. Today it caused a transient ischemic attack—a mini stroke. She's lucky it wasn't worse."

Lucky. The word felt obscene.

"Can you remove it?" Ling demanded. "Surgery?"

"Yes. She needs open-heart surgery. Soon. Within days, if possible." The doctor paused. "Without it, the tumor could break off and cause a massive stroke or heart attack. She could die."

Die.

The word hit Ling like a physical blow.

"Then do the surgery. Whatever it costs, I'll pay. Just save her."

The doctor's expression turned sympathetic. "The surgery is expensive. Very expensive. I've printed out the details, but you should prepare yourself for the amount."

Later, sitting in the sterile hospital cafeteria with coffee she couldn't drink, Ling stared at the papers.

The number stared back at her, impossible and cruel.

Hundreds of thousands of baht.

More than she had. More than she could borrow. More than—

Think. There has to be a way.

She pulled out her phone, hands shaking, and started making calls. Her bank. Her savings. Possible loans. She calculated and recalculated, trying to make the numbers work.

Two weeks later

The hospital cafeteria had long since closed. Ling sat alone at a corner table, papers spread before her like evidence of her failure.

Bank statements. Loan rejections. Estimates she’d calculated and recalculated until the numbers blurred.

She’d sold her car last week, the BMW she’d bought with her first big bonus, the one that had made her feel like she’d finally made it. Gone for a fraction of what it was worth because she needed cash immediately.

Her jewelry. Her designer bags. The expensive watch her company had given her for closing a huge deal. All sold to pawn shops and secondhand dealers who knew desperation when they saw it.

She’d taken out every loan she could qualify for, maxed out credit cards, borrowed from colleagues who asked too many questions. She’d worked eighteen-hour days, taking every freelance project, every overtime shift, every opportunity to earn just a little more.

And still.

Still, it wasn’t enough.

The papers in front of her told the brutal truth: she was 300,000 baht short. Three hundred thousand that might as well be three million. The surgery was scheduled for five days from now—an emergency slot the surgeon had held because Orm’s condition was deteriorating rapidly.

But without full payment upfront, the hospital wouldn’t proceed.

Ling pressed the heels of her hands against her eyes until she saw stars.

There has to be something else I can sell. Something I’m missing.

But she’d already stripped her life bare. She was living in the hospital, sleeping in chairs outside Orm’s room, eating whatever the nurses brought her from the cafeteria. She’d moved out of their apartment to avoid rent, her few remaining possessions crammed into a storage unit she could barely afford.

She had nothing left to give.

Except—

The thought whispered through her mind like poison.

Orm’s family.

Ling pushed it away violently. No. Orm had been clear. After her father had disowned her, after she’d walked out of that house two years ago, there was no going back.

But she’s dying.

“No,” Ling whispered aloud. “She doesn’t want that. She’d never want that.”

But what Orm wanted and what Orm needed were becoming two different things.

Orm was awake when Ling returned to her room, though her eyes were glassy with exhaustion and medication. The monitors beeped steadily, tracking a heartbeat that could stop at any moment if that tumor decided to break free.

“Hey,” Orm managed, her speech slightly slurred. The doctors said that was from the mini-stroke… temporary, they hoped, but it terrified Ling every time she heard it. “You were gone for a while.”

“Just dealing with some paperwork.” Ling forced a smile, settling into the chair beside the bed. She picked up Orm’s hand, careful of the IV line. “How are you feeling?”

“Like I have a ticking time bomb in my chest.” Orm tried to laugh but it came out weak. “The nurse said the surgery is scheduled for Monday.”

“Yeah.” Ling’s throat tightened. “Monday morning. Dr. Somchai is the best cardiac surgeon in Thailand. You’re in good hands.”

Orm studied her face with eyes that saw too much, even dulled by medication. “You look terrible, baobao.”

“Thanks,” Ling said wryly.

“I’m serious. When’s the last time you slept? Actually slept, not just passed out in that chair.”

“I’m fine.”

“You’re not.” Orm’s fingers tightened weakly around Ling’s. “I know you’re working yourself to death trying to cover the costs. I can see it in your face. You’ve lost weight. Your hands shake.”

Ling tried to pull away but Orm held on.

Ling took a breath. This was it. The question she had to ask, even knowing what the answer would be.

“Orm,” she said carefully. “What if… what if I went to your family? Asked them for help?”

The change in Orm was immediate. Her entire body went rigid, her jaw clenching.

“No.”

“Just hear me out—”

“I said no.” Orm’s voice was sharp despite its weakness. “Absolutely not.”

“Your mother and Att, they still care about you. They could—”

“They’re under my father’s control.” Orm’s eyes flashed with something fierce—hurt and pride and old wounds reopened. “Even if they wanted to help, he’d never allow it. And I won’t—I won’t go crawling back to him after what he did.”

“But if it saves your life—”

“He disowned me, Ling!” Orm’s voice cracked. “He looked me in the eye and told me I was no longer his daughter. That I was bringing shame to his family. That I had to choose between you and them, and when I chose you—” Her breath hitched. “He threw me away like garbage.”

“I know,” Ling whispered. “I know what he did to you. But—”

“No buts.” Orm’s grip on her hand tightened with surprising strength. “Two years ago, I made a choice. I walked out of that house and I chose you. I chose us. And I don’t regret it, not for a second. But if you go to them now, if you beg my father for money after everything he said, everything he did—” Her voice broke completely. “It makes my choice meaningless.”

“Your life isn’t meaningless—”

“That’s not what I mean!” Tears spilled down Orm’s cheeks now. “Don’t you understand? I gave up my family for you. I lost my father, I can barely talk to my mother and brother, I lost everything I grew up with—and I did it willingly because I love you. Because you were worth it. Because we were worth it.”

She pulled Ling’s hand to her chest, pressing it against her heart—against the tumor that was slowly killing her.

“If you go to them now,” Orm continued, her voice raw with emotion, “if you make a deal with my father, if you let him be the one who saves me—then what was it all for? What did I sacrifice everything for if we just end up right back where we started, owing my family, under my father’s control?”

“But you’d be alive,” Ling said desperately. “Isn’t that what matters?”

“Not like that.” Orm shook her head fiercely. “Not if it means betraying everything I chose. Not if it means proving my father right! That I couldn’t survive without his money, without his approval, without his help.”

“Orm—”

“Promise me.” Orm’s eyes locked onto Ling’s, desperate and pleading. “Promise me you won’t go to my family. No matter what. I made a choice, choosing you over them. I need to know you respect that choice.”

The words stuck in Ling’s throat like shards of glass. Because how could she promise that? How could she let Orm die rather than swallow her pride and beg?

But Orm was looking at her with such desperate trust, such complete faith that Ling would honor her wishes.

“Promise me, Ling,” Orm repeated, her voice breaking. “Please. This is important to me. More important than anything.”

Ling stared at her—at the woman she’d loved for ten years, who had given up everything for her, who was now asking for one thing in return.

Trust. Respect. The dignity of her own choices.

“I promise,” Ling whispered, even as the lie burned on her tongue. “I won’t go to your family.”

Orm’s entire body sagged with relief. “Thank you,” she breathed. “Thank you, baobao. I know you’ll find another way. You always do.”

She pulled Ling down into a kiss—weak and desperate and tasting of tears and medication, but still them. Still love.

When they broke apart, Orm rested her forehead against Ling’s. “We’ll get through this,” she whispered. “Together. Like we always do.”

“Together,” Ling echoed, her heart shattering.

Because she’d just lied to the person she loved most in the world.

And in three days, she’d break that promise.

To save Orm’s life.

***

The cab ride to the Sethratanapong estate felt like driving to her own execution.

Ling sat in the back seat, hands clenched in her lap, heart hammering against her ribs.

I promised her I wouldn’t do this.

The thought circled endlessly in her mind, an accusation she couldn’t escape.

But what was a broken promise compared to Orm’s life?

The estate rose before her like a fortress. It’s tall iron gates, manicured gardens, stone lions guarding the entrance. This place had been Orm’s home once. Before they’d thrown her out for loving the wrong person.

The guard recognized her. His expression hardened.

“Miss. You’re not welcome here.”

“I need to speak with Mr. and Mrs. Sethratanapong. It’s urgent.”

“They don’t want to see you.”

“It’s about Orm.” Ling’s voice cracked. “Please. She’s dying.”

Something flickered in the guard’s expression. He made a call, spoke quietly, then stepped aside with obvious reluctance.

“Go to the main house.”

Ling’s legs felt like lead as she walked up the pristine stone path. A middle-aged, kind-faced maid answered the door and led her to the living room without a word.

The space was exactly as Orm described. The cold marble floors, expensive art on the walls, furniture that looked like it had never been sat on. Everything is perfect and lifeless.

Like a museum. Like a mausoleum.

Nothing like the warm apartment she and Orm had 

shared, with its mismatched furniture and photos on the walls and the couch that had molded to their shapes.

Footsteps.

Ling turned as Orm’s mother entered first, silk shawl wrapped around her shoulders. Her eyes widened in shock when she saw Ling.

“Ling? What are you—” Then her face drained of color. “Where’s Orm? Is she—”

“She’s in the hospital.” Ling’s voice came out steadier than she felt. “She’s very sick.”

“What?” A young man appeared behind Mrs. Sethratanapong. Orm’s younger brother, Att, taller now than two years ago, his face instantly filled with alarm. “What happened to Phi?”

“She has a cardiac myxoma. A tumor in her heart.” Ling forced the words out. “She collapsed at work three weeks ago. She’s been in intensive care since. She needs emergency surgery or she’ll die.”

Mrs. Sethratanapong swayed. Att caught her arm, his 

own face stricken with horror.

“Three weeks?” Mrs. Sethratanapong’s voice broke. “Why didn’t you tell us sooner? Why didn’t she—”

“Because she thought you wouldn’t care.” The words came out harsher than Ling intended. “Because your husband made it very clear two years ago that she was no longer part of this family.”

Heavy footsteps. Mr. Sethratanapong appeared in the doorway, his face carved from stone.

“You have some nerve coming here,” he said coldly.

Ling dropped to her knees.

The gesture shocked everyone into silence. Mrs. Sethratanapong gasped. Att took an instinctive step forward. Even Mr. Sethratanapong’s expression flickered with surprise.

“What are you doing?” he demanded.

“Begging.” Ling pressed her palms flat against the cold marble, head bowed. “Not for myself. For Orm.”

“We have no daughter—”

“Yes, you do!” Ling’s head snapped up, eyes blazing. “She’s in a hospital bed right now, dying, because she has a tumor in her heart and I don’t have enough money to save her!”

“Then that’s your problem,” he said, but his voice had lost some of its edge.

“She’s your daughter!” Ling’s voice cracked. “I know you’re angry. I know you think I corrupted her. I know you hate me. But she didn’t deserve to lose you. She chose love over duty and you abandoned her for it!”

“She chose you over her family—”

“And I would give anything to change that!” The words exploded out of Ling. “I would give anything to give her back what she lost! But I can’t! All I can do is save her life!”

She bowed again, forehead touching the floor. A gesture of complete submission, complete desperation.

“I’m begging you. I’ve sold everything. My car, my jewelry, everything I own. I’ve borrowed from everyone I know. I’ve worked every hour I can. But it’s not enough. It’s not enough and she’s running out of time.”

“Sunan,” Mrs. Sethratanapong said, her voice thick with tears. “Please. She’s our daughter. Whatever happened between us, she’s still our daughter.”

“Mom’s right,” Att burst out, his hands clenched into fists. “Phi is the best person I know. She didn’t deserve what you did to her. She fell in love—so what? That doesn’t make her less your daughter!”

Mr. Sethratanapong’s jaw clenched, irritation breaking through his controlled expression.

“What do you want from us now?” he snapped. “Money? You always wanted money.”

Ling flinched, but forced herself to hold his stare.

“I sold everything I owned,” she said. “My car, my jewelry. I borrowed from everyone I know. I’ve taken every shift I could but it’s still not enough..”

“And?” he asked, shrugging as if that wasn’t his problem.

Mrs. Sethratanapong’s hand flew to her mouth—horror, grief, guilt. Att looked furious, eyes sharp, fists trembling.

“Please,” Ling whispered. “She’s running out of time.”

“And why should we believe you?” Mr. Sethratanapong asked coldly. “You lied to us before.”

“When?” Ling demanded.

“When you pretended you loved her.”

Mrs. Sethratanapong gasped softly. Att looked at his father like he couldn’t believe him.

Ling’s throat tightened painfully.

“I do love her.”

“No,” he said sharply. “You saw a girl with wealth, with a future, with influence and you latched onto her like a parasite.”

Ling’s heart broke all over again at the venom in his voice.

“This wasn’t about gender,” he said, voice dripping with bitterness. “I don’t care who my daughter dates. That was never the issue.”

He stepped forward, towering over her kneeling form.

“What I care about is status,” he hissed. “About ambition. About integrity. And you—” he gestured at her with disgust “—you have nothing. No family. No money. No future. Just desperation. And now you come crawling back asking for more.”

“Dad, that’s enough—” Att started.

“No,” he snapped. “Let me finish.”

He looked at Ling like she was something he found on the bottom of his shoe.

“You used her. You leeched off her. And when she was cut off, you still clung on because you needed what she had. You saw my daughter as your golden ticket.”

Ling shook her head, arms trembling. “That’s not true. I never wanted anything from her.”

“Lies,” he spat. “You had everything to gain from her. Money. Security. A future you couldn’t build yourself.”

Ling’s voice finally cracked. “I loved her.”

“Convenient,” he sneered.

Ling bowed again, forehead touching the marble.

“I don’t care what you think of me,” she whispered. “Hate me. Call me a parasite. But please. She’s dying.”

Mrs. Sethratanapong sobbed. Att clenched his fists so tightly his knuckles went white.

Mr. Sethratanapong’s jaw worked, but he said nothing.

Mrs. Sethratanapong stepped toward Ling and spoke softly. “Stand up, Ling. Please.”

Ling rose on shaking legs.

Mrs. Sethratanapong approached her, and to Ling’s shock, took both her hands.

“How much do you need?” she asked quietly.

“Three hundred thousand baht. The surgery is Monday morning. If I don’t have full payment by Sunday night, they won’t operate.”

“I’ll pay for it.” Mrs. Sethratanapong’s voice was firm. “I have my own accounts. Money my parents left me. I’ll transfer it to the hospital tomorrow.”

“You will not—” her husband started.

“Yes, I will.” She turned to face him, steel in her spine. “That’s my daughter dying in a hospital. I’ve already lost two years with her because I was too weak to stand up to you. I won’t lose her forever because of this.”

“She made her choice—”

“And now I’m making mine.” Mrs. Sethratanapong’s eyes blazed. “I’m choosing my daughter. Even if it’s two years too late.”

Mr. Sethratanapong stared at his wife, something unreadable crossing his face.

Then he turned to Ling.

“I will pay for the surgery,” he said quietly.

Relief crashed through Ling so violently she almost collapsed. “Thank you. Thank you so much—”

“But there is a condition.”

Ling’s blood turned to ice.

The room went silent. Mrs. Sethratanapong’s face was drained of color. Att’s eyes went wide with dawning horror.

“What condition?” Ling forced out.

Mr. Sethratanapong’s expression was merciless. “You will leave her. Completely. You disappear from her life. No calls, no messages, no contact whatsoever. You sever the relationship entirely.”

“No.” The word was automatic, horrified. “No, I can’t—”

“Then she dies.” His voice was flat. Final. “Those are the terms. Your absence for her life.”

“Dad, no—” Att started.

“Sunan, you can’t—” Mrs. Sethratanapong’s voice broke.

But Mr. Sethratanapong ignored them both, his eyes fixed on Ling.

“You’re asking me to break her heart,” Ling whispered.

“I’m asking you to save her life. Isn’t that what you came here for?”

Ling stared at him, mind reeling. This couldn’t be happening. He couldn’t be asking this—

“She’ll hate you,” Ling said desperately. “If you do this, she’ll never forgive you. She’ll never come back—”

“Better she hate us and live than love you and die.”

“This is insane!” Att shouted. “You can’t make her choose like this—”

“I can and I am.” Mr. Sethratanapong’s voice was granite. “Miss Kwong came here for money. I’m offering it. These are my terms.”

Mrs. Sethratanapong was crying now, shaking her head. “Please don’t do this. There has to be another way—”

“There isn’t.” He turned back to Ling. “Well? Do we have a deal?”

Ling’s mind raced frantically.

There has to be another way. There has to be—

But there wasn’t.

She knew there wasn’t.

This was the only chance. The only way to save Orm’s life.

Even if it meant destroying her heart.

Even if it meant breaking the promise she’d made just two days ago.

I promised her I wouldn’t come here, Ling thought, anguish crushing her chest. I promised and now I’m going to break that promise and break her heart and she’ll never forgive me—

But she’d be alive.

Being alive and hating Ling was better than dead.

“If I agree,” Ling said slowly, each word like swallowing glass, “you’ll pay for everything? The surgery, the aftercare, all of it?”

“Everything.”

“And you won’t tell her—” Ling’s voice broke. “You won’t tell her about this deal. You’ll let her think—” She couldn’t finish.

“I’ll tell her whatever you want me to tell her.”

Liar, Ling thought bitterly. You’ll tell her nothing.

She closed her eyes. Saw Orm’s face—the way she smiled, the way she laughed, the way she looked at Ling like she hung the moon.

The way she’d look at her with betrayal and devastation when Ling disappeared without explanation.

I’m sorry, she thought. I’m so sorry, my love. I promised I wouldn’t do this. I promised I’d respect your choice.

But I can’t let you die.

“I agree,” she whispered. “I’ll leave her.”

Orm’s mother let out a broken sob, pressing her hand to her mouth.

Att turned away, his shoulders shaking.

Mr. Sethratanapong simply nodded, businesslike, as if they’d just concluded a normal transaction instead of destroying three lives at once.

“The money will be transferred tomorrow. The surgery can proceed.”

“And after?” Ling’s voice was hollow. “After the surgery?”

“You disappear. No goodbye. No explanation. You simply go.”

I can’t. I can’t do this to her—

But Orm’s face flashed in her mind again. Pale and gray in that hospital bed. Dying.

Ling stood on shaking legs. “Fine.”

She turned to leave, but Mrs. Sethratanapong suddenly spoke.

“Wait.”

Ling stopped but didn’t turn around.

“Does she know?” Mrs. Sethratanapong’s voice was thick with tears. “Does my daughter know how much you love her?”

Ling’s hands clenched into fists. “She knows.”

“Then I hope—” Her voice broke. “I hope someday she understands what you did. What you gave up for her.”

“She won’t,” Ling said quietly. “That’s the point.”

She walked out of the house, past the stone lions, through the iron gates.

In the cab, she finally let herself break, pressing her fist to her mouth to muffle the sobs.

I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.

I promised you I wouldn’t do this.

I promised and I broke it.

Please forgive me.

Please live.

But she knew Orm never would.

And maybe that was okay.

As long as she was alive.