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When i first moved into this apartment, I was already conflicted with myself. My mind was scattered all around the world and were all pulling on my tongue. It was around , if I remember correctly the start of October, while I was at school the works of whatever they are called took care of the moving and stuff. I never understood how it works, never will be curious enough.
Not even a day ago I was feeling confused and tired about my sexuality, or so I remembered, I had just found out or more like finally accepted i was a lesbian. I made the decision to stay in the closet, my family being homophonic and Muslim didnt help really. Too add onto all of this I was somewhat relapsing if you know what I mean. They aren't healed anymore, a shame really I was convinced I would stop. My head was filled with too much for me to care about what my sexuality could possibly mean.
Alright now back to the moving in parte, everything went smoothly and here I was in a brand new apartment. I found i slightly creepy , the hallways of the building looking too much like the backroom and the wall being circular. We were in a more 'poor' place , not that i mind there were a lot of good shops down stairs.
That is until 2 days into the moving , I meet her. I could never really describe her as I need glasses to see well and never wear any. Even to this day I am still trying to see what she looks like entirely. I first meet her in a elevator , we were both going up to the same floor. Despite not seeing her it was love at first sight, if I was still wondering if I really was a lesbian then she was the answer. This feeling was new and .. weird. Never in my life have I ever been in love , this was new fresh. I couldn't put up the courage to look at her face since I knew I would end up smiling akwardly. A shame really , I belive it was the closest iv ever been to her , making it easy to see her face. From what I could see and a fucking blind asshole , whe was wearing some baggy pants a baggy blue shirt , she had the most perfect style to fit her so well , I felt some envy in there despite not being entirely my style. I knew she was alt , somewhat similar to me , obviously by the wolfcuy and the bleached hair. They were redish . I'm actually not sure if they were natural or not . I don't believe I'll ever know.
We both went off the elevator , to our own home. I had butterfly's in my stomach, I felt so very happy. That night I came out to a old friend of mine , a guy from my school to switch country's not too long ago. I told him I liked girls and he just told me it was obvious. I wasn't surprised by that reponse and processed to talk about the beautiful girl next door. I went o reddit for ways to get my to see her again , I didnt want to be creepy and do anything wrong so I stayed carful. About a week later , I see her again , in the balcony. My vision still blurry I couldn't see what her face looked like exactly but I knew , from her blurry face that she was a one of a kind beauty. She politely smiled at me and I froze. I don't think she noticed how I giggled to myslef as a wave of happiness shot through me . I quite seriously could not stop blushing. I fell in love all over again.
I never thought I would love this deeply