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A ✹ Aftercare
Letter C has a little more on this but… um… like… bad….. More or less, you’re on your own for everything, and Alex doesn’t hang around long either.
For starters, there’s an astute lack of knowledge and an unwillingness to learn, which breeds awkwardness to chase him off. Whatever acts of service do occur, it’s in motivation for himself (that Alex somehow twists into what could be a show of affection, just as much as a ritual to hold power over you). If he gets a glass of water, it’ll be bought to your lips like you can’t do anything yourself, with Alex adoring the way you look up through your lashes; when you shower together (always, if it was rough), he doesn’t let you wash yourself, instead lathering you up on his own, hands running over what had been abused like an object only moments ago, mentally playing pretend that it’ll wash away your shared sins — and he’s always the first to towel off, change, and abandon you to finish in the downpour…and yet, Alex wants to do more: stay through the shower, dry beads of water from your body, and run straight into bed, nude, to fall asleep tangled in one another’s bodies.
B ✹ Body part (favorite)
His? Hands. They’re quite strong, a little scarred up, masculine, and can do so much – draw, cut off your airflow, give his dad a pair of pliers, take notes in History class, touch you anywhere and however he’d like, hold a gun and sink a bullet halfway into a tree, let them wander absentmindedly across piano keys, and the only one who knows where they’ve been, what they’ve been doing, will always be Alex. He relates them in a good metaphor to his mind. (The brain is Alex’s least and most favorite; mixed bag.)
Yours? Hard tie – legs and lips. I mean, legs are just a staple, since Alex iS A THIGH GUY, I will die on this hill; he finds them so fucking sexy, and easy to watch with an air of normalcy (even if he’s thinking about biting that soft, soft skin up there until your screams fade to whimpers). If there’s one gift you can count on, it’s shorts and thigh-highs, miniskirts and short-cut dresses, anything to highlight the way that you walk, because your legs will draw his eye, whether he likes it or not. And lips, because Alex is left awestruck at how entirely normal you act, what with wearing that same mouth as last night; he understands the mask is necessary, but still, it’s baffling. He really starts to feel complete in studying your face from across the classroom, recalling all the pretty little noises that spilled from them just yesterday.
C ✹ Cum
His desire to cum on you is inexorable. He loves, and I mean Alex adores, seeing the mark of his lust dripping down your skin; there's something so exciting about owning the privilege to taint ethereal beauty. He’s not cleaning it up either — every time you wipe yourself off, a wry smile unfurls onto his features and, on occasion, he makes a comment on how pretty you look, and there's more where that came from. One upside is that you never really have to swallow ig :/
D ✹ Dirty secret
Alex wants to be overstimulated to high hell, till it hurts to cum. Oh and, an intense personal sacrilege, Alex feels bad about all the things he does — pity and guilt twist his stomach, melancholy ebb and flow through his mind, but he still abuses you; while you’re begging him to stop, his mental state is swimming through the otherworldly, waltzing on cloud nine, and in the moment, Alex feels life is worth something. You must feel the same, he thinks. Why else won’t you leave him?
E ✹ Experience
Alex is DEF a virgin for sure — he’s awkward and clumsy and has no idea what he’s doing at first, probably even cums before he gets it in a few times… BUT I believe he’d use you for more than just pleasure – Alex’s view of you leads to an almost dehumanization: your sex is his tool to learn.
F ✹ Favorite position
Idrk about this one… probably something lending his hands good territory on your form, where he can see your face and grip your wrists/hands/etc. — of course, that, or being able to shove your face into the mattress to muffle your moans and make you feel impossibly more pathetic than you already were.
G ✹ Goofy
Foreplay and oral are filled with words – degradation, patronization, humiliation, teasing, and a rare touch of praise fall from Alex’s lips – but as for the actual act of sex, it’s taken more seriously; no matter all the disregard he holds for family values, he still thinks of sex as love to the highest degree. Praise slips through a little more, and almost always, and his touches are gentle.
H ✹ Hair
Same color as upstairs, and trimmed well – Alex likes it neat. Overgrown, out of control gives him a sense of disgust, but a full shave even more so (he thinks it’d make him less of a man).
I ✹ Intimacy
Continued from G… Alex is quiet when he’s fucking you, so it’s difficult to discern his emotions based on sound alone. He hisses curses and moans of arousal and maybe an occasional “whore” or “slut,” but nothing any worse, and nothing any more (Alex's mindset made degradation is an automatic response atp). Although, despite the mean words, his touches can be gentle and soft, as if his hands are eager to be on your body; it’s almost criminal, the switch up, leaving your head reeling and body wanting more.
J ✹ Jack off
I think once a week, tbh, and he prefers getting it done and over with, rather than edging. Def needs the “right video,” and could spend possibly hours searching in vain, under a bombardment of (pretty taboo) porn. Alex looks for guns and knives, rough sex, cnc – and eventually, actors and actresses who share a shred of similarity with you (desperation wards him a little ways away from his dark rabbithole. But not by a lot; he needs something to picture you doing). Although, things did change quite a bit after he got a taste of flesh on his – and a lack of boundary means masturbation has fervently stalled; Alex prefers waiting for someone else to do it for him. When there’s nothing coming for a while (vacations, etc.), he attempts masturbation, to no avail – his hands are incomparable to your fingers, mouth, holes. Its no wonder he asks to meet right away when you get back, and an unwelcome surprise when he’s pissed off and rough out of the blue.
K ✹ Kink
He’s loud, in a sense — Alex loves speech: stanzas of love or disgust, thick with hypocrisy and making your cheeks burn with a hot blush or scalding tears, stomach twisting and churning and moving with the wings of a butterfly swarm. He loves a good power imbalance, too — whether it be him (almost) fully clothed, throwing a weapon into the mix, or simply having you weak, whimpering, and whining in overstimulation after a lengthy foreplay (he smirks, entering your abused hole, patronizingly murmuring how good you’re being). Also frequently fantasizes about bondage – tying you up so all you’ve been degraded to is a fleshlight with noise (or, maybe if you’re good, some things will be left free to struggle, against his torture). Here’s a few other ones: hair pulling, bloodplay, body carving, pearl necklaces.
L ✹ Location
Bedrooms are his favorite – keep it contained and personal – but he can go for other things too. Man’s not picky.
M ✹ Motivation
His main driver is the reward of feeling good – there’s not many things in Alex’s life that lends dopamine so much as arousal, ejaculation. Not just dopamine, but other, complex emotions that are just as difficult to come by — for one, you give him superiority and worship, plus a nice (perfect) outlet for rage and hate.
N ✹ No
Idk probably anything unsanitary; he doesn't want to get an infection cause that would suck. Maybe woundfucking but I'm not sure on that (yet).
O ✹ Oral
Alex obviously prefers receiving (bc he's a lil bitch), and is stingy when it comes to the other way around… when you actually convince him to go down, he’s a fiend for foreplay; his lips bite and suck soft skin for what seems like forever, tongue tracing around but never making contact. He’s alright at sucking dick – knows what to do, generally – but is for sure the worst at eating pussy (typical incel boy). You’ll just have to teach him ig.
P ✹ Pace
There’s a bit of a lack of self control, so sometimes it’s quick and rough, but, in the right headspace, Alex falls in with his belief: sex with you should be drawn out, and painfully slow.
Q ✹ Quickie
In accordance with letter P, Alex hates quickies (though, he’d never turn down a hasty blowjob).
R ✹ Risk
Alex is, for sure, a little freak with enough sick sex fantasies to fill a book (complete with footnotes), so he has an obvious interest in danger and intimacy, especially if it compromises you more than him (Personal favorite: fucking you, or at least making good use of his hands, while he’s actively on the phone or when the house isn’t empty).
Except – it’s only what he wants. Alex is an unfair little shit, constantly convincing you to erode your body into what can only be a toy, an apparatus, a vessel for practice. And you agree to this because your boyfriend is so meticulous with his methods – he does anything but throw you off the deep end. Starting out, it’s lovey dovey: it’s inferred he enjoys your company – “loves you,” so to speak – so if you loved him back at all, then you’d let him try something new, right? From there, it’s a slow, unnoticeable, descending spiral. Through manipulative words, quid-pro-quo, threats, etc., Alex will prime your mind to give in.
S ✹ Stamina
I already mentioned this, but Alex is premature ejaculation supreme. Even after layering on boyfriend!Alex, I don't imagine him going several rounds in one sitting normally — on occasion, he’ll cum twice, maybe thrice if he’s really worked up, but he lasts shorter and coordination slackens with each (cough letter d cough). Well-performing and dominant means a decent recovery period.
T ✹ Toys
I’m sure Alex wants to own a damn plethora, but that feeling really only appears in the moment; he’d probably rationalize by saying they’d cost money and be a hassle to obtain.
U ✹ Unfair
Do I really have to explain? This is a very, very unfair man — but why? Maybe because it’s his objectification mindset, or he has so much hate that he needs a vessel for it all… but if you’re a girl, I’d say it’s that, and a whole smattering of misogyny.
V ✹ Volume
Tbh i’m just sorta repeating myself here but don't imagine Alex being very loud during sex. I feel like he finds being noisy embarrassing, leading to restrained grunts and more sighs and whispers than anything. Maybe a long, throaty groan or drawn out moan will slip out when he comes.
W ✹ Wild card
Prefers guns to knives, but they’re finicky (and this isn’t nsfw, but sometimes Alex fantasizes about dumping you, simply calling you up and letting it spill that it was over and he wanted never to see your face again. He’s so intrigued by how you'd react).
X ✹ X-ray
A little thinner and longer than average, pale shaft, uncircumcised, pretty pink tip, not super veiny but has two prominent ones. Fail happy trail, and an eye-catching, downward-running vein (that he loves your tongue running against).
Y ✹ Yearning
I actually don't see Alex being a stereotypical teenage boy to the degree that he always wants sex. Like jacking off, the urge to fuck comes around twice a week. On the topic of pent-up emotion; if he's had a bad week (or even a bad day) he's gonna want some stress relief… and you'll be the lucky duck who takes the brunt of it.
Z ✹ Zzz
It really depends on how time consuming it was. He mostly wants to have sex, or whatever else, at night (his favorite time of day), so he