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It was just paint.

A temporary tattoo drawn for a role.

Phuwin knew that.

Repeated it like a mantra every time he caught a glimpse of it.

The ink wasn’t real.

It didn’t mean anything.

It would fade with sweat and removers and time.

And still … every time Pond moved, and his shirt slipped just enough for a glimpse of it  —  the edge of a snarling wolf jaw curling over his chest, or the ghost of a treetop disappearing beneath fabric  —  Phuwin felt something thrum under his ribs.

A low, restless ache. Like a string inside him pulled taut, every time that ink flashed in and out of sight.

It wasn’t supposed to affect him like this.

It was stupid.

And yet, there it was again.

They were between takes.

Pond had thrown a towel over his shoulders, neck gleaming with misted sweat, and his shirt hung open at the collar  —  wide enough to see the wolf’s snout, the curve of its teeth etched in deep black and grey.

Not snarling exactly, but caught in some kind of breathless motion.

 Dangerous.

Beautiful.

Phuwin’s eyes stayed too long.

He told himself he was just looking at the design.

The artistry.

Not the skin underneath it.

Not the way it shifted when Pond moved  —  when he laughed too hard at a joke someone made, or when he adjusted the mic near his collarbone, knuckles brushing over the moon nestled in that forest landscape like it belonged to him.

The worst part? Phuwin could still remember the first time he saw it. Clear as day.

Two weeks earlier.

On set.

It started with water.

Dramatic splash during a scene — one of those over-the-top moments in Me And Thee where fiction leaned a little too hard into theatre.

They were filming Khun Thee watching a soap opera by the pool, half in shadow, shirt off, expression panicked.

In the story, Khun Thee had just kissed Peach for the first time.

A kiss that cracked the plot open.

In the soap opera Khun Thee was watching, the woman slapped the man.

Then she threw a full glass of water in his face.

Pond had laughed when the scene cut.

“Why is every soap so dramatic?” he said, water still beading on his skin from the earlier takes, voice soft and amused, towel draped over his shoulders.

Phuwin was just passing by.

He hadn’t planned to stop.

He never really did when Pond was working, not wanting to distract him.

But something about the way Pond was sitting there  —  half-wrapped in the towel, hair damp, eyes still in-character but slowly blinking back into himself  —  made Phuwin hesitate.

“Hey,” Pond said when he noticed him. Then he smiled, small and tired and honest. “Come here.”

Phuwin stepped closer, careful not to get in the way of the crew resetting lights. “You done?”

“For now,” Pond murmured. “They’re changing lenses. I’ve got 10 minutes.”

Then  —  and this is the part that would stick with Phuwin  —  Pond shifted the towel off his shoulder.

Slowly.

Like it mattered.

Pond tilted his body slightly, chest half-turned toward him.

The shadows shifted.

And there it was.

The tattoo.

Not just a glimpse this time.

Not a flash beneath a half-buttoned shirt or an edge of ink curling over his collarbone.

This time it was the full thing: a snarling wolf, its eyes sharp and full of motion, the fur tapering off into blackened trees that stretched across Pond’s chest and shoulder like they were painted into his skin.

A pale moon above, slightly off-center.

Two birds in flight.

Phuwin froze.

“Makeup said it came out nice on camera,” Pond said, his voice unusually quiet. “The director liked it too. But I dunno…”

He glanced down at his own chest, lips pressing together. “It feels like… a lot.”

Phuwin swallowed. Hard. “It’s… yeah. It’s a lot.”

Pond’s brow creased. “Too much?”

“No,” Phuwin said quickly  —  too quickly. “No. Not like that.”

He tried to steady his breathing, eyes tracing the ink. The wolf’s mouth was open, mid-growl, but not vicious. Protective, almost.

The forest that followed looked less like scenery and more like memory  —  something ancient and aching.

“It suits you,” he added, voice lower this time. “Weirdly.”

Pond huffed a small laugh, eyes finally meeting his again. “Really?”

Phuwin nodded. “Yeah.”

There was a pause.

One of those too-long ones.

The kind that left your skin warm in places it shouldn’t be.

“I wasn’t sure if it was too aggressive,” Pond admitted. “I mean… Khun Thee’s intense, but I’m not…”

“You’re not him,” Phuwin finished for him.

“Nope.” Pond smiled  —  soft, crooked. “I’m more the type who cries at dog movies and can’t finish spicy noodles.”

Phuwin smiled back, small and real.

“But it still fits you,” he said after a beat. “Just not in the way you think.”

Pond tilted his head. “What way then?”

Phuwin didn’t answer right away. He looked at the tattoo again, watching the way it moved when Pond adjusted the towel, the ink dancing across muscles and collarbones.

“It looks like something wild trying to protect something soft,” he said at last.

And that made Pond go still.

His expression faltered  —  just for a second  —  and then he gave a shy kind of laugh, like he didn’t know what to do with that truth.

“Thanks,” he murmured.

“You don’t need to thank me,” Phuwin said, turning slightly before his own face gave too much away. “It’s not even real.”

Pond nodded. “Still.”

As Phuwin walked off, the image burned behind his eyes.

He told himself it was the lighting.

The makeup.

The performance.

But the problem was, even hours later, when the makeup had been wiped clean and Pond was in his hoodie again, cup of ice tea in hand, laughing at something dumb on his phone  —  even then, Phuwin still saw it.

The wolf.

The forest.

The part of Pond that wasn’t drawn on, wasn’t fiction.

The part that stayed.

Now, it was worse.

Because Phuwin had seen it.

All of it.

Knew where every line began and ended  —  the sharp edges of the wolf’s jaw, the way the trees feathered into negative space just under Pond’s collarbone, the sliver of moon cradled by shadows on his shoulder.

He’d seen the fine strokes, the layering, the points where the artist blended black into grey to suggest fur, movement, emotion.

And somehow, that made the partial glimpses more unbearable than anything else.

Like it wasn’t meant to be visible.

Like he wasn’t meant to see it now  —  not when it was half-covered by Pond’s loose hoodie on set, or when a makeup touch-up tugged Pond’s shirt down just a bit too far, revealing the edge of that forest like the beginning of a secret.

He tried to be casual about it.

Tried to tell himself it was just appreciation.

That the tattoo was genuinely beautiful  —  well-done, artistic.

Admiration.

That’s what he called it at first.

Admiring how it moved.

Admiring the way Pond carried it like it wasn’t just painted on for a character but grown into him, bone-deep.

Admiring how it added something unspoken to him.

A different weight to his presence.

That was fine.

That was allowed.

But then it shifted.

Because admiration didn’t make your skin feel hot.

Didn’t make your breath go shallow when someone lifted their arms and the hem of their shirt rode up.

Didn’t make your eyes flicker there, every time, trying to catch another glimpse.

It didn’t make your stomach curl, tight and low, like something unspoken was clawing its way out of you.

Now, on set, Phuwin found himself anticipating it.

Found his eyes drawn to Pond automatically  —  searching for even a sliver of that ink.

That stupid, temporary tattoo that wasn’t supposed to mean anything.

He knew when Pond wore the black tank top for rehearsals, it might peek out from it.

He knew the grey zip-up hoodie dipped just enough at the collar to reveal the top edge of the wolf’s snarl.

He knew the shirts Pond pulled over his head always made the hem rise for a second  —  just long enough for the forest to flash over the side of his chest.

And he hated that he noticed.

Hated how much he noticed.

Because now it wasn’t just on set.

It was at night, too.

When he was in bed, scrolling through the gallery of behind-the-scenes photos the staff had sent for promo.

Most of them were innocent  —  laughing group shots, Pond mid-line with that practiced glare, the two of them standing too close on set for Peach and Khun Thee.

But a few had… more.

A candid, low-angle shot of Pond getting touched up by makeup, arms out, shirt halfway off his shoulder.

The tattoo exposed like a growl against soft light.

Another one  —  from the pool scene.

Pond sitting barefoot at the edge of the water, towel low on his waist, looking over his shoulder at the monitor.

The tattoo stark against his backlit skin, the wolf caught in shadow, the trees brushing the slope of his shoulder like memory.

Phuwin’s fingers slowed when he swiped past that one.

Then stopped.

He looked at it again.

It was just a photo.

A still image.

Frozen.

Harmless.

So why did his stomach feel so hot?

Why did his thighs press together?

He shifted in bed, suddenly aware of how quiet his condo was. The only sound the soft hum of his fan, and the distant echo of cars down on the street.

He shouldn’t save the photo.

That would be weird.

That would mean something.

He saved it anyway.

And for a few seconds after, he just stared at the screen.

At the shape of Pond’s body in soft lighting.

The curve of the tattoo.

The way it looked more like a scar than paint.

His thumb hovered.

Maybe he should send it to Pond.

Say something stupid and light  —  “Bro this one came out cool,” or “You actually look scary here lol.”

But his chest clenched at the thought.

Too familiar.

Too obvious.

Because it wasn’t the look of the tattoo anymore.

It was what it did to him.

The way it stirred something restless beneath his skin.

The way it made him imagine what Pond looked like up close  —  not as Khun Thee, not on set, but in quiet, private moments.

Shirtless in his apartment.

Shower steam clinging to the ink.

Breath soft.

Real.

Phuwin’s stomach twisted again, a pulse low in his belly that made him shift beneath the blanket.

He turned his phone off. Threw it facedown.

Waited in the dark, like that would help.

It didn’t.

Because it wasn’t about the tattoo.

Not really.

It was about the fact that Pond wore it like it belonged to him  —  like it was some inner part of him made visible.

Like it told a story no one else could hear.

Except maybe … Phuwin.

And that was the most dangerous thought of all.

Everything got worse when they filmed first kiss scene.

The problem wasn’t the kiss itself.

It was written in the script.

A small moment.

A quiet shift.

Just a long peck  —  barely lips moving, more about emotion than passion. Khun Thee asking, “May I take liberties with you, Peach?” and Peach nodding once, eyes flicking down. Soft fade to black.

No tongue.

No breathy gasps.

No choreography.

It wasn’t a big deal.

They had kissed before on camera.

A lot in fact.

In rehearsal, once for a promo still that never made it to the press.

But today?

Today was different.

Because Pond was shirtless.

And that tattoo was fully exposed again.

And worse  —  so much worse  —  Pond’s lips were bruised.

Still slightly swollen from whatever he’d done to it looking this way.

Phuwin had laughed it off at the time, made some jokes about clumsy Pond is.

But now, sitting five feet away on the dock, watching Pond adjust the mic tape on his ribs, watching a makeup assistant gently dab concealer around the bruise but not fully covering it  —  now it was doing something to him.

Something … stupid.

The tattoo crawled across Pond’s body like it belonged there.

From the sharp snarl of the wolf on his pec to the trees melting down his arm, it framed him like art and weapon at once.

It wasn’t supposed to be this vivid.

It was just makeup.

Temporary.

Fiction.

But God, it looked real today.

Maybe it was the golden light off the lake.

The way Pond’s skin was damp from the heat, making the black and grey ink gleam as he moved.

Maybe it was the way Pond was rolling his shoulders slowly, getting loose for the scene, muscles rippling gently beneath the design like the wolf was waking up under his skin.

Phuwin stared too long.

He knew it.

And he still didn’t stop.

“Five minutes to reset!” someone from lighting called.

Pond turned toward him then  —  just a quick glance, nothing unusual. His hair was half-wet from spray, lips parted slightly from breathing through the blocking instructions.

Phuwin looked down.

Too late.

That image was seared into his brain now  —  the way the bruise on Pond’s lip darkened at the center, the soft pink around it, the way it made his mouth look kissed even before it touched anything.

He hated how warm his body felt.

How heavy.

“Hey,” Pond said suddenly, voice low, like it was just for him. “You good?”

Phuwin blinked. “What?”

“You’re fidgeting,” Pond said. “You only do that when you’re nervous or annoyed.”

“I’m not — ” Phuwin looked down at his hand. He was messing with his necklace. Again. “Just thinking about the beats.”

Pond nodded slowly. “The kiss?”

Phuwin shrugged, casual. “It’s not a big one.”

Pond hesitated. Then, softly: “Is it weird? With the tattoo?”

Phuwin looked up.

Pond’s expression was unusually open  —  unsure.

He rubbed a hand across his chest lightly, fingers brushing the wolf’s muzzle. “It’s just so… loud. I don’t want it to take away from the moment. Like, it’s supposed to be vulnerable, right?.”

Phuwin swallowed.

His throat felt dry.

“No,” he said, maybe too quietly. “It works.”

“You sure?”

“It fits Khun Thee. And…” He trailed off. “You wear it like it’s yours.”

Pond tilted his head.

His fingers were still on his chest, thumb grazing the edge of the ink like he didn’t quite believe it.

“Sometimes it feels like it is,” he murmured. “Like it’s waking up something that was already there.”

Phuwin didn’t answer.

He couldn’t.

Because suddenly he was imagining kissing that mouth  —  bruised and soft.

Imagining what it would feel like to run his hand over that inked chest, feel the wolf’s growl beneath his palm, press his lips to the place where the moon curved into skin.

The makeup artist called Pond back for a final touch-up.

He went without saying more, and Phuwin sat there on the dock, heart pounding too fast, mouth too dry.

This wasn’t admiration anymore.

It wasn’t just “appreciating the art.”

It was craving.

And in two minutes, they were about to film a kiss.

Not a big one.

Just a long, quiet peck.

Just lips touching.

Just lips moving slowly.

Just enough to ruin him.

When they started filming the scene the boat creaked gently beneath their feet, tethered near the dock but still rocking with the weight of every step.

Phuwin took his mark slowly. His bare feet padded across the smooth planks as he sat down on the low bench, back straight, hands resting on his knees like Peach would  —  hesitant, waiting.

Overhead, the sun had started to dip just enough for the light to glow warmer, the lake catching gold on its surface.

Pond was already there.

Shirtless.

Loose black pants.

Skin touched by mist spray and shadow.

His shoulders rolled back like Khun Thee’s always were  —  alert, powerful, yet still as water beneath it all.

And the tattoo.

The tattoo was alive under the sunset.

The wolf’s snarl stretched over his chest, the trees in sharp relief against his collarbones.

When he breathed, the forest moved.

When he shifted, the moon curved, bright and caught in the dip of his shoulder.

He was all glowing ink and bare muscle and a bruise-dark mouth  —  God, that mouth  —  slightly parted as he exhaled, low and calm.

“Camera rolling!”

“Scene 38B, Take 1  —  Khun Thee and Peach  —  Boat Kiss.”

Clap.

Silence.

The director let it hang for a few beats.

Pond didn’t look at him right away.

He was watching the lake, eyes dark.

He was already in it.

Already Khun Thee.

Phuwin swallowed hard.

He knew his line.

Only one today.

The rest was just presence.

Stillness.

Breathing.

The director called: “Action.”

Pond finally turned.

His eyes were soft  —  not calculating, not flirtatious, but quiet.

There was something in them that made Phuwin’s chest ache a little.

“Peach,” Pond said, voice low, careful, rehearsed. “May I take liberties with you?”

Phuwin was supposed to nod.

He did.

Tiny.

Barely a tilt.

And then Pond moved.

No rush.

No sudden pull.

Just a step forward, smooth and certain.

One hand reaching up to hold Phuwin’s jaw, his thumb brushing just beneath his ear.

His palm was warm.

Too warm.

Phuwin’s breath caught, right before it happened.

The kiss.

It wasn’t hard or deep.

It wasn’t tongue or gasping or desperation.

It was just … close.

Pond’s lips pressed against his.

Softly.

Slowly.

The slightest shift of pressure  —  a tiny adjustment, as if testing how much Peach would allow.

Just the brush of lips moving against lips, then a pause, then another small drag of warmth.

Phuwin’s whole body buzzed.

Because Pond’s mouth was so soft, even with the bruise.

Especially with the bruise.

The tenderness of it made something inside him ache.

And the tattoo  —  God, the tattoo was right there, close enough he could feel the heat of it, the way Pond’s chest hovered near his own, not touching, but close.

He could almost feel the forest breathing against him.

He didn’t move.

Didn’t break.

Didn’t flinch.

But something inside him cracked.

He knew it wasn’t real.

He knew it was just for camera.

But his skin didn’t know that.

His heart didn’t.

“Cut.”

The word broke like glass in water.

They pulled apart gently.

Slowly.

No one spoke right away.

“Good,” the director called from the dock. “We’ll take more for coverage, but that was clean.”

Phuwin blinked twice, trying to refocus.

Trying not to look like his lungs had gone tight.

Pond was still close.

Their eyes met for a moment  —  something unspoken flickering behind Pond’s lashes.

Then the director’s voice cut in again.

“Let’s reset. Same thing. One more.”

They didn’t move right away.

The boat rocked softly, wood creaking beneath them, water lapping against the hull like it was breathing with them.

Pond’s hand was still at Phuwin’s jaw, not holding anymore, just there, thumb warm against skin that had gone hypersensitive.

Phuwin exhaled, slow and controlled, forcing his shoulders to relax as Pond returned to his mark.

Someone adjusted the camera angle.

Someone else murmured about light.

The world slid back into place, but something inside Phuwin didn’t.

They did it again.

Same lines.

Same stillness.

“Action.”

Pond turned, eyes soft again  —  too soft  —  and asked the question the same way, voice low, careful, like it mattered.

Phuwin nodded again.

And Pond kissed him again.

This time, Phuwin noticed the smallest things.

How Pond’s breath hitched just before their lips met.

How the bruise on his mouth made that first press uneven, tender.

How the tattoo shifted as Pond leaned in, the wolf stretching, the forest breathing, the moon dipping closer to Phuwin’s chest.

The kiss lingered a fraction longer.

Not enough for anyone to call it out.

Not enough to break character.

Enough for Phuwin’s fingers to curl against his knees.

“Cut.”

“Good. One more for safety.”

They reset.

Again.

By the third take, Phuwin’s body had stopped reacting like it was just acting.

He was too aware of everything now  —  the heat rolling off Pond’s bare chest, the way the boat swayed just enough to keep them close, the smell of lake water and sunscreen and something warm that was just Pond.

Again, the kiss.

Again, soft.

But this time, Pond’s lips moved just a little more.

Not deeper  —  just slower.

As if he was unconsciously adjusting, searching for comfort in the familiarity of the motion.

Phuwin followed.

He shouldn’t have.

He knew that.

Somewhere in his head, a thin, rational voice was telling him to keep it clean, keep it simple, keep it exactly as rehearsed.

But his body didn’t listen.

The kiss stretched.

Seconds passed.

Pond’s lips were warm and pliant, bruised enough that the pressure made them feel fuller, more fragile.

Phuwin felt it  —  that delicate give, the way Pond’s mouth softened against his like it was melting there.

His stomach tightened.

This wasn’t admiration anymore.

This wasn’t even wanting.

It was need, sharp and sudden, blooming under his ribs.

He wanted to kiss Pond softly  —  properly  —  wanted to ease into it, cradle it, protect that bruised mouth instead of testing it.

But the longer they stayed there, the more that restraint frayed.

The kiss went on.

Not rough.

Not desperate.

Just long.

Too long.

Phuwin barely noticed when Pond’s breath shifted  —  a small sound, barely audible, like surprise.

Barely noticed when the warmth of the kiss changed, slicker now, until —

A metallic taste bloomed.

Pond stilled.

Not pulling away.

Not breaking.

Just … still.

Phuwin felt it then  —  the faintest tremor at Pond’s lips, the subtle change in pressure.

His heart lurched violently.

They broke apart at the exact same moment the director called, louder this time,

“Cut. Cut — ”

A pause.

Then, more carefully, “We’ll reset.”

Phuwin’s eyes dropped immediately.

A thin line of red had appeared at the corner of Pond’s mouth.

Not much.

Just a bead, bright against bruised skin.

No one reacted right away.

Makeup hadn’t noticed yet.

The camera operator was checking playback.

The boat rocked gently, oblivious.

Pond lifted his hand, touching his lip with his thumb.

He looked at the red on his skin, then back at Phuwin.

There was no accusation in his eyes.

Just surprise.

And something else.

Something warm.

Open.

Dangerous.

“It’s okay,” Pond murmured quietly, before Phuwin could say anything. “It was already weak.”

Phuwin’s chest felt too tight. “I didn’t — ”

“I know,” Pond said softly.

The makeup artist hurried over then, apologizing, dabbing gently at Pond’s mouth.

Pond let her fuss, eyes never quite leaving Phuwin’s face.

“It happens,” the director said. “Especially with bruising. We’ll adjust.”

Phuwin nodded, stiff, hands clenched at his sides.

He had wanted to kiss him softly.

And somehow, he’d wanted more than that, too.

Pond finished getting cleaned up and stepped back, giving him a small smile  —  reassuring, gentle, unmistakably Pond.

Phuwin stayed where he was, heart racing, mouth still warm, the phantom of that kiss burning on his lips  —  and the knowledge settling heavy in his chest that something had crossed a line.

Not on camera.

Inside him.

And it wasn’t going back.

The next take felt different before it even began.

Phuwin knew it the moment he lifted his gaze and met Pond’s again  —  the way Pond looked at him now, a little more careful, a little more open, like something fragile had been set between them and neither of them knew how to name it.

“Rolling.”

“Action.”

Pond asked the line again, voice steady, gentle.

“Peach… may I take liberties with you?”

Phuwin nodded.

But this time, when Pond stepped closer, Phuwin moved too.

Not forward  —  not greedy  —  just enough to meet him halfway, to close the space with intention instead of accident.

His breath slowed.

His shoulders softened.

He let his hand rise, barely, fingers hovering at Pond’s wrist like he was asking permission without words.

The kiss came softer than before.

An apology, pressed into skin.

Phuwin kissed him like he was sorry.

Like he wanted to say "I didn’t mean to hurt you" without breaking character, without breaking the scene.

His lips touched Pond’s gently, almost reverently, easing the pressure, careful around the bruise, careful everywhere.

Pond exhaled  —  a quiet sound, barely there  —  and melted into it.

No testing this time.

No lingering too long.

Just warmth.

Just closeness.

Just enough to make Phuwin’s chest ache in a completely different way.

“Cut.”

No one said anything extra.

No corrections.

No more takes.

That was it.

They wrapped the scene quickly after that, the boat docked, the equipment packed away, voices rising again like nothing had happened.

Pond pulled on a loose shirt, hiding the tattoo at last, smiled at a crew member, joked softly with someone from wardrobe.

Phuwin didn’t trust himself to look for too long.

That night, the shower didn’t help.

The water was hot enough to fog the mirror, steam curling around his shoulders as he stood beneath it, head tipped back, eyes closed. He tried to let it wash the day away  —  the lake light, the boat, the way Pond’s lips had felt against his.

It didn’t.

Every time he closed his eyes, it was there.

Pond’s chest, bare and inked.

The wolf stretching as he breathed.

The forest moving with him like it was alive.

Phuwin scrubbed his hair harder than necessary, then stood still again, palms flat against the tile, heart beating too fast for no reason at all.

"Get over it", he told himself.

He finished showering, dressed, crawled into bed with damp hair and his phone in hand, determined to distract himself with anything  —  messages, clips, random scrolling, noise.

The screen glowed softly in the dark.

It didn’t work.

Because all he could see was Pond.

Pond’s eyes when he’d looked at him on the boat  —  not Khun Thee’s sharp gaze, but something gentler, something that made Phuwin feel seen in a way that scared him.

The way they’d kissed.

Soft at first.

Careful.

Then long.

Too long.

The memory of it replayed over and over, each time doing something warmer to him, something heavier.

His stomach tightened.

His chest burned.

And then  —  the moment Pond’s lip had broken.

The surprise.

The stillness.

The trust in his eyes when he said: “It’s okay”.

Phuwin groaned quietly, rolling onto his side, phone forgotten on the mattress beside him.

He should’ve been angry at himself.

Should’ve been embarrassed.

Ashamed.

He’d lost control on set.

Crossed a line that actors weren’t supposed to cross  —  even if no one else had noticed, even if it had been framed as an accident.

But all he could think about was how badly he wanted to kiss Pond again.

Not careful this time.

Not apologetic.

He imagined Pond shirtless again, tattoo glowing against his skin, imagined his hands sliding up that inked chest, feeling the wolf under his palms.

Imagined Pond looking at him the way he had on the boat  —  soft, steady, unafraid.

Imagined kissing him harder.

Deep enough to make Pond gasp.

Long enough that there’d be no doubt about what it meant.

Phuwin squeezed his eyes shut, heart pounding.

“This is bad,” he whispered to the dark.

But his body didn’t listen.

He tried to sleep.

That was the cruelest part of it  —  the trying.

He lay on his back first, staring at the ceiling, counting breaths like that had ever helped him before.

In through his nose.

Out through his mouth.

Slow.

Measured.

Normal.

His body refused to cooperate.

Heat sat everywhere  —  not sharp, not sudden, but deep and spreading.

Like something had been lit inside him and left to burn on its own.

His skin felt too tight, too aware of itself.

The sheet brushing his legs was suddenly too much.

Every shift sent sparks up his spine.

“Stop” he told himself.

He rolled onto his side.

Didn’t help.

The tingling in his belly only got worse, pooling low and heavy, winding tight like a coil.

His thighs pressed together on instinct, and the sensitivity there made his breath stutter.

It felt unfair  —  how his body reacted without asking him, without caring about shame or logic or professionalism.

He squeezed his eyes shut.

Immediately, Pond was there.

Not fully dressed.

Not safe.

Bare chest.

Big muscles.

The tattoo spread across him like a living thing  —  the wolf stretched and breathing, the forest dark and endless, the moon caught right where Phuwin had stared too long.

Pond’s skin warm, golden, real.

And his lips.

Bruised.

Soft.

Slightly swollen.

Phuwin’s throat tightened.

He turned his face into the pillow, trying to smother the image, but it only sharpened.

Now it wasn’t just what Pond looked like  —  it was how he felt.

The warmth of his palm at Phuwin’s jaw.

The careful way he’d leaned in.

The way he’d gone still when the kiss had gone on too long.

The memory of that softness made something inside him ache.

His body reacted before he could stop it.

Heat surged lower.

His hips shifted without permission.

His cock hardened slowly, insistently, like it had decided for him that this wasn’t negotiable.

The twitch of it made his breath hitch, sharp and quiet in the dark.

“No,” he whispered, embarrassed even alone.

He pulled the blanket higher, like hiding would somehow undo what was happening.

But the pressure didn’t go away.

If anything, it grew  —  pulsing gently, demanding attention.

Every thought circled back to Pond.

Pond looking at him on the boat.

Pond’s chest hovering close, not touching.

Pond’s lips moving against his  —  slow, warm, unhurried.

Phuwin squeezed his eyes shut harder, but the images only became more vivid.

He imagined kissing Pond again  —  not apologetic this time.

Imagined his mouth opening, imagined the sound Pond might make if Phuwin didn’t pull away.

Imagined hands sliding over inked skin, following the lines he knew by heart now.

His thighs tensed.

His cock twitched again, harder this time, like it was reacting to the thought alone.

He turned onto his stomach, pressing himself into the mattress, hoping the pressure would dull it.

Instead, it sent a jolt through him that made him groan softly into the pillow.

His body was not listening.

It didn’t care that it had happened on set.

Didn’t care that it was acting.

Didn’t care that Pond was his co-star, his friend, someone he wasn’t supposed to want like this.

All it knew was warmth.

Memory.

Want.

He lay there, breathing uneven, heart racing in the dark, trapped between guilt and craving  —  between the knowledge that he’d crossed a line and the terrifying truth that part of him wanted to cross it again.

Harder.

Longer.

He stared into the shadows until his eyes burned, until exhaustion finally began to creep in  —  not relief, not calm, just the dull edge of being too tired to fight anymore.

Even then, as sleep hovered just out of reach, one last thought slipped through, soft and dangerous:

If that was just a kiss…

what would happen if he didn’t stop next time?

The thought settled low in his body, warm and unresolved, and followed him down into a restless, shallow sleep that wasn’t peace at all.

That was what finally broke him.

His cock throbbed, heavy and wet already, sensitive in a way that almost startled him.

He squirmed beneath the covers, biting back a frustrated groan.

Shame burned in his cheeks even now, but the ache refused to disappear.

If anything, it only sharpened.

Just this once, he tried to bargain with himself.

Just to get it out.

Just so I can sleep.

I’ll forget all about it in the morning.

He didn’t believe that, but it didn’t matter anymore.

His hand slipped lower, slow at first, tentative, as if someone might see  —  as if admitting it to himself might make it less real.

But the touch sent a rush of sensation through him that made his breath stutter, every nerve tuned to the memory of being kissed, of that tattooed chest pressing into his own, of the heat of skin and ink and muscle.

He pictured Pond’s hands on him.

Not acting, not staged  —  just real.

Just wanting.

Just holding him steady, kissing him like he meant it, like Phuwin was something he wanted to memorize.

It was embarrassing, how quickly he got lost in it  —  how fast his body took over, hips shifting, back arching just a little off the mattress.

The fantasy was sharper than anything he’d let himself imagine before: Pond’s mouth, swollen and so gentle, tattooed chest pressed flush to his own, every line of muscle, every heartbeat syncing with his.

He tried to hold on, to make it last, but his body was already too close.

The pressure built fast, riding the edge of shame and want until he couldn’t hold it anymore.

It rushed over him, bright and hot, leaving him gasping quietly in the dark, hand trembling, chest aching with relief and something deeper  —  something frighteningly real.

He stayed still for a long moment after, breath coming in shallow bursts, skin flushed all over, the reality of what he’d done crashing over him.

"God, you’re hopeless", he thought, pressing a hand to his face, mortified

. He could already feel the embarrassment waiting for him in the morning, sharper than any hangover.

But right now, as his body calmed and the world finally quieted, all he could feel was how real it had been.

How it hadn’t erased the need at all.

If anything, it made it stronger  —  carved the wanting even deeper.

And as sleep crept in, heavy and restless, all Phuwin could do was wish for one thing:

That next time, he wouldn’t have to pretend.

That next time, maybe, it could be real.

He woke up tangled in sweat and shame, refusing to let himself remember the night before.

Phuwin blinked hard at the sunlight pooling across his sheets, willing his mind to fill with anything but that — but the way his body had betrayed him, but the sound of his own voice bitten off in the dark, but the image of Pond — bare-chested, tattooed, wanting.

He showered with the water a little too cold.

He dressed slowly, choosing clothes that felt neutral, unremarkable, like maybe he could slip back into the version of himself who didn’t think about his costar every time he closed his eyes.

On set, it got harder.

He kept his head down, eyes on his script, pretending to study lines he already knew by heart.

The rest of the cast moved around him in easy circles — laughing, teasing, lounging in plastic chairs while the crew adjusted lights.

It should have felt normal.

But every time Pond walked by, something in Phuwin went tight.

Pond was in costume: a plain dark tee, sleeves rolled just enough to reveal the edge of the wolf’s snarl on his shoulder, black ink curling over the round muscle of his bicep.

His arms looked bigger somehow, the tattoo making them seem more dangerous, more alive.

Sometimes, when Pond lifted a hand to fix his hair, the shirt would ride up, and Phuwin’s heart would lurch embarrassingly in his chest.

He told himself it was nothing.

He told himself to stop looking.

He didn’t stop looking.

Not when Pond joked with the crew, smile crooked and easy.

Not when Pond leaned over a table to review blocking, tattoo peeking out like a secret that only Phuwin seemed to see.

Not when Pond caught him staring once and grinned, soft and clueless, like he had no idea what he was doing to him.

Days went like this.

Phuwin forced himself to act normal.

Forced himself to talk with friends, to rehearse lines, to laugh at jokes.

He went home each night exhausted and unsettled, refusing to replay that night, but never really escaping it.

When he showered, he kept his eyes closed, refusing to let his mind wander.

When he lay in bed, he scrolled endlessly on his phone, pretending he didn’t want what he wanted.

And then the script caught up.

It was a late afternoon, sunlight filtering through the set windows in long, golden bars.

Today they were filming the scene where Peach, desperate to understand Khun Thee’s pain, finally reaches for him.

The moment had always been written as intimate, more emotional than physical — Peach’s hand touching Khun Thee’s chest, thumb brushing the ink, as Thee confessed the pain his tattoo represented.

Phuwin read the scene a dozen times, trying to numb himself to it.

He couldn’t.

The night on set felt heavy, thick with the perfume of grass and smoke, torches throwing shadows high on the bamboo.

Phuwin tried not to fidget as the director blocked out the scene, lights flickering on Pond’s bare skin, making the tattoo leap and twist across his chest and shoulder like something alive.

It was quiet except for the hum of insects and the far-off voices of crew resetting props.

Phuwin — now Peach — stood in front of Pond, heart thudding with something he tried to call nerves, tried to call professionalism.

Pond looked dangerous under the lights.

Khun Thee, shirtless, a sarong tied low at his hips, chest exposed and glistening faintly, tattoo bold and dark against skin.

The wolf’s head bared its teeth at Peach, forest curling up Pond’s bicep to where the muscle tensed and flexed every time he shifted.

The director gave a gentle cue.

“Ready. Whenever you are.”

Phuwin nodded, voice almost steady. “Let’s go.”

The scene began: Peach’s line, soft, almost breaking the hush.

“Did it hurt? Getting something this big?” His eyes flicked over the tattoo, letting them linger on the wolf’s snarl, on the pale circle of the moon, on the dark sweep of trees winding up Pond’s arm.

Khun Thee — Pond — didn’t move.

Didn’t blink.

He just let out a breath, the line delivered low and even, as if admitting anything else would cost too much.

“It did,” he said. “But I’m used to pain.”

Phuwin swallowed, eyes tracing the black ink curling over the round swell of Pond’s bicep.

He let his hand rise — slowly, deliberately, so the camera could catch it — fingers hovering just above the tattooed skin.

He could feel the heat radiating from Pond, the pulse in his own palm as he finally, finally let his hand land.

Only on the arm.

Just the arm.

His thumb brushed over the line of the trees, where the ink blurred and feathered out toward Pond’s shoulder.

The muscle was solid and warm under his touch, Pond’s breath hitching almost imperceptibly at the contact.

Peach’s next line came out softer than intended. “Pain isn’t something to get used to,” he said, tracing one of the inked trees with the tip of his finger. “It’s something to overcome.”

Pond’s eyes met his then — something raw in them, something grateful and afraid all at once.

The tension in the scene was written, but what lived in the space between their bodies was not.

Phuwin could barely stand it.

His whole hand itched to move — higher, over the arch of the wolf’s jaw, across the hard flat plane of Pond’s chest, to see if the ink felt any different there, to see if the heat was real or imagined.

He kept himself in check, thumb stroking lightly at the edge of the bicep, careful, reverent, trying not to let his hand tremble.

Pond’s breathing changed, so subtle no one else would notice but him.

He stood so still, letting Peach’s touch linger, but his eyes were locked on Phuwin’s, searching, holding, waiting for something that could never be said out loud.

Phuwin’s own heart was racing.

He fought every urge to press closer, to slide his palm across that entire tattoo, to discover every line the makeup artist had drawn and every secret Pond was hiding beneath.

It was almost unbearable — acting this close, pretending it didn’t mean anything.

“Cut,” the director finally said, voice gentle, almost reluctant to break the moment.

Phuwin let his hand drop, fighting the need to reach again.

Pond gave him a tiny, secret smile — soft, grateful, and just for him.

For a moment, neither of them moved, caught in a hush that was suddenly much too private for the set.

The torches flickered.

The bamboo rustled.

And in the aftermath of the scene, Phuwin’s skin burned everywhere his hand had touched, the ghost of the tattoo lingering on his palm long after the cameras stopped rolling.

He knew, in that breathless silence, that he’d never be able to forget the shape of Pond’s arm beneath his fingers — or the ache of holding back everything he wanted to do.

They filmed it again.

And again.

The first take had gone quiet and deep, but the director, clearly moved by the moment, wanted another for coverage.

Then one more “just to be safe.”

And so they reset.

Same mark.

Same torchlight flickering against damp leaves.

Same air, too still.

Same distance that didn’t feel like distance at all.

Pond stood in front of him, shirtless, the tattoo like a storm etched into his skin — bold, brutal, alive.

His chest rose and fell with slow breaths, but his bicep stayed tensed, waiting for Phuwin’s hand.

Waiting for the moment to come again.

“Ready,” the director called. “Action.”

Phuwin stepped into Peach’s silence again, eyes locked on the tattoo. “Did it hurt?”

Pond’s answer came a touch rougher this time. “I’m used to pain.”

Phuwin reached for his arm.

And this time… he felt everything.

His fingers brushed over Pond’s skin again, only the arm — only the arm — but it was real.

Solid.

Warm.

He didn’t know when Pond had gotten this big.

His bicep filled Phuwin’s whole palm now, firm under the ink, strength coiled like tension just beneath the surface.

Phuwin’s thumb flexed once, like it needed to memorize it.

Pond didn’t flinch.

If anything, he leaned into the contact the smallest amount, just enough to make Phuwin’s pulse spike.

“Pain isn’t something to get used to,” Phuwin said softly, “It’s something to overcome.”

The line still fit in his mouth.

But his voice sounded different to his own ears now — lower.

Shaken at the edges.

Pond’s eyes locked with his, just like the last time.

It wasn’t even acting anymore.

“Cut. Reset one more.”

They didn’t speak between takes.

Pond sat on the edge of the jar, running a towel down his neck, expression unreadable.

Phuwin stood off to the side, fists flexing at his sides, trying to shake the way his hand still burned where it had touched Pond.

His fingers curled unconsciously, like they missed something.

He didn’t want to get out of the scene this time.

Didn’t want an excuse to laugh it off or stumble out early or say "Sorry, can we reset?" like he did on the boat that day.

Then, the kiss had short-circuited him.

He hadn’t been able to bear how much he wanted, how fast it had overwhelmed him.

But this — this was different.

He wasn’t overwhelmed.

He was focused.

Steady.

Hyperaware of everything.

And yet still coming undone from the inside.

“Ready?” the director asked gently.

Phuwin nodded.

Take three.

Same position.

Same line.

But this time, the silence hit harder.

The moment Pond said, “I’m used to pain,” there was a deeper weight behind it — like something real bleeding through Khun Thee’s mask.

Phuwin reached again, fingertips brushing over Pond’s shoulder before sliding down to his bicep, eyes never leaving the tattoo.

His hand lingered longer this time.

Not on purpose.

But once it was there, he couldn’t make himself pull away.

Pond’s arm was warm under his palm.

Too warm.

Muscles firm.

He felt the faint twitch of tension under the skin, the way Pond’s breath hitched, so small it could be missed — but not by him.

His thumb grazed over one of the tall inked trees, a slow stroke that wasn’t in the script.

Pond didn’t move.

He just looked at him.

Phuwin’s throat went dry.

He could feel his own thoughts fracturing: half of him clinging to the script, the other half drowning in the electric closeness, the heat of skin on skin, the weight of everything they weren’t saying.

The ache was creeping back — hot and helpless in his belly, spreading through his chest, curling into his fingertips.

He held steady.

He didn’t break character.

He didn’t let go.

For the first time, he let himself stay in that moment fully — not retreating, not pulling away, not pretending he didn’t feel the way Pond’s body felt under his hands.

The director called “Cut” softer this time.

Phuwin stepped back slowly, like waking from a dream.

But the dream didn’t leave him.

His fingers twitched once at his side as if trying to remember what it felt like to touch Pond’s arm just a second longer.

To move higher.

To trace the lines up to his shoulder, across his collarbone, down over the wolf’s jaw, down his chest — God, no.

He forced the thought away and breathed in deep.

But the scent of torch smoke and Pond’s skin clung to the back of his throat, made it impossible to forget that for three takes — three full, aching takes — he had touched him, really touched him, and hadn’t wanted to stop.

And Pond hadn’t asked him to.

The shoot wrapped with warm praise and soft applause from the crew.

Someone clapped Pond on the shoulder and called his delivery “raw but grounded.”

Someone else told Phuwin he had “such expressive hands” and that the final take gave them goosebumps.

Phuwin mumbled his thanks, offering tight smiles and nods, even as his head buzzed with something entirely else.

It was dark now.

The torches were still lit around the bamboo, flickering gently in the night breeze.

“Hey,” Pond said, sidling up beside him with a soft grin, hair slightly damp at the edges.

His skin smelled faintly of citrus and smoke. “You did good today.”

Phuwin blinked, startled slightly out of his thoughts. “Huh?”

“The scene,” Pond said, and with no warning, lifted his hand to pat Phuwin’s back.

Just a gentle touch between friends.

Familiar.

Warm.

“You were really good.”

Phuwin exhaled. “You too.”

He meant it.

Maybe too much.

Because the image of Pond shirtless, tattooed, warm under the lights  —  under his hand  —  was still looped on repeat in his head.

And worse, layered under it, a memory from the night before: his own body twisted in sheets, one hand trembling, eyes squeezed shut, thinking of this exact man and the tattoo that was now coverd in hoodie.

He couldn’t stop thinking about it.

That the person he’d been so desperate for in the dark was now standing next to him in soft, casual clothes.

Hoodie sleeves pushed up, a pair of grey shorts showing strong calves.

Hair fluffy, posture relaxed.

Everything about Pond now was domestic, comfortable, easy.

But for Phuwin, nothing felt easy.

Especially not when Pond turned to him suddenly, smile lazy and voice soft. “You wanna stay at my condo tonight?”

Phuwin froze.

“What?”

“It’s closer to the set,” Pond added, like it was the most logical thing in the world. “And it’s late. If you go home, you’ll sleep like, three hours before call time tomorrow.”

Phuwin opened his mouth, then closed it.

His brain was screaming at him:

 Say no.

Say you’re tired.

Say anything that gets you out of this.

Because staying at Pond’s condo meant soft lighting and toothpaste routines.

It meant sitting on the same couch watching something they wouldn’t finish.

It meant Pond in a tank top or shirtless again.

It meant sleeping too close on a couch or spare bed that smelled like him.

It meant temptation.

And after that night, Phuwin didn’t trust himself anywhere near temptation.

But then Pond tilted his head slightly.

Eyes wide.

Mouth just a little pouty.

And said, in a voice that was barely joking, “Please? I’ll even give you the good pillow.”

Phuwin’s chest twisted.

That stupid good pillow they always teased each other about.

The one Pond always stole first.

The one Phuwin secretly liked because it smelled like Pond’s shampoo.

He hesitated, heart thudding painfully against his ribs.

“Fine,” he said, too quiet.

Then cleared his throat and added, “Yeah. Okay. Thanks.”

Pond grinned  —  genuinely pleased. “Good. I’ll drive.”

Phuwin nodded, biting the inside of his cheek to keep from doing something embarrassing like sighing out loud.

As they walked toward the car, Phuwin trailed a step behind.

Not because he was tired  —  though he was.

Not because he didn’t want to be near Pond  —  God, he did.

But because he was trying not to drown in the truth curling under his skin like static:

He had touched himself one night to the thought of this man.

And tonight, he’d be sleeping under the same roof as him.

He didn’t know how much longer he could pretend that wasn’t doing something irreversible to him.

The car ride was quiet  —  but not uncomfortable.

Pond drove with one hand on the wheel, the other resting lazily on the gear shift.

His glasses were on, the square black frames sitting perfectly across the bridge of his nose like they were designed just to be cruel.

It wasn’t the first time Phuwin had seen him wear them.

But tonight, somehow, they felt worse.

Because Pond looked too good in them.

Too casual.

Too clean.

Like he had no idea how that stupid hoodie and those glasses and that damn warm voice of his were doing slow, irreversible damage to the man sitting in his passenger seat.

The radio hummed quietly between them, some low, late-night playlist that matched the mood too well  —  soft bass, lazy strumming, a voice crooning about wanting something you shouldn’t touch.

They didn’t talk much.

Just a few words, here and there.

“You tired?”

“A bit. You?”

“Mmhm. Hungry too.”

“Same.”

And then silence again  —  not tense, not awkward.

Just full of everything Phuwin wasn’t saying.

He kept his eyes on the window, watching streetlights flash past, doing his best not to glance sideways at Pond’s profile.

But it was hard.

His hair was still a little damp from set.

His lips were slightly chapped.

One hand casually drummed against the steering wheel in rhythm with the music, and Phuwin caught himself watching the flex of his forearm before jerking his gaze away like he’d touched something hot.

By the time they pulled into the parking garage, Phuwin’s stomach was in knots.

Not from hunger.

From how badly he wanted to pretend this was nothing  —  just convenience, just proximity.

But his body remembered too well what he’d done the night before.

What he’d imagined.

And now the subject of that imagination was walking beside him in sneakers and soft cotton and glasses, unlocking the door to a condo that smelled like coffee and citrus and home.

When they stepped inside the lights were low and warm.

Familiar.

Pond dropped his keys into the ceramic bowl on the counter and toed off his shoes without thinking, yawning into the back of his hand. Phuwin followed slower, heart thudding hard in his chest as he took in the faint scent of food, and then  —  the note.

Pond picked it up with a small grin.

“Ah, my mom left dinner.”

Phuwin blinked. “She is not there?”

“No, she is helping our aunt with something those days and just leave food for me. Says I forget to eat when I’m filming.”

Pond handed him the note  —  a neat little scrawl on the back of a receipt.

“Don’t stay up too late. I left the soup in the pot, rice in the cooker. Sleeping over at Auntie Pim’s. - Mom”

“She’s sweet,” Phuwin murmured, trying not to focus on the part that hit hardest: they were alone.

Completely.

Pond was already pulling out two bowls, his hoodie sleeves shoved up to his forearms.

Phuwin hovered awkwardly by the counter, feeling like a tourist in a place that somehow already felt like memory.

“Sit,” Pond said gently, gesturing to the kitchen island. “I’ll heat it.”

Phuwin obeyed, grateful to do something.

While Pond moved around the kitchen with easy familiarity, Phuwin let his eyes drift  —  not meaning to, but unable to stop.

The way Pond stood barefoot, the way the glasses slid down his nose slightly when he leaned to open the pot.

The way the tattoo wasn’t there anymore on display but still was in Phuwin’s mind  —  burned into his hands, his thoughts, his entire nervous system.

Pond hummed quietly as he plated the rice, spooned soup into bowls, added a splash of chili oil to his own without asking if Phuwin wanted any.

It was so domestic.

So normal.

Like they had done this a thousand times.

Like it didn’t mean anything.

But to Phuwin, everything meant something now.

They sat across from each other at the island, eating quietly, both tired but content.

The food was good  —  hot and a little too spicy, but grounding.

Phuwin took slow bites, letting the steam fog up his thoughts.

“You okay?” Pond asked at one point, voice soft and careful.

Phuwin blinked. “What?”

“You’re quiet.”

Phuwin hesitated.

Then nodded, forcing a small smile. “Just tired.”

Pond nodded. “Me too.”

He didn’t push.

And somehow, that made it worse.

The way Pond always gave him space.

Always knew when not to poke.

Phuwin stared at him across the bowls of soup and thought of how soft his voice had been on set.

How his eyes had fluttered shut when Phuwin touched his arm.

How his muscles had tensed slightly under his fingers like he felt it  —  really felt it.

And now, Pond was sitting in front of him, looking warm and sleepy and real, asking nothing of him but presence.

Phuwin finished his food quietly, heart still pounding.

He didn’t know how this night would end.

But he knew, without question, that being here  —  in this quiet, gentle closeness with Pond  —  was the most dangerous thing he’d done in weeks.

And he was already too far gone to stop.

After they washed their bowls and let the warmth of dinner settle in, Pond wandered over to the fridge, rubbing the back of his neck lazily.

“You want a beer?” he asked, already reaching in.

Phuwin glanced up from where he was toweling his hands. “You sure? We’ve got an early call.”

Pond gave him a look  —  soft, tired, teasing. “Just one. Helps me sleep after shooting late. Helps you loosen up, too.”

He tossed a cold can toward Phuwin, who caught it clumsily, the chill of it biting into his fingers.

Pond popped his open with a satisfying crack and took a slow sip, then wandered back toward the couch like it was nothing, like this was their routine.

And maybe it was now.

Phuwin followed, the can sweating in his palm, and dropped onto the cushion next to him, not too close… but closer than he meant to.

The condo was quiet except for the soft hum of the AC and the faint clink of the cans when they tapped them against each other in a half-hearted cheers.

“To what?” Phuwin asked.

Pond grinned, eyes hidden behind his glasses now pushed up again. “To Me and Thee success and not crying during emotional scenes.”

Phuwin snorted, finally relaxing just enough to take a long sip.

The beer was cold and a little bitter, but it settled something in him.

He felt his shoulders loosen.

His heartbeat slow.

The space between them  —  so charged just an hour ago  —  felt slightly more breathable now.

Only slightly.

They didn’t turn on the TV.

They didn’t need to.

Instead, they just… talked.

About everything.

And nothing.

Set gossip.

The mosquito that bit Pond during the first forest scene.

Phuwin’s ongoing battle with a leaking showerhead at home.

Pond’s mom texting him reminders to wear socks in bed.

The kind of talk that had no destination.

The kind that made the space warmer with every sentence.

And slowly, inevitably, they shifted closer.

Phuwin didn’t notice it at first.

Maybe it was when he turned slightly toward Pond to tell a story.

Or when Pond leaned in, laughing, elbow brushing lightly against his.

Maybe it was when the alcohol softened the edges of their speech, and every word felt heavier, warmer.

But at some point, there were no more safe inches left between them.

Pond’s thigh pressed against his.

Phuwin didn’t move.

Pond’s knee nudged his gently when he laughed again, and this time, Phuwin wanted it.

Wanted more.

His entire body felt wired, tuned to the presence beside him  —  the casual slouch of Pond’s frame, the way the hoodie bunched around his wrists, the rise and fall of his chest with each quiet breath.

Pond took another slow sip and turned his head slightly, eyes meeting Phuwin’s in the low light.

“You’re still quiet,” he said softly, like it was a secret just for them.

Phuwin shrugged.

His voice felt too close to his chest. “I’m just thinking.”

“About what?”

He didn’t answer at first.

Because the truth was this.

This couch.

This beer.

This closeness.

The exact feel of Pond’s thigh against his.

The memory of a tattoo beneath his hand.

And how wrong it was that he could barely focus on anything else.

But Pond didn’t push.

He just smiled faintly, took another sip, and leaned back  —  which only made him slouch closer, thigh pressing in further now, arm brushing along the couch behind Phuwin’s back.

The casual intimacy of it nearly unraveled him.

Phuwin took a long pull from his beer, trying to focus on the fizzy bitterness, on the way the can cooled his palms.

Anything but the fact that Pond’s body was right there, heat radiating into his skin like gravity.

Their knees touched.

And stayed touching.

Their arms shifted.

And didn’t move apart.

The low hum of late-night comfort settled into something dense.

Something warm and unspoken and curling up in Phuwin’s throat.

“I don’t think I should drink the second one,” he mumbled, only half joking.

Pond tilted his head, glasses slipping slightly again. “Why?”

Because you’re sitting too close.

Because I can feel your leg.

Because I’m remembering how I touched myself to the idea of you at night.

Because I want this to be something it isn’t allowed to be.

He smiled weakly. “I’ll fall asleep on your couch again.”

Pond laughed, eyes gentle. “That’s what it’s for.”

The beer was nearly gone now, the cans sweating on the coffee table.

Phuwin didn’t remember putting his down.

His hands were in his lap now, fingers twisting idly  —  not nervously, just … restlessly.

He could feel Pond’s eyes on him again.

Not intense.

Not demanding.

Just there.

Present.

Quiet.

And that silence said more than anything.

Neither of them moved.

Not away.

Not closer.

Just… still.

A breath suspended between two people sitting too close on a couch where the air had shifted and everything felt like it might tip if either of them said one wrong word.

And still, Phuwin couldn’t make himself move.

Because part of him didn’t want to.

The beer was finished, and the quiet had settled deeper now  —  not awkward, but thick.

Pond had slouched a little further down on the couch, arm still draped loosely along the backrest, hoodie sleeves pushed up.

His tank top, soft and slightly oversized, had shifted slightly off his shoulder together.

That was when Phuwin saw it.

Just the smallest bit.

The edge of the tattoo, peeking out from the collar  —  a dark curve of ink against golden skin, catching the warm glow of the floor lamp.

It was just enough.

A sliver of the wolf’s fur.

The beginning of the forest.

A sharp black line that shouldn’t have meant anything.

But to Phuwin, it felt like being struck.

His breath caught without warning.

His eyes locked on the ink before he could stop himself, fingers curling unconsciously in his lap.

That tattoo — that tattoo — he had touched it so gently on set, had felt the heat beneath it, the solid muscle coiled tight under his palm.

And now it was right there.

Real again.

Quietly visible.

His face warmed.

His belly tingled with that same slow, creeping ache he hated admitting even to himself.

The beer, the food, the soft couch  —  everything had made him loose around the edges, more sensitive.

His thoughts were slower now.

But the need was faster.

All he could think about was reaching out.

Just … slipping his fingers under the fabric.

Just touching that curve of ink again.

Just seeing if the heat was the same off-camera.

Without lines.

Without anyone watching.

His gaze didn’t move.

He must’ve stared too long — because suddenly, he heard it.

A quiet sound.

Pond’s hum.

Soft and amused and … knowing.

Phuwin’s eyes snapped up.

And then he froze.

Because Pond was already looking at him.

Not in confusion.

Not teasing.

Just looking — quiet and steady, eyes full of warmth, but something else too.

His ears were red.

His mouth slightly parted, breath catching like maybe he wasn’t sure what to say either.

His entire face was flushed gently pink  —  not from the beer.

Not just that.

And those eyes.

So kind.

So stupidly gentle.

But behind that was a glint — a flicker of something else.

Something quiet and dangerous and slow-burning.

Something Phuwin hadn’t let himself imagine was mutual.

Until now.

He didn’t look away.

Neither did Pond.

The silence stretched like a held breath.

Pond’s thigh pressed a little more into his.

Phuwin didn’t move.

His fingers still twitched slightly in his lap.

Not enough to be seen.

Just enough to feel the ache of wanting something he couldn’t ask for.

Couldn’t name.

Still, neither of them said anything.

They just sat there, barely touching, eyes locked, the room quiet around them  —  and something between them heavy, unspoken, and slowly unraveling.

And in that moment, with the tattoo peeking out and Pond looking at him like that —

Phuwin stopped pretending he wasn’t already completely gone.

He was the first to break.

It all got too loud  —  the closeness, the staring, the way Pond’s eyes kept holding his like they were asking a question Phuwin didn’t know how to answer.

His chest felt tight, breath shallow, like the room had slowly shrunk around them without him noticing.

He leaned back against the couch.

Let his head fall against the cushion, eyes squeezing shut as if that might calm the buzzing under his skin.

His neck arched slightly without him meaning to, throat exposed, a quiet, helpless gesture that felt more honest than anything he’d said all night.

His legs drifted apart.

Not deliberately.

Just … gravity.

Relaxation.

The beer loosening him, his body forgetting to guard itself.

Pond’s thigh pressed closer immediately  —  solid, warm, unmistakably there.

The contact sent a spark straight through Phuwin’s belly, sharp enough that he had to bite down on a sound.

Every nerve in his body lit up at once, awareness blooming too fast, too intense.

He let out a slow sigh.

It slipped from him before he could stop it  —  low, tired, edged with something dangerously close to relief.

When he opened his eyes again, Pond was already looking at him.

Still.

Quiet.

Closer than before.

The couch dipped slightly as Pond shifted, and Phuwin felt it everywhere.

His hoodie had ridden up a little more now, the collar stretched just enough that the tattoo was no longer a secret.

Dark ink curved boldly across skin, the wolf’s fur visible now, the forest climbing strong muscle.

Phuwin’s gaze moved there automatically.

He didn’t even fight it.

His eyes traced the line of the ink like his hand had done days ago  —  slow, reverent, aching.

The memory of touching it flooded back into his palm, so vivid it almost hurt.

Pond noticed.

Phuwin knew he did because Pond inhaled softly, chest rising under the fabric, and his own gaze flickered down for half a second  —  like he suddenly understood what Phuwin was seeing.

Then Pond spoke.

His voice was gentle, but roughened around the edges  —  from the beer, from the long day, from something emotional he hadn’t put words to yet.

“…do you like it?”

Phuwin froze.

Pond swallowed once, ears still pink, eyes searching Phuwin’s face carefully  —  not teasing, not smug.

Just open.

“You keep staring,” Pond said quietly. “At the tattoo.”

The words hung between them.

Phuwin’s heart slammed hard against his ribs.

Heat rushed up his neck, his face burning, embarrassment crashing into something deeper  —  something more dangerous.

“I — ” His throat felt dry.

He stopped, exhaled, tried again. “I didn’t mean to.”

“I know,” Pond said softly.

Their knees pressed fully together now.

Phuwin’s eyes lifted slowly, reluctantly, meeting Pond’s again.

The gentleness was still there  —  but now there was no mistaking the other thing beneath it.

Curiosity.

Vulnerability.

A careful kind of hope.

The room felt unbearably quiet.

Phuwin’s fingers curled into the couch cushion beside him, knuckles pale, fighting the instinct to reach.

To touch.

To confirm what he already knew was real.

“I just…” He swallowed, voice barely there. “It suits you.”

Pond’s breath stuttered.

Just a little.

And in that moment  —  with Phuwin half-sprawled against the couch, heart racing, Pond close enough that his warmth was impossible to ignore, the tattoo fully visible now  —  neither of them looked away.

Not anymore.

The silence stretched again, heavier than before.

And this time, it didn’t feel like tension waiting to be escaped.

It felt like something waiting to be chosen.

Pond hummed again.

It was barely a sound  —  something low and absentminded, like he didn’t realize he was doing it  —  but it went straight through Phuwin anyway.

His ears had gone red, the color spreading just beneath his hair, and his eyes fluttered for a brief second, lashes dipping like the moment had grown too heavy for him too.

His lips pouted slightly.

Not on purpose.

Just the way his mouth settled when he was nervous, or thinking too hard, or feeling something he didn’t know how to name.

Phuwin’s chest tightened painfully.

Every instinct in him screamed to lean forward.

To close the distance.

To put Pond close and never let go  —  to kiss him right there, soft at first and then deeper, to prove that the pull between them wasn’t imaginary.

He fought it.

His hands curled hard into the couch cushion, fingers digging in like anchors.

His breathing went shallow, uneven.

He could feel his pulse everywhere  —  throat, wrists, belly  —  the world narrowing until there was nothing but Pond sitting there, flushed and gentle and unbearably close.

Something inside him cracked anyway.

Not loudly.

Not dramatically.

Just… quietly giving way.

“Can I — ” Phuwin started, then stopped, throat dry.

He forced himself to breathe in, steadying. “Can I see it again?”

The words hung in the air, fragile.

Pond blinked.

For a second, he didn’t answer.

His eyes searched Phuwin’s face, careful, like he was checking for something  —  fear, regret, a joke.

Finding none of it, his teeth caught his lower lip, biting down lightly as his gaze dropped and lifted again.

“… yeah,” he mumbled.

The answer was soft.

Uneven.

And then he moved.

Still sitting beside Phuwin on the couch, Pond reached up to the zipper of his hoodie.

A small sound broke the silence  —  the metal teeth parting with a soft rasp that somehow made Phuwin’s breath hitch.

The fabric peeled away slowly, Pond shrugging it off one arm at a time, the sleeves falling from his wrists as he tugged it loose.

He folded it over his lap, not tossing it aside like usual.

Not careless.

Not thoughtless.

Then his hands dipped under the hem of his tank top  —  a plain one, black, the kind he always wore at home  —  and pulled it up.

Phuwin’s eyes followed every movement helplessly.

The tank top rode up Pond’s stomach first, revealing the stretch of firm skin beneath, the faint dip of his waist, and then higher  —  over his ribs, the curves of muscle along his sides  —  and then, finally, his chest.

The tattoo appeared like a slow reveal: first the tips of the forest trees, then the moon curling near his collarbone, and then the wolf’s fur, fierce and textured and dark across the hard slope of Pond’s pec.

Pond tugged the tank top fully over his head and let it fall on the couch beside him, exhaling faintly as it slipped free.

And Phuwin —

Phuwin just stared.

Frozen.

His cheeks went warm immediately.

Hot, actually.

Because it wasn’t just the tattoo.

Not anymore.

It was everything with it.

Pond’s chest was big  —  bigger than Phuwin had ever realized, or maybe just never let himself notice this much.

His shoulders were wide, his pecs firm and defined, the muscles shifting slightly as he leaned back on one hand.

The tattoo wrapped around him like it belonged there, stretching over skin like it had grown from him.

It made everything look sharper.

Realer.

Undeniable.

Phuwin’s eyes dropped  —  to the curve of Pond’s bicep, thick and flexed subtly where it pressed against the couch cushion, the ink brushing the edge of it like the forest was wrapping around his strength.

He drank it in  —  the sight of him like this.

Bare.

Quiet.

So open.

And somehow still soft.

The kind of soft that could undo a person if they weren’t careful.

Pond turned his head slightly then, and Phuwin’s gaze snapped up just in time to see him looking  —  really looking  —  like he’d known exactly what he was doing, and now he was waiting to see what Phuwin would do with it.

Their eyes locked.

Pond’s cheeks were pink now too.

Not from shyness.

Not just from beer.

But from the weight of the silence.

The tension.

The fact that he had just undressed in front of someone who couldn’t hide how intensely they were seeing him.

Phuwin swallowed hard, throat tight, fingers still clenched in his lap.

His whole body buzzed  —  every inch of him too aware, too tuned in to the way Pond’s body sat beside him, warm and bare and breathing slow.

The words in his head were too dangerous to say.

So he didn’t speak.

He just looked.

And Pond didn’t look away.

Phuwin didn’t mean to say it aloud.

The words slipped out before he could stop them, breath hitched and voice thinner than usual  —  barely there.

“… can I touch it?”

The silence that followed stretched like a held breath.

Pond blinked, eyes wide  —  not shocked, not teasing.

Just open.

His lips parted, and a flush began to climb up his neck, spreading across his collarbones in real time.

His ears turned red again, and his gaze dropped briefly to his own chest before flickering back up to Phuwin, searching his face carefully, like he was still making sure he wasn’t misreading something.

Then, without a word, he shifted forward.

He tucked one leg under himself and sat right in front of Phuwin on the couch  —  knees close, posture small, almost shy, like some quiet animal that had been called closer.

Like a puppy waiting to be petted.

Phuwin’s breath caught completely.

Pond looked… soft.

Bare.

So stupidly beautiful.

And so, so close.

The tattoo, now only inches away, was even more vivid than Phuwin remembered.

The wolf’s fur curled over solid muscle, the trees sharper, the moon catching the light of the room.

His skin glowed warm  —  the kind of glow that only came from being completely unguarded.

Phuwin couldn’t fight the urge anymore.

He lifted one hand slowly  —  not rushed, not greedy  —  just aching.

Fingers trembling slightly, he reached out and gently combed through Pond’s hair, pushing it back from his forehead.

His fingers grazed skin, warm and soft at the temple.

Pond let him, lashes fluttering once, then settling into the touch like he’d been waiting for it.

The intimacy of it made Phuwin’s chest tighten.

Then he looked down again  —  at the tattoo, the ink, the arm.

So close now.

So real.

Closer than even on set.

No cameras.

No stage blocking.

No character names.

Just Pond.

And Phuwin.

And this moment.

He reached down carefully, breath held, and let one fingertip trace along Pond’s bicep  —  following the curve of the ink where it brushed the edge of the forest.

The muscle flexed slightly under his touch, not out of resistance, but reflex.

It was warm and solid and alive, the lines of the tattoo dancing with the shape of Pond’s body.

Phuwin swallowed hard.

Then, slowly, he wrapped his hand around Pond’s arm  —  not too tight, just enough to feel the strength beneath the skin.

His fingers didn’t quite meet.

His thumb stroked once, absently, across the wolf’s jawline.

Pond didn’t move.

His breathing had gone quiet, his eyes lowered, like he couldn’t quite look Phuwin in the face while being touched like this.

But he stayed.

Let him.

Let it happen.

Phuwin wanted to say something.

Anything.

But there were no words for this.

No way to explain what it meant to be allowed to touch someone like this  —  when everything in his body was already burning from the memory of that ink, that night, that ache he’d tried so hard to bury.

The air between them shimmered with everything unsaid.

And still, Pond didn’t pull away.

Phuwin’s hand flexed instinctively around Pond’s bicep.

He hadn’t meant to squeeze  —  it just happened, fingers tightening slightly as if to reassure himself that Pond was real, solid, there.

The muscle shifted beneath his grip, warm and strong, and the closeness suddenly felt overwhelming.

They were too close now.

Pond had lowered his head, eyes following Phuwin’s hand as it rested against his arm.

Their hair brushed, a soft, accidental touch that sent a shiver through Phuwin’s spine.

The room felt smaller, the air heavier, like it was pressing in around them.

Phuwin noticed then how tense Pond was.

His hands were clenched in his lap, fingers gripping fabric like he was holding himself still.

Like he was trying not to move, not to rush, not to scare this moment away.

Something in Phuwin softened.

He loosened his grip on Pond’s arm and reached out gently, brushing his knuckles against Pond’s hands  —  not pulling them away, just touching, grounding.

A silent it’s okay.

A quiet you can breathe.

Pond looked up.

Their eyes met.

And for a second, everything else disappeared.

The noise of the world fell away, leaving only the warmth between them, the awareness humming under their skin.

Pond’s eyes were dark, searching, his breath shallow.

Phuwin felt his own pulse hammering everywhere at once.

Slowly  —  carefully  —  Phuwin let his hand leave Pond’s arm and move higher.

He touched the tattoo again.

This time, he traced it with more intention, fingertips following the lines he already knew by heart.

The curve of the wolf’s fur.

The sharp edge of the trees.

Each stroke deliberate, reverent, like he was reading something sacred written into skin.

His belly tingled with every inch he traced.

The closer his fingers moved to the center of Pond’s chest, the harder it was to breathe.

The warmth there felt different  —  more vulnerable.

When his touch brushed near the edge of where the ink curved close to sensitive skin — closer now to the darker skin near Pond’s nipple - that’s when Pond gasped.

Phuwin froze.

Before he could move away, Pond’s hand snapped up — grabbed hard at his hip.

The strength of it made Phuwin jolt, made his breath catch, made his cock jump in his jeans like it had been waiting for that touch.

The grip stayed.

Firm.

Possessive.

Pond’s palm spread wide on his hipbone, his thumb pressing into the soft line just under the waistband of Phuwin’s jeans.

It wasn’t rough.

But it wasn’t shy, either.

It was deliberate.

Phuwin’s hand flexed, curling over Pond’s chest, fingers spreading — now fully covering the pec, feeling the muscle twitch under him, the nipple stiffening beneath his palm.

The warmth of it sent sparks rushing down his spine.

Their faces were so close.

Noses brushed.

Foreheads nudged.

And they breathed each other in — deep and shallow all at once, their chests barely moving, tension winding tighter and tighter until Phuwin swore he could hear it hum.

And then it happened.

Their lips touched.

Just barely.

Too soft for how hard they were both gripping.

Too gentle for the chaos behind their ribs.

Just a ghost of contact.

The kind of kiss that asked — can I? — and got its answer in the way neither of them pulled back.

Then they kissed again.

This time slower.

Lips parting.

Moving.

Finding rhythm.

Their mouths fit together too well, and Phuwin felt dizzy — swaying slightly as Pond’s other arm came around him, wrapping firm around his waist, pulling him impossibly closer.

Phuwin’s hand slid up from Pond’s chest to his shoulder, fingers curling over the thick muscle of his arm.

His other hand — almost without thinking — lifted to Pond’s hair, threading through it, brushing softly at the roots like he was touching something sacred.

Pond made a sound — deep in his chest, like a sigh and a groan and a fuck all in one.

And then Phuwin licked into his mouth.

A tentative stroke of tongue.

Just once.

Testing.

Pond responded instantly — mouth opening, hand tightening on Phuwin’s waist, pulling him close enough that their hips touched, flush, and Phuwin felt the unmistakable heat of Pond’s interest pressing firm against him.

Phuwin gasped into his mouth.

The kiss turned deeper.

Slower but needier.

Their tongues moved in slow, wet slides, breath mingling, lips parting and catching again.

Every motion was heavy with restraint.

With all the things they hadn’t said.

All the touches they hadn’t dared.

All the days of pretending.

But here, with Pond’s hand anchoring him by the hip, and Phuwin’s fingers tangled in his hair, there was no pretending left.

The kiss had broken — but not the moment.

Not the heat pulsing between them.

Not the look in Pond’s eyes.

He was still so close, sitting on the couch like he wasn’t sure what to do with himself, arms loose at his sides, but his whole chest was rising fast, breath short.

His ears were bright red, lips swollen and wet, and his dark eyes locked onto Phuwin’s with something unguarded — something wanting, but hesitant.

Phuwin watched him carefully, chest fluttering.

He’d felt the way Pond had gasped when he touched the edge of that tattoo.

Had seen the flicker in his eyes when Phuwin’s thumb brushed over his nipple by accident.

So now — slowly, purposefully — Phuwin brought his hand back up to Pond’s chest.

He paused just over the wolf inked there, eyes flicking up to meet Pond’s.

His fingers hovered over the sharp lines of the beast, over the ink that melted into the swell of Pond’s pec and over his heart.

“Is it okay if I touch you more?” Phuwin asked softly.

Steady.

Deliberate.

Pond blinked, like he hadn’t expected to be asked.

His lips parted — but it took him a second to speak.

He looked like he was working through it, that heat and instinct warring with his natural caution.

Then, finally — quiet, but sure — “Yes.”

So Phuwin moved.

He pressed his palm flat over the tattoo, fingers tracing the inked snarl of the wolf’s mouth, following it up toward the collarbone, then down.

His thumb brushed just barely across Pond’s nipple again.

This time on purpose.

Pond twitched.

His breath caught.

His big hands clenched against his thighs as if unsure whether to grab or to stay still.

Phuwin’s voice dropped a little more, low and calm despite the way his belly was tingling.

“Is it okay?”

Pond nodded.

Hesitant.

But his eyes were heavy-lidded now, mouth parted like he was barely holding himself together.

Phuwin slid in closer.

He brought one leg over Pond’s lap and settled gently into place — knees on either side of his thighs, bodies aligned.

He moved like he’d done it before, like he wasn’t waiting for permission anymore — just gauging Pond’s every reaction as he took his place.

Pond’s hands hovered mid-air for a moment, uncertain where to go.

Phuwin reached down and gently guided them to his own hips.

“You can touch me,” he whispered, voice soft but firm. “It’s okay.”

Pond’s hands closed around him instantly, large palms warm on his waist, gripping like he was afraid Phuwin might disappear.

Phuwin leaned in, lips brushing the edge of Pond’s jaw, and moved his hand again — over the ink, back to the nipple.

He dragged his thumb over it, slow and deliberate, watching the way Pond trembled beneath him.

Phuwin hummed, pleased, then flattened his hand over the pec, thumb teasing again — this time slower, firmer, circling until he felt the nipple peak under his touch.

Pond groaned, hands tightening at Phuwin’s hips in response.

“You’re beautiful like this,” Phuwin murmured, voice barely more than breath, leaning in just enough that their noses brushed.

Pond’s breath hitched again. “You’re gonna drive me crazy.”

Phuwin smiled — soft, almost teasing — and kissed him again.

Slow.

Deep.

The kind of kiss that says I know.

Let me.

Pond kissed back like he was learning it.

Like he was pouring months of restraint into the shape of their mouths.

But his hands stayed steady on Phuwin’s hips, grounding them both.

As they kissed, Phuwin’s fingers traced the ink again — along the line of the forest, toward the shoulder.

Then down.

Back to the nipple.

He rolled it between finger and thumb just once.

Pond groaned, deep and helpless, and instinctively bucked his hips up.

Phuwin gasped softly, pulling back, flushed and wide-eyed but still in control.

And as he leaned forward to kiss him again — tattoo under his palm, strength in his thighs, fire burning low and sure in his belly — Pond let himself melt.

Strong.

Powerful.

But gently held.

Just like Phuwin wanted.

Phuwin arched forward, unable to help himself.

The desire to kiss Pond — to feel him, taste him — was overwhelming now, rushing under his skin like heat that had nowhere else to go.

He leaned in and pressed his lips to Pond’s jaw first, then to the corner of his mouth, soft and slow, and then lower.

His hands slid down, gripping at Pond’s hips, and he kissed his way across that wide chest like it was something sacred.

“Phuwin — ” Pond breathed, voice already wrecked, already needy.

But Phuwin didn’t answer.

He was too focused, too locked in.

He kissed down further, tongue flicking along Pond’s collarbone, lips hot against skin, working his way to the ink he’d traced earlier.

The tattoo.

The wolf.

It stared back at him from Pond’s chest, fierce and wild, inked in sharp blacks and greys, jaw open in a snarl.

Phuwin’s hand gripped Pond’s bicep for balance, needing something solid to hold on to as he dipped his head and finally pressed his lips to the wolf’s muzzle.

He kissed it once.

Then again, slower.

Like he’d dreamed about this.

Like he was thanking it for existing.

His other hand drifted downward — over the hard lines of Pond’s abdomen, the tight ridges of muscle that flexed under his touch.

He ghosted his fingers there at first, just gentle sweeps, but when Pond sucked in a breath and shivered, he pressed harder, fingertips dragging slow patterns down toward his navel, then back up again.

Pond’s hands — God, those big, warm hands — were under Phuwin’s shirt now.

Palms pressed flat to his lower back, fingers moving along his waist and slipping up over the soft skin of his sides.

Touching him like he couldn’t get enough.

“Feels so good,” Pond whispered, voice thick, eyes fluttering shut.

Phuwin bucked his hips instinctively — grinding down into Pond’s lap — and found him already hard, already hot beneath his shorts.

He gasped softly at the friction, at the clear want in both their bodies.

They moved again, both of them now panting, lips parted, sweat starting to bead between them.

But still — Phuwin didn’t rush.

He kept his mouth at the tattoo, trailing slow kisses along the edge of the wolf’s snarl, down into the trees etched into Pond’s skin.

His tongue flicked out, tracing the lines.

His lips pressed reverent heat into every shadow of ink.

Pond groaned, head falling back, hands tightening on Phuwin’s sides.

His thumbs brushed upward, teasing just under the swell of Phuwin’s ribs.

Phuwin lowered his head again, kissing over the center of Pond’s chest, lips soft and mouth open, warm breath against skin.

His hand stayed on Pond’s abs, feeling the muscles jump and clench under his touch, while the other now slipped around to the back of Pond’s neck, holding him close.

Their hips rocked again — slow and grinding — both of them hard, both of them chasing friction without even meaning to.

The room was thick with breath, with the sound of lips on skin, the heat of bodies barely clothed.

Phuwin felt powerful and undone all at once.

Because he knew what he was doing.

And Pond was letting him.

Wanting him.

Every gasp, every tremble, every needy grind upward into Phuwin’s hips told him that this wasn’t one-sided.

It was a shared unraveling.

Phuwin couldn’t stop.

He didn’t want to stop.

Not when Pond sounded like that — like every breath out of him was slipping past the edge of control.

Not when his hands were wrapped so tight around Phuwin’s waist, gripping the soft skin there like it grounded him, like it mattered.

Phuwin shifted lower, lips trailing back down the tattoo — past the wolf’s snarl, across the curve of Pond’s chest — until he reached the nipple again.

He paused, breath ghosting over it, then leaned in and kissed it.

Just once.

Soft.

Pond’s whole body twitched.

Then Phuwin licked.

Flat, slow, tongue dragging right over the hardening nub — and that was when Pond whined.

Not quietly.

Not politely.

It was a raw, helpless sound, punched out of him like he hadn’t meant to let it go.

Phuwin groaned in response, head falling slightly, cock jerking between them.

It was too much.

The taste of Pond’s skin.

The grip on his waist.

The power in the way Pond trembled for him, like he didn’t know what to do with all that strength except give it up to Phuwin piece by piece.

He licked again, more desperate this time, tongue circling, lips closing around the nipple to suck gently.

Pond’s hands tightened at his waist, fingers pressing hard into his skin, and Phuwin nearly gasped into his chest.

He couldn’t help it — his hips rocked forward once, slowly, mindlessly, chasing friction.

His hand scraped lightly over Pond’s abs as he kissed lower, fingers twitching as if overwhelmed by the shape of the muscle under his palm.

Another soft whine from Pond.

Another lick.

And then —

“Phuwin …”

Pond said his name.

But not just said — breathed it, like it meant something sacred.

His voice cracked on it, low and tender, so overwhelmed and vulnerable that it nearly shattered Phuwin in half.

Phuwin pulled back just enough to see his face.

Pond looked wrecked.

Flushed cheeks, damp lashes, lips swollen and parted like he couldn’t breathe right.

And beneath it all, something deep — something yearning.

His cock was hard beneath Phuwin, pressing up in his shorts, but his lap stayed steady, strong arms holding Phuwin in place like he was afraid he might vanish.

The tattoo rose and fell with Pond’s breath.

It was all Phuwin’s to touch.

But then — suddenly — Pond murmured, “It’s unfair.”

Phuwin blinked, breath catching. “What is?”

He leaned forward, petting Pond’s hair slowly, brushing his fingers through the damp strands at his temple, trying to soothe whatever shift had happened.

Pond’s eyes fluttered half-closed under his touch.

“That you still have your shirt on,” he said, voice rough and warm.

Phuwin stared at him.

Then — something in him broke open again.

He smiled, small and wrecked, overwhelmed and turned on beyond reason.

He leaned in and kissed the corner of Pond’s mouth — slow, soft, lingering.

“Then let’s take it off,” Phuwin whispered.

And then — he sat up slowly, straddling Pond with confidence he hadn’t known he had, reaching for the hem of his shirt with fingers that trembled only slightly.

And Pond… Pond watched him like he was watching a miracle.

The second Phuwin pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it aside, Pond’s hands were on him.

No hesitation.

Like he’d been waiting — not just minutes, but forever — to touch him like this.

He ran his palms over every inch he could reach — Phuwin’s throat, his collarbones, the slope of his chest.

Fingers traced the soft skin just under his ribs, thumbs brushing teasingly across his nipples, making Phuwin gasp.

His stomach fluttered under Pond’s touch, his whole body electric, so sensitive it was dizzying.

Then both of Pond’s hands slid back down and grabbed Phuwin’s waist.

Firm.

Greedy.

He squeezed — just hard enough to make Phuwin moan — and then helped him rock forward, their hips grinding together, both of them so hard it felt unbearable.

Their hips dragged in all the wrong ways, all the right ways, and Pond’s lap was so solid, so steady beneath him — holding him there, guiding the movement, pulling him closer with every rut of his hips.

Phuwin’s hands fluttered uselessly for a second, like he didn’t know where to anchor himself.

Everything was too much — Pond’s big hands, the heat between them, the way his skin felt against Phuwin’s own now, no more barriers.

And then he noticed Pond’s hair — soft and a little too long, falling into his eyes with every tilt of his head, damp with sweat.

Phuwin reached up without thinking and gently brushed the strands away, tucking them behind Pond’s ear, fingers lingering just a little too long on his temple.

Pond’s eyes lifted.

They were dark and glassy, full of something so raw it made Phuwin shiver.

His lips parted like he wanted to say something but didn’t know how.

Then, softly — barely more than a whisper:

“You’re so pretty.”

Phuwin froze.

Everything inside him tightened — heart racing, breath catching, hips stuttering in their rhythm as his brain struggled to catch up to the words.

“W-What…?”

Pond blinked like he couldn’t believe he’d said it out loud, but didn’t take it back.

His thumb rubbed soft at Phuwin’s waist now, slower.

Reassuring.

Honest.

“I mean it,” he said, a little firmer this time. “You’re the prettiest thing I’ve ever touched.”

Phuwin nearly folded.

His chest swelled, and his heart was beating so fast it hurt.

It ached.

Not just from arousal, not just from the way their bodies moved together, but from this.

This boy under him, holding him, saying things he didn’t have to, but wanted to.

Pond looked up at him like he meant it.

Like Phuwin was beautiful.

Like he was something worth worshipping.

And Phuwin leaned in — kissed him again.

This time deeper.

Slower.

More open.

With everything in him.

Their hips were still grinding.

Their hands were still wandering.

But that kiss —

That kiss was what made Phuwin fall completely.

Their kiss had turned slow and messy — so messy.

Wet lips, tongues slipping, soft gasps exchanged in between.

Every time Phuwin moved, Pond groaned, and every time Pond moaned, Phuwin felt it right in his spine, like lightning.

Their mouths opened again and again, finding each other over and over with no rhythm, no pattern — just instinct.

Want.

Need.

Phuwin threaded his fingers through Pond’s hair, still damp and falling into his eyes, and played with it gently.

When he tugged — just a little, testing — Pond moaned into his mouth, deep and low like he’d been waiting for that exact touch.

It lit Phuwin up.

He did it again, just a bit firmer, fingers curling at the roots — and Pond shuddered beneath him, hands roaming over his bare back like he didn’t know where to land.

They glided from his shoulder blades down to the dip of his spine, fingertips drawing invisible patterns, making Phuwin grind down harder without even meaning to.

Fuck, he was so hard.

So was Pond.

Every shift in Phuwin’s hips rubbed them together through their jeans, slow and maddening, pressure building in aching waves.

And still — still — Pond held him like he was breakable.

Like he was something precious, not just someone to touch, but someone to cherish.

Phuwin had never felt this wanted and this safe all at once.

The pressure in his belly twisted tighter, his body rolling forward with every pass of Pond’s hands, every grind of their hips.

He never wanted to leave this.

This kiss, this lap, this touch.

“Pond,” he whispered between kisses, lips dragging across Pond’s jaw, voice high and trembling. “Feels so good.”

Pond’s breath caught like he’d been waiting to hear that.

Then his hands slipped lower — past Phuwin’s waist, fingers sliding over the soft curve of his lower back.

Then lower still.

He cupped Phuwin’s ass.

Gently at first, like he wasn’t sure he was allowed.

Then, bolder, he squeezed — one big hand wrapping around a cheek, the other steadying his hips as they rocked again, slow and deep.

Phuwin moaned — sharp and choked, hips stuttering at the contact, head falling against Pond’s shoulder.

“Fuck — Pond — ”

Pond’s voice was tight, trembling, warm against his ear.

“If we don’t stop now…” his grip on Phuwin’s ass flexed again, voice breaking slightly. “I won’t be able to.”

The confession hit Phuwin straight in the chest.

He pulled back just enough to look at Pond’s face — his flushed cheeks, his swollen lips, the way his eyes looked so wrecked and still so gentle, like he was holding back the ocean for Phuwin’s sake.

And Phuwin — he was already drowning.

He leaned forward, kissed him again, softer this time, like a promise.

“Then don’t.”

Pond looked up at him, eyes still heavy, lips kiss-bruised and shining, but there was something clear in his gaze — steady, holding Phuwin there like a tether.

“Are you sure?” he asked quietly, even as his big, veiny hand flexed again where it held Phuwin’s ass.

His thumb pressed gently into the soft dip beneath the curve, drawing the smallest gasp from Phuwin’s lips.

“You don’t have to do anything. Not if you’re not sure.”

It made Phuwin’s chest ache — how kind he was, even now, even like this.

They were flushed together, sweat slicked and trembling, Phuwin’s cock hard and leaking between them, pressed right against the firm heat of Pond’s abs.

And still Pond waited.

Still, he asked.

Phuwin leaned in and wrapped his arms around him fully, chest to chest, hearts hammering against each other like fists.

He nuzzled into Pond’s neck, whispering the answer right there against his skin, breath shaking.

“I want you.”

Pond exhaled like he’d been holding it in for hours.

His arms came around Phuwin instantly, wrapping him up, strong and gentle, holding him so close there was no space left.

Their skin met everywhere — Phuwin’s thighs bracketing Pond’s waist, his cock rubbing right over the hard ridges of Pond’s abs with every helpless rock of his hips.

Pond let him.

Let him move.

Held him steady.

Firm.

Phuwin moaned softly, overwhelmed by the pressure, by the way Pond just took it — letting him grind and grind and chase friction, nothing in his grip but quiet permission.

Every movement sent sparks through his spine, pressure curling low and tight in his belly.

Then Phuwin leaned down again, breath hot against Pond’s chest, and kissed the tattoo.

Slowly.

With purpose.

He licked over the black lines of the wolf’s jaw, lips trailing to the trees beside it, and kissed over the ink like it belonged to him.

Like Pond belonged to him.

Pond groaned, the sound low and broken, his hand tightening around the plush curve of Phuwin’s ass, squeezing firmly, fingers spreading as if to memorize every inch of him.

His other hand came up and buried itself in Phuwin’s hair, threading through the damp strands and petting softly at his nape — like he didn’t know whether to hold him or worship him.

“You’re driving me crazy,” Pond whispered, voice rough, lips pressed to Phuwin’s temple.

Phuwin just kept grinding, breathless, flushed, kissing over the tattoo like he’d been waiting for this exact moment all his life.

And Pond held him through it — one hand on his ass, guiding his movements, the other soothing his hair, keeping him close, safe, theirs.

Pond’s breath was uneven now, his chest rising with every shallow inhale as Phuwin kissed over the ink on his skin, as their bodies rocked slow and desperate together.

Then — gently, slowly — Pond moved one hand up, fingers curling under Phuwin’s jaw.

His big hand wrapped around Phuwin’s face, thumb brushing his cheekbone, calloused palm cupping the soft curve of it.

It made Phuwin shiver, something in his chest pulling tight.

“Look at me,” Pond murmured.

Phuwin did.

Pond’s gaze was searching, stormy with want but laced with care, scanning every part of Phuwin’s face like he needed to see it all before they moved forward.

His thumb swept just beneath Phuwin’s eye, brushing at flushed skin.

“Are you really sure?” he whispered again, like the question had to be repeated, like he needed to hear it straight from Phuwin’s lips with no air between them.

Phuwin didn’t answer with words at first.

Instead — he leaned forward and kissed Pond’s hand.

Soft, reverent, lips pressing into the center of Pond’s palm, then into the pad of his thumb as it touched his cheek.

He lingered there a moment, eyes closed, heart racing so fast he thought it might break apart.

Then, breathlessly, “Yes. I’m really sure.”

Pond exhaled like the last of his restraint was leaving his body.

His other hand moved down, sliding to the waistband of Phuwin’s jeans, fingers slow but trembling slightly.

He reached for the zipper, glancing up one last time — but Phuwin was already there, hands moving to help him, too needy now to pretend he could wait a second longer.

He pushed his hips forward a little, letting Pond tug the zipper down, then lifted off his lap just enough to shimmy out of his jeans.

They got stuck partway down his thighs, but he didn’t care.

He wasn’t trying to be perfect — he was just trying to stay close.

He kicked them off with a huff and didn’t even pause to breathe.

“You too,” he said, voice thin, trembling, but determined.

He tugged at the hem of Pond’s shorts clumsily, fingers hooking into the waistband, fumbling at the button. “Don’t want to waste time anymore. Please.”

Pond looked at him, eyes wide, lips parted — and then he nodded, swallowing hard.

“Okay,” he whispered.

They moved together, hurried and breathless, tugging and shifting, bumping knees and fumbling with belt loops — but never parting for long.

They undressed like they couldn’t bear the idea of distance, of space between their bodies.

And when they were both finally stripped down to nothing but skin, flushed and panting, they found each other again.

Phuwin sank back into Pond’s lap, bare now, heat meeting heat, cocks pressed together, and both of them groaned at the contact.

“God,” Pond whispered, forehead pressing to Phuwin’s, voice full of awe. “You’re so beautiful.”

Phuwin closed his eyes, overwhelmed, and whispered, “So are you.”

And then they moved again — together, finally, bare, honest, real — and nothing else in the world mattered.

Pond moved before Phuwin even realized what was happening — strong arms sliding under his thighs, lifting him effortlessly.

It was nothing to him, how easily he carried Phuwin back against the cushions, lowering him down with such careful strength it made Phuwin’s belly flutter and his heart lurch.

He gasped softly, back arching instinctively as he sank into the couch, legs folding and spreading just a little on instinct.

And then — Pond just looked at him.

Like he was something rare.

Something precious.

Something Pond had only ever dreamed of holding, and couldn’t believe he was allowed to have.

Phuwin’s cheeks burned, breath shaky.

“How are you looking at me like that,” he whispered, voice barely holding.

Because Pond was the one who looked unreal.

Messy soft hair falling into his eyes.

That face — boyish and sweet and desperate all at once, lips swollen and glistening from their kisses.

His body was broad, powerful, white skin gleaming under the dim light, muscles shifting as he leaned over Phuwin.

And then — his cock.

Hard and flushed and glistening with precum, twitching between them, so thick it made Phuwin’s thighs part further without thinking, his body aching to be filled, to be touched again.

It was like Pond’s existence was turning him on beyond what his body could process.

He couldn’t even control it anymore — his hips tilted up on their own, legs falling open as his cock throbbed between them, leaking against his belly.

Pond’s eyes dragged down his body — slow, reverent — then back up to meet his gaze.

“You’re driving me insane,” Pond whispered.

And then — he kissed him.

But not sweet this time.

This kiss had weight.

It was deeper, more needy, lips pressing hard to Phuwin’s, tongue sliding in without waiting.

Phuwin moaned into it, hands flying to Pond’s arms, nails scraping lightly at the muscles there as he let himself fall into the kiss, let Pond take it from him.

Their bodies pressed together, chest to chest, hips to hips, heat rolling between them in waves as Pond ground down slightly — just once — a testing slide of friction that made them both gasp into each other’s mouths.

Phuwin broke the kiss with a whimper, head falling back, throat exposed.

Pond leaned in and kissed under his jaw, whispering something low and breathless:

“I need you. I don’t know how to be slow anymore.”

And Phuwin — panting, legs open, voice shaking — whispered back:

“Then don’t.”

Pond had leaned in so close — his mouth still brushing Phuwin’s, breath warm and uneven — but then he paused.

Phuwin felt it in the stillness of his body, the tiny flicker of hesitation behind those deep, heavy-lidded eyes.

And then Pond pulled back just an inch, blinking like he’d suddenly remembered something, voice soft and almost ashamed.

“I don’t… have anything,” he murmured. “I didn’t bring —  I wasn’t expecting this.”

The words hung in the air for a moment.

His gaze dropped, hand still cupping Phuwin’s cheek gently, but his confidence had flickered, cracked at the edges.

His lip pulled in between his teeth.

Even now — with his body flushed, cock leaking against Phuwin’s stomach, arms caging him in — he looked shy.

Embarrassed.

Like he’d somehow failed just by not being ready.

And Phuwin’s heart roared at the sight of it.

God, he’s so cute.

Even now — towering over him, thick and hard and panting — he looked like the sweetest boy in the world.

Phuwin reached up and cupped Pond’s cheek, thumb brushing across his jaw with the softest pressure.

“We’ll find a way,” he whispered, voice warm, sure. “It’s okay. We’re okay.”

He pulled Pond in and kissed him again — not desperate, not wild, but reassuring.

Like an answer.

Like a promise.

And Pond melted into it.

Their mouths found each other easily now, tongues brushing, breaths slipping between lips.

And as Phuwin wrapped his legs slowly around Pond’s waist — locking them in closer — Pond’s hands slid instinctively down to hold him.

One to his thigh.

One over his hip.

Then both gliding across the curve of his back, down to the soft skin just above his ass.

His fingers spread wide, touching everywhere at once, like he couldn’t pick one spot to worship first.

Phuwin rocked against him, breath catching in his throat as their chests pressed flush together again — skin to skin — and their cocks slid against each other with slick, maddening friction.

It was too much.

Too much heat.

Too much sensation.

Too much of Pond, everywhere, hands on his body, mouth against his own, cock heavy and hot against his belly.

Phuwin gasped into Pond’s mouth, lips parting around the sound, and then — then they couldn’t even kiss anymore.

Their mouths kept brushing but never quite connecting, panting too hard, hips grinding too greedily, hands moving in frantic, reverent sweeps across skin.

Every part of them was touching now.

And nothing — nothing — could stop what was building.

The rawest sound slipped out of Phuwin’s throat — sharp, wrecked — the second Pond wrapped his hand around them both.

One big, veiny hand — so warm, so steady — gripping both of their cocks together, pressing them tight, the slick heat of it almost unbearable.

Phuwin’s hips jerked, breath catching as the weight of Pond’s palm trapped him right against that thick, hard length, their skin sticking and sliding in a way that felt obscene.

Pond groaned low in his chest, the sound barely held back, his eyes flicking down to watch his own hand stroking slowly — teasingly — around both of them.

His thumb dragged over their swollen tips, smearing the mess between them, and his grip flexed just enough to make Phuwin tremble.

“P-Pond — ” Phuwin gasped, chest heaving, hand flying down to catch Pond’s wrist, grounding himself there.

He didn’t push him away.

He wanted it.

He just needed more.

“Harder,” Phuwin whispered, voice breaking. “Please.”

And Pond listened.

His grip tightened, not rough, but sure — confident — and Phuwin’s head dropped, forehead pressing into Pond’s collarbone as his whole body lit up.

The friction was perfect now — hot and slick, their cocks sliding together in Pond’s grip as he stroked slow and deliberate, hand moving with enough drag to make every motion feel like fire.

Phuwin rocked into it, greedy, lost, and Pond held him there, his other hand sliding down to cup his ass again — possessive and gentle at once.

His fingers squeezed the soft flesh, spreading him just a little, brushing close to his hole in a way that made Phuwin sob into his skin.

He bucked forward, instinctive and overwhelmed, and his mouth found Pond’s shoulder — teeth sinking in just enough to muffle the moan spilling from his lips.

Pond shuddered, whispering, “Fuck — Phuwin — ” like he couldn’t believe any of this was real.

Phuwin’s hand stayed wrapped around Pond’s wrist, clutching tight, his body moving helplessly in rhythm with Pond’s strokes, their breath loud now, mingling in broken gasps.

“Don’t stop,” Phuwin pleaded, hips stuttering, voice ragged. “Please don’t stop — feels too good — ”

Pond’s lips moved with worship.

He kissed Phuwin’s cheek first — soft, grounding — then trailed down his jaw, his breath warm and open, lips parted like he couldn’t get enough.

The press of his mouth on Phuwin’s skin was slow, deliberate, reverent.

When he reached the hollow beneath Phuwin’s ear, he paused just to breathe him in, before moving lower.

And then — his mouth met Phuwin’s chest.

Phuwin jerked, fingers flying to Pond’s hair, tugging hard as soon as he felt that warm mouth latch onto his skin.

Not even biting — just lips and tongue and heat dragging over his chest, wet and slow, circling his nipple before sucking gently, like he knew what it would do to him.

“Pond — fuck — ” Phuwin gasped, voice raw, head falling back, whole body on fire.

Everything was too much.

Too perfect.

Pond’s hand still wrapped tight around their cocks, grinding them together, thick and slick and twitching in his palm.

Every stroke made Phuwin moan, made his thighs tremble where they straddled Pond’s lap.

He felt the hot, hard press of Pond’s cock twitching against his own, so full, so heavy, leaking with want.

It was overwhelming.

And then Pond moaned against his chest — and Phuwin snapped.

He reached up with both hands, one still tangled in Pond’s hair, the other sliding firm and fast up to his throat.

Not choking.

Just holding — wrapping fingers gently but commandingly around Pond’s neck, guiding his head up, forcing him to look.

And when Pond looked up at him…

God.

Those puppy eyes — wide and wrecked, glossy with need.

His lips were wet and swollen from kissing, parted as he panted, flushed all the way down his neck.

He looked so undone and so sweet, like he’d let Phuwin do anything to him.

Phuwin couldn’t take it.

He surged forward and kissed him — hard.

Nothing gentle.

Nothing slow.

Just mouths crashing, lips sliding, teeth clashing, tongues tangling in a kiss that swallowed the air between them.

Phuwin kissed him like he was falling.

Like this was the only thing keeping him from breaking apart.

And Pond groaned into it, his grip faltering for a second, hand loosening around their cocks as the kiss stole his breath.

Phuwin could feel his own hips stuttering, could feel the desperation clawing at the edges of both of them.

His hands were still on Pond — one in his hair, the other at his throat, now moving to cup his jaw as they kissed, deeper, wetter, messier with every second.

And all Pond did was follow — mouth open, letting Phuwin take whatever he wanted.

It happened in one smooth, overwhelming motion — Pond’s hands suddenly gripping Phuwin’s hips, strong and certain, and before Phuwin could catch his breath, he was turned.

Flipped, guided, laid down flat against the couch.

Face pressed to the cushion, cheek to the pillow, hair falling into his eyes as his chest rose and fell in quick, shallow gasps.

He barely made a sound — just a soft, wrecked mewl — as Pond moved behind him, his body following close, heavy and hot, blanketing over him like the heat of a storm.

“Pond — ” Phuwin whimpered, already shaking.

Pond kissed his neck first.

Pressed soft lips just behind his ear, then lower, teeth grazing gently at the slope where his shoulder met his throat.

Phuwin melted under it, every nerve flaring alive.

Pond’s chest brushed his back, bare skin meeting bare skin, and his thick cock rested right along the curve of Phuwin’s ass, twitching as it dragged through the slick trail left behind.

Then Pond hugged him from behind.

Both arms wrapping around his waist, chest flush to his back, breath warm in his ear.

He murmured something there — low, deep, voice cracking slightly with how turned on he was.

“You’re too pretty like this.”

Phuwin arched instinctively, his hips tilting up, back curving as the words hit like heat straight to his core.

His fingers gripped the pillow beneath him, knuckles white.

He could barely breathe.

Pond’s hands moved again — one sliding up, slow over the dip of his waist, palm splayed across the small of his back like he was claiming it.

Then he lowered himself and began to kiss down the line of Phuwin’s spine.

It was unbearable — sweet and hot and devastating.

Each kiss was firm, mouth open, lips dragging slightly over skin.

He kissed the nape of Phuwin’s neck, then lower.

Between his shoulder blades.

Down the soft ridges of his back, pressing in with reverence like he wanted to remember every inch of him.

Phuwin shivered, hips twitching as he gasped into the pillow.

“Pond — please — ” he breathed, voice wrecked.

And behind him, Pond just kissed again, lower still, murmuring like a prayer against his skin.

“I’m gonna take my time with you.”

When Pond’s lips reached the swell of Phuwin’s ass, everything shifted.

Phuwin’s breath hitched — then broke entirely — something unintelligible spilling from his mouth, half-plea, half-moan, lost somewhere in the cushions as his fingers clawed helplessly at the pillow beneath him.

His hips jerked, thighs trembling, and he let out a wrecked, choked sound that didn’t even sound like himself.

He’d never felt anything like this.

And then Pond held him — both hands spreading him gently, fingers digging into the plush of his ass, thumbs resting in the dips of his hips.

He lowered his mouth, lips brushing once over the soft skin there, and then —

He licked.

Slow.

Flat-tongued.

Open-mouthed.

Heat and wet dragging down, firm and deliberate.

Phuwin cried out, the sound swallowed by the pillow, hips jerking forward on their own, back arching too deep, too pretty, his entire body reacting before his mind could catch up.

“Fuck — Pond — what — ” he gasped, voice muffled, barely able to form words.

Pond’s hands tightened, grounding him.

He kissed again — licked again — and Phuwin moaned, long and raw and unrestrained, his cock rubbing against the couch now, leaking, untouched, already too sensitive.

Pond leaned in closer, mouthed against him, breath hot and reverent, tongue teasing again, this time slower, swirling slightly — unbelievably gentle — and then he murmured against Phuwin’s skin, voice wrecked but so tender:

“You’re doing so good… so soft, baby… I just wanna make you feel good.”

Like he wasn’t eating Phuwin out with his whole mouth.

Like he wasn’t making him fall apart.

Phuwin whimpered into the pillow, shaking, grinding now, helpless and filthy, as Pond’s tongue licked again, firmer this time — deeper.

Then kissed, soft and maddening, then another slow lap that made Phuwin’s knees press together, face burning, thighs trembling.

Pond kept holding him like something precious, like this was more than sex, more than heat.

His tongue worked in slow circles, his lips pressing kisses between, each motion calculated, sweet, deliberate.

And Phuwin could only melt beneath him, trembling, gasping, every sound broken and breathless, unable to do anything but take it.

Because Pond wasn’t just eating him out.

He was worshipping him.

Phuwin felt completely out of his body.

Pond’s tongue was moving in slow, perfect circles — too softly, too sweetly — every flick delicate, reverent, like he wasn’t just eating him out, but kissing a place meant to be cherished.

Phuwin was already shaking, whimpering into the pillows, hips twitching and arching against the couch with no rhythm at all.

But then Pond sucked.

Just once.

Right over the swollen, aching spot he’d been licking — and Phuwin screamed.

The sound punched out of him, sharp and broken, and his whole body seized, thighs slamming together, toes curling, breath knocked straight from his lungs.

It was too much.

His cock was leaking mess all over his belly, slick smeared between his thighs, sweat clinging to every inch of him.

He felt flushed and ruined, hips grinding down mindlessly into the pillow, his whole body wet and trembling, Pond’s mouth too hot, too wet, too good —

“Pond — stop — ” he gasped suddenly, voice cracking, head shaking.

Not because it was bad.

Because it was too good.

Too intense.

Too overwhelming.

Like if Pond kept going he’d break into pieces he wouldn’t know how to put back together.

Immediately, Pond pulled back, lifting his head, brows furrowed, hands still gentle at Phuwin’s hips.

His mouth was shining, lips red and swollen, flushed all over — but his expression was nothing but concerned.

“Did I — did I do something wrong?” he asked, voice soft, breathless, but careful. “Did I hurt you?”

Phuwin wanted to punch him and kiss him all at once.

He could still feel Pond’s mouth on him, the echo of that sucking pressure making his thighs shake.

He didn’t have the strength to look at him.

So instead — he just groaned, face still buried in the pillow, and mumbled, “Too good.”

Pond blinked.

Phuwin groaned again and rolled onto his back with effort, one arm flung over his face, the other landing on his chest, breath still short and unsteady.

He felt wrecked — his hair sticking to his forehead, his cock twitching against his belly, thighs open and glistening with slick and spit and sweat.

When he finally peeked up at Pond —

Pond was staring.

Not in shock.

In hunger.

In devotion.

Like Phuwin was the most beautiful fucking thing he’d ever seen.

Like he’d do it all again if Phuwin just let him.

And that look — that wild, wrecked, soft look — was somehow worse than the licking.

Phuwin turned his head and whispered, breathless:

“Come here.”

And Pond did.

The moment Pond leaned down, Phuwin pulled him in — kissed him like he needed him to stay.

Something about kissing after all of that — after being licked open, held, adored, wrecked — made it feel different.

Made it feel more.

Like every soft drag of lips was dipped in something molten, something reverent.

Their mouths slid together with no space left between them, the taste of each other thick in their breath.

Phuwin moaned into the kiss, half-drunk on it already, fingers cradling the sides of Pond’s face, holding him close like he still wasn’t ready to let go.

And when he shifted, when his thigh brushed up against Pond’s hips, he felt it.

Pond was so hard.

Pressed up, thick and twitching, hot against his skin, leaking at the tip, desperate and neglected.

And something about that — that Pond had done all that to him and hadn’t even asked for anything — lit a spark inside Phuwin that burned.

The urge to please twisted deep in his belly.

He needed to make him feel good.

Needed it.

Phuwin broke the kiss with a gasp, still breathless, and gently pushed against Pond’s chest, guiding him back.

Pond blinked, surprised — but went easily, his strong body reclining onto the couch, muscles flexing under golden skin, the black wolf tattoo stretched over his chest like it was watching.

Phuwin stared at it for a second, dazed, aroused beyond reason.

That tattoo made him feel feral.

So he leaned down.

And kissed it again.

Just once, right on the wolf’s mouth, lips parting as he dragged his tongue slightly along the inked lines — like a promise.

Like a brand.

Pond shivered beneath him, hands twitching at his sides, eyes wide and dark as they watched Phuwin descend.

Phuwin didn’t tease.

Didn’t play.

He kissed down the tattoo, past Pond’s ribs, down over his taut belly, his lips brushing warm over abs that jumped under his touch.

Lower, to the sharp line of Pond’s hip, then the top of his thigh, the skin warm and tight under his mouth.

Pond gasped, already trembling.

“Phuwin — fuck — ”

And Phuwin, eyes dark, lips parted, finally reached him.

He kissed the flushed head of Pond’s cock — soft, reverent, not a tease but a thank you.

His lips just pressed there for a moment, mouth barely open, breath ghosting across the tip.

And Pond whined, hips bucking slightly, fingers tangling in the couch.

Phuwin looked up at him through his lashes, heart pounding.

“You made me feel so good,” he whispered.

“Let me make you fall apart too.”

Phuwin worked his mouth over Pond’s cock like he was memorizing it — like he wanted to.

Every thick inch he took in, every soft swirl of tongue around the head, every messy, wet suck was deliberate, paced, loving in its own way.

And the sounds — god, the sounds Pond made were everything.

Low groans, bitten-off whimpers, breathless curses that slipped past his lips like he was trying not to give in too fast.

His hips bucked in tiny, desperate jerks, but he never pushed forward — never forced.

Like he was holding himself back from the edge, not wanting to ruin Phuwin’s mouth, even though every flick of tongue made it clear that Phuwin wanted that.

Phuwin moaned around him, feeling every twitch, every pulse of heat against his tongue, and looked up.

And what he saw almost undid him.

Pond’s head was tipped back, throat bare and glistening with sweat, lips parted, eyes shut tight like he couldn’t handle it.

His chest rose and fell unevenly, and that tattoo — that fucking tattoo — was stretched and beautiful over the slope of his pec, muscles flexed beneath it.

Phuwin’s free hand slid up, reaching to press flat against that same pec — his palm spread over the wolf’s snarling jaw, thumb brushing close to Pond’s nipple.

He sucked harder, wetter now, tongue pressing just under the ridge as his mouth worked in slow, slick pulls.

Pond groaned, voice cracked and beautiful, and one hand shot up — pressed to his own chest, grabbing at himself, squeezing like he didn’t know where to put the feeling.

Then — his other hand found Phuwin’s head.

Not rough.

Not controlling.

Just petting.

His fingers ran through Phuwin’s damp hair, slow and soothing, rubbing at the back of his head like he was being praised.

Like he was doing so, so well.

Pond’s voice trembled as he murmured, “So good, Phuwin… so good for me.”

And that — that — went straight to Phuwin’s core.

His whole body buzzed.

His cock throbbed untouched.

That voice, that praise, the way Pond cooed at him so gently while he sucked him off — it shot through him like lightning.

He moaned around Pond’s cock, hips grinding into the air, feeling everything build deeper and deeper inside him.

He wanted to be everything for Pond.

And right now, he was.

Phuwin moved off Pond slowly, chest heaving, lips tingling, every nerve still buzzing from the taste of him, the feel of him.

Pond let out a broken whimper, hand immediately reaching for him, shaky fingers grazing Phuwin’s waist like he didn’t want him to go far — not even for a second.

“I’m not — ” Pond’s voice cracked, deep and breathless. “Phuwin… I’m not gonna last. I can’t — fuck, I can’t do it anymore.”

His voice sounded wrecked, and not from frustration — from being too close.

From holding back for too long.

That kind of desperation that curled around every word, tugging at Phuwin’s chest.

It only made Phuwin melt.

God, he was so good.

So big and flustered and sweet, and still trying to ask, trying not to lose control without permission.

Phuwin’s body was singing with need, but his heart was just — full.

He leaned forward, cupped Pond’s flushed cheek, and kissed him softly.

“You don’t have to hold it,” he murmured. “Come here. Lay down.”

Pond blinked at him, dazed. “Lay — ?”

Phuwin smiled, kissed his jaw, and guided them gently. “On the couch. On your side. I want you behind me.”

Pond shuddered, like the suggestion alone might undo him.

But he obeyed.

They shifted — breathless, messy, legs tangling — and Pond laid down first, thick arms reaching for Phuwin immediately, like he couldn’t bear even a second of space.

Phuwin followed, back to Pond’s chest, slipping into place like he belonged there.

He felt the strength of Pond’s body press up behind him, every inch of bare skin touching, heat wrapping around him like a cocoon.

And the second Pond’s chest pressed to his back — Phuwin melted.

He let out a shaky breath, half a moan, half a laugh, because god, this was too much.

His heart was fluttering, his cock twitching, and Pond — so solid, so warm, so ready to fall apart — was right there, holding him like he was the most precious thing in the world.

Pond’s arms wrapped around him instantly, one curling across his chest, the other sliding down to Phuwin’s waist, pulling him closer, tighter, flush.

His cock pressed against the curve of Phuwin’s ass, hot and hard and leaking, and Phuwin moaned softly at the contact, arching back instinctively.

“Pond,” he whispered, voice gone thin. “Please…”

Pond kissed the back of his neck.

Once.

Softly.

Then his big hand moved lower — across Phuwin’s belly, to his cock, then down between his legs, everywhere, touching him like he was learning a new language.

The other hand — sweet, reverent — slid up to his chest, fingers grazing, then cupping one side gently.

Phuwin gasped, overwhelmed, tingling.

There was something in this — Pond curled around him like a shield, holding him like he was both fragile and the most beautiful thing he’d ever touched — that made Phuwin feel wild and safe all at once.

“God,” he whispered, eyes fluttering shut, “You’re such a good boy, Pond… You’re so ....”

And behind him, Pond groaned, burying his face in Phuwin’s neck, one hand tightening on his waist, the other beginning to move — slow, steady, and hungry.

Phuwin shifted — slow and deliberate — until he was pulled slightly higher in Pond’s arms, back still flush to his chest, but now with Pond’s cock lined right against the soft, tight space between his thighs.

The second their skin met like that — hot, slick, perfectly aligned — Pond groaned against his neck, breath stuttering, his big hands flexing on Phuwin’s waist like he was barely holding himself back.

Phuwin smiled — sweet and wrecked — and tilted his head to the side, baring his throat as he whispered, “You can fuck my thighs.”

Pond shuddered, his entire body twitching behind him.

His cock jerked where it was pressed between Phuwin’s legs, already slick with precum, rubbing right up against that soft, warm pressure.

Phuwin let his thighs press together slowly — tight, just enough to cradle Pond in place, to guide him where he needed to be.

He felt Pond groan again, deep and helpless, forehead dropping to Phuwin’s shoulder.

“Phuwin — fuck — You can’t just say that. ”

“I know,” Phuwin whispered, arching just slightly. “It’s okay. We’re wet anyway. It’s messy already.”

Pond breathed like he was dying.

His hands trembled where they held Phuwin, one splayed across his belly, the other gripping his hip so tightly it made Phuwin gasp.

Phuwin looked back over his shoulder — eyes wide, lips swollen, hair sticking to his flushed cheeks — and gave Pond the softest, most devastating look he’d ever worn.

A little pouty, a little pleading, but full of want.

Full of love.

“Be a good boy,” he murmured. “Please.”

And that was it.

Pond gave up.

He groaned, deep and rough, and reached down, taking hold of himself, hand wrapping around his cock as he positioned the head between Phuwin’s thighs.

He guided it slowly into that tight, wet space, the heat of Phuwin’s skin making his hips stutter already.

His other hand stayed firm on Phuwin’s hip, steadying him, anchoring them both as he began to move — grinding forward in slow, trembling thrusts, the slide of his cock between Phuwin’s thighs making both of them moan.

Phuwin arched back into him, face flushed, eyes fluttering shut as he let out a soft, breathy sound.

“You feel so good,” he whispered.

Pond moved slowly at first — hips rolling in slow, reverent grinds, his cock sliding between Phuwin’s thighs like it was heaven.

The heat.

The slick.

The way Phuwin’s soft skin hugged him so perfectly — like his thighs had been made to hold him there, to pleasure him like this.

His forehead stayed pressed to the back of Phuwin’s neck, and low, wrecked sounds slipped from his lips — half-groans, half-prayers — each one brushing hot against Phuwin’s ear.

Those sounds made Phuwin ache.

His whole body felt hot and sweet and overstimulated, chest rising fast, mouth open against the pillow.

Pond’s cock rubbed right between his thighs, heavy and leaking, the head catching at the soft skin near his hole every time he thrust forward just a little too deep.

Then Pond started to thrust properly — slow, steady.

The strokes dragged his cock forward in long, wet passes, the weight of him pressing tight between Phuwin’s thighs.

Every time he moved, Phuwin felt it everywhere — his thighs trembling, the slick mess of their bodies making everything hotter.

“You feel — fuck, you feel so good,” Pond whispered against his ear, voice breathless, almost shaky. “So soft, baby — so perfect, so good for me…”

Phuwin moaned helplessly, thighs clenching tighter around Pond’s cock, instinctual, and —

“Ahh — shit —Phuwin ” Pond stuttered, hips faltering for a second, a sharp gasp falling from his lips as his thrust caught hard between Phuwin’s thighs.

He whined — that needy, desperate sound — and Phuwin thought he might fall apart just from hearing it.

Because even like this, even moving harder now — messier, needier — Pond was still the gentlest boy.

His hands stayed soft on Phuwin’s body, one wrapped tight around his waist, the other smoothing down his thigh, holding him as he rutted forward like he couldn’t stop anymore.

The thrusts were getting sloppier, deeper, the slide of his cock catching more friction, more slick, more need.

And Phuwin — sweaty, flushed, dizzy — felt every desperate roll of hips like it was going to split him in half, even without being filled.

The thought of it — of being filled — made his mind go white.

He gasped, forehead pressed into the couch, as his back arched without warning, like his body was trying to take Pond in anyway, even like this.

God, he thought.

If he was inside me right now —

His hole clenched at just the idea, and he almost cried.

Because Pond was too good.

Too pretty.

Too perfect like this — gasping against his neck, whispering sweet, filthy praise between every thrust, his cock grinding faster, slicker, thicker between Phuwin’s trembling thighs.

And Phuwin wanted to give him everything.

He wanted to bend down.

Open up.

Be taken apart.

Be ruined.

But right now — he let Pond have this.

Let him fuck between his thighs like it was the only thing in the world that could save him.

And in return, Pond held him like a prayer and moved like it was the first time he’d ever known what love felt like.

Pond was losing it.

His thrusts had turned deeper, messier — every stroke now heavy and overwhelming, his cock grinding in tight, slick rhythm between Phuwin’s thighs.

He was pressed flush, balls tight against the backs of Phuwin’s legs, the flushed head of his cock slipping up to kiss at the curve of his ass with every desperate push.

His groans turned to whimpers, his forehead falling to the dip of Phuwin’s spine, lips brushing skin as he mumbled — wrecked, undone, desperate.

“I can’t — Phuwin, I — fuck, I can’t anymore — can’t hold it — ”

He sounded like the most desperate boy in the world.

Like a sweet, overstimulated puppy, too excited, too full of need, trembling with how much he wanted to be good but couldn’t take it anymore.

And something roared inside Phuwin at the sound.

The heat of Pond’s body behind him, the stretch of their thighs slick and trembling, the sound of his voice breaking — it all wrapped around Phuwin like fire.

He tilted his head, voice shaking but sure as he gasped, “It’s okay… I’m not gonna last either. Not like this. Not with you being so — ”

He swallowed, eyes fluttering shut, body tightening.

And then Pond did touch him.

That strong hand slid around, trembling but still careful, and wrapped around Phuwin’s cock with such aching gentleness.

His palm was so warm, so steady, even as his hips bucked uncontrolled.

He stroked him once — twice — and then teased the head with his thumb, spreading the leaking mess there, and —

That was enough.

Phuwin cried out, body jerking, the sound raw and gorgeous as his whole spine bowed in the prettiest arch.

His thighs clenched tight around Pond’s cock, his back flexing, mouth open in a silent scream as his orgasm tore through him.

He spilled hot and thick between them, all over Pond’s hand and his own belly, breath gone, body trembling so hard it made Pond groan low and break.

Pond gave a stuttering thrust, then another, rutting forward helplessly into the squeeze of Phuwin’s thighs. “Phuwin — fuck, I’m —”

He pressed his mouth to Phuwin’s ear, voice breaking in prayers of his name.

And he came between them, hips jerking once, twice, spilling in thick pulses into that hot space between Phuwin’s thighs, his body curling over Phuwin’s back like he didn’t know where to put all the feeling.

The only sounds in the room were breathless gasps, soft curses, and the sticky, sweet sound of them falling apart together.

And even then, Pond never stopped touching him — one hand on Phuwin’s belly, the other cradling his chest, kissing his shoulder like he’d just been given a gift

It took them a while to calm down.

Their breaths stayed uneven, bodies trembling slightly from the intensity of it all.

Pond hadn’t even moved — just wrapped himself fully around Phuwin from behind, arms locked around his waist, lips brushing against the shell of his ear with every exhale.

He was warm — so warm — his chest rising and falling against Phuwin’s back, damp skin sticking in all the places they’d touched and stayed, too tired to even pull away.

Between Phuwin’s thighs, everything felt tender.

Messy.

Sticky and warm with the evidence of what they’d just shared.

And yet, there was only peace.

Phuwin blinked slowly, breath finally softening, heart still fluttering faintly in his chest.

Then he turned his head just enough to peek over his shoulder.

What he saw made him melt all over again.

Pond’s face was still flushed, sweat-damp hair falling into his eyes, his lips red and a little parted, his expression glowing — not just from release, but from something quieter, deeper.

His gaze was locked on Phuwin’s face, wide and full of something so soft it made Phuwin ache.

“You’re too happy,” Phuwin whispered, and then he grinned — couldn’t help it, couldn’t hold it back. “You look like the stupidest, happiest boy.”

Pond flushed deeper, a soft embarrassed laugh escaping him, but before he could reply, Phuwin turned fully and kissed him.

It was nothing like before.

Not desperate, not fast.

Just soft.

Almost shy.

Their lips brushed slowly, parting gently, like they were still learning each other’s shape, even after everything.

The kind of kiss that says "we’re okay now".

That says stay here.

That pretends Pond hadn’t just come minutes ago between Phuwin’s thighs — wasn’t still tucked there, softening slowly, still pulsing against the slick mess he left behind.

When they finally broke the kiss, Pond blinked at him, eyes so tender it made Phuwin’s chest squeeze.

“Are you okay?” Pond asked, voice low and hoarse, but laced with that same quiet care he always gave when he didn’t know how to say you mean everything to me out loud.

Phuwin nodded, lips curling up as he reached to smooth a strand of hair off Pond’s damp forehead. “I’m okay. You?”

Pond kissed the corner of his mouth in response, then whispered, “Too okay.”

And then — slowly, finally — he pulled back.

The motion made them both gasp, sharp and quiet, Pond’s cock slipping from between Phuwin’s thighs with a wet drag, the cooling mess making Phuwin shiver a little at the sudden exposure.

Their eyes met again.

And despite the daze, despite the fatigue — Phuwin leaned forward and kissed him one more time.

Because Pond was still glowing.

And he was still his.

Phuwin lay there for a long moment, blinking at the ceiling, brain foggy with afterglow and body sticky with the slow cool-down of what they’d just done.

He didn’t even know where to start.

Everything was a mess.

He was a mess.

The couch was definitely a mess — probably ruined — and there was no blanket, no towel, no plan, nothing prepared.

They’d moved too fast, and now they were both breathless and half-laughing in the quiet, the scent of sex thick in the air, skin flushed and glowing.

Phuwin groaned softly, dragging a hand down his face, the other instinctively reaching back to touch Pond — who, of course, was already looking at him.

Worried.

Those puppy eyes.

Phuwin barely turned his head, and there it was — Pond, propped up on one elbow, eyes wide and full of that soft, slightly panicked care, like Phuwin might vanish if he looked away.

And God, Phuwin couldn’t stand it.

“The couch is ruined,” he said flatly.

Pond blinked once.

Then grinned.

Big.

Too big.

That wide, smug, sunshine grin that only made everything worse.

Phuwin groaned and punched his shoulder — lightly, but with enough force to make Pond laugh, eyes scrunching.

“You better clean it,” Phuwin muttered, trying to sit up, still feeling sticky and shaky and somehow weightless. “We didn’t even — there weren’t blankets or anything, Pond, you live with your mom— ”

“I know,” Pond said quickly, already sitting up too, hair wild and damp, eyes still glowing with whatever warm, post-fuck affection was spilling off him in waves. “I’ll clean it. I will. Promise.”

“You better,” Phuwin grumbled, hugging a throw pillow to his chest like it could salvage any dignity left.

“We got excited like — like teenagers. You didn’t even give me time to yell at you properly.”

Pond just grinned wider and leaned forward like he was about to kiss him again, and Phuwin shoved his face away with the pillow.

Then — quieter now, softer — Pond moved slightly, reaching for his shirt, not quite putting it on yet.

“You’re really okay?” he asked, voice gentler, serious in a way that immediately made Phuwin’s chest ache.

And it didn’t help that his face was still flushed, his hair soft and falling into his eyes, his tattoo glowing under the warm light, black lines stretched across his golden skin like art.

He looked like someone dangerous and holy all at once, like something you could pray to — or fall in love with before you realized it was happening.

Phuwin’s heart twitched.

He needed to stand up.

Immediately.

Before he said something stupid like "Let’s do that again" or — God forbid —  before he knelt down for this boy like he was about to propose or something ridiculous.

“Yeah,” he mumbled, rolling awkwardly off the couch and standing on shaky legs.

“I’m fine. Just — gonna shower. Before I do something incredibly unwise.”

Pond blinked. “Wait — what?”

“Nothing,” Phuwin snapped, already grabbing his shorts.

“Clean the couch.”

And he walked to the bathroom as fast as his post-orgasm legs could carry him, leaving Pond still shirtless, dazed, and grinning like he’d just won a lifetime prize.

Which, to be fair … he kind of had.

Phuwin had barely made it halfway to the bathroom when he heard Pond behind him — soft footsteps, the rustle of skin against skin, that unmistakably clingy tone already slipping into his voice.

“Wait,” Pond called out, voice warm and hopeful. “Can I shower with you?”

Phuwin stopped.

Of course.

Of course he wanted to shower together.

Phuwin turned around slowly.

Pond was standing there completely bare, flushed all over, hair mussed from sweat and kisses, his body still glowing from everything they’d just done.

The wolf tattoo stretched proudly across his chest, still visible, still sharp, and his stupid, sweet, puppy face looked like he hadn’t just been the reason Phuwin’s legs were shaking.

He looked hopeful.

Maybe even bashful.

But still —

Still so damn hot.

Phuwin stared at him for a full second.

At the glint of water in the corners of his eyes.

At his lips — red, shiny, kiss-bruised.

At his thighs.

His fucking thighs.

At the way the muscles in his hips moved when he stepped forward without realizing.

At the outline of his cock still lazily resting against his leg like it hadn’t just ruined both their lives.

And all Phuwin could think was:

If I get in the shower with him right now…

If I see that body wet… naked… with that tattoo still on… and those thighs just there… I’m not just going to be sore from the way I clenched around him —

He said nothing.

He just stared for another second, then sighed, rubbing his face.

“Can you… bring me a towel?” he said eventually, voice a little hoarse.

Pond perked up instantly. “Yeah?”

“And clean the couch,” Phuwin added, already turning toward the bathroom again, refusing to make eye contact because if he did, he’d fold.

Right there.

On the ruined couch.

Pond made a soft sound of protest behind him — half-pout, half-laugh — but Phuwin was already gone, closing the bathroom door behind him.

Inside, he leaned back against it, exhaled slowly.

This stupid boy is going to kill me.