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Lee Leo was straight.
He was so straight that it was "almost concerning" or at least that’s what his best friend Sangwon often said.
He'll be the first one to admit it, he was what you called a playboy. A fuckboy if you wanted to get technical.
When he was fresh out of high school he moved from Australia to South Korea after getting accepted to a university with a good music program.
His parents weren’t the overbearing type. On condition that he maintained excellent grades and as long as they thought he stayed out of trouble, they agreed to pay the rest of his tuition that his scholarship couldn’t cover and whatever living expenses he needed.
They didn’t have to know about his “extra curriculum activities.”
It started out slow. A party here and there. Leaving with a girl under his arm once in a while.
Then he grew a reputation for sleeping around. Not that he minded, it saved him the trouble of making up excuses to his flings when they tried to become more than a one night stand.
He didn’t do relationships. Didn’t do feelings and didn’t want to feel like he was tied down. He wanted freedom. That was until he was approaching the start of his last year of college.
“You need to start thinking about your future,” his dad told him over the phone.
They wanted him to find someone good enough to settle down with. That wasn’t apart of the plan he remembered bitterly thinking. And he probably would’ve ignored them if it wasn’t for their financial support.
It wasn’t hard, he could find someone tolerable to make his parents happy long enough for him to finish his school year.
He met Karina from a mutual friend at a get together.
She was pretty. Smart and kind.
Attentive and had a good head on her shoulders. A couple months into the relationship he felt himself developing real feelings for her.
His parents liked her enough to constantly drop marriage hints whenever Leo decided to quit ignoring their calls and answer.
So yes he was- no wait scratch that.
He is straight.
So why as his girlfriend sat him down on her bed and unbuttoned her trench coat to reveal her wearing nothing but lingerie underneath, his mind was elsewhere.
And so was his dick.
Karina stood in front of him in a bra that clearly wasn't made to be practical and a lacy pair of panties that hugged her beautifully.
A couple weeks ago he would've already pinned her down on the bed and had his way with her the second her coat hit the bedroom floor.
Unfortunately there was one slight problem.
His eyes trailed across her body, starting from her breasts. He looked at her nipples that were poking through the bra and leading his gaze down to her stomach, eyeing her curves on the way before landing on where her underwear was covering.
His dick wasn’t getting hard.
He groaned to himself.
He knew why Karina was doing this.
She thought she was "cheering him up." Instead it was making him feel more frustrated with himself.
They haven't slept together in a week. Which didn't seem like a big deal to most people. But to someone as sexually active as Leo, it was abnormal.
Sangwon scoffed when he drunkenly told him about his problem. "Maybe your dick finally broke."
"I'm serious man," he mumbled, nursing an empty beer bottle.
"Yeah me too,” his friend said before standing up.
"Come on lets get you back to your dorm. Maybe your dick will work in the morning"
"Shut up.”
Secretly when he made sure the dorm was empty and his door was locked (he checked 10 times) he opened up his laptop and quickly typed "symptoms of erectile dysfunction" into the search bar.
Symptoms of erectile dysfunction:
- difficulty keeping an erection
- reduced sexual desire
He sighed. His sexual desire was still there he just couldn't get hard.
He went back to the search bar
"Why can't I get hard?"
- Stress or tiredness
- If your problem persists it’s best to seek professional help
He slammed his laptop shut and took off his glasses, a pain started pounding in the back of his head.
Google was no help.
Sangwon wasn't taking him seriously and Karina was beginning to notice how often Leo had been brushing off her advances. He would shake off her hand on his thigh making its way up to his crotch. He would bring her back onto her feet when she tried to kneel by his. A heavy make out session and him fingering her through an orgasm had been saving him from some awkward conversations, but he knew it wouldn't last long.
He needed to do something. Figure out why he was having this issue.
He was perfectly fine a couple weeks ago. And then one day when his girlfriend was rubbing him through his boxers he realized he couldn't get it up.
But why?
He ran his hands through his hair and groaned.
Why? Why? Why?
His phone that was laying on the desk lit up with a message.
Geonwoo:
Yo are you coming to Xinlongs party tonight? Arno bailed on me and I need a wingman. Help me out man.
Arno
Leo snapped his head up as all the memories came flooding in.
That’s right this all his fault. He thought.
In the past when all the girls Leo had been with came and went, only one person stayed by his side through his rough years at the start of his college career.
Zhang Jiahao was the name he remembered him by.
They shared a class together during their first year of college and became friends fast.
They were close, closer than he is now with Sangwon (not that he would ever tell that to him)
Until one day after a drunken night out into their second year of college, Jiahao cut off all ties with Leo out of the blue. He tried to rack his brain, trying to remember what happened that night to make the older boy cut him out of his life like their friendship meant nothing. Leo never let his confusion show, if that was how Jiahao wanted to be then so be it. Leo could ignore him too. They ran in different friend groups after that so it wasn’t hard to avoid each other.
It was going good till Karina wanted Leo to met her best friend.
“She’s going to bring her boyfriend too,” she informed him cheerfully as they walked to the small diner the other couple was supposedly waiting in, “it’s out first time going on a double date! Isn’t this exciting?.”
“Yeah,” he said with a fake smile, opening the door to the diner for her, “so exciting”
He let her take the lead, following her as she walked to a table in the back occupied by an excited looking girl and a guy who had his attention on his phone.
“Hi you must be Leo! It’s so nice to meet you. I’m Winter,” the girl said pulling him in for a hug.
Releasing him from the hug she gestured towards the man that was still sitting down, but this time with his eyes on the couple that arrived.
“This is my boyfriend Arno,” she introduced, “Arno this is Leo”
Leo watched as recognition lit up his eyes.
They hadn’t seen each other in a year, he felt smug knowing that Jiahao didn’t learn how to hide his facial expressions in their time apart.
He felt his lips tug into a smirk, “long time no see”
“You two know each other?” Karina asked.
Arno opened his mouth and started to stutter.
“Sort of,” Leo interrupted, “we weren’t that close”
A look of hurt landed on Jiahao’s face quickly before it disappeared, but Leo managed to catch it.
A month into their girlfriend’s making them hangout, they still barely talked to each other when the group was together.
It was awkward. Leo was always good at hiding what he was feeling while the older boy wasn’t. A part of him was happy to see the effect he had on Jiahao or Arno as Leo learned he went by now (he wondered if he caught on to Leo’s pettiness when he still addressed him as Jiahao)
It was fine, he could deal with seeing the other couple once a week. What he couldn’t deal with was Jiahao becoming his friend Geonwoos new roommate after his old one moved out.
“Arno hyung is really cool,” his friend said “I don’t know what happened between you two but it must have been your fault.”
Leo jabbed the younger in the side.
“Shut the hell up,” he grumbled tuning out the cackle he got in response.
Was it his fault? He couldn’t remember even if it was.
It was a random Friday night when everything came crashing down.
Karina was spending the night with Winter.
“We need a girls night out,” she said to him.
He nodded in response, “have fun.”
He kissed her goodbye before she walked out of his dorm.
He had plans of his own that night. Sangwon planned on dragging him out to a party. Geonwoo invited himself along saying he needed a break from studying, but Leo knew that was just an excuse to spend time with Sangwon in order to build up courage to finally make a move.
“Your roommate is staying in tonight?” Sangwon asked when Geonwoo made his way inti the car.
If Leo was a dog his ears would have perked up at the mention of the older boy.
“Shit I forgot to ask Arno if he wanted to come along,” Geonwoo said
Leo could see the twinkle in his eye appearing like an idea popped into his head.
The taller boy looked at him with a smile, “hyung can you go and ask him if he wants to tag along? I’ll feel bad if I didn’t invite him.”
Leo rolled his eyes, “just text him”
“He doesn’t check his phone,” he said barely taking his eyes away from ogling at Sangwon.
Leo knew that was a lie, every time Jiahao was with him it seemed like his phone was attached to his hand, but looking at Geonwoo’s pleading eyes he took the bait anyways.
“Fine,” he grunted and got out of Sangwons car, leaving the lovebirds alone.
He walked slowly, choosing to take the stairs to buy him some time. He thought about turning around and saying he asked Jiahao, but a part of him wanted to see him.
He secretly enjoyed seeing the man squirm while trying to avoid making eye contact with him.
He liked seeing him unsure of himself. He liked knowing he was the one to cause such a reaction.
Leo reached the apartment and opened the door after finding the spare key. He made his way to Jiahaos room and was about to knock when he noticed the bedroom door wasn’t closed all the way. He knew he should’ve made his presence known, but his body acted on its own. He leaned in towards the crack and peeked in. His breath caught in his throat as he held back a gasp.
Inside the room stood Jiahao in all his glory. He was standing in front a full sized mirror seemingly just staring at himself. Leo wouldn’t have thought much of it if it wasn’t for what the Chinese man was wearing.
What the hell?
He blinked a couple times to make sure his eyes weren’t playing tricks on him.
He wasn’t wearing a shirt or any pants. At first all Leo could see was skin.
Smooth pretty skin.
But when Leo looked through the crack closer he saw it.
A pair of panties.
Jiahao was wearing pink thong.
His heart beat a mile per minute.
He stayed frozen and watched the unaware man.
Jiahao ran his fingers up his thighs, stopping at the small bulge the thin fabric couldn’t hide. He turned his head go the bed beside him and picked up a bra in the same color as his thong.
Leo backed away from the door in panic and turned on his heels towards the door his whole body feeling jittery. He didn’t have enough time to care when the door shut with a slam.
He speed walked down the stairs in the blink of an eye and swung the car door open when he made it to the parking lot.
The two friends snapped their heads in his direction and watched him in bewilderment.
“Is Arno coming?” Sangwon asked with confusion in his voice.
“No,” Leo breathed out, “he said he’s busy.”
His tone must have left no room for questions. Sangwon started the car and they made their way to the party. Leo felt like his brain was left at Jiahaos bedroom door.
The clock in his room ticked filling the silence.
He put his head in his hands in frustration.
That must be why I’m having this problem now.
Did seeing him like that really turn Leo off that much?
It should've.
Seeing a man in a thong should have been disgusting.
Not just any man, Jiahao.
His fair skin exposed. Unblemished as if it was calling out to be bit. Marked. Claimed.
These thoughts should have made him sick to his stomach.
No matter how much he wanted to lie to himself he knew deep down it didn't.
If anything it made his stomach tighten with heat.
Present
A hand on his face brought him back to present day.
"Are you alright?" His girlfriend asked worriedly
”Yeah I’m fine,” he responded.
"I know how stressed you've been,” she said rubbing her thumb on his cheekbone.
Jiahao's face flashed through his mind.
Before he could think, he tugged her into a rough kiss.
Pulling her closer to his body he flipped their positions to have her laying on her back, Leo hovering over her.
He undid her bra letting it hang off of her and he left kisses on her breasts.
The bra was red he noted, his favorite color.
In this moment he would have preferred a color not so bold. Something simple.
A lighter color.
Soft.
Baby pink
“Focus on me" she said, but instead of Karina's voice his brain imagined it being said by someone else.
"F-focus on me" Jiahao would've shyly stuttered in broken korean a nervous habit he never seemed to shake.
"Fuck me,” she pulled his shirt off of him.
"Fuck me" he could imagine Jiahao saying those crude words in his soft spoken voice while looking up at him through his doe eyes.
His cock twitched.
He tugged his sweatpants down and took his hardening cock out, lining himself to Karina before pushing himself in her pussy slowly.
Nails scratched down his back but he didn't care.
Would Jiahao be this whiny?
Would he claw Leos back too?
His pace picked up.
How rough would he allow Leo to be?
How much can he take?
Leo bets the older could take whatever he was given.
He pounded into Karina harder.
He would look beautiful crying under him. Withering in a sobbing mess.
He blocked out the sounds coming from the woman below him, letting his imagination take over.
"Jia-" he came with a grunt, his high lasting longer than it ever had.
In the midst of it all he looked down at his girlfriend, she didn’t seem to notice his slip up.
He laid next to her with her hand caressing his bare chest.
"Are you feeling better?" She asked in a proud giggle.
He shivered at the sound. It sounded off. Too high and squeaky.
He pictured Jiahao beside him instead. Imagined him asking the same question with his own breathy giggle.
"Yeah,” he said while looking up at the ceiling.
He wondered what Jiahao was doing right now.
Was he with Winter? Was he fucking her?
Why when imagining it did Leo feel something bubbling through his core?
Or was he alone? Was he standing in front of his mirror again in a pair of panties? Did he have his door shut this time or was it ajar waiting for anyone to peak in again?
Fuck he thought almost amused at his own ridiculousness.
There was something definitely wrong with him.