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“He’s beautiful”
And that’s all Sion could think about ever since he met Tokuno Yushi.
If you were to ask Sion what he thought of Yushi he’d say “He’s my best friend!” And we all know it’s a lie.
Oh Sion is inlove with Yushi.
Hes inlove with him on quiet days.
He’s inlove with him on loud days.
Hes inlove with him everyday.
Sion knows he’s crazy. Everyone calls him crazy when he says this, but if he could, only if he could. Sion would rip his heart out, he’d carve it out slowly out of his chest and open it up gently and he’d take a knife and carve yushis name slowly into it. He’d take the wires of it and rearrange them so it only beats for Yushi even long after his body rots away underground. His heart belongs to Yushi and only Yushi.
He’s loved Yushi for seven years and he’s going to continue to love him forever. From his beautiful eyes to his pretty lips to his personality.
Tokuno Yushi looks like the real thing.
It makes Sion feel like a creep, the way he watches Yushis every little action like a weirdo. Yushi is so fucking special to him and it makes Sion sick to his stomach. As if a leech attached itself to his stomach and is sucking the blood out of him trying to erase every single churn of his stomach when he sees Yushi but it sticks there just like the leech. It makes Sion nauseous.
He wants to breathe only for Yushi.
He’d die for Yushi.
He’d do anything for Yushi.
He’s so fucking special.
He wishes he was just as special to Yushi. Maybe he was maybe he wasn’t and sion is okay with that as-long as Yushi is always by his side and noone else’s to love.
Sion doesn’t believe in God he never has and he doesn’t think he will but sometimes when the nights go quiet he clasps his hands together and goes on his knees. The words taste bitter to even say out loud. He feels selfish to pray to someone he doesn’t know is up there or not. He feels selfish for wishing that Yushi will remain his till the end of time. He can’t live without Yushi.
It’s disgusting how greedy Sion is. It’s disgusting how he wraps his arm around yushis waist so he doesn’t go near anyone. It’s disgusting how Sion wants Yushis eyes to only look for him in a crowd of people. It’s so fucking disgusting how much Sion loves Yushi.
Sometimes Sion will wonder at how he got to this point. He stares at himself in the mirror in shock at the pretty pink marks Yushi leaves on his neck and just how happy his expression gets like Yushi is his source of happiness.
And Sion can’t argue against that not at all.
Sions happiness revolves around Yushi. The way Yushi looks under him. His eyes bright pleading for Sion and his beautiful airy voice begging for more. He’s so beautiful under Sion and on top of Sion. Sion wants to swallow any little sound that comes out of Yushis pretty mouth.
He wants to carve his name into Yushi so everyone knows who Yushi belongs too. It’s inhuman. It’s horrid. But what can Sion do if he loves him that much?
Sion has never believed in forever. It’s a lie a simple lie that struggles to roll off his tongue. Yushi always asks if they’re going to be together.
“Will you stay with me forever?”
All Sion can do is stare and take Yushis hand in him. He takes time to think whenever he asks it. He looks at Yushi. At his pleading eyes.
Sion knows he’s borderline psychotic. He doesn’t believe in forever but he believes in forever with Yushi. To simply put it, if Sion wasn’t to have Yushi by his side till death he’d lose himself. Yushi is a part of him and Sion would die if he isn’t there.
Oh Sion loves Tokuno Yushi to much it feels disgusting.
Oh Sion is greedy for Yushi.
Oh Sion will never forget Yushi.
Yushi is Sions favourite person.