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!Wills perspective!!
It has been a year since I last spoke to Mike. A year since I poured my heart out. A year since it shattered. I thought I had gotten over it, but I could still feel the empty place in my chest, the missing piece.
Me and Mike hadn’t talked since we graduated high school, It was too awkward to even mention his name around Dustin or Lucas, or any one of importance. He made it clear he wanted nothing to do with me. I thought If I admitted how I really felt, he could’ve learned to love me too.
Just as much as he loved her.
I didn’t expect him to get over her that fast, it just felt like I had no other option. He was becoming distant faster than I could even imagine, it was like a switch flicked in his head.
I’d told him how I really felt and I failed miserably.
He told me he needed space, but it’s been a year. It’s been so long, that I’ve been accepted into college, and broke up with my first boyfriend, Carlton. He fought with me because he claimed I was becoming “distant”.
He wasn’t wrong.
I miss Mike, I miss him more than anything.
I’m moving into my dorm soon, but I wish Mike would atleast call. Just so I could hear his voice once more.
!!Mikes perspective!!
I wish I could call Will. I miss him. I miss his beautiful hazel eyes that sparkle in the correct angle of sunlight. I hurt him, and I know exactly how. He confessed to me out of nowhere, it felt like he couldn’t fully tell me what he was trying to say, but I knew.
I knew for 3 years.
I knew since he ran away in that rain.
The rain like breaking shards. I can recall that day very well, as it was the first real fight me and will had. Looking back on it, I was the one in the wrong. Especially ever since he came out. I can’t believe the stuff I said to him. I wish I could go back in time and apologize, however, it’s too late. He hasn’t tried to talk to me in a year. I miss him. I miss my best friend.
I miss El too.
I miss her more than anything, but when I think of her, my brain goes blank with regret.
Why wasnt I able to say it?
Why wasn’t I able to say I love you?
I can’t think of a logical answer to that question. I wish she was here.
I miss her precious laugh, I miss her brown eyes that looked like a deer in headlights.
Shit.
I’m doing it again, I’m comparing El with Will again. He reminds me so much of her. They were almost like twins.
I can’t keep thinking about this.
I need to start packing. College officially starts in 3 days, and the packing is going to take atleast one.
I hope my roommate is nothing like will. I can’t bare to see him, or anyone like him frankly.