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"do you remember the nights we spent together?”
naruto was pretty tired, almost asleep, but that question seemed to shake his entire body. at that point, he certainly didn't expect sasuke to bring up that topic, nor did he understand why he mentioned it at that moment.
they had already been in the office for several hours, it was past midnight, and the amount of paperwork didn't seem to be decreasing. he could certainly just leave and continue the next day without any problem, but he didn't like being at home. not at all. he would rather faint from burnout a thousand times than going back to his wife and children. he felt better in sasuke's company, even if they spent hours working in silence, he felt complete.
naruto set aside what he was doing to look at sasuke, who didn't take his eyes off his paperwork.
"why do you mention it?"
"it's hard for me not to think about it when we're both here at one in the morning getting ahead on unnecessary work just to avoid going home to our wives" he confessed casually, as if he wasn't saying much. on the other hand, naruto looked shocked by such a declaration. "so... do you remember?"
naruto let out a nostalgic laugh and then got up from his seat and headed to the balcony, where he inhaled the fresh night air. he glanced sideways at sasuke, who finally looked up, and upon making eye contact, naruto gestured with his head, inviting the raven-haired man to join him, who got up and approached his side.
"i could never forget them... do you think about that often?"
"more than i'd like to admit" and certainly, beyond thinking about what they did, he thought about how, despite that, naruto ended up getting hinata pregnant and marrying her. "you were really cruel."
"why is that?" he asked, even though he already knew the answer.
"all those years you spent looking for me, and all those nights we slept together… i remember how clingy you were, how you kissed me nonstop, how it was never enough, how you liked to bite and suck my skin, sleep between my thighs... i remember it all too well" sasuke said all this without any emotion. there was no pain in his voice, nor anger. just by his tone, you couldn't tell if it was a complaint or nostalgia. "then you got hinata pregnant."
and despite how unconcerned sasuke seemed, naruto felt his stomach sink. those were things he preferred not to think about. having sasuke by his side was enough. fighting alongside him, working alongside him. even if things weren't as he would prefer, they were together.
naruto sighed, leaning on the balcony railing.
"it wasn't nice" for the first time, they talked about it. years of silent pain had passed without touching that topic, simply accepting what happened and continuing their lives as if nothing, having each other as friends, but not so deep down, wishing everything had been different. "i know we weren't a couple, but it still felt like i was cheating on you" he let out a nervous laugh, wanting to take the seriousness out of the situation.
however, sasuke didn't like that comment at all, and for the first time that night, he looked upset.
"because you were" suddenly, he felt as if all the pain he had buried deep within himself for years came to the surface. he tried not to let the knot in his throat show when he spoke and fought against the tears that wanted to escape. "you never needed to say you loved me, i felt it. how you touched me, how you kissed me. you followed me to the ends of the earth and brought me home with you... for what? to get another woman pregnant and marry her" his grip on the railing tightened and he turned away to avoid naruto’s face. he felt the tears falling and his body trembling. he didn't understand where so much vulnerability came from all of the sudden. maybe saying it out loud after so many years made him feel worse than just thinking about it. "i... i really loved you."
he’d also felt sasuke’s love for him. despite being quite reserved and shy when it came to intimacy, sometimes, he would kiss him first, or subtly seek physical contact. he felt his eyes fill with tears remembering when they would sleep together, when sasuke laid on his chest or when he held him in his arms. certainly, they had never confessed, never said "i love you" and now that one of them had the courage to do so, it was from pain. those words hit naruto hard. it was bittersweet. he didn't know if his heart was breaking or racing with excitement.
"i should go" he quickly wiped his tears and turned to leave, however, naruto stopped him by hugging him from behind. sasuke tried to get away, but the blond didn't let go. "i didn't tell you that so you'd feel sorry for me."
"i love you. i'll surely love you until the day i die" his tears fell and his grip didn't loosen. he hadn't held him in his arms for so long and didn't want to let him go. "forgive me, sasuke." he buried his head in his neck, letting himself cry. he felt overwhelmed by the closeness, he adored being in contact with his skin and filling his senses with his scent. it was something he missed terribly and could never replace.
sasuke let his tears fall without sobbing out loud. it really hurt him, it burned his soul. he never liked to see naruto cry either, and the situation made it worse.
a couple of minutes passed like that. at that point, little could be done, and they both knew it. they just had to let it out. naruto gradually calmed down, and began to concentrate more on enjoying the skin-to-skin contact, pressing his lips against sasuke’s neck without kissing him, inhaling his aroma deeply, who shuddered at the touch.
"you’re still into physical contact" he commented seeing that naruto was clinging to him more and more. he knew him better than anyone, and was the only one who could see behind that facade of a happy family. he knew naruto was the physical type, who shows his love by being all over his loved one all the time, the kind that didn't know personal space, and he had never seen him have that closeness with hinata. he knew he didn't love her, and maybe that was what hurt the most, the fact that he left him for a woman he didn't love.
sasuke managed to turn around and hugged him. their hearts were completely shattered, but they enjoyed that closeness after so many years, so much that it hurt.
"even back then, you almost never hugged me, but i didn’t mind. it made me very happy when you did, just like now" he brought his hands to sasuke's hair to stroke it, who almost instinctively leaned into the touch. he ran his hands through his hair until he reached his shoulders, pulling back slightly to be able to take his face in his hands and dry his tears. "it hurts to see you cry."
sasuke couldn’t say anything, just lost himself in naruto's blue eyes for a few seconds, then looked at his lips, and back to his eyes. he felt the tension between them and their hearts beating strongly. certainly opening that door again would bring nothing good, or better said, it would bring nothing at all, it would change nothing, so he didn’t care. naruto closed the distance between them, as if he could read his mind. he kissed him sweetly, and felt tears fall down his cheeks again.
five years had passed since their last kiss. five years since the last night they spent together. they needed each other. they longed for each other. the tender kiss didn't last long, within seconds they began kissing more intensely. sasuke tangled his hand in the blonds nape, seeking more, and choked a moan when naruto put his tongue in his mouth. he missed that feeling, he missed his warmth, he missed every inch of his body.
naruto gently pushed him onto his desk, laying him back on the documents and knocking some to the floor. at that moment, he didn’t care about them. they kept kissing desperately, trying to recover the other's absence, trying to make up for all those years of pain in just one moment. sasuke brought his hand to the zipper of naruto's jacket to open it, which the blond took as a signal to take it off followed by his shirt. sasuke admired his tanned torso and ran his hand over his chest, feeling nostalgia for the times he slept on top of it. naruto leaned in to kiss him softly, wanting to pause time at that moment.
"i could get off just by kissing you" he murmured against his lips after pulling away slightly, then kissed his neck while undoing the buttons of his clothes, leaving his torso exposed. "you're right... i can never get enough of you."
he’d always felt embarrassed when naruto talked to him like that, but hearing him after so long filled his heart with happiness. he wanted to drown in his words, his praises. he wanted it all.
naruto clumsily tried to undo his pants while kissing and sucking sasuke's chest, but he pushed him away slightly.
"we can't do it here" he straightened up on the desk while catching his breath. it was the perfect view for naruto; a flustered expression, his cheeks and ears red, messy hair, and open shirt. he could feel himself getting harder just by looking at him. "the documents."
naruto stood up in front of him, holding his pants. he looked around his office trying to figure out what to do, looking for a better place. "get up."
sasuke finished taking off his shirt before getting up, and standing in front of naruto again, he felt nervous. he hadn't been intimate in years, not only with naruto, he didn't even have sex with sakura. never. his last sexual experience had been to have sarada and it was awful for him. he knew it wouldn't be the same with naruto, but he couldn't help feeling shy. he had his gaze fixed on the floor when naruto lifted his face with one hand, while with the other he took him by the waist to press their bodies together.
"it's okay," he stroked his cheek with his thumb and planted a short kiss on his nose. the affection of his touch made sasuke want to cry again. "you don't have to worry about anything when you're with me."
nostalgia was torturing sasuke, remembering with every caress and every gesture what they used to be, missing what could have been of their lives. he felt himself filled with anger and sadness, and again felt his eyes fill with tears, to which naruto kissed him tenderly again, but sasuke felt great resentment and pain, so he interrupted the sweet moment to put his tongue in the blond's mouth and kiss him aggressively. he pushed him towards the wall while desperately finish unbuttoning his pants.
"sasuke..." naruto couldn't help but moan when the raven-haired man had him against the wall and pulled down his boxers thus freeing his large erection, then welcoming it in his hand and touching him the way he remembered he liked. sasuke buried his face in naruto's neck, biting and sucking while speeding up the rhythm of his touch. despite having been able to overcome shyness, he still felt insecure about what he was doing, but his doubts were silenced by naruto's moans. "sasuke... sasuke..."
every time he heard his name among such melodious moans he felt his erection twitch restlessly. he bit naruto hard, tasting his blood, thus causing him to stifle a cry of pain and pleasure. he knew sasuke was trying to take the pain out.
he felt close when sasuke accelerated the rhythm of his touch, and stopped him with one of his hands when he lightly pinched his tip.
"were you going to finish that fast?" sasuke let out a little laugh, teasing him while rubbing his index finger against the tip of his erection. naruto shed tears of pleasure, he hadn't enjoyed himself like that in a very long time. "who would have thought... pathetic."
naruto bit his lip, aroused from the words. although the touch was minimal, he felt closer and closer to the edge.
he didn't want to finish yet.
with one hand he removed sasuke's grip, and with the other he pulled him close to kiss him again, but this time, he switched their places and pressed him against the wall. every detail of the moment excited him immensely; the little blood dripping down his neck, sasuke's aggressiveness, his eyes full of desire. he wanted the night to never end.
sasuke bit his lips, tasting his blood once more. he wanted to hit him, he wanted naruto to hit him too. of all the times they slept together, they never did it aggressively, so he wasn't sure about letting himself be carried away by his impulses, but the way naruto had reacted so far made him feel that he enjoyed it.
naruto clumsily pulled down his pants and underwear, finally freeing his neglected erection.
"i love you" he whispered against his lips while joining both erections and touching them at the same time, making sasuke moan. he loved the feeling, he loved rubbing against each other like that, he loved that naruto knew every weak point he had. "sasuke, i love you, you're perfect."
they were both a mess of moans and panting, naruto's hand dripped with pre-cum, and while the sensation was incredible, sasuke wanted more. he took naruto's face with his hand and pulled it away slightly, then slammed his palm hard against his cheek and took his face again. naruto looked surprised, but didn't stop.
"harder" he asked between moans. "hit me harder, sasuke."
now sasuke was the surprised one, but didn't waste time hitting him again, to which naruto moaned aroused. he quickly took sasuke by the shoulders and turned him around, putting three fingers inside his mouth while with the other hand he kept touching him. he pressed against him and rubbed his erection against his entrance, provoking him.
"you must be so tight... i can't wait" he kept masturbating him while sasuke lubricated his fingers. he felt every part of his body extremely sensitive, and was embarrassed to feel he was about to come.
naruto took his fingers out of sasuke’s mouth when he felt them wet enough, bringing them to his entrance, where he caressed him gently. sasuke felt desperate, both stimuli were driving him crazy. he couldn't hold it anymore when naruto finally inserted one finger deep inside him, and came at that instant, moaning loudly.
naruto felt the moment sasuke came, his erection twitching desperately in his hand as he shot all his cum onto the wall. he laughed and kissed sasuke's neck, who was trying to catch his breath.
"after making fun of me, you came first... who would have thought" sasuke was completely embarrassed, while panting, he felt how naruto still hadn't released his erection or removed his finger. "you're still hard, i don't think you've had enough."
sasuke was very sensitive from coming, so every little touch from naruto on his prostate and glans made him see stars. he wanted to say something, but the words wouldn't come out. he could only moan and whimper. soon, he already had three fingers inside, dilating him and driving him crazy. he wanted more, needed more.
naruto removed his fingers and stopped touching him, held his hip and aligned his erection with his entrance, but didn't put it in. he played a little with sasuke's patience, who was crying with pleasure, and rubbed the tip against his entrance, pressing lightly.
"ah... what should i do? you look so-" but he couldn't finish his sentence, because sasuke pushed himself hard against his erection, shoving it completely inside of him, making them both moan loudly.
naruto hugged sasuke, stroking his abdomen and chest affectionately, without moving. he kissed his back and neck while waiting for him to get used to it, assuming that it probably hurt. he was using a lot of self-control not to move, sasuke’s insides were very hot and tight. he knew he wouldn't last long.
"does it hurt a lot?"
"move" he demanded, looking back at the blond’s eyes while moving his hips back and forth himself, thrusting lightly on his own. this excited naruto immensely, who moved away a little from sasuke to get a proper look of him go in and out slowly on his own. he loved what he saw, and took a couple of seconds to admire sasuke gently fucking himself against him "move, naruto. hard." he was already having trouble articulating words, he couldn't stop panting and didn't want to have to repeat himself, and fortunately, he didn't need to.
naruto began to move as requested, hard and deep. he took his hips and thrust into him as if he wanted to kill him and he loved it. he closed his eyes and let the blond do as he pleased, enjoying every deep thrust, every time he pulled out completely and entered aggressively. he felt a mess, moaning and crying from pleasure and pain.
"you're so hot and tight... i can't take it anymore, i want to fill you" he accelerated the rhythm with each thrust, going deeper each time, hitting his prostate which was particularly sensitive, making him scream. "you're beautiful."
sasuke felt close, and naruto saying those things pushed him further to the edge. he wanted to come.
"i'm gonna to come if you keep talking to me like that."
"you're perfect, i love you, i love you so much."
neither could contain themselves anymore, coming at the same time amidst sharp moans and grunts. sasuke stained the wall again, and naruto filled him completely, his cum immediately dripping down his legs when he pulled out.
sasuke let himself fall to the floor, leaning against the wall while feeling naruto's cum keep coming out. it wasn't the first time that happened, not at all. again he felt sad, thinking about how they could have enjoyed that moment in a bed, in the comfort of a home, but they were in the hokage's office, hiding from their families.
naruto sat down next to him and leaned on his shoulder. they both were still trying to catch their breath. in another scenario, they would be lying together, kissing, hugging.
"i missed this" naruto spoke after a couple of minutes that felt eternal. he intertwined one of his hands with sasuke's and kissed his shoulder. "i wish i had a home to take you to."
sasuke said nothing, just cried silently again. it seemed he wasn't running out of tears. naruto felt his heart shrink, and drew sasuke into his arms, letting him cry on his chest. anger or resentment no longer mattered, he only thought about how much he wished this moment would never end. he wished to stay by his side forever.
"forgive me, sasuke, i'm really sorry"
"stop apologizing. i'm not an idiot, i know it was all a mistake, i know you had no choice but to marry her ‘cause she was pregnant. i myself ended up marrying sakura to restore my clan" his voice was full of pain and he wouldn't stop crying. naruto stroked his hair gently, soothing him, wanting him to feel safe to release all his pain. "but i really wanted to do it with you."
they both knew it was a one-time thing, that it couldn't be repeated, that they had families waiting for them. sasuke didn't care much, if it were up to him, he would leave sakura anytime if naruto asked him to, but he knew that wasn't possible, the seventh hokage, leaving his wife to go off with a man? completely unacceptable. he loved naruto too much to ruin his dream that way.
they stayed like that for a while, until sasuke got up and began to dress.
"we have to go" he straightened naruto's desk and picked up the papers they had knocked over. naruto dressed quickly and began to pray that hinata wasn't awake when he got home. "make sure to cover up the marks."
"sure... you too, i did a lot" sasuke laughed. "what's funny?"
"i don't care if sakura notices, but you have to protect your reputation. she has no way of knowing it was you, she'll just assume i cheated on her."
"don't you think that's a bit cruel?"
"i don't care, naruto" he finally walked to the door, where he stopped for a few seconds. "see you tomorrow."
and so, sasuke went home, suppressing the urge to cry the whole way. at least i had him one more time, he thought. meanwhile, naruto thought it was better to sleep in his office and not go home. he didn't want to sleep with hinata after making love to sasuke, it felt worse than wrong.
he turned off the lights and laid down on the desk, thinking about what they had done and how much he had enjoyed it. he cursed himself many times, he could only think that he wanted to sleep with sasuke. but, unfortunately, that's something that would never happen again.