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she lay awake in her bunk, the thin mattress doing close to nothing to bring her sore body comfort. her back aches as she stretches to sit up. everyone had fallen asleep already, so why hadn't he snuck over to her?
namgyu had an arrangement with y/n, well she thought he did. they'd all lived in "thanos world", or more ralistically they were pawns of thanos before everyone died. namgyu had always been rude to her during those days, but lately all he could do is think about her.
she was everything he had left. no pills, no thanos to cling to, no minsu to bully — he was alone without her.
the day earlier he walked over to her bunk after a confrontation with the guards. he'd lost his — well, subongs pills in the earlier game, so of course he needed to whine and bitch like a small child. his confident stride from before was broken as he approached her bunk, stopping about a foot away with an emotionless expression on his face.
"what do you want?" y/n said with an attitude. she assumed he was just threatening her, telling her what to vote, being the usual dick he was.
"nothing." his voice was eerily quiet, shockingly so compared to how he used to be. before withdrawal he had that teasing edge behind every word, but now its like his mind was empty.
"then why approach me?" she scoffed, averting her gaze to glance around the room at the scattered players.
he slides down against the wall, sitting knee to chest beside her bunk. he glances up at her with a look of.. annoyance, maybe?
"can't I just sit here?" he snapped, letting out a scoff that sounded more like a sigh. "its always a problem with you." he muttered under his breath.
"what? I'm meant to trust you?" she rolled her eyes, an amused smirk almost reaching her lips as she glanced at him.
the way he was speaking to her like she wasn't meant to be weary of him was slightly funny considering the things he's done.
he stayed beside her bunk for a while, letting the conversation come to a halt on that note.
after what felt like hours but was realistically around 15 minutes he spoke. "I know you hate me, just let me stay tonight." his words were muffled and quiet, he was ashamed of himself for sure.
it was honestly amusing. moments where namgyu allowed people to see his pathetic side were rare as his mind was always tainted by the drugs he took.
"why should I agree?" her tone was sharper than intended, but he deserved it.
"please." a word that's most likely never left his mouth slipped out like a whine. he looked up at her. "I need this, y/n. don't leave me alone."
and after a little more persuasion, she gave in. the life in his eyes always looked drained, but something almost sparkled as she gave a reluctant "fine."
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that night he climbed into her bed, pressing himself against her desperately. his hands roam her body, feeling at every chunk of skin he could find.
"jesus namgyu stop squirming." she mumbled with an annoyed tone. "I'm trying to sleep."
he let out an upset mutter, settling against her. his chest pressed against her back, one hand held onto her waist surprisingly gently. the other slipped under her side, wrapping around to rest on her ribs. his face pressed against her neck.
who would've guessed namgyu could be so desperate and cuddly?
despite how much y/n convinced herself she hated him, it was comfortable in his grasp. the way he clutched at her body, wrapping himself around her — it made her feel warm inside.
she felt him press a kiss into the skin of her neck, only making her settle closer against him. he took this as an invitation, moving closer as he kissed up towards her jaw.
his kisses got sloppier as they trailed back down towards her collarbone. he slid his hand out from under her side, propping himself up on his elbow to get a better angle.
the hand on her waist slipped under her shirt, tracing up her soft stomach slowly as he scattered kisses all over her exposed skin.
her back arched slightly, letting out a soft quiet moan as his hand trailed higher until he was able to grope her breasts. her backside pressed into his lap further, earning a little sound from namgyu.
"feeling needy?" he teased, a bit of his regular attitude shined through his voice as he grinded against her.
"mhm.." she whimpered out, grinding back against him. his hand trailed lower, teasing the edge of her pants.
"you want me to help?" his breath was hot against her ear, his voice strained with arousal and a teasing edge.
"please.." she nodded, thighs rubbing together. she could already feel her mess dripping down her thighs, absolutely ruining her panties.
his fingers slip under her panties, wasting no time to press down on her clit. she whimpered, only for one of his hands to clamp over her mouth. "don't want anyone catching us."
she could practically hear the smirk on his lips, his fingers worked faster on her clit. she squirmed against his fingers, letting out muffled sounds into his hand.
he pulled his hand out of her pants, the hand clamped around her mouth moved down, settling on her neck. his grip wasn't tight enough to cut off air, but it wasn't very loose.
he pulled to fingers to his mouth and licked off her sticky mess. she squirmed at the loss of his fingers. "namgyu.. please.." she whined.
he smirked, letting out a soft chuckle. "you want more?" he teased, fingers trailing back down her stomach.
she didn't give a coherent response as his fingers slipped back down and plunged inside her soaking heat. she whimpered loudly.
"shh.. you're being too loud." he said into her ear, hand moving back up to her mouth. "naughty girl.." he teased as he started pumping his digits in and out slowly.
she let out muffled whimpers against his hand, squirming as two fingers abused her insides, his thumb moving to rub her clit.
"fuck you're tight.." he moaned into her ear, grinding himself against her ass as he fingered her.
she heard his heavy breathing in her ear and felt his cock hardening as he shamelessly humped her. his fingers pushed in and out faster.
she moaned his name into his hand, he loosened his grip on her mouth and let out a strained "yeah..?"
"im gonna cum.." she whimpered out as quietly as she could. he only smirked and worked his fingers harder, his hand on her mouth moving to grip her neck again.
he grinded harder against her, letting out pathetic moans. "fuck.. me too." he said in a low tone, humping her faster and faster.
her orgasm hit hard, tingly warmth spreading through her core as she whimpered, moaning his name softly.
her walls clenched around his fingers as he continued to pump them in and out.
after grinding against her a little more he spilled into his boxers with a moan, he withdrew his fingers slowly, bringing them up to her mouth.
"go on. eat it." he chuckled, watching her lick the stickiness off his fingers.