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Welcome, everyone. I’m your host Danielle Akello. I hope you all are having a wonderful day as we bring to you the moments, memories and pleasures from people on the far and wild corners of society. Join us as we seek to give you the experiences that mainstream media won’t share, about the lives and passions of those who remain Dark, and Depraved.
Today, we invite our first guest - Miss Skye Hawthorne, aged 34 with a penchant for age gaps. Probably more than what most of society would find acceptable. Skye, nice to meet you.
[S]: Hi, everyone. I’m Skye and I’m proudly trans and I am attracted to younger partners. I am currently in a relationship with my wonderful man who’s 15. Well, I guess some of you can consider him a boy(laughter).
[Int]: (Chuckle) So Skye, what was your main motivation for seeking such a relationship?
[S]: (Shy) I don’t know if I should be saying this...(nervous blink) but uh...I really am attracted to younger males. Very young ones. It’s just something that really connects with me.
[Int]: Can you tell us more about your current partner and your experiences?
[S]: (gasp) Well, we’ve been together for nearly half a year, I was expecting it to be terrifying, like something would definitely go wrong. But it ended up being more confusing than anything else so(excited smile).
[Int]: So how and when did you figure out that it’s your type and did you have difficulty justifying that...convincing yourself that “this is what I want” with clarity.
[S]: Well, truth be told. It’s a complex answer. I know people might look for easy answers when it comes to these situations but it is extremely complex....(pause to think)
It’s a combination of my own attraction as well as my insecurity, know, with being trans and coming to terms with my body, my desires, my life.
[Int]: Well, I understand of course, that being trans, in an environment where trans people frequently face allegations of harming the kids and are placed under extreme judgement, and the fact that you do have these kinds of feelings....
[S]: I mean, absolutely. You know, ever since growing up I was told trans people are perverts, they are weird, they are into kids and dogs and(gasp) imagine my heart when I realized that “holy shit, I am a pervert. I am into kids. I am horny and kinky and into nasty shit...(embarrassed giggle) please help.”
[Int]: (Amused smile) What was your partner’s reaction when he figured it out - that you are kinky? Did he figure it out?...
[S]: Oh, yes! At first he was weirded out and confused and(staring up) oh, my god. He looked so cute, knowing I was such a slut and still I could see that he was getting horny and his dick was rising, like he had no idea but it was so hot! I still remember that moment.
[Int]: Really? I mean I’m not a boy but is it true that boys get horny when they get confused? Do I need to watch out for my nephew now?(both laugh in jest).
[S]: Oh, yeah! It happened to me as well when I first stole an adult magazine when I was his age and I was thinking, fuck, what’s happening to me? These people are doing stuff like eww...and still I’m liking it and getting excited? No way!
[Int]: Wow, guess being a guy is even more fun now, huh?
[S]: Huh! No chance, ladies are always more fun. Like us! We’re hot and we’re fun and; you go, gurl!(laughter)
[Int]: Interesting. You were telling me being trans and your body and your prejudice, I believe. How does it impact your type?
[S]: You really had to hit the hammer, huh?(rather melancholic).
[Int]: Are you uncomfortable? I’m sorry if I made you uneasy.
[S]: No, it’s just that...there’s more to me liking boys than being young and cute...(pause)
[Int]: Skye?
[S]: (deep breath with eyes closed) When I first grew up, I was always attracted to older women. I had a single mother, she hated that I told her I wanted to be a girl. She said it was disgusting. I was bullied for makeup and how I spoke and what movies I went to watch. The girls called me a weirdo. I really had no friends.
[Int]: I...I’m sorry, Skye(eye contact). So it’s all mommy issues then?
[S]: For a bit, yeah. I could tolerate being hated outside but inside the house really broke me. There was just one woman I could trust. I had a music teacher. She would take care of me. I used to stay at her house and lie to mom that I’m going for sleepovers with friends.
[Int]: So...was she...did you two...
[S]: We had an affair. She had a terrible disease and already lost her son. She was alone, she said she was glad she found someone to comfort her. She did everything for me. Fed me. Bought tickets for the theater. She touched me and I touched her.
[Int]: Oh, wow! I..did not expect that.
[S]: It’s okay. Looking back, I couldn’t believe it as well. She told me she wanted to love someone. Her son was her everything. And she even fell in love with him after her husband left. I couldn’t believe it. But then again, I fell for her just as quick.
[Int]: So you’re saying...your attachment for her is what made you fall for younger boys? I’m sorry if I’m being ignorant but is that why you transitioned?
[S]: Not entirely, but it was definitely a part of it. As I grew up and my mom dumped me after coming out, I moved to her place where she told me she would give up every single joy in her life. She would cuddle me, touch me, kiss and lick me. Give me blowjobs. Allow me; encourage me to hit her! She was ill and yet she told I made her final days pleasant. Then, many years later her body gave up and she passed away....(teary eyes) and the trauma hit me like a bus. She legally gave a good chunk of her property to me while giving the rest to her younger cousin. He knew about us and was supportive.
[Int]: This is so tragic. You are so brave, Skye.
[S]: (lost in thoughts)After she died, her cousin moved in with me. By then I was on my way to transition. He helped me get a short career as a manicurist and part time pianist. I even had an affair with him, although he really said it was “to help me explore my feminine side.”
[Int]: So he just took advantage of you in exchange for your transition?
[S]: No! I liked him! I guess it was more mutual than that. He clearly enjoyed my company; he was quite a few years older than me and was kind and respectful. He was the one who let me explore my submissive side while worshipping him. We lived separately after a while but were still connected.
[Int]: So what happened? How did you decide that you were into younger boys and men?
[S]: It happened when I first started exploring age gaps. He wasn’t really my boyfriend, so he would allow me to date and have sex with older men. They didn’t really like me, to be honest. They mainly saw me like a trans trophy girl. But I was so desperate and vulnerable whichever man enjoyed me I allowed him.
But then as I grew up he suggested me to try younger men. I was afraid because it would invoke my trauma and remind my days with my teacher. But I soon got used to it, and it surprisingly felt even more enjoyable specifically because of it.
[Int]: So your trauma became a fetish that made you excited?
[S]: Not just excited, confident! I could finally feel like I could look back; accept the part of my live that gave me pleasure and pain. As I went for partners younger and younger, I started imagining myself to be her. Giving the same pleasure to him that she told she wanted to give to him. I started getting more and more submissive and desperate. I preyed on single men who had a breakup or those who were intimidated by an older trans woman - only to prove them wrong by getting on my knees.
[Int]: And at one point, you decided to go for underaged boys.
[S]: Yes. I wanted boys to be the same age I came out. Be the older woman I always wanted to have. A mommy that loves them and a slut that loves getting broken.
[Int]: Wow, that’s such a lot to unpack.
[S]: I know. I know. But at least, people know about my story. I’m so glad of you guys(look of gratitude).
[Int]: Well, we’ve spend so long talking about your past. So we might wanna shift focus to your current partner.
[S]: Yes, sure(head nod).
[Int]: How did you settle for him? Did you date boys before?
[S]: Yeah! There was this one time I appeared in a private club for a rich man’s son for 18th birthday dressed as a doll. I had a cock cage and he and his friends took turns touching and doing all sorts of nasty things to me. It was one of the hottest moments of my life.
[Int]: I hope it went fine. I hope they weren’t abusive.
[S]: Actually, they were. But that worked out in a good...oh, my god, please top(embarrassed) I’m so pathetic I can’t.
They did not treat me well at all. They used slurs, clawed my body, made me gag relentlessly on their virgin cocks. One of them even stomped on my balls. The cage protect me but I got dizzy for many minutes, but was so excited they all saw me leak moments after that.
[Int]: What did you do then?
[S]: I made a deal? Wanna know what, Danielle?
[Int]: What?
[S]: I get to be their free use bitch, they get to call me mommy and promise to be extreme, in exchange I won’t tell his dad that he nearly injured me.
[Int]: And what did they do?
[S]: Oh. My God. They started sucking and kicking and rubbing their cute cocks across my entire body. A couple of them even sat on my face and made me lick their stinky buttholes. They nearly made my pass out several times. They recorded how blue my face was with their phones. At the end, I was basically half dead, covered with cum and piss and my scratch marks and bruises were visible for months after that.
[Int]: My god, I can’t believe I am saying this but what you just mentioned actually sounded hot.
[S]: Wanna have me arrange one for you?
[Int]:(both laugh) Please, no! I am scared, I am not as brave as you are.
[S]: That’s cute, Danielle.
[Int]: Ok, continue.
[S]: Oh, yeah. My current partner. I met him when he was visiting the local tennis court and I worked as a substitute worker for a couple of months. I found him watching trans and futa hentai on his phone one day - I heard it when his earphones stopped working for a few seconds. It’s one of my favorite ones. About a spider futa in a cave. When he noticed and hastily tried to turn the volume down and reconnect he was caught by me. The face he made when I told him the video number in front of him is unreal. Like he was questioning reality itself. His face went through every color and shade it could and he refused to believe what situation he was in. So I grabbed his phone made a deal with him. We get to watch together and I won’t...look, you’re smiling! You’re biting your teeth!
[Int]: Well, you caught me(nods in defeat). I can’t help myself, what you’re describing is so hot. I’m literally gonna get so wet right now.
[S]: So yeah, I told him about the deal. He still refused to believe I knew about the video, so I took his phone and found tor open in the background where he had all sorts of nasty stuff bookmarked. I revealed to him my bulge. His jaw hit the floor. I turned around and pointed my butt at his face. “You want a trans mommy, don’t you?”
He couldn’t resist and agreed to the deal, and the following weeks were more about spending time with me in the locker than practising on the court. I revealed to him that I was a sub, to which he asked if it was possible to be a shotacon sub since he hadn’t seen it before. I told him “you can make me the exception” and he smiled in excitement and couldn’t believe his luck. I eventually took him to my home where we would play together; once my shift was over I started picking me up and taking every week.
I guess there goes his tennis hobby, then.
[Int]: (twirling hair) So he got a better set of balls to play with?
[S]: Hah! You’re right. But it soon became more than my balls. My partner has; basically colonized my body. Like he controls everything. He visits me on the weekend, and I will legally grant possession of my house and my property when he gets 18.
[Int]: I thought you were just into age gaps but wow, that’s so much.
[S]: It is! And I love it! I love my boy so much and I hope he gets to put this pathetic old hag in her place every time.
[Int]: What does the average time spent look like?
[S]: Actually, truth be told, it’s rather modest. We play video games and watch sports and hentai. But of course he is the spoiled brat. I don’t let him do anything at all. At all!(determined).
[Int]: So how is your sex life?
[S]: Really? You wanna know?(pulls down collar to reveal 3 hickeys on the neck).
[Int]: (startled in excitement) Jesus! My goodness(grinning in amazement).
[S]: Basically, he can do the fuck he wants. Fuck me anytime he wants. Stomp and ride me and cover me in spit and cum and piss. I will spend the day without showering if he tells me to.
[Int]: Have you ever came close to being caught?
[S]: (chuckle) I secretly have a kink for getting caught but I know that would ruin us. I cannot tolerate him getting blamed for being with a groomer and a transgender.
[Int]: But aren’t you grooming him?
[S]: Well, in a traditional sense of course I’m not! I am the bottom. I am the sub. I don’t even dare look at him in the eye when he’s horny. I need to show I am there to serve him. He makes fun of my limp dick and I love it.
Am I training him to be a good man? Yes. Once he grows up he’ll have control over my live and finance as well, so I’m making sure he’s capable.
[Int]: I see, I’m sorry for misunderstanding.
[S]: Well, we also do things outdoors and in public you know. We fuck in secret and a couple of times I volunteered to drink his piss when there was no toilet available. We kiss and hold hands and I get to smell his armpits and massage his feet when we get the chance.
[Int]: I’m getting so jealous of you(fascinated gaze).
[S]: Yeah, it’s so hot to finally figure out what you love the most and do it guilt free, even if it means hiding from the public you know.
[Int]: So there we have it, any final words you are willing to say to the audience?
[S]: Yeah. Life always presents you the opportunity, no matter how dark the times are. And it’s always the unexpected moments that need the bravest and boldest decisions.
Also, if you are an older trans mommy or sissy girl and into younger cis males, don’t hesitate. They are the hottest people you could ever hope to have. If you are into them, go for it. And tell me Skye Hawthorne was your inspiration so I become a celebrity(pleased smile).
[Int]: So sweet and funny. Anyway, that’s enough for this episode. Hope you enjoyed the life of the wonderful and brave Skye Hawthorne. We shall be bringing more exciting stories about wonderful, brave and sexy people right at your doorstep on Dark, Depraved Interviews with Danielle.