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The idea had started, as most things involving Cliff did, as a joke. Or at least as something that wore the shape of a joke, because he'd left himself plausible deniability either way. If they said yes, he wouldn't say no. If they said no, well, he'd never quite said yes.

It had begun as dinner. A restaurant in the Back Bay that Cliff had booked because Svetlana mentioned at the wedding that she loved Georgian food, a detail he'd noted and acted on a month later without announcement, which was, Rose knew, exactly the way men like Cliff operated. He noticed things. He just didn't make a production of it.

The dinner had led to this. The three of them in his kitchen at eleven-thirty at night, forty floors of nothing between them and the harbour. The city was laid out down below, as though arranged solely for their benefit, but quiet from this distance, offering no distractions; good vodka growing warm in their glasses. Beluga Gold Line. Cliff kept it for Ilya because Ilya’s standards were not negotiable; offering the man anything less would produce a silence like the one that settles after a punchline lands and nobody is laughing.

"I'm just sayin'," Cliff said, his half-cocked grin taunting her, "it'd be fun."

Svetlana looked at him over the rim of her glass. She’d heard enough proposals in her life to have developed, through practice, an extremely accurate method of assessing them. She took her time now, surveying him head to toe with the unhurried stillness of someone who already knew what she was going to find. Someone who was in no rush to confirm it. She let her eyes take him in long enough that most men would have started to walk it back. Cliff wasn't most men. Cliff waited, Cliff grinned, and Cliff knew exactly what he was doing to her with it. Even after all these months she still couldn't tell if it was confidence or obliviousness she was seeing. Truthfully, though she would never admit it to him or anyone, it didn't matter. It was one of the many things she found oddly endearing about him. With Cliff the two were hard to distinguish, so she'd given up on the question.

"Rose? What do you think?" She didn't let her gaze drift from Cliff as she asked it.

Rose was on the counter, which was her go-to position in any kitchen she spent more than twenty minutes in, legs dangling off the side and swinging gently, her glass half empty beside her. She'd been watching the two of them volley this conversation back and forth for the past fifteen minutes with the attention of someone studying a script to decide if a part was worth taking.

She'd met Svetlana last month, at Shane and Ilya's wedding in Ottawa. The ceremony had been casual and barely planned, the kind of thing two people who've spent almost ten years being careful about who they let themselves be seen by come up with when they finally pull the curtains back on the world. The reception had been the opposite of all that restraint, overrun with professional hockey players from three rival teams and their families, loud and raucous, going until two in the morning. That night had produced some friendships that couldn't be fully understood until you were already in them.

Svetlana had been standing near the bar with a drink in hand, vodka neat, watching the room with the practised stillness of someone capable of enjoying themselves without needing anyone to know it. The emerald green dress she wore was doing considerable work making her stand out, and she seemed entirely aware of it. Rose had walked over because something about that stillness had pulled at her, the way stillness sometimes does when it's the real rather than performed. They'd talked for three hours, like old friends catching up, though they'd never met. Rose had left with her number and shared promises of the horrible torments they would subject the grooms, their best friends, to for not having introduced them sooner.

She'd met Cliff that night as well, they were seated at the same table, Ilya's former teammate on the Raiders and apparent chaos goblin extraordinaire. He'd made a toast that left Ilya laughing hard enough he'd had to sit down, then spent the rest of the evening being unexpectedly thoughtful in one-on-one conversation. Rose had tucked the contradiction in the back of her mind and hadn't examined it until now.

She’d been in Boston three weeks, filming a crime thriller. The work paid well and the city was one she loved, so when Cliff had texted suggesting dinner, all three of them, a place he knew, she’d said yes before she finished reading the message.

The staff knew Cliff. Rose clocked it in the way they were seated, a corner table without asking, the kind of placement that said someone had made a call. The lighting was doing Svetlana considerable favours, though she would have looked like that anywhere. Cliff ordered for the table without asking and got everything right. Rose filed that away with the other things she wasn’t mentioning yet.

From the first few moments the conversation had carried all the electrified possibility of three people who had met and found each other interesting. Three people who had been carrying that finding around for a month waiting for a reason to do something about it.

"Eight films," she said, somewhere between the second and third small plate. "Eight. My character gets kidnapped in the first twelve minutes of this one." She picked up her glass. "I need a new agent."

Neither of them disagreed.

Svetlana had worn a black silk dress, draping her frame perfectly with the look of classical Greek marbles and seemed not to know it, or knew it and had decided that wasn't the point of the evening. Rose had worn something which she had told them and herself was just an old thing she'd grabbed, she knew it wasn't.

The flirting had been a group project. Each of them teasing the others without inhibition, something she hadn’t done before but found she had an instinct for. It moved like a current between them, a word held a beat too long, a look in Svetlana's direction that said I noticed that, fingers brushing when Cliff refilled her glass and not moving away immediately. Svetlana had a way of making eye contact that made the rest of the room recede into silence, a dizzying combination when mixed with Cliff's laugh, which arrived without warning like a flash flood, warm and disorienting, the kind you didn't want to outrun. At some point Rose had looked across the table and understood that none of them had any intention of the evening ending at the restaurant, and waited to see where it would go.

Coming back here had been Svetlana's move. She'd set down her glass over the last of the wine, looked at Cliff, the look of a woman who had already decided what she wanted spread slowly across her face, and said she assumed he had something better at home. It hadn't been a question. Cliff had looked back at her for a moment with the face of someone who understood he was being handled and found he had no objection to it whatsoever, and agreed, he thought he probably did. Both had turned their gaze towards Rose in unison, who had watched this exchange with the studied attention she usually kept for other people’s performances and felt her mind tip toward something she didn’t have a name for yet. Their driver rolled up as they left the restaurant. It was twenty minutes of the three of them in close proximity with nothing else to do but catch each other, so that by the time they walked into his kitchen the only question left was how they were going to say what they already knew.

She'd been aware since she walked into the restaurant of wanting something. Had felt it sharpen as the evening progressed, Cliff's attention on one side and Svetlana's on the other, entirely different kinds of wanting running alongside each other and occasionally crossing. Unseen but not unfelt. And now they were in his kitchen and Cliff was saying it would be fun, as though the word fun were doing anything close to describing what the last two hours had been building toward.

And now it was on her.

"I think," Rose said, "that we would want to establish some things before we go any further. Some stage rules if you would."

Cliff turned to her immediately, the absence of his smirk was something she noted and gave weight to. He was taking her seriously and that mattered more than almost anything else.

"Yeah," he replied. "Obviously. Whatever you need."

Rose picked her glass up from the counter beside her and took a slow pull from it before returning it, the vodka still cold in her mouth despite being room temperature by now. Turning to Svetlana she said, "I've never been with a woman."

"Okay," Cliff noted.

"That's not a no," she said, a grin shaping on her lips. "I'm just telling you where I'm starting from."

Svetlana smiled. Not the smile she gave clients or cameras or men who were trying too hard, but the other one, the one that arrived without being picked out and arranged like so many wild flowers. "It is not a complicated place to start from," she returned. "You tell me if something is not right and I stop. That is the whole of it."

"And you," Rose said to Cliff. "What exactly are you proposing here."

"Nothing you're not into," he offered. "We figure out what that is and we do that. I'm not here to push anything."

Rose studied him. She had dated enough men who said things like that while meaning the opposite to know the difference in how it landed. Cliff sounded like he meant it, which she attributed partly to the fact that he didn't need to push. He was very aware of what he looked like and had the ease of a man who had never had to work particularly hard for this kind of conversation to arrive. But it wasn't only that. There was something uncomplicated about how he was looking at her, something that was interested without being acquisitive, she trusted it in the direct and unceremonious way she trusted her instincts when they were loud enough.

They moved to the living room. A space that earned its name with room to spare, the kind of open floor plan that cost what only Cliff's salary could afford, a long low sectional facing the harbour windows, the city glittering below. Svetlana settled into the corner of the sectional with the familiarity of someone who had been here before and was comfortable in it. Rose sat at the other end. Cliff took the armchair across from them without being directed to it, which told her something.

"If I'm with Sveta and I'm figuring something out," Rose said, looking at Cliff directly, "I don't want you jumping in. I want that to be its own thing."

"Understood," Cliff confirmed. No hesitation.

"And you check in," Rose continued. "Both of you. You don't assume I'm fine. You ask."

"I ask," Svetlana stated. "Always."

"Same," Cliff added. "You say the word and everything stops. Deal?"

"Deal," Rose confirmed.

She looked at Svetlana. Something passed between them that wasn't a decision exactly, more like the recognition that the decision had already been made and they were simply catching up to it.

"So," Cliff ventured. He was watching them both with an attention that wasn't hungry so much as focused. "How do you want to start?"

Rose slid off the sectional and crossed the room and kissed him.

She hadn't fully decided to do it until she was already crossing the room. The decision had been caught somewhere between her body before it reached her mind, when she slid into his lap and felt the softness of his lips brushing hers.

* * *

He made a low sound against her mouth and his hands came up slowly, one to her waist and one to her jaw. The care in it was what surprised her. She had expected something more immediate, more impatient. Instead he kissed her back at her pace, following her lead, letting her set the depth and the pressure until she pushed forward and then matching her there. His thumb moved along her jaw and she felt the size of his hand, the easy weight of it, and relaxed into something she hadn’t realized she’d been holding.

She pulled back after a moment. "Good," she breathed.

He smiled. The good-times smile she'd seen in photographs and that was better in person, more unguarded, like it came from somewhere he didn't usually show.

“Come here,” he said, drawing her back in.

The second kiss was slower and had more to it, his hand moving from her jaw into her hair, the weight of his palm against her scalp, and the smell of him close up, something clean and warm underneath whatever he was wearing. She felt the want shift from something ambient into something with a direction and a destination. She was also aware, peripherally, of Svetlana still on the sectional watching them, and the awareness of that wasn't an intrusion but part of it, adding something rather than subtracting.

They moved to the sectional. Cliff sat, she settled into his lap facing him, her knees on either side of his thighs. He looked up at her with his hands resting on her hips, not moving, just present and steady and patient. Waiting.

"You can touch me," she told him.

His hands moved under her dress. Slow, unhurried, up her thighs, stopping at her hips and then continuing up her waist, mapping the shape of her without rushing any of it. She kissed him again and this time he came up to meet her, one hand spreading warm and flat across her lower back and pressing her closer. She felt him hard under her and shifted her hips deliberately and his breath caught against her mouth.

"Okay?" she said.

"Very," he returned. "You?"

"Yes."

From across the room, Svetlana watched. She was still on the sectional with her vodka and her expression was steady and still, the stillness of someone who was genuinely content to wait. When Rose glanced at her, Svetlana met her eyes and held them for a moment, something open and easy in her face, Rose felt something shift in her chest that was separate from what Cliff’s hands were doing but not unconnected to it.

She turned back to Cliff. "Bedroom."

He stood with her still against him, one arm under her and the other braced. She wrapped her legs around his waist and made a sound she hadn’t planned. He laughed, low and close to her ear. "Okay?"

"Show-off," she laughed.

He carried her down the hall.

Svetlana listened to the door close and sat for a moment with her glass and the feel of the penthouse without them in it. The harbour view stretched out through the windows, the lights of the city doing what city lights do at that hour. She was in no hurry. This was one of the things she'd learned about herself over years of similar evenings and the different versions they had taken, that waiting wasn't something she performed; it was something she preferred, that she found real pleasure in anticipation and real interest in watching how people moved toward something they wanted.

She’d been watching Rose Landry since the wedding. Since she’d walked over to the bar in Ottawa with nothing specific in mind and found someone who talked like she thought, which wasn’t something that happened often enough to take for granted. She had watched her move through rooms with the fluency of someone practiced at being observed. She had noticed the difference between that ease and the less managed version of her that arrived when she forgot to perform it. The frankness of her questions tonight had been the unmanaged version. The way she had sat on the kitchen counter with her glass, assessing both of them, deciding. That had been it too. Svetlana had felt a pull toward her that she trusted.

She sat with her vodka and thought about what Rose had said: I've never been with a woman. Not a no. And the way she'd said it, plainly, as orientation information rather than disclaimer, had told Svetlana something about the kind of person she was dealing with. Someone who named things accurately and moved through them directly. Those people were rare and Svetlana found them interesting.

She’d come to know Cliff through Ilya, which was its own story. Ilya had told her about Shane on a Tuesday evening, sitting at a table in the back of a quiet restaurant with a glass of water he hadn’t touched, the telling had been careful and slow in the way Ilya was careful and slow with things that mattered to him, feeling for each word before he committed to it. He was in love with Shane Hollander. He needed to stop what had been physical between the two of them because it had become something larger than that and he couldn't keep pretending otherwise. He'd looked at her across the table with the expression of a man who has been carrying something alone for long enough that setting it down felt almost violent.

She'd listened. She'd said very little. She understood, better than most, the weight of wanting someone when your lives were arranged around not being allowed to want each other in that way. She’d sat with him until the water went warm and the evening went dark outside the window.

A week later he'd called and asked if she wanted to meet his best friend on the team.

She'd understood, even then, what he was doing. Not replacing himself exactly, nothing so calculated. More like an offering made in good faith by someone who felt the loss of what they were stepping back from and wanted to leave something worthwhile in its place. Ilya trusted Cliff in the way that men who play brutal sports together develop trust, which isn't the same as other kinds of trust but runs just as deep. He'd wanted her to have someone good. Someone who'd be easy with her and honest with her and who wouldn't require managing. Someone, she’d thought later, very much like Ilya himself in the ways that mattered, but very unlike him in the ways that also mattered.

She'd met Cliff for dinner and he'd been exactly what Ilya had implied and nothing she had expected. He'd talked about hockey and about a documentary he'd watched three times and about a restaurant in Montreal he thought she'd like. He hadn't tried to impress her. She'd found this more impressive than anything he might have tried.

They'd fallen into something comfortable and occasional, the kind of arrangement that asked nothing beyond what either of them wanted to give on a given evening. It suited them both. And now here they were in his penthouse forty floors above the harbour, Ilya was in love with Shane Hollander, Shane Hollander loved Ilya, Rose Landry was down the hall with Cliff, and Svetlana sat with her vodka thinking the world wasn’t always as complicated as it insisted on appearing.

She gave them twenty minutes before she went down the hall.

* * *

He set her down at the edge of the bed and stepped back. The mattress took her weight without announcing it, the lamp already on the low setting. Svetlana had seen to that before they left the living room, a detail Rose noted now and said nothing about.

He reached for the hem of his shirt and she put her hand flat on his chest. "Slow."

He dropped his hands. "You do it."

She pulled his shirt over his head and took her time with what was underneath, which was a lot to take in, all of it lit warm and immediate in front of her. She ran her palms flat down his chest and over his stomach and felt his breathing change, felt the muscles tighten under her hands in a way that told her he was less easy about this than he looked. She liked knowing that. She ran her hands back up, slowly, watching his face.

"You're very pleased with yourself right now," she observed.

"I'm very pleased right now," he said, which was different enough that she paused.

She let him unzip her dress. He did it with two fingers, slow, his knuckles tracking warm down the length of her spine, then waited while she stepped out of it. The way he looked at her was frank and direct, and nothing about it was put on. She thought, not for the first time, that the most disarming thing about him was how little he was trying to be anything other than what he was.

"Beautiful," he murmured.

"Thank you," she said, because she believed him.

He sat on the edge of the bed, drew her to stand between his knees, pressed his mouth to her stomach first, her ribs, the center of her chest, working upward with his lips open and warm against her skin, unhurried in every movement. She threaded her fingers into his dark curls and held on, felt something in her chest loosen. He moved slowly as a deliberate choice, she understood that, the restraint communicating something that its absence would have taken from her. There was a version of Cliff she’d been prepared for without reason, impatient and grabbing, this wasn’t that version.

His hands moved up her back, unclasped her bra, and he pulled back to look at her with both hands curved warm around her waist. She felt the looking travel through her.

He pressed his mouth to the curve of her breast and she let her head fall back. When he drew her nipple into his mouth and worked it slowly with his tongue she made a sound that came from somewhere lower than she'd expected and his hands tightened briefly at her hips. He moved to the other side and paid equal attention there, even and thorough, his hands at her waist steadying her. She felt it move through her chest, down into her stomach and lower, the want building into something with urgency.

"Rose," he said, against her skin.

"Yeah."

"Still good?"

"Don't stop."

He kissed back up her sternum, her throat, then took her mouth and it was different this time, more direct, the restraint replaced by something that had been building since the living room. She kissed him back with the same directness and felt him pull her closer.

She was aware, at the edge of her attention, of the soft sound of the door. The mattress dipped on her left side. The press of Svetlana’s hand on Rose’s shoulder, light and questioning.

Rose pulled back from Cliff and turned. Svetlana was there, the lamp gilding the copper curls, her expression open and careful. Waiting.

"Hi," Rose breathed.

"Hi," Svetlana said softly. "Is this okay?"

"Yes," Rose said. "Come here."

* * *

Svetlana kissed her differently than Cliff did. Rose had expected this and was still unprepared for it, the softness that wasn't softness exactly but a different architecture, a different way of approaching and arriving, something that moved at a different frequency. She made a low sound against Svetlana's mouth and felt Svetlana smile against her lips.

She stayed with it for a moment without pulling back, feeling the newness of it and also, strangely, the recognition. Not recognition of a thing she had done before but of a thing she understood from the outside. She had learned from Shane how he navigated exactly this, the arrival at something that didn't fit any box he had built for himself. The way he'd looked during those early months and years with Ilya, before he knew what it was. Like someone who had found something he hadn't been looking for in a place he was sure he already knew. She hadn't understood it then. She'd watched him marry Ilya in Ottawa a month ago and understood it a great deal better now. Not the same, not her experience and not his, but adjacent to it in some way she didn't have words for yet. She wondered if this was what it had felt like for him the first time, that combination of surprise and the strange absence of actual surprise, the body saying yes before the mind had finished asking the question.

She didn't linger there. Shane had his life and she had hers and this moment belonged entirely to the room she was in. But the thought was light rather than heavy. She carried it lightly, then kissed Svetlana back and let everything else go.

Svetlana had been sitting in the living room while they were in the bedroom and had been, if she was honest with herself, exactly as composed as she appeared. She had listened to the sounds filtering through the wall with the focused calm of someone who knew the right moment would arrive and had no interest in rushing it. She'd suspected Rose wasn't someone who needed to be managed toward something, that she was figuring out her own direction at her own pace, and Svetlana trusted that. What she hadn't suspected was the degree to which listening to Rose's voice from the other room had produced a want in her that was much less composed than she was.

Below them, Cliff had gone very still. His hands on Rose’s hips, barely moving, just present and still.

Rose pulled back from Svetlana and looked down at him. "You okay?"

His expression was a thing she wanted to keep. "I'm perfect," he exhaled.

"Then don't just watch," she told him. "Touch me."

His hands moved.

Svetlana at her mouth, her throat, her hands moving with the unhurried focus of someone who had been thinking about this since the wedding, since the bar, since the moment Rose had walked over and said hello. Cliff below, his hands reading her in the same methodical way he’d undressed her, nothing rushed, everything deliberate, as though he had all night and intended to use it. The two of them not performing for each other but working in the same direction, toward the same thing, her, was not something Rose had a framework for. She let that go too.

Svetlana's mouth moved to the curve of her neck as she felt Cliff's hands moving up her thighs, his thumbs drawing slow circles on the inside of them before feathering his fingers along her slit, the combination of both of them at once its own kind of disorientation, warm and layered, coming from more directions than she could track. She gave up tracking and just felt it.

"Is this alright?" Svetlana's voice was low near her ear.

"Yes," Rose said.

Cliff's hands stilled, a question.

"Not you either," she managed. "Neither of you."

He pushed two fingers inside her, working steady and deep, curling them forward, she felt the heat of it travel up through her stomach into her throat. She gripped Svetlana's arm with one hand and Cliff's wrist with the other, not to stop him but because she needed something to hold onto.

"Tell me what you want," Svetlana murmured.

"Both of you," Rose whimpered. "Everything. Just both of you."

Svetlana’s mouth moved lower while Cliff worked his fingers deeper, the mix of them building something fast and enormous, Rose stopped being able to form sentences and let that go as well. Svetlana pressed her tongue between Rose's folds, finding her clit and working it with focused precision as Cliff continued driving his fingers deeper, curling them to find the spot that made her hips buck. With his free hand Cliff took a hardened nipple into his mouth, sucking and working it with his tongue. Rose struggled for air, head swimming. She came with her hands twisted in the sheets and both their names somewhere in her throat, the whole of it moving through her in a long wave. Both of them held her through it, steady and present, not letting up until she finally stilled.

She lay between them breathing. The room had changed around them.

After a moment she turned her head and looked at Cliff. He was watching her with the expression she'd been clocking all evening, the one that was interested without being possessive, the one that had made her trust him in the kitchen.

"Hi," she said.

"Hi," he said.

"Condom," Svetlana said from her other side, with the practical efficiency of someone who had simply been waiting for the right moment.

"Already got one," Cliff grinned.

Rose laughed. Svetlana laughed. Cliff looked self-satisfied in a way that was entirely earned.

"Can I?" he said.

"Please," she breathed.

He waited as Svetlana took care of the condom then pressed into Rose slowly, watching her face, giving her every increment to adjust to. She arched up to meet him, felt the way his breath left him and his hand tightened on her hip. She understood from that alone what it did to him. If there was a heaven on Earth it was this feeling. She exhaled long and shaking as he began to move, slow and deep, his hands steady on her hips. Svetlana’s hand found Rose’s hair, her mouth found her shoulder, Rose turned to kiss her with the full disorientation of being simultaneously taken apart and put back together.

Cliff rolled onto his back, giving Rose control over their movements. “Show me how you want me,” he said. The sudden assertiveness surprised her but drove something sharp through her. Svetlana moved to Rose’s back, her body warm along her whole spine, her mouth at her shoulder, Rose was surrounded on every side by closeness and intent and the world narrowed to those two people and what was happening between all three of them. Rose ground down on Cliff, angling back so that his cock caught against her g-spot, and quickened her pace, moving his hands to her hips as though asking him not to let her stop.

She came with her face in Svetlana’s neck and her name behind her teeth, the orgasm long and rolling, Cliff working her through it with both hands and steady hips and Svetlana’s arms wrapped around her from behind. She made sounds she hadn’t known she was capable of. The want kept moving through her even after it crested, her body unwilling to stop, and she had to work to hold herself still against him rather than push him further than he’d meant to go.

He finished not long after. She felt it in the change of his breathing before anything else, the way his hands pulled her closer instead of steadier, the long exhale against her skin. She stayed against him while his heartbeat slowed.

They lay together for a long time. The room held the heat of all three of them, changed by what had happened in it.

Svetlana lay on her side with one hand still resting at Rose’s waist, absently stroking her fingers across her side, she thought about everything that had just happened with the same focus she brought to things she wanted to understand properly. She was not new to situations like this and had learned that the way people behaved in them told you things nothing else could, not careers, reputations, or how they moved in crowded rooms. How someone was when they were that vulnerable and that open was the most accurate information available. Rose had been curious and direct and completely without pretense, the way she had been present through all of it, moving toward rather than pulling away from everything the evening had asked of her, had produced in Svetlana an affection that was sitting somewhere deep within her and showed no signs of going away.

Cliff she already knew. She'd understood what kind of man he was before tonight, understood it through Ilya's complaints, which were complaints you could read backward. When Ilya said Cliff was kind of an idiot, he meant was that Cliff navigated the world in ways Ilya found inefficient and sometimes inexplicable. The inefficiency, as Svetlana read it, was Cliff's refusal to be anxious about things. The inexplicability was that he was, despite all evidence of his on ice and locker room reputation, capable of genuine care when the situation required it. Tonight had required it and he'd provided it without apparent effort. She was glad she'd suggested this evening.

* * *

After, they moved back to the living room. Svetlana found her way to Cliff's kitchen with the instinct of someone who locates things without looking. While she was gone Cliff watched Rose settle into the throw and said, without looking away from her: "She's good people. Ilya doesn't give that away."

Rose looked at him. "No," she said. "I don't think he does."

Svetlana came back with tea. Cliff sat on the sectional in his jeans with the boneless contentment of someone who had no complicated relationship with anything that had just happened. Rose wrapped herself in a throw from the back of the sectional and felt, of all things, calm.

Cliff was aware of both of them in the easy way he was aware of most things he found good, without needing to examine it. He’d spent enough time with Svetlana to know the shape of her, the way she moved through rooms and conversations and situations like this one, what he hadn’t known until tonight was Rose Landry, who had surprised him in approximately every direction. He had met her at Ilya's wedding expecting someone whose public version and private version would be close to the same thing, the polished actress, the celebrity girlfriend, the woman who knew how she was supposed to be in a room and moved through it accordingly. He had gotten instead someone curious and direct, who had looked at him across a table in Ottawa with the clear-eyed assessment of someone deciding if he was worth the trouble and then decided he was, which he found both flattering and correct in every way that mattered.

She'd also cried out their names when she came, which was going to occupy his for a while.

He watched her settle into the throw, looked at how she sat in it, the low light of the living room catching in her hair and the easy way she had tucked herself into the corner of the sectional, and thought: yeah. That had been exactly as good as he'd thought it would be. Better, actually, because he hadn't anticipated the way she and Svetlana would move together, the ease of it, the way Rose had been both figuring something out and completely present in the figuring out. That combination had been something else to watch and he'd watched it with the same intensity he usually reserved for game film.

"You're not what I expected," she said to Cliff.

He looked at her. "What did you expect?"

"Something more like an event," she replied. "Less like a person."

He thought about it. "I'll take it."

"It's a compliment."

Svetlana came back with three mugs, settled into her end of the sectional, and looked at both of them with the quiet satisfaction of a woman who had organized this and was satisfied with how it was going.

"Rose," Svetlana said, watching her. “How do you feel?”

"Good," Rose answered. "Genuinely good. Surprised at myself, a little."

"Surprised how?"

"I kept waiting to feel weird," Rose admitted. "And I just didn't."

"You do not have to be surprised by that," Svetlana returned. "It only means you knew something, just not the name for it."

"I'm starting to think I know fewer things about myself than I assumed," Rose reflected.

"Good place to be," Svetlana approved. "That is where interesting things start."

Cliff was watching them with the settled quiet of someone entirely comfortable in his own silence, something Rose had previously associated with him based on reputation. She said as much. He'd been with confident women before, women who knew what they wanted, but never two at once who were this comfortable in their own skin and in each other's company. He was aware, with something close to disbelief, of exactly how lucky he was.

He shrugged. "People know me from the ice, mostly. Or from what Ilya says."

"What does Ilya say?"

"That I'm kind of an idiot."

"Are you?"

"In some ways," he said, without a hint of defensiveness, the half-cocked grin creeping back onto his lips. "Not in this one."

She believed him.

She looked at him over her mug. The easy physicality of him, the way he occupied the sectional, none of it put on. She thought about the bedroom and the consistency of his attention there, the way he had checked in without ever breaking what they were doing, without making it feel like procedure or pressure.

"The man Ilya described couldn't count to three," she said.

He glanced at her. The half-cocked grin came back, slower this time, something more genuine underneath it. "Ilya counts differently than I do."

She believed that too.

"Does Ilya know about tonight?" she asked.

Cliff almost choked on his tea laughing. "No," he sputtered. "Definitely not."

"Would you tell him?"

"It’s not only my story to tell," he said, with the flat certainty of a man who understood exactly what that discretion looks like. “You only tell the stories that are yours alone to tell,” Cliff said.

Svetlana’s eyes moved between them with something lit and slightly amused. "Smart man."

"It seems so," Rose agreed.

Cliff put his mug down. He turned to both of them with the same expression Rose had noticed in the kitchen at the beginning of the evening, the one that wasn't feigning interest but simply had it, and said: "I want to say something."

"Go ahead," Svetlana prompted.

"You were both incredible in there," Cliff said. "And I mean that with full sincerity."

“Thank you,” Rose said, meaning it.

"And I meant everything I said about the safe word. If anything changes, you say it."

"I know," Rose said, bowing her head slightly in his direction.

"Good." He picked his mug back up taking a sip.

They sat in the comfortable quiet of people who have been through something and are resting on the other side of it. Outside, the city went about its indifferent night. Rose finished her tea and thought about the evening so far, the conversation that had built the trust that the rest of it had stood on, she felt something click into place that she thought was probably going to be there for a while.

* * *

It was Svetlana who, with the directness that Rose was coming to recognize as just how she moved through the world, who looked at Rose first and then the chair where things had begun earlier in the evening, asking with her eyes and waiting for an answer before she spoke. Rose nodded.

"There's a chair," she said, smiling at Cliff whose expression shifted into something Rose could only describe as anticipated pleasure. "Yeah, there is."

"You understand what I mean."

"I really do," he nodded.

Rose looked between them. "Explain the chair to me."

"You and I," Svetlana said to Rose, "are going to take our time. And Cliff is going to watch and keep his hands to himself." She looked at him. "Literally to himself. If that’s OK with you Rose."

"I’ll take that deal," he confirmed. He was already looking at the armchair in the corner with the expression of someone who had been waiting for exactly this.

"You're okay with that," Rose said to him hopefully.

"More than okay," he assured her. "I promise you that watching you two together isn't a punishment."

Rose turned to Svetlana. Something moved between them, electric and a little breathless, the current of two people who have already been close and are about to be close again on entirely different terms.

"Okay," Rose said. "Show me what I've been missing."

Cliff took the chair.

* * *

The living room sofa felt different with just the two of them on it, the harbour light coming through the floor-to-ceiling glass and Cliff settled in the armchair across the room, already watching. Svetlana moved through the space with the comfort of a woman at home in her own body, nothing rushed about any of it, Rose felt the charge of being the focus of that unhurried regard with no one else to deflect it.

"What do you want," Svetlana said quietly. She was sitting on the sectional, one leg tucked beneath her, giving Rose the room. "Not what you think you should want."

Rose thought about it honestly. "I want to know what to do with you," she said finally. "I've been on the receiving end tonight. I want to figure out the other side."

Svetlana looked at her for a moment with something open moving in her eyes. "That is an extremely good answer."

"I'm a quick learner."

"I know," Svetlana said. "Come here."

She drew Rose down and kissed her, different from earlier, more settled, the unfamiliarity gone and in its place something easier and more certain. Rose felt herself moving into it without the monitoring she’d been doing before. Svetlana kissed slowly, with the urgency of someone who had nowhere else to be, Rose felt the ease of it move through her body from her mouth downward.

From the chair, Cliff watched. He'd leaned back into it with one arm draped across the armrest and his eyes on them, doing what he'd been asked to do. He kept his hands on the armrests for approximately two minutes before giving up. He worked himself out of his jeans and settled back, taking himself in hand, making himself go slow because going slow was the only way this was going to work. The view in front of him made restraint both necessary and nearly impossible.

He worked his cock until he felt the pressure building, then backed off, cupped his balls, let the urgency subside, until he felt control enough to start again. He pressed two fingers behind his balls, circling there while he stroked his cock and felt a groan he couldn’t quite swallow. Rose's back, the line of her spine in the low light. Svetlana's hands moving on her. The sounds Rose made. He started again, slow, watching everything, building himself back up and then backing off a second time, a third, his jaw tight with the effort of it. By the time Rose moved lower the restraint was costing him something real and he was entirely fine with paying it.

When Rose said she wanted to taste her he made a sound he hadn't planned, rough and low, something that had no polish left in it, and saw Svetlana's shoulders react to it. He got himself back under control. Barely.

Rose lifted her head and looked at her. The low lamp light warm on her skin, her copper curls loose around her face, her expression open and unhurried.

"Tell me," Rose urged. "Tell me what you like."

"Touch me," Svetlana instructed. "And pay attention."

She did.

She moved her hands down Svetlana’s arms, her sides, tracing the shape of her with an attentiveness that was its own form of pleasure. She kissed down her throat, felt the pulse there, warm and fast, pressed her mouth to Svetlana’s collarbone and then lower, finding the curve of her breasts with hands and mouth. She heard the sound Svetlana made and noted it then kept going. Svetlana was generous with her feedback without making it feel like instruction, a low word here, her hand guiding Rose's hand to a better angle there, small sounds that Rose learned to read quickly. The need to get it right sharpened her into something intent, learning her was itself a pleasure, not separate from the physical wanting but threaded through it.

She pressed her mouth to Svetlana’s nipple, felt the sharp intake of breath from above her, felt Svetlana’s hand find her hair, and stayed there, working with her tongue until the grip tightened. She moved to the other side and did the same. She felt the satisfaction of having found something that worked and then the pleasure of continuing to work it, of having someone's full, honest response moving through them because of her.

From across the room, low: "Don't rush her."

Rose wasn't sure if he was talking to Svetlana or to her. She didn't rush.

She moved lower. She pressed her mouth to Svetlana's stomach, her hipbones, the soft skin there, feeling the way Svetlana's breathing changed with each thing Rose tried. She slid her fingers slowly up Svetlana’s inner thigh, heard the sound she made, and felt her hips shift toward the touch.

"Still good?" Rose said.

"Very." Svetlana's voice had roughened. "Keep going."

"Fuck," Cliff gasped, drawing the word out like a prayer. "That's it. Like that."

Rose worked her fingers against her, slow and deliberate, reading what produced the small sounds above her and what produced the longer ones, learning the difference between the way Svetlana moved when she was comfortable and the way she moved when she was being pulled toward something.

"I want to taste you," Rose confessed.

From across the room, a sharp exhale and then his voice, rough and close to gone: "Christ, Rose."

A pause. Svetlana looked at her with something past tenderness. "Are you sure?"

"Yes," Rose told her.

She moved between Svetlana's thighs.

Moving through a combination of instinct and the light pressure of Svetlana’s hand in her hair, guiding without pressing, Rose found her slit and ran her tongue the length of it. She explored, slowly pressing her tongue deep inside her then moving her head in and out, tasting her, learning the geography of her. Rose slid her hands up Svetlana’s thighs, spreading her lip then taking her hardened clitoris gently between her teeth, looking up at Svetlana to check in. Svetlana, flushed and panting nodded in approval. Rose sucked hard on her clitoris, flicking her tongue across it then sucking it firmly as she slid first one finger, then a second inside her, altering her pace and tempo until she found the right one, when she found it she stayed there and built on it. Svetlana's hand tightened in her hair with each short thrust, the sounds escaping from her deepening, quickening, her hips beginning to move rhythmically along with Rose, working with the movement rather than against it, following her, giving her what her body was asking for.

At some point Svetlana lifted her head and looked toward the chair. Whatever passed between her and Cliff took no words. From across the room, low and rough: “You sure?”

It wasn't a question. Svetlana answered it anyway, with her eyes.

Rose kept her mouth where it was, fingers still working their rhythm inside her. They felt the sectional shift as he stood over Svetlana, brushing the head of his cock along her lips, she opened her mouth to him hungrily and delighted in the shiver that ran through him as he slid into her hot mouth. Svetlana made a low sound, different from any she'd made before, deeper and fuller, and Rose understood. She pressed her tongue harder against Svetlana’s clit and felt the moan that came out of her, felt the vibration of it travel straight through her, Svetlana’s hips began to move with a new urgency, bucking between the two of them, caught between Rose’s mouth below and Cliff’s cock filling her mouth above.

Cliff watched Rose working Svetlana with her fingers deep inside, tongue relentless on her clit, he kept his own hips still because he didn’t trust himself to move right now, letting Svetlana set the pace, letting her take what she needed from both of them. One of her hands gripped his thigh hard enough that he felt it. The other was still tightly wrapped in Rose's hair.

Rose thrust her fingers faster, curling them slightly upward and feeling the walls around them tighten. She sealed her lips around Svetlana’s clit and sucked hard. Cliff felt Svetlana moan around him a moment later, the vibration moving through him as she came, her whole body shaking violently between them, her thighs locking around Rose's head, her hips jerking, the sounds she made entirely feral and lost around Cliff's cock as she rode out each wave.

Rose stayed with her through every second of it, tasting her, fingers still moving gently until Svetlana's grip in her hair finally loosened and her body went soft against the sectional.

Cliff pulled back. Svetlana let him go with a long, unsteady exhale.

Rose moved up and slid her wet fingers into Cliff’s mouth. He closed around them and held them there, his tongue moving slow and deliberate, taking his time with the taste of her, his eyes on Rose’s face. Svetlana watched this for a moment before reaching up and pulling Rose down beside her, the satisfied weight of her against Rose’s side.

"Well," Rose said.

"Yes," Svetlana answered.

"I've got thoughts about my previous life choices."

Svetlana laughed, the real one, the one that took up her whole face. “You are very good,” she said, there was no qualifier in it. "For a first time."

"I'm choosing to be flattered by the qualifier."

"You should be." She turned her head. "Cliff."

He was already there, still breathing hard, settling onto the sectional beside them. He looked at both of them with an expression of complete and uncomplicated happiness.

Cliff had, in the interests of honesty, not stayed in the chair as long as agreed, but what had followed had been worth whatever points he’d lost on technicality and he felt no guilt about it whatsoever.

“How are you?” Rose asked.

"Fantastic," he declared. "That was fantastic. You are both fantastic. Life is fantastic. Everything is fantastic." He paused, staring at the ceiling with the expression of a man operating right on the edge of coherent thought. "I may be losing my mind."

"You left the chair," Svetlana said, with no heat in it at all.

"I was invited," Cliff said, without a trace of apology.

She put her hand on his chest briefly. He covered it for a moment and then she took it back.

Rose stared at the ceiling. The room held the heat of all three of them.

"Cliff," she called.

"Yeah."

“Are you done for the evening?”

He turned his head toward her. The good-times smile came back, measured now, knowing, giving her room to decide. "That depends entirely on you."

"I think Sveta might need something more substantial than my tiny little fingers," Rose said, grinning.

"Yeah?"

Svetlana looked at her with the open, unhurried expression that Rose was starting to understand as her listening face, the face she brought to things she was taking seriously.

"Both of you at once," Svetlana proposed. "If that is what you both want."

The look that moved between Cliff and Rose was brief and complete. Some negotiation conducted in a language they had apparently developed across the previous three hours.

"Tell us how," Cliff pressed.

"Rose?" Svetlana questioned.

"I want Sveta's mouth on me," Rose said, running her finger delicately along the woman’s jaw. "And I want you behind her."

Cliff looked at Svetlana and she nodded.

"Who am I to refuse such a simple request?" he said.

* * *

Rose lay back on the sectional, Svetlana knelt on the floor in front of her, her hands warm on Rose’s thighs, pushing them apart, she looked up at her for a moment with that expression, the one that arrived without being arranged, before lowering her head.

Rose felt it immediately, the focused precision of her, and let her head fall back against the cushion. She was aware of Cliff behind Svetlana, heard the soft sounds of it, then felt the change move through Svetlana’s body into her as he entered her from behind. Svetlana's grip on her thighs tightened. The rhythm of him drove her forward, Rose felt that too, the pressure of it transmitted through Svetlana’s mouth against her, every thrust pushing Svetlana’s tongue deeper into her.

She threaded her hands into the copper curls and held on.

Svetlana worked her with the same precision she'd brought to everything else tonight, her tongue finding her clit with ease, working it and staying with it as Rose bucked up beneath her, one hand gripping Rose's thigh to keep herself steady as Cliff moved behind her, the other hand sliding up between her thighs, fingers pressing inside her. The sounds Cliff made were low and controlled. Svetlana made no sounds at all, all of her concentrated forward, but Rose could feel her, the way her breathing changed, the small involuntary movements of her hips pushing back into Cliff even as she worked.

"Okay?" Cliff said, rough, directed at both of them.

"Don't stop," Rose managed. "Neither of you."

He didn't stop. Svetlana didn't stop. Rose tightened her hands in those curls and felt the pressure of all of it, Svetlana's mouth and Cliff's rhythm moving through her as she stared up at him, holding his gaze with an intensity that nearly blinded them both.

She came with her fists full of copper curls and her back arching off the sectional, a long wave of it, Svetlana holding her hips down and working her through every second of it. Above Svetlana, Cliff’s rhythm broke, found itself, broke again. Rose heard the low sound he made when he finished, felt it move through Svetlana’s body against her inner thighs.

Svetlana came a moment later, her whole body clenching around him as he finished with her, hands locked on her hips, both of them going over at once.

The three of them stayed like that for a moment, breathing, the room warm and changed around them. The sounds that came through the glass were ordinary and distant. In here the only sounds were their own.

Cliff settled onto the sectional beside Rose. Svetlana rose from the floor and tucked herself onto his other side. Through the floor-to-ceiling glass the city spread out indifferent and silver, caring nothing for any of it.

Cliff rested about twenty minutes before he pressed his mouth to Rose’s hair then Svetlana’s, he stood and said he was going to shower. Neither of them said anything until the sound of the water starting came through the wall a moment later.

Rose was wrapped in the throw, her feet tucked up under her, her head resting against the back of the sectional. Svetlana was at the other end, her legs folded beneath her, her vodka glass long empty on the side table. The lamp was low. The room was easy.

"Sveta," Rose said.

"Mm."

"Thank you."

“For what?”

"For how you did all of this," Rose continued. "The conversation first. The checking. The way you didn't make anything weird when I was figuring something out. All of it."

She paused. "I've been with men who treated check-ins like interruptions. Men who thought asking meant breaking something. He never broke anything."

Svetlana was quiet for a moment. "No," she said. "He would not."

"It should not be something to thank someone for," Svetlana replied. "It should just be how it is."

"I know," Rose insisted. "I'm noting it anyway. It hasn’t always…" Her voice trailed off.

A pause. "I know," Svetlana said quietly. "I could tell."

Svetlana's hand found hers in the low light, not reaching, just arriving, her palm against the back of Rose's hand.

"Rose," Svetlana said gently.

"Yeah."

"You did well tonight. More than well."

"The qualifier again."

“It will not always be a qualifier,” Svetlana said, the smile was audible in it.

"No," Rose said softly. "I don't think it will."

She thought about the beginning of the evening, the kitchen counter, the vodka, the conversation that hadn't been embarrassing to have. She thought about Cliff carrying her down the hall, setting her at the edge of the bed, stepping back to wait, and the restraint of that. The restraint that communicated I want to devour you but I’m not going to hurry you, how rare that combination was in a man who looked the way he looked and knew it.

She thought about what it had felt like to be between them, the press of them from every direction, being wanted by two people at once and having that want expressed with care rather than urgency. She'd expected the physical fact of it to be the thing she'd carry forward. What she was actually thinking about was the trust. How she'd known in her body that she could ask for anything and it would either be given or declined without making her feel wrong for having asked. She couldn't remember the last time she'd felt that ease in a situation with that much exposure. Maybe she'd never felt it.

She thought about Svetlana's hands and the vocabulary of her responses, how quickly Rose had learned to read them, how the learning itself had been something she wanted more of. Not love, maybe not in the romantic sense at all, but something. The pleasure of knowing someone's body and being known by theirs in return. She thought she'd like more of that.

She thought about how different she was from the woman who had sat on the kitchen counter four hours ago and wondered if the wanting had words yet. It had more words now than it had then. She was going to sit with them and see what they added up to.

"Sveta," she whispered.

"Still here."

"Next time," Rose said, and left it there.

She felt Svetlana consider it, the way she always considered things she hadn't fully thought through yet.

"Next time," Svetlana echoed. Then: "We plan better. More time."

"Yes," Rose agreed. "More time."

"And we leave him in the chair longer," Svetlana said, with the flat, serene delivery of a woman who had made a decision and was entirely at peace with it.

Rose pressed her hand over her mouth but the laugh came out anyway, warm and quiet. From down the hall the water had stopped. She heard the soft sounds of him moving around, a drawer, a door.

Cliff came back in a t-shirt and sweat pants, his hair damp, taking in the sight of both of them on the sofa with the satisfaction of someone who had come back to something good and knew it.

"Bed," Svetlana said simply.

They moved to the bedroom. Cliff in the middle, a decision arrived at without discussion, a woman on each side.

The dark settled around them. Rose lay with her head on his shoulder, listening to him breathe, felt the weight of Svetlana on his other side, and thought about sleeping. She didn’t sleep.

She wasn't sure what made her move. Not a decision exactly, more like the same logic that had sent her across the room to kiss him at the beginning of the evening, something her body understood before her mind caught up. She pushed the sheet back.

Svetlana felt the movement and lifted her head in the almost darkness, Rose met her eyes and tilted her head toward Cliff. Then Svetlana smiled, slow and certain, and moved with her.

Cliff made a sound when he understood what was happening, something between a word and an exhale. Then both of them had their mouths on him and words left him entirely.

They worked him together, Rose taking her time circling his head with her tongue the way she'd learned he liked, Svetlana at the base and lower, her hand cupping him as she took one of his balls into her mouth sucking gently. He had one hand in Rose's hair and other in Svetlana’s and his breathing had gone completely uneven. Rose could feel him getting close, the tension in his hips, the way his hand in her hair went tight, and when she felt it she moved, pressed Svetlana gently aside and took him fully into her mouth, moving along his entire length quickly as she followed behind with her hand firmly wrapped around it. She sucked and stroked him until he came hard, both hands gripping her head now, as he let loose a string of expletives interspersed with her name several times.

She swallowed everything.

She moved back up his body and kissed Svetlana first, then Cliff, his mouth warm and unhurried even now.

“Goodnight,” she said, settling her head on his chest.

She was asleep within minutes. How quickly it came surprised even her.

In the dark Svetlana lay on her side facing them, listening to Rose's breathing slow and become even. Cliff was awake. She could tell from the way he held himself, the stillness of a man pretending not to think.

"I should thank Ilya," she said quietly.

A pause. Then, "He knows."

She looked at the shape of him in the dark. “Does he?”

“I made sure of it, the moment I saw the picture of you at his house,” Cliff said, there was something in his voice that was not quite smug and not quite tender and entirely him. “I made sure he knew he owed me.”

Svetlana was quiet for a moment. Outside, the city went on doing whatever the city did at this hour, indifferent to the three people who had spent the better part of the night learning about each other and about themselves. Through the floor-to-ceiling glass the harbour was black and silver, the same view it always was, caring nothing for any of it.

"Yes," she said finally, and turned onto her back and looked at the ceiling. "He does."

She closed her eyes.

* * *