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You'd made the decision weeks ago.
Not with the dramatics or tears you'd expect, but with a quiet sort of certainty. No dramatic struggle, no second thoughts. Just a slow, inevitable alignment of thoughts.
Yuji's laughter rang out again, bright and unrestrained, pulling your gaze toward him. He doubled over, hands on his knees, pink hair falling into his eyes as Todo struck another exaggerated pose, hips swaying in what he insisted was Takada's signature 'move', arms pumping, feet stepping in precise, enthusiastic arcs that somehow managed to look both ridiculous and oddly compelling.
Todo's face was flushed with earnest devotion, sweat beading along his brow despite the cool air, and he shouted over Yuji's cackles, "This is it! The move that defines her grace! Feel the rhythm in your soul, brother!"
Yuji tried to mimic it, stumbling on the transition, his longer limbs flailing in good-natured chaos. "Wait—wait, like this? Or more... explosive?" His grin split wide, the kind that reached his eyes and made everything around him feel momentarily lighter, even if the weight in your chest refused to lift.
You tried to copy it, to curve your lips into something resembling amusement, but the muscles felt stuck, heavy. The attempt died halfway, leaving your expression blank, almost vacant.
Nobara noticed, her sharp eyes flicking toward you from where she leaned against the tree trunk, knees pulled to her chest, one hand idly picking at the bark. She said nothing at first, just watched with that quiet attention she reserved for things she didn't want to admit concerned her.
Todo spun again, nearly knocking into Yuji, who caught himself with a yelp. "Don't laugh! This is a sacred technique!"
Nobara groaned, loud enough to cut through the noise. "You're both idiots. If I hear one more word about that woman's 'rhythm,' I'm leaving." But she didn't move, just curled tighter against the rough bark, as if the tree itself might shield her from the absurdity.
Megumi stood a little further away, arms crossed, expression as unreadable as ever, dark eyes scanning the scene with the detached precision of someone who preferred calculations to chaos.
He hadn't laughed once, hadn't joined in the impromptu performance. His silence felt like judgment, though everyone knew better, it was simply how he existed, always observing, always measuring distances.
"Why'd you bring us here?" His voice cut through the laughter, low and direct, blue eyes swinging to lock on yours.
You looked away, down at the snagged threads on your skirt, fingers tracing one absentmindedly. The fabric felt thinner than it should. "Just... wanted to see everyone" you murmured, the lie sounding flat, even to you. "Sorry. I didn't mean to pull you away from anything important. If you need to go back…”
Megumi studied you a beat longer, something flickering behind the flatness, concern, perhaps, or suspicion. He exhaled through his nose. "I need to speak to Gojo. I'll see you at school." He turned, already moving toward the path that wound back down the hill.
"Megumi."
He paused mid-stride, half-turned, eyebrows lifting in faint question. You forced the smile this time, hoping that would stick in his memory like a photograph, not the hollow version of you that you'd become. "Goodbye."
His frown deepened, just a fraction, mouth parting as if the beginning of a reply formed on his tongue. Then his phone buzzed in his pocket, pulling his attention downward. He glanced at the screen, sighed, and looked back up at you.
"See ya later."
Simple, casual, the same way he'd said it a hundred times before. He walked off without another glance, shoulders squared, disappearing around the bend where the trees thickened and the path dipped out of sight.
You watched until the last flicker of his dark uniform vanished, the knot in your throat swelling until breathing felt difficult.
A strange sense of calm followed, settling over your skin like mist.
This was it, the clean break. No more dragging them down with your failures, no more waking up to the echo of that twelve-year-old version of you screaming when your focus slipped for one fatal second and the curse tore through your first partner like paper.
Yaga had told you loss was part of the job, something you needed to harden yourself against, but the hardening never came. Instead, the guilt calcified, growing sharper with every new face that joined the roster only to leave it too soon.
Nobara's sigh broke the quiet. "Come on, I'm starved. Let's get lunch." She unfolded herself from the tree, brushing dirt from her skirt, and extended a hand toward you.
Her fingers were steady, and warm when they closed around yours. She pulled you up with surprising gentleness, noting without comment the way your legs trembled for a second before steadying, the faint tremor in your grip.
You'd always been strong, fast on your way toward Grade 1, shadows bending to your will with an ease that once felt like a gift. Now it felt like irony, a technique that summoned protectors while leaving you exposed in every way that mattered.
Yuji bounded over, still flushed from laughing, Todo trailing behind. "Food sounds perfect! What're we feeling, ramen? Sushi? Todo, you pick, since you're the expert on vibes today."
Todo puffed out his chest. "Something hearty! To honour Takada's energy!"
Nobara rolled her eyes again but didn't argue, already steering the group toward the path. You followed a step behind, the grass soft under your shoes, each stride carrying you further from the moment that had felt, for one fragile heartbeat, like goodbye.
And as their laughter faded ahead of you, you wondered how long it would take them to realise the goodbye hadn't been casual at all, how long before the absence registered, leaving only the echo of your voice on the wind. You wondered how fast you’d become another bitter memory.
…
The smell of ramen lingered in the air, salty and savoury, beneath it the faint, clean scent of Yuji’s shampoo, something cheap and citrusy that always seemed to cut through the heavier things.
You walked beside him in silence after the group splintered at the cafeteria doors, Nobara already vanishing down the opposite corridor.
The linoleum floor squeaked faintly under your shoes, each step measured, as though prolonging the distance between the dining hall and this final threshold might buy you more time you didn’t deserve.
Yuji paused at his door and let out a satisfied groan that bordered on theatrical. “That was so good” he said, wiping the back of his hand across his mouth. A tiny smear of broth still clung to the corner of his lip, he missed it entirely, then rubbed at his stomach in slow, contented circles.
His eyes sparkled with the same unguarded delight he wore after every meal, every victory, every small kindness the world bothered to throw his way. “Seriously, I think I’m gonna fall into a food coma.”
He laughed softly and reached for the doorknob again.
“Yuji.”
Your voice came out quieter than you intended. Something in the single word must have snagged on the edges of his usual cheer, because his laughter died mid-breath. He turned toward you, hand dropping from the door, brows knitting just enough to carve faint lines across his forehead.
Those round hazel eyes, usually bright with uncomplicated warmth, sharpened with sudden, instinctive concern. He didn’t say anything at first, just watched you, the way he always did when he sensed something off but didn’t yet know what yet.
You took one small step closer. Your fingers flexed uselessly at your sides, nails biting into your palms. “C-could… could you hug me?”
The question hung there, absurd in its simplicity. Yuji blinked, head tilting slightly like a confused puppy. “Huh?” He actually took half a step back, shoulders hunching in reflexive bewilderment.
You’d never asked for this before, physical comfort had always felt like something reserved for other people, people who hadn’t already proven they could break things just by existing near them.
You nodded once, sharp and small, praying he would see the plea in your eyes and not demand explanations you couldn’t give.
The desperation roared in your chest, the unbearable thought of vanishing tomorrow night without ever once feeling the solid, living warmth of someone who still believed the world could be kind. Someone who still carried sunlight in his bones even after everything had tried to take it from him.
“Okay” he said finally, voice softer now, uncertainty giving way to something gentler. He shuffled forward, awkward in the way only Yuji could be, elbows out, arms opening wide like he wasn’t entirely sure of the choreography but was determined to get it right anyway.
You stepped into the space he made, pressing your cheek against the worn cotton of his hoodie. His chest was broad and solid beneath the fabric, rising and falling with each steady breath. You wrapped your arms around his waist, fingers curling into the material at his back, holding on harder than you meant to.
For a heartbeat he stayed stiff, surprised by the force of it, then his arms came down slowly, carefully, settling around your shoulders. One large hand patted your back in gentle, uneven rhythm, like he was soothing a startled animal.
The steady thump of his heartbeat pressed again your ear, a metronome against the frantic stutter of your own. His warmth seeped through layers of clothing, you closed your eyes, memorising the sensation, the way his chin rested lightly against the crown of your head without pressing.
“Is something wrong?” His voice vibrated straight through his chest, tickling the shell of your ear.
You shook your head against him, quick and silent, teeth clenched to keep the sob locked behind them. If you opened your mouth even a fraction the truth would spill out.
Yuji was unbreakable in ways you could never be. He’d survived worse, came back smiling, kept moving forward when the rest of the world would have stopped. The last thing you wanted was to become another scar on that resilient heart, another name added to the quiet tally he carried but never spoke about.
You hoped he’d forget you instead. That the memory of this would blur over time, softened by laughter, new faces, new people who didn’t leave craters behind when they walked away.
After what felt like forever and not nearly long enough, you loosened your grip and stepped back. Your arms fell to your sides, cold rushing in where his warmth had been. You stared down at his sneakers, because looking up meant meeting those eyes again, and you weren’t sure you could survive the concern you’d find there.
“Goodbye, Yuji” you whispered.
You forced the smile then, summoning every scrap of strength left in your body to curve your lips the way he always did.
He blinked at you, smile faltering for half a second before returning, smaller, uncertain. “Yeah” he said simply, the single word soft and confused.
You turned before he could ask anything else, before the mask cracked completely.
Behind you, the door to his room clicked open, then closed again. Quiet, ordinary, final.
…
The room felt smaller when you turned back one last time, the door half-open behind you. Everything that tethered you to this life lay arranged in a careful, almost ceremonial display on the narrow bed.
The notebook, its pages dense with your cramped handwriting, diagrams of shadow flows and summoning sequences you’d spent sleepless weeks refining, every marginal note edged with the quiet hope that Megumi might one day flip through it and find something useful, something that might keep him alive a second longer than you had managed to keep others.
Beside it, the small velvet pouch of family heirlooms you’d never worn, silver hairpins etched with faded crests, a thin bracelet of pearls that had once belonged to a grandmother you barely remembered, things you imagined Nobara might wear, proof that you had at least existed long enough to leave some fragments behind.
For Yuji you had placed the cursed sword last. Its silver blade caught the light even in stillness, the weapon had never dulled, never needed sharpening, as though it understood permanence better than you ever would. You laid it carefully between the modest pile of plush toys that had accumulated over the years, creating a strange, almost comical contrast.
The note itself sat beside the arrangement, folded once, weighted down by the smooth black rectangle of your phone so it wouldn’t flutter away. You hadn’t reread the words after writing them. There was nothing left to say that hadn’t already carved itself into the marrow of every line.
You eased the door closed behind you with the flat of your palm, slow enough that the latch barely clicked.
Outside, the night air was cool and damp, carrying the faint green scent of the school grounds. You walked without looking back, putting distance between yourself and the cluster of buildings until the lights dimmed to pinpricks and then vanished entirely.
You had expected fear to rise like bile as the path narrowed and the forest thickened, as the idea of standing before Mahoraga sharpened from academic footnote into imminent reality. The texts had been sparse, Mahoraga, untameable, adaptive, a force that erased.
Yet the fear never arrived. What settled instead was a numb, patient certainty.
The abandoned temple appeared gradually, a broken silhouette against the sliver of moon. The temple steps had long since surrendered to the slow, patient encroachment of the forest, moss thick as velvet carpeted the cracked stone, vines threading through fissures like veins of green.
The moonlight spliced through the canopy overhead, painting the world in stark monochromes, pale stone, black shadow, the occasional glint of dew. You paused at the top, lungs burning from the climb, and let your gaze sweep the ruined sanctuary one final time.
It was beautiful in the way abandoned things sometimes are, silent, indifferent, untouched by the petty dramas of the world. The torii gate leaned drunkenly to one side, vermilion paint flaking away, leaving its bones exposed.
You had chosen this place deliberately, clinging to the childish logic that sacred ground might somehow ease what came next. If there was anything waiting beyond the veil, some scrap of mercy, perhaps dying here would tip the scales in your favour.
The thought felt thin even as it formed, fragile as the moonlight itself, but it was all you had left to hold onto.
You exhaled slowly, watching your breath plume in the chill. The stars above were sharp tonight, scattered like shards of broken glass across an ink-black sky, the crescent moon hung low. You stared at it longer than you meant to, a strange sort of gratitude curling in your chest.
At least this would be the last thing you'd see, no blood, no screams, no wide-eyed horror on a friend’s face.
Your hands came up, fists balled tight enough that your nails dug into your palms. The air around you thickened before the words even left your lips, shadows pooling at your feet. The technique recognised intent before conscious command, it always had.
“With this treasure…” Your voice cracked on the first syllable, barely audible, but the world heard it anyway. The darkness tightened, coiling around your ankles, climbing your calves like cold water rising. “…I summon… Eight-Handled Sword Divergent Sila Divine General Mahoraga.”
The night collapsed inward.
Everything went black, not a gradual dimming, but an absolute devouring of light, as though the moon itself had been snuffed out. The stars vanished. The temple, the forest, the path behind you, all erased in a single, suffocating instant.
And from that perfect void he rose.
A low, resonant hum vibrated through your bones, deeper than thunder, older than time. Then the faint metallic whisper of silk and steel parting.
Wrappings unfurled around him like a chrysalis splitting, pale, web-like threads stretching taut before snapping one by one, drifting downward in slow spirals to pool on the floor like shed skin. Then the sound of glass shattering somewhere behind you as the last of the bindings flaked away in glittering motes.
Your arms dropped, trembling at your sides. You waited for the strike, for the world to end in a single moment.
You had read the accounts, the sparse, terrified fragments scholars dared commit to paper, Mahoraga did not fight, he erased anything that dared summon him without absolute dominion.
You expected pain, instantaneous and total. Or perhaps nothing at all, just the sudden cessation of thought, of breath, of everything.
Instead, the silence stretched.
You heard the slow, deliberate rustle of his winged horns unfurling, like leather stretched and released. The air itself grew heavier, saturated with an oppressive dread so thick it coated your tongue, made your throat close.
Your knees threatened to buckle. Every muscle in your body locked and shook in alternating waves, terror and anticipation braiding together until you couldn’t separate them.
He stood motionless.
Towering.
The moonlight returned in hesitant slivers, as though afraid to touch him, outlining the massive shoulders, the eight handles rising like a cruel halo, the mask-like face devoid of expression yet somehow watchful. His presence pressed against you from every direction, a weight that made your ribs ache.
You swallowed, throat clicking.
“Come on” you whispered, the words barely shaping the air. Your hands clenched tighter at your sides, knuckles white, nails biting deeper. “Hurry up.”
The plea sounded pathetic even to your own ears, small, almost petulant. You hated how it trembled though.
Then came the sound.
A low, wet hiss that curled at the edges into something resembling a growl. It rolled from somewhere deep in his chest, or perhaps from the shadows themselves.
He tilted his head, just a fraction.
The movement was so slight it might have been imagination, yet it sent ice cascading down your back.
Everything narrowed to that hiss still coiling through the air, tightening with each beat of your heart until it felt like the sound itself was wrapping around your throat.
“Kill me” you shouted, the words bursting out, raw and jagged. You took one shaking step forward, boots scraping against moss coated slick stone. He remained utterly still, unflinching. “Fucking dammit, kill me.”
You dipped to the ground, fingers scrabbling across the uneven flagstones until they closed around a sharp-edged fragment of broken tile. You hurled it with everything left in you.
It struck the broad plane of his chest with a dull thunk and ricocheted off, skittering away into the shadows with a pathetic clatter that echoed louder than it should have. Mocking you. The sound of your own futility.
“Do I have to fight you?” The question came out in a hiss, trembling on the knife-edge between fury and terror, you couldn’t tell which anymore, only that they both burned equally hot behind your ribs. “Is that it? You want me to die fighting?”
An irrational hatred for this creature surged so fast it stole your breath. You had come here for erasure, for an end that required nothing more than standing still and letting inevitability take its course.
Not this. Not a struggle. Not having to prove, one last time, that you were worth destroying.
Your hands were already moving, fingers snapping into the familiar seals for the Divine Dogs almost before conscious thought caught up. The shadows at your feet stirred in answer, eager, loyal, ready to tear forward at the first syllable. You opened your mouth to speak the invocation.
He moved.
Not violently. Not with the cataclysmic speed you’d expected. He simply lowered himself, first one colossal knee striking stone with a resonant thunder that vibrated up through your bones, then the other, until he knelt before you.
The motion was measured, careful, as though he understood exactly how fragile the moment was. He did not bow his head, did not turn away. He simply knelt, still towering even in submission.
The dread that had saturated the air vanished so abruptly it left you reeling, like a drain being pulled, pressure releasing in a sudden rush that made your ears pop. The shadows around you stilled, uncertain.
Your hands dropped limply to your sides. The seals dissolved before they could form. The fight bled out of you in one long, shuddering exhale.
“Why?” The word escaped as little more than a whisper. You tilted your head back to look up at him, neck aching from the angle. Even kneeling he loomed, a mountain carved from the dark . “Why won’t you kill me?”
For a long moment there was only silence and the slow rise-fall of whatever passed as breath for him. Then one enormous hand lifted, pausing midair as though calculating the risk of what came next. The fingers flexed once, visibly reining in strength that could have pulverised stone without effort.
And then he seemed to shrink, his whole body deflating in size until the palm that settled against your cheek was only slightly larger than that of a human hand, though he still towered above you. The skin against your cheek is cool, silken like polished porcelain.
The sob ripped out of you before you could stop it, an ugly, involuntary sound torn up from somewhere deep and long-buried. Your head slumped forward of its own accord, pressing harder into that steady palm, forehead resting against the base of his thumb. He did not pull away.
He did not tighten his grip. He simply held the contact, unmoving, as though this were the only thing he knew could offer.
“You have no idea…” you choked out between sobs, voice muffled against his skin, “how much courage I had to muster up to do this.” Your shoulders shook violently now, each word punctuated by a fresh wave of tears that spilled over the edge of his hand and traced paths down his skin. “And you’ve ruined it.”
The words hung between you, bitter and broken. You hated how small they sounded, how they exposed the childish petulance beneath the despair, the part of you that had still hoped, stupidly, that death would be clean and merciful and final.
Instead you were here, standing in front of a divine calamity that refused to be calamitous, your face cradled in a hand that could have ended worlds, and all you could do was cry like something wounded, furious at being saved.
His thumb shifted, tracing the wet track of a tear in a gesture so careful it felt almost laughable. No words came from him, only the quiet pressure of his palm, anchoring you to a moment you had come here expressly to escape.
The laughter that escaped you was bitter and sharp.
“What do I do now?” You laughed humourlessly, the words aimed at the towering silhouette still kneeling before you. As though he, of all things, might have an answer.
All at once the strength that had carried you up the temple steps simply vanished. Your legs folded in without warning. You dropped straight down, knees buckling, palms slapping cold stone again. The world tilted.
He moved, one massive arm swept beneath your shoulders, the other curling around your waist in the same fluid instant. He caught you before you could fully collapse, cradling the upper half of your body against the unyielding plane of his chest. Your weight slumped into him without resistance.
“I’m tired” you whispered, the words small. "So tired".
Your eyelids felt impossibly heavy, each blink lasted longer than the last, the darkness drawing you in like an invitation. You didn’t fight it. There was nothing left to fight.
He rose in one smooth motion, lifting you as though you weighed less than air. One forearm hooked beneath your knees, the other supporting your back. Your legs draped over the crook of his elbow, your head leant against the firm swell of his pectoral. Cool and solid.
He carried you without a single jolt, each step so precise that the world barely seemed to move around you. The temple receded behind his shoulders, branches brushed against his winged eyes, but never once did they snag on you.
The forest parted for him the way water parts for stone.
You drifted somewhere between sleeping and waking, cheek pressed to that unyielding surface, listening to the faint, alien rhythm beneath it. Exhaustion wrapped around you like fog.
He finally lowered you onto the narrow mattress of your bed, the same bed you had left barely an hour earlier, still rumpled from where you’d sat arranging your farewells. His arm swept across the surface in a single, careless motion, notebook, heirlooms, all of it tumbled to the floor in a quiet cascade of soft thuds and metallic clinks.
You registered the sound distantly, too tired to care that your careful goodbye had just been scattered like leaves.
You waited for him to dissolve back into shadow, to vanish the way shikigami did when their purpose was fulfilled. He didn’t.
He lingered, drawing the sheets up and over your body, the movements clumsy and awkward.
Standing beside the bed, he looked… out of place in a way that bordered on absurd.
The Divine General Mahoraga, untameable calamity, adaptive destroyer, reduced to something almost domestic, looming awkwardly in the cramped space between your mattress and the wall.
His shoulders nearly brushed the ceiling, the dharma wheel scraped faintly against plaster when he shifted his weight. You almost laughed, the sound catching in your throat before it could fully form.
“Are you leaving?” The question came out soft, barely above a breath. Your eyes were already slipping closed, lashes fluttering against the pull of sleep.
Rustling answered first, fabric and shadow shifting, followed by the slow, deliberate creak of floorboards protesting beneath his impossible weight. You forced your lids open just enough to see him lowering himself to the ground beside the bed.
He folded his colossal frame, knees drawing up, arms resting across them, back braced against the wall. The position should have looked ridiculous. Instead it looked… resolute.
He shook his head once, a slow, jerky left-to-right, the motion so human it startled you.
A real laugh escaped this time. Small, trembling, but genuine. The first unforced sound of amusement that had left you in months. It felt strange in your chest.
“Okay” you murmured, the word already slurring at the edges. “Goodnight, Divine General Mahoraga.”
He grumbled in response, a low, rolling sound that might have been displeasure, might have been acknowledgment. You chose to hear it as him bidding you 'goodnight'.
Your eyes slipped shut again, heavier this time, darkness rising to meet you, less final than you'd wanted it to be tonight.