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He thought about every possibility, he had to, he had to be one step ahead of everyone. He doesn't have any room for failure, this was the strength smp for princesses sake. Filled with betrayal and trickery, nobody could be trusted in any way, shape or form.
However that was till he came into his life, and suddenly everything changed in Jude's life. Sharpness Conexion. One of the strongest person in the whole server. The one that stole his heart…
He didn't wanted to accept it but over the time they were teammates he had fallen downright BAD for the stupid damsel in distress.
It started slow, the look on his eyes when he taught sharpness about the traps he had made. The way he could swing a sword really well, like he was dancing with death itself. Then there was his laugh, the laugh that made even the most beautiful flower fade away in jealousy. The teasing between them, the pet names… everything…
Every time he looked at those eyes, the eyes brighter than the sun itself, he felt like he was lost. Lost in a field of flower blooming with love and care, he really felt like he could relax with someone finally, let all the overthinking leave him without a trace. But there was one really important thing he always missed. The feeling that latched onto him like a tumor.
He was scared.
Scared of being betrayed by the man he cherished the most.
Scared of being abandoned.
Frightened by the thought of never seeing those life filled eyes…
Over the time he was a part of this smp he had always been scared of betrayals, scared of getting attached and abandoned. As the time passed the paranoia that once made him cautious was covering his mind in every wrong way, every move, every said word was a suspicion for him. He felt like he was walking on thin eggshells, one wrong move and everything you built over the years was gone.
So he lied to himself, turning a blind eye to his own mistakes, creating a tale of his world and perspective. His own mind and thoughts were made up of all lies created by him, only by him. He told himself he had always liked being alone, the reasoning? It was more efficient, no time for distractions, no betrayals to think upon, just pure hardwork onto his traps and designs.
Just him and his mindset alone together, forever.
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Another day had passed with Sharpness by his side, another day of being able to look at his eyes with comfort rather than confusion or sadness. But the paranoia was eating him from the inside, like a parasite. He felt like maggots were eating his skin, making his stomach turn upside down.
(Maybe he had parasites, he was a bunny hybrid for gods sake.)
Continuing on the topic, he had always felt like he was becoming more and more of a weight to Sharpness's back with each passing day. Sharpness did everything for him these days, instead of his tradition of completing the tasks himself. He felt lazy, like he was becoming more useless than he already was, it just didn't sit right with him.
Was he even a compatible partner teammate for him?
Would he ever-
"Judeeeee!" speak of the devil…
With sharpness back the bunny finally came to a stop with his time of overthinking. For a while at least…
"What happened now princess?" Jude said in a smug voice, trying to suppress the cracks in his voice.
"First of all stop calling me that, bunny. Secondly I brought the items you said you need." Muttered Sharpness in a voice that screamed boredom. Was he really this bored of Jude this much? Was he a bother this much?
"Although I couldn't visit spawn like u asked…" Said Sharpness as he put down the materials ge had gotten and slowly started to wrap his arms around the rabbit's waist from the back as his head made its way onto Jude's shoulders. Watching, analyzing the new design the purple guy had made.
They were close, really close… To the point of hearing their each other's heartbeat.
A small blush appeared in Jude's cheeks as his ears ruffled up. Sharpness was getting a lot more comfortable being touchy and all nowadays. Was this a way for him to trick Jude into looking at his blueprints, to make him defenseless? Was he going to use his own traps against him? Would Sharpness ever… betray him?
"Jude!" The bunny's ears ringed as he hear the blonde haired boy shouted at him.
"Huh? What now?" Jude said in confusion. He realized that the tumor got his way back into his head, making him unable to focus on Sharpness.
"I was asking you if you wanted me to still visit spawn?"
Would he even go if Jude asked or wanted? No, he shouldn't bother Sharpness anymore. He was capable of completing his own tasks, he couldn't get used to having Sharpness around.
"No need, I will visit once its nighttime." Jude signed with weight in his words. He hoped that way he wouldn't come across someone he knew or get recognized, he wanted to be left completely alone today, with the tumor.
"Suree, just know that if you need something I'm right here." Sharpness said as he stood up, unleashing his hands from the bunny's waist and walked to the exit with carefull steps. He was still fearful of the traps scattered around their his base, not like Jude would have the courage to trap him again.
' 'He's going to betray you no matter what.' '
'Fuck, where did that noise came from?' Jude thought as he quickly turned away from his desk. He didn't saw any particles now, did he? His eyes where scanning the whole room by now, trying to find the source of the mysterious voice.
Nothing. There was nothing. No particles. No nothing. Was he finally becoming schizophrenic after all those years of fucking up his sleep schedule? Maybe all he needed was a quick nap. Yeah, he could do that, he could sleep, he could do one task correctly.
Jude slowly took away his blueprints into the hidden compartment of his desk, locking it and finally leaving in order to reach his bedroom. His bedroom was in the most isolated region of his base, to be honest he liked better that way. Most people would completely ignore that part of his base. It was quiet, maybe too quiet for his liking but he managed, like he always did.
As the bunnies footsteps got quicker, so did whispers he heard. Shit, he really needed sleep. When even was the time he last slept for real? He couldn't even remember anymore, but from the whispers he heard, he made the conclusion that it must have been a long time.
He quickly made his way to his room, locking the door the instant he was inside the borders of his quarters. And without changing his clothes or getting cleaned from the redstone dust covering his body, he lay down. Fully emerging himself onto the mattress, he at least had a real bed.
His body was getting heavier as the time went on.
"Would sharp ever betray me…?" Muttered Jude as his eyes lost their strength and closed in the end.
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*buzzing*
'Where am I? Oh, I feel asleep.' The rabbit turned his head to look at the dyi clock he made by himself. It was around 2 AM, shit, he forgot to visit spawn. Jude jumped out of the bed in a panic quickly gathering the materials he needed for his little adventure and finally left the base. Making his way to the spawn of this hell hole he was satisfied that he still didn't encounter anybody, that was until…
"How long do you think it will take for Sharpness to betray Jude?"
'Shit, there are people here at this time?' Jude quickly splashed an invisibility potion, hoping, praying, nobody had heard it, and rushed to hid behind a tree. They were talking about him, him and Sharpness's alliance to be more specific. Normally he would quickly write the names of these kinds of people, to trap them later. But because of the darkness he could only see their figures resting with the dim moonlight.
"Sharp was always kinda homeless, I don't think Jude will make that stray stay anymore longer." The second guy spoke.
"Yeah, I don't even think Jude's a compatible for Sharpness. Never understood how Jude managed to pull up Sharpness… Maybe it was because of Jude's base?"
"Frr, or maybe its because Jude's a bunny you know. Sharp has a thing for that, right?"
'WHAT?' Jude internally screamed, were these people on something? Jude could feel his whole face burning up although it didn't last long. They were right about something, one thing, even though they were talking shit with the power of sleep deprivation.
Sharpness was going to betray him, he was suspecting this for a while now and hearing it from other people's gossip really did put his mind together. He needed to act before Sharpness could betray him.
He wouldn't be the one left alone in the end.
Again.
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After days of preparation it was finally ready, his betrayal… And the only thing that was left? Lure Sharpness into it with a blind eye. Every move was planned, calculated in order for it to be oerfect.
Althoug his heart ached, protested that he shouldn't do it, it was too late. He told Sharpness that he wanted to speak to him outside and gave him the coordinates, and Sharpness… was excited? Like he was planning something behind his back.
He wondered if Sharp was going to ask him a question? Did he talked about the supposed 'talk' too early, should he listened to Sharpness first? He didn't know anymore, he just wanted to get this over with and then… he could suffer alone by himself, and himself only.
Jude hid behind some trees far away from the trap, but close enough to see the whole thing and quickly reach to end him.
As supposed Sharpness came to the exact coordinations, standing in the perfect place to fall for his trap. But Jude was quick to realize something, Sharp had something on his back that he was hiding while grinning.
'Does it matter anymore…?'
He thought one last time and pulled the lever. Watching him fall into the hole, quickly he made his way to the bottom, to end once for all.
He felt like he was deaf, he only heard the death bells ringing as he saw Sharpness mouth was moving. He was saying something, shouting at him. But the last blow was done.
» Conexion was slain by JudeLow
Although in the end the only thing that could be seen was the lifeless corpse of his unrequited love lying in front of him.
How could he shed tears after a man that has never loved him.
How could he lose his dignity like that?
And yet he still felt the tears. He still felt love toward the light himself.
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As Judelow looked at the corpse one last time he saw… flowers. A beautiful bouquet of clematis…
He understood now…
Cough cough
Oh.
'When did I started coughing blood…?'