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Jerry had just marked six years as pastor of the small town's church when she arrived. When everything tilted sideways.
Six years of tending to the same weathered pews, the same flickering votives, the same bowed heads murmuring prayers. Six years of guiding his flock through grief and celebration, drought and harvest. He knew the rhythm of this place like his own heartbeat, the creak of the old oak doors, the way golden afternoon light spilled through the stained glass, painting the floor in fractured hues of sapphire and crimson.
And then she walked in.
A stranger. A disruption. A girl who carried the sun in her skin and the wilderness in her eyes.
A girl with sun-bronzed skin and freckles scattered across her nose. Her clothes were worn at the seams, her boots caked with mud from roads Jerry couldn’t begin to guess. Foreign, unmistakably. Not just in her dark eyes or the unruly dark hair but in the way she moved, shoulders squared, chin lifted.
The church shelter had beds to spare. The community kitchen, once bustling, now echoed with emptiness. It would’ve been easy to turn her away.
And God help him, Jerry wished he had.
But the Scriptures were clear: "For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was a stranger and you welcomed me." The weight of his collar pressed heavier that night as he unlocked his door.
This was the Lord’s house. Its doors were meant to stand open to the weary, the wounded, the wanderers, no matter how ragged their past, how doubtful their origins. Charity wasn’t conditional. Mercy wasn’t meant to be measured.
Even if everything about her set his teeth on edge, the way her eyes darted like she was sizing up exits, the sarcasm lacing her gratitude. Even if the deacons later hissed that she’d probably stolen the silver candlesticks.
Proverbs 19:17 rang in his skull: "Whoever is kind to the poor lends to the Lord."
But as candlelight flickered over her suspicious glare, Jerry couldn’t shake the feeling he’d just let a spark into dry tinder.
It was a quiet morning when she first appeared at the church doors, the kind of morning where the air hung still, thick with the scent of damp earth and old hymnbooks. The kind of morning that made you believe, just for a moment, that nothing unexpected could ever happen.
Then came the knock.
Sister Margaret was the one who answered, her knuckles still dusted with flour from the morning’s bread-baking. The girl standing on the threshold was a study in contradictions: slight but sharp-eyed, her oversized backpack slung over one shoulder like a shell she could retreat into at any moment.
"Looking for shelter," she’d said, not pleading, just stating a fact.
Sister Margaret would later describe her as "a soul who’d seen better days." It was written in the frayed hem of her jeans, the sun-bleached patches on her jacket, the way her fingers gripped the straps of her backpack, white-knuckled, as if someone might try to take it from her.
Her name was Mabel Tanaka.
Foreign. Recently orphaned after her grandmother’s passing. She never gave her age, but with her round cheeks and restless energy, the congregation pegged her as a teenager. She talked too much, laughed too loud, and to everyone’s surprise, managed to charm the elderly parishioners within hours. Yet around those her own age, she faltered. Watched them with the wary stillness of a stray dog deciding whether to trust a hand offering food.
Jerry was the last of the clergy to meet her.
He’d been hunched over his desk, wrestling with Sunday’s sermon, when a timid knock interrupted him. Sister Margaret hovered in the doorway, and behind her, there was Mabel.
She looked different already. Cleaner. The church’s donated T-shirt, the soft gray cotton hung loose on her frame. Her hair, now free of dust, caught the light in unexpected auburn streaks.
"Father," Sister Margaret began, hands clasped,
"Mabel has expressed a desire to join our congregation. She’s orphaned, with nowhere else to go. She would like to become one of our sisters, father."
Jerry felt a pang of sympathy. The girl standing in front of him was young, alone, and obviously lost. He could relate to that sense of uprootedness, if nothing else.
"I see," he said, crossing the room to stand before her. "It's good to meet you, Mabel."
There was something about youth that softened even the sternest hearts. The girl's story tugged at him, though he knew better than to trust first impressions.
He didn’t press her about her faith. In truth, he assumed. The town had only ever known one creed, after all, the familiar rhythms of Catholicism, the murmured rosaries, the incense clinging to wooden rafters. Surely she’d been raised under the same watchful eyes of saints and sacraments.
With a slow nod, he extended his hand, the gesture both an offering and a test.
"Father Gerald," he said, his voice wrapping around the words like well-worn prayer beads. "Though most call me Jerry." The warmth in his smile was practiced, but not insincere. He’d greeted countless lost souls this way, palms rough from years of labor and benedictions. "Whatever you need, my child, we’re here."
She clasped his hand with surprising firmness, her fingers chilled despite the summer heat.
"Thank you, Father," she replied, matching his smile with one of her own, bright and disarmingly earnest. Her voice was softer now, almost reverent. "For your kindness. I am very grateful for this opportunity—"
"I believe we’ll get along just fine…"
Fine.
The word lingered like incense smoke.
Jerry studied her, the coltish limbs, wild short hair, and braced himself for trouble. Girls her age were storms waiting to break: slamming doors, rolled eyes, whispered rebellions against early wake-ups and chores. The Church would temper that, of course. Routine, discipline, purpose, they’d sand down her edges in time.
But Mabel.
Oh Mabel was the calm after the storm.
To everyone’s astonishment, she thrived.
Dawn found her already dressed, smoothing her donated skirt before joining the sisters for morning prayers. She scrubbed breakfast dishes without complaint, her sleeves rolled to the elbows as she sang along to hymns under her breath. The endless church floors, streaked with decades of scuffed footprints, gleamed under her meticulous sweeping.
She offered help before it was asked, her hands forever busy: folding linen, straightening hymnals, carrying boxes of food for the food drive with a strength that belied her frame. There was an almost zealous fervor to her service. The other parishioners exchanged looks, half-puzzled and half-awed. Who was this girl?
Day after day, she defied every expectation.
The congregation had braced for the inevitable, for frayed patience, for muttered complaints when the third evening prayer cut into what little free time she had. Instead, Mabel moved through her duties with a quiet intensity that bordered on devotion.
She didn’t just clean, she polished the old candlesticks until they caught the light like gold. She didn’t just pray, she lingered after Mass, fingers tracing the chipped edges of the pews as if memorizing their history. And when Sister Agnes twisted her ankle carrying baskets of donated clothes, it was Mabel who appeared at her side unbidden, looping an arm around the older woman’s waist without a word.
The whispers started soon enough.
“Too eager," muttered Sister Margaret, eyeing Mabel’s relentless cheer as she organized the pantry shelves.
"Like she’s making up for something," mused old Brother Callahan, watching her kneel in the garden, carefully tying up tomato vines with scraps of twine.
She probably knew about it, about the suspicion over her actions.
But then she’d laugh, bright and sudden, while playing tag with the children after Sunday service, or gently tease Brother Thomas about his terrible singing voice, and the shadows in her eyes would vanish like mist in sunlight.
The congregation didn’t know what to make of her.
All they knew was this:
Mabel Tanaka worked like someone trying to outrun her own ghosts.
And the Church, for all its stained-glass wisdom, had no liturgy for that.
Jerry decided it was time to take matters into his own hands.
The opportunity came one quiet morning after breakfast, when the kitchen still smelled of toasted bread and bitter coffee. Mabel stood at the sink, sleeves rolled up to her elbows, scrubbing at the remnants of scrambled eggs stuck stubbornly to porcelain plates. The rhythmic clink of dishes was the only sound between them, until Jerry picked up a towel and wordlessly began drying beside her.
It was strange, he realized, how little they’d spoken alone. Though they lived under the same roof, shared the same meals, their interactions had always been polite, brief, never lingering beyond necessity.
At first, they exchanged only idle chatter, the weather, the upcoming harvest festival, Sister Agnes’ notorious overcooked casseroles. But then Jerry, watching Mabel’s hands work with practiced efficiency, broached the question that had been weighing on him:
"I’ve noticed how well you’ve adapted here," he said carefully, turning a damp glass in his hands.
"You’re always helping, always eager to serve. That’s rare in someone your age."
Mabel stiffened for a fraction of a second before forcing a shy laugh. "Oh… I just want to do my part, Father." Her voice softened. "It wouldn’t be right to take your kindness for granted."
Jerry nodded, but his gaze remained intent. "And we’re grateful for it. Truly. Your energy… it’s been a blessing."
A flicker of something, uncertainty, passed over her face before she ducked her head, focusing harder on the plate in her hands. "It’s nothing special. My grandmother… I used to help her like this too."
"And your parents?" The question slipped out before he could stop it.
Her hands stilled. The water ran, steaming and relentless, filling the sudden silence.
"They… weren’t really present in our lives." The words were quiet, tinged with something bitter.
The kitchen fell silent except for the rhythmic squeak of sponge against ceramic and the steady drip of the leaking faucet. Jerry watched as Mabel's knuckles whitened around the soapy sponge, her shoulders tensing beneath her faded church t-shirt.
"I'm sorry, Mabel," Jerry said softly, carefully drying a soup bowl between his calloused hands. "I only want to understand you better. We haven't had much chance to talk since you arrived."
The water kept running. Mabel's scrubbing became more frantic, her short nails digging into the sponge's yellow foam.
"You know," Jerry continued, watching the stiff line of her back, "the other parishioners have grown quite curious about you. They'd like to know you better. Is there anything you'd want to..." He hesitated. "Anything you'd want to share with me?"
The plate slipped from Mabel's fingers with a sharp clatter against the stainless steel sink. Her breathing had gone shallow, Jerry could see the rapid rise and fall of her chest beneath the thin cotton.
"Mabel?" He reached out instinctively, then withdrew his hand. "If you ever did something, If you feel guilty about anything… You know you have my complete confidence. Whatever it is—"
"I'm FINE!" The words exploded from her, ricocheting off the tile walls. The sponge flew from her grip as she whirled around. "Got it? I don't need to confess anything!"
In her violent turn, the plate she'd been clutching slipped from her trembling fingers. It shattered spectacularly on the linoleum floor, porcelain shards skittering across the kitchen like frightened insects.
The crash seemed to freeze them both. Mabel stood panting, her eyes wide with something between fury and panic. A single soap bubble floated down lazily between them, catching the morning light before popping soundlessly on the edge of the counter.
Jerry kept in silence as Mabel slammed the sponge down into the sink with enough force to send soapy water splashing over the counter. A guttural noise, half growl, half choked-back sob, escaped her throat before she shoved past him, her shoulders rigid with barely contained fury.
"I need a minute."
The words were ground out between clenched teeth, so low he almost didn’t catch them. Then—BANG. The screen door crashed shut behind her with such violence that the hinges groaned in protest.
Silence settled over the kitchen like dust.
Jerry exhaled slowly, his fingers still curled around the half-dried plate in his hands. Had he crossed a line? Dug too deep? The way she’d reacted, the tremor in her hands, the wildfire in her eyes, suggested something far heavier than mere teenage rebellion.
She has anger issues, he realized grimly, kneeling to gather the shattered porcelain. The pieces gleamed like jagged teeth against the linoleum.
For weeks, Mabel had been the picture of devotion, helpful to a fault, sweet-natured, the very model of repentance. But this outburst… it revealed a different girl beneath the pious facade. One with raw, dark edges.
By midday, Mabel still hadn’t returned.
The church grounds lay quiet under the white-hot sun, the usual chorus of sparrows and rustling leaves conspicuously absent. Jerry had searched everywhere, the cloistered garden with its sagging tomato vines, the dusty storage shed, even the shadowed alcoves behind the altar where the hymnals were kept. Nothing.
Sister Agnes wrung her hands near the vestry. "Do you think she’s run off?"
"No," Jerry lied. "She has nowhere to go." that was true.
But the truth nagged at him. The slammed door. The broken plate. The way she’d looked at him, like he’d yanked open a door she’d spent years barricading shut.
It didn’t take Jerry long to find her.
Despite her outburst, the fury in her voice, the violent slam of the door, he couldn’t shake the guilt tightening his chest. She was young. And though she had been the one to lash out, he couldn’t help but feel responsible. Had he pushed too hard? Asked for trust before she was ready to give it?
He inquired discreetly among the villagers, if had anyone seen her. A nod from old Mrs. Higgins, who tended her rose bushes near the churchyard. A mumbled direction from the baker’s boy, who swore he saw a girl with "a bird nest hair" slipping into the woods. It wasn’t much, but it was enough.
Fifteen minutes into the forest, past tangled roots and sun-dappled thickets, Jerry found her.
The glade was a hidden sanctuary, a small, pristine lake embraced by green grass and wildflowers swaying lazily in the breeze. The water was so clear he could see the pebbled bottom, shimmering like scattered coins beneath the surface. And there, at the water’s edge, sat Mabel.
Her silhouette was unmistakable. that wild, ink-black hair catching the sunlight, as she sat motionless, her skirt soaking in the shallows, her bare feet submerged in the crystalline water. She didn’t stir, even as ducks glided past, their ripples brushing against her calves.
For a moment, Jerry hesitated. She looked almost peaceful, her face tilted upward as if listening to the birdsong threading through the branches above. But then, without warning, her shoulders tensed.
She knew he was there.
Even though he was certain he hadn’t made a sound, Mabel turned her head, fixing him with a glare that still burned with lingering anger. She didn’t greet him. Didn’t ask how he’d found her.
The silence between them was heavy, broken only by the whisper of reeds and the distant cry of a heron.
Jerry took a careful step forward. The grass crunched faintly under his polished shoes.
Mabel’s jaw tightened, but she didn’t tell him to leave.
The sunlight filtering through the trees painted dappled shadows across Mabel’s face as Jerry cautiously approached the water’s edge. She didn’t turn to look at him again, just kept staring straight ahead at the still surface of the lake, her fingers absently tracing circles in the water.
"You’re not easy to find," he finally said, keeping his tone light. "I half-expected you to be halfway to the next town by now."
The sunlight filtering through the trees cast fractured patterns across Mabel's damp skirt as she rose abruptly from the lake's edge. Jerry's words died in his throat when she moved with sudden, almost violent purpose, grabbing fistfuls of soaked fabric and twisting them with enough force that droplets sprayed across the grass between them.
"I've been looking for you, Mabel," Jerry repeated, forcing his voice steady even as his throat tightened. "It's time to come back. I know we had a difficult moment but—" He bit his own tongue.
The wet fabric clung obscenely as she wrung it out, hiking the hem higher with each twist. Jerry's breath caught when the movement revealed taut, sun-kissed thighs, smooth skin glistening with lake water, the shadowed dip where her legs met perilously close to exposure. His traitorous gaze lingered a second too long on that dangerous expanse of flesh before darting away.
He always wondered, was her skin under a tan? His priestly mind grasped for clinical observations even as something darker stirred beneath his cassock. Or just years working under the sun? The innocent question twisted into something profane when he realized, with startling clarity, there were no lines where pale skin should have been protected. No telltale indentations of—
His head snapped up just as Mabel froze mid-motion. Their eyes locked. Her dark irises burned with understanding, then cold fury. Time suspended in that crystalline moment, the lake's surface gone perfectly still. Jerry's pulse roared in his ears.
Fuck. The sacrilegious word branded itself across his conscience. Fuck, she saw. The realization came with nauseating clarity, she'd caught him staring not with pastoral concern, but hungry, human want. His collar suddenly felt like a noose.
Mabel's lips twisted into something bitter and knowing. "There's something wrong, Father?" The title dripped venom.
The forest seemed to hold its breath. Somewhere deep in the woods, a branch cracked like a gunshot.
Jerry cleared his throat, the sound uncomfortably loud in the thick silence between them. He couldn’t meet her eyes, not after what had just happened. Mabel said nothing as she straightened her damp skirt and began walking, her bare feet pressing into the soft earth with each deliberate step.
Jerry followed behind, careful to keep a respectful distance, though his mind was anything but respectful.
The fifteen-minute trek back to the church stretched into what felt like hours. The crunch of leaves beneath their feet, the distant call of a crow, the occasional rustle of undergrowth, every sound was amplified in the absence of words. The air between them was thick with tension, charged with something neither of them dared acknowledge aloud.
Mabel didn’t look back at him once.
Jerry kept his gaze fixed firmly ahead, but his thoughts betrayed him. The image of her, damp fabric clinging to her skin, the accidental glimpse of bare thigh and upper, burned behind his eyelids. He had spent decades in devotion, in service, untouched by such base desires. And yet, in one unguarded moment, he had faltered.
Had she noticed? Of course she had. The way her eyes had darkened with disgust told him everything.
When they finally reached the church, Mabel didn’t stop to speak to him. She simply disappeared inside, leaving Jerry standing at the threshold, his chest tight with shame.
Days passed.
Mabel resumed her duties with that same infuriatingly perfect smile, polite, helpful, utterly distant. She knelt in prayer with the others, sang hymns with practiced sweetness, and carried baskets of donated clothes without complaint.
But when Jerry entered a room, she found a reason to leave. When their paths crossed, her gaze slid right past him, as if he were nothing more than a shadow.
She was freezing him out.
And it burned.
Jerry told himself it didn’t matter. That her coldness was for the best. That whatever fleeting weakness had gripped him by the lake was irrelevant, he was still a man of God, still above such temptations.
But the truth festered like a wound.
Because since that afternoon in the glade, Jerry had been waking every morning with his undergarments damp and clinging, his skin feverish with the remnants of dreams that lingered like bruises.
Dreams of her.
At first, they had been innocent enough, mundane visions of shared laughter in the rectory kitchen, of Mabel asking for his guidance with genuine reverence rather than practiced politeness. But inevitably, always, the dreams twisted into something darker. Something that left him gasping awake in the predawn hours, his body aching with guilt and hunger.
In these dreams, Mabel’s fingers traced the line of his jaw with unbearable tenderness before curling into his hair and pulling. Her mouth, pink and wicked whispered blasphemies against his ear between verses of scripture. Her hands, small but relentless, mapped the ridges of his ribs beneath his cassock, proving just how easily the sacred could be unmade.
Jerry always woke just before the dream reached its zenith, his pulse rabbiting, his skin slick with sweat.
He knew it was wrong. Knew he should wrest control of his subconscious, banish these fantasies like the sins they were. He had spent decades mastering his impulses, his devotion armor against lesser men’s failings.
But now.
Now, when he closed his eyes, all he saw was her. The forbidden slide of her fingertips along his collar. The hushed hitch of her breath when his grip tightened on her waist. The way her skirts pooled around them like a confession.
God forgive him, he wanted.
And that knowledge carved him hollow.
Because Mabel hadn’t merely exposed her body that day in the clearing.
She had exposed him.
And it wasn’t just the dreams. It wasn’t just the way his traitorous body rebelled against his vows in the dead of night.
It was her.
Mabel, in the flesh now colder and sharper than scripture’s edge.
Where once she had been eager to assist him, now she recoiled at the mere suggestion of his company. Where once she had lingered after sermons to discuss passages with bright-eyed curiosity, now she slipped away before the final hymn had faded.
Jerry had noticed the change immediately.
The way her shoulders stiffened when he entered a room. The way her fingers tightened around her prayer book, as if bracing for battle. The way she exhaled heavy and exasperated when he asked for her help in his office, feigning illness with a practiced, dismissive wave of her hand.
"Not today, Father. I’m… unwell."
A lie.
Because she was still radiant for everyone else.
She knelt in the gardens with the elderly, listening to their stories with the patience Jerry had once admired. She laughed with the orphanage children, her dark hair tousled as they clung to her skirts, begging for another game. She coaxed wild rabbits into her palms, murmuring softly as she tended their wounds. She planted saplings along the forest’s edge, her fingers tender in the soil, as if the earth itself was something sacred beneath her touch.
An angel to all.
Except to him.
And that was what stung the most.
Did she even know?
Did she know what she had unearthed in him? The desires that festered like rot in his chest? The way his gaze lingered a breath too long on the curve of her neck when she bent to light the altar candles?
Or was this punishment for his sin, his momentary lapse, his weakness?
Jerry clenched his fists at his sides, the bite of his nails grounding him.
God help him.
He had never hated holiness so much.
And yet, it wasn’t just the holiness, it was the hypocrisy.
Mabel had mastered the art of deception with frightening ease. In front of the other brothers and sisters of the convent, she was sweetness incarnate, flashing demure smiles at Jerry, offering to assist him with pure sincerity on her tongue, playing the part of the devoted novice so flawlessly that even the most skeptical among them softened toward her.
"Oh, let me help you with those scriptures"
Her voice dripped honey in public, only for her to "remember" some urgent task moments later, vanishing before their conversation could begin.
And the congregation believed her.
They didn’t see the way her eyes frosted over the second others looked away. Didn’t catch the barely-there roll of her shoulders when she thought no one was watching, as if shedding the weight of her own false devotion.
Two months had passed since her arrival, and the mystery surrounding her had dissolved like mist under morning sun. Where once villagers had whispered behind raised hands, now they greeted her with warmth, older women pressing baskets of warm banana bread into her arms, children chasing after her skirts, even the gruff carpenter tipping his hat her way.
In two short months, she'd dismantled every suspicion, erased every whispered question about the strange girl who'd appeared one sunny morning seeking sanctuary.
Mabel had carved a place for herself here.
Through hard labor. Through charm. Through lies.
Yet for all her seamless integration, she still slipped away.
Like clockwork, whenever her duties were done, she would disappear, not toward the village, not to the dormitories, but into the woods. Back to that damned glade.
Jerry had half a mind to follow her again, to demand why.
What drove her there? What solace did she find in that sun-dappled glade that the church's hallowed halls couldn't provide?
Why would a girl like her, so kind and humble, choose to return to a place so isolated?
Was it freedom she sought? Silence?
Or something else?
The memory of her by the water’s edge flashed unbidden in his mind, the way her damp shirt had clung, the linen gone sheer under the weight of the lake, outlining shadows that should have stayed hidden. The way her skirt had ridden up as she twisted it, exposing sun-kissed thighs, the delicate dip of her—
Jerry's quill snapped in his grip, ink blooming across parish records like a stain of sin. He stared at the ruined page, chest heaving. This wasn't mere frustration at her duplicity. This was something far more dangerous.
Because the truth he couldn't confess, even in the dark solitude of his chambers, he didn't want to chastise her for those forest excursions. He wanted to join her. To see what happened when no one was watching. To discover how her laughter by the water's edge sounded like
No. Fuck. These thoughts were becoming relentless.
They slithered into his mind unbidden, unwelcome, but undeniable.
Jerry sat at his desk, fingers clenched around his pen as he attempted to draft his Sunday sermon. The words blurred together, empty platitudes about faith, devotion, purity, when all he could think of was her.
Mabel moved silently through the chapel, dusting the pews with swift, efficient motions. Her dark skirt swayed as she worked, her hands sure and unhurried. She didn’t glance at him. She didn’t speak. She simply existed, infuriatingly, maddeningly, just beyond his reach.
Why?
Why this insatiable curiosity? Why this gnawing, irrational affection for a girl who refused to so much as look at him anymore?
He had tried.
God help him, he had tried to bridge the gap between them, offering quiet conversations after evening prayers, tentative inquiries about her well-being, even awkward attempts at humor. And each time, she had shut him down with frosty politeness, her eyes glazing over as if he were nothing more than an inconvenience.
He was failing.
Failing as a priest. Failing as a man.
And the worst part?
Mabel had never confessed to him.
Not once in all these months had she stepped into the dim-lit confessional, had she whispered her sins through the lattice divider.
What was she hiding?
A past steeped in anger? Some unspoken violence simmering beneath that porcelain skin? Or something darker, something that made her flee to the woods like a creature unshackled?
The questions ate at him, carved hollows in his chest where devotion should have been.
He watched her now, fingers tightening around his pen until the wood creaked in protest.
And for one blasphemous second, Jerry wondered…
What would she sound like if she moaned instead of prayed?
Jerry was one stray thought away from breaking.
His mind waged war against him, the worst battle he’d faced in all his years as a priest. Curiosity and desire tangled in his chest, whispering questions he had no right to ask.
What are her intentions?
What secrets does she hide?
What would she do if I pressed her against the confessional wall?
His fingers trembled. The pen slipped from his grip, rolling across unfinished sermons, worthless scribbles about virtue and restraint.
No. He needed guidance.
Jerry shoved away from his desk, knocking over an inkwell in his haste. The stain spread like sin across parchment, black, consuming. He ignored it.
His hands reached for the shelves instead, pulling down leather-bound tomes, scriptures, psalms, theological dissertations. There had to be an answer here. Some holy wisdom to silence the storm inside him.
He knew what tormented him. Knew its name.
Lust.
A common sin, they said. Expected, even, for a man of flesh and blood. The Church acknowledged human frailty, so long as one resisted, repented, sought absolution.
But how could he repent when his repentance itself was false?
Because Jerry didn’t just imagine touching Mabel.
He imagined threading his fingers through her short, dark hair, rough enough to tilt her head back, gentle enough to make her sigh. He fantasized about pressing his nose to the sweat-damp skin behind her ear after a long day’s labor, breathing in salt and sunlight and something uniquely her
Worse still were the nights.
Dreams so vivid they blurred into waking horror. Sleep paralysis where no red-horned demon tormented him, only Mabel’s shadow in the corner of his room. Her cool fingers tracing his ribs. Her weight straddling his hips. Her lips brushing his ear as she whispered—
"You’ve wanted this since the first time you saw me by the water."
Jerry gasped awake, sheets tangled around his thighs, damp, aching, ruined.
And God help him.
He wanted to dream it again. And again. And again, this demon who tormented his nights with visions of sinful pleasure.
Jerry's fingers trembled as they traced the cracked leather spine of an ancient book. He'd heard whispers of such creatures years ago, during his seminary studies, humorous tales murmured in hushed tones by the last pastor warning of the Devil's temptations, because those fantasies were a joke to him.
His breath came in uneven gasps as he flipped through brittle pages, the musty scent of aged parchment filling his nostrils. Then, there. His nail caught on an illuminated illustration, the ink still vibrant after many years: Succubi.
"Malignant spirits sent by the Dark One to inflame lust in pious men, They appear with angelic faces and generous hearts, the better to ensnare their prey."
Jerry's pulse thundered in his ears. The description fit Mabel with terrifying precision.
Was it coincidence?
That she'd appeared on their doorstep that beautiful morning, with her clothes torn and eyes wide with false innocence? That her very presence made the candles gutter as if afraid? That she'd lowered her defenses only once, that fateful afternoon in the glade, revealing something dark and hungry beneath her saintly facade?
The book slipped from Jerry's nerveless fingers.
Jerry sank to his knees before the bookcase, forehead pressed against cool wood. The evidence mounted with damning certainty:
Her exotic beauty.
Her selective kindness, sweet as honey to the congregation, cold as grave dirt to him alone.
The way she vanished into the forest at every opportunity, returning with a gentler smile and leaves tangled in her hair.
And the dreams…
Night after night, she came to him not as the meek girl the congregation adored, but as something else entirely. In the dark of his chamber, she would appear with lips like sin and hands that knew every secret of his flesh. She whispered things no virtuous woman should know, coaxed sounds from his throat that belonged in brothels, not monasteries.
He remembered now, the way her skin never seemed to burn under the sun, how animals both wild and domestic watched her with strange intensity. The peculiar symbols she sometimes traced in the dirt when she thought no one was looking.
A broken prayer escaped Jerry's lips as realization crashed over him:
Mabel wasn't just a temptation.
She was the entire temptation incarnate.
Her words, her touch, her mere presence was enough to leave him panting, struggling for a semblance of control. In his darkest moments, he wondered if he was even mortal.
How else to explain the way her cold eyes sent fire coursing through him? Or the dreams that haunted him, so vivid he almost believed he'd sinned in real life.
Jerry should have told someone.
The realization clawed at him now, that he had let this torment fester in silence, too afraid to speak the truth, too concerned with preserving Mabel’s reputation. His reputation. If she truly was what he now suspected, not a girl of flesh and blood, but something far darker, then his silence had only allowed her corruption to spread.
His mind reeled with the implications.
The way she avoided confession, refused it, wasn’t coincidence.
She was a demon.
And Jerry will reclaim his soul back.
He murmured "Lord, grant me clarity." Over and over like a mantra. His voice was raw, trembling.
"If she is of Your light, let her prove it. If she is of darkness…"
He swallowed hard.
"Then allow me see through her lies."
Because he needed proof. Not whispers in the dark, not fevered dreams, but something undeniable. Something he could face without doubt.