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The roar was a physical thing, a tidal wave of sound that crashed against the glass and rose up into the rafters. It smelled like sweat and stale beer and desperation, the familiar scent of a game. For Ilya Rozanov, it was the only scent that mattered. His entire world had narrowed to this one hundred feet of ice, to the blurred red and white of the Montreal Metros' jerseys, to one player in particular.
Number twenty-four. Shane Hollander.
Ilya's grip on his stick tightened, the worn tape familiar under his gloves. He could feel the vibration of the crowd through his skates, the high, frantic energy of a city holding its breath. Hollander was out there, a golden boy bathed in the spotlight, always at the center of the storm. He was currently orchestrating a breakaway, moving with that infuriating, fluid grace that made it look like the ice was parting for him, not like he was fighting for every inch.
"He's showing off again," Ilya grunted to his winger, Marlow, as they changed lines. He slammed himself onto the bench, snatching a water bottle and squirting a stream into his mouth, the plastic crackling in the sudden quiet of the shift change.
"He's the best in the league, Roze. He's allowed," Marlow said, breathless.
"He's a puck hog with a press agent," Ilya shot back, but his eyes were glued to the ice, tracking Hollander's every move. He saw the slight feint, the way Hollander's weight shifted a fraction of a second too early. He saw the opening.
"On your left," he muttered, knowing the words were useless, caught in the din. Then he was up and over the boards, the cold air a welcome slap in the face. He was a predator cutting across the ice, all raw power and singular focus. He wasn't graceful. He was a freight train, and Hollander was standing on the tracks.
The hit was clean. Brutal, but clean. Shoulder to shoulder. The crack of pads and bone echoed even through the arena's noise. Hollander went down hard, his stick skittering away. The crowd gasped, then roared its fury. The ref's whistle blew, a shrill accusation.
Ilya circled back, breathing hard, a primal satisfaction coiling in his gut. He stood over Hollander, who was already pushing himself up onto one knee, shaking his head to clear it. Their eyes met through the bars of Hollander's helmet.
"Nice view from down there, Hollander," Ilya said, his voice low and rough, meant only for him.
Shane's lip curled back, a flash of white in a face flushed with effort and anger. "You wouldn't know, Rozanov. You're always looking up at me in the standings."
"Get up, princess. The ice isn't a bed."
"Glad to see you're still counting your hits instead of your goals," Shane shot back, getting to his feet with a fluid push that belied the hit. He didn't even stumble.
Ilya felt a grudging flicker of something he refused to name as respect. Instead, he just bared his teeth in a mockery of a smile. "Whatever gets the job done."
He was sent to the box for interference. As he sat stewing in the sin bin, he watched the Metros score on the power play, Hollander getting an assist with a no-look pass that was so perfect it was obscene. Ilya slammed his glove against the plexiglass. This was their dance. The hatred was real, a palpable thing, but so was this... this recognition. An understanding that they were two sides of the same coin, forged in the same fire, driven by the same obsessive need to win. And tonight, only one of them could. The final buzzer was a gunshot to the heart of the Boston Raiders. Montreal erupted.
The handshake line was a study in forced civility. Ilya moved down it, gripping hands and muttering "good game" like it was a foreign language. Then he was face-to-face with Shane Hollander. He was close enough to see the sweat beading on Hollander's temple, the dark smudge of a glove mark on his cheek, the fierce, competitive fire still burning bright in those blue eyes.
"Good series," Shane said, his grip surprisingly strong, firm. His voice was even, neutral. The perfect captain's answer.
"Could've gone either way," Ilya replied, the words tasting like ash. He didn't let go of Shane's hand for a beat too long, a silent challenge passing between them.
"Maybe," Shane agreed, a small, almost imperceptible smile touching his lips. "But it didn't."
He finally pulled his hand away and Ilya was left with the phantom feeling of it, the warmth of a rival's skin.
The Boston locker room was a morgue. The air, usually thick with post-win bravado and the stink of sweat, was heavy with a different kind of stench: the sour, clinging smell of defeat. Guys moved slowly, shoulders slumped, the metallic clang of pads being dropped on the floor sounding like a funeral dirge.
Ilya sat on the bench in front of his stall, still in most of his gear. He hadn't moved for five minutes, just staring at the scuff marks on the floor, the imprint of a hundred skates telling a story of battles lost and won. His body was a map of bruises, a dull, throbbing ache that was a constant companion. But it was nothing compared to the hollowed-out feeling in his chest.
Marlow, ever the optimist, tossed a smelly roll of tape into Ilya's lap. "We'll get 'em next year, Roze. We had 'em on the ropes."
Ilya caught it without looking up. "We had them on the ropes for two periods. The third period is the one that matters." His voice was flat, devoid of its usual bite. He blamed himself. The empty net he'd missed, the turnover that led to Montreal's second goal—they played on a loop in his head, a highlight reel of his failure. And through it all, Hollander's face, calm and in control.
"He's just... good," Marlow conceded with a sigh, sinking onto the bench across from him. "God, I hate saying it. He's good. The way he sees the ice... it's like he's playing chess and everyone else is playing checkers."
"He's not a genius," Ilya snapped, the defensiveness a knee-jerk reaction. "He's arrogant. He holds onto the puck too long, he takes risks he shouldn't." He was listing Hollander's flaws, but even to his own ears, it sounded like he was trying to convince himself.
"Risks that pay off," Marlow countered gently. "Like that pass on the power play. No one else in the league makes that pass."
Ilya ripped the tape off the roll with a sharp, angry sound. "Anyone could make that pass if they weren't so busy trying to look pretty for the cameras." He stood up, yanking his sweaty jersey over his head and throwing it into the laundry bin with more force than necessary. He needed a shower. He needed to wash the game off him, wash the memory of Hollander's smug, perfect face from his mind. But most of all, he needed to stop replaying that final handshake, the firmness of Shane's grip, the way his eyes hadn't looked smug at all, just tired. Intensely, deeply tired.
"You heading out with the guys?" Marlow asked, already pulling on a clean shirt.
Ilya shook his head. "I've got some gear I need to check out. Get my skates sharpened for the off-season."
He didn't. It was an excuse. He just didn't want to go to a bar and listen to everyone dissect their loss, to see the pity in the bartender's eyes. He wanted to be alone with the quiet and the ache. Maybe, a small, treacherous part of his brain whispered, he just wanted to be in the same building as Shane Hollander for a little while longer, even if they were worlds apart.
The Montreal locker room was the polar opposite. The air vibrated with energy, a joyous, exhausted noise of laughter and shouting. Music was blasting from a portable speaker, the bass thumping against the walls.
Shane, however, felt like he was in a bubble. He'd gone through the motions, answered the media's questions with the right platitudes, but the elation felt distant, muffled. He sat on the bench, unlacing his skates, the movements methodical, automatic. The win was supposed to feel like everything. This was what he worked for, what he bled for. But right now, it just felt... heavy.
His defenseman, Hayden, clapped him on the shoulder, jostling him. "Did you see Rozanov's face after the third goal? I thought he was going to chew through the glass."
Shane managed a small smile. "He's a passionate guy."
"Passionate is one word for it. Psycho is another," Hayden laughed, peeling off his pads. "Man, the hatred between you two is legendary. You could feel it out there tonight. Like a force field."
Shane didn't answer. He thought of Rozanov. Of the brutal, clean hit. Of the snarling challenges in the penalty box. Of the way he moved, not with Shane's fluidity, but with a terrifying, explosive power that was just as effective. He thought of the look in Ilya's dark eyes when they'd shaken hands. Not hatred. Just... loss. A deep, gutting loss that Shane knew better than anyone. It was a mirror.
"I'm gonna go get my stick," Shane said abruptly, standing up. "Forgot the new one I was breaking in."
"You want a guard dog to go with you? Make sure Rozanov doesn't jump you in the hallway?" Hayden joked.
Shane just shook his head and walked out. He didn't want to go to a club. He didn't want to celebrate. He just wanted to hold the piece of carbon fiber that had connected him to the ice, to the game, to the one person on the other team who seemed to understand what it cost.
The equipment room was in the basement, a windowless, concrete-walled cavern that smelled of old leather, skate steel, and the lanolin used to treat gloves. It was quiet, the distant roar of the celebratory crowd above a dull thrum. Racks of sticks lined one wall, jerseys hung in plastic on another, and a cluttered workbench with a skate sharpening machine stood in the corner.
Ilya was already there, leaning against the workbench. He'd found one of his old sticks, the tape on the grip worn smooth, and was turning it over in his hands, the habit a familiar comfort. He heard the door open and didn't need to look up. He knew that stride, that presence.
He straightened up, turning slowly. "If you're looking for your participation trophy, I think they're handing them out upstairs."
Shane stopped just inside the doorway, the new stick in his hand. He wasn't smiling. He looked as tired as Ilya felt. "Funny. If you're looking for the exit, it's the big door you came through. Don't let it hit you on the way out."
"Can't. My ego's too big. It'll get stuck." Ilya tossed the old stick back onto a rack with a clatter. "What do you want, Hollander? Come to gloat? Enjoying the view from the top?"
Shane walked further into the room, placing his stick on the bench. "I came to get my stick. Not everything is about you, Rozanov."
"Could've fooled me. Your whole brand is built on being the guy who beats me."
"And your whole brand is built on being the guy who can't stand it," Shane shot back, the familiar heat rising between them, an electric current in the stale air. They were circling each other now, a predator's dance without the ice. The room was small, their bodies taking up too much space. When Shane moved to set his stick down on a higher shelf, his arm brushed against Ilya's shoulder. It was a fleeting touch, but it felt like a spark.
Ilya stiffened, pulling back as if burned. "Watch it."
"Or what?" Shane challenged, turning to face him. They were only a foot apart now. "You'll hit me? Newsflash, the game's over. You lost."
The words were a slap. Ilya's jaw tightened, a muscle jumping in his cheek. "You got lucky. A few bounces go the other way—"
"They didn't," Shane interrupted, his voice dropping, losing its angry edge and gaining something sharper. "They never do. That's the game. You make your own luck."
"You're a smug son of a bitch, you know that?"
"Better than being a sore loser."
Just as Ilya opened his mouth to deliver a cutting retort, a heavy metal CLANG echoed from the hallway, followed by the definitive, final sound of a deadbolt sliding home. They both froze, their argument dying in the sudden, oppressive silence. They looked at each other, the animosity replaced for a split second by a shared, dawning confusion.
Ilya strode to the door and tried the handle. It didn't budge. He jiggled it. He shoved it with his shoulder. Nothing. It was solid. Locked.
"Well, hell," he muttered, pressing his forehead against the cold metal. He could hear muffled footsteps receding down the hall, the whistling of what was probably a late-night janitor, completely oblivious.
Shane was right behind him. "Try it again."
"I did try it again, captain genius. It's locked."
"Is there another way out? A service hatch?"
"It's a concrete box, Hollander. There isn't a secret garden." Ilya turned around, his back against the door, frustration etched onto every line of his face. He looked at Shane, who was now pulling out his phone. "Don't bother. No signal down here."
Shane scowled at the blank screen on his phone, confirming Ilya's words. "Of course not." He slid the phone back into his pocket, a sigh escaping him. He ran a hand through his sweat-damp hair, finally letting the adrenaline of the game and the win drain away, leaving only exhaustion. "Well. This is just great."
"My sentiments exactly," Ilya drawled, sarcasm thick enough to skate on. "Stuck in a basement with the league's most insufferable golden boy. It's like I died and went to hell, and the decorator has terrible taste."