Chapter Text
Disappointment
It glimmered in the man's eyes as he kept yapping about something that the boy has already stopped listening.His voice echoed in his brain,imprinted every cell it touched,burned every neuron on its wake.His voice is deep as it reaches his eyes, his orbs feel as they might fall off in haze.Gloom hovered over his eyes,pushed through the lashes whom tried to protect,hence the gloom stole the spark.All he could was to stand in place,never move, not even an inch, just listen to the man speaking,he had to.
Every word is accusing, maybe holding back a silent curse beneath the tongue,which would hurt less than the tenseness covered by a veil of softness.The voice is raised,then back it falls...Raised,then silent...All silent...Then louder, more accusations filled the air in a tone that would burry a kid below earth.Too sudden,too much, never ending for some reason.Words slowly crumbled under his gaze,brows already formed a frown.
Disappointment.
That olive skin,covered by a thick layer of age,the gentleness it used to have now all gone,no longer lingering in each feature.It's just the dust of years collected that clinged to every pore,every dip they could find.His lips moved way too fast,unstable,his beard that was hardly holding on to his face twitched as it tried its best to stay in place and not to disappear.
He found himself unmoving, even after when he was dismissed,even when he was off the hook,just for a short while.He slowly checked the time, it has been an hour since he arrived,since he walked through the creaking door.Yet,his hands still clenched the hem of his uniform, his nails fighting the urge to rip his palm off just because he knows the consequence will be worse. He kept staring emptily at the rug,after his father left, his gaze stayed fixated on the patterns that the floor had.
It took him long to realize time still ticked,even when he thought it stopped.So he dragged himself to his room and slid down the door as soon as he shut it softly. He rested his hand on his chest,fingers found the chain silently hugging his neck,then the ring that replaced a pendant.His fingertip ran over the small dulled gem, just like he did when he pleaded to retrieve his memory,just like he did when everything felt it was going to choke him,when he needed comfort.He tried to recall the day,the last day he felt the warmth of someone loved.
His body curled on the hard floor,not even trying to climb up to the bed in front of him.The old rug hardly ever stopped to cold from seeping into his veins. He closed his eyes,fingers stayed on the ring, his already calm breaths slowed even more as he drifted off to a dream.
A familiar scene fell right before his eyes, the same shore he adored so deeply was laid in front of him.Waves stayed gently,they caressed the sand that was burned under the sun.And with the same ease that the sea carried,he laid his head to a blur's chest.The blur's body was warm,it was kissed by the sun itself,the opposite of his own that reddened even when they were laying beneath the shadow of a tree.The blur's,boy's,hand was tangled in the paler one's black hair as he murmured softly to his ear.
"When it feels too much,come here, come to the shore.It will welcome you the way it did to me.And I'll always find you,even if you don't come...Then every time look to the sea,I'll see you." He stopped for a while,a long break, then he exhaled.
"even when we are far, far away from each other.When we gaze the sea,we will see each other,we'll be together."He pressed his lips to a thin line, like he knew something would come around and ruin everything they had.Yet they stayed...
His peace ended when he heard his name being called outside his room."Nico, get out,you still have to go to school."He grumbled as he heard his father's voice, he didn't want to go, he didn't want to leave the safest place he had.He rubbed his shoulders to ease the tense feeling as he sat up,still under the effect of his dream.The boy's gentle tone lingerer in his ears.He grabbed a long forgotten sweatshirt which was hanging from the edge of his bedframe and pulled it over his crumpled uniform before he left his room.Therefore his house.
He sighed deeply as his eyes fell on the road.He didn't want to go to school,it was too much of a hastle that he had to bear every day,every day.When he could just lay under the sun,on the shore,feeling the rays that radiated warmth..