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The marriage mart had begun.

London stood at the height of its Season, sometime between 1813 and 1827, that glittering Regency span when taste, excess, and expectation ruled with quiet tyranny.

Nothing had to be said aloud. Every meaning lived in small gestures: the tilt of a mother’s head, gloves arranged with careful hands, glances cast toward title, fortune, and family name. With the Season opened, society’s familiar machinery began to turn once more. Daughters were presented. Fortunes assessed. Alliances measured.

Brides, in all but name.

The presentation chamber was painfully bright.

That was what Samira noticed first. Not the Queen, nor the debutantes arranged in silks and pearls, but the light. It caught on jewels, polished buttons, and white feathers trembling above bowed heads, making everything glitter as though suffering had no place within those walls.

Calm, at least to anyone watching.

Composure had been taught to her long before courage.

Around her, nerves revealed themselves in small betrayals: breath held too long, gloved fingers tightening, slippers shifting faintly against the floor. Samira noticed all of it because noticing was easier than thinking.

And thinking led, inevitably, to her brother.

To the dimness of his room. Curtains drawn against daylight. Bitter remedies that never worked. Skin too warm beneath her palm. Breaths that refused to settle into rhythm.

The physicians spoke around him now, as if departure had already begun and politeness required silence on the matter.

Samira kept her hands folded.

Her expression remained unchanged.

The weight of her family’s name pressed against her ribs like something physical. Without her father, that burden had passed to her. Her mother carried the household, the reputation, the careful shape of their survival. But this, standing beneath a hundred assessing eyes and becoming useful to the future, belonged to Samira.

There was nobody left to correct her mistakes.

Nobody to shield her from consequence. Nobody to tell her what was right when duty and love no longer pointed in the same direction.

A flicker of movement drew her back. The Queen’s gaze passed over the line, sharp and assessing. One by one, the girls were seen and dismissed.

Until-

“Miss Samira Mohan.” Her name rang through the chamber like the toll of a bell.

Samira stepped forward.

This was the moment prepared for all her life. Her mother had corrected her curtsy until improvement became impossible. Her father, when alive, had spoken of duty as though it were architecture: something built correctly so long as one followed the proper lines.

A girl of her position did not tremble beneath attention.

She received it.

So Samira did.

Her curtsy was flawless. Her face serene. Nobody saw the fracture beneath it, the way one half of her performed perfection while the other counted the hours since she had last heard her brother breathe.

Silence stretched.

Then Her Majesty said, cool and decisive, “How exquisite. A rare jewel indeed.”

The room shifted around her.

A murmur moved through the chamber, soft as silk and twice as sharp. Mothers looked again. Gentlemen adjusted their posture. Every calculation in the room quietly rearranged itself around her.

Samira lowered her gaze.

She felt no pride. No triumph. Only a strange, hollow stillness.

A jewel did not act. A jewel did not choose its setting.

It was admired, appraised, and eventually given away.

The ballroom that evening burned with light.

Chandeliers scattered gold across silk, jewels, and polished floors. Music rose from the far end of the room, bright enough to make every laugh seem effortless. By the time Samira arrived, the Queen’s declaration had already outrun her.

The Jewel of the Season.

Nobody said it directly. That would have been vulgar. Instead, society found gentler ways to turn her into an object.

“How lovely.”

“How composed.”

“What a fortunate family.”

“What a match she will make.”

Samira stood near the edge of the room in ivory and gold, a diamond cold against her throat, and allowed admiration to gather. Gentlemen bowed. Mothers smiled too warmly. Young ladies offered careful friendliness, the kind taught by those who had already warned them not to resent her where anyone could see.

A smile. A lowered head. For that evening, Samira became exactly what she had been declared.

“Smile,” her mother murmured beside her.

Samira obeyed.

“Lord Haversham has already inquired after you,” the Countess said. “And there is talk the Duke himself may request an introduction before the week is out.”

The names landed like coins placed on a table.

Haversham. The Duke. Security. Future.

All of it should have mattered more.

For a moment, Samira hesitated.

“Has there been any change?” she asked quietly.

Her mother did not look at her. “This is neither the time nor the place.”

“Mother—”

“He is being attended to.” The reply came swiftly, controlled. “You must not allow distressing thoughts to distract you tonight.”

Samira’s fingers tightened around her fan. “Distressing thoughts,” she repeated, softer. “He is not a thought.”

A pause followed.

At last, the Countess turned, expression composed but edged with something sharper beneath. “And you are not merely a sister tonight. You are the future of this family. You cannot afford to forget that, even for a moment.”

The words landed heavier than any reprimand.

Samira held her gaze. “If he worsens—”

“He will not.”

“The physicians have assured me there is no immediate danger.”

There it was. That calm, polished phrase. No immediate danger. No cause for alarm. Rest and patience and all the soft language men used when they had no intention of admitting ignorance.

Samira went very still.

“They said that before.”

Her mother’s mouth tightened.

“We will not speak of this further. Not here.”

Samira inclined her head. Obedient. Silent.

At least, that was how it must have looked.

Inside, however, obedience had begun to loosen its hold.

Haversham. The Duke. A match, a title, a future arranged neatly enough to soothe every anxious whisper in the room. Each name was offered as safety. Each one only drew her farther from the sickroom where Arman lay beneath drawn curtains, his breathing uneven in the dark.

A quartet began to play. The first notes of a waltz drifted through the room, lovely enough to make the air feel close.

“Miss Mohan.”

She turned.

A gentleman stood before her, proper in every expected way.

“May I have this dance?”

There it was. The life prepared for her.

Samira placed her hand in his.

“Of course.”

The dance was effortless. Step, turn, breathe. Her skirts brushed over the polished floor, and her body followed the pattern without needing her permission: graceful, poised, exactly as she had been taught.

That was the terrible part. She did not have to think. Her feet moved, her smile appeared when it was expected, her hand rested lightly in her partner’s as if nothing inside her had gone cold with dread.

But beneath the music, Samira was counting.

Not steps.

Hours.

It had been too long since she had seen her brother. Too long since anyone had spoken plainly about the fever. And beneath all that gold light, all that admiration, it was far too easy to imagine the careful lowering of a physician’s voice before the worst was said.

“You are quiet tonight,” her partner said, smiling.

“I find observation more useful than conversation,” Samira replied smoothly.

He laughed.

She did not. Not truly.

The music swelled, then ended in a bright scatter of applause. Samira offered a perfect curtsy and withdrew before another dance could be requested. Her composure held until she reached the terrace doors, where cooler air thinned the candlelight against the glass.

She closed her eyes.

At once, the ballroom gave way to Arman’s room: drawn curtains, bitter remedies, his hand too warm in hers. The fragile pause before each breath. The quiet terror of waiting to hear whether the next would come cleanly.

Then, beneath that memory, her father’s voice returned.

Calm. Certain.

It is nothing of consequence.

Samira opened her eyes.

The phrase had been wrong then. It was wrong now.

Across the ballroom, laughter rose bright and careless. A woman adjusted her pearls. A gentleman lifted his glass. The world carried on beneath the chandeliers, untouched by anything that did not glitter.

Samira looked back at the room she had left behind: suitors, titles, polished assurances, all of them waiting for her to mistake patience for duty. Something settled inside her. Not panic, not helplessness, but anger. Cold and precise.

Here, she was the Jewel.

At home, someone she loved was fading.

And somewhere beyond the ballroom, beyond approval and expectation, there was The Pitt.

Samira had heard the name only in fragments, always lowered, always edged with disapproval. Her father would have dismissed it outright. Her mother would call it reckless. Society called many things reckless when what it truly meant was inconvenient.

Names spoken carefully, if spoken at all. Men who acted where others advised patience.

Her fingers tightened against her glove. It would be unthinkable. Improper. Ruinous, if discovered. Across the room, another gentleman began making his way toward her, hope bright in his expression and ambition less hidden than he imagined.

Her mother’s voice echoed first.

Reputation is everything.

Then her father’s.

It is nothing of consequence.

Samira inhaled slowly.

“No.”

The word was quiet. Nobody heard it. Still, something in her settled around it.

The gentleman reached her and bowed. Samira turned with her smile perfect and composed; every inch the jewel society had decided her to be. Without hesitation, she offered her hand.

But the choice had already been made elsewhere. Beneath silk and diamonds, something had shifted. She would not stand in the light and watch her brother disappear into the dark.

Before the night was over, Samira Mohan would make her first choice not as a jewel to be admired, but as someone willing to act.