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A boy confessed to me in my class!!
He's shorter and a few months younger than me. I didn't accept, but I didn't reject either. I just fist bumped him. This happened in a Truth or Dare.
A few days later I started smiling more often around him.
Then I started grinning at him.
And staring at him.
Before I knew what happened, I realized- I started liking him too!
I didn't tell him. But I gave hints.
And everyday I fell harder.
My friends caught on.
And they tried multiple ways to push us together.
I flirted. Teased.
He always hid his face in his hands. Flustered. Blushing.
And it was cute.
He never said he disliked my teasing. He never told me to stop.
I'd always kiss my hand, and then gently slap his cheek. ( He didn't know I was indirectly kissing his cheek until I told him)
I also ruffle his hair sometimes while passing by him (Cuz moi bery tiny dwarf is short and I can get away with it).
Online, he'd call me babe.
And delete it seconds later. Because we were texting through our parents numbers. But he knew I saw them, as I always replied discreetly.
He even called us a couple and is protective of me. He asked me online if I'll be his girlfriend. I said I always was (I'm definitely not blushing alot)
I really love My Knight in Shining Armor.
That all began in this year July. I don't remember the exact date. But I'd prefer to say our anniversary is July 27th.
I love him very, very much.
He knows that too.
And now, we both blush and hide in our hands when our friends tease us.
This was what I wrote long ago.
He broke up with me on 23rd March because he was leaving the school . Then we got back together on 26th again because I confessed we could do long distance relationship.
He later said he's staying in the school.
And broke up with me again on 14th April because he wanted to concentrate on his studies.
He told me that to laugh it off evertime our relationship was brought up.
He expects me to forget. Seriously???
Just like that?
My best friends are friends with him. They tell me and encourage me to move on.
Yet I hate myself for still loving him.
I have no idea what to feel now. I'm losing my emotions.
The other day in our club, my one of my best friends told that she should trauma dump because me and him were sorta arguing.
They insisted went first, and I started telling them how I deeply hate myself. How I am... suicidal.
That rucking idiot keeps on butting in saying to please forget him.
I'M NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT YOU.
IT FEELS HE'S PURPOSELY BRINGING IT UP.
So I stopped right then and there and said I won't be telling more.
My friend begged but I didn't say more.
That's it,
There you go,
My love life.
So I'm shifting my feelings back to Sung jinwoo 😭😭
Anyway byeeeeee