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The doors to the bridal chamber close with a soft click that sounds like a death knell in Yuuji’s ears.
He stands perfectly still in the center of the room, hands clasped in front of him, trying very hard not to shake. The wedding robes feel too heavy on his shoulders, the layers of silk and brocade weighing him down like ceremonial armor, and the pins holding his hair in place dig into his scalp with every breath. He keeps his eyes lowered, fixed on the tatami beneath his feet, and waits.
Footsteps approach, slow and measured. Megumi moves past him without a word, and Yuuji tracks the motion from the corner of his eye—dark formal robes, shoulders broader than he’d expected, an air of cold authority that seems to lower the temperature in the room. Megumi stops near the low table where sake cups still sit from the ceremony, untouched, and the silence stretches between them like a drawn blade.
Yuuji swallows hard.
He’d known this was coming, had known since he was sixteen that the Ryomen clan would eventually trade him away like a piece on a game board, married off to secure some alliance or settle some debt. He’d prepared himself for it, practiced his smiles, his bows, his pretty words, learned to be pleasant and accommodating and useful.
What he hadn’t prepared for was this.
The marriage had been arranged in secret, negotiations handled by clan heads behind closed doors, and Yuuji hadn’t learned his future husband’s name until three days ago. He hadn’t seen Megumi’s face until today, when he’d walked down the aisle with his eyes downcast and his heart hammering against his ribs, catching only glimpses—sharp features, dark hair, an expression like winter itself.
Fushiguro Megumi. Thirty-one years old. Head of the Zenin clan’s main family line. A man with a reputation that preceded him like a storm front—cold, exacting, brilliant in combat, and utterly ruthless to anyone who wasted his time or failed to meet his standards.
Yuuji had stood beside him during the ceremony and felt like he was standing beside a blade that hadn’t decided yet whether to cut.
“Look at me.”
The voice is low, quiet, and absolutely authoritative.
Yuuji’s head snaps up before he can think better of it, some instinct for obedience overriding his nerves, and he finds himself meeting Megumi’s eyes for the first time since the ceremony ended. They’re dark, unreadable, fixed on Yuuji with an intensity that makes his breath catch, like he’s being evaluated and found wanting in the same glance. Megumi stands with his arms crossed, one hand resting against his opposite elbow, and the lamplight catches on the sharp angles of his face, the stern set of his mouth, the absolute absence of anything resembling warmth.
“Do you know why you’re here?” Megumi asks.
Yuuji’s mouth goes dry. “I—yes. The marriage—”
“Not the marriage.” Megumi’s tone doesn’t change, still that same flat, dispassionate cadence, but something about it makes Yuuji’s stomach drop. “Do you know why the Zenin clan accepted your family’s proposal?”
He doesn’t. The Ryomen clan had presented it as an honor, a privilege, their youngest son married into one of the great families. They’d dressed it up in pretty language about alliances and mutual benefit, but Yuuji isn’t stupid. He knows what he is—a pawn, a bargaining chip, something expendable that could be traded away. He just doesn’t know what he was traded for.
“No,” he admits quietly.
Megumi’s expression doesn’t shift, but something in his eyes hardens, crystallizing into something colder. “Your clan owed mine a debt. A significant one. They offered you as payment.”
The words land like stones in still water.
Heat floods Yuuji’s face, then drains away just as quickly, shame and humiliation washing through him in alternating waves. He’d suspected—of course he’d suspected—but hearing it said out loud, stated so bluntly, makes it real in a way it hadn’t been before.
“I see,” he manages.
“Do you?” Megumi tilts his head slightly, studying him with those dark, merciless eyes. “Because from where I’m standing, you look like you’re about to cry.”
Yuuji’s hands curl into fists at his sides, nails digging into his palms hard enough to hurt. He’s not going to cry, he’s had four years to prepare for this, four years of training in the art of being pleasant and accommodating and swallowing down every scrap of pride he might have once had.
“I’m not,” he says, and his voice only wavers a little.
Megumi makes a sound in the back of his throat, noncommittal and dismissive, before turning away and moving toward the window where moonlight spills across the floor in pale rectangles. “I didn’t want this marriage.”
Something in Yuuji’s chest clenches tight.
Megumi continues, his back still turned, silhouette stark against the window, “The elders pushed for it. They thought it would be useful to have ties to the Ryomen clan, despite its current state. I disagreed. I told them I had no interest in taking a spouse, especially not one being offered as debt settlement.” He pauses, and the silence feels deliberately cruel. “They overruled me.”
Yuuji stands very still, every muscle locked tight, and tries to keep breathing evenly. This is fine—he can work with this. He’s dealt with worse, dealt with people who hated him, people who wanted to hurt him, people who saw him as less than human. He can handle a husband who doesn’t want him.
He can.
Yuuji keeps his voice level, careful. “I understand. I’ll try not to be—I won’t get in your way. I know my duties as a spouse, I’ll fulfill them, and otherwise I can—”
“Your duties.” Megumi turns, and something in his expression makes Yuuji’s words die in his throat. “Is that what you think this is about?”
Yuuji doesn’t know how to answer that. He doesn’t know what this is about, doesn’t know what Megumi wants from him, doesn’t know anything except that he’s standing in a room with a man who looks at him like he’s an unwanted obligation and he has nowhere else to go.
Megumi crosses the room in three strides, closing the distance between them, and Yuuji’s instinct is to step back, to put space between himself and that cold, controlled fury, but he forces himself to stay still. Running would only make it worse.
Megumi stops directly in front of him, close enough that Yuuji has to tilt his head back slightly to maintain eye contact, close enough that he can see the fine lines at the corners of Megumi’s eyes, the tension in his jaw, the absolutely glacial lack of anything resembling kindness.
Megumi’s voice drops lower, quieter, somehow more dangerous for it. “Let me be very clear. I don’t care what your clan told you. I don’t care what promises they made or what role you think you’re supposed to play here. You are in my house now, under my authority, and I will not tolerate incompetence, dishonesty, or weakness.”
Each word is precise, clipped, delivered with surgical coldness.
“You will conduct yourself appropriately. You will not embarrass this family. You will not cause problems or create unnecessary complications.” Megumi’s eyes bore into his, unblinking. “If you do, there will be consequences. Do you understand?”
Yuuji’s throat feels tight, his pulse hammering so hard he can hear it in his ears, and he manages a jerky nod.
“Use your words.”
“I understand,” Yuuji whispers.
Megumi steps back, and the absence of his proximity feels like a reprieve, like being able to breathe again after drowning. He turns away, moving toward the inner chamber where the futon has already been laid out, and pauses at the threshold. “I have work to do. Don’t wait up.”
The door slides shut behind him with barely a sound, and Yuuji is left standing alone in the outer chamber with his wedding robes still pinned too tight and his hands shaking at his sides.
He doesn’t move for a long time.
When he finally does, it’s to sink down onto the floor, his knees giving out, one hand pressed over his mouth to muffle the sound trying to escape his throat—not a sob, he won’t let it be a sob, just air, just breathing.
This is fine.
This is his life now.
He’ll make it work because he has to.
Through the closed door, he can hear the faint rustle of fabric, the quiet sounds of Megumi moving around in the next room, and Yuuji closes his eyes and tries very, very hard to believe that it will get better than this.
He’s not sure he succeeds.
The next morning, Yuuji wakes alone.
There’s an indent in the futon beside him where someone slept, the blankets disturbed, but Megumi is already gone. The space is cold, like he’s been absent for hours, and pale morning light filters through the shoji screens to illuminate the empty room.
Yuuji sits up slowly, every muscle stiff from sleeping tensely, and looks around. His wedding robes from last night are folded neatly and set aside—he doesn’t remember doing that, which means Megumi must have, at some point during the night—and there’s a simple yukata laid out for him, dark blue with a subtle pattern.
No note. No instructions. Nothing.
He dresses mechanically, pins his hair back with shaking fingers, and makes his way out into the hallway. The compound is already awake, servants moving through the corridors with quiet efficiency, and they bow when they see him, murmuring respectful greetings that he returns automatically.
He doesn’t know where he’s supposed to go, what he’s supposed to do.
He finds the dining room by following the sounds of low conversation, and when he slides the door open, the voices stop abruptly.
Megumi sits at the head of the table with several other people Yuuji doesn’t recognize—retainers, maybe, or family members—and they all turn to look at him with varying expressions of curiosity and assessment. Megumi’s face gives away nothing, still that same cold mask from last night, and he doesn’t stand, doesn’t greet him, just watches with those dark, unreadable eyes.
“You’re late,” Megumi says.
Yuuji’s stomach drops. “I—I’m sorry, I didn’t know—”
“Breakfast is at sunrise. You’ll be expected to attend from now on.” Megumi gestures to an empty cushion near the far end of the table, nowhere near him. “Sit.”
Yuuji sits.
The meal passes in excruciating silence, at least on his end. The others talk quietly amongst themselves, discussing clan business and schedules and things Yuuji doesn’t understand, and he keeps his eyes on his food and tries to be invisible. Every time he reaches for his tea, he’s hyper-aware of his movements, terrified of making noise, of drawing attention, of doing something wrong.
Megumi doesn’t look at him once.
When the meal ends, everyone disperses, and Yuuji is left sitting alone at the table, unsure whether he’s been dismissed or not. He’s just starting to gather his dishes when a shadow falls across him.
Megumi stands over him, arms crossed, expression unreadable.
“Come with me.”
Yuuji follows him through the compound, down corridors and across courtyards, until they reach a room that looks like a study—shelves lined with scrolls and books, a desk covered in papers, weapons mounted on the walls in careful arrangement. Megumi gestures for him to enter, then slides the door shut behind them, and the click of it closing makes Yuuji’s pulse spike.
Megumi leans back against the desk with his arms still crossed. “I’m going to make this very simple for you. There are rules in this house. You will learn them. You will follow them. If you have questions, you will ask. If you don’t understand something, you will say so immediately, not fumble through and make mistakes.” His eyes narrow slightly. “I don’t have patience for people who waste my time by being too proud or too stupid to admit when they’re lost.”
Yuuji nods quickly. “Yes. I understand.”
“Do you?” Megumi’s tone is skeptical, cutting. “Because you looked utterly pathetic at breakfast, sitting there like a frightened rabbit. If you’re going to be part of this household, you need to at least pretend you have a spine.”
The words sting, sharp and deliberate, and Yuuji feels his face heat with shame.
“I’m sorry,” he says quietly.
Megumi pushes off from the desk, closing the distance between them, and Yuuji has to fight the urge to step back. “Stop apologizing. I don’t want apologies. I want competence. I want someone who can function in this environment without falling apart.” He pauses, something cold and assessing in his gaze. “Can you do that, or did your clan send me someone completely useless?”
Yuuji’s hands curl into fists at his sides, nails biting into his palms again, and he forces himself to meet Megumi’s eyes even though everything in him is screaming to look away.
“I can do it,” he says.
Megumi steps back, dismissive. “Then prove it. You have one week to learn the household schedule, the names of everyone important in this clan, and the basic expectations of your role here. I’ll test you at the end of it. If you fail—” He doesn’t finish the sentence, just lets it hang in the air, heavy with implication.
“I won’t fail,” Yuuji says, and he tries to sound confident, tries to sound like he means it.
Megumi’s expression doesn’t change. “We’ll see.”
Megumi’s tone shifts into something that makes Yuuji’s stomach drop. “One more thing. Take off your clothes.”
Yuuji’s breath catches. “What?”
Megumi turns back to face him, leaning against the desk with his arms crossed, expression utterly clinical. “You heard me. We’re married now. I need to verify what I’ve been given.”
The words don’t make sense at first, bouncing off Yuuji’s comprehension like he’s hearing them through water, but then they settle, cold and humiliating, and his face goes hot.
“I—here? Now?”
Megumi’s eyebrow raises slightly, the gesture loaded with disdain. “Is there a problem? Or did your clan fail to mention that part of your duties?”
Yuuji’s hands tremble where they’re clasped in front of him. This is—he knew there would be—but he’d thought it would be later, at night, in the privacy of their chambers, not here in broad daylight in a study where anyone could—
“The door is locked,” Megumi says, as if reading his thoughts. “No one will interrupt. Now stop wasting my time.”
Yuuji’s fingers move to the ties of his yukata with numb, mechanical motions. The fabric parts under his shaking hands, sliding off his shoulders, and he has to force himself to keep going, to strip away the layers until he’s standing bare in the middle of the room with his arms wrapped around himself and his face burning with shame.
Megumi’s eyes sweep over him, clinical and assessing, no warmth or desire in the gaze—just cold evaluation, like he’s inspecting a piece of merchandise.
“On the desk,” Megumi says. “Sit.”
Yuuji’s legs feel like they might give out, but he makes himself move, makes himself cross the room and hoist himself up onto the edge of the desk. The wood is cold against his skin, and he keeps his thighs pressed together, his whole body drawn in tight and small.
Megumi steps closer, positioning himself between Yuuji’s knees, and his eyes drop down, assessing.
“Spread your legs wider.”
Yuuji’s breath hitches, but he does it, thighs trembling as he parts them further.
Megumi’s tone stays flat and clinical. “Use your hands. Open yourself. I need to see properly.”
The humiliation crashes over Yuuji like a wave, hot and suffocating. His hands shake as he brings them down between his legs, fingers fumbling, and he can’t—he can’t do this, can’t expose himself like this, can’t—
“Now, Yuuji.”
The command cuts through his panic, cold and absolute, and Yuuji’s fingers move on instinct, spreading himself open with both hands, his whole body flushing hot with shame. He can feel the air against the most intimate parts of him, feel Megumi’s gaze fixed there, clinical and evaluating.
“Look at me.”
Yuuji forces his eyes up, meeting Megumi’s dark, unreadable gaze, and the tears he’s been holding back are right there at the edges, burning and insistent.
Megumi’s eyes stay locked on Yuuji’s even as his attention is clearly focused elsewhere. “Your clan promised me a virgin. Was that true?”
Yuuji’s throat works. “Yes.”
Megumi makes a sound in the back of his throat, skeptical, and he finally looks down, studying what Yuuji has exposed for him with the same cold assessment he’d use for inspecting a weapon or evaluating a contract. “We’ll see.”
The silence stretches out, excruciating, and Yuuji’s arms are shaking from holding himself open, from the effort of not closing his legs and running, from the sheer overwhelming mortification of being examined like this.
Megumi drops to his knees in one smooth motion, bringing his face level with where Yuuji is spread open and trembling, and Yuuji barely has time to process what’s happening before Megumi’s mouth is on him.
The first touch of Megumi’s tongue makes Yuuji jolt, a strangled gasp tearing from his throat. It’s wet and hot and deliberate, Megumi’s tongue dragging slow and flat over sensitive flesh, tasting him with methodical thoroughness. The texture is rough-smooth, foreign, the pressure firm enough to make Yuuji’s thighs shake harder where they’re spread wide.
Megumi’s breath is warm against him, humid air ghosting over wet skin, and every exhale sends sensation rippling through Yuuji’s core. His tongue traces the outer folds first, mapping every ridge and crevice with slow, deliberate licks that make Yuuji’s fingers dig harder into his own flesh where he’s holding himself open.
“Stay still,” Megumi orders against him, the words vibrating through Yuuji’s core, and his tongue presses deeper, parting folds with the blunt pressure of it, seeking out every hidden place with clinical precision.
Yuuji’s hands are still holding himself open, fingers digging in hard enough to hurt, nails pressing crescents into tender skin, and he can feel everything—every slide of Megumi’s tongue, every press and retreat, the way the muscle flexes and curls as it explores. Megumi licks in long, thorough strokes from bottom to top, gathering the wetness that’s started to seep from Yuuji’s body and spreading it over sensitive tissue until everything is slick and oversensitive.
There’s nothing gentle about it, nothing tender. Megumi eats him out like it’s a task to be completed, efficient and relentless, his tongue pushing inside and then withdrawing to circle around the bundle of nerves that makes Yuuji’s thighs shake. He uses the flat of his tongue, broad and firm, dragging over swollen flesh with steady pressure, then switches to the pointed tip, flicking rapidly against the most sensitive spots until Yuuji can’t breathe properly, can’t think past the overwhelming sensation.
The wet sounds are obscene in the quiet study—the slide of tongue against slick skin, the soft suction when Megumi seals his lips around sensitive flesh, the involuntary noises escaping Yuuji’s throat no matter how hard he tries to stay quiet. He can hear his own heartbeat in his ears, feel the pulse of it between his legs where Megumi’s mouth works him over with methodical intensity.
Megumi’s tongue delves deeper, fucking into him with obscene wet sounds that make Yuuji want to die from embarrassment, and he can feel himself getting wetter, his body responding despite his fear, despite the humiliation. The slick coats Megumi’s tongue and chin, drips down to wet the edge of the desk beneath him, and the knowledge of it makes Yuuji’s face burn hotter.
Megumi pulls back just enough to speak, his breath hot against oversensitive flesh, lips still so close that Yuuji can feel them move with each word. “You’re getting wet.”
It’s an observation, delivered in that same flat, clinical tone, and somehow that makes it worse—the acknowledgment that Yuuji’s body is betraying him, responding to this cold, impersonal attention.
“I’m sorry—” Yuuji gasps out.
Megumi’s tongue drags over him again, slow and deliberate, circling the entrance before pressing inside, and the stretch of it makes Yuuji’s whole body tense. “Don’t apologize. It makes this easier.”
He seals his lips around Yuuji’s core and sucks, tongue working in devastating circles, and Yuuji nearly sobs from the intensity of it. His hands are cramping from holding himself open but he doesn’t dare let go, doesn’t dare disobey, just trembles and shakes while Megumi takes him apart with ruthless efficiency.
The pleasure builds against Yuuji’s will, coiling tight and hot in his belly, a deep visceral ache that spreads through his pelvis and makes his toes curl against the edge of the desk. He can feel himself getting wetter, practically dripping now, his body opening up under Megumi’s relentless attention. The slick is warm as it leaks from him, cooling slightly where it trails down his inner thighs, and he can smell it in the air between them—something musky and intimate that makes his face burn with fresh shame.
Megumi’s tongue pushes deeper, fucking in and out in a steady rhythm that makes the desk creak slightly with each thrust of his head. The wet sounds fill the quiet study, echoing off the walls, and Yuuji is making noises he doesn’t recognize—high, broken whimpers that he can’t hold back no matter how hard he tries.
“Please—” Yuuji doesn’t even know what he’s begging for anymore. For it to stop. For it to continue. For Megumi to show some shred of warmth, some indication that this is anything other than a cold evaluation. “Please, I—”
Megumi’s tongue flicks rapidly over the bundle of nerves at the apex, and Yuuji’s whole body goes rigid, a broken cry escaping his throat as his thighs clench involuntarily. He’s so wet he can feel it coating his inner thighs, sticky and warm, can hear it in every movement of Megumi’s tongue, and the humiliation of it crashes over him in waves that make his eyes burn with unshed tears.
Megumi pulls back finally, and Yuuji slumps forward, gasping, his hands falling away from where they’d been holding himself open. His whole body is shaking, oversensitive and wrung out, and he can feel the wetness dripping from him, evidence of his body’s betrayal pooling on the desk beneath him.
Megumi stands, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, expression utterly unchanged—no satisfaction, no arousal, nothing but that same cold assessment. His lips are shiny with Yuuji’s slick, and seeing that makes something twist in Yuuji’s stomach.
Megumi’s tone stays conversational, like they’re discussing the weather. “Have you touched yourself here?”
Yuuji’s face burns hotter. “I—”
“Answer the question.”
“Yes,” Yuuji whispers.
“With your fingers?”
“Yes.”
Megumi’s fingers press against him, cool and dry compared to the wet heat of his mouth, tracing over sensitive flesh with clinical precision. The contrast in temperature makes Yuuji shiver, his oversensitized skin registering every millimeter of contact. “How many?”
Yuuji wants to die, wants the floor to open up and swallow him whole. “I don’t—one, maybe—I don’t remember—”
Megumi’s voice hardens. “Don’t lie to me.” One finger presses inside, slow and invasive, and Yuuji can’t stop the sharp intake of breath that escapes him. The intrusion burns despite the wetness, his body clenching tight around the digit, and he can feel the texture of Megumi’s fingerprint dragging against his inner walls. “You’ll remember. Think.”
The intrusion is nothing like his own fumbling exploration, nothing like the few times he’d been curious and scared and alone. Megumi’s fingers are thicker, longer, pushing in with steady, relentless pressure that makes Yuuji’s whole body tense up around the invasion. He can feel every joint, every ridge of knuckle as it presses deeper, stretching tissue that protests the intrusion.
“One,” Yuuji gasps out. “Just—just one, I—”
Megumi doesn’t withdraw, just holds still, buried to the knuckle, and his other hand grips Yuuji’s hip to keep him from squirming away. The pressure inside is constant, inescapable, and Yuuji can feel his pulse fluttering around the finger, his body trying to adjust to the invasion. “Did you ever use two?”
“No.”
“Ever let anyone else touch you?”
“No, I swear, I—” Yuuji’s voice cracks, humiliation and fear tangling together in his chest. “Please, I’m telling the truth—”
Megumi’s finger crooks inside him, pressing against something that makes Yuuji jolt, a strangled sound escaping his throat. The pressure is sharp and overwhelming, sending sparks of sensation through his pelvis that he doesn’t know how to process. “Sensitive. That’s something, at least.”
He withdraws slowly, and Yuuji thinks maybe it’s over, maybe that’s enough, but then Megumi’s hand comes up to Yuuji’s face, fingers pressing against his mouth. They’re wet with Yuuji’s own slick, shiny in the morning light filtering through the screens.
“Open.”
Yuuji’s lips part automatically, and Megumi’s fingers slide in, pressing down against his tongue. The taste hits him immediately—salty-sweet and musky, distinctly his own, and the mortification of it makes his eyes burn. He can feel the slickness coating his tongue, the intimate flavor flooding his mouth.
“Suck.”
Yuuji’s eyes burn, tears finally spilling over, but he does it, closes his lips around Megumi’s fingers and sucks, because what choice does he have? The digits are thick in his mouth, heavy against his tongue, and he can taste himself on them with every movement. His tears drip down his cheeks as he hollows his cheeks, drawing the fingers deeper, coating them thoroughly with saliva.
Megumi withdraws his fingers, leaving them slick, and Yuuji barely has time to draw breath before they’re back between his legs, two of them this time, pressing in together.
The stretch is immediate and overwhelming, so much more than before. The dual pressure splits him open, the burn of it sharp and insistent as Megumi’s fingers push past the resistance of his entrance. Yuuji’s hands fly up to grip Megumi’s shoulders on instinct, nails digging in through the fabric of his robes hard enough to feel the warmth of skin beneath.
“Too much,” Yuuji chokes out, his whole body trying to reject the intrusion, muscles clenching tight. “Please, it’s—”
Megumi’s voice is utterly unmoved. “You’ll adjust.” He doesn’t stop, just keeps pushing until both fingers are seated fully inside, and Yuuji is shaking all over, tears streaming down his face, every breath coming in short, sharp gasps that hitch in his throat.
The fullness is impossible to ignore—two fingers stretching him wider than he’s ever been, the pressure radiating deep into his pelvis. He can feel the individual digits inside him, the way they press against his walls, the slight give of his own tissue accommodating the invasion.
Megumi holds still for a moment, watching Yuuji’s face with that same cold, assessing expression. His fingers remain buried knuckle-deep inside, and Yuuji can feel everything—the warmth of them, the firm pressure, the way his body flutters and clenches involuntarily around the intrusion.
Megumi’s fingers start to move, scissoring slowly inside him, stretching the slick heat with deliberate precision. The drag of them against his inner walls sends fresh sparks of sensation through Yuuji’s oversensitized nerves, pleasure and discomfort tangling together until he can’t tell which is which. He can hear the wet sounds of it, obscene and intimate, and feel more slick leaking around Megumi’s fingers to drip down onto the desk.
Yuuji’s thighs tremble on either side of Megumi’s hips, his whole body drawn tight with tension. His face is burning, eyes glassy with unshed tears that spill over every few seconds to track hot paths down his cheeks. He gives a tiny, jerky nod when Megumi’s fingers crook inside him, trying to relax around the intrusion even as fresh slick leaks around the digits, warm and slippery.
Megumi watches him carefully, eyes dark and intent. “Look at me.”
When Yuuji does, Megumi’s voice drops lower, steady and controlled. “Do you want me to continue? I need a clear yes. This is your choice.”
Yuuji’s lips part, then close again. His voice comes out small and shaky, barely above a whisper. “Y-yes… I want it. Please.” His cheeks flush darker, heat crawling down his neck. “I just… I’ve never… it’s embarrassing.”
Something in Megumi’s eyes shifts, hunger bleeding through the clinical assessment. “Good boy.” The praise lands on Yuuji’s skin like a physical touch, making him shiver. “Then show me. Spread your legs wider and use your hands to open yourself. I want to see everything clearly.”
Yuuji makes a soft, mortified sound in the back of his throat. For a long moment he hesitates, biting his lip hard enough to taste copper, his whole body flushing hot with shame at what’s being asked of him.
Megumi’s fingers withdraw from inside him, leaving him empty and aching, and Yuuji whimpers at the loss before he can stop himself.
With trembling fingers, he obeys. He slides his hands down between his thighs, hooks two fingers on each side of his puffy, glistening folds, and gently pulls them apart. Cool air kisses his exposed entrance and swollen clit, and he can feel everything—the stretch of his own fingers, the wetness coating his inner thighs, the way his opening flutters and clenches around nothing. He feels completely on display, and the shame makes his toes curl against the edge of the desk.
Megumi stares, his gaze dark and heavy and unrelenting as he studies the pink, dripping hole Yuuji is holding open for him. Yuuji can see his chest rising and falling faster now, the first crack in that perfect control. A slow breath leaves Megumi’s lips, and Yuuji feels it ghost over his exposed flesh, making him shiver.
“Perfect,” Megumi murmurs, the word barely audible. “Don’t let go.”
Megumi drops to his knees again, grips Yuuji’s thighs to keep them spread, and buries his face between them.
The first long, voracious lick drags from Yuuji’s leaking entrance all the way up to his clit—hot, wet, and firm, the flat of Megumi’s tongue covering as much surface area as possible. Yuuji jolts and whimpers, the sound escaping high and broken, his fingers shaking where they’re still holding himself open.
Megumi doesn’t go slow this time. He eats him out with hungry, messy intensity, broad flat strokes of his tongue that tug and lap at the sensitive folds, gathering the wetness that’s pooled there and spreading it everywhere. The sounds are obscene—wet and slick, punctuated by Megumi’s breathing and the involuntary noises Yuuji can’t hold back.
Megumi’s tongue switches to the pointed tip, flicking rapidly against Yuuji’s clit with devastating precision, and Yuuji’s whole body jerks, his thighs trying to close on instinct. Megumi’s hands tighten on his thighs, holding him open, fingers digging into the soft flesh hard enough to bruise.
He seals his lips around the swollen nub and sucks hard while his tongue flutters underneath, and Yuuji nearly sobs from the intensity of it, his vision going white at the edges. The suction is relentless, drawing blood to the surface, making everything more sensitive, and when Megumi’s teeth graze over the bundle of nerves, Yuuji cries out, sharp and desperate.
Yuuji’s hands shake where he’s still holding himself open, fingers cramping from the effort. “M-Megumi—ah!”
Megumi pushes his tongue inside next, thrusting deep and curling it against Yuuji’s walls in slow, dragging strokes. The muscle is thick and wet, stretching Yuuji’s entrance as it fucks into him, and he can feel the texture of it—slightly rough, impossibly warm, moving with deliberate intent. Megumi pulls back, licks messily around the rim with broad, flat strokes, gathering more slick, then dives in again, fucking him with his tongue in wet, obscene sounds that echo off the walls.
Every slide, every tug, every swirl is deliberate and thorough. Megumi explores every fold, every crevice, mapping Yuuji’s body with his mouth like he’s memorizing it. When Yuuji’s fingers start slipping, too wet with his own slick to maintain their grip, Megumi growls against his cunt and pushes his thighs even wider, holding him completely open so he can devour him more thoroughly.
Yuuji is crying quietly now, overwhelmed by the wet heat and relentless pleasure that he doesn’t know how to process. His hips twitch helplessly, trying to grind down against Megumi’s face, seeking more pressure, more friction, more anything. Megumi sucks hard on his clit again, tongue working in fast circles, and Yuuji’s whole body seizes, every muscle going rigid.
“I—I’m—!” A sudden gush of slick floods out around Megumi’s tongue as Yuuji soaks himself, more wetness than he’s ever produced, dripping down his thighs and onto the desk in clear, shiny trails that catch the morning light. He sobs softly in embarrassment, trying to close his legs on instinct, but Megumi holds him open through every pulse, through every involuntary clench of his muscles, drinking down the flood with hungry, deliberate swallows.
Megumi pulls back slowly, lips and chin glistening with Yuuji’s slick, and the sight of it makes Yuuji want to hide. He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, eyes dark with satisfaction, the first real emotion Yuuji’s seen in them since this started. “Look at the mess you made.”
Yuuji hides his face in his hands, mortified beyond words. He can feel the wetness cooling on his thighs, can smell himself in the air, and the knowledge of what just happened makes him want to disappear. “I’m sorry… I couldn’t help it…”
Megumi stands and begins undressing with calm, efficient movements. His outer robes slide off his shoulders, pooling on the floor, then the inner layers, revealing a sculpted chest and abdomen, planes of muscle shifting under pale skin. His cock is already hard, thick and heavy and flushed dark, the head glistening with pre-come that beads at the slit. It looks impossibly large, and Yuuji’s breath catches in his throat as he stares, unable to look away.
Megumi’s voice is quiet but commanding. “Hands down. Watch me. Eyes on what’s going inside you.”
Yuuji lowers his hands, cheeks scarlet, and stares. His whole body is trembling, anticipation and fear tangling together in his chest as Megumi steps between his spread thighs. The head of Megumi’s cock presses against Yuuji’s soaked entrance, blunt and hot, so much bigger than his fingers had been.
“Relax for me,” Megumi says, and one hand comes up to rub slow, firm circles over Yuuji’s clit with his thumb. The touch sends sparks of pleasure through the overstimulation, making Yuuji whimper, but his body softens despite itself, muscles unclenching slightly.
Megumi pushes.
The thick head pops inside with a wet sound, and Yuuji gasps sharply, eyes going wide as he watches the first thick inch disappear into him. The stretch is immediate and overwhelming, a burning fullness that makes his whole pelvis ache. His entrance is stretched tight around the intrusion, pink tissue pulled taut, and he can see it, can watch himself being opened up, and the visual makes fresh tears spill down his cheeks.
“It’s… it’s so big,” Yuuji whispers, voice cracking with embarrassment and awe. His body is trying to adjust, trying to accommodate, but it’s too much, the pressure radiating deep into his core.
Another inch sinks in, slow and relentless, and Yuuji’s breath hitches, his hands flying up to grip the edge of the desk. Megumi keeps rubbing his clit in steady circles, the stimulation helping him open up, making more slick leak around the intrusion to ease the way. Yuuji’s legs shake, thighs trembling with the effort of staying spread.
Megumi groans low, a sound Yuuji’s never heard from him, raw and hungry. “Fuck… you’re still too small. I can’t get all the way in yet.” He rocks his hips gently, working another shallow thrust, and Yuuji can feel every ridge and vein dragging against his oversensitive walls.
Tears spill down Yuuji’s cheeks faster now. He’s overwhelmed, stretched so full he can barely breathe, but he nods quickly, desperately. “I’m sorry… I’ll try harder. I want to be good for you. Please… keep going.”
Megumi’s control frays visibly, something fierce and possessive flashing across his face. He grips Yuuji’s hips with both hands, fingers digging into the flesh hard enough to bruise, and starts thrusting—slow, careful strokes at first, working his cock deeper with each wet slide. The desk creaks beneath them, wood groaning in protest, and Yuuji shakes and sobs softly through it, his body clenching hard around the intrusion, trying to accommodate the impossible fullness.
The drag of Megumi’s cock against his walls is overwhelming, friction and pressure and heat all combining into sensation so intense Yuuji can’t think past it. He can feel every thrust, every withdrawal, the way his body grips tight around the thickness trying to pull out, then stretches again to let it back in.
When Megumi finally buries himself as deep as Yuuji’s body will allow—not all the way, still a few inches left outside, but deep enough that Yuuji feels split open around him—he groans and comes hard, hips jerking forward with each pulse. Yuuji can feel it flooding into him, hot and thick, coating his insides with liquid warmth that seems to go on forever.
Yuuji cries out, trembling violently, his walls fluttering and clenching rhythmically around Megumi’s cock. Another rush of slick soaks Megumi’s length where it’s buried inside him, dripping down between them to add to the mess on the desk, and Yuuji sobs through it, overwhelmed by the fullness, the heat, the complete loss of control over his own body.