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Fire again. A suffocating wall of it pressing against his skin before he could breathe.
His mother was calling his name.
Or had been.
He could never tell in the dream where her voice ended and memory began.
Stone screamed. The ground split. He was on his knees clawing at shattered beams, fingers slipping in dust and blood.
"Dad—"
A hand beneath rubble. Gone.
Another tremor. Something vast moved above him.
Then white through smoke. A hound face marked in red. And the voice.
Live.
Iruka woke with a gasp sharp enough to hurt.
For a few seconds there was only his own breathing.
His hands were already braced against the tatami, fingers pressed hard into the woven grass as if testing whether it would hold. His heart hammered. Too fast. Too hard. Like some part of him had not realized the attack was over, was still insisting on the threat, still certain there was somewhere to run.
He covered his mouth and waited for the panic to pass.
It went the way it always did — slowly, unwillingly. He breathed through his fingers. He counted nothing in particular. The room returned in pieces: his futon, the low table, the papers he had arranged the night before. Moonlight washed pale across the floor. Outside, birds had begun somewhere under the eaves, that half-dark sound they made before they'd committed to morning.
Iruka let out a breath through his nose.
Ten years.
Ten years and some nights still brought back fire and falling stone. Still brought back the hound mask in smoke.
He dragged a hand over his face.
Not today. Of all days, not today.
Iruka straightened up and reached for the document at the top of the stack.
Mission Administration Division. Report to the Hokage Tower at first light.
His first day.
The thing was, Iruka had never particularly wanted to be a shinobi. From a young age, he knew he never wanted to hurt anyone.
And then the Nine-Tails came, and his parents did not survive it, and a masked stranger pulled him from rubble and told him to honor their sacrifice and live.
In the numb weeks afterward, in the orphanage when grief felt too large to carry, Iruka had held to that like an order.
All right, he had thought. I will.
What he hadn't anticipated was that living would turn out to involve quite a lot of kunai drills.
He was not a natural shinobi. This was a fact he had made peace with approximately six hundred times over the past decade, which worked out to roughly once a week. He was competent. He was careful. He had passed his chunin exams on his third attempt, which was not the worst record in his cohort's history — Iruka had checked — and he had done it without any particular talent for combat or an impressive jutsu repertoire or any of the things that made other people's files interesting to read.
What he had was stubbornness, and ten years of a specific, quiet goal, and the patience of someone who had decided a long time ago that he was going to see this through. Somewhere along the way that path had split into two kinds of service he had not expected to care about as much as he did: teaching Academy students who were only beginning to hold kunai correctly, and the mission administration post he had fought hard to earn.
One taught him, often painfully, how much he liked keeping other people pointed away from harm. The other would bring him as close to ANBU as a chunin of his rank was ever going to get. He knew that. He'd done the research — quietly, over years, triangulating from scraps of information about how ANBU operatives moved through the village's official infrastructure. They had their own channels for most things. But occasionally, for lower-classification missions, they came through the standard desk.
Not often. Not reliably.
But sometimes.
He was aware this was a child's old gratitude carried too far into adulthood.
He folded the paper before he could think about it any longer.
Iruka arrived twenty minutes early, because he was not going to be late on his first day, and spent those twenty minutes learning where the stamp ink was stored and introducing himself to Yamada-san, the senior chuunin who looked as though he had been processing mission scrolls since the founding of the village and had achieved a state of perfect bureaucratic equilibrium.
"Good instincts, getting here early," Yamada said, not looking up from a stack of reports. "Main thing to know: don't let them intimidate you. Even the ANBU."
The ANBU. Iruka nearly laughed. The ANBU were precisely why he was here — or one of them, anyway. A specific mask. A specific voice. A decade-old debt he had never found a way to repay. For one reckless moment he nearly asked, as though it were an entirely ordinary professional inquiry, whether a hound-masked operative came through the mission desk regularly.
He decided against sounding insane on his first morning.
"Looking forward to working here with you," Iruka said instead.
Yamada glanced at him over his glasses. "You'll be fine." A beat. "Probably."
By the end of his first week Iruka had learned the classification system, memorized filing protocols, developed inflexible opinions about form completion standards, and discovered he possessed an unexpectedly personal resentment toward one particular jounin he had not yet even met.
This was how Hatake Kakashi became a problem — not through dramatic confrontation, but through forms. Reports missing signatures. Mission summaries written with insulting brevity. Once, dried blood on the corner of a requisition slip. Twice, filing errors Iruka was forced to correct himself, muttering under his breath with increasing moral outrage. And always, at the bottom, the same impossible uneven scrawl: Hatake Kakashi.
Iruka had begun, against reason, taking the paperwork personally.
Kakashi first appeared on the Thursday of that week. There was no announcement. Only a stillness that moved through the room like a pressure shift, the chuunin beside Iruka finding urgent business elsewhere, Yamada sitting fractionally straighter, a genin team near the door going quiet in the particular way of people who had decided not to be noticed. Iruka looked up and immediately understood why.
He was tall and unhurried, silver hair answering to no visible authority, standard jounin gear worn with the careless indifference of someone who had dressed in the dark and found no reason to improve the result. One visible eye drifted across the mission postings with the mild, detached interest of a man reading a menu in a restaurant he had not chosen. He approached the desk and slid a mission report forward without looking at him.
Hatake Kakashi. So this was him.
Iruka felt a surge of remembered bureaucratic outrage. He opened his mouth.
"Your forms—"
Kakashi looked up.
Only briefly, but the glance landed with such unreadable stillness that the rest of Iruka's carefully prepared reprimand died where it stood. There was nothing overtly threatening in it, which somehow made it worse. Kakashi simply seemed to be waiting for him to continue. In that small silence, Iruka discovered, to his irritation, that he no longer wished to give Hatake Kakashi an earful about anything.
He looked down at the report instead.
"…need better margins," he muttered, rearranging papers that did not require rearranging.
Silence.
Kakashi's gaze lingered one beat longer, then dropped to the orange book in his hand as though Iruka had not interrupted anything of consequence. Iruka stamped the report harder than necessary and passed back the copy. Hatake took it without comment and turned away as though Iruka had been part of the furniture.
"Rude," Iruka muttered.
Yamada reappeared at his shoulder with suspicious timing. "You'll get used to it."
"Does he ever speak?"
"Occasionally." Yamada's tone suggested this was not a productive line of inquiry. "He doesn't come in often. Once every other month at most."
Iruka frowned. "For a jounin of his rank—"
"I know."
Iruka watched the door Kakashi had just passed through, then looked back to the queue, which did not care about his emerging opinions on elite shinobi work ethic. He picked up the next scroll and got back to work.
Weeks passed, measured in Academy lessons, stacks of mission scrolls, and the peculiar exhaustion of moving between children learning to throw kunai straight and jounin who could not be trusted to sign their paperwork.
A few ANBU came and went in that time, featureless in animal masks and swift enough to leave Iruka wondering afterward whether he had imagined details. None wore a hound mask. No Kakashi either, which was its own small mercy.
He told himself he was not disappointed.
He was.
By the second week he had stopped looking up every time a masked operative entered. By the third, he had nearly convinced himself the childhood memory belonged to a world too far removed to brush against his ordinary life again.
Then, in the fourth week, Hound walked into the mission hall.
Iruka knew before he thought.
The white hound mask. The red markings like slashes. His hand stilled over the mission ledger.
The Third Hokage stood near the far end of the desk, one hand tucked in his sleeve, speaking in the low practical tone reserved for dangerous assignments.
"Rescue operation. Land of Snow."
A mission scroll changed hands.
Hound bowed once. No wasted motion.
Ten years collapsed so suddenly his chest hurt.
Smoke. Rubble. Live.
"Hm?" Yamada glanced over. "Something wrong?"
Iruka realized he had been gripping his brush hard enough to stain his fingers black. "No."
A lie.
He looked back at Hound. Really looked, this time.
He had remembered Hound as enormous, though perhaps that was only because he had been ten years old and terrified. Remembered speed. Urgency. A presence like drawn steel. This was recognizably the same — and somehow altered. Taller than memory. Leaner than he would have expected. And the hair — silver, pale enough to catch the light even at this distance — snagged briefly on something at the back of Iruka's mind.
He dismissed it almost immediately.
Whatever the resemblance, it ended there. Hound stood with his full attention on the Hokage, absorbing the briefing with the focused stillness of someone who understood that the details of a mission could be the difference between returning and not. There was nothing of Hatake Kakashi's elaborate indifference in him. Nothing of that carefully performed disinterest. Hound was, if anything, the opposite — utterly present, utterly purposeful, as though every unnecessary thing had been stripped away and only the mission remained.
The comparison dissolved before it had fully formed.
But it was something else that caught Iruka unprepared. A difference harder to name.
The Hound in his memory had been severe, yes, but alive with motion, carrying the charged intensity of someone running toward disaster. The figure before him seemed quieter. Contained. As though all unnecessary movement, and perhaps something gentler too, had long ago been carved away.
Even behind a mask, he seemed… sadder.
And yet he felt it — in the stillness, in the way Hound stood listening to the Hokage, utterly motionless except for the slightest turn of the head. In something weighted about him that had not been there ten years ago. Or perhaps had been, and a child had not known how to see it.
The boy who had pulled him from rubble had survived into this man.
Iruka could not have said why that thought made his pulse stumble.
The masked shinobi turned slightly. For one impossible second Iruka thought the hound mask angled toward him.
Wishful thinking.
Why would he remember one orphaned child pulled from rubble a decade ago?
Still —
Almost stepped forward. Almost said thank you. Almost said you saved me.
But the words lodged somewhere between his throat and his teeth.
What if Hound did not remember?
So Iruka stayed where he was, pulse loud in his ears, while Hound accepted the mission and turned to leave. The operative passed the desk close enough for Iruka to hear the faint scrape of armor.
Close enough to reach out.
He did not.
And Hound was gone.
Iruka became aware, slowly, that he had been staring at the empty doorway for some time.
"Don't stare at ANBU," Yamada said, without looking up from his paperwork.
Iruka blinked. "Was that—"
"Hound. An ANBU Captain." Yamada gave him a sidelong look. "So you do pay attention. Rumored to be the most attractive of them all."
Iruka picked up his brush with great composure. "I was simply noting an operative I hadn't processed before. Professional interest."
"Mm." Yamada returned to his paperwork. A pause. "Professional interest," he repeated, to nobody in particular.
Iruka did not dignify that with a response.
He remembered what he had been doing twenty minutes later.
The ledger entry was ruined.
By the time Iruka finally had a day off in sight, he had begun to suspect exhaustion might be a permanent condition.
Weeks of splitting himself between Academy classes and mission administration had blurred together into lesson plans, requisition forms, late-night grading, and Yamada's increasingly spiritual opinions about paperwork decay. His shoulders ached. His sleep had become unreliable again. More than once he had caught himself lecturing students about basic shuriken handling while mentally composing complaints about jounin signatures.
He had chosen this life, after all.
It helped, sometimes, to remember that.
Tomorrow, improbably, he had no desk shift. No Academy duties. No reports waiting.
Which should have meant rest.
Instead, it meant Naruto appearing after class with dirt on his face and announcing, with extraordinary urgency, that they had to go to the western forest because the mushrooms there were the only ones worthy of soup.
Somewhere along the way, Naruto had stopped being simply the loudest and most exhausting student in his class and become a fixed point in his days. The boy lingered after lessons under transparent pretexts, argued with impossible conviction, and declared he would become Hokage often enough that even mockery had begun sounding suspiciously like encouragement. There were moments Iruka still felt old grief stir at what Naruto carried, and then felt ashamed of the thought almost at once. Because what stood before him was a child who ate too fast, laughed too loudly, and met loneliness by trying, stubbornly, to outshout it. Against all intention, Iruka had come to want to protect him.
Iruka should have said no.
He heard himself say, "At dawn."
Naruto looked as though he had personally been granted political power.
Mist still clung low among the trees when they set out, Naruto carrying a basket too large for practical use and talking without interruption about how superior mushrooms, properly selected, could apparently alter destiny.
Iruka let him.
The day was too quiet and too rare not to.
For once, there was nowhere he was meant to be except here.
Iruka noticed the wrongness only a heartbeat before violence reached them.
It was small enough he might have dismissed it had his nerves not been sharpened by months of too little sleep and too much vigilance. The birds had gone silent. Leaves stirred in a pattern the wind did not explain. He was already straightening, half turning toward Naruto, when movement dropped from the trees.
Everything happened too fast.
One shinobi seized Naruto and dragged him backward before Iruka could reach him, a cloth clamped toward the boy's face. Another intercepted Iruka with steel. He got a kunai up in time to block the first strike and almost took pride in that before the second nearly disarmed him. The force of it rattled up his arm.
These were not opponents he was meant to be facing.
He knew it.
Fought anyway.
"Naruto, run!"
As though the child were not still pinned.
Iruka drove forward again, more stubborn than skilled, trying to force space between the attackers and Naruto. He took a kick to the ribs hard enough to send him sprawling into roots and dirt, breath knocked clean out of him, and for one awful instant, the old smoke-memory came flooding back so violently it almost eclipsed the present. Rubble. Screaming. Hands too small to save anyone.
Not again.
He forced himself up.
The shinobi engaging him moved with cruel efficiency, better trained, stronger, and beginning to realize he was dealing with a chuunin outmatched enough to be killed quickly.
Iruka knew it too.
His hand found the explosive tag pouch almost without thought.
If he could get close enough.
If he could take this one with him.
Naruto might have a chance to run.
The calculation settled with a terrible clarity.
He slapped the tag against the trunk beside them, fingers already shaping the ignition seal, prepared in that desperate instant to die if it bought the boy seconds.
The man above him jerked.
Stopped.
Blood sheeted down his chest.
A blade protruded through his body.
Then he collapsed.
Behind him stood a white hound mask marked in red.
For one impossible moment, Iruka was ten years old again.
The second attacker swore and bolted for the trees.
Hound lunged after him — and staggered.
Only once.
But Iruka saw it.
The hand pressed briefly to his side. The blood already dark across his armor.
He had come to them wounded.
And still he had come.
Hound ignored it as though his own body were a logistical inconvenience. He crouched first before Naruto. "Injured?"
Naruto, wide-eyed with equal parts terror and awe, shook his head.
Only then did the mask turn toward Iruka.
"You?"
"I'm fine," Iruka lied.
Hound's gaze flicked once to the fleeing shinobi's path.
"Go back to the village, report to the Hokage."
He started after the other man.
Iruka caught his arm before thinking. "Your wound needs tending first."
The mask turned.
"No time." His breath sounded rougher up close. "I have to catch him."
And before Iruka could protest again, Hound was gone, swallowed by cedar shadow with the same impossible abruptness as ten years ago.
The Third listened without interruption as Iruka gave his report, hands folded, expression unreadable. When he finished, Iruka added, carefully, that he would like Naruto to stay with him for the time being — at least until they understood who had targeted him. The old man considered this a moment, then nodded once.
Relief came sharp enough to surprise him.
After a pause Iruka heard himself ask, "Should we send backup for Hound?"
The Hokage's eyes sharpened almost imperceptibly.
"I'll handle that."
Nothing more.
Iruka wanted to ask whether he should go back into the forest looking for Hound. But decided not to.
Because Naruto stood beside him, unusually quiet, close enough that his sleeve kept brushing Iruka's hand as though without meaning to check he was still there, and the thought of leaving the boy alone tonight, even briefly, settled the question before Iruka could pretend it had not.
Hound was ANBU. Hound knew how to survive. Naruto was a child.
Iruka went home.
Though uneasily.
On the walk home Naruto stayed close, still quieter than Iruka had ever known him. He began to think the shock had settled deeper than the boy knew.
Then, as children sometimes do with a resilience bordering on miraculous, Naruto seemed to turn the fear sideways into fascination almost as soon as they were through the apartment door. By the time the soup was simmering, terror had already transformed in his telling into tactical admiration.
Naruto insisted on helping make the soup, which mostly meant hovering too close to the pot and reenacting the ambush with increasingly exaggerated hand motions while Iruka tried to keep broth from boiling over.
"Hound-san was amazing," he said for what had to be the sixth time. "Did you see it? He killed that guy in an instant. Just—" Naruto chopped the air with such force he nearly knocked over the ladle. "Gone."
Iruka rescued the ladle.
"Yes, Naruto. I was there with you."
"And he appeared out of nowhere." Naruto's eyes were bright despite the long day. "Can all ANBU do that? Just appear like magic?"
"I suspect walking is still involved."
Naruto ignored this completely. "He's the coolest shinobi I've ever seen."
Iruka did not answer at once.
His hands moved through the familiar rhythm of stirring, seasoning, checking heat, but his thoughts kept circling back to gray armor darkened with blood and a white hound mask vanishing into cedar shadow.
Then Naruto asked, quieter, almost casually, "Do you think we're gonna see him again?"
Iruka stilled. Just for a moment.
He looked down into the broth. "I don't know."
Naruto considered this solemnly. "I hope so."
Much later, sleep already pulling at his words, he added from where he drooped over the table, "If he comes back, I'm asking how fast he can kill three guys."
"You are absolutely not."
Naruto grinned once.
Then sleep claimed him.
Iruka stood watching him for a moment with the soft exasperation reserved for children who exhausted and frightened you in equal measure. He lifted him carefully, carried him to the bedroom, settled him beneath the blanket on the futon, and tucked the edge around the shoulder that somehow always escaped by morning. Naruto made a small sleepy sound and turned toward the wall.
Iruka lingered there a second longer than necessary, watching him breathe.
Only then did he slide the door nearly shut and return to the quiet apartment.
The soup simmered low. Lamplight pooled warm across the floor. Outside, the village had thinned toward night.
It should have felt peaceful.
Instead he found himself moving through familiar routines with restless attention, resetting the perimeter seals more carefully than usual, checking the ward strips at the window twice, his thoughts circling despite himself back to the forest — to blood worked into the seams of gray armor, to the way Hound had run toward danger already wounded.
He had begun debating whether he should go back out and look for him when one of the window wards cracked in a sharp burst of chakra.
Iruka moved instantly, kunai in hand, and slid the window open —
only to stop.
Hound stood balanced on the outer ledge, one shoulder faintly smoking where the defensive seal had discharged against him. Blood had dried black along the seams of his armor, with fresh red still darkening the cloth beneath.
Iruka only stared.
"Hound-san—"
The mask turned toward him. For a second, neither spoke.
Then, with something almost like embarrassment beneath the exhaustion, Hound said, "I take it you're safe. How is Naruto?"
The question struck harder than it should have.
After the forest. After the pursuit.
He had come here for that. To check on them.
Iruka found his voice. "We're safe. Naruto's sleeping."
A small nod answered him. As though that settled the matter. As though he had only stopped by to confirm a report.
Then, impossibly, Hound shifted to leave.
Iruka leaned farther through the window. "You're injured. Please, go to the hospital."
"It's not that bad."
Hound turned as though he intended simply to disappear back into the dark, and then Iruka saw the subtle sway before Hound seemed to.
"Wait —"
He reached out. Too late.
Hound's balance failed, and his body tipped from the ledge. Iruka caught him on reflex, grabbing cloth and dead weight all at once, nearly dragged halfway through the window himself by the force of it. For one terrible second he thought they were both going over.
Then somehow he hauled him inside.
They hit the floor hard. Hound made a rough sound as breath left him and still tried to push himself upright.
Failed.
"We have to get you to a hospital now," Iruka said.
"No hospital." Immediate. Instinctive.
Iruka stared at him, half breathless, half furious with relief.
"Don't be absurd. This needs medical attention."
Hound's hand found his sleeve weakly. Not gripping. Almost pleading.
And when he spoke again the word came so quiet Iruka nearly thought he'd imagined it.
“Please.”
That undid the argument.
More than the blood had.
More than reason.
Iruka opened his mouth to answer—
and the hand on his sleeve went slack.
Not all at once, but finger by finger, the way strength leaves when the body stops cooperating with a mind still trying to hold on. Hound’s weight shifted with a terrible slowness Iruka felt before he understood it, the white mask bowing forward, shoulders giving way as whatever had kept him upright until now simply failed.
“Hound—”
Iruka caught him.
Hound had lied about how bad his wound was.
Had come here bleeding only to ask after Naruto.
The thought struck with a force that made Iruka go still.
For a moment he only held him there, one hand braced at his shoulder, feeling the deadened weight of exhaustion finally claiming a body that had been forcing itself onward far beyond reason.
Then something in him hardened into purpose.
He tightened his grip, shifted Hound’s weight more securely against him, and got to work.
Iruka managed, with some difficulty, to get him onto the couch.
Iruka worked quickly, hands steadier now that there was something concrete to do, unfastening the armor piece by piece and setting it aside in a careful line on the floor. Gloves next. The fabric beneath was already dark with blood.
He hesitated only a moment at the shirt. There was no clean way to remove it without aggravating the wound further.
"Sorry," he muttered, more to himself than to the unconscious man, and reached for a blade.
The fabric gave easily.
He worked in silence after that, cleaning the wound as best he could, binding it properly this time with real supplies instead of desperation and hope. Up close, without the armor, Hound was leaner than the gray plates had suggested. Scars mapped his torso in a way that made. A long, poorly healed ridge along his ribs. Something puckered at his shoulder that looked older than the rest. Smaller ones scattered between, half-faded.
Whatever Hound had been doing in the last ten years—or longer—had left its record here, written in scar tissue and old damage, layered one over another without pause.
The masked stranger who had pulled him from the rubble had not stopped walking toward disaster after that night.
Iruka’s hands slowed without meaning to.
The new cut along Hound's side was deep, but not immediately fatal. With rest, with proper care —
Iruka exhaled slowly.
He finished the bandage and sat back on his heels, tension he hadn't noticed finally loosening in his shoulders.
For years — longer than he cared to admit — some part of him had wondered about the face behind the white hound mask. The one who had pulled him from rubble. The one who had now saved Naruto and, impossibly, found his way bleeding to Iruka's window.
Just one look.
His hand lifted almost without permission. Fingers hovering just short of the edge of the mask —
A hand closed around his wrist.
Not rough. Just absolute.
Iruka's breath caught.
"I'm sorry," he said immediately, pulling his hand back. "I wasn't — I shouldn't have."
"It's fine." The voice was rough with exhaustion. "I don't want you to become a target for knowing ANBU identities."
Silence stretched.
Iruka stared at his own hand where Hound had caught his wrist, heat still climbing his face as he searched, absurdly, for some way to undo the embarrassment of having nearly overstepped a boundary he should have honored.
He settled for stillness.
The room held there long enough he began to think the moment would simply be allowed to die.
Then Hound said, quieter than before,
“Sorry.”
Iruka looked up.
“For the trouble.”
Iruka shook his head. "I should be the one thanking you." He found himself continuing before he'd decided to. "This isn't the first time you've saved me."
The mask tilted slightly.
"You might not remember," Iruka said, looking down at his hands, "but ten years ago you pulled me out of the rubble and told me to live." A faint stillness settled over the room. "I've been trying to do that ever since." He let out a small breath. "So, thank you."
Hound did not answer.
For several moments he did not move at all.
Then something in his posture altered almost too subtly to name. A quiet withdrawal, as though Iruka's words had touched some place he had not meant to leave open. The hand resting near his bandaged side tightened once in the blanket. Behind the mask, his breath changed. Not unsteady. Only heavier.
When Hound finally spoke, his voice was lower, retreating from whatever had nearly surfaced.
"It was my duty. And still there were many I couldn't save."
Iruka was quiet for a moment.
"It doesn't matter." He glanced toward the bedroom door. "Because of you, Naruto is safe." And then, softer: "And I get to live another day."
Hound looked away. Said nothing.
Then, breaking the quiet in a far less dignified way, his stomach growled.
Iruka blinked. Then, despite everything, smiled.
"Do you want some soup? I can give you privacy. I'll stay in the other room with Naruto. I promise I won't look."
A beat.
"I… all right. Thank you."
Iruka set the bowl within reach and stepped back. "If you need anything, call for me."
The mask inclined once.
Iruka went to the bedroom and settled on the floor beside Naruto’s futon. At some point, with his back against the wall, exhaustion claimed him too.
He woke with a start, the room dim with the deep quiet of night.
Iruka pushed himself up and went quickly to the main room.
The couch was empty. The window stood slightly open, curtain stirring. The bowl was clean.
He stood there a moment, staring at the space.
Then he noticed it. A scrap of paper weighted beneath the empty bowl, the handwriting uneven and hurried, letters slanting awkwardly as though written by someone unused to writing anything not strictly necessary.
I'm glad you lived.
Iruka stood very still.
Then, slowly, he exhaled.