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The Version I Remember

Summary:

Eloise Bridgerton meets a stranger in a café on a rainy afternoon, and something about the encounter feels wrong in a way she cannot name.

Phillip Crane remembers her.

At least the last version of her.

Chapter 1: Another First Meeting

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Rain pressed softly against the windows, steady and unhurried, tracing long paths down the glass. The café held that quiet kind of warmth that made the outside world feel distant, like something watched rather than lived in. Conversations blended together into a low hum, punctuated by the occasional clink of ceramic against wood, the hiss of steamed milk, the soft shuffle of movement.

Eloise paused just inside the door, her hand still resting on the handle. For a moment, she stayed there, letting the shift in temperature settle into her skin. The damp in her sleeves cooled slowly, the air inside wrapping around her with a kind of familiarity she could not quite place. She told herself she was only lingering because of the rain, because stepping back out into it felt inconvenient, but the truth sat somewhere deeper than that, just out of reach.

“Excuse me, love, you’re letting the rain in.”

The voice drew her forward. She blinked, as if surfacing, and gave a brief apology before moving fully inside. The door closed properly this time, sealing off the sound of the street. The warmth felt more complete now, more certain. She joined the queue without thinking much about it, brushing her hair back from her face and rubbing her fingers together to bring back some feeling.

Her gaze drifted across the room in that absent way people often look without really seeing. It moved over tables, over strangers bent toward their conversations, over the small details that made the place feel lived in. Then it stopped.

He was standing at the far end of the counter.

She did not know what made her notice him first. Perhaps it was the stillness. Everyone else seemed in motion, even if only slightly, shifting in their seats or lifting cups to their lips. He stood as if he had been there for some time, one hand resting lightly against the counter, a cup placed in front of him and left untouched. His posture held a kind of quiet control, but there was tension in it too, something held carefully in place.

He was looking at her.

The awareness came slowly, settling into her in a way that felt heavier the longer she allowed it to remain. He did not look away when she met his gaze. There was no flicker of embarrassment, no attempt to disguise it as coincidence. He simply watched her, as though her presence had confirmed something.

Eloise felt the smallest shift in her chest, a tightening she could not explain. It was not fear, not quite discomfort, but it made her straighten slightly where she stood. She held his gaze for a second longer than she meant to, trying to place him, trying to understand why the look felt familiar in a way that made no sense at all.

She turned back toward the counter when the line moved, letting the moment fall away from her as she stepped forward. The ordinary rhythm of it grounded her. There was comfort in small decisions, in the simple exchange between customer and barista, in the expectation that everything would follow a familiar pattern.

“What can I get you?”

Eloise opened her mouth to answer, and for a brief moment her thoughts stalled. The question hovered, simple and expected, but the response did not come as easily as it should have. She frowned slightly, searching for something that felt like it should already be there.

“I usually…” she began, then stopped.

The words slipped away before they could fully form. She knew she had a preference. She knew there was something she ordered often enough that it should have come to her without effort. The absence of it left an odd, hollow feeling behind, like reaching for an object that was not where it should be.

“Flat white,” she said after a moment, choosing the first thing that came to mind.

The barista nodded and repeated the order, already moving to prepare it. Eloise stepped aside, though her attention had shifted again, drawn back toward the quiet presence she had tried to ignore.

He had moved closer.

Not enough to feel intrusive, but enough that she noticed the change immediately. His shoulders were slightly more tense now, his hand no longer resting as loosely against the counter. There was something in the set of his expression that had shifted too, something subtle but unmistakable once seen.

She did not mean to look at him for long, but her gaze lingered anyway.

He spoke before she could look away.

“You changed it.”

His voice was low, steady, and close enough now that it felt directed entirely at her.

Eloise blinked, caught off guard. “I’m sorry?”

For a moment, he did not respond. His gaze moved across her face, not in a way that felt invasive, but in a way that felt deliberate, as though he were trying to reconcile what he saw with something else entirely.

Then he exhaled softly.

“Nothing,” he said. “I thought you said something else.”

She frowned, a hint of irritation rising in response to the strangeness of it. “I didn’t.”

“I know.”

The certainty in his tone made her pause.

She studied him more closely now, searching for some explanation that would settle the unease building in her. There was nothing obviously wrong, nothing she could point to and name, but the feeling remained, persistent and difficult to ignore.

“You seem very sure for someone who got it wrong,” she said.

A faint shift passed through his expression, something quieter this time. It softened his features for a brief moment, though she could not say why.

“Yes,” he said. “I suppose I am.”

The answer left more questions than it resolved.

Eloise crossed her arms lightly, grounding herself in the familiar gesture. “Do I know you?”

The question settled between them, heavier than she expected.

He held her gaze, and for a moment something in his composure faltered. It was brief, gone almost as soon as it appeared, but she caught it. There was something in his eyes then that felt deeper than the moment allowed, something that carried weight she did not understand.

“No,” he said.

The word was calm, measured, and it did not sit right with her.

She could not explain why. There was nothing in his tone that suggested dishonesty, nothing in his expression that confirmed it, and yet the certainty settled in her all the same. She watched him for another second, waiting for something else to surface, something that would make sense of the feeling.

Nothing did.

“Right,” she said quietly.

Her name was called from the counter, the sound cutting through the moment cleanly. She stepped forward, grateful for the interruption, and took the cup from the barista. The warmth of it grounded her again, something solid and immediate in her hands.

When she turned back, he was still watching her.

There was a weight to it now that made it difficult to meet for long. It pressed at her in a way she did not fully understand, drawing her attention while at the same time making her want to step away from it.

“Well,” she said, searching for something ordinary to say, something that might break the tension. “Enjoy your coffee.”

He glanced down at the cup in front of him, as though noticing it properly for the first time. A small, restrained expression crossed his face, something that might have been amusement if it had carried more warmth.

“I never do,” he said.

Eloise held his gaze for a moment longer, then nodded faintly, unsure what to make of that. The conversation had settled into something that felt difficult to continue, and she found herself without the desire to try. She just needed to leave and hope he didn't follow her.

She turned toward the door, pushing it open and stepping back out into the rain. The air outside felt colder now, sharper against her skin, and she drew in a steady breath as she moved onto the pavement. The street stretched ahead of her, familiar in its shape and movement, the passing cars sending ripples through shallow puddles along the curb.

By the time she reached the corner, the encounter had already begun to blur at the edges. It remained in her thoughts, but without a clear place to settle, more a feeling than a memory. She told herself it had been nothing more than an odd interaction, the kind that lingered briefly before fading into the background of a day.

Still, something in her expression remained distant as she waited for the light to change, her fingers tightening slightly around the cup without her noticing.

-

Inside the café, he had not moved.

He stood in the same place, his attention fixed on the door long after it had closed behind her. The space she had occupied seemed to hold his focus, as though he expected it to shift again if he waited long enough. Around him, the café carried on as it always did, the steady rhythm of conversation and movement continuing without interruption.

After a moment, he reached into his coat and took out a small notebook. The cover was worn, softened by use, the edges marked by time and handling. He opened it with care, turning through pages filled with close, deliberate handwriting until he reached one already marked.

The words were simple.

First meeting. Café. Rain.

Beneath them, written more recently, another line sat with quiet certainty.

She orders a flat white.

He read it slowly, his gaze lingering as though expecting it to change on its own. When it did not, he took the pen from where it rested along the spine and held it above the page for a moment, considering.

Then he wrote again.

She changed it.

The ink settled into the paper, darker where the pressure of his hand increased. He closed the notebook after a moment, his fingers resting briefly against the cover before he slipped it back into his pocket. Only then did he pick up the coffee in front of him, though it had long since cooled, and stand there for a moment longer, his thoughts settling into something quieter but no less heavy.

When he finally turned away from the counter, he carried that small change with him, the weight of it evident in the careful steadiness of his movement as he left the café and stepped out into the rain.