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Chapter One
The world was wider than the walls had ever allowed them to dream. And it was beautiful. Mikasa felt the truth of that every time the wind carried the scent of salt from the sea or the fragrance of jasmine from a nearby garden. It was the world Eren had wanted her to see.
But it was a quiet world.
She just wished Eren was here to see it with her.
It wasn’t right, what he had done. But that didn’t make the lingering loneliness in her heart fade.
Years had passed since the Rumbling. The red scarf around her neck had begun to fray. Much like her memories. It frightened her sometimes. The sharpness of his emerald eyes had softened in her memories like a sketch left out in the rain. She still loved him him. She would always love him. But he was becoming a ghost she lived alongside rather than a person she remembered.
They all lived relatively close. Armin, Connie and Jean. Even Levi, who would often be found scowling into a tea cup. Her and Armin remained the closest. They met often, clinging to the shared history that only they possessed. Tonight it was a simple late dinner, the air filled with Connie’s loud laughter and Armin’s quiet, steady optimism.
As the evening wound down, the group splintered off. Jean naturally fell into step beside Mikasa as they turned down the sidewalk toward her home. The silence between them was comfortable, forged in the fires of a dozen battles and refined by years of peace. Jean walked with his hands shoved deep into the pockets of his coat, his eyes focused on the cobblestones ahead. He had filled out since the war. His shoulders broader, the lines of his face more defined. He carried a rugged sort of grace he’d never quite had as a boy.
“The city’s getting bigger.” Jean remarked, breaking the silence. “I heard they’re planning to build a library near the harbor. Armin’s practically vibrating with excitement.”
Mikasa offered a small, rare smile. “He’s been talking about it for weeks.”
The walked a bit further, the streetlamps casting long, flickering shadows. Jean slowed his pace before he cleared his throat, a sound that was uncharacteristically nervous.
"Hey, Mikasa?"
"Yes?"
He didn’t look at her. He just kept his gaze fixed on a distant point. “Do you...do you want to get dinner with me tomorrow? Just the two of us?”
The question hit Mikasa with a strange, jarring force. She stopped walking, her boots coming to a halt on the stone. She looked at him. Truly looked at him—and realized with a pang of guilt that she had never seen Jean as anything other than a fellow soldier. She saw him as simply a comrade who had survived the impossible at her side.
The idea of Jean and dinner—not as a group, not as survivors, but as a man and woman—felt like opening a door in a room she had sealed shut.
Jean saw the hesitation on her face and immediately began to backtrack, his words tumbling out fast. “You don’t have to. I know it’s short notice. I just… I know this really great place by the waterfront. Connie and his wife were supposed to go, but they bailed on me and I already have the reservation, so—“
It was a lie. Mikasa knew it, and Jean knew she knew it. He was looking away now, his ears tinged red. He was well aware of the shadow that lived in the space between them. He knew she had belonged to Eren heart and soul. And in his own quiet way, Jean had always resented that Eren had never quite known what to do with that devotion. He wasn’t sure what drove his sudden question tonight. He hadn’t asked her for anything since their cadet years. Which were so long ago.
But she was looking at him. She saw the way his fingers twitched nervously against his coat. She saw the man who had stayed. She saw the man who had fought for this peace just as hard as any of them. She saw the man who was standing out in the cold with her. She wasn’t sure what drove her to accept, but...
"Yes," Mikasa said. Her voice was soft, but the word was clear.
Jean stopped his rambling mid-sentence. He turned his head slowly, his eyes wide with genuine shock. “You...you will?”
She nodded. “Tomorrow at seven?” For once...she wasn’t thinking about the past.
Jean stared at her, the relief loosening the tension in his shoulders as a slow, disbelieving grin tugged at the corner of his mouth. “Yes. Seven. I’ll...I’ll come by and get you.”
As they continued the walk to her door, the silence was different. It wasn't just comfortable anymore. It was new.
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