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((music 4 this chapter!!: Les - Childish Gambino + Earrings - Malcolm Todd))
Ivan and Alfred were sworn enemies. At least, that's what they want people to think. They have an affair that nobody knows about but them. It's more like a love hate relationship but their relationship isn't official. Alfred refuses to make anything official for his reputations sake, but Ivan on the other hand, oh boy when i tell you when he's obsessed, he's obsessed to the core. He wants Alfred more than anything. Not even the allied powers know what's going on between them.
Ivan would go out to kill anyone who even tried flirting with Alfred, even when Alfred wouldn't care if anyone did or not. He just tells himself that hes too attractive for anyone. Ivan is fully convinced that he isn't good enough for Alfred while Alfred is the complete opposite. He thinks he's too good for anyone. Ivan was so tired of just being Alfred's "fuck buddy". He wanted the both of them to be together. He wanted Alfred to be his and his only. Ivan waited at least a few months to let those feelings known to Alfred. But for the time being, he hugged onto those feelings tightly so he wouldn't fall out of love because god, Alfred made him feel like he fell in love again.
After a world meeting, Ivan looked around for Alfred, praying he hadn't left yet. Until finally, Alfred was just walking with Arthur and Matthew back home while Ivan trailed behind them, waiting for Arthur and Matthew to get lost. It was frustrating waiting for them, they took an unreasonable amount of time just to walk and talk. Before Ivan knew it, Arthur and Matthew were gone. Which left him and Alfred alone. Ivan immediately caught up to Alfred and placed his hand on his shoulder, his tall frame towering Alfred.
"Alfred? You.. You have time right now, да?" Ivan asked, his eyes filled with nervousness and anticipation. He was afraid of confessing his feelings because it made him feel weak or small, but he wanted to know if Alfred felt the same way. Alfred turned around, looking up at Ivan with his usual, joyful charm. The way Alfred looked at him made his heart skil three whole beats. Even though that's how Alfred normally looks at people. "Yeah dude! what's up?" Alfred beamed with a kind of feeling that Ivan has never seen. Was Alfred blushing? Or was it just that he never noticed? Ivan finally did it. He came this far, but something stopped him from saying it. The fear of rejection, The fear of not getting the person he longed for. Ivan was about to give up, Until Alfred told him he wanted to tell him something. Was it going to be the same that Ivan was planning to say? The silence was broken and it was replaced by the sounds of their hearts pounding. "Look, I feel like this is all too sudden, but I'm in love with you, Ivan. I'm tired of pretending im not." Ivan's eyes widened and his faced flushed a crimson red. That was by far one of the most unpredictable things he expected Alfred to say.
(( unfinished!! pls wait until i continue to write more ^^ ))