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Cas woke up to the smell of something rotting at first he was confused no food was left out last night he was sure of it until he tried sitting up when a pair of sweaty arms was holding him tightly. He looked and saw that Dean was shaking he had a little sweat on his forehead, his eyes kept squeezing tightly shut, and he kept mumbling things that Cas could barely hear let alone understand. He tried the steryotypical "Wake up it's just a nightmare." with no provail he kept trying and trying until he deemed that Dean was too far into the nightmare to be woken up that way so he was going to try to shake him awake when Dean gasped.
His eyes flew open but they weren't how his eyes typically looked, they were distant like he was still stuck in the nightmare. Cas tried to put his hand on Dean's shoulder but as soon as he did Dean flinched and jumped back, but he was to far out of it to realise that he was very close to the edge of the bed and fell off landing with a big thud.(and a slight son of a bitch)
Cas stayed there for a second until he realized that Dean was not going to get up, he got out of bed and slowly walked over the side of the bed. When he got around he saw Dean's back against the bed and his knee's up at his chest, his hands were in his hair grabbing at it like he wanted to pull it all out all while hyperventilating . Cas walked over and sat next to Dean giving him a little space he learned over the years that going right in-front of Dean in a panic only panics him more (relatable King). He sat there with Dean just exaggerating his breathing to hopefully get Dean's breathing to match, when that started to work he gently grabbed Dean's hands away from his hair and held them in his lap squeezing just barely.
A few minutes of this Dean's scent became less spoilt and more neutral, his eyes started to become more focused, and his breathing became more "normal" and he slowly started leaning against Cas breathing in his scent. "Hello Dean." Dean just squeezed his hand still not being able to speak, Cas smiled before putting his arm around Dean effectively hugging him. "Feel any better?" Dean squeezed his hand again "Good." Cas said as he buried his nose into Dean's hair. They stayed like that for a while Dean smelling Cas and playing with his hands and Cas hugging him trying to make him more comfortable.
~After a while~ "Do you want to get back to bed?" Dean shook his head his breathing becoming more erratic "Hey hey we don't have to go to sleep we can watch a movie." After a moment Dean nodded, Cas held him against his side and helped him sit on the bed before crawling in next to him. He grabbed the remote and pulled up the Mask before going back into their earlier position with Cas side hugging Dean. After a few minutes of snuggling, reassuring, and comedy Dean finally spoke "I'm sorry." Cas paused the movie "What for?" "Being this way." Dean sighed "You don't have to apologize my love." He said nuzzling his cheek into Dean's hair (in an attempt to help his mate (oh how we aspire to have a relationship like Dean and Cas )) "Yes I do." "Why then?" "Because you shouldn't have to deal with me Cas I mean I'm someone who-who went to hell for 40 years came back more fucked than before. I can't deal with the fact that I'm a stupid omega to the point of hiding it affectively for over 40 years I can't deal with shit other than whiskey, beer, and food I can't do anything right other than protect which I can't even do that right. I got scared over a fucking nightmare to the point I fell off the bed literally thats only in cartoons."
Cas just listened it was always a rare time when Dean spoke of anything relating to his struggles. When Dean was done with his rant which lead to him now trying not to cry which only made him more upset Cas interjected "But you're Dean." "Cas — "No let me speak for a second." That shut Dean up "I have witnessed humanity since the dawn of it's creation and I have never seen a person who has gone through a quater of what you have gone through and not give up, you might feel as if you are worthless, just a tool, or useless but I can promise you that is not true and if it were, then we would still love you, not due to being obligated to but because you're Dean our Dean. The one that made me feel emotions for the first time after eons of not, the one that made me rebel against my kind to be with you, the one that made me fall in love with you, like when your eyes light up when I get you pie or a gift, when you introduce me to comedies with you laughing the entire time,when you take a drive around when you want to relax and how you blast your music so loud it could burst your ears(again Relatable King). That Dean is why we love you and why you are not useless because you're you."
He looked down to see Dean burying his face into Cas 's side atempting to his the tears streaming down his face. Cas pulled Dean away from his side so he could look eye to eye with Dean, when Dean didn't look up he brought his hands to his jaw lifting it forcing eye contact "I know you aren't used to hearing affection but I'm changing that." He said as he carefully wiped the tears away. "You can cry Dean it doesn't make you weak it's quite the opposite." Dean now had a curious look on his face "Crying does not mean you are weak it just means that you have been strong for to long." "Mmm stop being so poetic." "How bout no?" (Austin Powers anyone?) he leaned in and kissed Dean lightly on the jaw, cheek,forehead and lastly kiss before settling to their earlier arangment. "Comfy?" Cas asked "Mhm." "Want to try to sleep?" "Nahh." he said as he nuzzled into Cas's neck "Love, you need sleep." "I'm alright." "It's only 2 we still have 6 hours and I'm not letting you out of this bed." "That's fine." Dean said stubbornly.
"Dean." Cas said softly "Just try or we can go back to the movie." "Movie." Dean said with no hesitation. "Okay." Cas clicked play before shifting back onto the pillows getting comfy and trying to get Dean comfy. 10 minutes later he realised that Dean was not joking about staying up when Cas looked down Dean's eyes were wide open as if they were taped so he had to resort to helping Dean sleep. He yawned loudly before nuzzling into Dean and slowly rubbing his hand up and down his side the other hand in Dean's hair. Dean sighed before sinking deeper into Cas's embrace until he finally started purring deeply letting Cas know that he was in fact asleep. He smiled before turning the TV off and kissing Dean on the head before going to sleep himself.