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The air in the Tokyo Jujutsu High dorms generally smelled of old wood, copper, and incense, but tonight it smelled mostly of cheap convenience store ramen and impending academic doom.
Ieiri Shoko pinched the bridge of her nose, a thick stack of anatomy flashcards balanced precariously on her knee. She was trying to memorize the exact nerve pathways required to efficiently apply the Reverse Cursed Technique to a severed brachial artery, but her brain was currently short-circuiting.
Plink. Twang. Buzz.
"Gojo," Iori Utahime’s voice snapped across the room, tight with the specific brand of exhaustion only one person could inflict on her. "If you hit that dead note one more time, I am going to wrap those strings around your neck."
"I'm warming up, Utahime-senpai!" Gojo Satoru drawled, sprawled on the floor. "You can't rush artistry." He was caught up in a pile of rejected uniform jackets, his acoustic guitar leaning against his chest, looking ridiculously small on his frame. He pushed his dark glasses down halfway off his nose and stared at the fretboard with an intense, thoroughly undeserved confidence.
Twang.
Utahime rolled her eyes so hard she genuinely feared they might get stuck. "You’ve been 'warming up' for forty-five minutes, and it’s the same three chords! If you don't know the rest of the song, just give it to me. I actually know how to play."
"No way," Gojo scoffed, hugging the wooden body of the guitar away from her like a greedy child. "I swear I can play the whole thing. I just need to get the transition right. Watch." He struck the chords again, louder this time, deliberately grinning in her direction to bait a reaction.
Across the low table, Geto Suguru offered a quiet, long-suffering sigh. He looked completely unbothered by the chaos, a masterclass in selective hearing, as he reached across the tatami mats and gently slid the top card from Shoko’s stack.
"Ignore them," Geto murmured, his voice a calm anchor in the room. He turned the card around, presenting the hand-drawn diagram of a human brain to Shoko. "Come on. Cranial nerves. Number seven?"
Shoko blinked, trying to force her brain to pivot from ‘how to commit murder and cover it up’ to ‘medical theory.’ "Uh, facial nerve. Controls muscles of facial expression."
"Good," Geto said, his lips twitching into a small, encouraging smile as he moved it to the correct pile. He pulled the next one. "Number eight?"
TWANG.
"GOJO!" Utahime barked, slamming her palms onto the floor as she leaned forward. "That wasn't even a chord! You just slapped the wood!"
"It’s percussion, Utahime! It adds texture!" Gojo whined back, shifting his weight so he could kick a stray pillow at her shins. "You just don't get the vision!"
Shoko slumped backward, letting her head hit the edge of Geto’s futon with a soft thud. She stared up at the ceiling, the fluorescent light flickering slightly. "Suguru, if I use Reverse Cursed Technique to make my own eardrums explode, will you heal them for me after finals?"
Geto let out a soft huff of laughter, neatly tapping the edges of the flashcards against the table to square them up. "As tempting as that sounds, I think you need your hearing to pass the practical exam. Besides, if you go deaf, you won't be able to hear me validate how smart you are."
He leaned over slightly, casting a protective shadow over her workspace as if he could physically shield her from Gojo's musical atrocities. He picked up the next card. "Vestibulocochlear nerve. For hearing and balance. Ironically."
“Right. Hearing and balance,” Shoko mumbled, watching the rhythm of the guitar neck swinging in Gojo’s hands as Utahime barely missed a swipe at him.
Even with no peace whatsoever, Shoko felt the tension in her shoulders ease just a little. It was loud, irritating, and highly counterproductive to her medical career, but as Geto patiently waited for her next answer and Utahime finally managed to land a solid punch on Gojo's shoulder, Shoko figured there were worse ways to fail a test.
Utahime caught the tail end of Shoko’s exhausted groan, followed by Geto’s low, patient murmur, trying to ground her back into the anatomy notes.
Guilt hit Utahime instantly. Shoko was working herself to the bone to become a doctor, and here she was, letting Gojo bait her into a shouting match like a couple of toddlers in an alleyway.
Turning her head, Utahime caught Shoko’s eye and offered a quick, wincing look of apology. She pressed her palms together in a silent 'sorry' gesture, which Shoko answered with a slow, heavy blink that spoke volumes of mutual suffering.
"See? You're disturbing the peace, Gojo," Utahime hissed, lowering her voice but keeping her glare fixed on him.
'I am the peace,' Gojo snapped, but he sounded as if he'd had the wind knocked out of him. He groaned dramatically, throwing his head back on a stray cushion. He flung the acoustic guitar toward her with a theatrical sigh as if he were sacrificing a piece of his soul. "Fine, take it. Let's see you do better, Senpai.
Utahime caught the wooden neck before it could clatter against the tatami mats. Her fingers slid naturally over the frets, her thumb resting against the smooth curve of the body. The weight of it was grounding. She tuned a couple of strings by ear, her mind suddenly racing faster than Gojo’s terrible chord progressions.
She had a song.
She’d been writing it in the quiet, empty pockets of her nights, scribbling lyrics into the margins of her shrine maiden notebooks. It was a good melody, haunting, raw, and completely honest, but as she positioned her fingers to play the opening chord, a sudden wave of nerves made her chest tighten.
If she played this song, someone in this small, cramped dorm room was going to figure out who it was about.
And that was a dangerous, terrifying line to cross.
Utahime shifted her gaze slightly, her eyes naturally tracking across the room.
Gojo was already shifting around, his long limbs adjusting until he comfortably leaned his shoulder against Geto’s leg. Geto didn't even look up from the flashcards he was holding for Shoko, but his hand instinctively moved to rest on Gojo’s knee, a casual, deeply ingrained gesture of absolute familiarity.
It was a quiet, devastatingly clear picture. Utahime felt the familiar, dull ache in her chest flare up.
She loved him. She loved Satoru.
It was a heavy, inconvenient truth she carried every day, but she wasn't stupid, and she wasn't blind. Gojo Satoru, the strongest, the man who held the world in his hands, only truly ever looked at one person. He had eyes only for his best friend. It was a quiet reality that lived in the space between them, the way they moved in tandem, the way Gojo’s loud personality softened only around him, and the way they shared a world no one else could touch.
Utahime knew it. Shoko knew it. Almost everybody knew it. It was simply the unwritten law of their universe.
Utahime looked down at the guitar strings. This was it, then. She was a year ahead of them, and she was graduating soon. The world was getting darker, and things were shifting. If she didn't say it now, she never would. This song wouldn't change Satoru's heart, and she didn't expect it to, nor did she want to break the fragile peace of their group, but it could be her own quiet goodbye to a love that was never meant to be hers. Her last confession, hidden in plain sight.
Taking a slow, steadying breath, Utahime struck the first chord.
The sound was clean, resonant, and entirely different from the chaos that had filled the room moments before. The sharp contrast immediately drew a rare silence from Gojo, who tilted his head, his hidden gaze fixing on her. Across the table, Geto paused his hand mid-air, a flashcard dangling from his fingers, while Shoko slowly leaned back, her eyes softening with immediate understanding. Shoko knew Utahime's heart, and the look she gave her friend was one of quiet, protective sorrow.
Utahime didn't look up to meet any of their eyes. She kept her gaze fixed on her fingers moving across the frets as she began to play the intro, letting the music build a wall around her secrets before she opened her mouth to sing.
The clean resonance of the guitar faded into a soft, steady rhythm as Utahime closed her eyes, letting her voice carry the weight of everything she had kept locked away.
“Just a moment more…”
The words hung in the quiet room, delicate and heavy all at once.
Across the table, Shoko’s pen paused mid-air. A flicker of recognition crossed her face, her eyes widening slightly as she looked up from her anatomy notes. "Oh," Shoko said, her voice dropping to a softer, knowing register. "That's the song you've been working on?"
Utahime didn't look up from the fretboard, but her head gave a small, tentative nod. The confession had already begun, even if only Shoko could read between the lines.
"I've been wondering what you were scribbling down during lectures," Geto chimed in, his usual polite demeanor warming into a genuine, easy smile. He leaned his back against the edge of the futon, resting his forearms on his knees. "I'm looking forward to it. We've known each other for years, but I think this is the first time any of us are actually hearing you sing."
Beside him, Gojo had gone uncharacteristically still. He didn't say a word, his chin resting in his palm as he watched her, the usual mocking grin entirely absent from his face.
Hearing Geto’s compliment, Utahime felt a sudden flush of heat creep up her neck. She scrunched her nose out of sheer shyness, a small, defensive instinct to hide how exposed she suddenly felt. For a split second, she considered stopping right there, laughing it off, and playing some loud, generic chord to break the spell, but when she glanced up, she met their awaiting looks. Geto’s encouraging gaze, Shoko’s quiet, protective focus, and Gojo’s steady, unreadable attention.
They were listening. Truly listening.
Taking a shallow breath, Utahime let her fingers slide to the next chord, the deeper tones of the guitar grounding her as she sang the next line.
“Might you grant me this grace?”
The question was a tune in disguise. Shoko's face turned into a heartbroken expression. She knew what kind of 'grace' Utahime wanted, not a change of heart, but a fleeting moment of kindness before the inevitable. Shoko laid her flashcards on the low table with a soft thud, leaving her studying behind to give Utahime her full, supportive silence.
Utahime moved into the flow verse by shifting her fingers, a sharp minor chord slicing through the air like a tiny fracture.
“Since I am truly leaving now…”
A subtle shift passed through the boys. Geto’s smile faltered just a fraction, a shadow of melancholy touching his eyes. With graduation looming and the higher-ups putting more pressure on them every day, the word "leaving" hit a raw nerve. It felt less like a lyric and more like a premonition of the adulthood waiting to pull them all apart. Gojo, still leaning his shoulder against Geto’s leg, unconsciously shifted his weight closer to his best friend, his fingers subtly twitching against his knee. It was an instinctive, protective reflex, Gojo’s way of anchoring himself to the only person he feared losing, entirely unaware of how that very movement pierced Utahime's chest.
Utahime swallowed the lump in her throat, keeping her eyes strictly on the wooden body of the guitar. She couldn't look at them now. If she did, she would lose her voice. She struck the lingering chord of the verse, letting the notes vibrate against her palms as she delivered her quiet plea.
“Might I hold your hands?”
The line drifted through the small dorm room and settled into a heavy, profound silence.
Geto let out a slow, quiet breath, clearly moved by the raw honesty of the piece, though he remained entirely oblivious to the fact that the hands Utahime wanted to hold were currently resting just inches from his own. Gojo remained perfectly still, his eyes hidden behind those dark lenses, staring at Utahime as if trying to decode a language he didn't quite understand. He knew it was a love song, anyone could tell, but for the first time in his life, the self-proclaimed strongest felt entirely outside of something.
The quiet in the room was absolute now, the kind of stillness that usually only follows a heavy winter snowfall, but Utahime didn't let the silence linger long enough to become uncomfortable. She breathed in the scent of tatami and the faint, bitter trace of Shoko’s herbal tea and let her fingers drift into the next progression. The melody smoothed out, flowing like a calm, steady river.
Watching her, the atmosphere in the dorm shifted entirely. The chaotic tension Gojo had built up with his terrible guitar playing dissolved completely. Geto leaned his head back against the wall, his shoulders dropping as a wave of genuine calm washed over him. Even Shoko, who had been vibrating with exam anxiety just minutes ago, rested her chin in her hand, her gaze soft and steady on her friend. Utahime’s voice was a soothing balm, turning the cramped, messy room into a sanctuary.
But beneath that calming surface, Utahime’s heart was a violent storm.
As she opened her mouth to sing the next line, the small dorm room seemed to blur, replaced by a rush of memories she had tried so hard to bury.
“I hope the heights of your smile reaches the heavens…”
In her mind's eye, a flash of bright, blinding white hair cut through the dark. She remembered a late afternoon on the school grounds after a grueling mission. Gojo had turned back to look at her, throwing his head back as he laughed at some ridiculous joke he’d made at her expense. It was a loud, brilliant, irritating smile, the kind that filled up a space so completely it felt like it could touch the sky. It was a smile meant for the world, a smile born from the absolute freedom of being the strongest. Utahime had scolded him for it then, but internally, she had been breathless.
She struck a gentle, lingering chord, her voice dropping into a softer, almost reverent register for the next line.
“That I might catch a glimpse.”
Her mind drifted to the few, rare moments those dark sunglasses had slipped entirely off.
Blue eyes.
Breathtaking, impossible ocean eyes that didn't look like they belonged to a human being.
Utahime remembered standing a little too close to him in the hallway once, looking up and getting entirely lost in that limitless blue. It had terrified her. It felt as though if she stared for even a second too long, the vast, churning tides hidden within his gaze would pull her under, trapping her in the undertow, completely taking her breath away. It was a beautiful, lethal kind of drowning.
Utahime’s fingers trembled slightly against the guitar neck, but she forced the music to remain steady, keeping her eyes cast down.
Gojo sat just a few feet away, completely unaware that the heavens she was singing about were hidden right behind his dark lenses. To him, it was just a beautiful, melancholic song. To her, it was the final, quiet burial of a sea she was never meant to cross.
The melody took a bittersweet turn, the guitar chords transitioning into a lower, more grounded rhythm. Utahime felt the prickle of tears at the back of her eyes, but she swallowed past the lump in her throat, letting her voice carry the absolute, unwavering truth of her heart.
“Do not worry…”
The words were a quiet vow. Across the room, Shoko shifted slightly, her heart aching for her friend. She could hear the immense restraint in Utahime’s voice, the sheer grace of a woman who loved so deeply but demanded absolutely nothing in return.
Utahime’s fingers moved seamlessly across the fretboard, striking a soft, reassuring chord as she sang the next line, putting her boundaries into stone.
“I will not force myself upon you.”
It was her promise to him. She would never complicate his life, never force him to awkwardly reject her, and never stand in the way of the bond he shared with Geto. She knew her place in his universe, the reliable senpai, the one he teased, the one who stayed behind while he flew ahead. She was choosing to leave his orbit quietly, without leaving a scar.
Then, the melody began to swell, climbing into a soaring crescendo that felt like a bird catching a sudden gust of wind.
“Even as I take flight…”
The music felt like a physical departure, a representation of her stepping away from this youth, from these dorms, and from the quiet hope she had harbored for too long. Gojo shifted his weight, his hidden gaze locked entirely onto her now. Even through his dark sunglasses, the raw intensity of her performance was pulling at him, commanding an attention he usually only gave to a battlefield.
Utahime gathered every single ounce of strength she possessed for the buildup part of the verse. Her heart was hammering against her ribs, a violent, desperate rhythm.
“My mind stays spinning, dazed, for you.”
The words left her lips like a breathless confession, dizzying and heavy with years of unspoken devotion.
As the note vibrated through the guitar string, an overwhelming, magnetic pull tried to yank her gaze upward. Every single instinct in her body screamed at her to look across the room, to look directly at Gojo, to see if he finally understood, to see if she had left even a microscopic dent in his armor.
It took a terrifying, exhausting amount of courage to resist. Utahime clenched her jaw, her knuckles turning white as she forced her eyes to stay firmly glued to her own hands on the guitar. She fought the gravitational pull of his presence, physically anchoring herself to the floor, refusing to look at him. She knew that if she looked up now and saw him looking back with nothing but casual curiosity, or worse, looking over at Geto, she would break entirely.
The chord of the previous verse bled seamlessly into a new, gentler rhythm, the steady strumming of the guitar acting like the ticking of a clock, pulling the room backward through time.
Utahime closed her eyes, and as her lips parted to sing the next line, the walls of the cramped dorm room seemed to dissolve. Her voice remained steady, clear, and resonant, playing over the space like a cinematic voiceover as the present faded away into the past.
“It has been but a few nights…”
In the theater of her mind, the fluorescent lights of the boys' dorm blinked out, replaced by the crisp, biting air of a Tokyo spring evening years ago.
“Since the moment we first met…”
The scene materialized sharply. It was her second year at Jujutsu High, and the courtyard was dusted with fallen cherry blossom petals. Utahime had been walking back from a grueling, exhausting solo mission, her uniform torn at the sleeve, her body aching with fatigue. She had been feeling entirely overwhelmed by the weight of being a sorcerer, wondering if she was cut out for this life at all.
And then, he had appeared.
“As if some force pushed me to you."
She hadn't been looking where she was going, her eyes cast down just as they were now over the guitar, but a sudden, magnetic pull, an inexplicable shift in the air, had made her look up just in time to collide with someone.
It was Gojo. He was younger then, his white hair messy from training, his uniform jacket hanging loosely off one shoulder. He hadn't been wearing his sunglasses that evening. When their eyes met, Utahime felt an actual, physical jolt run straight down her spine, as if gravity itself had skewed on its axis just to tilt her directly into his path.
He had blinked down at her, surprised for a fraction of a second before that brilliant, insufferable grin broke across his face. "Whoops. Watch it, Senpai," he had chuckled, reaching out to catch her elbow to steady her. His grip had been warm, firm, and entirely effortless.
The trap had snapped shut at that precise moment. It was an abrupt, terrifying realization that she was completely helpless against him rather than a slow burn. As time passed by with him, one thing was clear to her. She had realized with a sinking heart that she was falling hard, quickly, and without any kind of safety net as she stared into those endless blue eyes beneath the twilight sky.
The memory shifted, the warm evening air turning bitter and freezing as Utahime’s voice in the present deepened, carrying the chill of that realization into the verse.
“Now I am shivering, trembling in the cold.”
The scene faded to a flashback that faded into a stark, snowy winter courtyard a few months later. She remembered standing on the sidelines, wrapped in a heavy coat, watching Gojo and Geto laugh together as they threw snowballs, entirely wrapped up in their own invincible world. Even back then, the realization of her unrequited love had hit her like a physical frost. She had stood there shivering, not from the weather, but from the sudden, isolating warmth of a fire she could look at but could never, ever touch.
As the lyrics echoed over the memory, the past slowly began to blur at the edges, ready to pull her back to the quiet, suffocating reality of the dorm room.
The freezing courtyard of the past shattered like glass, the shards melting away as Utahime’s voice anchored the scene back to the present. The steady strum of the guitar felt heavier now, each note carrying the grief of a girl who had finally accepted defeat.
“I thought at the very start
That a 'tomorrow' lived in this…”
Her voice cracked slightly on the word "tomorrow," a raw, vulnerable sound. In the early days, she had foolishly allowed herself to dream. She had thought that maybe, just maybe, time and proximity would bridge the gap between them.
“Guess it was better to turn away
'Though I am grateful we crossed paths.”
A bittersweet smile tugged at the corner of her lips as she sang. Despite the ache, she couldn't bring herself to regret him. Gojo Satoru had colored her world in shades of blinding blue she would never forget.
Then, the tempo picked up, a frantic, rolling strum that mimicked a racing heartbeat. Utahime closed her eyes tight, pouring the absolute last of her resistance into the microphone of the quiet room.
“Dazed, frantic, lost am I…”
“Spinning, breathless, head-over-heels for you.”
The final word left her lips in a ragged exhale, and then her voice stopped.
Yet the music didn't. Utahime let her fingers take over, playing a sweeping, melancholic instrumental that surged through the quiet dorm like a flood. As the melody soared, the walls of the room didn't just fade, they dissolved into a rapid, dizzying montage of the years that followed, a cinematic time-lapse of a love that lived entirely in the shadows.
The guitar strings hummed, and the music painted a picture of a hundred stolen, silent glances. Utahime watching him from across crowded classrooms, Utahime looking at his reflection in train windows during joint missions, and Utahime memorizing the line of his jaw when he thought no one was looking.
The music shifted to a warmer, lingering chord, narrating the phantom weight of skin-to-skin contact. Those rare, accidental moments when his infinity was down. Gojo casually wrapping an arm around her shoulders to drag her into a joke. His large, warm hand brushing against hers as he handed her a report. The stinging, electric jolt of his fingers lingering on her wrist for just a second too long after a mission.
Then, a sharp, somber chord progression. The memory of a rainy night in Shoko’s dorm room, with empty beer cans on the table. Utahime had buried her face in her hands, her shoulders shaking as she finally admitted the truth aloud. “I love him, Shoko. It hurts so much,” and Shoko had simply sighed, pulling Utahime into a tight, silent embrace, knowing there was no medicine in the world that could cure a heart broken by Gojo Satoru.
And because the music didn't lie. The instrumental grew agonizingly heavy, capturing the sharp, visceral pain of watching the two strongest. Utahime standing in the background, watching the way Gojo and Geto moved in a perfect, exclusive orbit. It was in the way Gojo’s loud voice dropped an octave only when speaking to Geto and the way Geto would instinctively reach out to fix Gojo’s collar, the quiet, lowkey devotion in their eyes that they themselves hadn't even fully realized yet. It was a love so loud it crowded everyone else out of the room. Utahime had stood in that cold, empty space outside their circle, her heart breaking in slow motion, day after day.
The guitar chords began to accelerate, the rhythm tumbling forward through time like autumn leaves caught in a storm.
Flash. Graduation day, the four of them standing together for a final photo. "Congratulations, Senpai!” Utahime forced a smile.
Flash. Years slipped by, the weight of the world changing them. “The star vessel plasma mission failed,” Shoko explained, and both of them looked at the figures of Gojo and Geto on the couch. A heavy and devastating aura was coming off of them, as if the heavens had dropped and the ground had pushed up to punish them and squashed them out of the world. Utahime sighed, and being the older sister that she was, she advanced to them and set down two things that Gojo and Geto would love, a candy and a can of alcohol. The two looked up, and Utahime held eye contact, trying not to fold, and she was successful. “You guys can’t keep it in for long. Shoko and I are here. We’re all ears,” she told them, giving them a smile as Shoko went beside her and wrapped an arm around her shoulders.
Flash. Years passed. Utahime, dressed in her formal traditional robes, stepped into her role as a teacher at Kyoto, older and wiser but still carrying the same quiet ache in her chest.
The music began to slow down, returning to the familiar, bittersweet lull of the song’s opening chords. The time-lapse slowed, the music gently dropping Utahime back into her own skin.
She opened her eyes as the final verse delivers her ultimate release, her final goodbye to the boy she loved.
“Do not worry, I will not force myself upon you.”
She looked up. Truly looked up for the first time. She looked past Gojo, letting her gaze rest gently on both him and Geto, who were sitting side by side.
“Even as I take flight. My mind stays spinning, dazed for you.”
The last chord rang out, vibrating deeply before Utahime pressed her palm flat against the strings, silencing the guitar completely. The quiet that followed was profound.
…
The final vibration of the guitar string didn't fade back into the Kyoto dorms. Instead, it dissolved into the grand, elegant hum of a beautifully decorated traditional banquet hall.
The air was sweet with the scent of fresh white lilies and expensive sake. The sound of laughter and clinking glasses echoed off the polished wooden walls.
Utahime stood near the edge of the main tatami mat, wearing her finest ceremonial kimono. She held a small, beautifully lacquered wooden cup of sake in her hands, her fingers steady. Her hair was elegantly pinned up, a few years older, a lifetime wiser.
A few feet away, standing in the center of the room, were the two grooms.
Geto Suguru looked breathtakingly handsome, his dark hair pulled back neatly, wearing a traditional black montsuki-haori. Beside him stood Gojo Satoru, towering, magnificent, and entirely radiant in matching traditional attire. Satoru’s eyes were completely uncovered, those brilliant blue depths crinkling with a happiness so profound it seemed to light up the entire hall. He was laughing at something Suguru had whispered to him, his hand openly and firmly intertwined with Suguru’s.
They had finally figured it out. They had survived, they had chosen each other, and today, they were binding their lives together forever.
Utahime took a slow, deep breath. The familiar dull ache in her chest was there, but it no longer felt like a bleeding wound. It felt like an old scar, healed, quiet, and accepted. She had kept her promise. She had never forced herself upon him. She had taken flight, she had moved to Kyoto, and she had let him go.
Stepping forward, Utahime walked toward the newlyweds.
Hearing her footsteps, Suguru turned first, a warm, incredibly grateful smile breaking across his face. "Utahime-senpai," he said softly.
Satoru turned a moment later, his brilliant blue eyes fixing on her. For a split second, the ghost of that long-ago dorm room song seemed to flicker in the space between them, but it was quickly replaced by Satoru's genuine, bright grin. "Hey, Utahime! You actually made it," he teased, though his voice lacked any real bite, completely softened by the joy of the day.
Utahime stopped in front of them. She looked at their joined hands, then up at Satoru’s blinding, heavenly smile, the very smile she had sung about years ago. She raised her sake cup slightly, her expression soft, genuine, and entirely filled with peace.
"Of course I did," Utahime said, her voice steady and clear. She looked between the two of them, offering them the truest, most selfless piece of her heart. "Congratulations, Satoru. Congratulations, Suguru. I wish you both nothing but happiness."
Satoru’s smile widened, bright enough that it finally reached the heavens, and as he clinked his glass against hers, Utahime finally felt completely free.
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