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The invitation had sat in Jungkook’s kitchen drawer for three weeks, facedown beneath a pile of unopened utility bills and discarded charcoal sketches, as if burying the heavy, cream-colored cardstock could somehow delay the arrival of May.
It hadn't worked.
Now, the gold foil lettering—Jimin and Namjoon—seemed to hum against the fabric of his breast pocket, a tiny, flat weight resting directly over his ribs as he stood in the foyer of the reception hall.
The venue was grand to the point of suffocating. High, vaulted ceilings trapped the overlapping chatter of three hundred guests, mixing it with the heavy, cloying scent of damp white orchids and expensive catering. It was beautiful. It was a testament to a love that had successfully survived the grinding machinery of their twenties.
But to Jungkook, the room felt like a minefield. Everywhere he looked, he saw ghosts of a life he had systematically tried to forget. There were old university classmates with higher hairlines and expensive watches, girls he used to share lecture notes with now wearing delicate diamond bands on their left hands, and the familiar, terrifying orbit of the only friends who truly knew his history.
Jungkook stayed near the perimeter, his shoulder practically glued to the cold glass of the terrace doors. He kept his hands jammed deep into his trouser pockets, his thumbs digging into the seams until his knuckles ached.
Be a normal person, he told himself, matching the silent mantra to the steady, thumping bass of the jazz band in the corner. Drink the champagne. Congratulate the grooms. Do not look like you are waiting for the floor to drop out from under you.
"Jungkook-ah."
The voice came from his left, followed by a heavy palm that clamped down on his shoulder. Hoseok looked striking in a wine-colored suit, his hair swept back perfectly, though his eyes lacked their usual effortless performance. They were sharp, scanning Jungkook’s face with the clinical accuracy of a lifelong friend.
"Hyung," Jungkook said, his throat tight. He forced a small smile, but the muscles around his jaw were so stiff it felt like a lie. "You look good."
"I look expensive," Hoseok corrected, though the humor didn't reach his eyes. He squeezed Jungkook’s shoulder once, a deliberate, grounding pressure. "Have you seen Namjoon? He’s currently hiding in the green room because he dropped his vows in a glass of water. Jimin is handling it with the terrifying grace of a dictator." Hoseok paused, his gaze dropping to the way Jungkook was holding himself—shoulders hunched, elbows tucked in, as if trying to occupy as little physical space as possible. "You okay? You look like you’re trying to blend into the wallpaper."
"I'm fine. Just... a lot of people."
"Yeah." Hoseok reached into his inner pocket and pulled out a folded piece of paper—the reception seating chart, marked with scribbled corrections in Jimin’s neat handwriting. He didn't open it. He just tapped the edge against his thumb, a slow, hesitant rhythm. "Jimin handled the layout personally. He... well, you know how he is. He thought it would be nice to put the old crew back together. For old times' sake."
A cold, sudden drop of dread pooled in the center of Jungkook’s stomach. It was a physical sensation, heavy and greasy, making his lungs feel entirely too small for his chest.
"Who’s at the table, hyung?" Jungkook asked, his voice dropping an octave.
Hoseok didn't answer immediately. He looked out over the crowd, his expression softening into something heavy with caution—the look people gave you when they were trying not to startle a wounded animal. "Yoongi’s there. Me. Taehyung. And..."
Hoseok didn't have to finish the sentence.
From thirty feet away, cutting through the low, polite hum of three hundred people and the sharp clink of crystal, came a sound. It was a loud, distinctive, wind-shield-wiper squeak of a laugh.
Jungkook’s head snapped up. It wasn't a conscious choice; it was a pure, primal reflex. A muscle memory his body had stubbornly retained despite sixty months of absolute silence.
Standing by the grand piano, bathed in the warm, amber glow of a massive crystal chandelier, was Kim Seokjin.
The air left Jungkook’s lungs in a quiet, invisible rush. He felt a sudden, dizzying wave of vertigo, the grand reception hall tilting slightly on its axis.
Seokjin looked entirely different. He looked like an adult. The soft, messy fringe he used to pull over his eyes when he was stressed during finals was gone, cleared away into a sleek, parted style that exposed the sharp, aristocratic slope of his forehead. The faded denim jackets and oversized hoodies of their college years were replaced by a midnight-blue velvet blazer that fit his absurdly broad shoulders with tailored precision. He looked like someone who had a corporate title, a retirement plan, and a life that didn't include eating cold rice over a small apartment sink at three in the morning.
But then Yoongi said something, and Seokjin threw his head back, his broad shoulders shaking as that ridiculous, familiar laugh spilled out of him.
The five-year gap vanished so fast it left Jungkook with a metallic taste in his mouth.
It was the same laugh. The same habit of tilting his chin upward when he was genuinely amused. The same faint, pink flush that crept up his throat and stained the very tips of his ears when he grew too loud.
"Jungkook," Hoseok’s voice sounded distant, as if he were speaking through a heavy wall of water. His hand was back on Jungkook’s arm, firmer now. "We can swap seats. I can tell Jimin there was a mistake with the place cards. You don't have to sit at Table 4. You don't even have to stay in this room."
Jungkook forced his eyes away from the blue velvet blazer. He looked down at his own shoes—black, polished, and entirely uncomfortable.
Five years ago, they had stood on the wet gravel path behind the university library, the air smelling of old brick and impending rain, and agreed that they were doing the smart thing. We're just going to drag each other down if we try to force this, Seokjin had whispered, his fingers trembling so violently he couldn't even zip his own coat. We need to build our careers first. And Jungkook, nineteen and so violently in love he would have walked into traffic if Seokjin asked him to, had nodded. They hadn't fought. They hadn't screamed. They had just walked into separate entrances of the Seoul subway and let the heavy iron doors close between them.
Now, across a room filled with white lilies and champagne, Seokjin casually turned his head.
His eyes scanned the crowd, polite and distant, until they slid over the terrace doors.
And stopped.
Jungkook’s breath caught in his throat. Across the expanse of the crowded hall, over the heads of strangers and the flickering candlelight, Kim Seokjin locked onto him.
The laughter died on Seokjin’s lips. It wasn't a dramatic shift, but Jungkook saw the exact moment the older man’s shoulders went rigid. He saw the way Seokjin's fingers tightened around the stem of his wine glass until his knuckles turned white. For a terrifying, endless three seconds, neither of them moved. They just stared, two strangers carrying the weight of a shared lifetime, entirely paralyzed by the simple reality of each other's existence.
"Jungkook?" Hoseok asked quietly, watching the silent collision from the sidelines.
Jungkook swallowed the dry lump in his throat. He pulled his hands out of his pockets, his fingers finding the slight tremor in his left hand and forcing it into a tight fist.
"Let's go to the table, hyung," Jungkook whispered, his voice sounding hollow even to his own ears. "We can't hide out here all night."