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It was another day on the strength Smp, Sharpness lost a fight to flowtives and now he's on +2 strength. He can obviously craft one to be on +3 strength but he's tired, Exhausted he is, he's not going to bother he would care less if he dies again and goes on +1 strength he wouldn't care.
Sharpness mental health has gotten extremely worse. Yes, he's been to therapy when he was younger. Back then he was struggling with self harm issues and couldn't get better because he started to get suicidal thoughts and his parents weren't helping but that was until he meet Judelow. Sharpness enjoyed talking to him after that his mental health got better. But it's getting worse again because that was in the past and his life right now is hard.
Sharpness got a little animal support a white bunny it surprisingly helped him a bit. He's getting really attached to the bunny and he doesn't want to leave it anymore. Everyone has noticed Sharpness new pet and also seen that Sharpness hasn't been fighting much but they decide to just leave it alone.
Next day Sharpness decided to fight again since his mental health has gotten better with his new support animal. He walks around spawn for a bit just waiting if anyone wants to fight. "Oh hey Sharp! I haven't seen you in a while everything good?" A familiar voice, oh it was flowtives he should probably answer to him so he isn't a burden. "Oh hey flowtives I'm okay could be better but it's hard now " Decent answer Sharpness thinks to himself yeah decent he could've been better he feels fucking pathetic for that shitty answer now-"Alright down to fight?" Flowtives says interrupting his thoughts, oh a fight yeah that's what he wants or does he? "Uh sure yeah yeah I'm down" Sharpness replies.
They get into position and start. Sharpness uses his sword obviously, same does Flowtives. The field is filled with sounds of sword clashing with each other. Flowtives manages a critical hit on Sharpness making him stumble back and he nearly drops his sword. "Did you get worse or something sharp?" Flowtives says teasingly not knowing the truth. "U-uhm yeah.." He says nervously, and then-Ouch a Sharp pain to his body he looks down Flowtives got him again, he got stabbed the pain hurts Sharpness couldn't even eat Golden apples or pot a health potion wow he really is bad a PvP now so worthless.
Sharpness respawns at his base now at +2 strength worthless his white bunny is there he feels a bit better now seeing his comfort pet bunny. Sharpness goes back to get his loot and no surprise Flowtives is waiting for him. "Good game Sharpness take you're loot I didn't take anything." Flowtives says to him Sharpness barely processes what flowtives said, picking up his loot. "thanks.. Uh I'm going to go bye.." Sharpness says maybe a bit to quick as he speed walks to his base.
He made it he can't fucking fight he's worthless he should just give up forever he's tired it hurts so much he hasn't felt like this since therapy why.. Why does it hurt so much to him he's so worthless and pathetic. He takes out his white pet bunny out of its cage holding her close. Such soft fur, he feels a little better oh what would happened to him if he loses his bunny. The only thing making him happy, he decides to go to sleep. Sharpness lays down on his bed holding his bunny and then he falls asleep without any nightmares.
Next day, Sharpness decides to go outside since the last time was basically yesterday out of the whole week. He just walks around trying get some air he goes walking to a waterfall he used to visit until his mental health went downward. Sharpness arrives to the waterfall he sits near the edge of a cliff listening to the water. "I miss this so much.." He mumbles to himself. If he would commit suicide this would be the place he'd die, here peaceful and probably happily. Enough with these thoughts he should just enjoy the waterfall. A couple minutes later he goes back to walking.
Tai sees him walking, and walks up to him. "Hii Sharpness How are you?!" he says all happy, but it feels fake,like a distraction. "Hey tai.. I could be better" He replies a bit distress he doesn't want to talk to anyone at this moment especially with this feeling of tai distracting him or something.. Suddenly-"Hahah! You're so easy to distract I wonder what happened to you're fucking bunny!" Realization hits sharpness hard no no no what did they do to his bunny no, he Sprints to his base when he makes it to his room where his Bunny's cage is at, he freezes.
"W-what..whats wrong with you!" He starts crying. Judelow is there holding his sword that's bloody, he killed Sharpness comfort bunny and Jude was Unfazed. Sharpness breaks down, he drops down onto the floor sobbing. Jude ignores him walking past the crying sharpness leaving him alone. Now its him alone, again. It hurts it hurts so bad he reaches for his dead bunny it's white fur soaking with it's own blood. Sharpness is still there crying. His bunny, the last thing even keeping him together is now dead he can hear Tai and Judelow laughing outside slowly fading away. He reaches for something in a cabinet moving things aside until he reaches a small box. He hasn't used this in a long time.
He puts his dead bunny down. He opens the small box, a blade. He holds it to his wrist with a quick swipe a cut he winces. the white line slowly turns bright red he redoes this many times on both of his arms moving to his thighs cutting himself over and over. It feels so good it helps so much but each time he looks at his dead bunny he goes deeper. After his breakdown he burries his dead bunny in the ground outside, and then lays down on his bed. It stings so bad his arms and thighs are covered in scars. He trys to fall asleep,he does but has a nightmare first one out of his whole week because his comfort bunny isn't here now, never.
Another day, Sharpness puts long sleeves and pants even though the hot sun. He didn't bother cleaning his cuts because there's no point in living anymore. He goes to the waterfall sits back on the same cliff same ledge. He should just jump he's tired of living he hates his life so much he wants to die right now and he should. He always liked Jude but could never confess because he was bad at feelings and now that Jude killed Sharpness comfort bunny, he won't confess anymore he'd rather die alone without telling Jude he liked him.
Sharpness eyes has eye bags under them. He's been crying so much and it shows. He hates this, he feels like vomiting he doesn't even remember the last time he's eaten or cleaned himself because how bad his mental health has gotten. Footsteps he hears behind him, its Jude but he doesn't bother looking at him. "Sharpness what are you doing?.." Jude says his voice trembling a bit. "I'm going to end it. I'm tired of this life you killed my bunny the only thing helping my mental health.. But now she's gone because of you and Tai..." Sharpness says tears welling up. "I'm sorry sharpness I didn't know it mean't that much I'm sorry please just come over here with me please.."
The apology hurts, it hurts more then his cuts. Sharpness will confess his feelings before dying he decides despite saying he wasn't earlier, he will at least get this feeling of his chest. "I always liked you Jude I always did it hurted so much I didn't know how to confess it but now theres no point in living.." Sharpness finally says confessing his feelings his chest feels light now he's happy. A soft smile land on his lips."I love you too Sharpness! Please don't jump I Love you so much I'm sorry I'm super sorry please come over here with me.." Judelow also confess his feelings trembling not wanting Sharpness to jump. "I give up finally but forever" Sharpness says softly, tears rolling down his cheek as he jumps. Judelow is left there speechless as he starts crying losing the person he loved the most all because a stupid prank. What could've happened if he didn't kill Sharpness white bunny he's such an idiot..He hates himself so much for all of this.
Sharpness falls into the river where the waterfall was at, that one time he said if he would've commited suicide it would be here. He's there, water sounds only hearable he slowly fades away, he got rid of the feelings off his chest he's dying peacefully and that makes him happier then ever, all he ever wanted. One last thought before he fully dies. "I give up finally but forever..."