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"Expect something on white day."

When he said that he pretended to sound cool, and to Sakura's eyes maybe he did, but now that he thought about it he felt kind of lame.

Ugh. He ran his hands through his face. He was the older one, the experienced one.

Now that he looked back on it, Sakura was so much cooler than him. He had put his shyness aside and taken the first step. Why didn't he take it? What was his excuse? He had dated before, casually, but still. For Sakura everything was a first, and yet he managed to do it.

Putting that aside and going back to the problem, what was he supposed to give him?? Chocolates are a no-no. He would not forgive such lack of originality. And what is left, then? Clothes? Something for the house? Honestly, he had no clue. His previous “relationships,” if he could call them that way, were much more casual. And although him and Sakura had just become boyfriends, they had yet to use that word, he planned to take things way further and seriously with Sakura. So even if it was some capitalist-bullshit-holiday, Togame wanted to take it seriously. One, because Sakura had taken Valentine's Day seriously and two, because White Day it would also mark their first month since they started dating. Our first anniversary, huh.

It was a mystery he had to figure it out on his own because when he had asked his friends Choji said to get him “dick” and the others clapped and laughed. Not because they were homophobic or anything but because they were such childish losers that no one would ever date unless they grew up. Not that they were in a hurry, though, they seemed happy enough punching people and playing video games. Togame also enjoyed that, just not all the time, and certainly not when he was with Sakura. He had a lot of things that he wanted to share with him, and about that, he didn't think it counted as a gift. It was something they had yet to do and previously discuss, and considering his experience with Sakura, they had not reached that stage yet.

Not because he didn't want to, of course he did, but he didn't want to scare the other boy away just to satiate his momentary desire, and he wasn't that horny. At least that was what he wanted to believe. Of course he thought of Sakura while relieving himself, if not him who else? But that wasn't strange was it? He was his partner and of course he lusted after him, he had eyes. And the rest of the world too, so it was a good thing he knew how to land a punch.

Yet thinking with the lower head wasn't being much help, so, still laying on his couch, he grabbed his phone and searched for “anniversary gifts.” The first things that poped up were super expensive packages for honeymoon or “perfect destinations to go with your lover.” He scrolled down a bit and the other results weren't much help either. Packages that included everything since champagne to red roses and things that would never cross his mind when he thought of Sakura.

When Togame realized how broad, and far from what he wanted, the results were he tried to be more specific. Like really specific. “Presents for your boyfriend when you just started dating,” he typed and other kind of results appeared. There were a few blogs about “how to find the perfect gift” and “what to give according to your sign,” but instead he opened a reddit entry that seemed more interesting. The user seemed to be a girl and had more or less the same dilemma as him.

/rdatingadvice

neverusedthisapp

Hii, I don't really understand how this works but my boyfriend and I are about to celebrate our one-year anniversary. I'm very excited, but I don't know what to give him. I want to give him something that he can use, but not like a graphic shirt or something that he can buy for himself. Does it make sense?

He kinda felt like the girl. He wanted to get something for Sakura that he'd like, even better that he could use, but nothing came to mind. They hadn't even gone shopping together yet, unless for food, so he didn't even know what he would like. He knew him as a person, that was why he liked him, but no so much when it came to his likes or dislikes.

He continued to read the post, maybe in the comments there could be an answer.

cassieknowsbest

when i started dating my gf i didnt know what to get her so i went with matching stuff. hope it helps <3

There were like a thousand more comments, but that one really stuck with him. Matching stuff, humm, maybe cassie did know best.

So the next morning he found himself walking through a street that sold keychains, second-hand gacha stuff, pins, and all sort of things. He entered many stores, but many of the couple items were like “his and hers” and stuff like that. So much yaoi and so little inclusive, he thought as he walked. Togame knew that he could always get something personalized if he wanted to, but it still was cringey to him. He couldn't imagine Sakura wearing one of those shirts that said “if found, return to...” but it was still funny to picture it. Maybe matching things wasn't such a great idea after all.

He was about to give up when something caught his eye. They were like plastic keychains of animals but very small and they had a thread at its end. How peculiar.

“Can I help you with something, sir?” It startled him, but he knew people often thought of him to be older that he actually was.

“Ah, I was looking at those. Are they tiny keychains?” He asked.

“Sorry, but no. Those are phone charms, would you like to see some keychains?” The sales girl asked.

Phone charms? He'd never herd of those before. They looked cute, though.

“How does this work?” He asked. The sales lady asked for his phone and picked a small panda out of all of the options, she then removed some of his phone case and proceeded to tie the charm with the string. Finally, she handed him his phone back with a little panda hanging from it.

“It's cute, isn't it?” She said and he couldn't agree more. Then an idea came to him. What if I got one of these for Sakura and one for me? We would be matching and discreet, he was well aware that the other didn't like to stick out in public.

“What options do you have?” He said and the girl smiled and showed him the small hanger.

“We have many animals, as you can see, but we have others like with beads, J-pop bands, anime characters.” She explained.

“Do you have cats?” Togame asked, pretty sure of what he wanted. It was also his nickname for Sakura, rabid cat. The other had told him not to call him that, but he would get so flustered that Togame couldn't take him seriously. Specially when he said my cat.

“What kind of cats? Like Lucky Cats?”

“Just regular cats, I wanted a special color, though.”

“Okay, just give me a second and I'll show you what we have.” She went back to the counter and placed a lot of charms before him. “These are all the cats we have at the moment. Maybe we're missing some, but it's pretty much our stock.”

Togame then proceeded to search trough the myriad of plastic animals. There were cats with their whole body, ones that was only the face, many popular cats like Doraemon and others. He was getting tired of the fruitless search when he found it. This one, this looks just like him. This cat is basically Sakura.

It was just the face of the feline which was half white and half black. It didn't have his heterochromatic eyes, but that would be too much to ask. He asked the girl how much was it.

“It's 1000 yen. Are you taking that one?”

“Yes, I want two of this model please.”

“I'm so sorry, but that one is the only one we have of that model. They aren't much popular, people usually buy the calico cats.”

Well shit. Togame thought. It was too perfect for a gift to be true. What should I do now? He wondered when the sales girl interrupted his train of thought.

“Do you still want to buy this one?” She asked and he nodded. “I'll set it apart for you, then. Feel free to look through the others.”

Of course he was going to take it. It was really funny and every time he'd look at it he would think of Sakura, but knowing there was only one kinda crashed the magic of wearing matching stuff.

Maybe he should get a black cat, since his hair was black. Or maybe orange, because of the Shishitoren uniform, but the truth was that none of those felt right. Maybe I should just go with something else, there must be something Sakura would like.

He stared at the cat again and it was definitely Sakura, then his eyes shifted to the panda charm, that he and the girl had forgotten altogether to take it out of the boy's phone. He then came to a realization: maybe we don't need to match, I can just give him something that will remind him of me. Matching is kind of stupid I like him because he is he and he likes me for the same reason, Togame could feel a chill running through his body as he reasoned. His cheeks then felt warm at the idea, it was something so simple, yet he hadn't connected the dots up until now.

Okay, okay. Back to earth: what would make him think of me? He tried to remember. Sakura didn't have a special name for him like “darling” or “sweetie,” he was too shy for those things. Neither did he call him names, not even when they were messing with each other. Hmm, what could it be?

If Sakura was a cat, what would he be? A bigger cat? A lion. No, no. That wasn't quite right.

What about his friends? What would they say to him? Besides “dick.” Oh. His friends actually did have a nickname for him. Kame, he was Kame to them. That was an animal that fitted him.

“Excuse me, miss,” he called for the girl. “Do you have any charms with turtles?”

“Give me a second, sir. Are you looking for anything special, a character?”

“No, just a regular turtle. Any turtle.” Please, have it. He silently begged as he waited for the girl to find it.

“Here.” She said, as she handed the charm to him. It was nothing special just a turtle. A silly turtle with an equally silly smile on its face. Togame felt as a player that scored the point that would gave his team the victory. Fucking finally.

“I'll be taking the turtle and the cat,” he said as he handed the panda back to her.

“Sure! It's a gift?” She asked, innocently.

“Yes, for my partner.” He said smoothly and the girl got flushed.

After paying and thanking her for the help, Togame returned to his home.

When he got there his phone started to ring and vibrate like crazy. Ah, I must have forgotten to turn my internet on. So as soon as he crossed the door the WiFi synced up.

Half of the notifications were from the Shishitoren group chat, which was usual, they sent so many memes and stickers that most of the times Togame couldn't catch up. Still, he liked to scroll though it at least once a day to check how was everyone doing. Before he spent most of his time at the Ori, but now that he was dating Sakura his presence had become a little less frequent, so he had to keep up somehow. Not that anyone complained or anything, but he thought it was the right thing to do, since he still was the vice captain.

He had no new messages from Sakura which bummed him out a little. He was usually who started the conversation, though, even so, he wished the younger would sometimes.

Togame knew that tomorrow they were about to be just one month since they started dating, but he couldn't help but want more. He wanted everything with Sakura, he knew from the very beginning this was no mere crush, but also that they had to go step by step. Specially because of Sakura's past experiences. He couldn't think of anyone else so depraved from affection, yet so kind despite it. Togame wanted to make up for all the love Sakura had been lacking before he had come to this town and entered Furin, he didn't know all that had happened to his boyfriend, but he knew how he wanted to make him feel from now on. He was also sure that if he told Sakura everything he wanted with him he would jump like a cat when they get scared. So for now, let's take it slow.

To his surprise his phone sounded, and when he stared at the notification it was from the person he wanted to hear the most.

Hey, it just said.

A smile morphed into Togame's face. Ah, yes. Just imagining Sakura's all blushed up was enough to send thrills through his whole body. He rushed to reply, though. He knew Sakura would start overthinking if he left him on seen much time.

hello, he replied

what r u doingg

Togame was now laying flat on his belly, moving his feet like the girls did in those teenage movies.

Not much. Making dinner and lunch for tomorrow, and you?

just got home had 2 do smth

I see. Are we still up for tomorrow? He had been too vague and that may have given Sakura the wrong impression.

ofc I just had 2 run some errands r u coming here? That made his heart race. It shouldn't have, Sakura had already been to his house a few times before, but this felt different. Much more intimate.

Okay. I just wanted to check. See you after class?
i will wait here unless u want me to pick you up

Not funny. Didn't laugh.

i wait here then :(

I'm going to bed. Good night.

Sleep well, see ya

He hoped something, anything, had made Sakura blush. It wasn't really hard, but still. Imagining did things to Togame. Speaking of things. He suddenly remembered what his friends had said. Would Sakura come expecting that? He was too shy to admit such a thing, but that didn't mean he didn't want to.

Togame was thrown back into that loop. He didn't want to do something Sakura didn't want or wasn't ready yet, but what if he was? Sakura was very bad at communicating. Much more when it came to feelings. Togame cursed himself as he grabbed his hair. Why his partner had to be so hot? Okay new idea. He got up and went to the bathroom and opened the cabinet. Among other things he saw that he had lube and condoms. Okay, okay. One thing less to worry about. And about Sakura... he figured he would have to read the ambience given the moment which, knowing Sakura, wouldn't be easy.

Either way, Togame was prepared for any situation. He had found a nice present for his boyfriend, and after giving it to him they could spend their time playing video games or watching a movie, like always. Or, he tried to avoid that thought because he didn't want to get high hopes and neither make Sakura uncomfortable, giving him the “other gift.”

It took him a while to fall asleep that night. He was scared but trilled, and he had to many things in his head. So he barely slept and got up a few times that night.

By the time the morning came Togame resembled a turtle more than he would like. His head hurt and he had rolled over and so his back hurt as well. He would've to sleep more, or at least try, but he had things to do so he took a shower and something for his head instead.

After the shower he had a quick breakfast to then get going. He knew he had a long day before he could see Sakura.

After dreading every hour that he was away from Sakura, he finally got home. He had some time before the Furin boy arrived, so he used it to set everything in order and take a short trip to the nearest convenience store for some snacks.

Not long after he was done, he heard a knock on the apartment's door.

"Sakuraa," he greeted the boy with a hug so tight, like it had been ages since they last saw each other. The other, with his face fully red, tried to break free from the grasp.

"What's the matter? We just saw each other the other day." He said shyly.

"But I missed you. Didn't you miss me?"

"…I missed you too." He confessed, and Togame had to refrain himself from 'attacking' Sakura again. He really made his cute-aggression show up.

"Come in." He said, and took a step back to let the other boy in and close the door behind them.

Once they sat in the two-person sofa, Togame put his arm around Sakura and as the other rested his head on the older boy's shoulder. Togame felt like he was about to explode. He felt it every time Sakura got bolder with him.

Shall I give him his present now? He wondered, but Sakura was quick to interrupt his thoughts.

"What are we doing?" He asked with his cheeks still colored.

"Mm hm, I don't really have anything in mind." He lied. "What do you want to do?"

"I don't know. We could watch a movie or a series or whatever. I don't really care." Togame always had the time of his life when he asked Sakura to choose for them. He was almost as shy as he was with showing affection.

"A movie sounds good to me. Do you have anything in mind?."

"There is this one. I don't know if it's good. Suo and Tsubaki were talking about it the other day. They said it's mad funny and like Fight Club. Bottoms I believe is the title. Do you know it?"

Togame had actually heard about the movie for the same reason: people were comparing it to Fight Club. Besides that, he had also heard that there were a lot of dark humor and sexual jokes. This is going to be hilarious, he thought. He couldn't wait to see Sakura's reaction.

"Sure, let's watch it." He felt like laughing like a villain, but that would make the other suspect, so remained his chill self.

As the eldest boy predicted Sakura was turning red at almost every scene, and sometimes even covering his embarrassed face.

On the other hand, Togame was enjoying himself to the max. I can't believe I get to see some many sides of him. He was down bad for Sakura.

When the movie ended he was a bit sad, he wasn't done looking at his boyfriend's reactions. He soon cheered up, though.

"It was a good movie, right?"

"…right."

By the time the movie was over Togame's arm had moved from Sakura's shoulders to envelop the other's waist. Seeing that Sakura was quite comfortable, he went for a kiss. The younger was taken aback first, but then closed his eyes and started moving his lips following Togame's pace.

At some point the kisses started to turn more aggressive, and by the time they parted, Sakura was almost sitting on Togame's lap.

Both their breathes were agitated and their bodies had gotten warmer.

Togame stared at Sakura from below: he was blushed but not from his usual shyness but for the heat rush. He figured he was in a similar state.

Ah, I want him so bad, he realized. Not that he hadn't thought of it before, yet having the actual view of the object of his desire, was something entirely different. He wanted to take the next step but he still wasn't sure, so he dived in to kiss his body instead. Sakura tilted his head to the side giving him space so Togame could kiss and suck and maybe bite as well. This went on until Sakura left out a moan pretty loud that had both of them still and quiet.

The other was turning totally red and failing to come up with a sentence. So Togame asked if he was alright.

"…I'm fine," the other responded utterly embarrassed, but Togame still wasn't convinced so he insisted on it.

"Are you sure you're fine?" He said trying to touch the other's cheek but the other brushed him off.

"The hell dude? I said I'm fine!" Sakura yelled, and tried to put some distance between them but Togame held him in place.

"Then tell me what's wrong, please." The eldest pleaded. It took some time for Sakura to put his ideas in order, and since he didn't want to hurt Togame's feelings he tried to actually communicate, something that remained extra hard for him till the day.

"Do you want me?" He asked, almost shameful.

"Of course I want you, more than anyone I've ever met before." Sakura turned even more red upon hearing the answer.

"Then, why did you stop? Did I do something wrong?" There were tears in the corner of his eyes, Togame had never felt so guilty before, even if it was all for a misunderstanding.

"No! Of course not!" He raised his voice shifting from his usual calm tone, "you just caught me by surprise. You did nothing wrong."

"Oh." Sakura said, "then forget everything that I said." He then left Togame's lap to rush towards the door. Before he could leave the other one managed to catch him by the wrist.

"Sakura, please. Stay." He begged. Sakura took a quick look at Togame's face and saw the pain in his eyes and somehow that weighted more than his shame.

"Okay."

Togame lead him to sit by his side and turned to stare directly at him while caressing his hands. Even so, Sakura remained at edge.

"I'm sorry I haven't expressed properly, but I was afraid to scare you away: I have wanted you since the very beginning, ever since we met." He inhaled some air and went on."I'm crazy about you, and maybe I should've been straight with you so this wouldn't have happened."

Sakura felt guilty when hearing Togame's explanation, the other had been just looking out for him and taking things slow.

"I'm sorry too…I shouldn't have reacted like that." He apologized.

"It's fine. I'm just glad we figured that out." Togame had gone back to his chill persona."What do you want to do now?" It was an innocent question, but Sakura's mind could only think about one thing.

"…I don't know." He said, although he did know.

"Well then, what do you want me to do?" Togame asked and even if he wanted him as much as he just said, he wouldn't do a thing unless Sakura told him to. Sakura knew that much: in order to get anything he had to be direct.

"…kiss me?" He asked, bashfully.

"Okay. Stop me if do anything you don't like." And before he could answer, Togame started kissing him again.

This time he was bolder, he grabbed Sakura's hair and pulled it but not hard enough to hurt. It felt really good to Sakura, like anything he had experience before. In a way it felt like fighting but also like when he relieving himself. Only that in the hands of Togame everything felt way better.

The kissing started to turn more intense and Sakura, unconsciously, placed his hands around Togame's neck. Noticing this, Togame's other hand traveled towards Sakura's hips and stayed there. Then, he pulled away from the kiss for an instant.

"Do you wanna go on?" He asked knowing where this was going. Sakura stared at him for a second and then panted a 'yes' which was all the confirmation Togame needed.

He went in for a more desperate kiss this time, like time was running out, even though he knew that was not the case for them. Sakura, also took a notice, and tried to keep up with the rhythm set by the other. He could sense how he was getting hot allover his body, yet he wasn't sure what to do with it. Lucky for him, Togame did.

"Sakura, you want to carry on with this?" He asked, the other shook his head. "I don't want to scare you, so let me show you how excited I am."

Sakura didn't understand what Togame meant until the other reached for his hand and placed it on top of his groin. He had figured, during his fantasies, that Togame would also be big down there, but what he didn't thought is how hard it would feel. His faced was colored red once more, still, he didn't pull away from the touch.

"So, do you still want to go on?" Togame asked in a voice so smooth and seductive that Sakura felt lame and eager compared to that, but that didn't stop him from expressing his desires.

"I want to." He said pushing a bit more. Togame didn't need any more confirmation than that.

"Let's move to my room." He suggested. "Wait here." He said once Sakura had sat on the kotatsu. He was shaking from excitement, not knowing what he had to wait for.

Togame came back quickly with the bottle of lube and the condom's package. He sat on the kotatsu as well and placed the things on the floor next to it.

Sakura seemed nervous at the sight, and although Togame didn't showed it, he was quite nervous himself.

Please don't fuck this up. He told himself and went back to Sakura.

He started kissing him slow yet passionate. Anyone could tell that love was conveyed that kiss. Then he introduced his tongue in Sakura's mouth, the other seemed to catch on quickly, for he lend him the space to explore his mouth and suck on his tongue.

Sakura was so lost on the kiss that he didn't notice the moment he had laid down on the mattress, only when he opened his eyes and Togame was above him.

"What do you want me to do?" He asked and Sakura felt like a prey before being devoured by something way bigger than him.

"…don't know."

"What did you say?" The other asked. "You need to speak louder, I won't do anything unless I know you want it first."

Sakura already knew that. That Togame was careful like that, but it was so embarrassing to ask him to do anything.

"Let's start simple: do you want me to take my clothes?" The eldest asked, noticing how difficult this was turning out to be for Sakura.

"…your shirt." He managed to say. Togame just smiled.

"Okay." He said and then he did.

It was like choreographed, at least that was the impression that was left on Sakura. He was stuck with the image of Togame taking his shirt in slow motion and then being ripped underneath it. Sakura wasn't self conscious about his physic, quite the opposite, but Togame was playing on the bigger leagues. Seeing him like that did things to him, specially in his lower area.

"Do you like what you see?" Togame smirked, almost like reading his thoughts.

"Shut up." Sakura said and went back for a kiss.

At first the kiss was violent, like everything Sakura did or tried to appear, but then Togame lead him into something softer, and calmer. Like there was no rush, and somehow that was even more attractive than the aggressiveness.

Togame was taking his time with Sakura and that was the sexiest thing the other could think of right now.

On the other hand, Togame was having the time of his life. He had Sakura right where he wanted him to be and so far things were going really good. Shall I try something else? He wondered.

He quickly found his answer in Sakura's eyes. They were begging for him to do something, anything, and he'd never say no to Sakura.

"You can touch me, you know." He said, after realizing Sakura hadn't taken off his eyes from his chest.

With a timid and shaky hand Sakura traced with his fingers different shapes across Togame's body. His chest was warm, just as his own was. Sakura didn't really know what to do with his hands, so traced with his fingers repeatedly over Togame's abs. The other was quite content with that, he wanted Sakura to gain confidence and finally do or ask for what he really wanted. Once Sakura was done Togame took the opportunity to again help him communicate his wishes. Only that this time he was more direct.

"Do you have any kinks?" He asked and the other immediately covered his face.

"…Sakura?" The eldest asked, like it was the most normal thing to do.

"You don't go asking people that!" He yelled, still with both hands on his face.

"No, of course not. I'm asking you because you are my partner, and I want to make you feel good."

Sakura wanted to be angry but he just couldn't. Togame was so polite and one of the few people who actually cared about he wanted.

"You don't have to answer, though."

"…it's gross, and stupid." Sakura managed to say. Togame uncovered his face and the other didn't resist.

"What is 'gross and stupid'?" He inquired and Sakura turned another shade of red.

Maybe I'm pushing too far, he wondered.

"…spit on it."

"Spit on what?" Now Togame was actually curious.

"My mouth…I'd like you to spit on it." Togame smirked.

"Is that so? Well, open wide." Even if he was utterly ashamed, Sakura closed his eyes and complied. He soon felt warm liquid pouring slowly into his tongue. He had always wondered how it felt, now he could said it was thrilling.

"Anything else?" Togame asked and Sakura partially opened his eyes.

"No…I'm fine." He was extremely excited by now, there was nothing he wanted more than to get in his own pants and stroke his member until he finally came. This said, he didn't want to look like a virgin, even if he was one, in front of Togame so he decided to endure this wanting for a while.

"Okay, my turn." The other said and kissed him profusely. When Togame was done with him he felt dizzy, probably because of that same kiss.

"Can I take your shirt off?" He asked for permission and Sakura just shook his head in affirmation.

"Alright."

He helped Sakura a bit to raise from the kotatsu and with the other's help he took of the shirt and threw it on the floor. Now we are even.

Togame then took a good look at Sakura's chest, the other just diverted his eyes. It was immaculate: no scars, no acne, no hair, no tattoos.

Just milk colored skin, and he definitely wanted to ruin that blank canvass.

He was leaving kisses and bites with no pattern until he stopped at the nipples. Togame started sucking the right one while massaging the other. At first Sakura didn't understand: he had no boobs. That was until it started feeling good.

Togame was sucking like he was waiting for something to come out of them, fully enveloping it with his mouth. Sakura felt perverted for just thinking so.

Sakura let this go on until the excitement was too much so he took a grasp of Togame's hair and pulled him off.

"Can you…switch?" He asked. The words came out of his mouth like he had just ran a marathon, but in reality he just allowed himself to be at Togame's mercy.

"You want me to do your other tit? Sure." The other said blatantly, yet aware of what his choice of words did to Sakura. He stared at him: face red and now chest red as well.

I know what you are doing. You're trying to hide, but I know you. He reasoned as Sakura covered his eyes with the back of his palm, trying to control his breath.

After taking a good shot, Togame decided to attack the other nipple. He repeated what he had been doing so far, meanwhile Sakura was letting go small gasps that were turning into shy moans. Togame was delighted and since things were going well, he decided to be a bit mean.

"Wow Sakura, I never though you would react like this. Do you like me sucking your tits, so much? Do you play often with them?" Let's see how do you like some dirty talk.

"I, I don't!" The other yelled in between gasps.

"So you don't like me playing with your boobs? I was beginning to enjoy myself."

Was that too mean? Togame asked himself.

"No! I mean. Ugh." Saying something coherent was getting harder and harder with Togame's sucking and massaging the already sensible nipple.

"I like it!" Sakura finally managed to said. Togame just smiled.

"Good boy." He said and laid next to Sakura, allowing the other to rest.

When Sakura opened his eyes he was faced with bright green eyes, that seemed like they've been staring at him this whole time.

"Are you okay?" Togame asked. He wasn't teasing him like before, right now it was genuine concern.

"I'm fine." The other answered. It was like Sakura was taking to two different people.

"Sorry if I went a little overboard. I got excited when you asked me to spit on your mouth."

"Don't say it like that!"

"Why not? Is it not what it happened?" Togame tilted his head confused.

"Yes, but please don't say it like that!"

"Okay, sorry. My bad, but you do know this will stay between us, right? I'd never tell anyone what you said or did." Those words seemed to scare away some fear he didn't even now he had until now.

"It's fine. I trust you, you can call my chest, whatever…" Sakura finally said, because if it was going to be between just the two of them he actually didn't mind. He felt was kind of exciting sharing with someone that side of him.

Hearing Sakura saying that, took the opposite effect in Togame: he was even more pent up than before. At first he had planned to hold down his desire for the other's sake, but right now sticking to the original plan was becoming much harder.

"Are you okay?" Sakura seemed to notice that something was going on with Togame.

"I'm fine. Don't worry about it." He tried to brush it off. Yes, that was the better idea.

"Okay, then. What do you want to do?" The question left Togame stunned. Was Sakura really asking that…?

"What do you mean, Sakura?Ha-ha." He tried to cover up how excited he was just by hearing those words. Sakura turned to stare directly at him.

"I asked what do you want to do." There was nor doubt neither shame in his voice.

"You don't have to do anything. This is not a exchange, you owe me nothing." That was the truth, at least Togame's truth. Nothing that he had been doing so far was to get something in return.

"But I want to." Sakura insisted, his big cat-like eyes staring at Togame. "I know I don't know a lot of things, but I can try." He was so sweet that Togame forgot for a minute how horny he was and embraced him with all strength and left kisses all over his face.

"What was that for?"

"For being so cute. Okay, let's try something." Togame said and Sakura blushed once again.

Fuck, fuck, what do I do? I want to do everything with him. Where should I start? Togame said for his insides.

He stared at the untouched lube and condoms, and back to Sakura.

"Can I finger you?" Neither of them was expecting what came out of the eldest mouth. They stared at each other in awe for a minute, and right before Togame could take it back Sakura spoke.

"Okay. What do I do?" He asked innocently. Togame wanted to eat him whole right on the spot.

"Just lay down like you've been doing." Togame instructed while reaching out for the lube. He then placed himself above Sakura. The other boy took off his pants and underwear doing as he was told.

He poured some lotion and then tried to heat it by rubbing his fingers. Sakura stared from below at every move Togame was making. He trusted him, but didn't know what to expect since it was his first time.

"Relax." The other said, probably reading the expression on his face.

"I'm relaxed." Sakura protested, even though he knew it wasn't the case.

"Okay, okay."

When Togame seemed to be ready he grabbed Sakura by the heel and asked if he could place his leg over his shoulder. Sakura was embarrassed by the petition but still agreed to it, so Togame did.

"Ready?" He asked Sakura, the other just shook his head, not really knowing what he was saying yes to.

At first, he felt something slippery where he figured would be his anus. He looked up to find out Togame was really focused on his task, so he tried to keep his breath steady and to trust his partner.

Sakura felt Togame spreading the liquid surrounding the area until he suddenly halted. The youngest searched for the other's eyes for an explanation. Togame smiled at him and asked for permission and after giving it to him, he felt the first finger in.

Sakura couldn't quite describe what he felt, but it was trying to force something big into something small. That was also exactly what Togame thought.

Fuck, he is so tight. Even after that. He realized he needed to pour more lube, if not he wasn't sure it could enter him, or worse, he could hurt Sakura.

"This may feel a bit cold but trust me, okay?" He asked before pouring the liquid directly on Sakura's entrance to then move his middle finger. Sakura's reaction told him that was indeed cold, but he soon grew accustomed to the sensation, and about Togame's finger, he was still getting used to it.

"That's it," he encouraged Sakura as he was attempting to make space and go further. "You are doing so well." The other was feeling a mix between shame and excitement. He already was feeling exposed and Togame's words only served as a reminder. Even so, he couldn't say he didn't like what his partner was doing.

Part of Togame still couldn't believe what was happening to him: below him was Sakura completely nude, flushed and marked, and all because of him. Not only that: every gasp or moan that left Sakura's lips was because he was penetrating him. Oh my god, oh my god, how can he feel this hot?? Sakura's insides were like set ablaze and he just had put his finger. How will it feel such heat around a cock?

Togame managed to maintain the movement even if his mind was somewhere else entirely. Just about when he was about to ask the other how was he doing, Sakura spoke.

"I think…I can take another." The Furin boy muttered. Togame just blinked twice and staring nowhere.

"Say something, you idiot!" Sakura protested kicking his back, and that was when he realized it wasn't his mind playing tricks. Sakura, shy and timid Sakura, had actually said those words. What the hell??

"Sorry, I will put another. Tell me if it's too much?" He said and the other boy just shook his head.

The second finger was even a tighter push. He struggled to make space but before he realized he was two fingers deep into Sakura. He scanned the other's face for any pain yet, there was none of that. Instead he was met with pure pleasure: Sakura had his eyes closed and was breathing through his mouth.

That only got Togame even more excited, so he pulled off both fingers at the same time.

"What are you-" Sakura was about to complain about the emptiness when Togame plugged the two fingers at once. The rest of the sentence was replaced with a long 'ah'. Togame just smiled as Sakura gripped the sheets and curled his toes in pleasure.

"Seems like you are having a great time," he teased as he lubed up again and pushed and pulled his fingers in and out of Sakura. Now that his hole was more stretched he could do it smoother and faster.

"What do you say baby? Is three a crowd, or can you handle one more?" He asked half-joking but also wanting to know how Sakura was doing. Togame knew if they were going to go all the way he needed to at least manage to fit three fingers inside Sakura, and although he was quite eager, he wasn't planning forcing anything onto his partner.

Sakura thew again his arm to cover his face.

His thoughts were a mess, even so it seemed that Togame's words, like his actions, were getting dirty and dirtier. He felt like any time now he could call him 'slut' or something like that. Worst of all, he felt embarrassed because probably he would like it.

Everything they had been doing so far felt dirty. Togame's fingers were in a place that he was taught that was dirty, but somehow the sentiment that it was wrong in some way made it feel way better. Like they were doing something forbidden, and even though he wasn't truly a rebel, that felt so good.

"Sakura?" Togame called, and the boy realized he had gotten way into his head.

"I'm okay." He answered immediately, the taller boy didn't seem very convinced.

"Are you sure? We can left here for today, or do something else." He suggested.

"No!" Sakura answered like an instinct. He loved that Togame was being so considerate, but he wasn't made of glass. Also, he had never felt so good before, he wanted to see this through its end.

"Okay, but let's try something else." Togame then pulled both fingers and lowered Sakura's leg. Sakura just stared at him, and allowed him to lead the way.

Togame then grabbed him by the tights and placed both his legs surrounding his own neck. Sakura's belly got heated at the bold action. After that Togame keeled on the floor and lowered his head until it wasn't on Sakura's sight anymore.

The Furin boy then felt it: something warmer and slimmer trying to make his way through his entrance. He was thrown aback when he realized what Togame was doing.

"Do you like it?" He raised his head to ask, letting his tongue hang on purpose, as trying to make Sakura even more flushed. He succeed in a way for Sakura couldn't do anything other than nod. Togame then went down again. Sakura could feel besides the other's tongue his thumbs massaging the area. Before he couldn't even fantom the idea of anyone doing that, much less doing it to him, but Togame was doing it and seem to be enjoying himself. That thought also got him hot, the idea of his partner taking what he wanted of him. The way Togame moved his tongue and thumbs was what actually was driving him crazy.

Togame sensed all the changes in Sakura's body. He seemed to enjoy more the fingering, but he knew this was also giving him pleasure. As for him, he was quite enjoying himself exploring every inch of Sakura's body without any restrictions so far. If it was up to Togame he would gladly lick all over Sakura's body when he was done with his hole.

Even so, his lower half had been demanding for his attention for a while now. Togame wanted to tease his boyfriend a bit more but felt the ache of forgetting his body's needs for so long.

So he decided what seemed the most reasonable: ensure Sakura would come before he could relieve himself.

"Sorry, baby." Togame apologized after pulling away from Sakura. "I'mma stop teasing for today and make you cum. Is that okay?" Sakura didn't seem very happy with the comment.

"What's wrong? Did I do something you didn't like?" Togame asked, worried. Did I push him too far? Fuck.

"You didn't do anything wrong!" The other exclaimed. "It's just, it's…"

"What happened?" Togame slowly approached his hand to Sakura's hair to comfort him, but Sakura grabbed his wrist.

"Aren't you going to fuck me in the ass??" He said so loud, that he immediately covered his mouth with his hands and turned red.

Togame was left frozen standing there. Eh? Had Sakura just said what I think he said? He wants me to fuck him in the ass?? With my dick??

"Eh, Sakura. Can you repeat what you just said?" Togame still couldn't believe what his ears had heard.

"No I cannot!" The other raised to sat in the mattress. "Listen, I know I'm naive, but even I know that! Plus you did everything, when do I get to do something myself?" The other pointed his finger at him. Had it been any other context, Togame would take Sakura's words deadly serious, but he was bare naked in his room, and his words had gone straight to his dick. Thank you god.

He pounced onto Sakura without any warning, surprising the other. He caught both his arms and lifted them above his head, but Sakura did nothing to free himself from the grasp.

"Why didn't you say it before, baby? I would've pounded into you way ago." Sakura's entire body colored red upon hearing such words. Ah, so beautiful.

"If you wanted my dick that bad you just had to ask nicely." Togame said leaving only one arm to grab Sakura's and using the other to undo his pants and take his member out of the boxer.

Sakura seemed to be in disbelief of the situation: one minute he was angry because Togame was teasing him way too much, and now he was about to get dicked down because he runned his mouth.

That was actually what he wanted, but seeing Togame's huge hand held his equally huge dick made him a bit nervous.

"As much as I'd love to see your face, I think you should turn around." Togame said, Sakura didn't completely understand what the other said, and his face probably betrayed him.

"I mean, you should get in all fours, it will be an easier fit." Togame explained, Sakura became redder but did as he was told. He didn't really like the idea of not seeing his partner, but he figured he knew better.

What he couldn't predict was how much exposed he would feeling in such position and naked. He felt like he was an animal waiting to be mounted, yet the more the shame the more excitement he felt. He figured he must be a bit fucked in the head.

Togame was wonderstruck by the view. Sakura in his hands and knees, waiting for him. He felt like an animalistic urge thorough him.

"Are you ready, baby?" He said next to Sakura's ear. "I didn't hear you" he said, holding his hips.

"'m ready." Sakura mumbled. Togame just smiled at that.

"Okay, let me know if it gets too much for you." Sakura was about to protest when he heard the sound of the package ripping and plastic being torn. He stood still, next thing he knew he had something hard knocking at his entrance.

It was bigger than Togame's fingers and tongue, and it hurt while he pushed against his hole. He tried to relax his breathing and endure the pain, he was tired of the princess treatment Togame had been giving him. He may be a virgin, but he was a man too, and most of all, he had been craving for his man's member for a while now.

Even if it was hard at first, the tip finally managed to force his entrance, which made Sakura relax. It still ached a bit but now he could feel a slimmery effect, probably of the condom.

"Sakura?" Togame calls.

"'m good."

"Alright, imma start moving." He just shook his head.

The tip is gone for a moment but immediately plunged back to him. It knocks the air out out Sakura when he actually realized Togame had managed to get deeper.

"Damn baby, you are tight but you still managed to make room for me. Such a good boy."

Togame pours more lube and continues to thrust against his hole. Sakura still grips the sheets tightly as Togame does with his hips. Sakura guesses he will find some bruises there afterwards.

While Sakura was worried if his body could take all of Togame's, Togame was worried he wasn't gonna last. Fuck, he still so tight.

Even after all that prep, Sakura remained a tight fit to say the least. If it were for Togame he would just be happy to come on Sakura's back or together or even him alone in the bathroom, but his boyfriend had other plans, and who was him to deny him the whole experience?

Still, it was hard to move inside Sakura, or at least not as easy as both of them would want.

Such a stubborn kid, he thought, as he was making an effort to slide in and out of Sakura.

"Hey, baby." He tried to catch Sakura's attention, "truth is I'm not gonna last long considering how tight you are and everything. So how about I help you cum and next time I can make you cum just from your ass. How about that?" Sakura had gotten chills, even though from heated everything was, just from hearing Togame.

Sakura might not want to admit it, but Togame was probably right. He barely had half of his partner's member inside of him. The idea he had of sex took more experience in reality, and he sure lacked on that.

"…fine," he agreed, not entirely convinced. That was until Togame spited on his hand and took a grasp of his member.

"Wha-" Sakura was about to ask when Togame started masturbating him, so instead of words a moan came out of him.

"Ah I guess it's not slippery enough." The older boy said, and a splash of lubricant fell onto Sakura's dick. Togame started with the friction again, only this time it slid better, so it was like Sakura was fucking Togame's fist instead.

Sakura didn't understand. He had done that to himself thousands of times, how could it be that different because it was Togame's hand? He didn't realized when, but at some point he stopped rationalizing it and just gave into the pleasure that he was being handed.

"Does it feel that good? You seem to be having a great time." Togame teased, without stopping the motion.

He, being the masochist he was, he hadn't taken out his dick out of Sakura, delaying his orgasm as much as possible. He was about to do so when he realized the walls enveloping his member were not putting as much pressure on it as they did before. Could it be? He tried pushing against Sakura once more and realized he was no longer stuck.

"Imma try something baby, tell me if you want me to stop." He warned Sakura, but the younger didn't answer, lost on the feeling. Sakura didn't care, as long as Togame kept moving his hand the way he had been doing it so far, the rest was all the same to him.

Because of that, this time Togame tried with less preoccupations. He pulled away his member away from Sakura, without stopping his already busy hand, and entered him again.

Both of them felt it: the slick slip. Togame then grinned.

"Guess both of us are getting what we wanted today, Huh?" He bited Sakura's ear, and before the other could complain or anything, he started to slip in and out again.

Sakura felt his body shake at the action. That's what he had been waiting for, he tried to tell Togame to stop the movement on his dick and focus just on his ass, but he just couldn't. His hand felt so good around him, he just could left small moans at every touch.

Lucky for him, Togame could do both. Even if it was poorly coordinated he managed to keep pleasuring his partner while making his way through his hole.

He could feel it get wider, and with a few more pushes, managed to get past the part where he was stuck.

Finally. If he was going to cum soon, he would do it proudly: with most of his dick inside his boyfriend's tight hole.

Just as he began doing Sakura, in both ways, he heard the breath of the younger get more agitated. Togame got scared at the sound, so he stop every movement all at once.

"Sakura, are you okay?" He tried to turn his face towards him. The other looked completely flushed and his breath showed he was getting tired.

"I, I, I…" The other struggled to find the words to explain himself. "I think, you should keep going from behind. It was…a bit much." He confessed. Togame felt guilty hearing those words.

"Are sure about that? It's okay, I think it was too much for today." Am I that fucking stupid? He felt like an imbecile, knowing that he had pushed his boyfriend to hard. Sakura took a deep breath before answering:

"Yes, I'm sure." He reassured Togame."I'm okay, I think both things at once were…to much for me…but I still want you, though." He spoke, timidly. Togame was relieved that it was just Sakura being overstimulated. He still thought he was a dumb-ass for not noticing before.

"Can we still, please?" Sakura asked, and Togame wanted to say 'no' that they should've taken things slower, but looking at Sakura pleading made him say 'yes' to his boyfriend's demands. They shared a quick kiss and returned to the positions where they had left off.

Somehow the thought of Sakura being hurt, had turn down his horniness, so on the bright side, he was glad he wouldn't come the second he entered Sakura.

It wouldn't be said the same for his boyfriend, though. Sakura was almost there, he was still all fired up from everything they had done, so he was so ready to see this through.

The second Togame entered him, the inexistent countdown towards his orgasm started again.

Togame started with slow thrusts, but as he noticed how much easier it was now, he set up a quicker pace. There was also the fact that the warmness and the pressure surrounding his member that got him going.

Shit, just like a dream come true, he thought as he thrusted harder into Sakura. He noticed that the more force he used, his boyfriend's moans grew louder, so he knew that at least was doing something right.

"Wow baby, you are making me feel so good. It's like this hole was opened up just for me," he told Sakura, being now aware of the effect the dirty talk had on Sakura.

"Shu..shut up!" The other protested, but felt his own dick get harder. He felt like the smallest touch could make him come right now. He didn't know how many thrust he could take before it happened.

Little did he know Togame was in a similar state. He wanted to hold on a bit more but it was all being to much for him.

"Fuck, love. I think I'm about to come." He confessed. Sakura could feel the need in his words, and any moment he was about to do the same.

"Then…do it." He just said, and that was what did it for Togame. Even through the condom Sakura felt the warm of his lover spilling into him in that final thrust.

Togame breath was agitated for a minute then he turned normal again.

"Baby, you are not done." It wasn't a question, but a statement. "Let me help you finish." Togame said, sending chills to Sakura's back.

"Okay."

"How do you want it?" Togame asked and Sakura felt silly. He didn't even know what options he had. He wouldn't ask for his partner's dick, he had just come. That would hurt him. He gave it a thought but one single thing came to mind:

"I want to look at you." Sakura asked, Togame just smiled at his petition. He pushed himself out of Sakura feeling much more sensible now, and removed the condom to tie it up and throw it somewhere in the room.

Then he turned Sakura around, just like they started.

"Hi." He said.

"Hi."

"Can I?" Togame asked, stopping staring to Sakura's beautiful eyes for an instant, to look down at other's member.

"Please." Sakura said, and Togame immediately let him know that he had understood the message.

He went for a simple kiss that Sakura eagerly corresponded. Meanwhile, his right hand had taken a grasp of his boyfriend's member and started moving his hand up and down.

Togame continued to kiss Sakura but with each stroke he noticed it was becoming harder and harder for the other to respond. Instead, Sakura had started to moan in Togame's mouth till he spilled on his lover's hand.

The other boy removed his hand from Sakura's dick right after it. He allowed his boyfriend to recover himself from the orgasm's effect.

Togame then stood and made a quick trip to the bathroom, while Sakura still had his eyes closed. He came back with some wet wipes, and started to clean himself and eventually Sakura.

"How are you feeling?" He asked when he realized Sakura had opened his eyes.

"Sore."

"I figured that much."He replied."Did you…like it?" Togame asked, worried that Sakura might now, with a clearer head, have regrets.

"…I did." Sakura said and Togame let out a sigh in relief. He wiped most of the fluids out of Sakura in silence with the other just staring at him. What would he be thinking?

"Did you?" Sakura's question caught him by suprise.

"Of course I did." What he wasn't planning was telling the other how much he had enjoyed it. Not right now at least.

"Alright, shall we take a bath? I left the water running." Togame asked.

"Okay." Sakura tried to stand but it was too quick and his knees failed him. He started to feel embarrassed again. After all, he wasn't a baby deer nor a weakling. He had taken beatings that would keep most people on the ground yet still managed to stand after it.

Luckily for him, Togame caught quickly on that.

"Sakura, can I ask for one more thing?"

"I guess…?" The other seemed confused by the request.

"Would you let me carry you to the bathroom?" Togame watched the other hesitate.

"Just this once." He asked.

"…fine." A warm smile appeared on Togame's face. The fact that Sakura had put his pride aside for him, made his heart beat faster.

He picked him up and after some complains from Sakura about being carried 'princess style' they went into the bath. Since the tub was small Togame was sat with his back against the tiled wall while Sakura laid on his partner's chest.

"Ah, Sakura. Happy white day." Togame rememberd.

"Um, thank you." Togame loved to watch how Sakura blushed over the smallest things.

"I hope you'll like your gift." Togame said and Sakura just stared at him disconcerted.

"Wasn't that the gift?" The other asked.

"No?? You thought so??"

"I..I…mean. You were the one who told me to "expect something!" The Furin boy yelled and crossed his arms completely embarrassed. He wasn't looking at Togame anymore.

"But, baby I didn't mean it like that!" The eldest tried to explain. He didn't want to end the day with Sakura mad at him. Aghhh, now you've done it. He cursed himself.

"I'm sorry Sakura. Don't be mad please, just for today."

"Why?" The other asked, his arms were no longer closed which Togame took it as a good sign.

"Because, it's our first anniversary. You asked me out on Valentine's Day." Sakura's eyes opened wide when he realized he had failed to remember that. He had been too nervous to remember it.

"Okay." He finally said, and laid back on Togame's chest. The other hugged him from behind.

"Thank you." He closed his eyes and tried to embrace the moment.

"I still want it, though." Sakura said, looking up.

"What?" Togame met his glance, a bit confused.

"The present, I still want it." He held Togame's stare, grey and yellow eyes meeting the forest green ones.

"Okay." He kissed Sakura's head and went back to enjoy the heat before the water got cold.