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zanka no matter how much he tried,after losing to hyo once he knew no matter how much he tried he couldnt beat her ever...at the end zanka was nothing but just a genius who got too much praise..
it was his fault to think he could ever reach the level kyouka and goka are at ,or even hyo..maybe thats it zanka,he just needed to be humbled..and reminded ..that no matter how much he tries,he cant escape the fact that hes just a faker...he can never be like them..no matter how much he tries.,compared to them its useless,things he practices a million times till he starts bleeding they can just learn it all in one try
the blood on his head trails down slowly from banging his head against the walls of his room..
god i wish i could disapper...maybe its not even a big deal,but it kills me from inside knowing i lost,everybody else lost to against her...but they dont matter...now all the efforts i put to come to where i was were simply useless,i know nobody would say a thing but i know as soon as i lost a single fight..something changed a bit...maybe they dont care,maybe to them it will just be a matter which could be forgetten in a day but for me,it wrecks me from the inside,the thought of even going infront of anyoen after losing wrecks me..i cant stand their eyes..the disappointment they probably had but dont name in front of me...god...kyouka and goka...what would they think...to have such a pathetic younger sibling...i must just be..a..dirt in the...nijku name...