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Yoshiwara in the afternoon was almost unrecognizable.
Tanjiro had only seen it at night, which was when it was what everyone said it was — the lights and the noise and the specific charged quality of a place running at full capacity for its intended purpose. In the day it was something quieter and older: the architecture visible for what it was, stone and timber and the careful craftsmanship of buildings built to last and to be seen. The streets had the quality of a place not yet dressed for the evening, the workers resting, the gates mostly closed, a few people moving between buildings on the ordinary business of maintenance and supply.
He had arrived with rice and vegetables and one of the daikon preparations that Aoi had suggested might be easy on a recovering stomach, which he had carried carefully on the long walk up.
The room they'd given Hinatsuru for her recovery was on the second floor of the house that had been the operations center during the mission. She was sitting by the window when the house's younger attendant brought him in, not in bed — she had been in bed, he suspected, for as long as she'd decided bed was necessary and had moved to the chair the moment it was reasonable to do so. She was working on something with her hands, some piece of maintenance work on her equipment, moving with the careful economy of someone whose body was still repairing itself and who was not going to let that stop her from being useful.
"Tanjiro-san," she said.
"Hinatsuru-san." He bowed, which felt right regardless of context. "I brought food. Aoi said the rice preparation should be — she was very specific about the rice preparation." He held up the container. "I wrote down everything she said in case I forgot something."
"You wrote it down."
"I was worried I'd remember it wrong and the preparation would be wrong." He produced a folded piece of paper from his pocket. "She made me repeat it back to her twice."
Something in Hinatsuru's expression shifted by the small degree that was its version of amusement. "Aoi-san is thorough."
"She's very thorough." He looked at the room — clean, orderly, the equipment she was working on laid out with the systematic neatness of someone who organized their workspace the way they organized everything. "How are you feeling? You don't have to say good if you're not."
She looked at him. "Better than two days ago," she said. "The wisteria poison has cleared. The injuries from Gyutaro's sickle are healing." She looked at the equipment in her lap. "It takes longer than I'd prefer."
"Recovery is supposed to take the time it takes," he said. "Tengen-san says that."
"Tengen says many things." She set down the equipment and looked at him with the calm attention she brought to most things. "Sit down, Tanjiro-san. You've been standing in the doorway."
He sat in the other chair, the one that had clearly been brought in as a second chair specifically because she was expecting people to visit. He put the food container on the table between them and worked through the process of setting it out the way Aoi had shown him, which involved more steps than he had expected from rice.
She watched him do this. "You're very careful about it."
"Aoi said if I rush the preparation it won't be as easy on your stomach." He finished the arrangement. "She said you'd be recovering from poison damage to the stomach lining and that the temperature and the—" he checked the paper— "consistency mattered." He looked up. "She knows a lot about this."
"She does." Hinatsuru accepted the bowl he offered with both hands, which was the correct way to receive something given with care. "Tell me about Zenitsu-san and Inosuke-san."
"Recovering too." He settled back in the chair with the ease of someone who had never learned to be uncomfortable with companionable quiet. "Zenitsu-san is complaining about everything, which apparently means he's improving. Inosuke-san tried to leave his recovery room yesterday and Aoi-san stopped him, and she was very firm about it." He paused. "She's very firm in general when she thinks someone is being medically irresponsible."
"That sounds like effective patient management."
"It is." He looked out the window — at daytime Yoshiwara, at the streets that were not what they were at night, at the architecture that was old and built to last. "I wanted to ask you something. If it's all right."
"Ask."
He looked at his hands. "When the mission started — when Tengen-san briefed us — he talked about what you'd all been trained to do. As kunoichi." He paused. "The three of you had already been in there for weeks before we arrived. Alone, undercover, not knowing when help would come." He looked at her. "How do you do that? The not knowing part."
She looked at the bowl in her hands, the careful rice preparation that had been brought by a boy who had written down every step because he was worried about getting it wrong.
"You do the work that's in front of you," she said. "The preparation before the mission, the information-gathering during it, the assessment of what you have and what you need." She looked at the window. "When you focus on the task, the not knowing becomes less than the doing."
"That's similar to what Urokodaki-san taught me," he said. "About fear."
"Most training arrives at similar principles," she said. "Because the principles are about what people actually are. What actually helps." She ate some of the rice with the focused attention she gave to things she was doing properly. "This is good."
"Aoi's instructions were very detailed."
"Thank Aoi-san for me."
"I will." He looked at Yoshiwara's daytime streets. "I didn't know it looked like this during the day."
"Most people don't see it in the day." She looked out the window with him. "It's different. It has been the same buildings for a long time. People have lived here through a great many things." She paused. "Knowing that helps sometimes. That a place has been through many things and continues."
He thought about his own home — the mountain, the house, the family that had been there and wasn't. He thought about the fact that the mountain was still there, that the house was still standing, that the place had been through something and continued.
"Yes," he said.
They sat in the daytime Yoshiwara, the recovering kunoichi and the demon slayer who had written down the rice preparation, in the specific quiet of a place that was not yet dressed for evening and was, in its undressed state, older and more itself than most people saw.
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