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The arena was too loud. 

Louis felt the bass before he properly heard it, the vibrations rising through concrete and steel to settle unpleasantly beneath his ribs. White lights swept endlessly over the crowd below, catching glitter, sweat, upturned faces shining with the particular ecstasy of mortals permitted proximity to something beautiful enough to ruin them. They screamed themselves ragged for a vampire who had once played piano for Louis through his large iPad screen, candlelight wavering gold across his face while rain battered the windows of his Montreal apartment.

It still unsettled him sometimes, seeing Lestat like this. Not the fame, because Lestat had always required attention the way fire required oxygen. What disturbed him was the scale of it. The noise. The sheer appetite of it all. The complete surrender of himself to spectacle.

Louis stood near the side of the stage unnoticed, hidden among cables and curtains and crew members too intent upon the machinery of the production to pay attention to one more figure lingering uninvited in the shadows. Lestat had spent months pretending Louis no longer existed except in interviews and songs pointedly written around the shape of him. A childish strategy, made worse by how beautifully he committed to it.

Onstage, the previous song dissolved beneath deafening applause. Lestat stood at the lip of the stage breathing hard, black silk clinging damply to the shape of his body beneath the lights. A silver necklace flashed intermittently at his throat whenever he moved. Sweat glimmered along the sharp line of his collarbone.

The crowd screamed his name back at him in a thousand variations. Declarations of love. Marriage proposals. Filthy invitations shouted with trembling sincerity. They called for him like parishioners begging a saint to bleed for them. Lestat grinned as though he could drink the sound itself.

"You've been beautiful tonight," he said into the microphone, voice roughened from singing.

The audience answered him with a roar. He pointed somewhere blindly into the dark beyond the lights and laughed. "Especially you, cher."

Louis felt a small pull of amusement threatening at the corner of his mouth. Lestat then turned toward the band behind him, gesturing toward each of them in turn while applause thundered again through the arena. The drummer, sharp-eyed beneath heavy black makeup, kept the rhythm of the last song alive beneath it all. The crowd kept dancing like a pulse refusing to calm while distorted metallic noise palpitated beneath the rhythm like a second heartbeat.

The vampire went still at the center of the stage, one hand hanging loose around the microphone while the other slid up across the curve of his throat, then over the slope of his shoulder. The lights started turning him red-gold and ruinous, and something anguished opened across his face so briefly it felt almost indecent to witness. Then Lestat bent forward, one hand curling hard against his own neck, as if to brace himself against the force of whatever was climbing through him.

Oh it feels like

The words came out rough, threaded with strain. He bent lower.

Oh it, oh it feels like-

The rhythm kept driving, unhurried and merciless. On the third repetition the drummer broke open into a rolling fill and the cymbals crashed three times in violent succession, each strike sharp enough to feel in the teeth. Lestat let out a long trembling ooh that seemed dragged from somewhere low and private, his body folding briefly inward before he was upright and something ecstatic overtook his face again.

Like pressure.

The song burst wide.

And it's bleeding over

The guitars tore into something ugly and ecstatic, all grinding industrial clang and feverish motion, and the crowd answered at once, surrendering themselves to it as though the music had reached into them and found the same hungry, aching place. Lestat moved with the impact of the sound as though the music itself had seized hold of his spine. His body snapped into the groove with feral precision, curls flying loose around his face while white strobes flashed hard enough to turn him momentarily spectral.

Louis almost recoiled from the sheer violence of the noise. It was too much, too loud, too physical in the way Lestat so often was when left entirely to his own impulses. And yet Louis could not look away.

Lestat danced as though the music had gotten beneath his skin, rings flashing silver beneath the lights as he prowled from one end of the stage to the other. His restless, feverish energy drew the audience along with the blind devotion of worshippers tracking a god's movement.

Mhm. Okay.

Suddenly Lestat vaulted off the stage into the crowd. The reaction was immediate. Bodies parted for him instinctively while security scrambled uselessly nearby. A cameraman stumbled towards him while Lestat stalked backwards, guiding the camera with deliberate focus while hands reached desperately from every side trying to touch him. Through the sea of grasping hands, he sang directly into the lens as the crowd screamed the lyrics back to him.

There's something about when we embrace

Like throwing a voice into a well

And how deep my love goes

I'm still waiting for an echo here, but I know

Hands reached from every direction, clawing for his face, his wrists, the damp silk hanging off his shoulders. Lestat pointed toward the camera with hungry deliberate focus, singing into the lens while he danced. Intimacy was a performance art he had long ago perfected.

When I walk, it's your way

When I breathe, it's your name

When I crave, it's your hands

When I dream, it's your face

Louis felt the familiar pull of recognition, the stupid instinctive certainty that Lestat was singing to him. Then the feeling soured because the expression on Lestat's face wasn't longing. It was memory.

And then it's bleeding over

Onto my jaw

Onto my neck

Pours out of my hands

He turned every private thing into spectacle eventually. Grief. Rage. Desire. Whatever this was. Louis wasn't entirely sure it was about love at all.

Louis folded his arms tighter across his chest while Lestat moved deeper into the crowd with loose-hipped confidence, dancing between mortals who nearly collapsed over one another for the chance to touch him. At one point he caught a woman by the hand and spun her, giving her the full force of his attention like a loaded weapon.

Something sharp moved through him. Not jealousy. Disgust, perhaps. Every hand reaching for Lestat suddenly felt irritating to witness. All these mortals staring up at him flushed and dazzled while he sang about devotion and longing and belonging to someone, as though they understood what they were hearing, as though they had earned it.

The irony of it might have been funny if it weren't so familiar. Lestat kept offering them the shape of intimacy and letting them mistake it for the thing itself. Worse, Louis already knew how this night would have ended if he hadn't come. Some pretty thing backstage trembling from proximity while Lestat laughed that beautiful careless laugh and let himself be adored for a few empty hours. A hotel room thick with sweat and perfume and whatever narcotic Dee let course through her blood after the set. Lestat sprawling half-drunk across expensive sheets pretending any of it was enough.

Louis watched him drag the camera close enough that the silver chain at his throat caught the lights, the extra length swaying as he moved. No. Not tonight.

Lestat climbed back onto the stage in one fluid motion as the song deepened into something darker and heavier. White strobes flashed so violently now that Louis caught him only in fragments. A grin. The sharp turn of his shoulders. The elegant arch of his back as he moved.

For a moment, the performance seemed to fall away.

When I come upon myself meeting eye to eye to eye to I do—

Lestat's gaze swept across the crowd. Thousands of faces beneath the lights. Thousands of eyes turned toward him. For a strange suspended second he seemed almost distracted by them, caught on something only he could see.

Lestat struck his chest once with the heel of his hand before dragging two fingers down himself in the sign of the cross. The words seemed to find him rather than the other way around.

I belong to him.

On him, his body opened into movement. Sharp rhythmic punches outward left and right, then upward and downward, one arm cutting through the air while the other stayed anchored close, his body spreading wide between motions as he surrendered himself completely to the rhythm. The crowd roared around Louis, distant now beneath the complicated ache settling low in his stomach. Christ. Lestat knew exactly what he looked like saying things like that. All flushed skin and wrecked curls and that silver necklace flashing against his throat while he moved like an attention mongering slut. The shameful part was that Louis wasn't entirely sure whether he was reacting to the performance or the confession buried inside it. Louis hated how easily his body answered him still.

The music pressed harder around the arena until it stopped feeling separate from the bodies beneath it. Instruments vibrating through concrete and bone alike while the crowd moved together in one feverish organism beneath the lights. Lestat was breathing hard now. His movements had grown sloppier, more frantic, as though the performance itself were beginning to consume him from the inside.

And then the song tore itself open. The entire arena seemed to rupture with it. The guitars splintered into something grittier, distortion skipping hard through the speakers while white lights exploded across the stage in blinding succession.

I keep giving it away

His breath caught.

'Cause I—

For a second it sounded as though the next breath might not come.

I got what it takes

The words ripped out of him anyway. Not sung. Dragged free.

I keep, I keep giving it away 'cause I, I got what it takes

Again. And again. Each repetition rougher than the last, as though he were forcing himself through something rather than performing it. Enduring it.

Lestat dropped hard onto his knees and crawled across the stage beneath the violent strobing lights while the audience lost whatever remained of its sanity. Louis stared. The sight should have embarrassed him. Instead he found himself just as transfixed as the mortals surrounding him because beneath all the noise and spectacle and writhing bodies, Louis could still see the awful vulnerability at the center of Lestat's performance. The terrible aching heart of him laid bare beneath thousands of hungry eyes.

The song began to burn itself out slowly after that, simmering down in layers. The distortion softened into something low and sizzling beneath the outro while the lights dimmed from violent white into deep violet. Lestat staggered upright near the edge of the stage, curls hanging damply on his face, his voice softening into something strangely distant. He reached out to the audience with unsteady grace, breathing hard while melted mascara darkened his eyes into something wrecked and decadent.

We drag— Our hands over the chalk meeting 

Eye to eye to eye to eye to eye we 

Drag our hands over the slate

The words lingered strangely after he sang them. Not because Louis understood them. He didn't. Not fully. It was the sensation of them that stayed with him. Chalk. Slate. Skin dragged over something cold, flat, unyielding. Contact without warmth. Touch without return. Louis could almost feel it in his own palm.

Onstage, Lestat's fingers flexed once at his side, elegant and restless. For a moment, his gaze slipped past the crowd entirely, eyes searching some distance the arena could not contain. Then it was gone. The grin returned. The movement returned. The audience screamed.

The final notes dragged long and ugly through the speakers, feedback whining softly beneath the slowing pulse of the drums. Then something in Lestat changed again. Not visibly enough for the audience to understand, but Louis saw it immediately. Confusion flickered briefly across his face. His head tilted slightly as though listening for something beyond the noise of the arena.

Another rhythm. Steady. Measured. Familiar enough to split him open.

Louis.

Buried beneath amplifiers and screaming mortals and the dying feedback of the song, Lestat could hear the slow unwavering beat of Louis' heart. And finally Louis could feel his in return.

Lestat's pulse still staggered from the violence of performance, quick and uneven beneath the fading echo of the drums. Yet slowly, almost desperately, it strained toward something steadier. Toward him.

The song fizzled into silence. The audience erupted into deafening applause, but Lestat barely seemed to hear it now. He stood motionless at center stage, chest rising sharply beneath sweat-dark silk while his heartbeat fought to come down from the frenzy. Only it was not settling into silence. It was trying to sync.

Louis turned and walked away before the house lights fully rose, before The Vampire Lestat could finish waving his theatrical goodnights to the crowd. He did not look back. Behind him, the arena still pulsed with noise and worship and reaching hands. But Lestat's heartbeat had already fallen into step with his.

The hallway outside the dressing rooms swarmed with bodies. Crew members rushed past carrying cables and equipment cases while security attempted unsuccessfully to maintain order against the tide of lingering mortals pressing toward the backstage corridors. The air smelled of sweat, perfume, spilled liquor, overheated stage lights. Somewhere farther down the hall somebody laughed too loudly. Somewhere else, a girl cried because he had almost touched him.

Louis moved through it swiftly. No one stopped him. Few people even seemed to properly register him at all. Their attention remained fixed toward the end of the corridor where the door marked LESTAT stood closed beneath dim amber lighting like the entrance to a chapel.

Inside, the dressing room was still vibrating faintly with the ghost of the concert. Low bass tremors pulsed through the walls while Louis looked around, surrounded by the wreckage of performance. The vanity was a little crime scene of excess: a littered ashtray, neat white lines of coke waiting untouched, half-empty glasses catching the amber light, mascara smeared into towels like bruises. A wardrobe stood open nearby, rummaged through in some frantic search for beauty or armor or both.

Louis leaned his back against the vanity, hands loosely resting against the counter. Outside, the crowd shifted suddenly. A wave moving through water. Then came Lestat's heartbeat. Still too fast. Still trying unsuccessfully to outrun itself.

The corridor erupted into noise at his approach. Someone laughed breathlessly. Someone else called his name begging for a picture. Louis remained still as his heartbeat drew closer. Uneven now beneath the fading adrenaline. Rapid one moment, slowing the next as though straining unconsciously toward another rhythm waiting nearby. Louis.

Voices crowded around Lestat in eager chaos outside the dressing room door. Louis could picture it easily enough without seeing it: strangers reaching for him, all bright eyes and trembling hands and flushed skin still warm from the ecstasy of the show.

Then another voice rose above the others.

"Les, where the fuck did you disappear to after the encore?"

Dee.

Louis had seen her before in photographs trailing as a right hand for Lestat during the tour across Europe and the States alike. Dee with her sharp cheekbones and heavy beaded necklace, her full lips smoking on something clove-scented and strong. One of the mortals Lestat preferred surrounding himself with now: beautiful, reckless, devoted enough not to ask questions they did not wish answered.

Lestat answered her distractedly. "Mm?"

"You look insane," she said, amused. "More than usual."

A small ripple of laughter answered her from the surrounding groupies. Lestat dragged a hand back through sweat-damp curls, only half-present in the conversation.

"You've got options waiting," Dee continued knowingly. "Blonde near the barricade's been crying since the third song. Thought you might enjoy that."

Another laugh, presumably from said blonde. Only silence followed.

Then Lestat said absently, "Not tonight."

Dee's expression shifted as she watched him. "Oh?" she asked, before letting out a breath, understanding immediately. "It's one of those nights." She wasn't judging or maybe she knew it was better not to so openly.

Lestat stepped away from her and stood directly outside the dressing room door to listen. Louis could hear him clearly through the wall now. The uneven rush of his pulse. The slight hitch in his breathing as recognition settled fully into him.

Inside the room, Louis crossed one leg slowly over the other and waited. The handle turned.

Lestat stepped inside still flushed from the stage, black silk hanging damp from his body beneath the amber light. His curls were wrecked around his face, mascara smudged dark beneath blown pupils still wide from adrenaline and blood and performance.

For one suspended moment neither of them spoke. The door clicked shut behind him.

"Louis," Lestat said quietly, disbelief softening the shape of his voice.

Louis lifted his gaze to him. "Lestat."

For a moment, the sound of their names was enough. Two old wounds recognizing each other across the room.

Lestat lingered near the door longer than necessary, caught suddenly between instinct and resentment. Louis sat composed beneath the warm light, jacket still immaculate despite the chaos outside, leaning back among the glittering ruin of Lestat's vanity with that impossible severity Lestat had spent months trying not to remember too vividly. It should have made the anger return immediately. The interview, the book. Instead Lestat could only stare at him.

"You were gonna bring one of them in here," Louis said at last.

Lestat blinked once. "I usually do."

The faintest amusement touched Louis' face. Not enough to soften him. "And tonight?"

Lestat's eyes traveled over him carefully now, slow enough to feel invasive. "Mm." He shrugged one shoulder. "Perhaps the blonde. She looked very eager to make a mess of herself for me."

Louis hummed softly. "And you would've let her."

"Of course." Lestat stepped further into the room at last. "I'm very generous after a performance."

Louis crossed the space between them before the sentence had even fully settled. Nothing abrupt in it. That was the terrible thing about Louis. The certainty of him. One moment Lestat still had enough air in his lungs to think; the next Louis' hand was at the back of his neck and the entire room narrowed violently around the contact.

"No," Louis said, his fingers tightening at the back of Lestat's neck. "I've heard enough."

The words landed somewhere deep in his body. Lestat felt his pulse slam hard against Louis' palm. The concert still rattled violently through him, the lights, the noise, thousands of mortals screaming his name, but Louis touched him and suddenly all of it collapsed inward until there was nothing left except this. Louis. Only Louis.

"Is that so?" Lestat asked. The mockery barely made it into the sentence. His voice came out thinned at the edges instead, almost breathless.

Louis rested his other hand against Lestat's chest, fingers spreading over the frantic beat of his heart. "Mhm." His hand rose from his chest to his jaw, thumb settling beneath his lower lip. "No more."

Lestat laughed softly under his breath. It sounded wrecked already. "You deciding things for me again?"

Louis stayed perfectly still, and Lestat leaned in anyway, helplessly drawn forward until their mouths nearly brushed. "I think you answered that when you came straight to me."

Louis pushed his thumb against Lestat's lips to expose his wet fang. His thumb pressed against the edge of the canine until skin split cleanly beneath it. The scent hit first, rich and dark and unmistakably Louis; then came the taste, blooming hot across Lestat's tongue before he could do anything but suck on it.

Lestat's eyes shut instantly. A broken little sound escaped him before he could stop it, his body tightening all at once around the sensation while instinct took over completely. His fingers twisted hard into the front of Louis' shirt as he sucked helplessly at the offered thumb, chasing the smallest trace of blood with humiliating desperation. Nearly a century away from this. One taste and his body remembered before the rest of him could.

"And you tried to stay away from me." Louis murmured.

Lestat opened his eyes slowly. "Cruel creature," he whispered, voice roughened almost beyond recognition. "To offer me so little."

"That's all you get tonight." Louis smiled.

Lestat was surely floating now. Louis was touching him again. Watching him with that unbearable focus that always made Lestat feel flayed open beneath his gaze.

"Mm," Louis murmured. "And you were about to settle for some stranger." His thumb pressed lightly against Lestat's tongue again. "After this?"

Lestat made a small, strangled sound around him. A faint curve touched Louis' mouth. "That's almost insulting."

Only then did he ease his thumb back, dragging it wetly over Lestat's lower lip. Lestat sucked in a shallow breath, lashes fluttering as though even that small mercy had unsettled him.

"You leave me alone too long and I become rather indulgent," he managed, attempting something light and careless.

Louis' expression barely changed. "Don't do that."

"Do what?" Lestat blinked faintly.

"Look at me like I've already forgiven you," Louis said, his bloody thumb resting on Lestat's lips. "I haven't decided yet."

Lestat's mouth curved faintly. "Dangerous assumption."

"You can lie better than that, baby," Louis said, his hand sliding from Lestat's jaw to tip his chin higher, forcing that ruined, wanting face fully into the light.

Something inside Lestat simply gave way. This was what he had been moving toward without admitting it to himself since the tour began, every city another attempt to put distance between them, every song another flare sent up in Louis' direction. He had been running from the ache and feeding it in the same breath, making whole arenas scream around the shape of what he would not say plainly.

Their foreheads touched gently. Every frantic thought dissolved into static while Louis stood perfectly steady in front of him, calm where Lestat had become all hunger and nerves and want.

"Funny," Louis said softly. "I almost expected half that set to be about me."

The words entered him like absolution as a helpless laugh caught in Lestat's throat at that, breathless and embarrassed all at once. "You listened."

The words came out smaller than he meant them to. Wondering, almost. Heat spread through him violently at the thought of Louis standing out there in the dark, listening not because he understood every wretched little thing Lestat had dragged onto the stage, but because he had come. Because he had stayed. Because even now, after everything, Louis had looked at him long enough to notice something the screaming crowd never would.

He wanted to kneel already. Wanted to put his face against Louis' throat and stay there until morning. Wanted, absurdly, to hear Louis tell him his songs were too loud, too much, too obvious. Wanted that cool, impossible little look Louis used to give him through a screen in Montreal before saying something unforgivable like it's nice, as though Lestat had not spent three nights obsessing over every note.

"Unfortunately," Louis said, fond despite himself. "You make it everybody's problem."

Louis leaned back just enough to take him in. "Stand still," Louis murmured. "I wanna look at you."

His hands moved slowly after that, possessively reaching for him. Louis undid the few buttons left remaining on Lestat's shirt one by one, careful and unhurried, until the sweat-cooled silk slid from Lestat's shoulders and pooled at his feet. Lestat did not move. Did not rush him. Only breathed harder beneath the quiet ceremony of being uncovered.

"You make such a mess of yourself," Louis murmured.

Lestat felt dizzy from it. From Louis touching him. Looking at him. Undressing him after months of absence as though none of it had mattered in the end.

Lestat was flushed everywhere now, skin still warm from the stage, mascara smudged dark around his eyes, his mouth parted faintly around the memory of Louis' blood. His silver necklace remained at his throat, thin and solid against all that pale skin, the long drop of it hanging straight down the center of his chest. It moved when he breathed.

Louis' gaze followed it. It was exactly the sort of thing Lestat would choose for himself. He reached up without asking, fingers closing lightly around the extra length of the necklace's chain, drawing it away from Lestat's skin just enough to feel the weight of it.

"Let them use this too?" Louis murmured. His eyes flicked up, watching him.

Lestat's mouth curved faintly at one corner, something sharp and a little breathless slipping through. "I just thought it was pretty, no?" he said. His gaze dragged slowly over Louis' face, deliberate now. "Better than anything you ever imagined me in."

Louis huffed something that wasn't quite a laugh. Still holding the chain, he let it slide once between his fingers, slow, testing the way Lestat followed the movement without meaning to.

"Pretty," Louis repeated. His thumb brushed the hollow of Lestat's throat beneath it, feeling the pulse there jump. "All this just to get somebody's attention?"

Lestat swallowed. The chain shifted with it. "Mhm," he murmured, watching Louis through half-lowered lashes. "But you look good holding it."

Louis' expression didn't change. Instead, he wound the loose length of the chain once around his fingers and drew Lestat a fraction closer. Not enough to force. Just enough to make the distance disappear. Lestat's breath caught anyway.

Louis watched him for another second, something assessing in his gaze, something deciding. Then his other hand came up to settle at Lestat's waist as he stepped fully into his space. Lestat's mouth curved instantly.

"There you are," he murmured, pupils blown wide. "I knew you were in there somewhere."

Louis ignored that. Mostly because he liked hearing it too much. Outside, the crowd still roared faintly through the walls, thousands of mortals still staggering around drunk on The Vampire Lestat. The cameras. The screaming. The endless reaching hands. And Lestat, high-eyed and sweat-damp and impossible, stood here looking at Louis as though that had all merely been foreplay.

Louis' hand slid around his waist fully now and Lestat reacted immediately, hips shifting forward before he could stop himself. Ah. Well there he was.

"Don't act surprised," Louis said quietly. "You've spent a century trying to drag this out of me."

Lestat laughed under his breath. A dangerous sound. "And you've spent just as long pretending it wasn't there."

Louis' grip tightened, nails piercing hard enough to almost break through skin. Lestat leaned into it instead of away.

"You like this," Louis murmured.

Lestat tilted his head lazily against the chain in Louis' hand. "I like you. Different affliction entirely."

The arrogance of it should have been irritating. Instead Louis felt heat move low and sharp through his stomach. Lestat could sense that too. His arms slung lazily around Louis' shoulders now, loose at first, then firmer as he leaned into him like he belonged there.

Louis could feel the lingering adrenaline still burning through Lestat beneath his skin, tangled now with whatever he'd smoked before the show, leaving him fever-bright and overstimulated and just reckless enough to smile through it all.

"You were awful tonight," Louis said quietly.

Lestat's grin widened. "And you came anyway."

Louis bit his lip, something had changed in his expression. Less smug now, more open, something bruised beneath all the bravado. The grin faded from Lestat's mouth slowly, not disappearing entirely so much as softening at the edges. For one suspended moment neither of them moved.

Louis could feel Lestat's heartbeat beneath his hand. Still fast and wrecked from the stage, from seeing Louis again. Lestat's eyes dragged over Louis' face with unbearable focus. God, he had missed this. Missed him. The sharpness of him. The hunger. The terrible relief of standing this close as someone who had always known exactly what Louis was and wanted him more for it.

The weight of Lestat's arms settled more fully across his shoulders, easy and possessive, like returning to something he had never once doubted belonged to him. Somewhere between one breath and the next, Louis realized his heartbeat had fallen into rhythm with Lestat's heart.

Louis leaned in first and Lestat met him halfway. The kiss landed hard and immediate, all collision and recognition after months of distance. Lestat made a rough sound against his mouth the second it happened, something almost wounded in its relief, and then his hands were fully around Louis, dragging him closer with impatient strength while Louis let go of the chain entirely to grip at his waist with both hands.

Louis had craved to have this back. Not the performer or the spectacle. Just Lestat. Warm and overwhelming and kissing him like he had been starving.

Louis bit into his lower lip hard enough to feel him gasp before kissing him deeper, swallowing the sound down greedily. The taste of smoke still lingered faintly on his tongue beneath blood and sweat and something unmistakably Lestat. It went straight to Louis' head.

One hand slid into Louis' hair while the other pressed flat between his shoulder blades, broad body folding over him until Louis was nearly trapped against him completely. Louis felt the weight of those shoulders surrounding him, the heat of him, the lingering tremor still moving through his muscles from the concert.

Lestat’s slacks had suddenly become intolerable to both of them. Louis' gaze dropped, and he couldn't help but stare at the obscene outline pressing against the fine black fabric—thick and heavy and unmistakable. A century. A literal century since he'd had this, since he'd felt the weight of Lestat inside him, and his body remembered with a visceral ache that made his cock throb.

Louis grabbed at the waistband impatiently, dragging Lestat closer between his knees while their mouths kept crashing together unevenly. His fingers found the button, the zipper, working them open with hands that trembled just slightly, showing the only betrayal of how badly he wanted this.

"Careful," Lestat murmured against his mouth, breathless now, but the word came out strained, desperate.

Louis didn't answer. He shoved the slacks down Lestat's hips roughly, and the fabric caught on the thick jut of his cock before sliding free. Lestat was bare beneath, nothing between him and the expensive fabric, and Louis felt heat coil violently in his belly at the sight.

Lestat's cock stood heavy and flushed between them, thick enough that louis' mouth went dry. The head was dark and slick with precum, and Louis watched a bead of it slide down the shaft, tracing the prominent vein there. He'd forgotten, or maybe he'd forced himself to forget, just how big Lestat was. How he'd always filled Louis so completely it bordered on too much.

His hand moved before he could think better of it, wrapping around the base. The heat was immediate and overwhelming, the weight of him solid and real in louis' palm. Lestat's breath punched out of him, hips jerking forward involuntarily, and Louis felt the thick pulse of blood beneath velvet-soft skin.

"Louis—" Lestat's voice broke on his name.

Louis stroked once, slow and deliberate, feeling every inch of him. His thumb swept over the head, gathering the slickness there, and Lestat made a sound like he'd been gutted. "A century," Louis murmured, his own voice rough now, unsteady. "Do you have any idea—"

He cut himself off, jaw tightening, but his hand kept moving. Firmer now. Possessive. His cock ached in his pants, hard and leaking, and he could feel the damp spot spreading against the fabric. His body was betraying him, showing Lestat exactly how much he'd missed this, how much he needed it.

Lestat's hips rolled forward, chasing the friction, and his hands came up to grip louis' shoulders. "I know," he gasped. "God, Louis, I know—"

Louis stroked him again, feeling the way Lestat's cock throbbed in his hand, hot and heavy and perfect. He leaned in and bit at Lestat's jaw, tasting salt and sweat and stage makeup. "You walked out there in front of thousands with this," Louis said against his skin. "Wearing nothing underneath. They could see you."

"Let them," Lestat breathed. "Let them see what's yours."

The words hit Louis like a physical blow. His hand tightened, and Lestat's head fell back with a broken moan. Louis could smell his sweat and musk and arousal, thick and heady in the air between them. Could feel the heat radiating off Lestat's body, the way his muscles trembled beneath louis' touch.

"Mine," Louis repeated quietly, and something in his chest cracked open.

He released Lestat's cock and stepped back, putting space between them. Lestat's eyes tracked the movement, dark and wild and desperate, his cock standing obscenely between them, thick and flushed and dripping.

"Go on," Louis said, his voice steady despite the way his hands shook.

Lestat sank to his knees without hesitation, graceful even in surrender, and Louis felt his breath catch at the sight of him like that. Lestat on his knees, looking up at him with dark eyes and parted lips, his cock jutting heavy between his thighs, still hard and leaking.

Louis reached for the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head, letting it fall. Lestat's hands moved to his belt, working the buckle with steady fingers, then the button, then the zipper. The sound was loud in the quiet room. Lestat slid the fabric down his thighs, and was left staring at the shape of Louis through cotton, already hard, already waiting.

Lestat leaned forward and pressed his mouth against the fabric, right over the head of louis' cock. He inhaled deeply, breathing Louis in, and the intimacy of it, the raw want in that single gesture, made louis' fingers curl against his own thigh. He could feel the heat of Lestat's breath through the cotton, could feel the way his own cock jerked in response.

Then Lestat hooked his fingers into the waistband and pulled, freeing louis' cock. It stood thick and flushed between them, and Lestat's tongue darted out immediately, catching the bead of precum at the tip, tasting salt and copper and something unmistakably Louis.

The sound he made was low and hungry, and then he was taking Louis into his mouth. Slow, reverent, his lips stretching around the thick head. He hollowed his cheeks and sank down, taking him deeper, feeling the weight of him on his tongue.

He looked up, eyes locked on louis' face, dark and hungry and worshipful all at once. He wanted to see everything. Every flicker of pleasure, every tightening of louis' jaw, every breath that caught in his throat. He needed it. Needed to know he was doing this right, that Louis was feeling this, that he was the one making him feel it.

Louis stared back, his hand coming to rest in Lestat's hair. Not pulling. Not guiding. Just holding him there, fingers threading through the damp strands, gentle and still. But his hips shifted forward slightly, just a fraction, betraying the control of his hand.

Lestat moaned around him, the vibration traveling up louis' cock, and he saw the way louis' lashes fluttered, just for a second. Saw the way his lips parted on a breath.

He took him deeper, working his tongue along the underside, tracing the thick vein there, tasting every inch. His hands gripped louis' thighs, holding on, and his own cock throbbed untouched between his legs, so hard it ached, precum dripping steadily onto the floor. But he didn't care. This was what he wanted. This was what he needed.

louis' fingers tightened in his hair, just slightly, and Lestat's eyes went glassy with need. He sucked harder, faster, desperate to pull more of those quiet sounds from louis' throat. Desperate to taste him, to have him, to prove that he still knew exactly how to make Louis fall apart.

"Lestat," Louis said quietly, his voice rough, strained.

Lestat let out a strangled groan, eyes still locked on his face, pleading without words. His own hips jerked forward involuntarily, his cock leaking steadily, untouched and aching.

louis' thumb brushed against his temple, and then he pulled. Lestat came off with a wet sound, his lips swollen and slick, panting. Louis guided him up with gentle pressure, and Lestat rose on shaking legs. They moved together toward the couch, louis' hand still in his hair, guiding him.

Lestat sank onto the cushions, and Louis stood before him, naked and composed, his cock still hard and glistening. Lestat opened his mouth, clearly intending to make a joke. Nothing came out. Instead, Lestat's hands shot out, closing around louis' wrist before he could think better of it.

"Let me have you," Lestat whispered, his voice rough and unsteady, something fragile threaded through it now, something that had nothing to do with performance and everything to do with need. "Please, Louis. It's been—God, it's been so long—"

He turned his head and pressed his lips to louis' palm, kissing the center of it, then the inside of his wrist where the veins ran blue beneath brown skin. He lingered there, helplessly, his mouth warm against louis' pulse. His cock was still hard between his legs, thick and heavy and dripping, and he didn't care that Louis could see how desperate he was.

Louis stilled. For just a moment. Something in his expression shifted. Not softened, not quite, but deepened, the edge of something darker settling behind his eyes as he watched Lestat like that, felt the way he held onto him. His own cock twitched, still hard, still aching, and he could feel the answering need coiling tight in his belly.

Then his fingers curled slightly against Lestat's jaw, guiding his face back up. "You already do," Louis murmured softly, his voice betraying him.

Louis watched him for a moment longer, thumb brushing once beneath Lestat's lower lip. Then he moved, swinging one leg over Lestat's hips, straddling him. The heat of louis' body settled against him, and Lestat's hands came up instinctively to rest at louis' waist, feeling the warmth of skin beneath his palms.

Louis reached between them, wrapping his fingers around both their cocks, stroking them together. The friction was maddening, and Lestat's head fell back against the couch with a broken sound. Louis could feel the thick heat of Lestat's cock against his own, could feel the way it pulsed and leaked, slick and heavy. His own body responded immediately, hips rolling forward, chasing the pressure.

He leaned forward and kissed Lestat, deep and slow, and Lestat kissed back with everything he had. Desperate and tender and aching all at once. His hands slid up louis' sides, feeling the lean muscle there, the way louis' body moved against his. His cock throbbed between them, trapped against louis', and he could feel the slickness spreading, could feel how wet they both were.

When Louis pulled back, Lestat's eyes were glassy, his lips swollen. "I knew you'd come collect me eventually," Lestat murmured, studying him with infuriating certainty.

Louis looked at him for a long moment, his hand still working them both, slow and deliberate. Then he reached for the bottle of lube on the side table. His thumb rolled absently over the label. He found himself picturing how the night would have gone if he hadn't come. Not tragically. Not romantically. Just predictably. Another body. Another attempt to outrun whatever had followed Lestat onto that stage. Louis felt a flicker of irritation so sharp it made his jaw tighten. As though that had ever been enough.

Louis tore two of his sharp nails off with quick, efficient movements, then popped the cap of the lube open and squeezed a generous amount onto his fingers. Lestat felt his length throb from under Louis' ass, felt the slickness of his own precum smearing between them.

He leaned back slightly, balancing on one hand against Lestat's chest, feeling the rapid drum of that undead heart beneath his palm. With the other hand, he reached between his own legs, fingers slick and cold, and pressed one digit inside himself with a controlled hiss.

Lestat watched, transfixed, his hands tightened on Louis' waist, but he didn't move, just watched with dark, hungry eyes as Louis worked himself open.

"Let me," Lestat said quietly. "Please, Louis, let me—"

Louis' free hand came up and caught Lestat's wrist, stopping him. Their eyes met, and something passed between them. A challenge, maybe, or a question.

Then Louis added a second finger, stretching himself with practiced ease. His jaw tightened, his thighs flexing as he found the rhythm that suited him. The lube squelched obscenely in the quiet room. Lestat's cock twitched against Louis' ass, trapped between their bodies, slick with precum and desperation.

Louis added a third finger, and Lestat couldn't help it. His hand shot out and grabbed Louis' wrist, stilling the movement. For a moment, Louis' eyes flashed with something dangerous, but Lestat didn't back down. He guided Louis' fingers deeper, his own hand taking over the rhythm, moving Louis' fingers in and out with deliberate precision.

"Louis..." Lestat murmured, his voice low and rough. "You know that's not enough."

A shiver ran through Louis. His eyes slipped shut for a moment as he fought for composure and immediately lost it. He didn't pull away. Didn't argue. He let Lestat set the pace of his fingers, and by the time Lestat finally eased back, Louis was slick, open, and breathing harder than he meant to.

Louis withdrew his hand slowly, his fingers glistening with lube, and wrapped them around Lestat's cock. The thick heat of him pulsed in louis' palm as he stroked once, twice, coating him thoroughly. Lestat's hips jerked forward involuntarily, a desperate sound escaping his throat.

Louis positioned himself carefully, rising up on his knees. He guided the thick head of Lestat's cock to his entrance, feeling the blunt pressure there, and paused. For just a moment. His heart was racing, his body trembling with anticipation and need and something that felt dangerously close to fear. A century. A literal century since he'd had this.

Then he began to sink down.

The stretch was immediate and overwhelming. louis' breath punched out of him as the thick head breached him, forcing him open inch by agonizing inch. His body resisted instinctively, too tight that he had to pause, trembling, his thighs shaking with the effort of holding himself there.

"Mon Dieu," Lestat gasped beneath him, his hands flying to louis' hips, gripping hard enough to bruise. "Louis—Louis, you feel—"

Louis sank lower, taking more of him, and the sensation was so intense it bordered on pain. Lestat's cock was thick and hard and relentless, stretching him wider than he remembered, filling him so completely he could barely breathe. He could feel every ridge, every vein, the way Lestat pulsed inside him, hot and alive and desperate.

"Fuck," Louis choked out, his voice breaking on the word. His hands gripped Lestat's shoulders, nails digging in, and he forced himself to take more. The burn was exquisite, the fullness overwhelming, and his cock jerked between them, leaking steadily onto Lestat's stomach.

Lestat was shaking beneath him, his whole body trembling with the effort of holding still. "Louis," he gasped, his voice wrecked. "Mon coeur, mon amour—you're so tight, I can't—"

Louis sank down further, taking him deeper, and a broken moan tore from his throat. He could feel Lestat everywhere, stretching him impossibly wide, filling him so completely there was no room for anything else. The heat was overwhelming, the pressure building in his belly, and he wasn't even moving yet.

Finally—finally—louis' ass met Lestat's hips, and he was fully seated, Lestat buried to the hilt inside him. They both went still, breathing hard, and Louis could feel the way Lestat's cock throbbed deep inside him, could feel his own body clenching around the thick intrusion, trying to adjust.

"Mon Dieu," Lestat whispered again, his eyes glassy with need. "A century, Louis. A century and you still—you feel like—"

Louis began to move before Lestat could finish. He rolled his hips in slow, deliberate circles, and the sensation was so intense he saw stars. Lestat's cock dragged against something inside him that made his whole body jerk, pleasure sparking up his spine like lightning. Louis let out short gasps, his movements becoming less controlled.

He picked up the pace, rising up and sinking back down, taking Lestat deeper with every roll of his hips. The wet sounds of their bodies joining filled the room, obscene and desperate. louis' cock was trapped between them, sliding against Lestat's stomach with every movement, leaving trails of precum across his skin.

Lestat's hands gripped his hips harder, guiding him, helping him move. "That's it," he gasped, his voice rough and broken. "That's it, mon cher, take what you need—"

Louis rode him harder, faster, chasing the pressure building in his belly. His thighs burned with the effort, sweat sliding down his spine, but he couldn't stop. Months of separation, a century of missing this, of pretending he didn't need it—all of it was pouring out of him now in desperate, frantic movements.

His rhythm faltered, became erratic, and he could feel his orgasm building impossibly fast. Too fast. His body was oversensitive, overwhelmed, every nerve ending sparking with too much sensation. Lestat's cock was so deep inside him, hitting that spot with every thrust, and his own cock was leaking steadily between them, achingly hard.

"Louis—" Lestat gasped, his hands gripping at louis' sides. "Louis, please, I need—"

"Shh," Louis breathed, his voice rough and desperate. "Just—just let me—"

He rode Lestat harder, his movements becoming wild, uncontrolled, and then he was coming. His whole body went taut, back arching, and he spilled between them with a choked cry that was almost a sob. His cock pulsed against Lestat's stomach, painting his skin with hot streaks of cum, and his body clenched tight around Lestat's cock, gripping him like a vice.

The orgasm tore through him with devastating intensity, pleasure so sharp it felt like breaking apart. His hands gripped Lestat's shoulders hard enough to draw blood, and he rode out the waves, his hips still moving in shallow, helpless thrusts.

Lestat watched him, transfixed, his own need so overwhelming he thought he might die from it. Louis was beautiful like this—flushed and undone, his lips parted on gasping breaths, his eyes squeezed shut, his whole body trembling. Sweat gleamed on his skin, and Lestat could see the evidence of his release painting his stomach, could feel the way louis' body still clenched around him in aftershocks.

But Louis didn't stop. He kept moving, kept rolling his hips even as his body trembled with oversensitivity, and Lestat realized what he was doing.

"Louis—" Lestat's voice cracked. "Louis, you don't have to—"

"I want to," Louis gasped, his movements becoming more desperate, more frantic. His cock was still half-hard, trapped between them, and every roll of his hips sent sparks of pleasure-pain through him that made him whimper. But he didn't stop. He couldn't stop. "I want—I need—"

Lestat's control finally shattered. His hands flew to louis' hips, gripping tight, and he thrust up hard, burying himself deeper. Louis cried out, his nails digging into Lestat's shoulders, and Lestat did it again, and again, driving up into him with desperate, punishing force.

"Yes—" Louis gasped, his head falling back. "Yes, Lestat, please—"

The wet sounds of their bodies joining grew louder, more obscene. Lestat could feel how slick Louis was, could feel his own precum mixing with the lube, making every thrust easier, deeper. louis' body was opening for him beautifully, taking him so perfectly it felt like coming home.

Lestat rose abruptly, taking Louis with him as though the movement were instinct. Vampire strength made it effortless, even with his body still trembling from everything that had come before. Louis barely had time to register the shift before Lestat was guiding him backward onto the couch, broad shoulders caging him in, one hand braced beside his head.

Louis beneath him. Hair disheveled. Mouth swollen from kissing. Eyes half-lidded and unfocused in a way Lestat almost never saw. The sharp edges had gone out of him for once. No clever remark waiting behind his teeth. No guarded look. No effort to conceal what he was feeling. Just Louis, warm and loose beneath him, breathing hard and no longer carrying the entire night on his shoulders.

The sight hit harder than anything else that night. The terrible privilege of being allowed to see him like this.

Lestat made a rough sound low in his throat and kissed him hard, desperate enough to steal the breath from them both. When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested briefly against louis', eyes squeezed shut as though he was trying to survive the feeling of him.

"Please," he whispered, voice breaking around the word. "Mon amour, please—"

louis' hand slid into his hair. The answer was immediate. "Yes."

Relief flashed across Lestat's face so nakedly it hurt to look at. He kissed Louis again, fierce and grateful all at once, as though every mile between them, every unanswered call, every miserable month apart had led back to this moment.

When Lestat pushed back into Louis, the sound he made was inhuman—relief and pleasure and something close to worship all tangled together. He pulled back and thrust again, deeper this time, his hips rolling in a rhythm that was desperate but tender, needy but reverent. His hands were everywhere now, cupping louis' face, sliding down his sides, gripping his thighs. Touching him like he'd been starving for it.

"Louis," he gasped, his voice breaking. "Louis, mon coeur, mon cher—tu me rends fou—"

Louis pulled him down into another kiss, swallowing whatever words were trying to escape, and Lestat drove into him harder, deeper, his whole body trembling with the force of it. It was everything. The heat and the friction and the way Louis' body opened for him, the way Louis' hands gripped his shoulders, the way Louis' breath hitched on every thrust.

The wet sounds of their bodies joining filled the room, punctuated by their gasping breaths and broken moans. Lestat could feel the sweat sliding down his spine, could feel louis' legs trembling around his waist, could feel how impossibly tight Louis still was around him despite everything.

Louis was oversensitive, every nerve ending raw and sparking, and the feeling of Lestat inside him—thick and hard and relentless—was almost too much. But it was also exactly what he needed. He could feel another orgasm building, impossible and overwhelming, and he chased it, his legs wrapping around Lestat's waist, pulling him deeper.

"Lestat—" Louis gasped, his voice high and desperate. "Lestat, I'm—I can't—"

"Yes you can," Lestat whispered, his rhythm becoming erratic, losing control. "Come for me again, Louis, please, I need to feel you—mon amour, s'il te plaît—"

He reached between them, wrapping his hand around louis' cock, and Louis cried out, his whole body arching off the couch. Lestat stroked him in time with his thrusts, rough and desperate, his hand slick with louis' earlier release.

louis' second orgasm hit him like a freight train. It tore through him with devastating force, more intense than the first, breaking him open completely. He came with a broken sob, his body convulsing, spilling over Lestat's hand and his own stomach in hot, pulsing waves. His vision whited out, pleasure so intense it felt like dying, and his body clenched impossibly tight around Lestat's cock.

"Mon Dieu—" Lestat choked out, feeling Louis clench around him like a vice. The sensation was too much, too perfect, and his control shattered completely.

He buried himself deep with a choked cry, his whole body going rigid as his orgasm crashed through him. He came hard, spilling inside Louis in hot, pulsing waves, filling him completely. The pleasure was so intense it bordered on pain, a century of waiting and wanting and needing finally released in one devastating moment.

"Louis—" he gasped, his voice wrecked. 

He collapsed forward, his face buried in louis' neck, his hips still moving in shallow, helpless thrusts as he rode out the aftershocks. He could feel his release leaking out around his cock, could feel how wet and messy they both were, could feel louis' body still trembling beneath him.

They stayed like that for a long moment, tangled together, breathing hard, Lestat's weight pressing Louis into the couch. Lestat's face was still buried in Louis' neck, and Louis could feel the dampness there, tears or sweat or both.

"I missed you," Lestat whispered against his throat, so quiet Louis almost didn't hear it. 

The words hit harder than they should have. louis' breath caught, his fingers tightening involuntarily in Lestat's hair before he forced them to gentle again. He'd spent months telling himself the separation was necessary. Strategic. That he could wait Lestat out, let him exhaust himself on stages and crowds and whatever hollow substitutes he'd found. That Louis could remain untouched by it all.

He'd been lying. 

"I know," Louis murmured, his voice rougher than he intended. His other hand came up to rest against Lestat's back, feeling the warmth of him, the realness of him. "I'm here." 

The relief that flooded through him at saying that was almost frightening in its intensity. He was here. He'd come. After all the months of silence and distance and pretending he didn't care, he'd walked into that arena and claimed what was his. 

Lestat shifted against him, settling more fully, and Louis let his eyes close. The weight of Lestat's body was achingly familiar, grounding in a way nothing else had been for months. Louis had forgotten what it felt like to be still like this. To not be carrying everything alone. To let someone else's breathing sync with his own.

His fingers continued their slow path through Lestat's hair, and he felt something in his chest crack open wider. God, he'd missed this. Not just the sex—though that too, obviously—but this. The quiet after. Lestat soft and unguarded against him, finally at peace in a way he never was anywhere else. The privilege of being the one who got to see him like this. 

Louis looked down at Lestat's face, half-hidden against his chest. His breathing had evened out, his lashes dark against his cheeks, his mouth slightly parted as he listened to louis' heartbeat. The restless, desperate edge had finally gone out of him, and Louis felt his throat tighten at the sight. 

This was what he'd been running from. Not the old rage. Not the silence he’d built so carefully around himself. Not even the beloved ghost at the center of his life he’d grown accustomed to carrying. This. The terrifying certainty that Lestat still belonged to him, and he to Lestat, no matter how many months or miles or mistakes stood between them. 

Louis sat with that for a while, feeling the weight of it settle. I'll stay, he thought. The decision arrived without ceremony, but it felt monumental all the same. For a while. 

He wanted to see Daniel's production. To watch the interview unfold. To see what version of himself Lestat offered the cameras this time. And if he happened to be waiting in the wings when it happened, so be it. That felt important somehow. Like staking a claim that had nothing to do with possession and everything to do with presence.

There was also her. louis' jaw tightened slightly at the thought. Gabrielle. Lestat's mother lingered at the edges of all this like smoke, and Louis hadn't worked out yet what that meant. He could feel the shape of her influence everywhere: in the choices Lestat made, in the strange confidence he'd returned with, in the parts of himself he still kept carefully hidden. That worried him more than the book had at this point. 

But beneath the strategy and the concerns and the careful cataloging of what came next, there was something simpler. Something that felt dangerously close to contentment. louis' hand moved through Lestat's hair again, slower this time, savoring the texture of it, the warmth of Lestat's scalp beneath his palm. His other hand traced idle patterns against Lestat's back, feeling the rise and fall of his breathing. 

He'd forgotten what it felt like to want to stay. 

Lestat shifted faintly against him, a quiet breath catching in his throat. "Don't go," he murmured, the words slipping free before he seemed aware he'd spoken. 

louis' hand stilled in his hair. His chest tightened again, that same crack widening. He wanted to say something, wanted to promise something, but the words wouldn't come. There was still too much between them. Too many old wounds left untouched. Too many questions Louis wasn't ready to ask and Lestat wasn't ready to answer. 

But not tonight. 

His hand resumed its gentle path through Lestat's hair, and he let himself have this. Lestat warm and heavy against him, finally at peace. Louis holding him there, finally admitting if only to himself that he'd needed this just as badly.

For now, that was enough.