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park jimin.
park jimin park jimin jimin jimin jimin. jimin jimin ji min two syllables two syllables in jimin two beats beat beat jimin beat beat
my heart was cold cold cold (it had stopped moving stopped working froze over no steady beat beat of two syllables here thank you very much) but then. oh but then.
you introduced yourself with a smile (only one syllable in smile but yours was one hundred beats of my reanimated heart cracking and clunking back to life beat beat beat) as park jimin.
i was shaky hands and avoiding eye contact (fear is one syllable and it is all i have ever known, jimin with your two syllables) and trying not to laugh so i looked too stern too grumpy too unwelcoming. i think i scared you park jimin which is ironic ironic ironic.
i tried to talk to you in two syllables because two is better than none.
i am used to none but oh dear oh dear am i more used to one.
fear is one resounding clap. clap. nothing more.
clap.
but when you clap in a cave it echoes. echo echo echo echo clap clap clap clap fear fear fear fear. fear reverberates around my empty cave my empty chest my empty mouth because jimin jimin, words can’t flow from an empty corpse.
jimin jimin is four syllables so when i saw you next i tried to talk in fours. word word word word. sentence sentence sentence sentence. shake nod shake nod. i think you noticed my jimin you’re smarter than you think but you didn’t care and you put your number in my phone and made me call you right then and right there so you could have my number back.
(too many numbers in a phone number too high for me then. i couldn’t reach that far jimin you were the clouds every star and i was too scared to reach up in case i broke my arms.)
when you left my heart stopped again but a thump on my back from a friend (namjoon nam joon that’s two syllables like you jimin but they never meant as much to me as you did sorry namjoon) and a well done yoongi.
well done yoongi.
yoongi. two syllables. probably except i said this once and namjoon nam joon he argued and said it could only be one so really i’m just one and a half. yoongi yoon gi yoongi
min yoongi.
you text me jimin jimin jimin park jimin, you text me and asked me for coffee and i said yes park jimin so we met and you tried to buy me coffee but i hit you with a one syllable park jimin and said no. i paid for our coffee and i told you that our syllables can match. but only if you don’t listen to namjoon namjoon namjoon.
park jimin min yoongi.
jimin, oh, jimin jimin, you laughed and said you would listen to me over anyone else over everyone else and my heart went beat beat beatbeatbeatbeatbeat.
we went out again and again and again and i spoke to you in more and more numbers and you were so happy park jimin.
you took me to your flat and we sat together for hours and hours and i was so alive alive alive.
brutal honesty. you told me that you found me almost too intimidating too cool to talk to and i told you that you terrified me. you didn’t believe me and i told you everyone terrifies me i am so scared park jimin. people are the scariest thing i am so afraid. they talk and they move and they have too many words with too many letters and too many syllables and i am one syllable. fear.
i am a burning house, the fire already lit from the inside and the firefighters just stand outside and wonder how do we get in i wonder how this has happened but i am burning up and up and up. sometimes it dims to a low heat and people wander in and they make themselves comfortable and the burning house begins to simmer down but. it catches alight again always catches alight and they run. no-one wants to be destroyed with along with a burning house, park jimin.
jimin, you cried, it was the most i had spoken at once and i had upset you and i cried too jimin. ice melts. you called me silly, told me my heart was no ice and i was no burning house. you told me that i, yoongi yoongi yoongi, was a lost soul in a big galaxy and to not worry for even the moon was afraid that she would wither alone. but the moon had all the stars and the sun and you told me that i would have you until the end of time.until a great bang destroyed every planet and every speck of star. you told me that you would be more than just your name.
jimin. two syllables.
safety. two syllables.
jimin. two syllables.
water. two syllables.
park. one syllable.
home. one syllable.
yoongi, you told me softly so softly, i will be your safety for when the earth begins to shake and i will be your water to soothe when the fire begins to burn and i will be your home when you think that your house has crumbled into ashes anyway.
jimin jimin jimin park jimin i sobbed in your arms and you sobbed holding me and we slept holding each other and then when we awoke we found our hearts would now and forever beat beat beat to the rhythm set by the syllables in our names.