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The morning sun's rays stretched over the harbor, warming the face of the young firebender, but warmth gave no comfort; Tomoe's family was dead.
From his quiet vantage point near the boarding ramp, General Iroh watched the girl stand against the backdrop of the soot-choked capital docks. Even dressed in the heavy, restrictive silks of a mourning court, her presence was arresting. The stories whispered in the upper rings of the Fire Nation—and carried by diplomats as far as the colonies—had not exaggerated the sharp, aristocratic breeding evident in the intelligent tilt of her amber eyes. But it was her hair that anchored her dignity today. It fell far past her waist in a heavy, dark mass, styled in the traditional half-up fashion of her clan. The top section was secured by an intricate, heavy gold crown pin, while the rest hung down her back like an unbroken sheet of silk. It was a hairstyle meant for high estate walls and garden tea ceremonies, completely out of place against the greasy iron hull of the Wani.
To Iroh, her beauty didn't look like an asset this morning. It looked like a monument. She stood so utterly still she might have been carved from stone, her jaw locked to keep from trembling.
A young deckhand, his forearms stained with coal dust from the ship's lower boilers, hoisted a lacquered cedar chest onto his shoulder. He took one look at the pristine girl, stammered, and lowered his head out of sheer instinct. "Where... where would the Lady Tomoe like her trunk?"
Before Tomoe could find her voice through the numbness, an imperial harbor officer stepped between them. His features were hidden behind the flat, terrifying smile of a painted porcelain mask; it was the face of the Fire Lord’s bureaucracy. He didn't look at her face; his eyes remained fixed entirely on a smudged scroll.
"There is no Lady Tomoe on this manifest," the officer barked, his voice grating and thin behind the eye-slits. "The household has been dissolved by royal decree. It is just Tomoe now. Move the cargo to the lower steerage deck with the rest of the crew's rations."
The deckhand flinched, offering a hurried bow before scurrying up the iron gangplank with the chest.
Tomoe didn't watch him go. She didn't blink. Her eyes remained fixed on the horizon, where the volcanic spires of the capital pierced the morning haze. Slowly, she turned her head toward Iroh. The stillness of her face remained entirely intact, but her eyes were completely hollow.
"Three days ago, I was to be the future Fire Lady," her voice dropped to a harsh, quiet whisper that barely carried over the rumble of the ship's engines. "Yesterday, I was Lady Tomoe. Today, General, I am no one at all."
The word General seemed to age Iroh by a decade. His broad shoulders, usually carried with an easy slouch to hide the formidable warrior underneath, sank lower. He looked down at her, his lined face softening into an expression of shared, ancient grief.
He reached out, his thick, calloused fingers gently touching the edge of the heavy gold crown pin in her hair. It was a traditional piece, carved with the delicate wings of a hunting falcon. Lu Ten had spent three months saving his military stipend to purchase it for her eleventh birthday, marking the official signing of their betrothal scrolls. Iroh had been present when the boy presented it, watching his son blush furiously while Tomoe had accepted it with the perfect, practiced grace of a future consort.
"You call me General," Iroh spoke softly, his voice a low, gravelly rumble that lacked any of the sharp command of the palace. "And yet, the man who earned that title died on the walls of Ba Sing Se, alongside the boy who was meant to stand by your side." He dropped his hand, but he did not step back. Instead, he placed himself directly between Tomoe and the lingering gaze of the masked harbor guards, using his stout frame as a shield against the rest of the world.
"Ozai has a large brush, and he commands a great deal of ink. He can cross out names on a manifest. He can burn ancestral scrolls until nothing remains but smoke." Iroh looked at her, his kind eyes steady and laced with pity. "But he does not decide who exists, Tomoe. To this ship, and to me, you are not 'no one.' You are the girl who should have been my daughter."
For a fraction of a second, her expression faltered. Her lower lip twitched, a tiny, involuntary movement that she quickly suppressed by biting the inside of her cheek until she tasted copper. She didn't cry—the numbness was still too heavy, locking her throat tight—but the cold words of the harbor officer seemed to lose a fraction of their venom.
"Come," Iroh whispered, turning toward the boarding ramp. "Let us leave this place behind."
They walked up the gangplank together, the transition across the threshold of the ship loud and jarring. Iron plates rattled underfoot, vibrating with the low mechanical rumble of the engine below. The air here was different, stripped of the sweet, floral incense of the upper residential rings and replaced entirely by the stench of cheap coal and wet metal.
As Tomoe stepped onto the main deck, she felt the eyes of the crew shifting toward her. These weren't the polished royal guards she was used to; these were bitter, tired men who had been assigned to a rusty ship to hunt a ghost.
The heavy hatch leading to the forward tower slammed open with a violent shriek.
Prince Zuko stumbled out into the blinding morning light. He looked devastatingly small. The thirteen-year-old boy was swallowed by the coarse linen bandages that wrapped entirely around the left side of his face, pinning his ear and forcing his jaw into rigid, unnatural alignment. He was shivering despite the humid harbor heat, his single visible eye bloodshot, wide, and frantic with a mixture of high fever and raw agony. He held his arm braced against his ribs, his breath coming in shallow, ragged hitches.
When his gaze landed on Tomoe, he froze.
The silence on the deck turned suffocating. Tomoe looked at the boy who, only a short while ago, had been officially named her second fiancé. After Lu Ten's death, her father had spent a considerable amount of time negotiating with Ozai to transfer her betrothal to the new Crown Prince. She had memorized Zuko's schedule, studied his preferences, and prepared herself to be his shield in the court. Now, the destiny she had been reassigned to fulfill was a cruel joke. The boy who was supposed to be her husband was a mutilated exile, and her family was dead because he hadn't known when to keep his mouth shut.
Every instinct in her mind screamed to turn away, to rage, to look at his ruined face with the horror she felt inside.
Instead, muscle memory older than her grief took over.
With agonizing precision, Tomoe swept her crimson sleeves back. She lowered her gaze to the plating beneath her feet, sank into her hips, and dropped into a flawless, low court bow. Her long cascade of midnight hair shifted over her shoulder, a smooth wave of black silk brushing against the dirty deck. Her posture was entirely perfect—the exact angle required when addressing the heir to the throne.
"Prince Zuko," she said. Her voice didn't shake. It was cold; a beautiful imitation of a loyal courtier.
The title hung in the air, sounding absurd on the deck of a disgraced ship.
To Zuko, her perfect bow didn't feel like respect. It felt like a mirror holding up his own ruin. He wasn't a pprince in the royal palace anymore; he was a scarred outcast being kicked out of his home. Seeing her perform the rituals of the court only emphasized how completely he had failed. The shame of his mutilation and the unacknowledged guilt of what his outburst had cost her family curdled into instant defensive venom.
"Get out of my way," His voice cracked, thick with puberty and aching torment. He lunged forward, intentionally shoving past her shoulder, nearly losing his balance on the deck as he forced his way toward the companionway. "Keep her away from me! I don't want her on this deck! I don't want to see her!"
He slammed the heavy iron door of the lower cabins behind him, the echo rattling the ship’s framework.
Tomoe remained in her bow for moments after the door closed, staring at a smudge of coal grease on the metal floor. When she finally stood up, her features had settled back into a blank neutrality. She didn't look at Iroh. She didn't look at the staring crewmen.
"Show me to my quarters," she requested to the nearest deckhand, her voice emotionless. "Please."
The crewman who led her down into the bowels of the ship did not speak. His boots clanked loudly against the rungs of the ladder, a stark contrast to the whispered, silent steps of the palace attendants Tomoe had known her entire life. He unlocked the door at the end of a narrow, oil-slicked corridor, gestured vaguely inside, and left without a word.
The door clicked shut, the latch dropping cruelly.
The cabin was minuscule, a box tucked far beneath the waterline. It smelled of stagnant river water and damp wool, mixed with the bitter scent of coal smoke that permeated every surface of the Wani. There were no silks here. No tapestries depicting the great victories of the Fire Nation, no polished cedar screens to separate the dressing area from the bed. There was only a narrow cot bolted to the wall, a single tarnished copper basin tucked into the corner, and a small, thick glass porthole that offered a murky view of the harbor depths.
Tomoe sat on the edge of the mattress. The wool blanket beneath her palms was rough, scratching her skin through the fine weave of her courtly undershirts. She remained perfectly upright, her back straight. Her hands folded neatly in her lap, exactly as her tutors had instructed her during the long hours of posture training.
The ship began to move.
The low thrum of the engine moved through the floor, rattling the frame of the cot and sending a faint shiver through her bones.
She stared at the blank metal wall opposite her. Her eyes were wide, staring, yet they felt entirely dry. She reached up with a steady hand, pressing her fingers against her cheekbones, searching for the dampness that should have been there. Nothing. Her face was cold, stripped of emotion.
A cold numbness settled deep into her skin, a weight that slowed her breathing until her hands felt stiff. Her family was gone. Her home was being searched by imperial guards, her family’s wealth seized by the crown, her name scrubbed from the ledgers of the high aristocracy. She should have been screaming. She should have been tearing at her clothes, weeping until her throat was raw. Instead, there was only this terrifying silence inside her head. She wondered, with horror, if Ozai’s executioner had somehow killed her too, leaving only an empty frame to walk up the gangplank of the ship.
Desperate to break the numbness, to feel any sensation that might prove she was still among the living, Tomoe stood up and approached the copper tub. The brass fixtures were green with corrosion, sticking stubbornly when she tried to turn them. She forced the valves open, watching as the stream of rusty brown water hissed into the basin, gradually clearing to a dull gray as the pipes flushed out.
She knelt by the copper base of the tub, where the internal heating coils ran. Extending her hand, she concentrated on the cold ember deep within her stomach. She forced it outward, sending sparks from her fingertips directly into the metal vent. The fire caught, hissing loudly as she fed it, pushing her bending far past its normal limits. She didn't want warm water. She wanted heat. She watched the flames lick against the metal casing until the water in the tub began to churn with heavy plumes of steam rising to coat the low ceiling in large drops of condensation.
When the water was near-boiling, she cut the flame.
Stripping out of her formal gown became a brutal, clumsy battle. The garments were a masterpiece of imperial design, featuring seven distinct layers of silk, intricate hidden ties, and a massive gold-embroidered sash that was meant to be unfastened by a team of three trained handmaidens. Without them, she was trapped. Her fingers grew finicky, pulling the wrong sashes, tightening the knots across her chest until she could barely breathe. The courtly armor became a straightjacket. With a quiet grunt of frustration, she stopped trying to be elegant. She gripped the fine collar of her outer robes and pulled, the expensive crimson silk tearing. She ripped at the sashes, hacking through the knots with her fingernails until the mangled layers finally gave way, pooling around her bare feet like a pile of fresh blood on the iron floor.
She stepped into the tub.
The pain was immediate and absolute. Any ordinary human would have suffered severe burns, their skin blistering instantly, but the elite firebender blood in her veins allowed her body to absorb the extreme temperature, translating the heat into an agonizing flush. Her skin turned angry red from her ankles to her shoulders as she sat down, the water coming up to her collarbones.
She grabbed a stiff ostrich-horsehair brush from the small shelf. Setting her jaw, she began to scrub. She dragged the coarse bristles across her arms, her chest, her neck, using punishing strokes. She scrubbed until her muscles ached, trying to scrape away the phantom scent of the Fire Nation, the lingering perfume of the court, the memories of the girl who had been bred for a throne. She wanted to strip away her skin entirely, to wash the very identity of Tomoe down the rusty drain of the Wani.
When the skin on her arms was raw and bleeding in faint lines beneath the hot water, she dropped the brush. It splashed against the surface, bobbing uselessly.
Tomoe took a single deep breath of the thick steam, pinched her nose, and slipped backward, letting the water close over her face.
The world vanished. Beneath the surface, the iron thud of the engine rumbled directly through her teeth. She kept her eyes open, staring up through the soapy film at the blurry outline of the ceiling. She forced her limbs to remain completely still, commanding her mind to let go, wanting nothing more than to stay down here in the dark until the cold reality of her exile simply filled her lungs.
But her body was an enemy to her mind. After a long minute, her lungs began to burn. An ugly, involuntary spasm rippled through her chest, her diaphragm convulsing as her body demanded oxygen. She fought it, gripping the smooth sides of the copper tub to keep herself submerged, but the survival instinct was too cruel. Her hands betrayed her resolve, pushing her upward. She burst through the surface, gagging, coughing violently as she dragged the damp air into her burning lungs.
Anger flared through her veins. She hated her body for its weakness. She hated the air for forcing its way back into her.
Taking another ragged breath, she forced herself down a second time. This time, she slid her fingers beneath the rolled lip of the tub, locking her grip so tightly that her fingernails threatened to snap against the metal. She stared up through the water, watching the condensation drip from the ceiling, waiting out the clock. The burning in her chest returned, twice as fierce as before. Her ribs ached, her vision began to swim with dark, shadowy spots, and her heart pounded against her breastbone. She held on, defying the spasm, demanding that the darkness take her.
Her grip slipped. The wet metal offered no traction, and her fingers tore away from the lip. She lunged upward again, her face breaking the surface as she vomited up a mouthful of soapy water, drawing in sobbing gasps.
The failure completely shattered her remaining restraint.
The detachment broke, and the memories she had been running from rushed into the void with terrifying force. The water around her body suddenly felt like the suffocating dusty heat of the execution plaza.
She was back there, forced to watch from the high stone balcony while the imperial guards held her back. The noon sun had been blindingly bright, reflecting off the polished armor of the Fire Lord's personal executioners. She could still hear her mother’s voice, a sound that would haunt her until the day she died—high, desperate, unraveled screaming that tore through the stone corridors as she begged Ozai for a mercy that did not exist in the Fire Nation.
Then came her father. He had refused the black silk blindfold, his posture as rigid and unbending as the volcanic cliffs of their home. He had looked up at the balcony, his dark eyes locking onto Tomoe’s face with a quiet fierce command to remain silent, to survive. The whistling sigh of the blade was followed by a sickening wet thud against the marble. Tomoe watched her father's head roll across the white stone, leaving a bright crimson trail behind it, his eyes still open, still staring at nothing.
Before the blood could even settle, they dragged her older brother forward. He was only eighteen, his firebending training freshly completed. He tried to mimic their father’s pride, but his knees were shaking, his chest heaving with terror. He didn't get the mercy of a blade. To punish his treason, the executioner raised a single, massive hand, unleashing a concentrated, continuous torrent of fire directly into the boy's chest. Tomoe had to watch, paralyzed by the guards' grip, as Kazuki’s agonizing screams turned into a choked, wet gurgle. The intense heat melted his ceremonial armor directly into his skin, the smell of scorched hair and burning flesh rising up to fill the plaza until there was nothing left of him but a blackened mass slumped over the stones.
In the tub, Tomoe buried her face in her red hands, her entire body shaking so violently that the water splashed over the edges onto the floor. The tears finally came, ugly and unyielding, washing down her face to mix with the lukewarm water of her exile.
The water in the copper tub grew steadily colder as the steam evaporated against the walls. Tomoe remained submerged until her body stopped shaking, her chest aching from the violence of her tears. The memories didn't vanish—they simply receded like the low tide, leaving behind a thick layer of exhaustion.
When she finally dragged herself out of the basin, the chill of the cabin engulfed her.
Tomoe's hair was a disaster. The massive cascade of black was soaking wet and tangled from her panicked scrubbing. Without dry towels or a proper comb, the weight of the water pulled heavily against her scalp, sending cold droplets tracking down her neck and the small of her back. It felt like a wet shroud, like chains tied about her feet.
She turned to the heap of ruined crimson silks on the floor. The sight of the torn fabric made her stomach turn, but she had no other clothes. She was forced to piece the mangled garment back together.
The process was a humiliating reminder of her new reality. Her fingers, usually so precise when drafting letters or practicing her bending forms, were clumsy and stiff from the cold. She didn't know how to cross the inner sashes without a servant pulling them taut from behind. When she tried to tie the gold-embroidered outer sash, the knot turned bulky and uneven. It became a mass that sat awkwardly over her hip, ruining the elegant silhouette she had maintained since she was old enough to walk. The heavy collar sat bunched and crooked against her throat, chafing her raw skin. She looked less like a noble lady and more like a child playing dress-up in clothes that no longer belonged to her.
A sudden loud crash echoed through the framework of the cabin.
Tomoe froze, her hands still gripping the messy knot of her sash. The sound had come from the deck directly above her, followed by the muffled, distinctive sound of shouting. Even through the thick metal plates, she recognized the shrill angry tone of Prince Zuko’s voice. Another thud rattled the light fixture on her ceiling—the distinct sound of an iron stool or a chair being hurled against a bulkhead in a fit of rage. Then came the clipped bark of his commands as he yelled at a crewman, his words unintelligible but the aristocratic arrogance behind them unmistakable.
The sound of his shouting soured the back of her throat. It was the noise of a boy who still had things left to break.
How dare he? How dare that boy carry on as if his life was the only one reduced to ash?
She stared up at the ceiling, her jaw tightening until her teeth ached. Zuko was scarred, yes. He was banished from his home, forced onto a rusty ship with a crew of secondary officers. But he was still Prince Zuko. The masked harbor guards hadn't crossed his name off the manifest. The Fire Lord hadn't dissolved the royal lineage. Zuko still carried the blood of Sozin in his veins. He still commanded a ship. He still had men who were legally required to bow to him, to take his orders, to clean up the wreckage when he threw a tantrum. He had a purpose, even if it was a mythical quest to find the Avatar, and he had his uncle.
Tomoe closed her eyes.
She had nothing. Her father's titles had been stripped before his head even stopped rolling across the courtyard marble. Her brother's name was a stain on the empire. She didn't command a single handmaiden, let alone a crew of soldiers. She was a passenger on a disgraced vessel, entirely dependent on the charity of General Iroh and the volatile tolerance of a teenager who couldn't look at her without remembering his own shame. She was a prisoner to their itinerary, dragged along on a fool's errand because she had nowhere else in the world to go. If Zuko decided tomorrow that he truly couldn't bear the sight of her, she could be dropped at the next Earth Kingdom port with nothing but the torn silk on her back.
She was completely at their mercy.
Tomoe took in slow, steadying breaths, forcing her shoulders back into the rigid posture she had been taught. She couldn't fix her hair, and she couldn't fix the crooked alignment of her dress. But she could control her face. She smoothed her palms down the front of her damp skirts, waiting until her features settled into that familiar, unreadable blankness.
She reached out, placed her hand on the heavy handle of her door, and pushed it open, stepping out into the dark corridor to face whatever was left of her life.
The ambient noises of the Wani hit her all at once; they were loud, unceasing, mechanical rumbles that constantly shook right through the soles of her bare feet. The air down here was thick.
General Iroh was waiting in the next corridor, leaning his stout frame against a cluster of exposed steam pipes. He did not say a word about her unraveled appearance, nor did he offer any of the empty platitudes she had spent a lifetime learning to expect from the nobility. He simply looked at her with heavy sorrow, turned his back, and motioned for her to follow him down the narrow hall.
They descended two steep iron ladders, until they reached a small forgotten cargo hold near the ship's keel. The space was isolated from the rest of the crew, lit only by a single oil lantern hanging from a low ceiling beam.
In the center of the dark room, Iroh had cleared low wooden crates to serve as a makeshift altar. Thin gray spirals of sandalwood smoke rose from a small bronze dish, its rich, clean fragrance trying its best to cut through the heavy stench of the ship's fuel. Tomoe took a step forward, her breath catching in her throat.
Arranged neatly on the wood were three finely painted miniature portraits, rescued from her family's estate before the imperial seizers could ransack the rooms. Her father, Lord Jinzon, looked out from the small porcelain frame with the unyielding gaze of a military strategist who had served under Fire Lord Azulon. Beside him was her mother, Lady Isae, her delicate features framed by the high silver combs of the northern aristocracy. And then there was Kazuki. Her eighteen-year-old brother looked vibrant in his painted likeness, his golden eyes bright with the reckless confidence of an elite bender who had just received his first official commission. Seeing Kazuki’s face brought an ache to her stomach. He had been more than just her brother; he had been the Crown Prince's shadow. As Zuko’s closest childhood friend and primary sparring partner, Kazuki had spent half his life in the palace courtyards. They had run through the volcanic gardens together, sharing firebending forms and teenage secrets. Zuko’s defensive, angry shouting on the deck above suddenly felt even more repulsive. The prince was throwing tantrums about his lost honor, completely blind to the fact that his big mouth had put his own best friend in the dirt… Directly next to Kazuki's frame sat the portrait of Lu Ten.
The late prince’s smile was just as she remembered it, soft and completely lacking the severe arrogance that defined the rest of the royal family. Looking at the two boys side by side, the memory of her public betrothal ceremony rushed back, breaking through the numbness of her mind.
She had been eleven years old, standing on the grand pavilion of the Fire Sages temple surrounded by thousands of fluttering crimson banners. The heat of the ceremonial fires had baked her skin as Lord Jinzon and General Iroh exchanged the sacred silk scrolls, binding her house to the dragon throne. Lu Ten had knelt before her, placing the gold falcon pin into her hair with hands that trembled slightly despite his military training. It had been a calculated political arrangement, sealed with the weight of two ancient names.
In two years' time, on her sixteenth birthday—the traditional Fire Nation age of marriage—she was supposed to stand before the Sages again and officially become his wife.
The contrast was too cruel. In the tub, she had remembered the raw violence of her family's execution; the heavy sound of the blade, the flash of the heat that had silenced her brother. But here, looking at the smiling faces in the small portraits, she was confronted with the purity of what they used to be. The future she had been schooled in since birth to fulfill was nothing but a graveyard.
Tomoe's knees gave out. The heavy, misaligned layers of her crimson gown sprawled around her on the dirty floor. She did not try to catch herself or maintain her posture. She simply collapsed forward, her forehead resting against the edge of the wooden crates as her pride finally snapped. The tears came all at once, hot and silent, soaking into the dry wood of the altar beside her mother's portrait.
Iroh did not speak. He did not tell her to be strong for the sake of the empire. He simply sank to the floor beside her, heavy arms wrapping around her trembling shoulders. He pulled her against his chest, holding her with the terrifying grip of a man who knew exactly how much a dead boy weighed. Tomoe buried her face into the rough wool of his robes, her fingers clutching at the fabric as the steady rocking of the Wani carried them out into the open sea, away from the ashes of the life she had lost.