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Away...
Beyond All Concepts Of Wrong Doing And Right Doing...
There's A Large Field...
I'll Meet You There.
....
"Pst- Damon..."
"..."
"Hey, Wake up..."
"Mm..Ngh..."
"Damon..Daaamonnn!"
"..ah?...Ah!"
Damon gasped as he felt someone shook his shoulders vigorously. Still dazed, he let out a scowl.
"Ugh..S-seriously!?", Kai groaned as he put his hand on his own scalp, delicate nails digging slightly as if to showcase that he's frustrated about something.
"What?" Damon deadpanned- his voice was still a bit hoarse "You tell me, you're the one who woke me up.", He rubbed his eyes checking the time. "And it's-" Before he could finish he heard that familiar whine.
"I Know!-" A pause, there was a beat. "I-..look.....Damon I've got something to say...", Kai sighed looked away fidgeting with his necklace. Damon wasn't dumb as he could actually see the pink-haired fidgeting as a sign of nervousness.
Damon stayed quite as he waited for more explanation, but as nothing came out of his Roommate's mouth, he let out a loud exasperated sigh before laying back down and gently patting over his side. Kai's mouth was hang open for a moment before closing it and silently slept besides Damon.
"Damon..I...", Kai said as he leaned over close to his left-ear...to the point Damon could literally feel the breath tickling his skin. He didn't finch away though, it didn't felt uncomfortable at all. In fact, he listened to what Kai had to say. At first, it was just typical gossips. Tales of daily free-times with others. Damon knew Kai was trying to lighten up some mood first before he could continue the real reasoning behind his worries.
"Damon..are you still here with me?", Kai asked in a soft tone.
"Mhm...", Damon nodded his eyes were on the ceiling as he was thinking about whatever Kai just yapped about. Suddenly, his head snapped back to where Kai is, as he felt shuffling besides him. A pair of warm hands were holding his left palm, Damon was counting the rings..
'huh?'
No rings were adorned on those fingers , instead there was a thread...a red thread bounded around not only in influencer's fingers but also around his own. Both of them were connected by a single red thread, he remembers when his parents used to say one of those silly urban legends.
'What was that again..?..ah...Red Strings Of Fate...Binds those who are supposed to be soulmates..that means Kai's is my..'
He felt Kai's gaze on him. What was that look?...
It felt like he was....yearning? grieving?
'Why...We are always together...so why that look...'
'..'
'Never mind..'
"Damon..", Kai smiled it was warm...really warm...
'warm?'
...as he squeezed the Blond's palm.
"I am scared..", he whimpered wrapping his arms around his waist. pressing his head on the debater's shoulder. Damon stiffed his posture, recalling the previous trials and executions that happened just...moments ago...
...
Wait..
"Please..", Damon felt the tears well up in his own eyes as he blinked, trying to make sense of what Kai meant. Remembering every trials, Eva and her betrayal...she too wasn't entirely at the fault-line..she was also the victim..Wolfgang...despite being a fraud..despite his father's sins....that fate wasn't something he deserved. Ulysses..he too didn't deserved it...Jean..
Mark, doomed by his shallow emotions, Ingrid and her selflessness. Desmond, he was a victim of his own emotional turmoil and Eloise was executed for no reason.
Wenona, Diana, Jett, Grace...He remembered their tears..their despair...he remembered taking his last breaths around them.He hoped at least they are Alive.
Cassidy...the cult that brainwashed her..
Toshiko..it wasn't her fault either...That poor child....and Kai..
We were all like moths drawn towards the flame.
"W-why..", Kai nuzzled continuously "Y-You shouldn't have done that you idiot! You are not supposed to be here..."
"You...You are not real...", Damon said trying to struggle away from the vice grip thinking this as the one of those hallucinatory nightmare But Kai steadied his grip firmly refusing to let go causing all the struggles of the blond to be futile.
"Stop-STOP!", Damon screeched as he felt strangled Hic-ups coming out of this mouth, his eyes were dilated breathing hitched. Kai noticing this immediately stroked his back, comforting him on the same way sometimes Damon himself did back during the killing game.
Back when they both were alive. Damon wasn't miserably grieving alone lying by the same bed they both shared. There wasn't a single day that he never thought about what it could've been like if he hadn't listened to Tozu. He missed that same warmth.
"Hush..Don't- *sniff*- I-I Know..Okay..?..and no..I don't hate you..*sniff*..", The sniffling noises were still the same as Damon remembered.
"I-I'am...Sorry..I- *HIC* I C-Couldn't..I d-didn't..I- Oh...ngh....I..I couldn't do anything and..the trials...C-Cassidy-", Damon was clutching onto like his life depended on him. Words spluttering out like he was holding it back for an eternity.
"You couldn't have..t-the stage...props had already crushed me to the point that even if you did had not left that theater back then....even if you-*sniff*..then you..you could've still watched me die of bloodloss..It's not your fault,Damon..", Kai mumbled as he felt blond finally clam down before pulling away.
Damon stared at him as he weft again before wiping his face by his arms This was real..HE is real. His legs felt like lead as he clutched on the sweater of the...Black-haired....
"You..ah...", Kai's hair was turned to black, he was actually a brunette. Something that was quite obvious, and his eyes were natural brown- almost hazel. He still looks....
...beautiful..
"..Uh..", Kai was also looking looking at him like he was awestruck by something by something before he chuckled.
"Black hair suits you huh..", Kai mumbled.
Damon quickly checked his own hair as his cheeks tinted pink.
"Don't just...Serves right back at you..", Damon huffed. before turning away. Kai immediately turned into a Tomato before clearing his throat.
"A-ahem..anyw-"
"If we are dead then...where are we?", Damon asked looking around, the room was changed into a bright space, they were on a large field filled with cotton clouds and rainbows. The place felt overwhelming yet comforting.
"Heaven..", Kai said aloud as Damon was quite as he closed his eyes, leaned and rested his head on the taller one's shoulder as he grumbled.
He heard Kai's soft laughter before drifting back to sleep again.
"Hey...uh...", Kai incoherently mumbled resting his head on Damon's. "But I guess we have a lot of time now so- No But still- I regret not telling you sooner so...."
A beat of pause before he smiled.
"Please, stand by me.."