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“Okay, just a few more questions.” Felix hears the interviewer say. He smiles and tries to be polite about it. He knows it is part of his job but he has been working since morning and couldn't even eat anything besides the cereal he had for breakfast. 

“Please, go on.” He signals the woman.

“Just in a few years, you became the face of South Korea in high fashion events. People are calling you Nation's Angel. How does it make you feel? Do you feel pressured?” Felix clears his throat before giving an answer. 

“It is impossible to not feel pressured but this pressure comes from the expectations and those expectations come from a place of love. I have to do my best for the people who love me and care about me.” He ends his answer with a smile. The woman seems impressed by his answer. 

“Can I ask more personal questions? We don't see you with anyone, have you dated?” This leaves a sour taste in Felix's mouth. He tries to not give away his discomfort and forces himself to smile again. 

“With the way my schedules are I'm afraid I don't have time for that.” The interviewer just nods. 

“What's your ideal type then? I'm sure the fans would like to know how to steal The Angel's heart.” Felix laughs but not at the joke attempt, at the audacity to think that it is possible to steal his heart. When it has been stolen long ago. 

“I like people with charisma. People who demand your attention with their presence. Who are hardworking and have genuine love for their craft. Passionate about the things they love. Artistic people with clear visions. Who know what they want and fight for it.” The woman nods again. 

“I'm sure your fans will take note of this. Thank you, Mr. Lee. It was a pleasure to meet you.” The woman extends her hand and Felix takes it. 

“The pleasure is mine. Thank you.” He bows to the interviewer and the crew before exiting the studio quickly. 

At the door his manager who is also his close friend is waiting for him. 

“I like people with charisma. I love passion. I love artistic people.” He mocks Felix with deepening his voice. Felix just rolls his eyes. 

“I answered honestly, Jisung.” They start to walk towards the exit together. 

“Next time try acrostic poem with his name it'd be less obvious. I thought you were keeping this a secret.” He whispers when they pass by the people. 

“We are.” Felix sighs. He doesn't like that part. When they arrive at the car his manager opens the door for him but Felix just gets his stuff from the backseat. “I don't need you to drop me off. I have personal business.”

“Oh, Mr. Charisma is coming back today right? Is that why you were all fidgety today?” Jisung teases.

“Partly. Yes.” 

“Tell him to not tire you so much we have a fashion week coming.” 

“Don't be gross and go already.” His friend just smiles cheekily and goes. Not long after another familiar car approaches Felix. He quickly gets on the backseat and greets the driver. 

“Hello Anthony. How are you?” The middle aged driver looks at him briefly from rearview mirror. 

“I'm good, Mr. Lee. How are you?” Felix takes his gloss from his bag and applies it before answering. 

“A little tired but it'll pass when I'll see him.” He puts the gloss back and starts looking for his perfume. “Is he waiting for me?” After he finds his perfume he sprays the side of his neck. 

“I dropped Mr. Hwang off before coming to get you.” the driver answers shortly. Felix sighs with relief. It has been two weeks since the last time he saw his boyfriend in person and it felt like a torture. Felix hates when long business trips get in between them; he can handle a few days but sometimes it can take weeks even a month or two before they can meet again. Felix laughs at himself. He sounds ridiculous and his old self would slap him if he could see himself in a relationship with someone older and in a higher position. He was really idealistic when he first started modelling. 

First, no nude or underwear gigs - he has an image to build.

Second, no smoking or partying around. 

Third, and most important, no dating. Especially within the industry. 

Guess which rule he breached right before his break through. 

It was five months after his debut. People were already talking about his androgynous beauty but nothing big came into his way till that day. A jewelry brand wanted to make him their ambassador. They were a highly respected company in South Korea and after the chairman stepped down his position of CEO because of health issues the new one decided to take a different approach for marketing. And they wanted to use Felix's image to cater to both men and women. Of course Felix accepted it right away. This was the opportunity he had been looking for. He signed the contract eagerly and couldn't wait to work with them. 

His job for the brand started with a photoshoot. They made him wear simple clothes. A satin white shirt with a deep v cut and white dress pants. His blond hair was in a messy bun and the studio was decorated like an ancient palace. They started the shoot with necklaces. From simple ones to huge desings decorated with heavy diamonds. He was confident in himself and believed he was doing good. Then he felt like the air around him shifted. From the corner of his eyes he saw people turning to the door and his eyes couldn't help but follow the direction. The first time he saw him Felix felt goosebumps all over his body. He couldn't remember someone having this much impact on him. His eyes wandered around long legs then defined arms then sharp jaw line and landed on siren eyes. Deep brown eyes looking at him and making him feel as if they could see his soul. He didn't notice he stopped posing and was watching the man who just arrived. He quickly apologized to the photographer and went back to posing again but he could still feel the heavy gaze on him. It was almost like a physical being roaming over his body and making his hair stand. He tried hard to focus on the lens but his eyes were betraying him and swaying from time to time. There was the most gorgeous man he ever saw in his life, just behind the equipment and the said man was directly looking at him. Making his breath hitch every time their eyes met. 

Felix took a breath of relief when they announced they are taking a little break. His manager came to him after they took away the necklace and bracelets on him. 

“Who is he?” Felix whispered to his friend after the crew members has gone. The mysterious man was talking to the photographer. 

“He is the son of the chairman. New CEO. He is here to meet you.” Jisung whispered back and gave Felix slippers to put on since he was bare foot. 

“Meet me?! Why?” His friend just shrugged.

“He said he is curious about you.” Felix gulped and tucked his messy bangs behind his ears and made way towards his new boss. As he came closer the man turned to him and he felt the same shift again. Like the room just tilted a little and he was about to fall into this man's arms conveniently. Felix brushed his hands on his pants to get rid of the sweat. The man extended his hand to him. 

“Good work, Mr. Lee. I'm Hwang Hyunjin.” Felix took his hand. Goosebumps. 

“Nice to meet you.” He smiled as much as he could. His nerves were all over the place and he didn't even know why. 

“It's a pleasure to finally meet you.” Hyunjin smiled back and Felix didn't know what he was supposed to say. “Do you like the collection? They are my designs.”

“Ah, yes. Especially the bracelet with emeralds.” Felix answered honestly. The designs were traditional with modern touches here and there. “I can see you are going for a change.”

“I'm glad you noticed that. I want to widen our audience, you know. That's why when I saw your photos I knew we had to work together.” Felix felt his cheeks heat up and hoped they weren't getting red. They talked more about the designs and future of the brand before the crew members coming back in and announced that the break time was over. 

“I have to go now.” Felix said then Hyunjin dropped their hands and that's when they realized they were holding hands the whole conversation. Felix was sure his red cheeks were very visible now. 

“Nice to meet you and hope to see you again.” Hyunjin said before leaving. Felix turned to his friend. 

“Not a word.” He didn't need any more distractions from his work. His friend held his hands up in the air. 

“I wasn't going to say anything.”

Days went by with Felix working hard in his promo materials and trying to catch a glimpse of Hyunjin again. He dropped by a few times but hadn’t stayed long thus they hadn’t been able to talk again. That's why after the shooting of his campaign ended and when they asked everyone to come to a celebratory dinner he accepted it right away. Hoping Hyunjin would be there. 

It was a nice autumn evening not too cold so Felix could wear his leather shorts and not too hot so he could pair them with a cream sweater and matching leather boots. He styled his hair in a half up and half down way with a black bow. He applied minimal make up with his favorite strawberry flavored gloss. His appearance said he didn't try hard although he spent hours in front of his closet and had several breakdowns. 

When he entered the restaurant he saw a crowd gathering around a long table. Assuming they were his coworkers he made his way there without consulting anyone. When he got to the table there was only one empty seat and Hyunjin was nowhere to be seen. He masked his disappointment and sat after greeting everyone. It was crazy of him to think they would have dinner with their boss. He must be busy after all.

They ordered their meals. Felix was thinking about an excuse to leave right after the dinner when he heard people welcoming someone. He turned around and saw Hyunjin standing behind him in a black suit with black shirt and tie. His dirty blond hair was slicked back except for a few strands falling on his face. He looked more like a model than a CEO. 

The photographer beside Felix stood up to give his seat to Hyunjin so he could sit in the middle of the table. They were sitting so close that Felix could feel the heat radiating from Hyunjin's body. After their meals arrived and everyone got a little tipsy from their drinks Felix saw he wasn't the only one who was mesmerised by Hyunjin. He was the main attraction of the table. He answered everyone's questions in detail and asked them things related to their work and daily life. He knew every one of them by their name. Felix didn't mind looking like a lovesick fool while listening to his stories no one would pay him any attention any way. He just wished Hyunjin would talk to him too. 

Like he heard what went through in Felix's mind, Hyunjin turned to him. 

“What about you, Felix? How did you become a model? Was it your dream job?” Felix straightened up a little and chuckled. 

“No, not really. I was scouted in a university festival. They said my face should be on billboards. I thought they were trying to scam me at first but it was real and when I tried it for the first time I loved it and now I'm here.” He felt nervous with everyone looking at him. Hyunjin put his hand on Felix's shoulder and smiled. 

“I should go and personally thank that scouter.” The people laughed. Felix took a sip from his drink to calm himself. Even though Hyunjin took his hand back he could still feel his touch. With everyone getting more loose he leaned more into Hyunjin's heat. Their knees touched whenever Hyunjin laughed at someone's joke. Shoulders got brushed a few times and when a particularly funny joke made Hyunjin bent down and put his hand on Felix's bare thigh he lost it. His throat dried and his face was burning so he excused himself to go to the restroom quickly. 

He half walked and half ran there. He was happy to find it completely empty. His reflection looked pretty red from his neck to ears. He decided to blame it on the alcohol instead. He opened the tap, washed his hands and used the cold water to get rid of the redness on his neck. Looked at himself directly. 

“Stop acting like a virgin.” Felix told himself. “So what if he is extremely charming and gorgeous? He is your boss and you will behave.” He closed the tap and got his gloss from the purse. “Maybe I should get laid.” He talked to himself. He has been so busy the past few months and didn't even get enough “me time”. That must be the reason for all this. He checked himself in the mirror. That must be it, he decided and made his way towards the door until it suddenly opened and made him jump backwards. 

“Mr. Hwang?” He was surprised to see Hyunjin before him and even more when Hyunjin turned the lock on the door but he didn't have a chance to ask. Hyunjin pulled him from the waist and made their lips touch. And like a man who found water after spending days in the sahara Felix didn't waste any time before putting his hands around Hyunjin’s neck and opening his mouth. He knew Hyunjin would be a good kisser. He knew his lips would be as soft as rose petals and kissing him would feel like drinking a sparkling drink leaving a fuzzy feeling on his tongue. Hyunjin lifted him a little and made him sit on the little space left on the counter beside the sink. His hand went inside Felix's sweater and circled his waist while his tongue was tasting every corner of Felix's mouth. He pulled Hyunjin to himself so he could feel more of his body. He was already addicted to the heat coming from Hyunjin. He moaned when he felt Hyunjin sucking his tongue. His tiny fingers tangled in Hyunjin’s hair. They pulled back because of the lack of oxygen. Hyunjin put his head on his shoulder. 

“I'm glad.. I didn't read the signs wrong.” He said between his breaths. Felix laughed. They got taken aback when the door rattled suddenly then came a few knocks. 

“Why is this locked? Hello?” Someone shouted. 

“I had an emergency, give me five more minutes please.” Hyunjin shouted back. Felix heard the man on the other side cursing but it sounded like he was leaving. Then it hit him. They were in a public bathroom, making out. He made out with his boss just now. A thing he swore he wouldn't do. 

“Good thing I locked the door, right?” Hyunjin looked unfazed by everything but his expression changed when he saw Felix's face. “Look, I wasn't planning to kiss you like this. I just wanted to talk and clarify things. I'm not gonna hide my attraction to you but I'm not gonna force you for anything so we have two options. You can walk out of here and we act like nothing happened or you can come with me to my place and we see where this goes?” It should’ve  been a simple answer but it wasn't. Not when dark brown eyes looked into his soul. Not when his whole body was craving for the touch of his rough hands. 

“Okay.” Felix said calmly. “I'll come with you.” Hyunjin's face broke into a grin. He pecked Felix’s lips.

“Wait for me at the back door.” Felix nodded and got off the counter. “You go ahead, I need a few more minutes to calm down.” Hyunjin said shyly and Felix giggled before exiting carefully from the bathroom. 

The car ride was silent as Felix was too nervous to utter a word and didn't want the driver to get what they were up to. They silently watched the city from car windows before arriving at the residence Hyunjin was staying in. The driver dropped them off in front of the elevator in the parking lot to avoid making them go through the lobby. Felix watched the car go and when he heard the doors opening they hopped on the elevator. As soon as the doors closed they were on each other again. Felix had no idea who initiated it. His hands undid a few buttons of Hyunjin's shirt and felt his hot skin under his fingertips. He could feel Hyunjin’s hands going lower and lower till they got a hold of his ass. When he kneaded it  roughly Felix couldn't help but moan in his mouth. Hyunjin must've liked it so he repeated the motion. Felix found himself getting cornered in the elevator as their kiss got more heated. He tried to get back at Hyunjin by using his thigh to rub his clothed dick and it worked. Sadly they were too into it; they heard the “ding” sound a second too late. When they were separated an old woman was staring back at them in shock. No one said anything. Felix wasn't even breathing. Seconds went by and elevator doors started to close again. Neither the woman nor them tried to stop it. Felix looked at Hyunjin from the corner of his eyes when the elevator picked up again. They both laughed at the ridiculous situation.

“Oh my God! This is even more embarrassing than my mom finding my dildo.” This made Hyunjin laugh harder. They exited the elevator between their laughs. “Wait. She won't tell on us, right?” Felix asked.

“Don't worry, she is too old to remember anything.” Hyunjin answered as he opened the door to his suite. Felix went inside and was shocked to see so many colors. He didn't know what he expected to see. Maybe some marble floors and black leather couch? Instead he saw a huge velvet couch in wine colour, Soft green carpet with colorful flowers on it. Walls full of various paintings and huge house plant in the corner. Seeing Felix's expression Hyunjin explained himself. 

“My friends think I decorated this flat like a colorblind person but I like it.” Felix took his boots off with Hyunjin. 

“I think it looks lovely.” He approached the huge window that goes from wall to wall. Here the whole city was beneath his feet he could see the lights sparkle. “Wow.”

“It feels empowering doesn't it? In a narcissistic way.” Felix turned to Hyunjin and found him studying Felix's face instead. 

“Maybe I'd feel that if I wasn't part of the crowd under the lights.” Felix dared him. 

“You're not Felix. At least not anymore. You don't get it now but soon you will.” When Hyunjin got closer Felix took a step back. 

“Sorry I'm a little nervous. This is my first time doing something like this.” He said without looking into Hyunjin's eyes.

“Do you want something to drink? Maybe some wine?” Hyunjin offered and he nodded. 

“I'll take a glass of vodka please.” He needed something stronger. He was still questioning himself as to why he accepted to do this. What if people find out? What if his career ends before even starting? Maybe he should just go home and forget all about this. Felix's fingers brushed his lips slowly. If he goes now he will wonder what could've been all his life and he knows it. He closed his eyes for a second and saw a glass of vodka in front of him when he opened them. 

“Thanks.” He took the glass and tasted the drink. 

“What were you thinking about?” Hyunjin asked and Felix suspected that he knew what was going through his mind. 

“About the campaign and how people will react.” He lied instead. Hyunjin brushed a strand of hair from his face. 

“People will love it, don't worry.” He said as he got closer to Felix. “You are like a gem Felix. Your face…” He cupped Felix's face with one hand. “Never seen someone so beautiful in my life and I have a problem.” Felix raised his eyebrow at him as their bodies were flushed against each other. “Part of me wants to show you to the whole world so they can appreciate your beauty and part of me wants to hide you from everyone so only I can have this gem.” He whispered. Felix felt Hyunjin putting the glasses on the table behind him but he couldn't take his eyes off the darkest brown eyes looking at him with so much passion. He wanted to taste it, he wanted to feel what it would be like. His chest was rising and falling as his breaths got heavier. Hyunjin took him by the hand and brought him to his bedroom without a word. 

They started kissing slowly. The city lights were illuminating the room. Felix stopped thinking about the possibilities long ago. The only thing on his mind was how soft Hyunjin's lips were and how he wanted to kiss them all night. Hyunjin's huge hands went under his sweater again and the contrast between his cold hands and Felix's hot body made him shiver. 

“You taste so good.” Hyunjin said between their kisses and sucked on his plump upper lip. Then moved his lips to Felix's neck. Decorated it with tiny kisses. When he sucked the spot under his ear Felix moaned. “I love the sounds you make.” Felix could feel himself getting hard and he didn't know if it was because of the kisses or praises. The room felt too hot to have clothes on so Felix took his sweater off in one swift move and went back to kissing Hyunjin as he didn't want to be away from those lips for too long. While kissing, Hyunjin directed him towards the bed. When the back of his knees touched the bed Hyunjin made him sit down and started taking his clothes off. Felix watched him intently as his naked torso became visible and his biceps flexed while taking his pants off. Felix licked his lips when he stood in front of him in nothing and the way he looked down at him made his stomach turn in anticipation. 

“Tell me how you want it.” Hyunjin said, cupping his face again. 

“You said I'm a jewel. Make me feel like one. Show me how you would treat me if I was yours.” He didn't know desire could be seen so clearly but Felix saw the fire in Hyunjin's eyes. Tasted it when his tongue invaded his mouth. Felt it as his hands touched every inch of his body. Making it burn along with himself with every touch. They broke the kiss momentarily as Hyunjin took Felix's shorts and underwear off. Felix scooted back a little to lay more comfortably. Hyunjin was on top of him again soon enough. Kissing and licking his neck and shoulders as his hands kneaded his naked ass. He was already hard and needed some friction so he lifted himself a little and Hyunjin got the message. They started humping each other while their lips met in another messy kiss. Felix's patience was running thin. He wanted that man inside him and he wanted it now. 

“Please.” He broke the kiss. “I want you.” Hyunjin got the lube from the drawer in a second and poured it on his fingers. He circled around the rim and slowly a finger entered inside Felix. His lips were on Felix's nipples kissing and sucking them making them redder with every passing second but it was enough to make Felix feel pleasure. Hyunjin inserted another finger and moved them slowly. Their breaths mixed with each other. Felix's hands were on his arms, holding and squeezing as his muscles flexed with every move. Hyunjin scissored his fingers to make him more loose, avoiding his prostate on purpose and it made Felix frustrated. 

“I'm ready.” He said with a little annoyance. 

“Are you sure?” He just nodded when Hyunjin asked. Hyunjin quickly got the condom and put it on and stood on his knees as he poured a good amount of lube on his dick. Felix gulped. He was never a size queen but Hyunjin's dick made him have second thoughts on that. “Tell me if it hurts.” Hyunjin said before slowly entering. Felix grimaced a little and he thought that he will probably regret this in the morning but he couldn't care less when the rose petals that were Hyunjin’s lips were stroking his neck and his hot tongue was licking his collarbones. After Hyunjin fully bottomed they stayed like that. Just kissing and feeling each other. Then Hyunjin started moving slowly. Going all the way in and out. His firm moves made Felix rock with him. Huge hands were squeezing his thighs and when he angled his hips to hit that spot a deep moan was heard from Felix. Hyunjin smirked and continued with the same rhythm. It was agitating but also made Felix feel every second of it. 

“Nnnggh. Faster. Please.” Felix said when he felt the warmth pooling around his dick. Hyunjin bent forward and put his elbow next to Felix's shoulder and kissed him again while his hips moved faster. One hand was holding and massaging his ass. He started abusing that spot inside him again and again refusing to give Felix a release through touching his aching dick. His moans were getting swallowed. Their bodies were getting slippery because of all the sweat. Felix broke the kiss and licked Hyunjin's neck to taste the salty water and it made Hyunjin delirious. He straightened and held Felix's legs as he pounded inside him hard. Felix tried to find something to hold onto to ground himself and decided gripping the sheets was his best option. His throat got dry from all the moaning. He hoped the walls were soundproofed. 

“I'm close.” Hyunjin stated and Felix nodded. He was close too but couldn't find the strength in him to talk. His stomach was wet with precum and his dick was twitching. 

“Kiss me.” He said as he felt himself getting closer to his climax. Hyunjin didn't make him ask twice and kissed him as they both came with ragged breaths. Hyunjin collapsed on top of him, making him feel warmer. 

“This was…” Hyunjin tried to talk but his mind was all over the place. 

“Amazing?” Felix finished for him and he nodded while smiling. Hyunjin laid beside him and put his arm on Felix's stomach. Felix brushed his hair off Hyunjin's face. Then he saw his wrist. 

“Fuck.” He looked at it closer and saw it was clearly empty. “My lucky bracelet.” He wondered when he lost it. At the restaurant? In the car? In the elevator? He couldn't remember. 

“What happened?” Hyunjin straightened up to look at his wrist. 

“I think I lost my bracelet. It wasn't anything expensive but I made it with my friend when we were in high school.” Hyunjin got up from the bed. Felix was watching him from where he laid. He took a box out of the drawer then came back and sat on the bed. 

“I know it won't feel the same but you said you liked it and I want you to have it.” Hyunjin opened the box to show the emerald bracelet Felix liked. 

“I can't accept this.” Felix shook his head. It felt too inappropriate. Ignore that he was naked in the same man's bed. 

“I was planning to give it to you anyway. Now that you don't have a lucky charm I hope it brings you luck.” Hyunjin took it from the box and Felix let him put it on his wrist.

“Thank you.” He whispered and laid back again. Looking at the bracelet closely. 

“You can take a shower. If you want.” Hyunjin offered but Felix shook his head. 

“I feel too tired.” 

Hyunjin stood up and threw the used condom in the bin and exited the room. Felix was trying hard to keep his eyes open. He needed to get dressed and go home. He had a schedule in the morning and Jisung would kill him if he made him wait again. Hyunjin came back with a towel and started wiping Felix. 

“What are you doing?” He asked. 

“You said you were too tired. You can sleep here.” He walked away when he was done but Felix stopped him. 

“Where are you going?” Hyunjin looked at him confused.

“I'll sleep on the couch.” Felix bit his lip. He really wanted to sleep but making Hyunjin sleep on the couch would make him feel worse.

“The bed is huge enough to fit five people. It won't be an issue. Plus you were inside me like five minutes ago so…” He shrugged and Hyunjin laughed. He got into the bed and they laid down facing each other. 

“Goodnight, Felix.” Was the last thing Felix heard before his brain turned off. 

The buzzing sound made his already spinning head worse. He wished someone would just turn it off but it kept ringing in his ears. He slowly opened his eyes to see the source of the noise and instead came face to face with a sleeping Hyunjin. He shut his mouth with his hand quickly to not make a sound. The man looked so peaceful and unbothered despite the buzzing sound. Oh, yes the sound. He turned around and slowly got up from the bed. He hissed when he felt how sore his ass was. When he went to the living room saw his purse on the couch and heard the muffled sound of his phone ringing. Felix took out his phone and was shocked to see it was almost 8AM which meant he was late. He answered the phone with fear. 

“Hello?” He said softly. 

“Hello?! HELLO?!” He put his phone away from his ear when Jisung shouted. “I called you a dozen times. You are not home, you are not picking up your phone and no one knows shit about where you are. I was about to call the police to inform them you have been kidnapped.”

“Sorry. I…” He looked back at the sleeping figure in the bed. “I'll explain everything when I get there. Just tell the people I was sick yesterday and we are gonna be a little late.” 

“You better have a good explanation for this, Felix.” Jisung said before hanging up. Felix got dressed in a few minutes. And left a sticky note stating he had an early schedule. He didn't want to wake Hyunjin up since it could make things awkward but he didn't want to leave without saying anything. He left the building through the parking lot again and called himself a cab. His house wasn't far away from here so it didn't take him too long to get his apartment. Jisung was waiting for him with his arms crossed. 

“Yes?” He said, waiting for his promised explanation. Felix made his way to the bedroom as Jisung followed him. “They said you left dinner around 10. Where have you been?” Felix sighed as he took his clothes and a towel from the closet. 

“I was with Hyunjin.” There was no reason for him to hide it from Jisung. His friend froze for a moment with his mouth hanging open. 

“Felix! Tell me you did not do it.” Felix passed by him and went to the bathroom. Jisung followed him again. “No, you can't go after dropping the bomb on me.” He stood there while Felix was taking his clothes off. 

“What more do you want me to say?” He asked. 

“Everything! Where? How? Why?” Felix stepped into the shower and turned the tap on. 

“He sat next to me at dinner. I started hyperventilating like a lunatic so I went to the bathroom and turns out he was watching me and we kissed.” He started shampooing his hair. 

“And?” Jisung insisted. 

“He asked me to come to his home I accepted and we fucked. That's it.” 

“Why did you say yes, Felix? He is your boss.” Felix closed his eyes for a second. 

“I don't know, okay? It just happened. Can we stop talking about this now?” Jisung’s face softened. 

“Okay, I won't bring it up again. As long as it stays as a one time thing.”

“Believe me. It will never happen again.”

Except it did happen again. To his credit Felix had no intention of doing anything inappropriate when he stepped in Hyunjin's office. They came to the company to discuss something related to his schedule and he dropped by Hyunjin's office to give the cookies he baked as a thank you for the bracelet. Somehow he ended up on Hyunjin's desk with his tongue exploring his mouth and his hands groping his ass. Felix wondered when it all went wrong. He broke their kiss for a moment. 

“Someone can come in.” He said as Hyunjin moved his lips to his jawline then his neck. 

“I told Chan to not let anyone in for an hour.” Felix furrowed his brows. 

“An hour? What are we gonna do for an hour?” Hyunjin stopped the kisses and looked into Felix's eyes. 

“What do you think, angel?” He said with a smirk Felix wanted to wipe off his face. That's how Felix found himself bent over on the same desk with Hyunjin's tie in his mouth so he wouldn't make a sound. When they kissed each other goodbye and Felix left the office he couldn't even lift his head, too afraid to come face to face with anyone especially Chan. 

When he exited the company Jisung was waiting for him in the car. Felix hissed after getting into the car a little too roughly. Jisung sighed. 

“I'm not even gonna ask.” He said as he started the engine. “It is like your logic disappears when you are with this man. Fucking at the company?! What are you? A horny dog?” Felix listened to his rambling in silence; he knew Jisung was right and he couldn't explain why he was acting this way.

“I'm sorry.” Was the only thing he could say. 

“At least you know you should be sorry.” Jisung sighed again. “I'm just worried if this goes out of hand you'll be the only one getting hurt.” Felix nodded. 

“I know. I'll be careful, I promise.” Jisung didn't look like he believed Felix's words but he didn't comment on it. 

Felix's phone buzzed.

Unknown Number:

The cookies were delicious but not as much as the baker… Thank you

Felix bit his lips and tried not to alert Jisung. Quickly typed an answer and looked out the window.

You can come over and I can show you how I make them. You can taste the baker too if you behave. 

Another buzzing sound. 

Can't wait. 

Felix giggled to himself, forgetting he was in a car with Jisung. 

“Who am I even talking to?” Jisung said as he shook his head. 

Just like that Hyunjin became a constant in Felix's life. There was a pull they couldn't fight off, not that they ever tried to, a pull so strong it defied all their logic. Whenever they were at an event together Felix found himself in Hyunjin's arms. It happened at the celebratory dinner after their campaign became a huge success, at a fashion show they attended together, even at a charity event where they couldn't take it anymore and started kissing in a cleaning closet  of all places. It was rushed and stupid. They were acting like teenagers but they were too far gone to care. It happened again and again. At first it was more about sex but as days went by they started having lazy mornings together. Lazy mornings turned into starting their days together. Taking showers together. Filling the bathtub if they had time. They started having breakfasts. Making dinners, even having movie nights. Some nights they just cuddled and slept together. Felix realized he loved talking to Hyunjin as much as he loved having sex with him. He always had interesting thoughts and Felix loved hearing about them in full detail. He loved how he is a little grumpy in the mornings because he hates waking up early, how he talks to the characters in the movies like they hear him, how animated he gets while talking about his passions, how he cracks the spines of his books cause they are meant to be read, how hot his body gets when they fuck, how nice he smells even when he is sweating, how soft his hair is and how there is a perfectly placed mole under his eye. It didn't take Felix long to realize he had fallen in love with Hyunjin. It came as easy as breathing to him. So he didn't hesitate when Hyunjin asked him to be his boyfriend. 

It has been three years since then and Felix still loves him the same if not more. His heart still beats the same when he stands in front of Hyunjin's door. He enters the code he knows by heart. It is their birthdays combined. A little cheesy but Felix loves it. When he opens the door and steps inside he sees Hyunjin standing by the table in front of the window. Felix doesn't take off his shoes before rushing to his boyfriend. Hyunjin had a few seconds to set the tray he was holding on the table before Felix jumps on him and makes him stumble a little. 

“Hi.” Felix says with a huge smile. 

“Hi, angel.” Hyunjin says it back. Felix's eyes take in the sight of his face for a few seconds before decorating it with kisses.

“I missed you.” He says between the kisses. It makes Hyunjin giggle. 

“I missed you more.” Felix stops for a second to look at Hyunjin. 

“I fell for it again.” He pouts and Hyunjin kisses it away. 

“It is not a competition angel.” Felix kisses his lips. Hyunjin opens his mouth immediately and Felix loves it. He feels like he can breathe again now that his boyfriend is here with him. He can't get enough of those soft rose petals no matter how many times he tastes them but Hyunjin breaks the kiss before he can go deeper.

“Aren't you hungry? Let's have dinner first.” He says as he breathes heavily. 

“I was thinking of eating something else.” Felix bites Hyunjin's lower lip playfully. Hyunjin slowly puts him on his feet again. 

“I made you shrimp pasta. Go wash your hands.” Felix doesn't take his hands off Hyunjin's neck. 

“So you were just lying when you said you missed me more.” He puts tiny kisses on Hyunjin's neck and jawline. “I spent two weeks without you. Fuck dinner.” He knows his power on Hyunjin. it would be so easy to make him ditch dinner and eat Felix instead but his stomach chooses this moment to growl loudly so Hyunjin gently removes his hands and looks at his eyes. 

“I cleared my schedule for tomorrow morning. I'll be yours after dinner.” He caresses Felix's cheek with his thumb. “Now go wash your hands. Also take your shoes off, please.”

Felix really wants to focus on what Hyunjin says. He really does. It is just that he is too horny to function right now. Hyunjin set the table up nicely with the dishes he cooked, flowers he arranged and candles they bought together when they were shopping. Felix appreciates all of it. The pasta is delicious, the flowers and candles look pretty. So does Hyunjin with his hair in a bun. In a tank top where his arms are visible. And his muscles move  while he’s talking about something regarding his business trip Felix guesses. He isn't sure cause he hasn't been listening for the past ten minutes. He bites his lip and takes a sip from his wine. His mind is going to places and he can't stop it. It is inevitable when he has such a hot boyfriend whom he didn't have sex for two whole weeks. His eyes roam on the arm muscles. Then move to the fingers. How he wishes those long fingers would be inside him instead of gesturing about some jewels. He shakes his head and takes a bite from his pasta. He looks at Hyunjin's face to focus on what he says but his eyes decide to land on his lips instead. He intently watches the plump lips moving and his pink tongue peeking between them. He wants to kiss them so badly. Already missing the taste of that mouth. He licks his lips with the thought of Hyunjin exploring his mouth again. 

“I think we are done with our dinner.” Hyunjin announces and it leaves Felix confused cause neither of them finished their plates and the side dishes remain untouched. He doesn't question it. He is glad the dinner part is over.

“I mean, if you say so.” he says and gets up to tidy up the table. Hyunjin catches his hand. 

“We'll deal with it later.” Felix doesn't have time to answer before Hyunjin throws Felix over his shoulder and carries him to the bedroom. He drops him on the bed rather harshly and is on top of Felix before he has time to breathe. 

“I thought we were having dinner first.” Felix says with a smirk. 

“I was trying to be romantic but you keep looking at me with those needy eyes. I'm a man after all.” Felix snorted. 

“What am I? A tree?” He jokes. Hyunjin kisses his lips softly. 

“You are my angel.” 

“You are so good to me today, maybe I should reward you.” Felix straightens a little to whisper Hyunjin's ear. “Undress me.”

Hyunjin does as Felix says. He takes off the glittery button up shirt and white jeans leaving Felix only in red laced panties. “Take your clothes off too.” Felix watches Hyunjin as he takes his tank top and pants, leaving his underwear. Then Felix spreads his legs under Hyunjin's curious eyes. “Go on. Take a look.” He dares Hyunjin. The tall man puts his hands on Felix's knees and spreads them more. He pushes the panties to the side looks down then looks at Felix again. “Do you like it?” Felix and the answer is a heated kiss of the lips. Hyunjin’s fingers hold the heart shaped bead before breaking the kiss. 

“I love it, angel.” Hyunjin starts moving the buttplug as fast as humanly possible without a warning and continues kissing Felix. The blond wraps his arms around his lover and enjoys both the taste of the lips and the rhythm of the hand. He almost cries with pleasure as the moans rip out of his throat without him meaning to. 

“I… prepared myself… nicely… for you…” Hyunjin licks Felix's neck and whispers in his ear. 

“Did you think about me while fingering yourself?” He asks as his hand still works in and out of Felix's hole. 

“Nnngh… yes.” Felix answers simply as his body keeps rocking with Hyunjin’s movements. Hyunjin's tongue travels lower and circles around Felix's perky nipple. 

“Did it feel good?” He starts sucking the nipple after asking which makes it harder for Felix to answer. 

“Yes but…” Hyunjin slows down a little for him to talk easier. “nothing compares to you.” Felix says, looking into Hyunjin's eyes. Hyunjin quickly takes out the plug and sets it aside. He flips Felix on all fours with ease and enters him in one move. Felix's deep moan echoes from the walls as Hyunjin starts moving. Although Felix prepared himself, it has been two weeks without having sex with Hyunjin and he can feel his hole squeezing Hyunjin and his dick twitches with every little movement. He arches his back more Hyunjin's hands keep him steady as he hammers down on him roughly. The bed makes creaking sounds under them as they moan and whimper together. One of Hyunjin's hands grab his hair from under and pulls Felix's head back as he quickens his pace. His other hand slaps his ass cheek loudly and makes him shudder. His panties are soaked with his precum. His insides suck Hyunjin in, almost trying to keep him there. He feels the familiar pull under his belly.

“I'm close.” His voice comes out hoarse because of the moans. Hyunjin pulls out and flips him on his back this time. When he goes back in he hits the bundle of nerves straight on making Felix arch his back and scream his name. He bends over and captures Felix's lips as he continues his merciless rhythm. Felix holds on Hyunjin's shoulders and wraps his legs around his waist to steady himself. He keeps kissing and licking Hyunjin's lips as the pleasure pools around his dick. A few more thrusts from Hyunjin and they moan into each other's mouth as they reach their climax together. Felix feels how wet Hyunjin's body has become when he collapses on top of him. He tries to dry it with his hand a little. Before he can say anything his stomach grumbles and fills the silence. 

“I think I can have dinner now.” Felix feels the vibration of Hyunjin's laugh. It feels like butterflies on his skin. Hyunjin raises his head to look at Felix. 

“Of course angel, let me wipe us clean first.”

After Hyunjin gets them clean they have dinner together. They don't bother dressing  again. Felix refuses to leave Hyunjin's side so he sits on his leg while listening to his stories about the business trip. Their laughter and the sounds of cutlery fills the room. The food has gone cold but to Felix it feels warm. It was the best dinner he had in a while. In two weeks to be exact. When he suddenly holds Hyunjin's face and kisses him it surprises Hyunjin. 

“What was that for?” Felix caresses his cheeks with his thumbs. 

“I hate being apart from you. Everything becomes unbearable when you are not here.” Hyunjin holds Felix’s right hand and kisses his palm. 

“I'm here now.” He reassures Felix. They spend the night making love to each other and trying to catch up on the weeks they have missed. If it wasn't for the tiredness of the day Felix wouldn't sleep at all but the fatigue catches up to him, making his eyes close. The last thing he feels is Hyunjin kissing his temple before his body shuts down. 

Felix knows he has to open his eyes. He feels the feather touches and hears loving whispers but his eyes refuse to cooperate. 

“Wake up, angel.” Felix scoots closer to the warm body next to him and buries his face in Hyunjin's neck. 

“Come on, you have to wake up.” 

“I don't wanna.” His answer comes muffled. Hyunjin caresses his blond hair.

“Do you want to spend our time sleeping? I have to leave in a few hours.” This makes Felix open his eyes and lift his face to look at Hyunjin.

“No, you can't leave.” Felix says and hugs his middle tightly. “I was so tired I slept and wasted the time.” 

“Don't worry angel. We still have three hours. Do you want to have breakfast?” Felix shakes his head. 

“I have to shower first, I'm filthy.” Hyunjin strokes his hair again. 

“Okay, wait here. I'll fill the bathtub.” Hyunjin kisses his cheek then gets up. Felix watches his firm ass as he exits the room and smiles to himself. 

Warm water makes his sore muscles feel better. He sits between Hyunjin's legs slowly. He leans on his chest, puts his head on his shoulder and relaxes his whole body. 

“Should we adopt a dog?” Hyunjin blurts out, making Felix surprised. 

“Where did that come from?” Hyunjin shrugs.

“So we don't feel lonely when the other is not here.” Felix bites his lips. This feels like a huge commitment. Although they are already dating this feels like it would make things more serious. It gives Felix enough courage to talk about something he has been wanting to for weeks.

“Actually I have something to ask you.” He straightens up and turns to Hyunjin. The sharp eyes follow his every movement. 

“Yes?” Hyunjin asks him to continue. 

“I want to make our relationship public.” He says in one breathe and waits for Hyunjin's reaction which starts with avoiding his eyes and a sigh. 

“You know we can't do that.” 

“I know the risks, Hyunjin. But I don't want us to hide anymore. I want to go on dates with you. Hold your hand when we go outside. Give you a kiss when we say goodbye. I want to be able to say that you're my boyfriend outside of the four people who know.” Hyunjin nods as he listens to Felix. 

“I want all of those things too. But I don't want you to get hurt. You know what people are gonna say. I can handle them talking shit about me but I won't be able to if they say something bad about you.” Hyunjin tries desperately but Felix is determined.

“I'm not a newbie anymore. Their reactions won't determine my career. I know you want to protect me but I want this more than anything.” Felix tries to make eye contact but Hyunjin refuses. 

“We met when you were a newbie. I'm older than you and I was your boss. They can and will imply so many ugly things about you and me. I won't let them tarnish our relationship like this.” Felix calms his nerves down. He knew the reaction would be like this. This is not the first time he opened this topic to Hyunjin but the older one always shut it down. 

“Who cares about what they say? We know it is not true–” Hyunjin cuts him off. 

“Felix, I won't let you get hurt because of me and this is final.” Felix looks at his face and sees there is no way for him to change Hyunjin's decision. 

“Fine. Listen to what other people say instead of what I want.” He gets up and goes out of the bathtub. He doesn't bother with drying himself and goes straight to the bedroom gathering his clothes from the floor. He hears footsteps but doesn't turn around until Hyunjin ends up in front of him with a towel around his hips and another one in his hand. He lets Hyunjin dry him for a few minutes. 

“Don't get mad at me. I only want the best for you.” Hyunjin makes him look up to his face while holding his chin. 

“No. You think you know what's best for me but you don't listen to me.” Felix swats his hand away and crosses his arms in front of him. 

“Let's talk about this another time, okay? We don't have much time left for breakfast. I also have a gift for you.” Hyunjin doesn't wait for an answer from Felix and pulls a huge velvet box from one of the drawers. He drags Felix in front of the mirror. “Close your eyes.” He whispers and Felix listens to him. He is still upset but he can't help but be curious about the gift. He feels the coldness of a necklace and waits for Hyunjin to put it on him before slowly opening his eyes. He always loves Hyunjin's designs. They are sophisticated and elegant. They tell a story to curious eyes. The one he supports right now reminds Felix of the night sky. His fingers reach for the huge sapphire in the middle. As dark as a starless sky. The diamonds splattered around it look like tiny leaves Felix can almost hear the sound of a strong wind. His eyes catch the siren eyes through the mirror. 

“It is beautiful.” He says and returns to look at himself. He is naked except for the necklace but he feels like that's how it is supposed to be worn. 

“I made it for you.” Hyunjin kisses his shoulder. “I only had you in my mind while I made this. Your eyes, your lips, your freckles… This necklace is you, Felix. I didn't plan it to be an apology gift but I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you.” Felix sighs.

“I know.” He turns to Hyunjin. “But what am I supposed to say when people ask about who made this?” Felix has countless gifts from Hyunjin and he adores them all but this is different. It looks expensive and it is obviously handmade. Felix can't say it is from Hyunjin. Nobody knows they are close. 

“Just say it is a sponsored item.”  Felix rolls his eyes. 

“Oh yes. How did I forget that?” Hyunjin takes his hands. 

“Come on, let's have breakfast.” 

Felix doesn't insist on sulking but their breakfast isn't as cheerful as usual. When it is time to say goodbye Hyunjin makes Felix stop at the door. 

“Are we good?” Felix smiles as much as he can.

“Of course, love.” He stands on his tiptoes and gives a quick kiss to Hyunjin. 

Felix has been giving Hyunjin the cold shoulder since that day. He didn't intend to but he can't help it. He is upset about the whole situation and he needs some time to himself. Felix doesn't understand why Hyunjin is being so stubborn. He is an adult and he can take decisions regarding his own well being. Felix sighs and puts his phone down on the counter. 

“Here is my favorite customer.” A tall woman with ginger hair walks in. She opens her arms to hug Felix and he happily accepts it. 

“Hi, Jessica.” She backs away to look at Felix. 

“What can I do for you, pretty?” She always showers Felix with compliments and he likes it. 

“I want to touch up my roots again.” Having blond hair is too much work but he is so used to being blond he can't imagine himself without it. Plus Hyunjin likes his long blond hair so he is keeping it. 

“Please sit. I'll be back with the dye.” Jessica makes him sit on one of the chairs and puts an apron around him. Someone from the staff comes and hands him his usual iced latte. From the corner of his eyes he sees a familiar figure on the screen. A huge led tv on the side wall is playing the news and they show Hyunjin as he is talking about Korean heritage and their history with jewels. He has everyone's attention on him as usual and he looks pristine with his black suit and slicked back hair. 

“He is handsome isn't he?” The staff tells him and Felix turns away from the tv. 

“He is a total eye candy.” Jessica says as she comes back with her equipment and starts to work on Felix's hair. “He should be a model or an actor. Wasting his face like that should be a crime.” Felix puts on a fake smile and doesn't say anything. The cleaning lady agrees. 

“He has both the face and the body. I know he has women and men after him.” Women giggle and Jessica goes back to dyeing Felix's hair. 

“You didn't say anything.” She eyes Felix curiously. Normally Felix would join them on their talk about handsome men give his opinions and rate them from 1 to 10 but now he just wants the topic to change and for them to never talk about Hyunjin again. 

“He is not my type.” He straight up lies. 

“Come on, he is handsome, tall and has a nice build. He has your name written on his forehead.” The women giggle again and Felix takes a sip from his latte to relax. 

“I don't know, I guess businessmen aren't doing it for me.” Jessica shrugs. Felix thinks it is over until another customer walks in and sits on the chair next to him. 

“Who are you talking about?” He asks Jessica. Felix remembers seeing him in fashion events but doesn't know what his profession is. 

“Hwang Hyunjin. Do you know him?” The man gasps. 

“I saw him in person once and let me tell you the screen doesn't do that man's beauty justice.” And Felix’s torture starts again. “He is gorgeous!” Two other girls come near to gossip. 

“Where did you see him?” One of them asks.

“It was at an after party. He was surrounded by so many people but I had a chance to talk with him and oh my god everything about that man is perfect. His eyes feel like he is looking into your soul. I was stuttering the whole time. He also smells heavenly, I wonder which perfume he uses. I'm also pretty sure he swings that way.” He ends his talk with a wink and Felix bites his lips to not say anything. 

“Did you shoot your shot?” Jessica jokes. 

“Girl, I would have if I didn't lose my ability to talk. He totally looks like someone who would rock your world in bed.” Everyone except Felix laughs. 

“You know what they say about men with big noses.” One of the girls jokes and their laughter gets louder. 

“He is packed down there, trust me.” The man winks again and Felix uses all his power to not punch his stupid face. 

“Okay, we are done.” Jessica says and Felix looks at his hair full of foils. He regrets coming here today but he has to wait for ten more minutes at least. 

“I'll use the restroom.” He says and quickly leaves he can still hear their laughter on his way to the bathroom. He locks himself in one of the stalls and starts crying. He doesn't know why he feels this frustrated. He knows they are just joking and he has done the same with them about other men in the past. But it hurts to not being able to tell them to stop. He didn't like the way they talked about his love like he is a piece of meat. He wipes his tears and thinks about how ridiculous he is being. He takes his phone out and dials his friend's number. 

“Hey. Can we meet up? I need to talk.” His voice comes out a little shaky. 

“Of course. Does tomorrow afternoon sound good?” Felix nods although his friend can't see him. 

“Good. Let's have lunch together.”

Felix arrives at the restaurant ten minutes late. The waiter shows the way to private booths where his friends wait for him. He hugs them tightly before sitting down. They place their orders then the brunette turns to Felix. 

“Spill.” Felix tells them everything from his talk with Hyunjin to what happened yesterday at the hair saloon. 

“Am I overreacting? I felt so helpless but crying over something like this sounds weird, doesn't it?” Felix looks at his friends. Seungmin is his childhood friend. They grew up together and his insight is important to him. He met Jeongin after becoming a model but he feels like a younger brother to Felix that's why he reacts hastily.

“Overracting?! I think you are underreacting. You should've told them that's your man.” 

“I can't do that, Innie. Hyunjin doesn't want us to go public.” Jeongin rolls his eyes. 

“Bullshit. If the roles were reversed he would punch that man and the whole world would know he fucks you.” Felix smiles to himself with the thought. They turn to Seungmin to hear what he thinks. 

“I don't like saying I told you so.” Jeongin cuts him off to call him a liar but Seungmin continues. “You agreed to keep this relationship a secret, Felix. To protect your image and career. You can't go back on that now. It will harm you more than it will harm him and he knows that.” 

“I know the risks and I'm ready to face them.” Seungmin sighs and holds Felix's hand. 

“I can see that you are but maybe he is not. Think of what happened at the hair salon but on a bigger scale. You were a rookie when you two met. He was your boss at the time. People are gonna call you all sorts of names, Felix. Maybe he is not ready to face that.” Felix thinks about how awful he felt yesterday. Is he being too harsh on Hyunjin? He didn't realize it could affect Hyunjin like that. 

“I think you are right.” Felix says and Seungmin smiles. 

“I know.” They both laugh at his answer. 

“That's gonna feed his ego.” Jeongin states. 

“Okay, enough of me. What's up with you two?” Felix asks his friends. Seungmin is a photographer and Jeongin is a model. Felix loves it when they meet at shows and can gossip about others while working. 

“I'm flying to Spain next week for a photoshoot. I'm planning to turn it into a vacation.” Felix nods at Seungmin's answer. 

“Are you going alone?” Jeongin asks. 

“I'm bringing my boyfriend, of course. That's why he is working his ass off these days. So he can come with me. He says hi by the way.” Seungmin answers smugly. Changbin and Seungmin met while they were working for the same magazine. Their relationship started with lots of bickering because Changbin is an editor and Seungmin hates it when people tell him what to do. But it was obvious Changbin was into him so Felix just gave him a little nudge and it all worked in the end. 

“See you and Changbin are openly dating and it didn’t  become an issue.” Seungmin rolls his eyes. 

“Yes, Felix, but I'm not South Korea's angel and he doesn't own a big company.” Seungmin takes a magazine from his bag. “Speaking of Changbin, here is your issue.” He gives it to Jeongin. 

“I did an interview with them.” Jeongin explains to Felix as he nods. 

“Jeongin is planning to start his own brand.” Seungmin blurts and gets a smack from Jeongin. He is turning the pages as he gives a dirty look to Seungmin. 

“Was that a secret?” Felix asks. 

“Yes, but I saw his vision board.” Seungmin smirks. 

“Invasion of privacy.” Jeongin says and returns to the magazine. “Seungmin?” He says a few seconds later. 

“What?” 

“Did you check the issue before bringing it to me?” Seungmin frowns. 

“No? Is there a mistake?” Jeongin silently shows him what's on the paper and they both turn to Felix with worried faces.

“What?” Felix laughs nervously. “Is there gossip about me?” 

“Show him.” Seungmin says. “He is gonna see it anyway.” Jeongin turns the magazine towards Felix and he feels his body setting ablaze as soon as he reads what's written on the page. He yanks the magazine from Jeongin's hand and stands up. 

“I'll kill him.” He turns to Seungmin. “Then I'll strangle your stupid boyfriend.” 

“Felix, calm down.” Seungmin but the blond is already heading outside.

“I'm calm.” He starts running towards to exit. 

“Should we try to stop him?” Jeongin asks with worry. 

“Nah. Let Hyunjin handle him. He knew what he got himself into when they started dating.” 

By the time Felix arrives at the company he is still fuming. He watches the numbers go up in the elevator and tries to calm himself down a little. He exits the elevator and makes his way towards Hyunjin's office bypassing Chan who shouts for Felix to stop. 

“We have to talk.” Felix says as soon as he opens the door. Three men inside the room turn to him in surprise but he only looks at one of them. His eyes don't leave Hyunjin as he stands up. 

“Okay, gentlemen. Why don't we talk about the details at dinner tonight? It is on me.” He shakes their hands and shows the door for them to leave. The men give Felix judgemental looks but his eyes are still on Hyunjin. “Chan, please make a dinner reservation and don't let anyone in.” Hyunjin says to him behind Felix. The blond hears the door closing. “Yes, my love. What is it?” Hyunjin sits down on his chair and gestures to Felix to sit on one of the chairs in front of his desk. Felix doesn't sit, he just gets closer and throws the magazine at Hyunjin.

“What's this?” Hyunjin asks. 

“Take a look.” Felix crosses his arms in front of him. Hyunjin turns the pages of the magazine and stops when he sees himself on the paper.

“You are mad because they wrote me as a favorite bachelor?” Hyunjin raises one of his eyebrows at Felix. 

“No, Hyunjin. They didn't write it. They did a survey between the people within the industry. These are the people who know you, Hyunjin. Who work with me.” Hyunjin sighs as he stands up. He walks to the Felix and reaches for his hands but Felix doesn't let him. 

“Don't touch me. You think I'm being childish don't you? How would you feel if you were in my place?” Hyunjin insists on holding Felix in his arms and Felix lets him this time. Long arms wrap themselves around him. He raises his head to look at Hyunjin. 

“You have to understand, ever since the day I met you my eyes don't see anyone other than you. My ears are only to listen to you. My nose just wants to smell your scent and my lips only long for your lips.” He brushes his lips against Felix's. “My body and soul live for you Felix. No one else.”

“I know. And I want other people to know too.” Felix whispers. “Please, Hyunjin. I need this.” 

“We can't, Felix. I can't.” Hyunjin goes in to kiss Felix but he leaves his arms. 

“Do you want them to keep seeing you as the ideal bachelor?” He asks and Hyunjin suppresses his laugh. 

“What?” 

“You heard me. You don't want us to go public so you can be available and when the time comes you'll find a better suitor to marry.” Felix crosses his arms. 

“Darling, you are being ridiculous.” Hyunjin can't help but laughs.

“You think this is funny? Okay then.” He moves forward and makes Hyunjin sit on one of the chairs in front of the desk. “If you want to act single in public go ahead.”

“Are you breaking up with me?” Hyunjin asks with worry but Felix dismisses.

“Of course not.” Hyunjin feels relieved. “But from now on you can't kiss me, touch me or even look at me when we are in public.” 

“Angel–” Hyunjin tries to reach out but Felix moves away. 

“No, Hyunjin. Your office counts as public too.” He goes to the door and slams it as hard as possible. If he can't convince Hyunjin to announce their relationship by talking he has to take action. 

Felix hears the door opening as he puts the flower next to others. Jisung enters and closes the door behind him. 

“I gave you the code for emergencies. I thought you learned your lesson last time you walked on me giving head to Hyunjin.” Jisung shivers at the memory. 

“I learned my lesson, don't worry. I assumed you would be busy with preparing.” He looks around. “Where is everyone?” 

“I'm getting prepared by myself today. Did you get the clothes I wanted?” Jisung shows the bag he threw over his shoulders.

“Perfect.” Felix opens the bag and looks at the white backless top. Jisung eyes the coffee table full of different kinds of lilies.

“Are they from sponsors?” He asks. 

“No, they are from Hyunjin.” Felix answers before making his way to his bedroom. Jisung follows not long after and sees another bunch of lilies sitting in front of the window.

“Did something happen?” Felix starts changing his clothes without looking at him. He can’t explain to Jisung what happened. Jisung is his manager and he is planning to make his relationship public without consulting anyone from the agency. 

“My sweet lily. It has been days since I saw your face.” He turns around to see Jisung reading the note he put on his vanity. “My heart craves your company more than–” Felix snatches the note and puts it in a drawer.

“That wasn't meant for you.” He says to Jisung and sits on the chair to do his make up. Jisung looks at him through the mirror. 

“Then tell me what happened.” Jisung instists. 

“I can't. You are my manager.” Felix starts doing his make up. 

“Felix I saved your ass from the agency countless times since you started dating. Do you think I'm gonna snitch now?” Jisung looks offended and Felix sighs.

“It is different.” He turns around to look Jisung in the eye. “Promise you won't try to stop me or tell anyone about it.” 

“I promise.” Jisung puts his hand on his heart to show his sincerity. 

“I'm trying to make my relationship with Hyunjin public.” Felix says in one breath. Jisung freezes. He shows no reactions for a few minutes. Felix turns to continue his make up thinking he is done with it but gets startled when Jisung shouts. 

“ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?” 

“Can you keep it down?” Felix warns Jisung through the mirror. 

“Oh, I'm sorry for worrying about my friend's mental health.” Jisung says mockingly. 

“Please, don't start. I heard enough of this and I know what I'm doing.” 

“I doubt it.” Jisung snorts. “What about the flowers?” 

“We had a fight. Hyunjin doesn't want people to know about us.” Felix explains as he is getting his eye makeup done.

“At least someone thinks logically. So what are you gonna do? Does it involve the backless top you specially requested?” Felix smiles to himself.

“You know, I have been careful since our relationship is a secret but Hyunjin can be possessive at times.” He doesn't use much coverage to make his freckles visible and grabs his reddish lipstick. 

“Are you planning to make him punch someone?” Felix laughs.

“I won't go that far.” He applies setting spray to finish his make up. “I’ll just press some of his buttons to make him understand what I want.”

“I'm so glad we aren't dating.” Jisung comments and they laugh. 

Felix is used to flashes. He still gets blinded by them and can't see the faces behind lenses but he can bear them without blinking. He poses for every single camera as he always does. He is a professional after all. Then he turns around to give them the view of his back. He hears a few gasps and smiles to himself. He wore a backless onepiece with long sleeves and a body chain around his waist to complete the look. After his time is up he waves to photographers and climbs the stairs. This is the biggest annual charity event in South Korea so he knows everyone will be here. Everyone including Hyunjin. When he enters the lobby the staff takes him to the huge ballroom where the event is held. He takes a deep breath before entering through giant wooden doors. He feels Hyunjin’s gaze immediately. He doesn't know how he can differentiate it from others but he just can and he avoids returning it on purpose. 

“Felix, welcome.” He sees his colleagues and goes to greet them. They take a good look at his outfit. 

“You look amazing.” Yongwoo says in awe. “And your back looks even more amazing. What are these muscles?” He feels some curious hands touching his back lightly. 

“I just wanted to try something different.” Felix explains simply. “Did you like it?”

“I am more than liking it.” Sooyoung makes everyone laugh. “And I know I'm not the only one.” Felix turns around to see some people looking at their group and accidently catches Hyunjin's gaze. He is in a dark red velvet suit with no shirt. His dark wavy locks fall on his face gracefully. Felix gulps nervously. It has been more than a week since he last saw his boyfriend and seeing him again makes him realize how much he missed Hyunjin. He has a few people around him but he is focused on Felix. It gives Felix an idea. He says goodbye to his friends and starts greeting every person he knows at the event. He has always been a social person so making small talk with other people is never an issue for him. This time he acts even friendlier. He laughs more than he has to, compliments their looks, touches their arms here and there. Some of them behave but he feels wandering hands around his waist from time to time and finds a way to get away from there. 

It takes him almost an hour to reach Hyunjin. The crowd around him is gone except one person. 

“Evan. It has been so long.” He side hugs the ginger haired man. “How are you?” Felix asks without turning to Hyunjin. 

“I'm good, angel.” The nickname makes the air around them stiff but Evan doesn't feel that. “And I see you are good too.” He picks Felix’s hand up to make Felix twirl and he does. “Did your wings drop on the way here? You look breathtaking.” Felix giggles and eyes Hyunjin. The brunette doesn't look at them but Felix can see his knuckles holding his glass getting white. 

“How are you Mr. Hwang?” His question surprises Hyunjin. 

“Not bad. Thank you Mr. Lee.” Hyunjin answers and doesn't bother to ask him back. 

“He is a little weird today. Don't mind him.” Evan jokes and Felix joins his laugh. “But seriously what's your secret? Are you working out?” Evan bends a little to look at his back. 

“I do core exercises to keep in shape.” He feels a hand around the body chain. 

“Is this thing permanent?” Felix nods. Evan straightens up. “You are insane.” Hyunjin's lack of interest in their conversation bothers Felix. 

“I think I'll go now. You must have important business to talk about. Take care.” He was about to leave when Evan's hand stopped him. 

“Don't leave so quickly, angel. At least dance with me once.” Felix fakes a smile. 

“I have to go to the bathroom first. Then I'm yours.” 

“Perfect.” The man grins and lets Felix go. 

The blond slams the bathroom door and thinks to himself with his head leaned on it. Tonight he did some things he didn't approve of but they were friendly acts. Evan, on the other hand, looks like he is interested in him and accepting his dance request feels wrong. He should find a way out of this before Evan thinks he is leading him on. Felix sighs and takes a step back just as someone opens the door and makes him jump. When he sees Hyunjin in front of him closing the door and locking it, he feels a sense of deja vu. 

“What are you doing?” Hyunjin asks, half shouting.

“What do you mean?” Felix plays dumb he can almost feel the anger boiling inside Hyunjin. 

“You know what I mean. Are you trying to punish me?” He takes a step forward and Felix takes a step back to make sure the distance between them stays the same. Because he knows that feeling Hyunjin's closeness will make him regret everything and ditch his plan. 

“I don't know what you are talking about.” Felix crosses his arms in front of him. 

“They are flirting with you Felix. They are buying you drinks, whispering compliments in your ear and touching you. And you are letting them.” Hyunjin narrows his eyes.

“What am I supposed to do?” Felix takes a step forward and looks up to Hyunjin. “Should I tell them I have a boyfriend.” He whispers and Hyunjin leans in a little, making their lips almost touch. “Should I tell them my boyfriend is here, in the same room.” Felix's gaze drops to Hyunjin’s lips. “And he doesn't like other people touching me.” He looks back up to Hyunjin's eyes again. “Should I tell them, Hyunjin?” Hyunjin remains silent but his hand reaches for Felix's waist. Felix sighs. “If not, then I don't see anything wrong.” He removes Hyunjin's hand and goes for the door. 

When he gets close to the doors of the ballroom he sees Evan waiting there looking around and Felix is a second too late to pass unnoticed. 

“There you are.” The man smiles and leads Felix inside the room. 

“You shouldn't have to wait at the door, you know.” They head to the area in the middle of the room where some guests are dancing. 

“And take the risk of someone else snatching you? I don't think so.” Felix bites his lips nervously. He should decline Evan before it gets out of hand but when he sees Hyunjin entering the room from the corner of his eye he changes his mind. Just one dance, he thinks. To make sure his efforts aren't in vain and then he will convince Hyunjin to announce their relationship at the end of the night. With this in his mind, he accepts Evan's hand and they start dancing. It feels fine. He has known Evan since he was a rookie. He is a great director who helped Felix in his first commercial. Their talk feels natural too so Felix gets relaxed as they dance, only to feel his hand start to move lower. 

“Seeing you like this. How did you become even more beautiful?” Evan says while looking directly in his eyes. 

“Uhm… The beauty sector has advanced greatly.” Felix tries to joke but the hand is passing below his waist now. 

“You are being too humble.” Felix looks around to find a way to escape. How long will this song last? “Do you feel nervous?” The man whispers. He must be getting all the wrong ideas if he thinks Felix is into him like that. 

“Actually I don't feel well. Can we–” He doesn't get to finish his sentence as Hyunjin removes Evan's hand from Felix’s waist and twists it before pushing him to the floor. The music stops and everyone turns to look at them. 

“Don't touch my boyfriend again.” He says before taking Felix by the waist and kissing him. Felix hears a few gasps but he doesn't care. He puts his hands on Hyunjin's shoulders. A few drops of happy tears roll down on his cheeks. Finally, he thinks. Hyunjin has accepted it. They break the kiss. 

“I should've done this a long time ago.” Hyunjin whispers and Felix smiles at him. The loud silence takes their attention from each other. Felix sees some people have their phones up towards them. Hyunjin clears his throat. “Sorry for the misunderstanding. Please enjoy the rest of your night” He takes Felix by the hand and they hurriedly exit the room. When they come to the front door Felix makes Hyunjin stop. 

“The reporters are still there.” Hyunjin looks through the glass doors to see them chatting around. “We should exit from the back.” Felix tries to turn but Hyunjin doesn't let him.

“No more hiding.” He says to Felix as they get to the glass doors but Hyunjin stops. “On  second thought…” He takes his jacket off and stays with his vest only. Puts his jacket on Felix's shoulders. “This is better.” Felix laughs. 

“You know they saw it before, right?” They start going down on the stairs hand in hand and gain attention from the reporters. 

“That doesn't mean they get to see it again.” Hyunjin says before they get swarmed with reporters asking them tons of questions about what happened inside and why they are leaving together. At some point it becomes impossible to move forward. “Ladies and gentlemen, my boyfriend is tired and he needs rest. Please allow us. I'll answer your questions later.” Felix looks up from his side. He has always adored Hyunjin. To Felix he is the perfect man he could ever dream of but hearing him calling Felix his boyfriend in front of everyone makes his heart soar. He can't take his eyes off for a moment. He doesn't remember getting into the car. He looks back to see the flashes disappearing around the corner then he drops the jacket and lunges himself on Hyunjin.

He sits on Hyunjin's lap and wraps his arms around his neck as he kisses him passionately. Hyunjin puts his hands on his ass and opens his mouth for Felix to kiss him. Felix licks his plump lips and sucks his tongue. He gets mad for depriving himself off these lips for so long. Their hold keeps getting tighter like they are trying to merge with each other. Felix whines when Hyunjin separates their lips. 

“We should behave.” Hyunjin points at the driver seat with his chin. Felix turns around to see Anthony focused on the road but Felix doesn't want to be disrespectful so he settles in the middle seat instead. Wraps his arm around Hyunjin's. 

“I'm sorry. I didn't realize how important this was for you.”Hyunjin says softly. Felix puts his fingers on Hyunjin's lips. 

“It doesn't matter anymore.” Felix leans his head on Hyunjin's shoulder feeling more content than ever. 

They are in bed without clothes in no time. Mouthing words none of them understands between sucking sounds. Feeling each other in every way they can. Hyunjin’s fingers are already inside him, opening him up nice and slow as his lips wander down to Felix’s neck to leave more kisses. Felix whimpers at the sensation of Hyunjin biting his shoulder. He grabs Hyunjin's hair for support as he adds another finger. His kisses keep going lower; they take time to appreciate his perky nipples then his tongue circles around them and sucks them till they get red. When he is satisfied with the result his tongue goes lower again but stops when he feels the body chain Felix wears. He looks up to him before taking his fingers out of Felix and pulls the chain harshly till it breaks. It stings but it also turns Felix on so much he doesn't utter a single word. 

“Don't wear cheap things like this.” It wasn't cheap at all. Hyunjin gets up and takes the necklace Felix forgot to take with him last time. “Can I?” Hyunjin asks and Felix gets on his elbows for him to put the necklace on easily. 

“I can't believe you stopped  sex because of a fucking chain.” Felix teases and Hyunjin shuts him up with a kiss. He gets between Felix's legs and circles his entrance before pushing inside. Felix lets Hyunjin's tongue invade his mouth as he slowly thrusts in and out of him. Their bodies start to get wet and Felix's fingers roam on Hyunjin's shoulders and arms to feel his sweat. He missed feeling Hyunjin's sweat on him, feeling his dick pulling and pushing inside him, his soft lips on his own. It feels perfect like this. Their bodies on each other like they are made for this. To belong to each other. Hyunjin moves faster as they get more turned on with every passing second. Felix wraps his legs around his waist. One of Hyunjin's hands grabs his ass and changes the angle to get  deeper. It makes Felix whimper and moan in Hyunjin's mouth. And when Hyunjin starts hitting his sweet spot his moans get louder. Their bodies keep rocking together. Hyunjin breaks the kiss and straightens up a little to go faster. Now that there is nothing to block Felix's voice, it echoes through the house. He is torn between moaning and screaming.

“Nnngh… It is… so good!” He cries. Hyunjin throws one of his legs over his shoulder. 

“Are you close, Angel?” Felix just nods. He can feel the pleasure pooling around his leaking dick. Hyunjin gets even faster so Felix holds one of the pillows and bites his lips to not wake the whole neighbourhood. His rhythm becomes erratic. Sweat drops fall on Felix's body from Hyunjin’s wet hair. A few more powerful thrusts and Felix closes his eyes as his dick paints his abdomen white and Hyunjin’s orgasm follows his. 

Minutes pass before they feel like they can breathe again. Felix opens his eyes and sees Hyunjin looking at him leaning on one of his elbows. 

“I love you so much, Angel. I'd get you all the jewels in the world and lay them at your feet if that's what you want.” Felix's hand goes to the necklaces and feels the hard rhinestones on it. Then he pulls Hyunjin for a kiss. 

“The only thing I want is you.” He caresses Hyunjin's cheek with his thumb. “I love you more than you could ever know.” Hyunjin takes his hand and kisses his palm. When they lie down to sleep, Felix feels light as a feather. 

When Felix wakes up the bed feels cold. He is surprised to not find Hyunjin there with him. The taller man never leaves the bed before waking  Felix cause he knows Felix loves their cuddling sessions before starting the day. The blond gets up quietly and takes one of Hyunjin's white shirts to put on. He is about to call for Hyunjin when he exits the room but stops after seeing a man with a cane standing in the middle of the living room. He turns around to go back inside but the man stops him. 

“Come here, you.” Felix goes apologetically and bows to the man before settling next to Hyunjin on the couch. “I thought you were an adult, Hyunjin.” he says with disappointment. 

“Dad, I can explain.” Felix turns to the man in shock. He feels dumb to not see the resemblance. He pulls the shirt down to cover his knees. He can't believe this is how he meets Hyunjin's father for the first time. 

“You went behind my back, Hyunjin. You promised me to make the company your priority. But not only did you break your promise, you caused a scene at an important event. Do you realize the damage you caused to our reputation?” Hyunjin looks down. 

“I know, Dad. I'm sorry.” He looks up to his Father again. “But I will fix this.”

“I already made them take the articles down. You should release a statement about it saying you two saw each other for a while and then we'll announce your break up after a few weeks.” Felix feels his heart drop. 

“No.” Hyunjin says firmly. “I will fix everything without sacrificing my relationship.” 

“Do you think it is worth all the hassle?” Hyunjin's father eyes Felix and he feels even smaller. He can’t say anything to defend himself. He feels guilty for the things he caused. “Maybe everything went well till now but what will happen when his prime passes? When he doesn't get deals anymore? Won't he turn to you to fix it?”

“Don’t talk about my boyfriend like that. I’m sorry for hiding it from you and I know you are angry but if you disrespect him again I’ll have to ask you to leave.” His father sighs. 

“I give you a month to fix this Hyunjin.” He says before going out. Hyunjin turns to Felix. 

“I'm sorry. He isn't always like this but he values this company too much and with all the medication he is taking–” Felix shakes his head. 

“I caused you so much trouble didn't I? I acted childish.” Hyunjin holds his chin to make Felix look him in the eye. 

“I was the one making a scene instead of acting like an adult and I'll fix it. I won't be taking back anything I said about us.” Felix can feel tears pooling in his eyes. “Now I have to make a few calls then we can go out for brunch, what do you say?” 

“I'd love that.” Felix says and Hyunjin pecks his lips. 

2 Months Later

Felix feels his heart beating in his throat. They are heading to the launch of Hyunjin’s new collection and Felix is even more nervous than when he was a rookie. He is an honored guest and this will be the first event they attend as a couple. 

The past months went by so fast. Hyunjin worked so hard to fix everything. They released a statement about the nature of their relationship. They didn't hide the fact they met when Felix was working with Hyunjin's company. People would connect the dots anyway. Hyunjin made up with Evan and apologized for his behaviour. Everything has been going well. Maybe some people said bad things behind their backs, but Felix wouldn't know. He was busy with fashion week stuff and having the best boyfriend ever. Ever since they announced their relationship Hyunjin showed his support for Felix all the time. He even came to Paris with him and watched his show in the front row. Then they had a dreamlike France trip. Saying he has been on cloud nine for past few months wouldn't be an exaggeration. 

“Are you ready?” Jisung asks him and he realizes they have arrived. 

“How do I look?” He asks Jisung. He is in a dark blue satin shirt with a deep cut and silver wide legged dress pants. His hair is slicked back and he has the sapphire necklace Hyunjin gifted him to complete the look. 

“Amazing. Show stopping. Never been done before.” 

“Don't make fun of me.” Felix whines before his car door opens and signals him to come out. He gets greeted by flashes as soon as he gets out of the car. He makes sure to smile at every one of them before stopping at the feet of the red carpet only to see it is Hyunjin's turn to take photos. Felix panics and drops his gaze to the wall of sponsors like it is the most interesting piece of art he has ever seen. From the corner of his eyes he sees Hyunjin going towards him. He looks around a little more but can't move to not make a fool out of himself. Hyunjin stops before him and takes his hand. 

“What are you doing?” Felix whispers as camera flashes go crazier. 

“I want to pose with my boyfriend. Isn't that normal?” They go to the middle of the carpet. Hyunjin wraps his arm around Felix's waist and Felix puts his hand on Hyunjin's chest. He takes a look at the cameras, not being able to see the faces behind them again but imagining them smiling as big as he does. “You look unbelievable.” Hyunjin whispers and Felix giggles. He looks at Hyunjin's side profile. His hair is in a half ponytail. He has a black shirt with gold details and black dress pants. The way he looks never fails to make Felix's heart skip a beat. 

“You are one to talk.” Felix whispers back. Hyunjin smiles and kisses his temple. 

“I have to go now. See you inside, Angel.” 

The rest of the evening feels even better. Hyunjin never leaves Felix's side for a minute. Felix watches him all night explaining his vision in detail like he is hearing it for the first time. Some people get bold and ask about their relationship but Hyunjin answers politely without giving away too much. He makes sure Felix doesn't get tired or bored from standing up too long or listening to long speeches. He doesn't know that Felix can spend hours without doing anything as long as Hyunjin is there with him. 

They take the same car at the end of the night. Feeling tired but their faces look happy. 

“Tonight was great. Thank you.” Felix says. He puts his head on the seat watching Hyunjin. 

“You were the best part of the night.” Hyunjin takes his hand and kisses it. “Since our schedules have cleared a little, what do you think about a real trip?” 

“Like what?” Felix asks curiously. 

“We can go to Europe again. Switzerland, maybe?” 

“You know I'd go anywhere with you.” Felix gets closer. 

“Anywhere?” Felix nods as he comes face to face with Hyunjin. “What about the north pole?”

“I would.” Felix kisses his cheek. 

“The Sahara?” Hyunjin asks again. 

“Doesn't matter.” Felix kisses his other cheek. Hyunjin smiles. 

“Amazon forest?” Felix smiles back at Hyunjin. Their gazes are on each other's lips. 

“I love trees.” Hyunjin snorts. “I'd go to the end of the world with you, Hyunjin. Now shut up and kiss me.”

“Bossy.” Hyunjin jokes but obeys. Their lips meet in the middle. Fitting each other like the puzzle pieces they are. Felix’s heart feels full more than ever.