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Pomni did not know what was wrong with her lately.
She absolutely blamed Ragatha for it.
“Are you doing alright, Pomni? You’ve barely touched your sandwich.”
Pomni glanced down at the huge fish between two slices of bread and sighed. She could feel her body twitch at the sound of the pretty ragdoll next to her - and realized just how fucked she was.
This wasn’t a new revelation. Since they all realized what was going on with the circus, Pomni noticed when she would touch or speak with Ragatha, it felt different. There was an intimacy there, a silent recognition that lingered more than it had the right to. Her mind would race and her skin would flush. The smell of bluebonnets and autumn skies would be imprinted on Pomni’s mind even when she would be asleep. She couldn’t figure out what the cause of this was, only that with Ragatha around, her body seemed to go into overdrive.
She also couldn’t mistake the way her body would feel when Ragatha would hug her, feeling the heat between her legs when the two of them would be close to each other.
“Pomni?”
“Huh?” Pomni snapped out of thought and realized she was staring at this dead fish for at least a minute. She sighed and pushed the plate away, knowing she was completely fucked.
“Sorry, I think I need to splash some water on my face. I’ll be back in a minute.”
Ragatha opened her mouth as Pomni started walking away, but just decided to give a nod. Pomni knew that she was concerned but being horny for your best friend isn’t really something that can just be said openly like that...or maybe even at all.
Pomni was able to head to the washroom near the theater and practically dunked her head in the sink. She needed to get herself together and act normal, even though normalcy in the circus practically doesn’t exist.
She made her way back to her room and crashed on her bed, with her gaze on the ceiling. There was no way she was going to get out of this and she couldn’t believe that it was getting to this point. Groaning, she put a pillow on her face and screamed as loud as she could into it.
“Why am I so fucking crazy?!”
The pillow was thrown to the floor as Pomni turned to her side. She knew she could talk to Kinger about these feelings if she wanted to, but the idea of getting the words out of her mouth made her want to vomit. Zooble and Gangle could help too, but something told Pomni it might be better to withhold this from them, at least for now. It would probably be better for everyone if she just kept this to herself, even though she wanted to take out her frustrations and forget these feelings were even real.
If Jax were here, she'd laugh in her face and tell her to hump a tree. Pomni grimaced at the thought and started to close her eyes as sleep overtook her.
The same dream that Pomni had been receiving came back to her mind as she was on Ragatha’s farm, playing with the sheep and horses. She would shamelessly look at Ragatha as the doll would bend over to feed the pigs. The outfit in this particular dream was a pair of ripped jeans and a pink-buttoned plaid shirt. Ragatha pulled her hair back as she adjusted her cowgirl hat and glanced at Pomni. A mischievous grin played on her face.
“You dream about me all the time but still can’t stop looking?”
Pomni didn’t say anything, but did allow herself to trail her eyes on Ragatha’s torso and legs. She was more toned than people would expect, with her calves stretching out the fabric of her jeans. She watched as Ragatha opened the first two buttons on her shirt, and immediately felt her breath hitch.
“It’s so hot outside,” Ragatha said, fanning herself as her bust rose up and down. Pomni could see the beads of sweat on her cleavage and felt a wave of heat through her body. She knew that she was staring and she didn’t care at all. Ragatha kept returning the eye contact as she took off the rest of her shirt and stood there in a flattering black tank top, which showed off her curves. She threw the shirt over her shoulder and stood up.
“Where are you going?” Pomni asked, seeing that Ragatha was heading towards a house behind the barn. She already knew the answer, as she had heard so many times before.
“To cool down, obviously.” Ragatha laughed. “You’re coming too, aren’t you?”
Ragatha entered the house as Pomni darted after her, where she heard the sound of the shower. This must have already been planned, as Pomni walked into the bathroom to see Ragatha was already there, her silhouette behind the glass with the rising heat. Pomni could see Ragatha move her arms up and down her frame, putting body wash anywhere she was able to.
“I’m here…” She said quietly.
She didn’t remember getting to this part of the dream before as she started taking off her clothes. She could hear Ragatha giggle from inside.
“Hurry up before the water turns cold!”
Pomni took her clothes and put them to the side as she moved the glass door to get inside. Ragatha pulled her in, enveloping Pomni with smells of lavender. The body wash clung to her skin, with traces running down her breasts to the shower floor. She smelled amazing. Ragatha lightly pushed Pomni to the wall of the shower as she ran a hand down her cheek.
“Don’t tell me you’re nervous. I thought you were more composed than this…”
Pomni couldn’t say anything. She only stammered as Ragatha’s fingers traced down her neck. Her eyes were locked on Ragatha’s lips. Ragatha put her hands on the side of Pomni’s face and began to lead in, bringing herself as close as she could. Pomni closed her eyes and leaded in herself, but the contact never came.
She opened her eyes and realized she was back in her bedroom. She could feel the slight dampness of sweat on the sheets beneath her as she sat up. She pulled her knees in and started at the end of the bed. That specific dream went on far longer than the previous ones did, and Pomni could feel her hardened nipples as a result. The heat she was familiar with was back between her legs, and she realized she was wet.
“Great.” She muttered.
She realized that even in her dreams, she would still be thinking of Ragatha, and there really didn’t seem to be any escape. Pomni wondered if she wanted there to be an escape at all. She wasn’t completely put off by these feelings. If anything, she was surprised, but out of everyone here, she didn’t necessarily mind if it was Ragatha. She was always warm and sweet with her, considering her feelings and making sure she was alright. There were also moments between them where Pomni could feel a small flutter in her chest, for which Pomni was not entirely sure why.
Faint knocking was heard from her door and a voice rang out to her from the other side. Pomni closed her eyes in frustration, and at her bad luck.
“Pomni? I just wanted to check on you. It’s been a few hours and we haven’t heard from you.”
Pomni sat up and bit her lip. She really wanted to stay silent so she could get herself together in peace, but she knew if she didn’t say anything that Ragatha would still check out of concern.
“You can come in if you want. I’m okay,” Pomni said. Ragatha cracked open the door and smiled before stepping in and closing it behind her. She noticed one of the pillows was on the floor and picked it up before sitting on the edge of Pomni’s bed. Even though she looked fine, the concern in her eye was unmistakable.
“I know what that looks means. Don’t worry, I’m alright.” Pomni laughed. Ragatha chucked under her breath at the response.
“Doesn’t hurt to check. I feel like the past few days we haven’t really spoken that much to each other, and earlier you looked pretty…out of it? I just wanted to let you know I’m here for you, if you need me.”
Pomni averted her gaze for a second. She pressed her legs together as she began recalling the dream and her overall feelings. She wondered about being honest with Ragatha, mostly because she knew that Ragatha would catch a lie the second it came from her mouth, but also to not have the weight on her shoulders. The idea of her taking it badly though…Pomni knew she wouldn’t be able to handle that.
“You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.” Ragatha said.
“I’ve been having weird dreams, and weird thoughts.” Pomni said. She could see Ragatha’s face still, and sighed. “Nothing bad. I mean, I don’t think it’s bad. It’s just different compared to things I’ve dreamed about before. I’m not really sure what to do about it, or if I can do anything about it.”
Ragatha moved closer to Pomni and put a hand on her shoulder, which caused a chill to run down Pomni’s spine.
“Well, you’re going to need to give me more detail than that because with the way things have been going around here, weird dreams usually can lead to something that isn't ideal…”
“It’s more to do with my body.” Pomni said. “It’s not abstracting or anything.”
“I’d hope not.”
“I just think something is wrong with me!” Pomni laughed. “It’s like my body has a mind of its own.”
“Are you actually going to tell me the details? Plus, we both know there’s nothing wrong with you.”
Ragatha grinned as she squeezed Pomni’s shoulder and let go. Pomni bit her lip apprehensively. She knew there was a chance this could go very badly. She had no idea how to even start this conversation. There was a possibility that Ragatha could hate her until they eventually abstracted. She wanted to keep these thoughts bottled up as long as she could, even though she knew she was in too deep at this point.
“I feel like you might think differently of me if I tell you the truth.” Pomni whispered. Ragatha gave Pomni a skeptical look.
“You really think after all we’ve been through that I would think that?”
There were a few seconds of silence between them before Pomni clasped her hands together. She could see that Ragatha was giving her the space to discuss this openly.
“Have you ever had dreams about someone else…sexually?”
Ragatha paused for a few seconds, her eyes wide at the question. Pomni’s anxiety started to kick in full force and Ragatha could sense that, so she coughed into her hand and chuckled under her breath.
“Oh! Wow, what a question. Have I ever thought of someone that way? I mean sure, who hasn’t? It’s a normal experience for all -”
She was about to say humans and stopped herself, a blush striking up on her cheeks.
“Well, you know what I mean! Yes I have definitely had those dreams before, is what I was trying to say.”
“Really?” Pomni asked. She wasn’t sure why she was so surprised - it was like Ragatha said, it was a universal experience, but hearing it from Ragatha’s mouth still made Pomni’s body still.
“I mean, yeah. Is that…what you’re going through right now…about someone?” Ragatha asked.
Pomni nodded and felt her throat go dry.
“It’s been happening to me for a few days now. I never had these kinds of feelings when I first joined the circus but lately, it’s all I can think about. I know it probably makes me sound like a freak…”
“I don’t think that.” Ragatha said. “It’s a natural response, even as we are in the circus. There’s been times I’ve had similar dreams while I was here.” She laughed nervously. “It was only rough that we were restricted…on those things until recently. Not that I was trying anything, by the way!”
Pomni laughed. “I didn’t say you were.”
“Right! I was just trying to say it’s relatable.”
There was a moment of silence with slight awkwardness lingering in the air.
“So..”
“So…”
Ragatha bit her lip. “Was it Jax?”
“What? No!” Pomni retorted. “Jax and I were close of course and I do miss her but I don’t see her that way. I didn’t really think I felt that way about anyone, honestly. I guess, until recently. I think for me…I’m not sure if some of the connections I feel are romantic? A part of me thinks I’ve never really felt anything like that before, but now…”
“That was probably a personal question to ask.” Ragatha said. “I’m sorry for bringing it up.”
Pomni shook her head. “It’s okay, I understand where you’re coming from.”
The silence returned. Pomni could have sworn she saw a hint of relief in Ragatha’s eye at her answer, but didn’t think about it too much. '
Ragatha looked at Pomni as her cheeks began to flush as the realization became clear.
“Oh!”
Pomni gritted her teeth. A part of her wanted to abstract on the spot, and she gripped her hands on the bed.
“I know it’s probably super weird to you. I understand if you don’t want to talk to me or see me for a while.”
“H-huh?” Ragatha started laughing. “Pomni, when would I ever not want to talk to you or see you?”
Pomni felt a hand on top of her own, squeezing it lightly.
“I did say after all I had similar dreams…”
Pomni turned her head to reply but instead she felt something soft and unbelievably warm on her lips. Another hand was pressed to her cheek, caressing it gently as Ragatha’s lips moved slowly. Pomni leaned in fully and closed her eyes as she deepened the kiss. Her lips were as soft as she had imagined, even more so compared to how they looked in her dreams. Her mouth tasted like cream and butterscotch, and her hair was pressed against Pomni’s face, the smells of cotton engulfing her.
Ragatha began to move away, almost in an attempt to catch herself before going too deep, but Pomni stopped her and pulled her back in.
Before Pomni could begin to register what was going on, she felt herself being lowered on the bed, Ragatha following her. Ragatha’s gaze locked with Pomni’s, and Pomni nodded in agreement before Ragatha kissed her again. This kiss was even more intense compared to before, as Ragatha pressed her body against Pomni’s frame. Pomni moaned, feeling Ragatha place one of her legs between her own.
Ragatha moved her mouth down to Pomni’s neck, biting once and soothing it with her tongue. She sucked on the skin, as Pomni cried out when Ragatha’s leg and knee pressed against her clit.
“Please tell me if we should stop.” Ragatha breathed, pressing further in with her knee. “You need to tell me now otherwise I…I don’t know if I can…”
“Please keep going.” Pomni begged, feeling the friction with her shorts. She was unbelievably wet now, with her legs shaking from the pleasure. Ragatha leaned down to kiss her again, long and slow, as she began moving her knee up and down against her clit even harder. Pomni cried, her hands grasping at the back of Ragatha’s dress, tears at the corners of her eyes.
It was one of the most pleasurable things Pomni had felt in her life. She wished she could save this feeling for as long as she was able to.
“Oh my God…” Pomni gasped, Ragatha grinning with the praise. She could sense that Pomni was going to orgasm, and went faster as she heard Pomni’s cries echo the walls. Her knee continued to move against her clit as both of them continued to be undone.
“You’re so beautiful,” Ragatha moaned, feeling her own body get more wet and turned on the more she saw Pomni squirm underneath her.
As the orgasm approached, Pomni bit her lip and let out a loud moan before wrapping her arms around Ragatha’s waist and pulling her underneath her. Ragatha’s eyes widened at the sudden change but closed again when Pomni leamed down and kissed her deeply. Pomni leaned back and started to take off her gloves. She was very grateful that Caine allowed them to move around their clothes once he returned back to the circus, especially in this circumstance. Pomni moved her thumb to Ragatha’s mouth, where she eagerly sucked it in her mouth.
“Good girl.” Pomni said, her voice husky and drained from the noises she made earlier. Ragatha twitched underneath her, and Pomni made a mental note of that reaction.
Pomni started kissing down Ragatha’s neck, her hands working on helping her with the dress. Pushing up the dress, Pomni found Ragatha’s breasts and lightly grabbed one in her hand. Ragatha gasped, whining as Pomni placed her mouth on the hardened nipple. She sucked lightly as Ragatha grabbed her shoulder and cried out.
“Pomni!”
“Feels good?” Pomni asked, seeing Ragatha nod her head so much it could have popped off. She continued pressing kisses to her breasts, as her hand went under Ragatha’s dress. Ragatha gasped, feeling her underwear being shifted to the side. Pomni moved down and used her fingers and teeth to move the fabric away, where Ragatha was dripping wet. Her legs were pushed apart and Ragatha gasped as Pomni put her mouth and tongue on her clit.
Pomni wasn’t sure if she ever heard Ragatha yell that loudly before since she met her. She leaned in more and began sucking on her clit, with two of her fingers moving to Ragatha’s mouth to be sucked on. She complied, and Pomni brought those fingers back to touch her entrance. Her tongue continued to work on Ragatha’s clit while her fingers moved in and out. She went faster as Ragatha cried more, seeing the tears at the edges of her eyes.
“I’m coming…!” Ragatha whimpered and Pomni nodded, letting her fingers go even faster to bring her to climax. Ragatha pulled her head back and moaned, which caused Pomni to feel the heat between her legs intensify. As Ragatha climaxed, Pomni did as well, and they both laid against each other as they came down.
There was a brief moment of silence as their breathing regulated. Pomni pushed some hair out of Ragatha’s face before she leaned in and kissed her again, as she helped her fix her dress.
“I’m wondering if anyone heard how loud I was,” Ragatha whispered. Pomni laughed in response as she was laying next to her.
“Definitely…but they also heard me too.”
Ragatha’s face flushed and she put her hands over her face. They talked more, hands intertwined together as time passed.
“I thought you always knew I liked you.” Ragatha chuckled. “I didn’t actually think this would happen one day.”
Pomni laid there in shock for a few seconds before smiling and kissing Ragatha again. Her thumb brushed Ragatha’s cheek tenderly.
“I really had no idea, but…I’m glad to have found out now.”
Ragatha beamed, right before she found Pomni making her way on top of her again with a smirk on her face.
“And now…we have all the time to make up for it.”
As the two of them continued to giggle and bask in their happiness, a certain pair walked in the hallway past Pomni’s room. The smiling mask lets out a gasp.
“Wait! Are they..?”
“About time they got together.” The triangle beamed, putting their arm around the mask and pulling them in close. “And Caine owes me a hundred bucks now.”
“...you actually bet money for this? Where we can’t use money?”
“Let me enjoy my victory.”