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My bounty is as boundless as the sea,
my love as deep.
The more I give to thee, the more I have,
for both are infinite. -Juliet, in Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet
Yuuri presses his eyes shut.
“Okay. Okay, I can do this.”
Viktor watches him quizzically.
“What is it, Yuuri? You look like you are trying to lay an egg or something.”
They are standing in the doorway of Yuuri’s bedroom. It’s 10pm, and they are home after practice and a dinner at Nagahama Ramen. Viktor has been lingering, as he often does in the evening, not quite willing yet to leave Yuuri’s side and go back to his own room. And with the start of the next season tomorrow, Yuuri has made up his mind. It’s time to do this. Their relationship is changing, rapid and thrillingly, like a dancer on the ice, and Yuuri is rapt in it, with no time to catch his breath. He is not the same man he was when Viktor first appeared at Hasetsu, they are not the same men they were even yesterday. Every day, Viktor’s touch on his waist, his arm, his thigh, guiding his body, starts to feel more and more familiar, more and more like a part of himself.
“It’s…” Yuuri looks down, a blush starting in his cheeks. “Why don’t you stay here tonight, Viktor?”
He risks a glance upward, and sees Viktor looking down at him through his thick blond lashes, his expression still thoughtful. “Alright,” he says after a moment.
Yuuri nods, and taking hold of the front of Viktor’s shirt, tugs him forward and reaches around to close the door behind him.
“Yuuri…” Viktor says, with concern in his voice, “is there something that is wrong?”
“No…” Yuuri shakes his head, his hand still gripping the front of Viktor’s shirt and his face still lowered to the floor. “No, nothing’s wrong at all, Viktor. It’s just that…before this season starts, there’s something I want to do.”
“What is it?”
Yuuri closes his eyes and throws caution to the winds. He’s going to feel humiliated about this later, but he can worry about that later. “I want to lose my virginity, Viktor. And I want to lose it with you.”